#took a lot out of me and i'm kinda suffering for it rn. but i'm slowly starting to feel like myself again and that's enough for me

[relicsongmel]

Besties I should not have spent 6+ hours writing yesterday. I am desperately floundering just trying to make basic conversation with people my brain is FRIED

[rodeo-clowns]

heyy, I just wanted to request a Rachel green x fem r. Maybe r is sick and Rachel takes care of her or something like that pls.

Thank youuu

Fade Into You: Rachel Green

A/N: Thanks for requesting! This is something I intended to write really quick around New Years but I got caught up in trying to graduate lmao! Kinda felt motivated to complete this bc I just finished fighting a cold and I wish I could relate to reader rn lmao. I hope you enjoy! Again, sorry for the long wait.

Word Count: 854 words.

Warnings: None, just fluff and a kiss.

It was a regular Saturday morning in New York. The sounds of people starting their days flooded the streets. You were sleeping in your light purple sheets when you awoke to the sound of an ambulance driving by. It was then you realized that you slept with your mouth wide open. Crap. You were officially sick. You had felt a sore throat coming the previous day but hoped that it was just from yelling too much at Monica's tv screen from your girls' movie night two days prior. Unfortunately for you, your nose was stuffed up and your throat was now aching like crazy. Just then, your phone started to ring from the other room.

Rolling off the bed, you took your sheets with you and shuffled into the living room as fast as you could without either passing out or throwing up. When you managed to reach the phone, you answered with a nasally "Hello?"

"Good morning, why do you sound like that?" It was Rachel, your girlfriend of six months. You'd forgotten that you made plans to get breakfast together.

"Oh, I'm sorry Rach I woke up this morning feeling like a truck hit me. Do you mind if we reschedule? I'm so sorry." You said, winded from having to talk so much

“No no of course don’t worry about it. Hey! I have an idea!” She exclaimed. You weakly grunted in response. “How about I come over and take care of you?” She says, clearly ecstatic over the idea.

“Really,” you weakly replied, “you’d do that for me?”

“Uh Duh! I’ll be over there in a second don’t you even worry. Just…lay back and i’ll be there!” She says, sounding kind of rushed and worried.

“Uh okay, thanks Rach, it means a lot.” You reply.

“Anytime.” She says before hanging up. After that, you can’t fight sleep any longer before passing out, head buried in your comfortable pillows. When you later opened your eyes after what felt like a very deep sleep you could head your bedroom door opening.

“Heyy,” it was Rachel, and she seemed to be holding a tray with a bowl of what smelt like chicken noodle soup.

“Rach?” you responded groggily, attempting to sit up.

“Shhh Shhhh yes it’s me, don’t move too much we don’t want you puking now do we!” she says, slightly scolding you but in a joking manner.

“Ok ok, is that chicken noodle soup?”

“Yes, yes I got Monica to speed make some for you on my way here,” she laughs while sitting by your side, placing the tray on your lap.

“You didn’t have to, really,” you say, picking up the spoon placed delicately on a napkin with flowers on it.

“Nonsense! What kind of girlfriend would I be if I just let you suffer?” She replied with a bright smile. After that you simply let her take care of you for the rest of the day. You could get used to being pampered by your Rachel. After all, there's no one quite like Rachel Green and her devotion.

By the end of the day, Rachel had made sure you had eaten enough, stayed hydrated, drank enough fluids and ensured you were never cold with lots and lots of cuddles (although you warned her against it, fearing she might get sick as well). By 11:00 P.M., you felt your fever break as you lay your head on her lap whilst she detangled your hair.

"Rach?" you said, eyes closed.

"Yes?"

"Thank you." you said, finally opening your eyes. She looked cute focusing on your hair before making eye contact with your fluttering eyes. "Seriously, I appreciate it, no one's ever done something like this for me before."

"Well, that's just what you do for the people you love." She said with a smile, her focus going back to your hair, now beginning to braid it. You smiled back at her, slightly lifting your head.

"Rach..."

"hmm?"

"Did you just admit you love me?" You said with a cheeky grin, your eyes fully focused on her. She quickly turned a bright red before removing her hands from your hair and covering her mouth with them.

"Oh my god!" She said. She was clearly embarrassed. Her hands now fully covered her face.

"Rach..." You said, now moving to kneel in front of her. "Rach." You said again, moving her hands away from her face. You gently cradle her face in your hands, stroking her left cheek with your thumb. "I love you too."

"Really?" She said, still embarrassed. You smiled at her.

"Really," you whisper before leaning in and locking your lips with hers. Afterwards, Rachel ended up spending the night in your apartment, cuddled with you as the two of you watched Days of Our Lives, laughing at Dr. Drake Ramoray's bizarre return before the two of you fell asleep. The next morning, you awoke to Rachel sneezing three times in a row before sniffling. It seems that the two of you have a long day ahead of you, but that was okay now that you knew your love was fully mutual.

[nosenipped]

respond to the following prompts out of character, then tag others you'd like to get to know a little bit better.

roleplayer name: lucien!

pronouns: deez / nuts. ( he / they. )

muse name(s): jackson overland frost. :3 his name is so fucking english i literally can't type this without giggling. he's got a korean name too, but im not revealing it because of plot.

preferred communication: discord or DMs. i'm still getting used to the mechanics on tumblr rn so. 😭😭 but there r some features in tumblr's DMs that kinda tick me off, so discord's the home place for communications for me. i run a shit ton of accounts on different platforms too, so if i don't reply it's bc im out of energy or im busy with work. 💔

experience: started in pokémon. got traumatized. went to animerp. also got traumatized. the cycle repeats for about 6 years.

preferred roleplay type: dependent on the day! i've always preferred writing something fluffy as opposed to angsty, ( but the lines are very thin for this muse ) only because jack's already a VERY angsty character and as a whole and i feel if i kept writing angst i'd run out of material quickly.

pet peeves / dealbreakers: forced shipping &&. self—inserts that seem too inserted, eg. forcing themselves onto my muses. ( i realize it's essentially the same thing but trust there's a difference. ) i've only ever shipped muses after messages of development and if i see potential. it's also a matter of personal comfort.

i've had past experiences where people took it too far with their muses and got personally affected by their relationship which is INSANELY unhealthy.

another one is just ship jealousy? i've personally NEVER experienced it as the receiver before, i hope i never do anyway, but we're all friends and grown—ups here im sure we could just write without any hidden agendas. i've had people close to me suffer from this before and it's incredibly sad &&. pathetic, y'all don't do that pls.

best time to write: evening or like. really early in the morning LMAOOO. i'm a night owl most of the times so if im not getting to anything in the morning or afternoon, it's mostly all churned out at night. ( but ofc that doesn't mean i'm not active during the morning or afternoon. )

are you like your muse?: to a large extent, definitely. i wouldn't go as far as to call us twins tho? even if some people do, there's just some things that we see differently.

for starters, unlike this loser, i can swim. /silly i got medals to back my claim.

i'm definitely not as dense to love as this dude is, and i'm able to differentiate platonic and romantic ties. this SUCKS so bad knowing he's also a womanizer in the last books .. i need his ass GONE.

in terms of similarities, i truly see him as something of a vessel to articulate my grief and anger as well as nostalgia through my boyo. :3 and since i've practically rewritten his ass to incorporate book and movie and mythology lore ( it gave me a MIGRAINE during my work i swear ;; the amt of effort i place into him needs to go widespread to my course. ) parts of me are also within to fill the plot holes. <3

i offer my jack frost to write with you all with my heart and soul on the line, so it really means a whole lot to me whenever people love him.

i got tagged by @lcafman ! WAAAHHH ELLIE ILYSM /p ONE OF MY POOKIES AND A GENUINELY GREAT PERSON TO GET TO KNOW. <33

＊ tagging ... @nerdynanny ， @toothcollct ， @saheira ， @seachant ， @fatedarrows ， @chieftain-of-berk ， @pcterpan ， @wishfulmuses ♡ feel free to participate if you'd like!! ( ^ω^ )

[cdroloisms]

hot take: las nevadas four does not queue up a c!q redemption arc. las nevadas five makes some interesting forays in the direction of comeuppance but fails to make the narrative link between that comeuppance and, ultimately, any change. the reason for this is because the prison arc is inadequately integrated into ln4 and ln5. (i'm writing an ln5 essay rn and this is my prompt for you to join me in hell)

i think people who think LN was heading towards a c!quackity redemption arc were tripping fr 😭 like it's not that i would oppose the idea of c!quackity like, even heading in a different direction. but he didn't? he literally didn't. his interactions with c!slime were never examples of c!quackity realizing the dark course he was taking and changing his ways--if anything, they were a reason to double down? he makes a literal slime army in LN5 like. a literal slime army.

i feel like it comes from this misconception that c!Quackity's whole deal revolves around how he ~cares~ for people, and when he felt betrayed and whatever by the fiances and such then his heart froze over and he went for ambition instead. and therefore learning to care for something can unfreeze his heart and make him good again, or something (<- oversimplified). but c!quackity's deal isn't that he closed his heart off to love? like c!quackity's issue is that he's terminally insecure and therefore kinda terminally self-centered--even in c!karlnapity, he was frequently portrayed as being insecure as hell about c!karlnap and preferred when the attention was on him. when c!karl was freaking the fuck out at him in LN4, his immediate reaction to c!karl like having literal memory loss was to scream at him.

all of this is way oversimplified for the record but it's like.

like, c!quackity and c!slime isn't about redemption as much as it is giving c!quackity an opportunity. and what we largely see, honestly, is c!quackity caring about c!slime...and also grooming him to be like, the successor of his country, seeing him as something malleable that he could use to create another version of himself. it's not that c!quackity was necessarily seeking to harm c!slime, but was he being manipulative? i mean, yeah???

and yeah, for sure, LN4 and especially LN5 heavily suffer from a lack of the prison being properly addressed. the prison and c!dream in specifics haunts c!quackity throughout the entirety of LN--any conclusion to this arc no matter what direction c!Quackity took needed a proper resolution to the prison imo ???

like i don't hate purpled's revenge quest, but bringing it back to purpled-quackity-slime Again in LN5 after the conclusion of LN4 made that all hit a lot less hard. i liked the c!punz scene tbh and i also liked c!dream's ditching las nevadas, but that also feels a lot less impactful when he had like, five lines and barely a confrontation (fuck the internet connection there FR). like, c!Quackity rejecting change isn't bad in itself, but it feels like later parts of las nevadas emphasize his decisions less in favor of what's done to him, and what's done to him doesn't feel enough like a consequence of his own actions. furthermore, so much about Las Nevadas and the Prison (the revive book in specifics) has everything to do with self-centered ambition moreso than revenge, and it feels like that in particular gets kinda poorly addressed? like, the deal with c!Purpled doesn't have to do with revenge, he's not really taking revenge on Purpled--he is, however, ambitious and doing everything that he thinks will make Las Nevadas Great, and the whole thing with him still continuing doggedly on LAS NEVADAS!! even after alluvthat is much more of a commentary on his relationship with power and ambition than on revenge.

this is kinda scattered (like the LN finale LMAO!) but yeah. las nevadas is literally created as a response to imprisoning c!dream, the beginning of this arc happens in parallel to the beginning of his visiting the prison, so having c!dream play as small as a role as he did in the latter two streams really ends up hurting the arc as a whole when so much emphasis had been on c!quackity and ... violence? both outside of the prison and inside it. having c!quackity come to terms with the fact that he does in fact suck fell kinda flat without properly addressing the ways that he actually does suck...? anyway yeah not the best essay kat dorry

[xsoulxsilencex]

There is almost something funny in seeing how most people on tumblr are really upset about what Yuamu and Yuga are doing and then I check other places where people are actually happy about what's going on?

One side is angry at Yuga, hates Yuamu's decision, call it bad writing, nonsensical etc. while the other side says stuff like "girl boss Yuamu", "Go Rush is cooking/peak" and "this is what Yuamu's character needed".

Ngl, I'm somewhat in the middle:

I really wouldn't call the recent events as "peak fiction" and I still feel like this is a weird way to involve Yuamu in the arc final + potentially explaining why she's not on the season 3 poster. I don't buy her being Otes at all. At least not the one we saw in Sevens. I don't even really see what would be so great about her being Otes? Like is it only cool because a girl could potentially be the previous show's central antagonist? Also Yuamu empathising with Yuga could've been done better imo. Just saying that the ep where they landed in Goha City as cats was like the "starting point" for her feels random and not really like it was built up properly. At least to me. Also not sure how people seem to easily forget/forgive Yuamu's irrelevance over the season just for what she's doing now. The writers do nothing with her until now and suddenly she's cool again because she sides with Yuga?

But I will also say that I don't hate Yuga for doing what he does. I mean, Yuga experienced what bad shit Monster Reborn caused in his time. He doesn't want a repetition of that. And I think for us it's easy to say "well, screw the future kids, the Velgearians matter more" since they don't exist in GR. They aren't characters we saw interacting with Yudias and co. We got to know the Velgearians so their deaths hit us harder and we want them back since what happened to them was just not fair. But it's not like Yuga is happy about letting the Velgerians stay dead. He would've gladly helped reviving the Velgearians if he knew a way that doesn't involve the use of Monster Reborn. After all, why would he have helped Yudias, given him a deck and duel disk and even dueled at his side if he didn't care at all? Even Yudias and co. don't think he's just evil by doing what he does rn. And well, Yuga is just 13. A 13yo saying he will become the enemy just to save the future is kinda crazy. Yuga actually cares a lot up to the point he wants to solve everything on his own so others don't suffer/get hurt. That's how he was in Sevens too. And ngl, that annoyed me a little even back then. (Luke called him out for that once too) He means well but needs to understand that it's okay to take help. Btw: I've seen people angry at Yuga and Yuamu only caring for the kids and implying that adults are bad? Tbh, I don't think they really believe that since in both, Sevens and Go Rush, we had some adults playing Rush Duel and having fun with it. I think it's more about adults influencing the game so much up to the point it's only fun for them but not the kids anymore. So when Yuga wants dueling back in the hands of children, he probably means that they should have fun too and not just the adults. Maybe he and Yuamu could've phrased it better but I never took it as "kids are cool, adults are evil so RD should just be played by kids".

I still believe that in the end, both the future and the Velgearians can be saved so I don't feel like arguing with any side here. Both make points I can understand but I also feel like some get either over emotional or just blindly call everything awesome.

[chrswlls]

Not For Broadcast Math :D (Bits of Your Life)

aka the post where i math the possible combinations and timelines there are for Bits of Your Life. Cuz there's a lot but just how much? Wdk yet

And if I'm wrong just correct me pls THANKS XD

Disclaimer I'm actually calculating for permutations not combinations (permutations have order in mind, combinations do not) but Im gonna call them combinations anyway since we're all more familiar with that word I guess ANYWAYS

There are a total of 6 guests you have to invite to the show in a very specific order. To get all the possible combinations of these guests, we just have to do 7 factorial

6!

6×5×4×3×2

720

There are 720 total number of combinations you can sort the guests in.

But that's yet to be the final answer. What about the different possible ad combinations?

You get to choose from three ads twice throughout the entire broadcast. And since you can only pick one from three ads...

720 * 3²

(All the possible guest combinations multiplied by the amount of choices you can make for the ads)

720*9

6480

There are 6480 possible timelines in Bits of Your Life.

Only 0.83% of these combinations will lead you to one of the 6 main endings. The rest are considered off-track.

The canon ending is 0.14% of all possibe paths. 

Now I don't really know how or care enough to math how many of these endings have peter happy or not or drunk or not especially since some routes make it kinda complicated to find a set trend so you do that yourself lol

Now imagine. You took all the time in the world to get all possible timelines. Without loading times or breaks, getting all possible timelines would take almost 6 months to do.

And then Dave chimes in telling you there was never a special prize and that he has a gun to his head. Like rn. Shit is funny as fuck though im sorry Dave but this was exactly what I was looking for; your suffering

Anyways Timeloop could come out any hour now and it's making me tweak the fuck out I might cry (jk) can't wait (take all the time in the world guys)

[allylikethecat]

ally!!!! you are so very mean to our poor fictional!matty i believe that u actually enjoy making him suffer

i am not kidding i’m on my period rn and i had to wait to read the update bc i saw how sad everyone was saying it was & i had to wait for all the crazy hormones to stop making me so sad so it wasnt gonna make me cry 💀 this chapter was so so sad and every time you update this fic i love it more and more!

whilst i do not appreciate fictional!george’s reaction (i understand he is overwhelmed & upset ofc but HELLO look @ how pathetic fictional!matty is rn he needs a HUG) i do understand that this was a very big shock and he needs some time to digest (but also hopefully not too much time)… also im just super excited that he KNOWS now lol i fear its only gonna get more intense for fictional!matty

also on the subject of ATKH - THEY’RE SO CUTE AND HAPPY PLS DONT LET FICTIONAL!GEORGE SCREW STUFF UP TOO MUCH … i have realised that rn ATKH is kinda ur only fic where fictional!matty isn’t currently in like the peak of his misery ..yet.

hope you’re doing well !!! 🤍

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Hello My Dear 💌 Anon!

I will admit that I *do* enjoy making poor Fictional!Matty suffer - it makes his happy ending that much sweeter!

Ahhh I'm sorry for hitting you with a sad chapter when the hormones are ~hormone-ing~ I really hope I didn't make you cry! And if I did I am so sorry! BUT I am very happy to hear that despite the sadness you're still enjoying it! I've been having a lot of fun working on it, especially now that I have some direction again!

That was very much *NOT* what Fictional!George was expecting to find out - he was already worrying about Fictional!Matty's delicate sobriety and apparent health issues and then to find out that he is pregnant, when Fictional!George already felt like he took advantage of Fictional!Matty during that encounter?! The guilt is very real and so is the self doubt - a lot of him lashing out at Fictional!Matty was him projecting his own self doubt and panic onto Fictional!Matty- too bad Fictional!Matty doesn't know that and also that is extremely unfair of him... but at least he KNOWS now! Fictional!Matty's secret is out in the open now! He just now needs to figure out how to tell his Mother...

Hey Infection Verse Matty isn't *that* miserable at the moment! Like yes, when we left him in the Christmas Fic he did have a stomach ulcer BUT he had just gotten engaged which was very exciting! All The King's Horses Fictional!Matty and Fictional!George are very cute and happy at the moment though. Hopefully Friday's chapter will make up for how sad the Ducklings update was. ATKH is currently my FAVORITE fic that I'm working on and I can't wait for y'all to see how their story continues to unfold! (There is a very special cameo in Friday's chapter as well that you'll recognize if you follow me here on Tumblr lol)

Thank you so much for reading and for the continued support! I'm sorry to have caused emotional pain with the Ducklings update but hopefully the ATKH update will make up for it! I hope you had a wonderful Wednesday and that you have a great rest of the week!

❤️Ally

[vinilsoup]

I hate asking for favors, but this is not for me. Last year, I've taken of the street and cared for five animals, a young white tom cat that appeared in my street, that I took to be castrated and found a home, a litter of three newborns kitties who were abandoned in the road just below my street, which I had to take care 24/7 for a month until they were old enough to be adopted, and Orion, my dog, that showed up on my door, I thought he was lost but has been likely abandoned, nobody wanted to adopt him so I took him.

Mars the cat has been showing up in my balcony for longer than any of those pets. He was a terrified of humans cat, very hungry, clearly a tom cat due to his extreme territorialist behavior with other animals, big puffy cheeks and always hurt because of fights. He had and still has one eye that has a very dark coloration.

I feed him for six months, hoping one day to befriend him and take him to be at least castrated. While he let me get closer, I ended up needing a cat trap to castrate him.

After being alone with me, he became very sweet and cuddly, but needs time to socialize with other animals (I already had two cats with feline leukemia, which is why is so important to me to vaccinate Mars, so if he doesn't find someone to adopt him he could live with me), especially Orion my dog.

He ended running away trice despite my house being catproofed, but three weeks after castration, he calmed down and is living in my balcony/front yard.

However, he suffered a lot in life, has big deep scars into his face and it's clear he lived on the street for years. He needs vet treatment, specially to be vaccinated and examine what's wrong with his eye. The vet said it could be a variety of things and he needs examination.

Like I said, I've done a lot last year, and in top of all I was unemployed while doing it. I had help, but a lot of costs ended up for myself. I found a job in December but it was in a mall, and it was so draining, especially because I may be autistic, so the noises and the people made me have multiple breakdowns, so I had to quit after only 3 weeks.

I took Orion to the vet, castrated and gave the first dose of the vaccine to Mars while I was still employed, and now I'm not and they both need the second dose.

I'm badly indebted, live alone, my family lives far and my parents passed when I was a teen, so I don't have who to ask for help, besides hoping some kind strangers will help me give this cat the life he deserves after being neglected and probably abused by humans.

About pricing, I'm Brazilian, I know things are hard everywhere because of the crisis, but we've been always kinda fucked when it comes to money, so it's almost unbearable rn. I'm searching for jobs and am doing some selective process, but it'll take a while.

The value of only Mars vet expenses are 570 reais, which is around $114 dollars. With Orion's expenses added the value, the total is 780 reais, around $156 dollars.

Anyone who is North American or European, by donating a dollar you will be helping immensely. This is like a lot of money here, it's almost my full rent, and I ain't got no money to pay that either shajjakajdks but I'm only asking for help for them! I can get myself out of this mess, but their health can't wait.

My p@yp4l is (removed, goal reached!)

There's also this group founding thing here, idk if people form outside Brazil can donate there but I'll leave the link here.

And if you can share I'll appreciate it too. Thanks.

Goal reached, thanks everyone!

[beananium]

I know you said you hardly post about them, but please direct to where I can read any posts you HAVE made about your ocs

i honestly don't remember if i've ever talked about my oc's on here HASFKHASKAS but i'll give you a simple rundown of my general story! while i want it to be a visual novel at one point, its kinda hard to make an entire game, so i'm just writing down some notes in the meanwhile. in my oc universe, theres an alternate world called the dystopia where people who have done wrong in a past life go to if they die prematurely (so like if they die by anything besides old age). the world is pretty shitty due to one person running things and their job is to make things as shitty as possible for people to atone for their wrong-doings. it doesn't work. thats a whole plot point.

one day, the ties between earth and that world was warped, and now people from that world can travel to our world. most do, as the dystopia fucking blows. most people are cool with the dystopia travelers, called daes. however, some are not, so most daes tend to stick together.

there's a failing music company in new york city that hires morgan (the player character i have in mind that can be taken as another oc) on a whim in a last ditch attempt to save their company after they were blacklisted from the entire industry from another company for an accident that left an idol they were working with such serious injuries that he can't move his legs anymore. morgan took accountability for it, since they ordered the intern, a young dae named adriano, to fix the lighting despite the fact he had mentioned he was just there as security and had no know-how on lighting.

morgan then makes a deal to their current company to advertise a music opportunity and recruit people into joining. they managed to get 7 people, all daes with conflicting personalities.

marquis is a shy suck-up who's a lot dramatic, but has a lot of passion and genuinely cares about the group and music. yufeng is brutally honest and stays quiet to keep himself from sounding rude, but is extremely passionate as well (despite being prone to illness). rowan is the most normal out of the group, though suffers from extreme burn-out and tends to push himself to the absolute limit of his capabilities. filipp can get his way through any means necessary, and can tell what a person's like upon first inspection. though he is very calculating, he seems like he's protecting himself. renkichi is considered a great leader. he's the best at compromise, though takes himself way too seriously. nellius is nearly perfect in every way, except for their ego in everything but performing in front of an audience. and adriano, as smart as he is capable, tends to have a one track mind. but he is the best at keeping the group together, despite keeping as much distance as possible from them.

trying to get these guys to cooperate well enough to form a rock idol group, along with dealing with their baggage from their past lives is... pretty hard, to say the least

(theres more about the characters and stuff but thats all i have in me rn orz)

[pink-booty-butts]

🍥🍙🍠🍱

Btw, you're absolutely incredible!! You write my favourite fanfics and I appreciate you and your friendship so much! You deserve so so much appreciation ♥

Omg Mari you're the sweetest!! thank you so much!! I appreciate you and our friendship so much too!! I am hugging you mentally rn <33

🍥 What's your favorite fic you've written?

Omg this is such a hard one! I feel like my favorite fic is always the one I'm currently writing haha (which rn is a william fic that's taking me ages lol).

But if I had to pick from ones I've already posted, probably Pranked! Normally I try to think more about what other people would want to read, or I try to think a lot about how to make the Reader more relatable to people besides me so people can insert themselves more easily(btw idk if i'm successful, but i always try my best to consider these things!). But for that fic I threw all of that out the window and basically just wrote it for myself haha :P

🍙 Is there a fic you wish had gotten more attention?

If I had to pick one, probably Say Yes!

Honestly, I don't think it's my best work so I'm not upset about it. I think I'm only slightly disappointed because I wrote that fic when I was having some feelings™ and at the time I kinda wanted someone to support me like Chris does in that fic and thought maybe other people would too, but I think it was probably too depressing haha.

Also it probably didn't get as much attention because I don't write him in character well enough, so I probably need to watch Spy again so I can write better fics about him for you guys!! <33

🍠 How long does it take you to write one of your fics or a chapter/part?

Ooooooh man not to be basic, but it depends! If I'm super duper focused I can bang out a fic from blank page to edited and posted in a couple of hours.

But unfortunately I'm a super restless/hyper person irl, I feel the need to get up and lowkey run a lap around my house like every 10 minutes so sometimes it takes a lot longer than that, and because of that it's really hard to give an accurate number of how long it actually takes me to write something sadly! (Maybe I should try timing myself when I'm actively writing bc I'm kinda curious now lol) With the fic I'm currently writing, I swear it took me like 5 hours to write a single paragraph cos I couldn't sit still hahahaha. I kinda wish I wasn't like that so I could get more fics written for you guys, but on the bright side I always get my steps in! :p

🍱 Do you read your own fics?

NO NEVER EW LOL, literally cringe every time I've reread one of my fics

Lmao jk! Tbh I do sometimes reread them when I'm writing a fic for a particular character and I want to check if I've written something similar already because I worry about my fics being too similar to each other. I know to some extent it's probably inevitable because I'm writing them, but I do sometimes skim over previous fics to check I'm not writing the same exact scenario or using the same language or words to describe something. I still cringe when I do that, but I suffer through it to make the fic I'm writing at that time better (hopefully) haha

Thank you so much for your questions btw!! <3 You're the best!!

[hospitalterrorizer]

diary304

7/19-20/24

friday-saturday

it still entertains me, that i can make the text look like this. it's like the best joke in the world.

anyway today was very good. it was nice to go out and see my gf's friends, they are such different people than i am used to, no drinking really, rather polite, although the politeness kinda extends into a sort of, they aren't rude to me, they aren't rude at all, but they do expect more from others, so for instance if you go out somewhere and you ask for something, my other friends might be more like "whatever" about all that but they're more like, i can't believe this.

the korean bbq place was good, i don't know if i would really want to go back cuz the people there were super overworked and seemed rather unhappy.

her friend was very happy on his birthday, at least, and with this windows outage, he's not had to do a lot of work at the amazon warehouse he suffers in, which is rock and roll at least 20%. i wonder if i'm gonna be able to cash my check #lol. or #buyclothesfromjapan . it will suck if i can't do that... wow.

otherwise, today has been kind of a rollercoaster i guess, it started a little bad, i don't want to get into that but it quickly dissolved into nothing, it was just from my gf being stressed and me being like, i guess not productive about what i thought of something she would start writing to get published in a book chapter, i feel like a dumbass about it but i am just always like, oh what if they're dumb, or what if this prompt is bad, i am too critical of things and don't realize it seems discouraging when all i really want is for her to think about different perspectives to make whatever she does better, i ought to improve on how i approach that kind of thing, because ultimately all i believe when i am doing that kind of thing, is trying to help someone think about writing so that when they get to it, they've already been thinking of these things and they realize they can write from those positions. it is not necessarily useful, though, when there is no piece of writing in front of me. you know. this very quickly blew over but i still feel bad about that, but she is not discouraged and i guess understands me better. i guess it was also partially since i was waking up, i should have thought about literally anything for longer...

anyway, beyond that stuff, today has been good, i worked on 3 songs, i have written the bones of one, did some writing stuff... a lot of fun i am having, i think i maybe need to get to writing more lyrics though, i am also working on a drawing i would like to finish soon.

also i took selfies i need to send them to myself to upload tomorrow... rn i am too tired and i need to sleep because i don't want to mess my sleep up...

so

byebye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[bluev0id]

Hello. Hope you’re doing well.

Heres your exchange : How will I spend this new years eve ?

New Year's Eve have the potential for fresh and novel encounters on this special night. It suggests an openness to new feelings and artistic expressions that may unfold as you welcome the upcoming year.

However, you go through self-imposed limitations or hesitations. As the clock ticks towards midnight, there might be a tendency to feel bound by uncertainties or fears that hinder the full embrace of the celebratory spirit. Your guides encourages a conscious effort to break free from these mental constraints, allowing oneself to fully immerse in the transformative energy of the New Year. You could be suffering from anxiety or worrying about something in particular.

The archetype of the queen of pentacles advises adopting a practical and earthy approach to the festivities. Whether it involves spending quality time with family and friends or focusing on self-care, the Queen of Pentacles underscores the importance of creating a stable and nurturing environment for oneself and those close to you. Your New Year's Eve might unfold with a blend of emotional exploration, overcoming self-imposed limitations, and embracing a nurturing atmosphere. Begin the night with an open heart, ready to experience the novel and creative aspects of the Page of Cups. As the evening progresses, confront any mental barriers represented by the 8 of Swords, allowing the Queen of Pentacles to guide you towards a balanced and nurturing celebration.

Messages :

- start the night by engaging in activities that fuel your creative side, such as journaling, art, or even dancing. Your guides are encouraging a sense of emotional freedom and expression. As the countdown to midnight approaches, take a moment for introspection, acknowledging and releasing any fears or doubts that you may have.

- consider creating a warm and welcoming environment for your New Year's Eve celebration. This might involve preparing nourishing meals, surrounding yourself with loved ones, or even engaging in a calming self-care routine.

My question is : what is BK feelings towards me ? ( black hair, big eyes and beanie) - A ⭐️

Omg thank u for the long reading!!

I'm gonna be honest with you, I had quite a hard time connecting to this person. I hope you can manage to get something useful and reliable out of this reading

I'm getting quite a lot of different energies here uhhh for starters there's definitely a sense of shakiness and something about this connection doesn't feel "all the way there". I'm gonna go a bit of a longer route here for this to make sense. Because of these fluctuations, I kinda took a peek into how does BK feel about themselves and with the Mountain card describing this person and then getting the Strength and Chariot reversed, it's coming to me that they have certain problems in their life rn that they're having a hard time figuring out. They seem like person issues, but I do think they're affecting your person's view on others as well.

So when it comes to you, even tho with the ace of pentacles and ace of cups, there's a feeling of you being something positive, something they're craving in their life and are interested, can see a benefit of you, tho perhaps they feel it's hard for them to connect to other people rn. They're trying to kinda shake off those feelings and be happy and notice the positive energy you bring and how good the prospect of you looks to them but at the same time, inside they're fighting negativity and cynicism. They desire to have you around, and think their life would be better if you were in it. So generally it's all positive and good except those outside forces.

If youre wonfering how they see you then hmm to them you're also juggling many things in life and perhaps aren't having the easiest time. Seems like you're working towards something or at least possess a skill of long term dedication even if it's not career related. So they think that you know what you need or once you think something is right, it could be hard influencing you to think otherwise. Although I get a bit of a hint that currently they might think that your luck has turned around. Maybe you managed to reach a particular goal or achieve and opportunity or switch up your life. They see this as you succeeding and things going your way. It's quite a realistic way to see someone I guess

[latteandjacks]

I saw the fnaf movie today, I was one of the first to saw it (on my city)

AND OH GOD

H U G E SPOILER ALERT LIKE H U G E

I really liked how they decided to rebuild the lore personally, even tho the Afton family will forever be iconic and stay in the fandom forever, it was nice that they went for the first things on the game, when the Afton family wasn't a thing and Mike was another person

Even tho I'm kinda sad there was no bite, the new conflict is really good and Mike will definitly become Tumblr's new babygirl

The ending is what got me honestly, I thought William was already going to be dead and it was going to be a flashback or something but no, the only thing that could've made it better it's if, even for a second, instead of the animatronics you saw the kids standing around him, but as I said, I loved it

Even tho it took Baby, Abby DIDN'T become her, and because the kids now know what really happened it's likely they will only want William to suffer and see Abby and Mike as some sort of allies, I don't think they will take Sister Location or the following games for a new movie or if they do, it will be a different take

There's not a lot I can theorize rn, I still have to find out what the fuck the code at the end meant, Ballon Boy appeared tho, he moved, the jumped to fucking Jeff and I'm pretty sure there was no merchandise of him in the pizzeria, and on the first place he is from the second game The toys have no souls in them and are just ai's that went wrong, I can see the second movie having them

I'm very excited to see what comes next

Ballon Boy is a bitch, he was literally the ONLY THING in the whole movie that legitimaly scared the living hell out of me

[shxxtingstxxs]

Deserved Update (READ TO THE END, IMPORTANT):

Hello. I wasn't dead, I just... I had some issues. I haven't been entirely honest with any of you.

As you may know from majority of my posts. I vent alot. And usually it leads to nothing good. I push away others because of my own mental state, I don't trust many people (And that is a issue I'm working on.) and when I become friends or mutuals with other people I tend to get attached. It stems from abandonment issues.

I actually was taking some time off to reflect and I decided I wish to not roleplay, on this account. I can't manage 10 accounts at once. I guess from all the stress I have piled up at once I kinda snapped.

I didn't decide to make Rose transgender (reasoning being, that the idea was stupid and that it will take a lot of reworking to do.) but she did become Comet. I myself identify as transgender (I have issues with transphobia in my family rn and they aren't willing to use my proper name and pronouns and I feel extremely disrespected.)

I normally don't make such long update posts, but I am not enjoying tumblr anymore, I keep getting drama started on my main. For NO REASON. I don't provoke drama on my own accord (I used to do that for petty reasons.). On my Main someone accused me of glorifying an ED I have because my name contains the name in it.

It was one person that decided to harass me and I... I can't stand this site. I stepped away from this site for a couple of reasons. One mainly being, I wanted to kickstart my career as an VA, Writer, Singer and Songwriter.

I have been depressed for awhile now, and I barely could do anything without getting upset. Most of my reluctancy to rp with anyone and send in asks stems from the fact that I cannot send in asks. I can't even form the will to do anything.

I appreciate all the support you've given me through this tough times, I am still alive and well, I currently have no mutuals. (I lost 2 of my mutuals because I generally have social anxiety and awkwardness and my Autism and trauma makes it to where I can say some fucked up shit.) I don't really care about it anymore. Roleplaying on here used to be so fun and engaging but losing everything made it so... Useless.

I have no real reason to even be here anymore. I stay because everyone wants me to. I want to make people happy. Everyone just blocks me or assumes I'm bad news when I have IDEAS. I normally tend to suffer from trauma and I incorporate it into my works of fiction.

But then again...

That's not how the story goes.

I am not going to sit here and pretend that I'm fine when I'm not.

I'm airing my issues out and saying.

"I'm sorry."

I'm sorry I can't be a good partner to you guys or actually reach out. But no matter the amount of apologizes I give, I can't recover my follower account.

I'm scared to look at it now.

If you're wondering what's going to happen on this account, I'm still roleplaying on Tumblr but my main is where I am active so follow @2cvri0vs4u. Its my side blog on my main so I can see and respond to roleplays. Please forward roleplays there.

I can't keep doing this anymore. Roleplaying on here fucked with me and got me to the point where I lost my friends and greed took over.

I might end roleplaying for awhile, I dunno.

[jeanownsme]

vlive head

summary- you give your horny bf head while hes live with his fans

warnings- exhibitionism kink, oral sex (male receiving), hair pulling, secret relationship, mmm not too many warnings, etc

a/n- this was a thought that recently came up in my mind and my god this was hot, i hope there arent any grammar mistakes. its like 5 am rn and took me 2 hours to write 😭 enjoy loves.

"how is everyone doing, have you guys eaten yet ?" the voice of your boyfriend asked, looking at the comments showing up on the screen. he was live with millions of fans watching, that was what made you scared. what if they knew what you guys were doing ? what if they knew who it was ? everybody knew he was in a relationship, but no one besides the people closest to him knew who it was. how would everybody react if they find out that he's dating y/n, one of the most well known and loved actresses. it would be disastrous.

"its been so long since i've gone live.. i missed you guys a lot, sorry for being gone for a while i've been super inactive lately because i've been super busy, but i think i'm going to post after this" his voice sounded clear as your lips were wrapped around his dick, slowly moving up and down drool dripping down your chin. you never knew tae was into this kinda stuff because he was always cautious with cameras whenever you were near him, posting your hand or shadow was the only thing that would ever show online.

he leaned back further into his seat and sharply thrusted into your mouth forcing you to deep throat him, you gagged as tears made its way down your face. to the camera it looked as if he was just adjusting his seat. luckily the music he was playing drowned out the sound. how could he stay so quiet ? you were suffering trying not to make any sounds. he was huge, he could barely fit in your mouth and it was starting to hurt your jaw from the stretch.

you wrapped you hand around the rest of the length and started stroking and sucking even harder and faster. his cock twitching from the sudden change of pace, he groaned but quickly covered it up with a cough eyes moving down to glare at you. and you stared back with an innocent look on your face pretending to not know what you just did.

taehyungs hand wrapped around the base of your head and pulled on your hair gently, a warning to slow down.

he continued reading the comments, many mentioned you. this was bad, this meant that people were catching on.

y/n is also in new york, does this mean they are together ?

are you dating y/n ?

how do you feel about y/n ?

whats your connection with y/n ?

obviously he could see these comments, there were a shit ton. but he ignored them because he knew that if he mentioned your name it would be all over the internet. as you kept sucking, he was getting closer to cumming.

he moaned and leaned over to rest his head on the desk

"ahhh guys its getting late, and im not used to the time difference here yet." he lifted his head to stare at the camera.

"this was really fun army, im gonna go now to get some rest. you guys should get some too, stream our new album. byeeee" he waved and shut off the camera.

"y/n you can stop now" you stopped and got up, tripping a bit from being on your knees for so long. taehyung caught you and held you in his arms and laughed, looking down at you he leaned down and kissed your puffy lips.

"youre so fucking cute baby, i just wanna fuck the shit outta you" you both groaned as the kiss got heavier, his long fingers grabbing onto your waist and slowly making its way down to your ass squeezing it.

"lay down on the bed for me yeah ? " god his voice, it was so sexy and deep. if your panties weren't wet from earlier they most definitely are now. you laid down and taehyung made his way between you legs, he leaned over to your ear.

"lets get these pretty panties off"

[amazinglyegg]

any general headcanons for carrington ?

he is . my favorite fictional man rn . hope you don't mind me taking advantage of the fact that you like him as well and your asks always being open BKDCJSXBSN

Dude I LOVE seeing you in my asks dw!!! I haven't thought about my blorbo Carrington in so long I'm going to have fun with this <3<3<3

Doctor Carrington Headcanons!

Okay let's get this out of the way: he's not just an asshole for the sake of being an asshole!

The dude's so damn stressed all the time! Especially after what happened at Switchboard, he feels responsible because he's the second in command

That's one of the reasons Des trusts him so much. He's not good at lying or recon work but he is good at self-dicipline, planning, and being the only mature one.

Although I feel like he's always been a bit moody, even before all that

Given that everyone other than Des and PAM are basically children with guns (looking at you especially, Deacon) he ends up feeling like a parent to most of the other agents

And he really hates feeling like a parent

This is a bit out there so bear with me, but at some point before he joined the Railroad he managed to help a child. Maybe one who survived an Institute raid on a settlement? They were the only survivor and he took them under his wing.

Despite his best efforts the child died from a preventable cause, like an infection

It really hit him hard and despite his trauma around helping vulnerable people (especially children) he became a doctor so others wouldn't have to suffer like the kid did

Then the Railroad contacted him and you know the rest

He prefers working in the Railroad over anywhere else, though. He's very introverted and appreciates the familiar faces and quiet work environment, plus most agents tend to respect him purely because he's been working there for ten or more years

He has dyslexia. Don't know where this headcanon came from. I think it was me projecting onto him but then I made it Canon In My Mind when I vaguely mentioned it in my Carrington fic (heed the tags if you're gonna read)

He gets headaches often due to his dyslexia and the ridiculous amount of paper work he has to go through (where does Des even get all that paper and ink!?), plus a fair share of sleep deprivation, dehydration, stress...

Deep down he worries a lot for the other agents. If Glory dies (I refuse to let Glory's death be canon in my mind, hence the if) it permanently messes with him and his self worth

He gives off angry Sudoku player vibes. Glory or Des will be like "chill out it's supposed to be relaxing" and Carrington is losing his mind like "where the HELL do I put the DAMN FIVE"

A lot of fanon says him and Deacon genuinely hate each other but I really disagree

He respects Deacon a lot and recognizes that he does a lot more behind the scenes than anyone knows, but he also realizes just how much of a martyr he is and just how little he cares about his own health

In the past, whenever Deacon came back hurt or sick, Carrington would try to convince him to slow down, stop running into danger, and even open up about his problems. Needless to say it didn't work.

They've got something alike to a friendship going, though. Deacon teases him, all in good fun, and Carrington doesn't point out when he's limping around HQ, or when he "borrows" a stimpack or two from his desk. He just leaves out painkillers and antibiotics in hopes Deacon with "borrow" those, too.

I'm very... partial on his relationship with Tom or Des

I feel like Tom's got A Lot Going On and it's kinda fucky that the Railroad seemingly caused his schizophrenia (?) to develop and ignored it because they needed him?

Although if anything it sounds like Carrington was worried about his health and Des was the one to ignore it, hopefully out of ignorance and not purposfully. I can't imagine Des knowingly letting Tom fall into drug addictions and paranoia, and Carrington is vocal enough that he probably would have argued with Des if he knew it was getting that bad as well

I like to think he keeps a close eye on Tom either way. He's always trying to pick up books on mental health because he's mostly focused on physical health in his day to day life, and he's taught Tom some grounding strategies over the years.