#took about a week but yeaa

[lacebird]

ADAM DRIVER as COMMANDER MILLS 65 (2023) | dir. Scott Beck & Bryan Woods

for @itsladyliv ♡

[askthesawyers]

Carter’s heart swelled at the sight of Nubbins’ smile, the way it lit up his face and momentarily chased away any trace of hesitation. Seeing those teeth against the backdrop of the barn made Carter feel a warm rush of affection.

“See? There’s that smile I love,” he said, returning the grin with one of his own. It was contagious, and he felt lighter just by looking at Nubbins. “You’re doing just fine, Critter. Really. Just being here with me is all that matters.”

He released one of Nubbins’ hands to gently cup his cheek, his thumb brushing against his birthmark, feeling the warmth beneath.

"It means the world to me that you took me out here, Nubbins"

With that said, he stood on his tiptoes ever so slightly to press a kiss against the other's lips, really cementing how he felt.

"now cmon, I've got so much to show ya!"

- 🐥

*He calmly smiled and nods* "yea yeaa, lets get to that sight seein' that!!" *He tried to sound as excited as he could to hide how nervous he was about being in a completely new location. he loved Carter so much and wanted him to show off his life just as he did. Drayton was use to Nubbins disappearing for weeks sometimes so he wasn't in much of a rush to be back home*

[never-not-ever]

The vibes today are not good and ironically the shirt that I'm wearing says good vibes.

This would have been a nice photo but he's all burry cause he kept moving.

I think I went to bed around 3, maybe 4am I can't remember. Lately when I start to get tired instead of taking my night meds and shutting the light off, I let myself doze off with the tv and lights still on. It's hard to explain but it's calming in a way.

I woke up around noon and went out with my Nana for her errands. She brought some stuff up to my cousin in NH and I did the driving. She can drive up there but she's been doing a lot lately so she asked and of course I said yes. Plus anytime we go out, near or far I always drive. The safer and faster alternative.

On the way back we stopped at Trader Joe's and I picked up my tried and trues: jumeokbap-legit obsessed right now. It's these little triangle fried rice balls that have beef-less bulgogi that tastes so much like the real thing! Also got their butternut squash raviolis which I've loved for years. A couple things I got to try are their frozen chana masala, garlic naan, and everything and the elote dip. They have the best frozen food and my freezer is full. I'm also hooked on their meatless "orange" chicken, it's like crack!

Anyways so now it's 5ish and it looks like the sun is trying to come out and I'm not about that. Driving home it was cloudy and wonderful and now I'm just not feeling the sunshine. Not that it matters cause I'm indoors and planning on staying indoors for the rest of the night and all day tomorrow too. Unless I go for my typical late night drive later...

I think I might try to take a nap since I'm planning on staying up late tonight and I'd honestly like to have some wine and escape for a little while. I also need to do some laundry...

Annnnd need to do my nails too. I took off the gel, actually anxiously pulled it off instead of soaking them like I've been doing and my nails are so thin and damaged. So I'm going back to my nail strips and I'm excited cause I found the red and black ombre that I did a few weeks ago and that's probably my favorite set of theirs.

All the boys are snoozing so yeaa definitely time to join them!

[orieriee]

One Piece Highschool AU! Part 3

Author's note: This is a continuation of this, here's the series masterlist. I was going to make this a long series but considering how busy I am irl because of my studies and all, I decided to make this into headcanons with the plot instead. Enjoy! Also yes, this is fluff.

Ok I haven't updated for so long so here's a super quick recap

You're currently in the preparation for a science competition with Law and Chopper, representing One Piece Highschool

Now for the relationship progress, Ace now realized that he has feelings for you but you don't know

You are slowly crushing on Law but we still don't know Law's real feelings yet :/

Ok. So. The competition day!! It's finally here!

I won't go to the details but I actually wrote this as like an arc of this universe 😭

It's basically like attending a science fair and see who did the best job/research

And since the science fair took place in another city, since it's a national scale competition, you get to leave school to attend the competition for a week

So Ace was left alone while you get to spend time with Law (and Chopper)

So how did the relationship progress?

I won't go to the science fair competition arc but there's a major interaction between you and Law that will further develop your relationship

So you, in this story have a sort of trauma of competing in a competition

Basically people bullied you and accuse you for cheating in a competition back in the past, so u got traumatized (like it was REALLY traumatizing like people sending d3ath threats, this is an exaggeration but for the sake of the story,, yea)

In this competition u get to stay in an inn(?) like in haikyuu where they get to stay for practice yknow😭

So it was one day before the competition, you were gone for the day when your team + Marco (who was there as your mentor) were going to discuss about the presentation and all

So they searched for you and not until night around 6 that Law found you in the city squares

Law was probably pissed off but also confused as to why you would do that, cause you're not the type to suddenly ditch a competition that you've been working hard for

You guys sat down on a bench, talk it out

"I always thought I might be bad now I'm sure that's it's true cause I think you're so good and I'm nothing like you" type of vibe going down

The lyrics sum it up, how you thought you're a c0ward for running away when there's Law who's so perfect and smart and brave for a w1mp like you

Basically you had a mental breakdown and told him about the traumatic experience

He stayed silent and listened to you the whole time, lending his ears and trying to understand you

"Sorry you must've think that I'm miserable and overreacting to it"

At first he hesitated to say something but then he told you, the childhood trauma he had when he was 12 (sort of like the whole amberlead chaos in one piece)

He said it's ok and that he understands if you don't want to continue, he'll tell Marco that you're feeling unwell

He's not the best with words, but hearing that comforted you and you smiled a little

"Yeah, I guess I do admire you more than being jealous of you" he truly is admirable from your perspective

That night he thought about your last sentence before going to sleep (not that he can since the competition keeps him up)

Yeaa and then that's all for the arc, your team won in the end tho :D

Back to our first lead Ace

This happened after you guys got back from the competition

Ace gets clingier to you than ever

He's still in a blushing mess though once he realized he has been hugging you more than before

But not to the point you're uncomfortable or anything, you treat him like a baby brother so you don't mind

But Sabo has been eye👀ing you the whole time, he's like "take the hint yo🗣️"

Y/N may be smart 🥰 but they dumb as hell when it comes to taking hints

Because they're too focused on Law

Ever since the competition ended, you haven't really talked to him since you both aren't in the same class

And you haven't been able to visit the library because you promised your friends to hang out

So one day you went out with Koala, Ace and Sabo to the cinema

Ace was super nervous because now it's suddenly like a double date for him

Pls, this man is all sweaty palm, nervous glances, checking his hair "Sabo, is my hair ok?" "Ace, it's not even a date"

But what shattered Ace's heart after that was when you check your phone because there was a text notification and your expression changed

"Who's that?" "Law, you know, from the next class"

"Ooh~ someone's in love" Koala just knew that kind of look, that kind of expression you have on your face when your crush texts you

Sabo made an "Oop-" face and Ace just stood there with a blank face 🙁

He quickly changed it and act all happy and all but deep down he's hurt

Heart has been broken so many times, I just wish things would get better🙃

Might have 5 parts so I'll finish 2 more parts, the story is so slow burn but hey at least there's more drama ig 🤥

[roxyfoxgamer150]

Angst ask, :) (sorry this took long I'm busy with school since it's exam week, but I'm doing my best :D )

(So.. I'm not that good at writing angst so forgive me if it's bad and this will also include the song "Somewhere only we know" Because this ask was inspired by that so Yeaa, also hope you make this into a fic, because this is just a summary of it 😅)

Observer and Scrap were fighting a bunch of raiders, they got seperated because of how many there were. After the fight Observer looks around to find scrap, only finding her laying on the floor, she also realized that there was a lot of blood surrounding her. Observer took a look at Scrap and froze, scrap had been stabbed straight to the chest, now there was a big open wound that was cause of the bloodloss, she was also coughing up blood which was not a good sign. Observer picks up scrap in her arms and quickly tries to create a portal, but was stopped when scrap suddenly spoke "You know.. there's no point right? , a wound like this.. can't be healed, with any arepa" She chuckled weakly, her voice was raspy and weak "Shut it scrap, I'm literally trying to save your life right now" She was about to try again, but again she was stopped, scrap was singing a song that they both knew, this was a song that was introduced to them by Modern! Mirabel and a song that was a special and comforting song for both of them "I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin" she coughed up a bit of blood " And if you have a minute why don't we go?... Talk about it somewhere only we know? " Her voice was becoming quieter and she was now coughing up more blood, "This could be the end of everything? " Observer knew that it was already to late, " So, why don't we go?.. Somewhere only we know" Observer failed... Again " somewhere only we know" "Can we go there observer?... I want to... see the sunset" Scrap was getting weaker and weaker, her voice was becoming more of a whisper "Sure, let's go" Observer created a portal to that place. It was a hill with a large tree, this is were Observer and Scrap would go when they were kids, this was there safe place, it was peaceful and had an amazing view of the forest and mountains in the background, they would sometimes roll over this hill and play in the big and wide grass, they had fond memories here. Sitting down in the tree, still holding scrap, they both look at the sunset " It's still beautiful, like before" Observer nodded but was quite "Hey, observer... wake me up... when dinners... ready" Observer felt scrap finally go limp in her arms, scrap was gone, but why? Why couldn't she let go of scrap? She knows and accepted death a long time ago, she knows how to move on quick if someone dies, then why? Why was she crying? Why does it hurt so much? Why... Why is it so painful?

Plot twist: Observer woke up.

(Observer woke up in cold sweat, she quickly realized that she had tears in her eyes so she quickly wiped them off. She was silent for a moment, then realized that something was clinging to her arm. It was scrap, she was hugging her like she was a damn pillow, usually Observer would try to get her off of her as fast as possible because she doesn't like hugs or any physical touch but she decided to just stay, it was just a nightmare... she sighed with relief, but that nightmare, why did it hurt so much when she lost scrap? Did she get attached again? What if that actually happen? She didn't want to think about these questions, so she just decided to forget about it, scrap was here and she was fine, thats all that matters right now, that her sibling (hermanita) was alive)

(I swear I didn't mean to write this much and also I like to imagine that sometimes Observer! Mirabel likes to think as scrap as her little sister because she was a bit taller than her, and I'm sorry if my writing of this angst is bad, and some of the plotpoints didn't make any sense at all, I'm just very very tired, you cand add your own twist into it, and yes this is a summary, so I'm kinda hoping you make this into a fic pls do :D, but that's it for now lexdrigo out (☞ ᐛ )☞ )

(ps: please don't think I ship observer and scrap, they have more of a a sibling/platonic relationship and if you ship them romantically, some things wrong with you （-""-；) )

"Stay for a friend, will you?" "I can't promise that Scrap." "You always do."

"SCRAP WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU!?" Observer Mirabel yelled through the battlefield, furiously searching for her friend.

'Damn it, why did the raiders even have two grenades? That's a fucking advantage for me!' She thought, she looks around trying to find Scrap.

She hears a cough and looks down, an eyebrow raised. "Really? Again? This is why I told you to leave this place so you could survive." She crouches down and lifts Scrappy Mirabel, who had a stab wound on her che-

She has a stab wound on her chest.

"Shitshitshitshit-" Observer Mirabel quickly tries to create a portal, "You know.. there's no point right? A wound like this-" "can't be healed by an arepa, I know that Scrap, now shut up talking or you'll make your blood dry up, making you have more difficulty breathing." She cut of Scrap's sentence, she knows that she'll die but really? Talking to her and saying that there's no point?

'At least try to be the optimistic bitch you are, dumbass.'

She was stopped when she heard the song both of them knew, Modern thought them that.

"I'm getting tired I need somewhere to begin" Scrappy Mirabel coughed up blood, Observer was still carrying her.

"And if you have a minute why don't we go..?" She kept singing, Observer knew what she would say afterwards, 'Alright, if she wants to sing as her last thing, I'll let her.' She thought in a bored voice.

"Talk about it somewhere only we know?" Observer sang, although she tried to have the expression of boredom so Scrap could keep singing so she could know if she's still alive.

"..This could be the end of everything." Observer saw Scrap fighting to stay awake, she summoned a portal infront of them, and walked in.

"So why don't we go? Somewhere only we know.." Scrap's voice was becoming more and more quiet by the second, Observer walked faster.

Observer could already hear her friends breathing slowing down. 'That's not good, pick up the pace idiot.' She walked faster but not quick enough to make Scrap lose more blood.

"Hey- Observer? Can we go see the sunse-" "Shut the fuck up we're already here now stop making me almost cry." Scrap snickered, although it sounded like a heavy wheeze.

Both looked forward, seeing a hill with a large tree on the center of it.

'Hm, we used to play here before everything went to shit when I met the damn Observer Madrigals.' Observer thought.

She sat under the tree, placing Scrappy Mirabel beside her, who grunted when she felt the pain. "Sorry." Scrap made a thumbs up.

Both stayed silent, "Hey, the place is still beautiful.. even after months.." "Years." "I mean years-" Observer sighed, as much as Scrap is dying and both of them don't even care, she needs to at least make her have a best minute. She noticed that Scrap's voice was becoming lesser than a wisper, barely audible.

"Hey- Observer..?" Observer Mirabel looks at her, eyes showing no emotions but anger. Anger that her only friend after Mirabel is also dying, is she bad luck?

"Wake.. me up when.. dinner's ready." Observer's eyes widened, she looks beside her.

Scrappy Mirabel went limp.

Silence, she could feel that her tears that she held back was finally dropping.

But her breath didn't hitch, she didn't shake, she was just crying silently.

Everything was silent. The trees,the grass, the birds, everything.

"..."

She woke up.

[raccoonbatz]

prom queen Eddie Munson x F!Reader -

Summary: Y/N writes a song about how she feels and want to peforms it with her band at the talent show but first she lets her friends hear.

Warnings: weed, fluff?

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Y/n and her band-members had been practising for months in her garage. The talentshow was next week and the reason they were practising so hard was because there was a cash prize involved, $1000 to be exact. They could really use that money for new equipment.

Y/n was now sitting with her friends in her garage. She really needed this break from practising all day and night. She sighed as she plopped down on the small couch which was standing in the corner of the garage and opened a coke.

"We haven't been hanging out like this for weeks" Steve said as he took a seat next to y/n

"Yea iknow, I've been just so busy with the talentshow-" Y/n said as she took a sip of her coke.

"Yeah, me too. Corroded Coffin is going to kick your ass tho." Eddie said as he was admiring y/n's electric guitar.

"Yeah, you wish Munson." Y/n snickered

"Corroded Coffin isn't the only thing you're busy with tho-" Robin said as she sat down behind the drums, just playing around.

"Robin, I swear to god-" Eddie said annoyed

"Wait what?" Y/n asked confused and Robin chuckled.

"He's been hanging out with the blonde cheerleader queen" Robin said while Steve was just suprised.

"Her name is Chrissy, thankyou Robin- And yeah, but just casually tho nothing serious. She's still with Jason you know-" Eddie said as he took Y/n's guitar and softly strummed.

"And I don't even like her that way!" He added.

"Yea right." Robin said as she leaned backwards.

Steve was now looking at Y/n, who was just looking at her feet with the almost empty coke bottle dangling between her fingers. He was the only one that knew about her big crush on Eddie. He softly bumped her shoulder, causing her to look up. Steve gave her a soft smile and she gave him one back.

"So you've held her pom poms yet?" Steve joked to lighten the mood and Y/n spit out her last sip.

"Ha, ha. Very funny Steve." Eddie said and rolled his eyes. They all chuckled except for Eddie. He was still playing around with the electric guitar.

"Y/n, what are you guys going to play anyways?" Eddie asked and now looked up from the guitar towards y/n

"Uh, it's a song I wrote a few months back." She said and sat up.

"Can you play it for us?" Eddie asked and handed her the electric guitar.

"Yea! We haven't even heard it yet and you're practising it for months already!" Robin said and Steve nodded

"Only if you want to, ofcourse." Steve added and smiled.

"Hmm.." Y/n looked around. "Why not-"

"Yeaa!!" Eddie said enthusiastic. Y/n stood up and Eddie took her seat.

Y/n quickly tuned her guitar just right and took her guitar pick out of her back pocket. She softly scraped her throat.

"Shut up, count your calories" She started.

"I never looked good in mom jeans" She soflty sang

"Wish I was like you Blue-eyed blondie, perfect body" she sang a bit uneased.

Steve looked up, immediatly knowing who she meant. He gave a quick look at Eddie, who just sat there in awe. Which made Steve smile a bit.

"Maybe I should try harder You should lower your expectations" She sang.

Eddie always thought her voice was one of the most prettiest things he had ever heard but ofcourse he would never admit it.

"I'm no quick-curl barbie I was never cut out for prom queen"

"If I get more pretty Do you think he will like me?" She sang and shot a quick glance at Eddie. Eddie noticed her glance and started to blush a bit, which Robin noticed.

Y/n sang the rest of the song perfectly and then stopped.

"It still needs a bit more practise but-"

"Are you crazy?? It's amazing!" Robin said and Steve nodded.

"Yeah! You're definitley going to win" Steve added.

"Yeah, it's going to be hard to compete to that-" Eddie said and Y/n was a bit flustered.

"Thanks guys" She said as she placed her guitar back down.

They all hang out a bit more and then it was time for everyone to go home since it was already 2 am.

"Well, it was a very nice evening." Steve said and Robin nodded.

"Yea, we should do this more often!" Robin joked and they all laughed.

"Yeah, I missed u guys." Y/n said and Eddie agreed.

"Well, I'm going to bring Robin home, talk to you guys later" Steve said as he took off with Robin. Which left Y/n alone with Eddie.

"I'm so going to kick your ass next week." Y/n said and Eddie chuckled.

"Yea yeah- in your dreams." He said as they both sat down on the couch.

Eddie started rolling the joint. It was kinda like a routine. Steve and Robin would go home and Eddie would stay to share a joint with Y/n.

Y/n was a bit nervous. I mean, she was always kinda nervous when she was around Eddie but she was very good in hiding it. But after her playing the song it was more obvious then usual. Eddie on the other hand was also a bit nervous, which was a new thing.

"Yea, it's a great song. Where did the inspiration come from?" He smirked and asked Y/n, who just went a bit quiet. Eddie obviously knew.

"Is it that obvious?" Y/n asked and Eddie chuckled.

"A little bit." He said and Y/n turned bright red. Eddie chuckled.

"I-" Y/n tried to say something but Eddie interupted her.

"Y/n, you know that I don't like Chrissy right?" He said and Y/n just stayed quiet.

"There is this other girl tho- She is the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. She is a great cook, a great listener," Eddie continued and Y/n just looked down at her feet again.

"She is great, no AMAZING at the guitar-" Y/n looked up and her eyes lit up.

"And we have this cool routine thing. If our other friends leave-" He said and took a hit of his joint.

"We always smoke a joint together." He finished and passed the joint to Y/n. She chuckled and took a hit.

"She sounds great." She said and he chuckled.

"She is the best." He said and they both smiled.

"Look, Y/n. It was never my intensions to be anything more then friends with Chrissy. She just has a shitty boyfriend which she has to rants about to someone. And I hate the guy with all of my guts so 1 + 1 = 2. It makes great conversation by the way-" He said and the both chuckled.

He sat a bit closer to Y/n, brushing his arm against hers.

"You're the only person I like in that way. But I never said anything because I didn't know if you felt the same way. And our friendship meant alot to me so I didn't wanna ruin that." He said and sighed.

Y/n cupped his face between her soft hands and smiled.

"I wish you would've told me sooner so I could've done this sooner" She said and placed her lips onto his. He sneaked his arms around her waist and pulled her closer. They kissed eachother until they were out of breath and then let go. They looked into eachothers eyes with passion and love.

"I've waited so so so long for that." Eddie said and Y/n rolled her eyes playfully.

"You're an amazing kisser, by the way-" He added.

"I think we should practise more-" Y/n said jokingly and Eddie chuckled.

"Yea yea- let's practise some more."

[avungerthatgotaway]

Imagine Avengers finding out that you have a boyfriend

Heyy guys! I made another fanfic, Avengers fining out you have a boyfriend. This one is gonna be about Steve and Bucky the most, others will be just mentioned. Soo for a boyfriend I took one of my current celebrity crushes Jake Bongiovi. I don't think yall lnow him sooo that's why pictures are here. First 2 are of Jake. Things to know are that he's 16 in the story timeline and he's amazing at football. 3rd picture is of band Bon Jovi. Picc is from 80s and I put it here so you understand the plot. Jake's dad is Jon Bon Jovi, he's the middle one. And last picture is of Jon Bon Jovi how he looks now. Sooo this is taking place in 2018 (because of Bon Jovi plot) but I'm not following the Avengers time line. And Jake is originally living in New Jersey, but I had to change it to New York. Hope you enjoy, if you have any advice feel free to write it. And also requests are opened xx

Warnings: none

Genre: I'm not good at deciding this but let's say it's a little drama romance and funny (at least I hope so)

I own nothing except the plot

*and alsooo before I get started, I saw u guys writing a wordcount, but it never shows me when I write ficc so yeaa... any help?😂

You don't know how you ended up kissing Jake, in front of avengers tower, but it happened. He was an incredible guy, you had feelings for him for quite some time now. But you wouldn't admit it. Apparently he had feelings for you too...

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It all started few months ago, when Tony asked you to go with him to Bon Jovi's Rock and Roll Hall of Fame inducting. A big fan of rock music you are, you said yes right away. It was amazing! So exciting! And Tony as Tony had some backstage passes, because he just HAD to meet the band. You trailed behind him backstage, and told him you're gonna get yourself a drink. You poured some apple juice in your cup, when suddenly you bumped into someone. It was a gorgerous boy, he couldn't be much older than you. The problem was that he held his phone in one hand, and you had a cup of juice in yours, so somehow his phone ended up in your juice now...

Finally he looked down at you. "Ohh I'm so sorry" he said. You were shocked. His phone is basically dead now, and he apologises. It wasn't even his fault. It was soo different than guys you're used to. "Ohh no, it's my fault, I'm sorry. And your phone is dead now sorry." "No need to apologise, I should've watched where I was going. And never mind for the phone. What's your name?" he asked. "It's Y/N." "It's a beautiful name. I'm Jake, nice to meet you." ...

And that's where you guys clicked. You exchanged phone numbers, and started texting each other. Soon you found out that Jake is living in New York, as you. It didn't take him long to ask you out. You went out as friends at least once a week.

-

Today was different tho. He was acting a little weird, even nervous. When he walked you to Avengers tower, he became even more nervous. "Wait Y/N, I gotta something to tell you first uhmm..." "Huh? What is it?" "Well, I uhmm.. I- " "Jake what's goi-" and that's all you got to say, because in next moment you felt his lips on yours. It was the best feeling ever. When you parted, he said "I love you Y/N. I know it's too soon, but I've had this feelings for a long time." "I love you too Jake." you simply replied, and hugged him.

What you didn't know is that 2 best friends avengers were watching you from a window, plotting Jakes death, how dare he kisses you!?!?"

-

You said your goodbyes to Jake, and went to tower. You wanted to call your friend and tell what happened AsAp. But, you had to be careful, avengers can't hear you. Especially Steve and Bucky.

-

You became an avenger when Steve showed up in your doorstep telling you to help him with something in Germany. You had water powers, so your family didn't like you. When everything ended, Steve and Tony stopped arguing. Steve offered you to stay with them, and you accepted. Sice then, avengers were like a family to you. Steve and Bucky were like brothers. 2 best friends since childhood, and two of them mostly watched over you. They were always there for you, but they were protective. You couldn't imagine what poor Jake would go through if they found out about you.

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As soon as you came in, you've heard someone clearing throat behind you. "Bucky we said we don't need dramatic coughs!" You reckognised vioce as Steves. "It's called leaving an impression Steve". You turned around, and saw Bucky rolling his eyes at Steve. But Steve was wasting no time "Who is that boy you just kissed Y/N? Why are you even kissing someone, you are just 16!" You decided to tell the truth, I mean if they saw you kissing, there's not much left to say. "Well, he is my boyfuhwhwu-" your response got muffled by Buckys hand. "Don't even say that word out loud. You are totally not allowed to have a boyfriend" Bucky said. "Whaat? How can you forbid me to have a boyfriend?!?? You can't do it." "Well, seems like I just did. No boyfriend until you get married" Buck replied. "No no no" Steve said "she'll need to date a guy before they get married. What if he's an idiot? He's totally gonna be an idiot. So maybe it's better of she doesn't date at all." "I agree. We need to set an age restriction to dating. What do you think is optimal?" Bucky asked. "Well, you know 37 isn't that bad. But if we're already that close, let's say 40, so it's easier to remember." "40 is okay for me. Than it's setteled. 40 it is."

"HEEEY I'M HERE IF YOU DIDN'T NOTICE!!" you yelled.

"Well it's your lucky day Y/N! You have to wait only 24 years more to date!" Bucky exclaimed.

You tried arguing with guys some more, but ut didn't work out well. You ended up in you room, still kinda angry when you got a text from Jake:

"Hey Captain America just left my room. He threatened he'll kill me if I continiue dating you, uhmm... I'm confused??"

[two-sides-halved]

@stcllafilivs | Continued

Gem Steven's mind was blank on what else what topic he wanted to cover, the memory that had paused due to Winter's inattention started playing a little louder to grab their attentions.

Human Steven gave out a sigh, then a mocking tone to himself, "Oh, Steven, it's so dangerous for you, a light breeze might send you into next week." Gem Steven chuckled, "Bro, I know you're upset about being told that you can't go on missions... But it really is for the best that you stay home... they aren't really that fun to go on, it's serious business." He said, picking up his lone bowl and spoon to wash them, as he turned he had knocked one of the cans toward Human Steven. "That's easy for you to say, you get to actually go on missions. The gems don't have to worry about you as much as they worry about me." Human Steven replied, pausing to pick up the can of creamed corn of the floor reading the label. There was a slight pause as he did the math in the air with his finger as if he was righting down the numbers. Gem Steven put the now cleaned spoon and dish into the dish rack to dry, before looking over at his brother seeing his eyes practically bugging out of his head. "Dude... are you ok?" Human Steven looked up at him with the most serious face his cute chubby face could muster, "Steven, do you realize how much fiber is in a can of creamed corn?" "Yea, the label says 6 grams... that's not a big deal." "It is a big deal..." He held the bridge of his nose before looking back, "You ate 6 cans of creamed corn..." "Yea, to get the discounted price for mini golf... where are you going with it?" "Steven, you're my brother, and I love you, but I need you to be serious with me right now... Are you not aware of how much fiber you just consumed in one sitting?" "Yea, 6 grams... we went over that?" He looked confused. "Steven, it's per can." "Huh?" "It's 6 grams of fiber, per can... you ate 6 cans worth of Col. Kernel's Classic Canned Creamed Corn. Please tell me it's starting to click." Gem Steven was looking at him confused. Human Steven took a deep breath, looking solely at the ground before looking up at him, "Ok, so 6 grams of fiber is equal to 24% of your daily value of fiber right?" "Yea..." He replied looking at one of the cans on the table. "And you ate 6 whole cans of it right?" "Yeaa..." He paused, "And that's a problem because??" Human Steven taking a deep breath, "It's a problem because you didn't just have 24% of your daily value, you had 114% of your daily fiber intake... do you realize the problem now??" "Steven, fiber's healthy, isn't it?" Human Steven looking at him, rubbing his hand down his face, "Steven, do you even KNOW what fiber does?" "... no, not really." "Fiber helps you stay regular... and with the amount of fiber you just ate in this one sitting, you're going to be in the bathroom more often then you would be out of it..." "Well I'm a gem, I'm sure it's not gonna be that bad." "Steven, if Amethyst is able to get food poisoning from a tuna burrito supreme that was 10 years out of date that she found in her room, I have no doubt in my mind that you're going to be visiting the bathroom more than you visited me at the hospital." "I think you might be overreacting just a bit." Gem Steven replied, not wanting to think about if that was an accurate prediction. "Even if I am, and nothing goes wrong, I'm not going risk fusing with you. So as long as you're gonna be spending unknown amounts of time in the bathroom because of this abhorrent amount of fiber, Steven Squared is benched until further notice." Gem Steven sighed, "Alriiiight, but I still think you're blowing it just a bit out of proportion." He replied, just as his stomach started giving out an ominous, perfectly times groan of distress, and the confidence had dropped from his face.

[nekowriteshaikyuu]

Temptation

it’s contagious to touch you, but it’s also tempting to do so.

pairing: Sakusa x reader

warnings: fluff (?)

summary: you love affection, but Sakusa doesn’t. For your sake, will he come out of his comfort zone?

a/n: so,,heard haikyuu is ending TT. i’m so sed i haven’t even finish reading the recent chapters so i’m slowly catching up. But anyways after like a 2 week hiatus, i’m back so weee. hope this one will make up for being gone for the past 2 weeks. enjoy !!

(っ◔◡◔)っ ♥ sakusa kiyoomi ♥

you and Sakusa have been dating for about 3 months now. Surprising, huh? considering he’s a clean freak. Despite that, you see through his habit as a really loving and understanding person. And you’ve always love him for that. But there is still one thing that has never change for these few months.

his fear of affection with you. You’re the captain of the soccer team, and every practice, there is never a time you’re covered in mud. You’re constantly running in the field, under the scotching hot sun or lightly drizzling rain. Both of your practices ends at the same time but Sakusa always finishes earlier to clean up and do his daily cleansing routine. By the time you’d change into some thin dri-fit shirt, he’s already squeaky clean from head to toe. Don’t get me wrong, Sakusa adore you, he loves you. He really do. But just by looking at you all sweaty, mud on your shirt and some on your legs, as well as your really chapped hands, he feels really uncomfortable. He basically gags and cringe over the sight of you all dirty and contaminated with germs.

This actually was an issue you both face. You’ve always love affection, and he knows that from the very start of your relationship . Forehead kisses, back hugs, cuddles when watching a movie, just thinking about it puts you on cloud nine. But Sakusa is never one to give you affection. Maybe some light hand caresses, but even that makes Sakusa pull out his hand sanitiser and spread it all over his hand. It does upset you on how cautious he is with his hygiene but it’s wrong for you to force him out of his comfort zone to satisfy your needs. So you just live with it. As time goes by, your constant yearning for affection slowly dies down. You just felt impatient waiting for the day to arrive. Sakusa noticed it as well. You began to be cautious with your hygiene around him. You’re at least arms length away from him everytime he waits for you during practice so he won’t feel grossed out, you’d scrub your body hard, making sure you felt like every bacteria just dies from the shampoo you applied, you’re always never touching shoulders when walking home together. 

Sakusa felt a slight guilt that you’d do all these small gestures so he’d feel comfortable around you. He felt like he’s not doing enough to make you happy. He did tried to hold your hand once, but soon pulled his back to his side after the thought that he’d be at risk if taking that step forward. 

As time flies, you’ve already picked up the habit. Arms length away, keep clean at all times, shoulder width apart. You don’t feel like the relationship is as lively as it used to be. It felt as if there’s a wall, blocking you away from Sakusa, forbidding you to touch him. 

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You sighed silently as you stare at the black board, chalk scribbles of math formulas across the board. You turned to your left and looked out the window, admiring the green grass growing in the soccer field. It’s been a week since you’ve been in the field. Your team finally graduated and it wasn’t compulsory to attend daily practices. You took this opportunity to rest and work on your studies, and just have moments with yourself to recollect your thoughts. As for Sakusa, he still attends training so you’d often wait for him in your class until he’s done to go home together.

It was after school and Sakusa left for training. You sat in your seat, watching the trees swayed from the wind. You yawned after staring back at your paper filled with black ink. You’ve been rewriting your english essay for a while now and you felt your hand ache. You decided to take a small nap, which turned into sleeping for a whole hour. 

Sakusa ended his practice and was obnoxiously exhausted. He was constantly passing the ball without break. He slowly got up from the bench and went to wash up. As he continue to do his daily cleansing, he noticed how you’re not replying his messages. Normally it’d take only seconds before you’d see his messages and reply. He even gave you a call but it wasn’t answered. He knew where you were waiting and immediately went to your class after cleaning up.

As he open the door, he was welcomed with you resting on your hand on the table, pen in your other hand. He slowly walks up to you and sat on the corner of the table beside yours. He envyed how you were able to rest peacefully while he was having difficulty keeping the ball constantly off the ground. He slowly admire your features. Your hair falling on your face, your eyes twitching and your light snores, He couldn’t help but smile under his mask. Unconsciously, his arm stretched out to tuck your hair that was covering your face behind your ears. He basically lost his breathe just watching you sound asleep. That small moment, he realised, how much he yearned for your touch. your hands weren’t chapped, but instead it was so smooth. Your shirt wasn’t covered in mud, but scented with your strong floral perfume, For once, he just had the temptation to pull you closer to him, and rest at the crook of your neck and take the moment to ease down after a tiring practice

You slowly woke up when you felt someone beside you. You slowly got up before making eye contact with your boyfriend who was silent for a while. 

“how long have you been here?” you asked with a groggy voice. He took a deep breathe, exhaled hard, and looked back at you before speaking.

“shouldn’t you have gone home if you’re tired? it’s not necessary for you to wait.” you slowly stood up , your hands up your head as you stretch from your nap.

“it’s okay, i had some work to do anyways” you struggled to reply as you continue to stretch. To you, it was nothing. But to Sakusa, it was like an opening.

Your waist wasn’t blocked by your hands, and it was just nice for Sakusa to pull you in his arms. The thought of it made Sakusa at ease. But he wants to experience as well aside from just imagining it. As you mindlessly stretch, twisting and looking out the window, you flinched as you felt a bold, firmed hand grabbed your waist, pulling you closer. Before you knew it, your boyfriend was settling into the crook of your neck. Just like how he wanted to for the longest time.

“o-omi?!” you’re practically panicking. The action was so sudden for you to process properly. You thought he did it out of force so you won’t feel sorry for him not giving you enough love. You tried pushing him away, but his grip tightened around your waist, giving you no way of escape. Sakusa slowly sinks in your touch, sighing under his mask. He could practically hear your heart beating faster than usual. So this was how it feels like to be touched, to be loved, with affection. For a moment, the thought of being contaminated and germs was washed out of his mind. All he was thinking about was how amazing it felt to hug you after so long of distancing from each other. (social distancing kidz)

You watch him as he rests onto you. You couldn’t help but smile, before placing a peck on the top of his head. You began to slowly play with his curls, feeling how soft and silky it is for the first time. You stood there silently as Sakusa takes the moment to wine down and ease up after an exhausting day.

“omi, we have to go home.” You said but he pulled you closer, sighing once more.

“just,,a few more minutes” He didn’t want this to end. He wants to hug you for as long as he can take it. But at last he soon let go after you lightly tapped his back. On the way home, he took the courage to hold your hand. You’ve never felt this happy. For a while, you’ve always been waiting for this moment to come, and it finally did.

You could see the invisible wall fade. Your shoulders were finally touching, hands intertwined with one another. You were so close to Sakusa you could rest your head on his shoulder.

“you’re gonna have to get used to this new habit of mine” Sakusa broke the silence. You looked up at him and noticed a hint of redness on his cheek, even with the mask on.

“hmm? what habit?” He turned away from you as he mumbled under his breathe, but you could hear clearly.

“...hugging you..” you just smiled before wrapping your arm around his.

“of course, omi~”

Well, let’s say that Sakusa is no longer fearing your touch no more. In fact, he yearns for it everytime now.

------ 𝕤𝕒𝕜𝕦𝕤𝕒 𝕜𝕚𝕪𝕠𝕠𝕞𝕚 ------

a/n: yeaa i kinda changed my layout and style so i hope it’s slightly better !! i’ll try to improve it as time goes by but this is not bad for now teehee. also feel free to send in requests, i’ll try to write them :) but yeaa hope you enjoyed it <3

[kay-diggle]

Experience

Summary: You're insecure about your sex life with your boyfriend and determined to prove yourself wrong, along with his reassurance. 

Pairing: Jimin x Female Reader

Genre & Rating: Smut, 18+

Warnings: oral (m. recieving). slight dom!jimin, sexual insecurities, somewhat jealousy, breast fondling, handjob, blowjob, foreplay basically (no intercourse)

Length: 2.6k

Notes: This took way longer to write than it should have and it's longer than it was meant to be (and lowkey trash) but I wanted to get it out as a THANK YOU FOR 700 FOLLOWERS!! You guys are the absolute bestests, so I hope you enjoy <3 {Requests are closed} {Like, my requests are REALLY closed so PLS PLS PLS don't send in any more thnxs :)}

Kay Diggle’s Masterlist 

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Your relationship with Jimin was very interesting. Having been friends for a few months before dating, you never expected to actually develop romantic feelings for him, and when you did, you immediately tried to shut them down before things got too serious. However, you quickly realized that you were no match for Jimin’s determination to get to what he wants, in this case, you. 

Once you gave in to your feelings, your friendship with Jimin blossomed into something much more meaningful, and you were both extremely happy with each other. He was the most caring and attentive boyfriend ever and you really appreciated it. 

Truthfully, he was your only experience with being in a serious relationship. Of course you’d had minor “flings” in the past, but nothing substantial, which made your relationship with Jimin even more special. He loved the fact that he was the only boy you’d ever taken seriously. You on the other hand couldn’t help feeling insecure. You weren’t his first girlfriend, first real relationship, first love, nothing. You were just a name on a list among others, and no matter how much you hated having that thought, you couldn’t help it. 

These feelings only intensified when a few months into your relationship, you had become more and more attracted to your boyfriend, and all you wanted to do was finally give your virginity to him despite his reluctance. The first big argument you’d had in your relationship had been because of your personal insecurities, not understanding why he’d slept with many girls before you but was so willfully refusing to just stick his dick in you. The fights over it went on for weeks until he finally did it, you assumed just so you’d shut up about it. 

But when your first time together did happen he made sure it was beautiful, something memorable for the both of you. He catered to your every need, doted on you the entire time and made sure it was everything you could’ve imagined your first time to be. It was perfect. So perfect that afterwards, you couldn’t help but wonder if he’d done the same with the girls who had come before you. Yeah you made him cum, but you wondered if it was a really good orgasm or if he’d had better with other people. And weeks later, after having done it two or three more times, you wondered if having sex with you could’ve made him miss the girls he had sex with before that were more experienced than you. Who knew how to better contribute to his pleasure. These thoughts never stopped, and you came to the conclusion that you had to prove yourself wrong, you just didn’t know how. 

You decided that you’d just have to take matters into your own hands, which is why you called Jimin over to “hang out,” but your true plans came to light when you couldn’t keep your hands off of him as soon as he walked through the door and took his shoes off. You pushed him against it and kissed him more fiercely than you’d ever done before, feeling all over his body and pulling off his jacket. He was confused, obviously, but went along with kissing you and feeling you up as well. You moaned when you felt his hands trail downwards, grabbing and squeezing your ass while his lips moved along your neck, pressing wet kisses and leaving tiny love bites. 

“What did I do to deserve such a greeting?” he teased, softly biting your ear. 

“Nothing, you’re just you… You deserve everything,” you kissed him. “I want to give you my everything.” 

His heart melted at your words, smiling down at you before reconnecting your lips with his. You felt him pull one of your thighs up to his waist and then the other, prompting you to jump up and wrap your legs around him. He walked through your apartment and into your bedroom, sitting down on the edge of the bed while you straddled him. You broke away from the kiss and began stripping off his shirt, looking down at him and taking in his blown out pupils, the way he was panting and biting his lips, all turning you on even more. But this wasn’t about you. Well, it is. It’s about you, about how you felt, but everything was for him. 

You kissed all over his neck, leaving tiny love bites in your wake before using your teeth to slightly pull at his earlobe. Unbeknownst to you, Jimin was turned on beyond belief. He was eager to feel himself inside of you, and you felt his grip on your waist tighten, indicating that he was getting ready to take over. But you couldn’t have that, so you pushed his hands off of you, his lips quickly leaving yours to make sure he hadn’t hurt you. 

“I’m fine, I just…” you trailed off, looking away from him and nervously biting your lips. 

“Baby,” he lightly moved your chin to redirect your eyes to him. “I’m right here, what’s the matter? You can talk to me.” Although your plan never included you coming clean about your feelings this soon, all it took was one look into Jimin’s eyes and you folded immediately. 

“Okay… Jimin, be honest. Do you wish I was more experienced?” 

“What?”

“Like, are you fine with me not being as good at sex as you are? Doesn’t it turn you off just a little?” 

“Baby… do you even know how ridiculous you sound? I don’t care that you’re not as experienced. In fact, I was honored that I was the one you wanted to give your virginity to. I love you, no matter what. Always remember that,” he lightly shook your head with his hands which caused you to grin like an idiot, chuckling lightly.

“And besides….you’re not bad. In fact, you’re really good. It just takes… practice.” He took your hand that sat on his shoulder and dragged it down his naked torso to land on his rock hard dick trapped in his pants. You looked down at it and then back up to meet Jimin’s eyes. 

“Does that feel like you don’t turn me on, baby?” 

You blushed, lightly shaking your head but not moving your hand. It was nice to have Jimin’s reassurance, but you still wanted more. Him being so sweet about your insecurities only made you want to please him. 

“So… if it takes practice, I want to try something,” you whispered. 

“Oh yea,” he kissed your lips. “And what’s that?” 

“I want tonight to be about you. Teach me how to get you off.” 

“Are you sure? I don’t want you to feel like you have to do it because yo-” 

“Shh..” you kissed him. “I want to, I promise I really want to. Just tell me what to do.” 

“Alright, just… rub me for a second,” he moved your hand that was already placed on his crotch in a circular motion as a demonstration. “Yeaa.. Just like that.” 

You pressed down on him a little harder, feeling him grow underneath his pants and throb slightly. He leaned back, resting his weight on his hands and the sight of you sitting on his lap, eager to get him off was more than he could bear. Looking in his eyes while continuing your motions, he knew he’d reach his end soon and he really didn’t want to cum in his pants so he pushed himself forward, kissing you with a force that could’ve knocked you off his lap had he not enveloped you in his arms. 

Your focus went from rubbing him to kissing him, and before you knew it you were grinding on him all on your own. Seeing how you had Jimin so worked up was turning you on to the max, but you knew you weren’t done with him yet. 

“What’s next?” you questioned, breathing heavily after tearing away from the kiss. 

“Would you suck me off?” he rushed out. “I mean you don’t have to, only if you want.” 

“Yes, just… just please walk me through it.” 

“Of course,” he kissed you again, gripping the ends of your shirt to pull it over your head. 

His lips found their way to your neck, licking and sucking all over you while his fingers worked on unhooking your bra. He slowly slid the straps down your arms and off your body before fondling your breasts, pinching your nipples and turning you on. 

A moan left your mouth as Jimin reached behind himself and grabbed a pillow off of the bed, throwing it on the floor. 

“Get on your knees for me baby.” 

 And you didn’t need to be told twice. 

Climbing off of his lap and reaching the floor, you adjusted the pillow so that your knees would be comfortable and then placed your hands on both of his thighs, driving him crazy. Looking up at him, you could quite literally see the lust in his eyes. 

“My pants baby, take them off.” 

Your hands moved on their own, sliding up his thick thighs until you reached his belt. You unhooked it and slowly pulled it through the loops of his skin tight jeans, throwing it across the room before you went back up to unbutton them and pull his zipper down, looking in his eyes the entire time. He bit his lip and raised his hips when he felt your fingers on his skin, hooked underneath his boxers so you could pull off everything in one go. Once they were off, you stopped, taking a second to look at his hard pink cock, precum oozing out of the tip before looking back up at him, awaiting your next command. 

“Now I want you to take it in your hand and stroke it.” 

Your hand crept up towards his cock, wrapping around its’ base as best as you could.  His length was so thick that your tiny palms couldn’t completely cover it. Just as you were about to start stroking, his voice stopped you. “Baby, spit on it.”

“... What?” you were taken aback. 

“Get it a little wet first, just spit on it.” 

And so you did. You used that along with some of his precum as a lubricant, spreading the mixture all over his cock just to get it wet as he said before you wanted to get serious and began stroking. 

He let out a light moan at the feeling off your hand finally giving him some release. 

“Ba- baby, maybe not so tight, ahh.” 

And you loosened your grip on him, hearing his content sigh. While your hand went back to work, you added your other one, twisting your wrists while stroking him up and down like you had seen in the porn movies. 

“Baby, your mouth… fuck, please! I need your mouth. I’m gonna cum soon,” he explained while he slowly pet your hair. 

Leaving only one hand on him, you wet your lips before letting your tongue travel over the underside of his length. When you reached his tip, you swirled your tongue around the head before slowly taking his shaft deep into your throat as he watched every inch go in. Your light breathing on his pelvis had the hairs on the back of his neck standing up. 

When your teeth accidentally pushed into his length, he bucked his hips into your mouth, his shaft going further down your throat making you choke and swallow around him before easing your mouth off his cock. You coughed a few times when he bent over to pat your back until you calmed down. 

“I’m sorry baby, are you okay?” 

“Yea,” you said, wiping off some of the spit that accumulated around your mouth. “Sorry about the teeth.” 

“No, don’t be sorry. We can stop if you want.” 

“You’re kidding, right?” you said smirking, your hand wrapping around him as you began pumping again before taking him back in your mouth, hollowing out your cheeks and bobbing your head. 

“Fuck, you’re going to fucking kill me,” Jimin whimpered. The sound was like music to your ears and you were determined to hear more of it. 

“I’m so fucking close baby…” 

He leaned forward and used one hand to collect your hair into a makeshift ponytail at your scalp while the other rubbed your boobs and played with your nipples, making you moan against him. The vibrating feeling had Jimin calling out to God. 

He used the hand in your hair to control your movements, he dragged your head up and down at the pace of his choice which was pretty fast. The way he was moaning and groaning your name among other swear words, you knew he wouldn’t last much longer and you wanted to push him over the edge. When he pushed your head down to make you deepthroat him again, you swallowed around him continuously while letting your hand travel up his legs to cup his balls, fondling them. At that, Jimin let out the loudest whine you’d heard from him yet, throwing his head back in pleasure before looking back down at you. 

“Such a good fucking girl baby.. Ugh- f-fuck, good girl! My good girl’s gonna make me cum.” 

“Hmmm,” you responded, his cock still lodged in your throat. 

He pulled your mouth off of him, moving the hand that was on his balls to his cock once more. 

“Make me cum on those pretty tits, baby, please.”

And so you stroked him as fast as you could, aiming the tip of his dick towards your breasts, your eyes glued to the way your boyfriend was falling apart in front of you. 

“Uh-uh fuccccckkkkk,” Jimin groaned, falling backwards on the bed once he came. 

You stroked him to the very last second, milking him for everything he had until he had become too sensitive and sat up to remove your hand from his length. 

“Fuck, c’mere,” he pulled you up and flipped you over so that you were on your back. Before you knew it, he was kissing you with more passion than you’d ever felt, his body pressing down on yours. 

“You’re amazing, you know that?” he chuckled lightly. 

“I guess I am. I’m a ‘good girl,’ remember?” you teased, smiling. 

“Hmmm, you definitely are,” he kissed your cheek before reaching over to the baby wipes you had strategically placed on your nightstand. 

“Can I just ask, what would make you think that I didn’t like our sex?” Jimin asked as he began cleaning off your chest. “I mean I know you said it was because you’re not as experienced but I kind of feel like there’s more to the story that you’re not telling me.” 

You bit your lip and avoided eye contact, a telltale sign that his accusation was correct. But you figured you might as well come clean. 

“I just kept thinking that maybe you missed having sex with other girls because I don’t know as much as what you’re probably used to.” 

“Baby, I promise you that all those other girls became irrelevant to my life the moment I met you,” he explained while stroking your hair and looking into your eyes. “Please don’t have silly thoughts like this anymore, okay?” 

“Okay,” you nodded before kissing him again, wrapping your arms around him while you went from making out to just hugging. 

“Besides,” he started. “Don’t you feel that?” he pushed his body down onto yours so that you could feel his hard length growing against your leg. “No girl has ever got me hard again that fast,” he kissed your cheek. 

“Oh my god….” you trailed off when you felt his arm move from under you and his hand trail down your front, a finger brushing over your soaked center. 

“Don’t you worry baby, we’re going to get you all the experience you need.”

[supernovafeather]

Soo~ About mxm fic 👉👈

What about Poe having a thingy with Hux's little brother, like he's also in 1st order but they met when Poe got kidnapped and helped him escape and so they just have a thing bc the always end up in the same places

(omfg its such a mess I hope you're understanding sksks also I'm a sucker for secret relationships 🙈)

Thx if you do this it's messy shit but yeaa 😅

Here is your fic, I hope you'll like it ! ☺️

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With The Enemy

Poe Dameron x M!FO!Reader

Warnings : explicit sexual content, nudity (not smut), self doubt, angst, fluff, mentions of nightmares, mentions of blood and injuries, swearing.

This is MxM.

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Is this a serious possibility ? Are you going to do that ?

Stupid and weak. That's what you are and you rub your face out of frustration, resting your feet on your desk in your office. You let that rebel, Poe Dameron, brainwash you. No, not exactly. You interrogated him as you would do with any other prisoner. Questions, intimidation, but you avoided punching him. You still did it a few times but you regretted it every time.

Those last months you have been feeling out of place here in the First Order. You don't complain nor feel frustrated to be living in your big brother's shadow. After all Armitage is much more ambitious than you. No it's just that you feel... lonely. Always the same faces, the same atrocities, the same rumors about Ren going nuts for some reasons more or less justified.

As a colonel you shouldn't get so easily distracted by a prisoner but something stopped you from being ruthless. Poe Dameron is handsome and charismatic. Even weakened you could feel his bravery and strength. His dark eyes sent you so much hatred, so much pride, so much challenge. He deserves his reputation. This legend - even in the First Order ranks - was there, bleeding and breathing with difficulty. You felt his warmth as you took his throat in your hand.

Again, you rub your face as you seat more comfortably, your elbows on your desk as you hide your closed eyes behind your palms. You saw the way his eyes sunk into confusion at your hesitation, at your instant of weakness. Between two questions about the girl and the Resistance... you found him breathtaking. Something in him made you forget about what you were supposed to do.

Attractive, cheeky, clever enough to play with your questions. You loved his temper. Kriff. Why did you take those few seconds to admire his features ? You're definitely too lonely.

Your impulsivity makes you modify a few things. You change the patrols path. You decrease the number of Stormtroopers by one each time. Poe Dameron is too important for the Resistance to be abandoned like that. And you suspect a spy. Somewhere, of high ranking. Maybe one of your superiors. You noticed some documents disappearing or getting modified between several briefings. Propaganda ? Perhaps but you don't believe in it. And if your suspicions are true... this spy would notice the lack of security in this area. And the Resistance would get to Dameron more easily.

This is what you do. And this is what makes you end up bleeding a while after the escape. Ren himself. You should thank Hux for intervening right in time to piss him off enough to let you go freely.

A few weeks later and demoted, you are the one having to spy on the Resistance. Sent to some hostile and frozen planet, in a cantina. A stinking and freezing cantina. You already miss your desk and your privileges but at least you're alive. And how lucky you are to set your eyes on the hooded figure in the back. You walk closer, a strange sensation turning your stomach into some heavy stone making your knees shake under its weight, unless that's due to your nervousness.

The Commander doesn't have any blood stain remaining. No sweat. No dirt. He is divine to your eyes. As soon as he recognizes you he steps back, his eyes making his hostility clear. You don't say anything, just following him at the same pace, your disappearance discrete in the noisy place. The two of you are alone in the hallway now. You notice his hand ready to take his weapon.

"Commander," you start in a low voice and locking his gaze with yours. "I would have thought you were clever enough not to end up in my presence anymore. That's still a pleasure to meet such a legend."

He snorts, still tensed as he stops, his back hitting a wall. You stopped, close to the man confused by your lack of hostility. You look intimidating yes, and your face reminds him of what he had to endure with the First Order. Yet... there is this... thing in your eyes. He can't quite identify it. Some kind of... kindness ? Pity would be more appropriate maybe. You are a First Order colonel after all.

As you turn your head to make sure nobody's there, you finally hear his low voice, making you shiver despite his distrust clear enough.

"Oh. So you got punched as well. Let me guess... Hux or Ren ?"

"Ren. I got demoted as well."

Showing your own face by removing your own hood slowly, you watch surprise appearing on his face as he has the opportunity to see some swollen parts of your face. His features harden again and you keep talking.

"They did that because I helped you to escape," and he frowns. "You deserve my respect much more than my superiors do. I am lucky to be alive, Commander Dameron. And I am lucky to see you in a better condition than I am. I know this will be hard to believe coming from me, but... I won't tell anyone I've seen you there."

You turn around and are about to put your hood back on your head when a hand grabs your forearm firmly, your eyes staring at the wall as you feel the Commander coming slightly closer to you.

"Why are you doing this ? You're right, I can't trust you," he whispers as you finally make eye contact with him, worry and uncertainty obvious.

A knot keep your words prisoner from your throat for a few seconds as you try desperately not to let your mind wander too far at this intense gaze of his.

"I respect more an enemy Commander than my own hierarchy. That's all you need to know."

He lets you leave the hallway without protesting, and as promised, you never tell anyone. This unexpected encounter did something. It made you feel better. You finally have the impression of being... loyal. Loyal for real to someone you barely know. You smile before taking a sip of your glass as you feel watched. Later, as you come out the cantina, you are barely surprised to see the familiar silhouette grabbing you by your arm. It's quick, determined, leading you to an isolated street.

Tickles. That's the sensation filling your belly as you stare at him approaching slowly. You don't step back at any moment, letting this flame consuming you as he stops right before you. Snow is melting on his hood and becomes more visible as he lowers his head, clenching his jaws and his gloved fists.

"You deserve my respect as well," he finally says before looking back at you. "If what you said is true, I owe you my life. Thank you."

There is some tension at the end of his sentence. He hesitates. There is some conflict in him as if he wants to add something. He looks away briefly, then back at you.

"You're welcome. It's an honor."

This makes him grin with a nod, his genuine benevolence making your heart flutter a bit. What makes you snap though, is the way his pathetically tries to hid a flattered smile by biting his lip, peering down at the ground. Confidence builds up in your chest and you walk closer to him. He steps back, staring at you with an expecting gaze causing some heat to form in your belly and below. You stop once pressed against him, his own back against a wall and your lips close to his, his eyes half closed as his chest raises too fast.

"I knew you are the kind of man liking to play, but sending me those dirty looks isn't very careful. I'm still the enemy.*

"Please. You should have seen how you looked at me instead of punching me," he adds with an enjoyable teasing as your nose grazes his cheek, his hands flat against your chest. This time your own chest raises too fast when he rubs it up and down, his lips now forming a seductive cocky grin. "I could get kicked out of the Resistance for saying this was rather flattering."

Not even a sound leaves your lips as his suddenly collide with yours. Then everything changes as you take the lead, your hands grabbing his hips as you make him pant on purpose by harassing his mouth then his chin then his throat, messing with his coat and his belt.

Later, you put your pants back in place, looking at the street to make sure that you are still alone. You grin as you see Poe doing the same, some of his curls now messy. His features are relaxed yet his eyes are attentive to any suspect motion from anything that could come this way. This doesn't stop him from snaking an arm around your waist to keep you close, leading you to kiss him deeply as he lets a relieved kiss out. You bit his bottom lip in response, your hand slipping down to his hip then his buttock, squeezing it enough to make him look up at you with a cheeky smile.

"More than interesting Commander," you whisper. "Should have bend you down like this sooner. Didn't know you would be so talkative."

He snorts at this before sending you THIS seductive look you love.

"If there is a next time I'll be the one bending you down. I'm a Commander and you got demoted."

"That's what you think."

And yes there is a next time, in a bed on another planet a few weeks later. More exactly two times due to the way you got waken up in the morning. Then another time a few days later. Your path seemed to cross regularly. It's an attraction that you can't control. You always play with each other and soon your opposite camps don't matter much. At least, that's the theory.

You want to see the First Order burning down to ashes. That's your thought every time you open your eyes at night, feeling Poe shifting in his sleep. He groans. He talks. He sweats. You feel guilty yet don't wake him up. You want to feel this pain in your heart. You want to finally be fully aware of the damages you caused indirectly.

After a few minutes you give up on ignoring him. You whisper at his ear during long seconds. Reassuring things. Comforting thoughts. Sometimes you confess some intimate feelings as you close your eyes. Then you keep saying sweet nothings, your hand running through his curls only when he calms down, still asleep and his features more relaxed.

You don't know that the next time he does the same as you are haunted by the memory of Ren Force choking one of your closest colleagues. The soft hand resting on your cheek and waking you up is so needed that you lean on his touch, his naked body still pressed against yours in the cot of your ship. Shit, Poe Dameron in your own cot, looking down at you with such gentle eyes. You definitely drunk too much after this outraged message from Armitage as he learned about your lack of progress in your current investigation on this planet.

Poe's hands rub your bare chest as he lays down against you, his messy hair then falling onto your forehead when he kisses you gently. You smile genuinely as he starts taunting you as expected.

"I told you one day I'd be the one making you bend down. And you were pretty talkative too."

"Only because my ship is too small."

This makes him raise an eyebrow as he chuckles, sitting down on the side of the cot, his eyes looking around with a lost expression.

"Me, with a former First Order Colonel, in his First Order ship, in a First Order cot. Kriff. I hope Leia will never hear about that."

You bite your lip as you get distracted by his bare back and his dishevelled head. Poe doesn't want to admit this situation fully and you know it. The way he examines everything around him is obvious. You know this frown all too well.

"Don't get into unnecessary troubles," you mumble before yawning. "You're the best pilot. You believe in this fight and they believe in you."

He doesn't add anything, but you frow at his hands rubbing against each other, his elbows on his thighs. Then...

"Everything is getting too much to bare. Nobody knows about us. Not even my closest friends. My droid knows something is up when I leave. I'm in the Resistance. You're in the First Order."

"Who said I still see myself as a member of the First Order ?"

Your quiet question makes him freeze. Immediately. You never really talked about this matter but... yeah. You may have spent a very short time with him, yet you know what path you want to follow.

Poe turns his head towards you, eyes widened and his eyes warning you not to joke.

"You are working for them. You wear their uniform. You have this ship."

"Then tell your General you found a former Colonel ready to spy on them for you. I can't leave the Order like that, Ren would torture and kill my brother immediately," you add with a sad grin as Poe looks away. He hates Armitage and... you can't even be mad at him for that. "Just tell her that... I'm the one you were contacting every time. That in case of extreme emergency I'll join you."

You appreciate the way his fingers brush yours before this comforting grip, his smile encouraging you. And this pride in his eyes.

"A part of me wants to see you joining me to our base. But this would mean you lost or are about to lose everything. Even your brother. I'm not a fan of him but... well he's your brother after all. Really I can never do things simply. Leia will kill me."

"Then I'll die protecting the best pilot in the Resistance. What a destiny for a former enemy Colonel."

"Shhh don't say that silly," he reprimands before joining you in your cot, your head resting on his chest as you hug him, his hands resting on your bare back. "She'll accept you among us. I promise. She'll be like your mother-in-law."

"You're supposed to reassure me. Not to put a knife on my throat."

"She's amazing. She's amazingly scary and talented. Determined. Better have her as a friend than as an enemy."

You smile at this. He doesn't know how cute he is when he gets the opportunity to tell openly his admiration for her. Maybe he is right when he talks about a mother-in-law.

[sugarglider-s]

I started playing Hades last week and after 30 tries i finally managed to get to the Hades boss fight :) i beat him on my first try and I'm still not over it lol

FUCK YEAA GOOD SHIT 👌 I think I took about that many tries too! But I definitely didn’t beat him first try abdjabdkabdm

[bittywitches]

Take Your Time (Grayson Dolan Fanfic)

A/N: This is basically me becoming super obsessed with the idea of husband!Grayson and I wanted to write a cute husband and wife thing rlly badlyyy  >.<

The idea is y/n is working at this newspaper but there’s an opening for a more executive position and she has to do this application for it which she’s super stressed out about. Grayson is there to help her feel a little better :)

(oh btw do y’all want me to do word counts? idk lmk)

Anyways thank you babies for reading ily <3

The click of the door shutting after a long day of work was really what Grayson needed to hear. 

He was absolutely exhausted, as he spent the entire day showing this one particularly annoying couple multiple downtown houses that seemed to fit their requests only for them to conclude with the idea that they’d rather get an apartment instead. 

He kicked off his shoes and sighed deeply, stretching out his back. His feet ached from having to walk the two to so many different residences, but either way, he was getting paid for it.

“Babe, I’m home!”

“Hi, honey!”

Grayson followed his wife’s voice and found her in the office room sitting cross-legged in the wheely chair. Her hair was up in a messy bun, and she was wearing a loose T-shirt and checkered pajama pants. 

“How’s the most gorgeous girl in LA doing?” He threw his jacket and bag onto the armchair.

“Awful.” She swiveled around to face him and had her arms stretched out reaching for him. He hugged her, rubbing her back, and gave her a kiss on the cheek.

“How come, baby?”

“Ugh, it’s this stupid application stuff.” She turned back around to the computer. Grayson pulled up a chair and sat beside her.

“What’s the issue?”

“That’s the thing, I don’t know!” She threw her hands up in the air. “It’s like anything I write, there’s just something wrong with it that I can’t put my finger on. I swear, I’ve written like seven versions of this exact same article.”

“It’s probably just the stress of having to get it done for tomorrow.” He rubbed her arm. “Don’t be too hard on yourself.”

She sighed. “But this article has to be perfect. This job could mean so much to me, I’d finally be able to have so much more control on the paper’s projects.” She looked over at him. “I really think I can do some good for this company. So I really don’t want to screw this up. It’s probably going to be my only chance.”

Grayson got up and kissed her on the forehead. “Whatever you write, they’re going to absolutely love it. I promise.”

She smiled. “Thank you, baby.”

He returned it. “I’m gonna go change. Have you eaten yet?”

“No, lost track of time.”

“Want me to make something?”

“Don’t worry about it, you’re probably tired from work.” She grabbed his arm. “Oh! Speaking of, how did it go with that couple?”

Grayson rolled his eyes. “I don’t want to distract you from your work, but to give you the short answer: not the greatest.”

“Aw, bub.”

“It’s okay. I’ll tell you about it after. Want me to heat up the leftover lasagna?”

“Yes, please.”

“You got it.”

...

A few minutes later, Grayson was in the kitchen, getting the leftovers from last night out of the fridge. He’d changed into an old T-shirt and sweatpants. 

He put the food in the microwave and started it. He yawned, stretching his arms above his head, groaning a little bit. He leaned against the kitchen island. 

Y/N had been working on this application for the past few days, and Grayson had to admit, he was glad it would be done by tomorrow. He obviously wanted her to get the job she wanted, but he hated how much it was stressing her out. He hadn’t had much time himself to help her out since his job had been taking up a lot of his time the past week. He wanted to do something special to relax her, but time sometimes just got the best of him.

He did love how passionate she was about writing, though. She worked so hard, it made him feel motivated to do more too. He just wished she would give herself a moment to breathe every once in a while. But then again, that is what he was there for.

He had started to fiddle with his wedding ring, which he tended to do quite often whenever he got lost in thought. It was a simple piece of jewelry, contrasting quite a bit to his father’s. It was a simple silver band, engraved with the initials of both his and her name. It was probably one of his favourite things in the whole world because it made it feel like she was always with him even when she wasn’t. 

He smiled to himself, thinking how, just three years before, he dreamed of spending the rest of his life with Y/N. And now he was.

“Babe, come eat!” He shouted.

“Yea, in a minute...”

“Gorgeous come on, you need to eat.” He took the plates out of the microwave and set them onto the dining table.

“I gotta finish this Gray...”

Grayson walked back to the office room. “Baby, what did you eat for lunch?”

“Uhh.. stuff..” she was completely concentrated on her article.

“Y/N.” he spun the chair around, jerking her away from her somewhat trance-like state.

“Honey, please! I need to get this done!”

“You don’t have to starve yourself to do that!”

She groaned. “Babe I don’t have time-“

“Y/N. come eat.” He grabbed her wrists, trying to pull her up.

She narrowed her eyes at him. “I hate you.”

“I love you too, gorgeous.” He pulled her up and kissed her. She finally stopped straining against him and relaxed against his touch.

She pulled away. “I really missed you today.”

Grayson sighed. “I know. I’m sorry.” He wrapped his arms around her waist and she stretched hers around his neck. “I missed you too.”

She smiled a bit. “You know, we should go out this weekend. We haven’t done that in a while.” She played with the hair on the back of his head.

“Yea? What do you have in mind?”

“I don’t know. Just something.” She kissed him again, then let go. “Okay, come on. I’m starving.”

The pour of the water from the tap as Grayson cleaned the dishes was just overshadowed by the sound of the television in the living room. He rinsed off the dirty plates and set them on the rack. 

“Hey, hon, how’s Ethan doing? Did you call him today?”

“Yea, he’s good.” He wiped his hands off on the rag and made his way over to the sofa where Y/N was sitting. “I’m glad you decided to take a break.”

She rolled her eyes as Grayson sank into the seat beside her. “Only because I’m basically done and just have to edit.”

“Mmm, either way.” He kissed her cheek.

“What’d Ethan say?”

“He just said we should all hang out soon. Maybe this weekend.”

She jerked her head to face him. “But I thought we were going to-“

“And I told him that we were busy,” she rubbed her arm. “So maybe we could meet up for dinner another time.”

Y/N smiled. “I’m sorry. You probably wanna hang out with him. It’s been like four days since you guys have been able to actually do anything together. That’s like a century for you guys.”

Grayson laid back, and Y/N nuzzled herself up against his chest. “It’s been a rough week for both of us. I think we need some time just together too.” He rubbed her shoulder and kissed her temple.

She sighed. “What did I do to deserve someone like you?”

“You stole my heart, that’s what you did.”

“Yeah well...” she laid her head against his chest, listening to his heartbeat. “You never asked for it back.”

He brushed his fingers through her strands of hair. “That’s because I wished you’d take the rest of me too.”

She blushed. “Well lucky for you then, huh?”

“Oh yeah.”

Y/N took his hand that was laying on his stomach. “I love you, baby.”

“I know.”

She slapped his stomach, sitting up abruptly. “Grayson Dolan!”

He laughed. “Oh, I’m kidding princess.” He cupped her cheeks in his hands. “I love you so much. I’ll never be able to show you just how much I do.”

He leaned in and kissed her. Soft, but meaningful.

Y/N suddenly pulled away. “Oh my god, my article!” She got up, but Grayson grabbed her wrist.

“Noooo, stayyy baby girl.”

“Oh my god, you literally kill me.” She pulled away from him. “But I have to work babe. Just keep watching the show, Okay?”

“I literally forgot the Tv was even on.” He gave her big puppy dog eyes.

“Give me a half-hour.”

“But snuggles!”

“Babyyy.”

“Oh, fine. Okay.”

An hour later, Gray walked into the office room with two cups of tea. He knocked on the side of the door. “Am I intruding?”

Y/N finally looked away from her screen. “Hm? Oh, no not at all.”

Gray handed her one of the cups, and she took it gratefully. “Mmm, thank you.”

“Are you going to be done anytime soon?”

She stretched. “I actually think I’m about done.”

“Great, can we go to bed?”

She shook her head. “I was wondering if you could read it over?”

“Oh of course baby,” he placed his cup on the table and swiveled over to her. “What do you want me to do?”

“I don’t know. Just review it, tell me if it sounds weird, if it’s not going for the vibe I’m looking for, even just grammatical stuff. I’ve been staring at this thing for so long I think it just needs a fresh pair of eyes.”

“You got it. Just bear with me, I’m a really slow reader.”

“Take your time honey.”

After a few minutes, Grayson looked back over to his wife, who was sitting in the armchair. 

“It looks really good honey. Just, okay c’mere a sec..”

“Mhm.” She walked Over to the computer.

“You see this part? You could talk less about it but focus more on what’s in the next paragraph.”

“Hmm, ok yea I see that.”

“Also this part-“ he scrolled down. “It’s like a lot of information all at once. It’s like, too dense. You get what I mean?” 

She pulled a chair over, skimming over the section. “Yeaa, your right.” She dragged the laptop over to her and started typing something up. “Is this better?” She pushed it back over to him.

“Yes, this is a lot easier to follow. Just do that with the next part too, and I think it’ll be better.”

“Ok. Thank you so much, baby.” 

Grayson got up and moved his chair over so Y/N could reposition herself. “No problem, hon.” He kissed her forehead.

“I'm gonna go wait for you in bed, okay?”

“Alright.”

“Don’t stay up too late.”

“I won’t.”

Another hour later, Grayson shuffled back over to the office room once more. He’d almost fallen asleep but was determined to stay awake until his wife was done. 

He rubbed his eye and yawned. “Babe I think it’s time to just let it be done. You must be exhausted-“

Grayson stopped when he saw the small figure of Y/N laying her head down on the table, completely passed out.

“Aw, honey..”

He tiptoed over to her, listening to her soft breathing. The light from the screen illuminated her hair and bounced off of the now empty cup of tea she finished. She was sleeping on top of many papers and files. He looked up at the screen and saw the email she had drafted to send her application in. He sat down next to her for a bit, and opened up the documents she had attached, making sure all of them were there and skimming through them to make sure they were ready to go. He quickly finished it up for her, just adding some thanks and signing her name, and sent it.

“Y/N?” He rubbed her back slowly. “You wanna come to bed now?” He chuckled to himself.

“Mmmm.”

“You never listen to me, so you?” He reached under her arms and legs and gently lifted her up bridal style. She groaned slightly, but she only seemed to stir slightly to muzzle herself closer into Grayson’s chest.

He shook his head. “You are so adorable.”

He walked back to their bedroom and gently placed her onto the bed, covering her up with the blanket. She grabbed the nearest pillow and squeezed it. He kissed her on the forehead. 

“Goodnight, baby.”

Two weeks later, Y/N was idly scrolling through her phone while Grayson was making dinner when suddenly she got a notification from her email. She opened it to find...

“OH MY GOD!”

A clang was heard in the kitchen, like something falling onto the ground, and was followed by Grayson racing out of the kitchen. 

“WHAT? What’s wrong?”

Y/N jumped up from the couch and turned her phone screen to Grayson, jumping up and down. 

“OH MY FUCKING GOD I GOT THE JOB!”

His terrified expression was quickly replaced with one of excitement. “Oh my god, Congrats baby!” He spread his arms wide and Y/N ran towards him, practically jumping onto him to give him a hug. 

“Oh my god oh my god oh my god I can’t believe I got the job!!”

“I’m so proud of you baby!!” He picked her up into the air and spun her around while she squealed.

“I can’t believe this is actually happening.” She pulled away from him to read the email in her phone again, her face absolutely glowing.

“You deserve it, hon. You worked so hard for this.” He smiled, then his eyes lit up. “OH my god, we need to celebrate!”

Y/N grabbed his face and kissed him, startling him so bad he almost fell backward. She pulled away from him, grinning like a fool.

“Or, you know. That works too.” He chuckled.

She laughed as well. “Grayson, I never would’ve been able to get this job without you.”

His arms made their way around her. “What are you talking about? You did this all on your own.”

“False. Without you, I probably would’ve killed myself before I got it done.” The edge of Grayson’s mouth quirked up, but he let her continue. “You were so supportive the past few weeks, and I really needed it. Thank you. So much.”

The warmth of his forehead pressed against hers spread through her. “I’m always going to be here for you, Y/N. that’s what you get for deciding to marry me.”

Her fingers grazed his jawline. “Well, I guess I made a good decision then, huh?”

“Mhmm.” He leaned and kissed her once more. The warmth and flavour of his lips spread through her. Her arms made their way up into his hair, then she bit his lip, making him moan.

She smirked. “You know, there is something we could do to celebra-“ a loud beeping noise suddenly disrupted her, and she watched as Grayson’s eyes suddenly widened.

“Oh my god the food!” He let go of Y/N and rushed back into the kitchen, followed by her Y/N’s laughs. A loud clang was heard, probably him dropping the steaming pot into the sink, then Grayson peaked his head around the corner.

“So.. how’re you feeling about take-out?”

She rolled her eyes. “Yea yea. I’ll order.”

[jyunshiim]

𝗅𝗈𝗏𝖾𝗅𝗈𝗋𝗇; 𝗋𝖾𝗃𝖾𝖼𝗍𝗂𝗈𝗇 𝗇𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋 𝗍𝖺𝗌𝗍𝖾𝖽 𝗌𝗈 𝗀𝗈𝗈𝖽༆

Genre and themes: hanahaki!au | unrequited love | fictional themes | unwanted love | college!au | fem! reader X Hendery | fem! X Xiaojun |

TW:  blood

Listen to:  Moonrise by Day6  | 4am playlist

➪  You wait patiently. Quarter to 7am is when you leave your mellow apartment, that you rent out, to get to your university. It was a 1 long, boresome train ride to get to Seoul University; you studied incredibly hard just to pass the entrance exams so you were always determined to be on time and not miss a day. not even one. The sun was rising, setting the city aglow and despite just being past dawn, people were bustling around in the university already, grabbing coffee from the local cafe or a sweet treat they craved that morning from the nearby patisserie for their breakfast. Seoul was absolutely magical.

8:10am: You had an early Biology lecture that morning and you barely had time to grab something energising, not even an energy drink but it was common for you to miss breakfast for the first 3 hours. The air was light and comfortable enough to walk to classes. In summer, there were clusters  of sweaty students scattered on the verdant greenery of the school making it very hard to walk through. The hallways were incommodious and it was impossible to walk through without feeling the heat and stickiness of everyone skin brushing against yours and the pungent aroma of sweat. The lecturer was already in the room and a few students were dispersed around waiting for the lecture to start.You went and sat at the seat you always sit at -since first year university -and you put your belongings down on the desk and got out your textbook, small white pencil case and your apricot coloured, spiral spined notebook which you just purchased last week. you clear your throat quietly and put a strand of you dark hair behind your ear before you scroll through your phone to pass the last 10 minutes of waiting time, replying to messages from your best friends.

Coffee club-

You had a group chat with your friends; Sicheng, Hanna, Minseo, and Xiaojun. Xiaojun always treated you so politely since you were kids.you both went to the same high school and you were always seen as a cutesy couple but you both weren’t, of course.You guys were close but never shared any romantic feelings for each other, at least you didn’t. They were talking about meeting at ‘Kangmin’s Koffee’ after University; The cafe had always been a place where you all hung out after uni and shared what happened in the day over coffee. Of course you’d say yes because you love your friends so much. 

10:55am: 

After university, you packed up your textbooks and walked out of the lecture room sighing at your study schedule. You would notice students waiting outside the room and one of them was familiar to you,perhpas because you’ve seen him around with Sicheng and his friend Yangyang – but never actually knew his name. You signed out swiftly and walked out of campus and took a right and to the dainty little cafe cafe adorned with pink blossoming flowers and wooden chairs and tables.The cafe was opposite this beautiful florist that captivated all the local people. The flowers were always fresh and almost had a nostalgic sense to it. you just wished someone would surprise you with a bouquet but that was impossible since you never had time for relationships. Sicheng scooted up next to Xiaojun and the waitress brough over the 5 coffees that they ordered before you came. “i know you like hazelnut coffee with extra ice so thats what i ordered you,” Xiaojun smiled playfully giving a gentle nudge. You took a sip of the coffee and indulged in the saccharine coffee, the flavours mingling with one another, the caffeine flowing through your bloodstream. It was heavenly to you and only Xiaojun knew you had such a sweet tooth.

“ew stop acting like a couple,” Minseo spoke in her soft gentle voice covering her eyes jokily. 

“we are not dating!” you giggle and push him away and he sits and smiles at you endearingly. 

“you both look like you wanna eat each others face,” Sicheng teases and jokes with Xiaojun and Xiaojun gets defensive.

“I DONT,” his cheeks flare up a blazing red. He gets flustered and you all laugh but you comfort him. The atmosphere was entrancing, the laughter of you and your friends echoing down the bustling streets and the last bit of warmth fading into horizon along with the sunshine. September was one of your favourite months for this exact reason. Xiaojun always walked you to the train station before vanishing as soon as you board and go on your way. 

You walk into your dorm. The fragrant rose scented room invited you to your cosy apartment, the white fluffy rug between your toes making you feel as if you were  on a cloud, the warm fair luminescent lights hung from the ceiling giving the room a relaxing atmosphere. You sigh and sink into your mattress curling up into a ball but the chime of your phone alerted you. As you looked down at the bright screen, you drag down to see the notification. Of course it was Xiaojun.  

Xiaojun: hey, get home safe?

YN: yeah i got home okay, quicker than usual to be honest

Xiaojun: okay good! what you doing now?

YN: Probably going to make dinner now, how about you? you better not be playing games again and forgetting to eat:/ make sure you eat okay

you sounded like you care too much about every aspect but it’s fine you’re just friends, you didn’t want him to get the wrong idea.....

Xiaojun: yea i will, i’m studying for my Korean writing exam it’s so hard :<

YN: you’ll do well, i promise you :< ily

Xiaojun: you too! and thanks yn i know you will always give me the support 

Xiaojun offline

University was normal for the past month but as October came around, you felt this wave of motivation flood you. You wanted to change something or do something nice for yourself.  A cool halcyon autumns afternoon you and your friends met again at the cafe. It was a lot breezier outside than the last month; the sky was a painted an orangey pink hue and the street lamps illuminating the streets already. Whilst walking 20 minutes earlier to the usual spot, a thought sparked in your mind. You thought to get yourself some flowers for you apartment to fit with the autumnal theme. The glass door opens and the tingling chimes sound throughout the store and a worker gets behind the counter.The various fresh floral scents wafted past you; roses, lilies, gypsophilias and other various flowers and plants. You look around to see what variety there is and what you want for your bouquet-

“hey do you need any help,” a worker speaks to you. 

“i was wondering if i could get a combination of the pink roses and the gypsophilias?” You ask before whipping your head around to see a young boy, the same age as you you presumed and you paused examining his face. where have you seen him?

“wait, do you go to Seoul Uni?” you say with a sweet smile 

The boy smiles and you notice his little flower brooch; Hendery. “yeah i do, I major in Media production,”

“ohh yeaa you’re in my lecture room after my Bio lecture,” you recognised him, you just never knew his name.

His dark umber hair was floppy, perfectly waved in a way which framed his facial structure. As you looked at him making eye contact out of politeness you couldn't help but notice his glossy coffee orbs and the way he smiled so.. softly. It reminded you of Xiaojun. 

“ohh yeah,” he lets out a weak chuckle, “so roses and gypsophilias?” he begins to pick them up and take them to the table for the other worker to arrange them for you. 

“Yes please Hendery, thank you,” you smile and go to the counter to pay for them. Of course Hendery is taking your payment. As you hand your card, his fingertips brushed against your soft skin and you retreat, panicked. He moves his eyes to meet with your and you divert your vision to none other than your phone. “Here’s your card,” he slides it across the table to avoid the contact and smiles whilst returning a small bow too. He looks up and smiles again. “ your flowers will take around 20 minutes to be arrange and packaged would you be able to pick it up soon?” he asks following store rules and protocol of course... right?

“oh yes i’m at the cafe opposite with a few of my friends so i should be able to get them!” You smile and nod your head

“ahh okay! i hope to see you soon,” 

As you turn around and leave and go to the cafe opposite you can see him through the shop window mindlessly staring out of the window. You wave at him and he gives a shy one back. “yn! where’s our coffee?” Sicheng asks as he jogs over with Hanna and Minseo walking close behind him.

“oh i-” you stuttered

“she was on a secret date with someone, what’s that i smell? a new perfume,” Minseo teases

“nahh it’s definitely for Xiaojun, where is he anyway?” Hanna turns around and sees him running, holding his bag to his chest. 

“s-sorry for being late,” he pants his ebony hair messy.

“why is your hair messy?” you ask fixing his hair as he sits down “ it looks cute, right guys,”

They all agree in unison and Xiaojun chuckles, “ thanks guys,”

As minutes went on, they turned to an hour. You completely forgot to pick up your flowers but you still didn’t recall until you heard rustling and a throat clear from the left of you. The group stopped talking. “uh um hey, we’re closing up now and-” he puts the flowers into your hands. “see you around,” he smiles and head off. You looked at him on his motocycle driving off and you looked back at the group smiling and whispering.

“Its not what you think!” 

You friends look at you and then back at each other. “soo are you guys a thing or can i have him?” Hanna asks jokily

“NO I mean YEA I-” you try to think straight, this was really embarrassing “yeah do whatever he just happens to go to our university and works at the florist where i went to get some flowers for myself” – they all in unison said ‘ahh’.

Hendery became more talkative with you in university and as time went on you both became good friends. Hendery’s tender smile greeted you almost everyday and it was clear to see his shy barrier he had was slowly melting away to reveal his extroverted personality. Hendery was like a star beaming in a stygian night sky and his bouncy energy like a puppy waiting for a treat. Hendery had such a sweet winsome personality and you were happier than happy to be friends with him. One evening after University Hendery saw you outside waiting at the bus stop since you were on your way to meet the others at a Korean BBQ restaurant. It was colder and ever so dismal but as he walked next to you he greeted you and noticed that you were cold. “ You seem cold?” he tilts his head his soft locks being pushed back with his warm-skinned fingertips. “oh yeah well I’m a little dumb and i forgot to get a scarf or gloves. I didnt really know it’d be so cold today,” you let out a weak chuckle before rubbing your frostbitten hands trying to accumulate the body heat you had left. “Hey yn,” Hendery puts his hand on your shoulder and you feel a sudden warmth immersing you “take these,” he hands you his leather gloves “also are you sure you don’t want a lift to wherever you’re going? the buses are really full,” he informs you. You think a little bit. He has a motorcycle, you have to hold him. What will Xiaojun or the others think? You decided to take the offer. “if you don’t mind and if you’re free please join me in our meal!” you smile was gleaming and perfect. In his eyes.

You sit behind him and he hands you his helmet. “where’s yours?” you ask concerned. “oh don’t worry you wont be the cause of my death,” he jokes around “it’s not too far so we should be okay yn, hold tight okay,” he advised you. Your hands wrap gently around his waist and you felt butterflies in your stomach. Xiaojun hugged you and often playfully threw you onto the trampoline at his house when everyone was around and you were slightly tipsy. You felt a small pang in your chest. Rapidly, Hendery went from 0-60mph, zooming through the streets of Seoul. The city made you feel like you were in a movie scene running away with your true love, only right now it was a friend of yours taking you to the korean bbq place. The sun disappears and the moon replaces the suns place. The glowing orb in the sky illuminated the streets and reflected off the shop windows. It was peaceful, so serene. The abrupt stop meant that you arrived, your face slamming into Hendery’s back which made you move back quickly. “ yn, you alright there,” he smiles and lets out a little chuckle. You stutter slightly trying to pull the helmet off not knowing how you even got it on. 

“wait that’s not how you take it off,” he inches closer and gets to the twisted clip that got stuck to your necklace. He untwists the necklace being ever so careful and precise. You knew for a fact your friends could see you and this ‘mysterious’ guy outside standing only inches away from each others face. This only made you think... is this how people kiss? You felt his finger lift your chin up so he could see the buckle. “ahh i see the problem,” he smiles seeing the issue. The silver chain was jammed in the buckle and Hendery was gentle with you. This was NOT what you had planned. “AH! got it, you okay?” he asks you handing the helmet on his bike. “yeah i’m okay, thank you,” you gulp and he opens the door for you and your friends all exclaimed at the fact you finally arrived. You and Hendery both sit at the table; “ohh hey Hendery i didnt know would come too?” Sicheng fist bumps him and pours him a soju shot. “ I can’t drink, i’m gonna have to drive home,” he points at his ride outside and a subltle smile paints across his face. It was a little awkward, especially because of Hanna and Minseo since they didn’t know how to keep anything lowkey. Xiaojun always put extra beef on your plate and the girls kept teasing him. “hey, shes my best friend of course i’ll give her extra?” Xiaojun chuckle and nudges Minseo. “then why don’t you act like that with me?” Minseo pouts jokily and Xiaojun sarcastically rolls his eyes “okay Miss Kim Minseo, here is your beef and an extra bit of kimchi too” Xiaojun placed it on her plate and then of course Sicheng was joking around too pretending to be the girls mocking them playfully. To you, you looked at Minseo and Xiaojun and they...looked cute together. Besides your thirsty friends and the random pit in your stomach, the atmosphere felt euphoric; drinking soju, eating luscious  flavoursome food, talking and joking around with the people who you love the most. You sit and go for the water jug at the same time as Hendery and your hands collide again. why does this keep happening? You withdraw your hand away from it so he can pour himself a glass of water. “shall I?” he says holding the clear glass jug hovering over your glass and you just nod. 11:36pm. The restaurant was closing and everyone was en route home.

 The onyx night sky coruscated as the heavenly bodies gleamed, the solitary moon illuminating the street you stood on along with Sicheng, Minseo, Hanna, Xiaojun and of course Hendery. “Lucas should be here soon,” Sicheng says to Xiaojun as he looks at his phone and then loking back up to the road. You all waited for each other to go home so everyone was safe especially during this time of night. “How are you getting home yn?” Xiaojun asked. You stopped bretahing for a split second, “umm i’m not too sure? I can take a night train,” you say looking for your train card. You scavenge through your purse to look for it but it wasn’t there. The paleness took over your face and you looked up in panic; “ I don’t know where my train card went?” Xiaojun looked at you and put his hands on your shoulders, “ hey, it’s okay you can probably take a taxi home or even stay with Hanna and Minseo?” you thought about that but in fact you couldn’t since the girls had a small dorm within the campus which was only enough for 2 people and there was no space for an extra person. “It’s fine, I’ll find a way home” you say a little downhearted. “If you don’t mind I can drop you home,” Hendery broke the silence, grinding the floor with his heel. Everyone glance at him as if he were some sort of hero and you were the damsel in distress needing saving - but you knew that you lived too far and this was a reason why you’d only hang out after classes. “Hendery to the rescue,” Xiaojun and Sicheng praise him (as boys do) “ We trust Hendery, he’s a safe driver,” they reassure you but all you could do is give a weak smile back and move towards the motorcycle. As he hits on, he passes you the helmet and you decline the offer, “you’re the driver, you need it more?” you insist, concerned about his safety. “yn, trust me, nothing will happen to me,” You hesitate but take it and put it on your head and sit behind him. Your arms wrap around him again and Hendery takes a deep breathe, closes his eyes for a second and smiles to himself. He starts the vehicle. “i’ll see you guys on Monday!” You say to the others, looking at Xiaojun. 

Hendery drove down the incandescent streets of Seoul. Your fingertips fiddled with each other but they also rested on his stomach, the warmth of his body warmed you up on this cold journey home. For a little while, to have a break from straining your eyes, you closed them but your head unexpectedly rested in  his back and Hendery’s head twitched as if he was going to turn around but he couldn’t. It was soon after midnight when Hendery arrived to your apartment complex and you felt the hasty breaks. “you’re home yn,” he says and you shake your head blinking to see your home. “ thank you Hendery, thank your for joining me for our meal i hope it was enjoyable for you,” you say handing him his helmet back and stood on the pavement. “It’s okay, anytime honestly,” he smiles - so pure. so innocent. “maybe we should get a coffee together sometime,” he blurts out unexpectedly which came to you as a shock. “of course! you don’t have my number so you?” you ask him and he shakes his head. you both exchanged numbers and you knew that he would become a part of the coffee club...

A seed has been sown – A flower grows when it has been sown deep in the ground and eventually grows roots, a stem and blossoms into something beautiful. Beautiful things have evil outcomes.

You and Hendery started talking more over text and even call and of course sometimes there would be group facetimes where he would be included too. It felt amazing to have such great people and friends who were there for you although you couldn’t help but notice one thing. Xiaojun. One evening as you were cooking on facetime, you noticed Xiaojun texting someone on his phone, smiling, but not the kind where he found something funny. The smile where someone makes your heart flutter, like it’s on a million candy floss clouds floating to - well- who knows? You didn’t want to poke your nose in his private life but since you were kids, you told each other everything? whether it was embarrassing or not like the one time you fell in a puddle because you were too scared of a bee. 

“hey Xiaojun,” you say as you go closer to the webcam “why you so smiley for?” you sounded a little passive aggressive but you didn't mean to.

 “Just talking to someone,” he smiles but that’s all he says and your friends notice.

 “Hey yn, wanna go to the new boba themed cafe tomorrow?” Hendery asks 

 Sicheng gasps “OIOI let me come as well,” he says. 

Hanna frowns “ I have a Liberal arts examination tomorrow after uni, I can’t go but i hope you have fun! i’ll go next time,” she smiles. 

“how about you Minseo? are you free tomorrow too?” Sicheng asks whilst tackling his puppy that was trying to eat his phone.

“I have to help my mother.. with groceries” she nods with her sweet smile.

“what ‘bout you,” Sicheng tries to get Xiaojun’s attention

“o- OH me, I cant tomorrow sorry~” 

You had to go offline. You declined the call without notifying that you’re going offline.

That night as you sat on your phone on your chat with Xiaojun wanting to rant to him you stopped and deleted the message and slammed your phone down on your bed. Your chest hurt really bad, was it your asthma acting up again? You try to sit up and search for your pump in the bed side table where you put all your medication for easy access although when you used it, it didn’t work. Maybe you were just exhausted so you needed to sleep. Your phone chimes, it was Hendery:

Hendery: Hey, you alright? you seemed off on facetime and then left

YN: not really... 

should you lie?

YN: just going through a stressful time

HENDERY: do you wanna talk about it? i’m here to listen to you

YN: thank you but i’m not feeling well right now and i was half way through making dinner and i just can’t be bothered to continue. I wasted so much.... 

HENDERY: if you want i can help you out? I know Hanna has to study, idk about Minseo, Xiaojun has guitar practice now and Sicheng has dance rehearsals 

YN: thats what they said after i left right?

HENDERY: yea and I’m free so

YN: I mean if you want i dont wanna force you

HENDERY: anything for a friend

The fact that a new friend care about you more than your best friend who you knew since preschool

HENDERY: I’ll be there in around half an hour what’s your house number?

YN: ahh okay, I can pick you up from downstairs 

HENDERY: okay that’s fine :D

Hendery offline.

That evening when Hendery arrived, he brought extra snacks and ice cream as well as soju. “H-” you were cut off by him. “I know you like soju so let loose a little” he smiles “you didn’t need to buy me so much?” you exclaim. He goes over to your hob to see that you’re making cheesy tteokbokki with some ramen and were also half way through making a kimbap. “Easy meal, i can make this” he continues from where you stopped from. You kept looking at your phone to see if you got any notifications.. none. But you tried to forget about ti since Hendery was here to keep you company and you had someone to eat with. You felt suffocated so you opened your window a little to ventilate your apartment and you took a pump of your asthma pump and assisted Hendery with the food. The aura was serene and everything felt bright as if the stars had lowered themselves for you tonight. The food had been plated and the drinks were poured into glasses and you both sat on the couch facing the tv watching a show. “how you feeling?” he asks. You noticed that he asks you that quite often? why? “A little, you’re a good chef!” You compliment him and as you do you see his rather charming face glow up. Your phone chimed and you reached over for it and see the notification; “who is it?” Hendery asks, curious if it’s one of the others. “Oh, it’s just Xiaojun I don’t know what he wants right now,” you unlock your phone and read the message;

XIAOJUN: wyd

You felt your stomach spiralling viciously. were you about to throw up? Your chest began to hurt with affliction. 

YN: nothing hbu

XIAOJUN: I was talking

YN: to?

XIAOJUN: a friend of mine

YN: since when were you so interested in this friend that you’d ignore us on face time

You could feel it was getting harder to breathe and your cheeks were burning up red. “hey yn, you’re going red? easy slowly you might choke,”he coughed 

XIAOJUN: why are you so passive aggressive? if i’m annoying you i can go

YN: and talk to this friend, okay

XIAOJUN: ?? 

YN: nothing, I’ll go back to hanging out with Hendery, at least he cares.

XIAOJUN: you’re with Hendery!! Since when were you and him a thing! I’m happy for you :D

YN: we’re fucking not. he’s my friend... it’s a shame how my childhood best friend doesn’t give a fuck about me

yn is offline.

XIAOJUN: yn? what? what happened what did i do

XIAOJUN: lets talk this out

XIAOJUN: hello? come back online, i do care.

XIAOJUN: yn...

xiaojun is offline.

You threw your phone on the floor and got up leaving your food on the table and going to the bathroom. Quickly you knelt down at the toilet bowl and your stomach heaved what you just ate and not only that a bunch of water. It wasn’t bile, you knew what bile was but this was pure water that exited your body. You began to get chestier coughs and in this time Hendery knocked on the door. “ yn, you don’t sound well, do you want me to help you? can i come in?” Thats exactly how Xiaojun would speak to you and how much he cared for you. Your night was crashing down on you like an asteroid destroying everything that night. Hendery opened the door and saw you dangling over the toilet bowl having difficulties breathing and your cheeks tear stained. “oh my god, yn-” he rushes to get to you and tries to pick you up but your mind was a mess and your previous memories disrupted the present. “XIAOJUN GO AWAY!”

“Hey, yn... I’m not xiaojun I’m Hendery” he says gently trying to solace you. He was understanding and heartfelt. He had all the qualities that Xiaojun has to make a perfect best friend. Eventually you got to your bed with Hendery’s help and he cleaned the apartment up for you. He went into the bathroom and you heard the tap running but even closer he was heaving too? Maybe it was the cheese? who knew.. “ hey yn, if you need me you’re free to call or message me anytime okay,” thats what Xiaojun said too once. You nod and he leaves the apartment until the next day. 

The growth of roots 11:43am: You had your early morning lectures and you sat on the University steps on your phone since.

MINSEO: hey where are you?

HANNA: library studying :/ hbu

MINSEO: looking for Xiaojun

MINSEO: and yn + sicheng

HANNAH: ohh okay, Hendery?

MINSEO: ohh yeah i forgot about him 

HANNA: where’s yn?

MINSEO: idk??

XIAOJUN: you lot spam, i’m coming out from the back entrance, i’ll be there

*seen by yn*

XIAOJUN: i see you lurking yn

YN: okay

XIAOJUN: aren’t you meeting with your boyfriend

MINSEO: boyfriend???

YN: Hendery is not my boyfriend, can you fucking not :)

yn has turned off her activity status...

Xiaojun taps your shoulder and smiles at you profoundly and offers you a hand to help you up. “what are you doing here alone?” Xiaojun asks despite you going off at him. “i dont know i wanted to be alone?” you scoff as subtle as you could. “ well Xiaojun is here now,” he says as he wraps his arm around your waist but it felt different.. to you at least. His flawless smile made you forget why you were mad at him in the first place; as you begin to walk your phone chimes.

HENDERY: hey where are you? I’m waiting at your bus stop :D

YN: i’ll be there soon sorry for making you wait

HENDERY:  it’s okay :D x

As you got to the main road, Xiaojun still had his arm around and Hendery called your name from afar but as he saw you both his smile dropped into a frown. Did you plan something without telling him to stitch him up? You writhe out of Xiaojun’s arms but he grabbed your arm. “where you doing?” he pouted and that was it. “w-with Hendery,” you gulped but your skin felt as if it were on flames and your lungs were clogged? you brought your asthma pump today too just incase. “oh yeah, he’s taking you out,” Xiaojun nods “ Have fun,” he suddenly drops your arm. You walk to Hendery not wanting to look back but Hendery saw what he saw and he didn’t want to say it....yet. That afternoon the boba shop with Hendery was diverting, it was a shame that it was just you two though... 

9:21PM: you sit at your dining table and scroll through your phone before you see a photo of Xiaojun on your feed but you thought nothing of it and scrolled past it. A painful knot began to grow within your lungs? what was this pain? You didn’t know what it was but the pain was just unbearable. It was difficult for you to breathe but you used your asthma pump but it didnt work this time so you ran to the bathroom again and your couldn’t help but throw up again but this time it was strange? There were red petals and leaves and peculiar vine looking things which startled you and couldn’t stop. The feeling was worse than last time, this time is felt tighter; there was was no scientific meaning behind this. You sat against the bathroom wall and pondered who you should tell? Maybe you’d keep it to yourself since no one would believe you right and claim that you’re making it up for attention, at least you hope they wouldn’t think that. You help your phone between your trembling hands, you were terrified. Coughing was painful; it was as if tiny thorns impaled you lungs and tight vines and roots were wrapping around it more and more every day. The question is, why? The whole night you sat in your apartment alone and agony. Help me. 

Your mind echoed with theories and conspiracies, were you a mutant? a glitch? or was this all a dream. The December Christmas festival was a big thing in Seoul so everything was decorated in red, white and green with snowflakes and mistletoes hidden around the street where the Cafe was. The tinsel glistened in the fairy lights swathed the tall street lamps as well as the shop windows. It was  Christmas day the following week and your friends organised a small Christmas party just amongst you and your friends and they decided to book a Karaoke room and then go to your apartment since you were the only one who lived alone. “what do you think yn? are you okay with the idea?” Minseo asks her pretty dusty pink lips pouting at you. She looked twice as pretty today; her hair was loosely curled, her eyes glittering soft pink and champagne, her lips a dusty pink and her clothing all neat and pretty. “yeah, that’s fine” you nod looking down and feel you coughing start up again covering your mouth “ excuse me..” you blurt out before running to the bathroom and locking yourself in a stall. “what happened?” Hanna asked confused and concerned “should we go to check on her?”. “I think she’s feeling unwell but we can go,” Minseo adds on and Hanna immediately gets up. Meanwhile, whilst you were coughing up blood, petals and full flower buds excruciatingly your phone chimes. 

XIAOJUN: hey, are u at the cafe with Minseo and Hanna? Sicheng and I are around the corner.

you ignored it since your excruciating pain didn't allow you to respond to him. Your eyes tear up smudging your eyeliner and staining your cheeks. Once you felt okay enough to leave, you fix your makeup and open the bathroom door. Opposite was the mens bathroom and you saw Hendery walk out too, brushing his thumb over the corner of his lip. “are you okay?” he asks looking at you noticing you were crying. “ i’m fine, just don’t feel well,” you lie “ your eyes are red? are you okay?” you ask him. There was a short silence. “just choked....on a hazelnut,” he responded. You knew he was lying but he knew you were too. December 24th 5pm the group met at the karaoke bar and went into the room they booked. It reminded you of your first year at university when it was just you and the girls; it was the first time you got drunk and had to crash at Hanna’s mothers house (of course she stayed with you). You all sat around the table and you were wedged between Xiaojun and Hendery. Great. Hanna and Sicheng picked a song and of course it was Girl Generation, Hanna’s favourite. You sat there next to Hendery and Xiaojun and Hendery tapped your shoulder to break you out of your dazed state. He slid a small shot glass across the table and you took it before choking on the pungent alcohol. “WOAH WOAH slow down yn, you normally never drink this quick or like this,” Xiaojun takes the shot glass from you. “and people change best friend,” you shrug his arm that sat on your shoulders off “ Hendery, please can you pour me an-” before your coughing began acting up again although this time you couldn’t run out since you were stuck between them; you felt liquid rise up your throat and thats when everything was out of your control and you coughed up blood, water buds and petals again and everyone gasped in shock and horror! “y-yn...” Xiaojun, Hanna and Minseo stopped and stared at you whilst you were trying to get rid of the flowers and buds. Hendery however put his arm around you and covered you and whispered something to you...

“hey, breathe slowly, it’s okay..” his mellifluous tone calming you.

“should we give you some space?” Xiaojun asks as he moves to sit next to Minseo and gave you and Hendery some space. Your heart ached and you closed your eyes and leaned into Hendery’s chest and he let out a small gasp. Hanna and Sicheng were back to the karaoke so the terrible singing, except Sicheng, drowned out the intrusive thoughts. Hendery hesitated putting his arms around you to form a hug, but he did anyway and comforted you. Around 7:30pm it was time to go to your apartment for the gift exchange for the secret santa you all organised. You had Xiaojun. oh the luck. Recently he hasn’t been acting the same and a pit fell in your stomach. You all sat in a circle. You sat next to Sicheng and Hendery this time. Xiaojun sat next to Hendery and Minseo. Sicheng gave his give to Minseo which was a fluffy pink purse like bag she had been wanting for months now and her face began to glow, the lights doing her all the justice. She was just... ethereal. you compared yourself to her a lot. “OMG Sicheng thank you so much I’ve been wanting this for so long” and hugged him. Next it was Hanna to Hendery; he unwrapped the gift and it was a silver plated rose pin. “ I didn’t know what to get but you work at a florist and seem to like flowers a lot,” She let out a soft chuckle. “ Its great! thank you!”. Minseo got Sicheng and got him a silver ring which looked rather expensive. You hesitated to give your gift to Xiaojun. You bought him a pair of shoes he has been wanting for a while and you wrote in your card;

‘ I hope we can step we can walk through everything together and not miss a single milestone.’

He smiles at the card - “ me too, let’s be friends even after we’re married,” but you know what he meant by that. Lastly it was Hendery. He gifted you a jewellery set which were little daisies made of silver as well as a little note inside 

‘ You look absolutely beautiful in silver, I hope you wear these and think of me, Hendery x’

“Thank you so much Hendery I love them so much!” You smiled at the gift. 

That evening as everyone drank hot drinks and played games together, you noticed something. Something about yourself. A deep desire that had been whirling in you mind and heart for the longest time had finally arisen and you decided that it was true. You look at him. His ebony locks neatly sitting over his forehead, his guitar bag on his back, his pearly white smile- everything about him. But he’s your best friend? you cant fall for him. This is what your heart was striking itself over and over again; your own best friend and your forbidden feelings for him. It all made sense. Whenever your eyes collided it felt like a million fireworks exploding into the sea of darkness, illuminating the void in your vacant heart making it feel vivacious. Your emptiness felt revived whenever he touched you, or your stomach would flutter when he would speak to you; his mellifluous voice echoing in your ears. That was it. You were completely in love with Xiaojun. It made sense after all these years you would grow such strong emotions for him and it was obvious now that you liked him. Perhaps he had the same feelings for you too since thats how he would act around you with all the holding and intimacy between you both and how he would care about you so much. You were certain of it. As you thought to yourself whilst in a room amongst your buoyant friends, you thought that perhaps you could confess to him. Now? okay maybe not now... maybe ask him to hang out after Christmas day? it was the best option. Eventually, as it hit 4am, everyone dozed off on the floor, couch and armchair. Xiaojun was curled up on one side of the couch, his arms hugging a cushion of yours and Sicheng on the other side. Hanna slept on the arm chair, Minseo slept against the sofa and Hendery slept on one side of your bed. Everywhere was occupied and you had no choice but to use the unoccupied space on your bed but it was fine he was your best friend so it was normal; you did this with Xiaojun and the girls multiple times.

You waited a while until New Years Eve to do what you have been planning for the remaining time that was left between Christmas and NYE. There was a firework display that was over the Han river and you and your friends went to see it. It was colder during the night time so you wrapped up warm and everyone was so effervescent and laughed together drinking sparkling Champagne or Prosecco. You stood next to Xiaojun and tapped his shoulder however he was too focused on the drink and on someone else talking to him. It wasn’t easy to hear each other since people were bustling around from town to the river. “Xiaojun!” you shout so he can hear you and he turns around smiling, his cheeks flushed a light pink. Everything seemed... different. He was glowing, his lips were a blushing pink, his skin like smooth glass. Everything had seemed to have enhanced? “I want to tell you something,” you say to him, a knot forming at your throat and you struggle to gulp your nerves. “ What is it?” he asks you lowering himself so he can hear you. His face was only inches away from your face and you wanted to do it, you really wanted to but you waited until 12am. “I’ll tell you after t-the countdown,” you stutter. He nods in confirmation and goes back to the group. Hendery talks and smiles with Sicheng but there was a fragment of pain and suffering in his eyes and you could tell when someone was hurting from a distance. He asked Sicheng to hold his drink before he went elsewhere.. did you want to follow him and ask hi if he’s okay or should you wait and tell Xiaojun how you felt. You chose him instead...

There was 1 minute left. You waited for the countdown. 5. 4. 3. 2. 1.

  HAPPY NEW YEAR! 

You look for Xiaojun since he wandered off closer to the front of the river. You run through the crowd of people but stop. Everything darkens. You feel empty. It felt like you feel out of heaven and everything was taken away from you. The heavenly passion, the sweet intentions you had vanished; Destroyed into an abyss of torment and pain. You felt the tear of you heart. I’m sorry. you tell yourself. You wish you didn’t have to witness what you did but.. well.. you did. 

Xiaojun stood there smiling ear to ear. The smile was sweet but you never saw him smile with so much admiration and love in his gaze before. You froze and watched what was happening, the pain in your heart only getting increasing worse and worse restricting you from breathing more. You see the girl he was looking at and it was none other than Minseo... His blushed lips pressed against her peachy toned lips, Minseo tip toeing to reach him and put her arms around his neck. He lifted her by the waist and the both giggled into each others kisses. You had it. You couldn’t do it anymore. Maybe it was time for this to all stop once and for all. Xiaojun comes up to you and sits beside you. “hey yn, what were you doing to tell me earlier?” he asks tilting his head back so his locks were pushed back from his face. “oh,” you pause. What else do you have to lose? “X-Xiaojun...” you stutter and he nods. “I-I loved you,”

Your heart stopped. It skipped a beat.

“huh?” he asks “you love me,” he chuckles “I’m glad you had the courage to tell me that yn but-” he gulps and smiles again “I love someone else...”

You didn’t know what to say but your tears took over. Hendery wandered around looking for you and saw you sobbing and Xiaojun not knowing what to do. He runs up to you; “ Yn? hey you okay, whats wrong,”. You didnt speak but just cried. “why is she crying?” Hendery asks Xiaojun concerned. “ I told her I love someone else... I didn’t know she liked me” Hendery stopped whilst holding you. “she liked you?” – rejection never tasted so good.. right

Now there were thunderstorms within Hendery’s mind and heart as well as yours.

Everything went black. 

You woke up. The bright light blinded you and you blinked hard to see where you were but the pain in your chest was.... gone. “how long has it been?” you ask a nurse in the room. “hmm 4 days,” You were shocked. “did i get surgery?” you ask. “ yes there was a peculiar blockage in your lungs and we had to remove them,”

You were pain free.

“ someones here to pick you up though,” The doors open to Hendery and Xiaojun. “Hey how are you now,” Xiaojun asks “I’m sorry about New Years, It’s just me and Minseo hung out once and there was this feeling i never had, i’m sorry i lead you on”

you thought for a bit. “I never liked you like that? I didn’t romantic feelings for you,” Hendery turns around and nods but leaves. “i’ll be back,”

“but you told me last night you did? i’m confused,” Xiaojun thinks

“oh, well i don’t,” You shrug

Hendery comes back and tells you both that it’s time for your discharge.

Months pass as everything is back to normal except one day. 

It was a refreshing spring day, the blossoming flowers glided through the spring breeze as the sun light cascades onto the viridescent greenery. You sit outside and always waited for your friends and always complimented how Xiaojun and Minseo looked, despite the memory that had been removed from your heart and mind. Hendery gave Xiaojun a small box and a card to give to you on your birthday; “ make sure she gets these on her birthday,” he tells him “i’ll be out of town for a while....” he lied but Xiaojun didn’t know but agreed to do what he asked. But as days went by a member of your friendship group vanished. Where did Hendery go? 

One evening, you received a small box and a card with it on your birthday. 

“ To my one love YN,

Since the second year of university when i first laid eyes on you I couldn’t control my feelings for you. You swept me away. I’m sorry I couldn’t spend your birthday with you but i had something i had to take care of. I have something important to tell you and that is you did love Xiaojun and whatever pain you felt was something i felt too.... for you. But getting the buds, vines and thorns removed it also made you lose all romantic feelings. Im sorry but I couldn’t see you in pain anymore. But i’ll be back... and hopefully my feelings wont get in the way anymore. 

-Hendery”

The silver rose was placed in the box. Hendery loved you? A rush of guilt and sadness flood through out you and now you were worried about him. He was in more pain than you were but he was strong and endured it just to make you happy. Because despite him being in pain, your happiness made him feel at ease. You called, messaged, you did everything you could. No answer at all. He disappeared. No sign of him at all and all you have left is a silver rose..

Where did Hendery go? 

[lavenderbones22]

Angel-  Ben Hardy

Summary: His girl is one of the hottest model's in the world and she's about to walk the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show. Incredibly aroused, Ben must wait until the show's over before he can see her and show her how he truly feels.

Requested: 'yeaa i think tumblr did eat my request >;( i sent u a few days ago about a ben hardy smut ; his girlfriend is a Victoria Secret model and he's at a show & ya noe'

Word Count: 3548

A/N So sorry about the absence guys, hope this makes up for it! 

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I finally felt like I was being recognised for all of my hard work over so many years. My career had indeed reached it pinnacle; this was it, my defining moment.

My diet though leading up to the big day was extremely restrictive. I certainly wasn't a stranger to intense diet and workout regimes but this was unlike anything I had done before.

I could take the food restrictions and the workouts three times a day but the restriction I and not to mention my boyfriend Ben, struggled with the most was the ban on sex a week prior to the show. I had no idea why it was, apparently it was something that had been set in place since the very first Victoria's Secret show ,so unwilling to create a stir, I nodded and accepted what had to be done.

Of course, breaking the news to Ben was another story as our sex life was above average I guess you could say. We had sex pretty much every day, sometimes more if we were feeling particularly frisky.

Needless to say, when one of us was away working things were pretty tough.

"You're joking!" His brows were raised so high on his forehead that I thought they were about to be launched into space.

I bit my lip nervously, shaking my head. "'fraid not," I responded.

"W-what!?" He tried to spit his words out. "W-why?"

I shrugged my shoulders, tying my hair into a bun on the top of my head. "It's just what they said." I informed him. "I didn't want to question it."

"I can't believe you didn't!"

"Ben I wasn't going to jeopardise anything just to ask why I can't have sex with my boyfriend for a week," I crossed my arms defensively over my chest, shifting my weight onto one hip. "This is my dream come true."

Ben sighed, feeling bad for catechising me. "Baby," his voice cooed, stepping closer and pulling me into him. "I didn't mean it like that."

I looked up at him and into his bright, green eyes. "Believe me when I say it's going to be as difficult for me as it is for you," I said quietly with a smirk.

"That's where you're wrong my love. I have to watch you strut around on that runway half naked," he kissed underneath my jawline, down along my neck. "I'm going to be hard the whole time," his words were muffled against the heat of my skin. "I just know it."

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BEN'S POV

Today was the big day.

I didn't get to see my girl for long before the show. She was up at 5am. I was barely awake as she pecked me on the cheek and said she'd see me later on. I think there were soft calls of 'I love you' but whose to know.

I couldn't wait to see her. I'd gone for an all black suit with a sheer black shirt underneath that was her favourite. I couldn't wait for her to rip it all off of me later on.

Arriving at the venue, I was stopped a few times for quick interviews as well as chat's with friends of hers. We'd been together for three and a half years so I was definitely used to all of the attention she received but sometimes, and I knew that tonight was certainly going to be one, I struggled with it all; especially when it came from the men.

I never really considered myself a jealous guy. I wasn't quick to anger nor did I ever have a lack of trust in the partner's I'd chosen. But when you're faced with a situation where your girlfriend is the object of many men around the world's wildest fantasies; it makes you feel some kind of way. I'd come across posts online, heard people talking in public unaware of who I was and even had men say to my face how much they'd love to spend a night with my girl.

So no, I wasn't jealous. I just didn't put up with having my girlfriend spoken and written about like she was some sort of public possession.

Sat in the audience next to her mum and sister, I was beyond excited for the show to start. Not having to wait long, the lights went out and The Weeknd came out to open the show.

She was the fourth girl out and the breath got knocked out of my body the minute my eyes landed on her. She wore a black lacy thong that laced all the way up to her belly button, her D cup breasts looking phenomenal in a match lacy, black bra. A sparkled long sleeved top that cut off just above her breasts covered her; I'd never been so horny in my twenty eight years of existence.

"Fuck," I breathed out. Her mum, who I was sat next to, looked over at me smiley widely-proud.

"She's beautiful," she sighed happily as she grabbed my hand in hers. "You must be so proud of your girl!" Her eyes that were identical to her daughters looked at me, tears were brimming in them.

"I really am. You must be so proud of your girl too!" I said back to her, squeezing her hand in support. I got along with her family extremely well, they treated me like the son they never had.

"Like you wouldn't believe Ben!" She said before she got up on her feet, cheering out her girls name. I laughed, clapping and using my fingers to whistle loudly as she strutted to the end of the runway, smiled widely whilst doing a cute little pose and turned around walking back. On her way back The Weeknd held his hand out to her which she took and did a little twirl under. Fuck, she was adorable. I loved her more than anything, I was so fucking proud of my angel.

Once the show was over, we had to attend the after party. I knew she had to get changed for it since I'd sat around whilst she had many dress fittings. Whilst waiting on her I took in my surroundings. It was mostly media. So many of them. The coverage of this thing was crazy, I'd never seen anything like it.

The second I spotted her, my heart starting thumping heavily.

"Ben!" She squeaked, running up and wrapping her arms around my neck and hugging me.

"You did so well baby," I spoke into her ear, pulling back and kissing her hard. "I'm so fucking proud of you." She was in a pink Victoria's Secret robe, looking exceptionally adorable.

"Thank you!" Her energy was palpable; she was like sunshine. She left my arms and went over to her mum and sister who had been chatting to a few people. Unfortunately they weren't able to attend the after party so it was just me and my girl. Not that I was complaining of course.

"I'm just going to get changed into my dress for the party," she told me with a quick peck to my lips. "Won't be long."

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REGULAR POV

I was on such a high. The show was over, a total success, I hadn't fallen and I was free to finally have sex with my boyfriend.

I knew Ben was raring to go the second his skin touched mine, I could feel the heat and arousal flowing through him. I think if my mum and sister hadn't been standing right there he would have whispered multiple dirty things in my ear. I wished he had anyway.

I changed into a silver, floor length dress that was 90 percent see through. It had chains that went around my chest and my neck, my tits nearly falling out. But I felt a million dollars in it and I knew it would make Ben loose his mind.

He hadn't expected me when I wrapped my hands around his mid section from behind, my fingers crawling along his abs. He was looking tasty as fuck tonight. The bastard knew how much I loved that shirt on him.

"I'm back," I sung, kissing his back. He turned around so quick I nearly fell over, his strong hands grabbing my upper arms to steady me, while his eyes wandered my scantily clad body.

"Jesus Christ," he muttered. "Are you sure that's legal?" His green eyes, nearly black from his hugely dilated pupils, lit up like a kid on Christmas morning.

I nodded, biting my bottom lip. "In most places..."

He cupped his jaw, rubbing his fingers along it, lost for words. "Erm...I...well, fuck!" He laughed. "You look so fucking gorgeous." His hands now both placed on my body, moved down to my lower hips, creeping down over my ass and cupping both cheeks. "I don't even care if we're in public," he exclaimed. "I'm so horny I can't even stand it!"

I giggled and pulled him into a kiss. "Two hours max babe, then we can go back to the hotel!" A frustrated sigh followed by a reluctant 'fine', Ben and I put our socialising faces on and headed off hand in hand into the crowded venue.

I hadn't intended to drink so much, have so many shots and give my boyfriend a blow job in the disabled toilets but hey, things happen!

We stumbled out of the elevator onto the eleventh floor of the hotel we were staying in in New York, Ben hopelessly trying to locate the key card in his wallet.

"Hurry up!" I begged, my hand finding its way to his cock while he groaned in irritation at his own complacency regarding the room key. "I need you inside of me," I purred into his ear, biting his lobe.

Finally success in finding the key, Ben used it to open the door and drag me inside. I was in a fit of giggles, horny, drunk, excited from my dream having come true this evening. "Ben, help me take this off," I moaned trying to take the dress off but failing miserably.

"With pleasure." His eyes narrowed as he walked across the room towards me, untangling me from my dress and as much as I knew he wanted to literally rip it off of me from having been celibate for a week, it was far too expensive for him to do that.

"I'm so glad I have a boyfriend with respect for fashion," I giggled, running my hands through my hair.

"And I'm so glad I have a girlfriend with tits as perfect as yours," he replied, taking my right breast in his grip and bringing his mouth down to cover my nipple.

"Fuck," I moaned, my eyes closed and my fingers running through his hair. "Don't hold back on me tonight, yeah?"

He looked up. "Did you really think that I would?"

"No, but I thought I should remind you how much I fucking need it," I smirked.

"Love you," he kissed me quickly right before he got to his knees and ripped my thong off.

"Love...you too," I responded in gasped breaths as his tongue met my clit for the first time tonight. "Ahhh," I cried as his tongue kept moving up and down my opening, purposely avoiding touching my clit again. He had one hand gripping my hip, whilst the other he used to open me up to him.

My knees began to feel weak as he eventually found his way back to my clit, beating at it with such unrelenting focus that I could barely remember my own name. Before too long, his fingers then joined his tongue, stroking along me then pushing inside of me. His tongue sucked on my clit while he pumped two fingers in and out of my pussy. "Fuck yeah Ben," I moaned. "So fucking good!" My grip on his hair got tighter and I think that the more I pulled at the strands of blonde locks, the more he was getting turned on. The boy liked a little bit of pain, there was no denying it. I let out a little squeak when he bit at my labia, causing Ben to laugh with a mouthful of my pussy. "You freak!" I laughed, pushing at his shoulder.

"Don't act like you're not impressed baby." He was right, she had no comeback because she fucking loved it. His tongue was back at my clit moving at a ridiculously fast pace, his fingers rubbing against my g spot perfectly. My moans were getting out of hand and I hoped that we didn't have any other people on this floor.

Slowing down to help me control my orgasm, Ben started licking at me softly, moaning against me to create that little bit of extra stimulation. "Mmmm," I hummed. "So good." He had taken his fingers out of me, both his hands running up the back of my legs and cupping my bare naked ass as he continued to enjoy the taste of me on his tongue.

Although I loved the fast, radical pace he had began with, it was the slow, sensual licks that became my undoing; Ben knew this. I was yelping in his grip, his hands having to move to my hips again in order to keep me from falling over in pleasure since I was still standing. His tongue sped up a little, as he brought me closer and closer. "Ohhhh yeah, fuck Ben....mmmm," I cried. "I'm coming," I warned him, his tongue moving inside of me so he could capture my juices on the tip of it.  Once Ben licked me clean, he got to his feet and ran his tongue up the side of my neck. I moaned loudly, tilting my head to the side so he had more access, my fingers digging into his shoulder blades.

"I wanted to jump onto that catwalk and fuck you right there in front of everyone," he growled, picking me up with his hands firmly on my upper thighs. "Show everyone that this body is mine."

A high pitched squeal escaped me as Ben bit down on my collarbone, before soothing it with a lick of his hot tongue. My legs were tight around his waist now as he carried me over to the king sized hotel room bed that had yet to be touched. I loved it when he was dominant with me like this, he always was after we'd gone a while without having sex.

He laid me down on the bed gently while taking his blazer and sheer shirt off, holding himself up by his defined arms either side of my head. I pouted and ran my hands along his now bare chest. He cocked his head, asking without words what on earth there was to pout about right now. "I wanted to take that off." I said sweetly, looking up into his eyes, my hands running through his hair.

"Well I can always put it back on so you can?" He suggested, laughing a little before kissing me.

"It would be a sin to cover that gorgeous chest back up," I cooed, eyeing his defined chest that looked like it was sculptured from a Greek God. "But really Ben," I began as I looked back into his heavenly green eyes. "Thanks for being there tonight." I hadn't thanked him and maybe I didn't need to, but I wanted to. I wanted him to know just how much his support meant to me. I knew it was sometimes hard for him to stand back when so many people said stuff about me, particularly about how I looked. His natural instinct was to defend me, protect me, but unfortunately in this industry you had to let a lot of things go.

"I wouldn't have missed it for anything in the world," he spoke softly. "You are the most magnificent woman I have ever laid my eyes on," he littered my skin with soft kisses and occasional licks of his tongue that created shivers through me. His lips found mine again thankfully where he indulged me in a heated kiss. "But I would think that whether you walked the Victoria's Secret runway or not," he laughed.

Our soft moment was soon over quickly when I hastily flipped him over so I was sat on his midsection, my body on full display for him. My pussy was soaking, leaving a patch of wetness on his abs. I rocked my hips a little creating a whiney groan from Ben. "You like riding my abs like that?" His hands were on my hips guiding me while he wore a cheeky grin. "Leaving your juices all over me?"

I giggled, nodding my head but never losing my rhythm.

"You're such a good girl," Ben praised me, his hands leaving my hips and silkily roaming up my sides until he harshly grabbed each of my breasts. "So fucking sexy." Deeper now, his voice could have made me come right then and there. One of my favourite things about my boyfriend was his talking voice; smooth and calming. But when things got heated in the bedroom it reached a level that previously I would have thought impossible. The deepness exuded pure sex.

"I want your cock." It was getting too much now, I needed him inside me.

"Oh you do, do you?" He cocked a brow, a brazen smile on his face. Damn, those pink lips looked extra luscious from eating me out.

"Yeah. So take your pants off please." I climbed off him, his stomach glistening under the low lights coming from the lamps on either side of the bed. I pulled a hair band off my wrist to tie my hair up while I watched him undo his belt, pulling his pants and underwear down so fast if I blinked I would have missed it.

"Keen?" I giggled.

"Baby, keen is an understatement," he retorted, kicking the last of his pants off his ankles. "Now get back over here!" He reached out, pulling me over by the back of my leg. I threw one leg over Ben and hovered above his angry looking cock. Pre cum was leaking out the top, he was literally about to explode.

"Hop on baby, I'm bursting," he took my hips in his strong hold again as I impaled myself with his huge dick.

Mutual moans filled the room as I started to rock my hips in circles. The intrusion of him inside of me after a very long week had me yelling, my mouth falling open as high pitched moans constantly fell out. Usually Ben liked to gradually build up to the hard and fast art of fucking but not tonight, no he was right into it and I was loving every second.

I leant forward on his sweaty chest which Ben took as an opportunity to thrust hard up into me. "Oh fuck Ben.....mmmmm," I cried, throwing my head back in pleasure as my pussy took the full brunt of each hard thrust. His cock slide in and out of me with such ease at this point, the wet sounds and skin slapping all that could be heard among our loud, passionate moans.

It was becoming the most intense sex we had had in a very long time. I supposed the anticipation to it as well as how fucking sexy we thought one another looked tonight, I would have been crazy to think that this would have gone any other way.

I ran my ringers through his sweaty hair as I leant down further, kissing him, his fingers scratching down my back, which I arched to create a deeper angle. Our moans became lost in our kisses before Ben pulled away.

"Ahhh, fuck, you're so fucking wet, babe," he groaned, moving to leave multiple bites along my collarbones, just above my tits, finally almost taking my right nipple off by yanking it so hard.

"Shit," I squealed, making Ben laugh. "Do you not want me to have nipples?"

Ben chuckled, pumping into me even harder and pulling my attention right back to where it needed to be. We clung to one another, clawing at each other's damp skin as we both approached our peaks. Things were becoming fast and frenzied.

"Fuck yeah, harder!" I coaxed Ben on, to which he sat up immediately and dug his fingers into my hips. I took the hint, instantly starting to bounce up and down on him. My arms wrapped tightly around his neck, my tits still bouncing against his chest as I fucked myself on him.

"I'm gonna come," he groaned deeply, his fingers leaving red marks on the skin of my hips as he guided me up and down faster. Sure enough a few seconds later I felt him come inside of me which triggered my orgasm. Ben groaned again as I tightened around him and rode out my orgasm.

Once we both recovered from our orgasms, we remained in the same position, him still comfortably inside of me.

"Next time someone tells you to refrain from sex for work can you tell them to go fuck themselves?" His hands ran up and down my back in a loving manner.

"How about I'll tell them that I'll go fuck you instead?" Gruffly laughing, he proceeded to roll me over for round two.

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[mrghoul8977]

BYE-BYE BITCH(pinkman style)

hey people!! 

as a kid of the most awesome parents in the world i havent been through much.. but i have a story to share.. i feel like no one is gonna see this , so i feel safe to share my shit... 

back in my 10th grade i saw a girl.. lets call her isha , and i dont if i liked her or not but i heard that she liked me and my friends heard it too and they were like dude you should do something about it...  i didnt know how to talk to a girl , so i asked my friends for help and i had this friend who was good with this kind of things .. he took my phone and he started to chat with her.. btw this friend i  am referring to , lets call him love.. and isha was love’s x .. that didnt effect me .. soo ya ... he helped me and one thing lead to anther and before i knew i was in a relationship with a pretty girl... i didnt know how to treat a girl but she was with me no matter what and slowly i started to open up to her.. i started to share my shit and we became close .. we were strong for like 3 months... then i had a thing with my nose and had to go the doctor .. i didnt go to the school for 3 days.. after 3 days i went to school and everything was shit, for the first time in  my life i didnt tell my mom what i was experiencing , this was a big thing to me.. everyone in the school started calling me 2nd hand boy friend,, why you ask?? because isha went back to love .. they were together.. i asked love wtf dude and he was like “ she told me that everything was over between you guys” and he was right .. she did tell him that and when i asked her about it she was like “i am sorry”.. i still dont know how she could text me “i missed you at school today”.. i have this gang of friends in my life and they started to treat me like an idiot , not their fault but i had a small fight with one of them.. yeaa, a few months passed like this and i was starting to feel good again.. thennn, isha texts me feeling all guilty and shit.. i was like ‘ok, i accept your apology’ and we were back together again... this time i thought it was gonna be different ... everyone at school was looking at me like “you just want sex dude and thats why you accepted a girl even if she cheated on  u” .. i was cool with all this because i knew that she will be with me no matter what...hahahahahahahah... and pretty soon, i experienced the same shit again.. she cheated on me again .. i was done with her.. btw , me and love were always good friends, this isha shit never came in between us and i am proud of it..

    i did well in my 10 th exams and everything was fine.. it was like 1 year and i was at 11th ending when isha started to text me again.. at this point i was in a weird place.. i had no one to text with and talk about my feelings.. and she became the person who listened to me , soon enuf we were together again and this time it was really different.. at this point i felt like i matured a little bit and i knew the difference between admiring someone and liking them and now i can say that i really liked her.. she liked me too.. we texted all night, we pretended to be wife and husband , we talked about hours on end on the phone, we even named our kids and we pretended that i was naruto and she was hinata .. we even sexted for a bit but we never had physical stuff because we were in different collages , her parents very strict and we could not meet.. we were together for like 6months and everything was fine ..on one fucked up day, i get a text from isha’s friend saying “her parents found about you guys and her father is very angry and he wants to come to your collage and ruin your life “ but isha didnt let that happen.. she literally begged her dad to not do anything to me and i was grateful to her.... i could not move onimmediately because it was fucked up, we were talking the night before that  day and  in the morning i get this text saying she cant talk to you because her parents dont want her to... i used to text her after that , she never replied but i felt like she could see my texts... i called her and no one ever lifted.. 

   after a few miserable months she texts say that i need move on and nothing will ever happen between us anymore.. and slowly began to accept it and my exams were on my ass before i knew it... i shifted my concentration towards passing my exams and i did with a decent %... then my dad said we are moving to banglore buddy and at this point i was like “cool”.. i had the best time with my gang during this time, my friends were really helping without even knowing.. love has literally become someone i really loved ... he also moved to banglore with me and i was in a decent spot in life.. 

   you are all caught up , this happened a week ago... love tells me that “ isha texted me dude and she said that she was in a relationship with her cousin.. her parents know about it and they are all supportive and shit”.. and now i am in a position where i dont give two fucks about her.. yeah i loved her at one point but right now i dont want her life to mess up my piece of mind.. 

   buttttttttt... if i could say something to her right now.. i would say “fuck you girl.. go fuck your cousin or a dog or a pig, i dont care anymore.. and btw just give your bf my number and ask him to call me when you decide to leave him.. i wanna be the one who helps him through that shitty phase.. and i wanna ask you this.. when you told me that your parents found out about us , were you lying?? i just want closure .. bye bitch(pinkman style)”