#too fucking smart for his own good and also sooo autistic

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thinking about how in if peter hadn't messaged the turd burglar saying he knew their identity, they never would have done "the dump". but peter has this obsession with Winning, with not only being right but telling everyone- including the perpetrator- that he was right and he caught them. he truly is insane characters of all time. teenage boy flavor: by god what is wrong with you (affectionate) (horrified)

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how about Nancy?

one aspect about them i love: i love her intelligence and her whole arc of like. coming into her own bc of something she felt strongly about IDK i just think she deserves the world and shes a lesbianl idk. UGH like u just know shes gonna b an iconic fuckin bitch good for her <3 shes gon change the world! also i LOVE when smart girls are mean and i LOVE when nancy is on her bully shit! ALSOO the fact that nancy is literally The Older Sister of stranger things just says SO MUCH about her character #tome so literally this may be my most loved aspect of her like. To sum it up. She is the older sister. lKFJLJF

one aspect i wish more people understood about them: SHES TRYING HER BEST OK AND SHES SO SMART AND CAPABLE AND ICONIC AND TOUGH AND BRAVE LIKE YALL ARE SOOO MEAN AND ANNOYING!! ppl who called her a bad friend cos they liked barb SAUR much like im so sorry idgaf bout barb and the way yall treated #mygirlnance back in s1 made me Not give af about barb HARDER!!! anyways nancy wheeler hive fr fr fr

one (or more) headcanon(s) i have about this character: she is neurodivergent BC EYEEE said so, shes OCD - she might b autistic too fuck it! she is now cos i said it. SHES. GAY <3 umm she wants to smooch robin buckley <3 and she hates her brother mike wheeler (affectionately).

one character i love seeing them interact with: ROBIN. and mike KLFJSDFJ and nancy w the kids honestly. HER AND DUSTIN UGHJSF also pls give me more max x nancy i need it so desperately...

one character i wish they would interact with/interact with more: literally anyone BUT jonathan at this point like girl HELPPP sfldkf this season is such a breath of FUCKIN AIR....... her and robin god SO TRUE so true soooo true. i also rly love her and steve's dynamic as it is NOW more than i did when they were tg bc im obsessed w the whole We On God Got Divorced At 17 vibes like KJFSLJSDF. also her and mike bc they are #so real as a gay older sister who fucking hates her gay younger brother but would also kill for him.... like i get them.

one (or more) headcanon(s) i have that involve them and one other character: SHE AND ROBIN ARE #GOING #TO #KISS !!!!!!!!!! nancy and erica and robin and max would probably start a book club or sumn. or they just get together to talk abt how much smarter they are than everyone else . nancy helps eddie w his exams. U FUCKIN KNOWWW eddie gettin that diploma!!! and also she wants to smooch robin

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okayokayokay i have like. Q U E S T I O N S because i have *wanted* to read no longer human but have been afraid to SO -

1) what's it like? what do u think of it? im sooo curious 👀

2) do u think that asagiri-sensei based bsd dazai sorta off the book more than off the actual authour? i seem to remember reading that once but i dont remember if it was speculation or not

3) .......just infodump as much as you want, really; im Curious™️ and it looks like ur having fun with the book XD

p.s. - have fun with crime and punishment; thats a book ive DEFINITELY been meaning to read (but i havent had time to yet djfjdjfjf)

AHHHHHHH HI TYSM I WAS HOPING SOMEONE WOULD ASK. I read the entire book in 2 hours before going to bed like four days ago, though it probably wasn't the best time to do it, that shit is nightmare fuel

I'm just gonna preface this with I know basically nothing about the actual author other than what's in the book, also I read the manga version (the junji ito one, yeah) so yeah I'm not sure how much that differs from the original text.

So for how much he based it off of the book vs the actual author, I couldn't really tell you- no longer human is somewhat of an autobiography, so I'd say that those work together. (it's complicated, bc the main character of no longer human is not actually dazai, but dazai is there, and they like??? basically say that that character and dazai are like actually the same person???? and they like, switch places at the end?? its really confusing, but basically, I'm treating the mc of no longer human as dazai himself.) The important stuff about the author that I know of worked into dazai's character is all in no longer human too so,,, yeah. I think saying that it's based more off of that book is probably true, though I don't know what asagiri was thinking.

But about the book itself- Yeah uhhhhhh seriously, I don't really recommend reading no longer human if you have much of a sensitivity to basically anything, especially the graphic novel version because when i say graphic novel i mean Graphic there is so much nudity, sex, s/a, addiction, violence, Mental Illness of all types, religious trauma, obviously suicide, and frankly just visually horrifying stuff

So everything under this is gonna be under a cut just cause Uh Yeah It's A Lot and i do not want to subject everybody to it

But reading it was certainly something I am glad I did, because it did teach me a lot about dazai and how he was created, as well as confirming a lot of theories I had about him that can't be confirmed or denied in bsd canon.

Like me and my friend were just like examining his character and kind of coming up with ideas about him- like we both agreed that he had Motherless Energy TM and that his dad had to have been an absolute fucking piece of shit. Also, we thought that he definitely had to have had A Lot of csa trauma and probably issues having to do with his neurodivergency when he was a child.

Literally all of that ended up being true within the canon of no longer human, so I was kind of impressed that we were so right?? It makes me feel better for thinking a lot of those things, especially since they're just Pretty Fucked Up.

But yeah its. No wonder he turned out that way when he was So Autistic and Masking So Much And So Badly and with absolutely no guidance as how to deal with his neurodivergency other than just fucking let anything anyone wanted happen sooooo he got raped, as a kid, like. A lot. A LOT. And basically ended up thinking that because of this all humans were just horrifying awful monsters and yeahhhhh things pretty much went downhill from there

I don't have a ton of time so you can send me more asks about it lol this is just barely scratching the surface this thing is pretty intense

A lot of other things that I think I can apply to bsd dazai as well, tho they're not gone into that much in the canon:

-This dude is like always fucking drunk or high, cause he just cannot stand being sober that much. He's a serious alcoholic and actually addicted to opioids and I cannot think that much differently about dazai. He's got issues.

but there are a lot of differences between Dazai and the no longer human mc, though there are enough similarities that this is definitely the dude he was based off of.

The main difference is that the no longer human mc is actually just a good guy. He's made a shit ton of stupid fucking mistakes, but he's trying to be a good man and he feels awful for the things he's done, which, I really cannot say Dazai has. Dazai is not a good man, I think everyone knows that. He doesn't really care that much lol

-both of them are like. Weirdly popular with women. Which is hilarious but like, with Dazai he doesn't really take it seriously, and he actually flirts with women. The no longer human guy like. He doesn't hes just like Tragically Attractive and women want to be with him and he has no clue how to say no so he just ends up being a whore bc hes socially useless. It causes a lot of problems bc hes like constantly cheating because of this lol.

-Dazai has a much more poetic view of it all? The no longer human guy is just fucking suffering and hes like why is this happening to me im so awful and i bring misfortune to everyone around me and its not fair and he wants to die and everything but it's not at all in the same way that Dazai does. Dazai acts more like an author than him, in the sense of his "I want a death that is narriatively satisfactory and I want to know the meaning of living by seeing the worst of it and observing how it is to be a human" yeah that's not the same at all. No longer human man really just doesn't understand them and is just. Not having fun

-Also, it's really the thing about Dazai having such an utter lack of religion compared to his original counterpart. Like, the main thing that kept this dude alive for so long was the fact that he had so much religious trauma and was constantly guilty and worried he would go to hell and basically scared of everything. Bsd dazai is like, nearly the opposite, he's the kind of dude who was born and raised atheist, and in the kind of way that he's trying to basically come up with his own meaning of life and religion to follow, whereas the original is struggling to live with one that's been perscribed to him. Both are Very Neurodivergent but it was, handled differently

And yeah i really do have to keep this short, you can totally ask me more and I have a lot more to say but one thing I want to bring attention to is the fact of something they do have in common- their masking. It's a big part of no longer human, about how the mc doesn't understand social customs and what is acceptable or how to talk to people or seriously be happy, so he basically comes up with this "clowning" which is basically, make a fool of himself on purpose all the time so people will never take him seriously or think he's good or smart. That's something dazai completely does, wholeheartedly, and something that fucks him up bad in no longer human. And I think that could be examined a lot more deeply, this dude has issues and so many of them are related to autism. God, I have so many thoughts but aghhhhhhhhhhhhh i hope u enjoy

[tumultuoustuna]

Sequel To Story Time

Rules: tag several blogs you’d like to know better.

Tagged by @orcaspanielmermaids

Warning: some of these are major info dumps ^^’

Nickname: I prefer Tuna or Aspen, just because it’s pretty (if you can come up with something better, hit me)

Zodiac: Leo or Virgo, wither you’re looking at the original twelve or the new on with the thirteen signs; but I associate more with Virgo

Height: 5′6″???

Last thing Googled: sixteen personalities quiz (’cause I’m absolute trash with my OCs)

Fav musical artist: I really don’t have a favorite as much as I fade in and out of new music; but I love Lindsey Stirling, dj-Jo, electronic or dubstep, etc. Anything really except most mainstream music

Song stuck in my head: Meh, depends on the day and what I listened to the night before. Right now, Hold My Heart by Lindsey Stirling 

Last movie watched: Haven’t really watched any that I can remember as of late, but I watch enough YouTube to kill my grades, soooo ^-^’

What am I wearing right now: clothes, geniuses, gees. No but seriously, black tank top with a blue pattern, jeggings (I think), and some beat up Converse

What do I post: Anything I find positive, pretty, or Voltron; occasionally you’ll see my art pop up on the dash, but not as of late 

Why did I choose your URL: My Myers-Briggs personality type is INFP-T, and I for some reason was nicknamed Tuna in third grade (never really stuck) but I thought it was clever enough and a bit of a pun/inside joke

Do I have any other blogs: Nah, just the one. I might make an art blog later, but not now

What did my past relationship-- Let me stop you right there. I’ve never been in a relationship and I honestly don’t plan to be in one anytime soon (although I am a touch-starved, hopeless romantic Aspy)

Religious or Spiritual: although I am a Christian, I’m nondenominational and swing more to the spiritual side of things with my relationship with God

Fav color: gaaah, why make my choose? Any purple, blue, silver... okay so sunset, pastel, muted, earth, metallic shades are really high up there

Average hours of sleep: 5-10; no seriously, school hates me

Fav character: as in as of now?? 0-o Well, anticlimactically, it’s Keith and Lance of Voltron Legendary Defender. I hc Keith as somewhere on the Autistic spectrum with how his actions seem to line up; doesn’t usually hug people, more withdrawn but friendly once you get to know him, obsesses over training, not good with deciphering emotions (or so it seems), crazy emotions and hyper-focusing on what he’s going to do rather than plan ahead (eh, sorta), etc. With that in mind, I can really project and relate with him. As with Lance, I can really relate with the insecurities he talks to Laika about; feeling like a third wheel to your own friends and not good enough on a team. I also see him as a pretty good person and v smart (I know I am too, but don’t show it too often b/c school is a bitch). That and... ffs, I wanna just dance with him. You will have to pull the hc that he’s an amazing and dorky dancer out of my cold, dead hands (course their like that anyway, sooo...) (also see: I love doodling both of these idiots) Don’t get me wrong, I love, love, love Pidge and Shiro and Hunk and everyone, but this is just me

How many blankets do I sleep with: Lots; I freeze v easily 

Dream job: As of now, history teacher with a side of artistry/photography. I’d really like to teach history in a way that doesn’t bore students *suspiciously side glances at Hetalia and Overwatch* heh heh, insert culture explosion here. As an artist, I’d really like to get my stories out there and into the world. And photography’s fun, so why the quiznak not right?

Board games, table top, or video games: video games y’all

Do I have any OCs: lET Me tELL YOU boI!! *ahem* Yes, yes I do. My main cast is for a MCU/Transformers crossover, and their a bunch of dorks. Most of the others I have deal with other fandoms (including Erika Elva, Aistelle, and two Voltron ones w/ no official names yet)

One thing you wish was canon in fiction/fandom: kLancE... yes I am trash and Orca is the only on with permission to smack me upside the head

Fav thing to draw/write/think about: Oh boy, this is a rabbit hole this one. I love anything from myths or fairy tales really, so I incorporate a lot of myth crap into my stories, wither it be origins, weapons, or character design. Doodling wise, Voltron is my muse. Never have I ever felt to enamored with a series. Guess the same can be said about writing and thoughts though, too

I tag: @purpledragon2015, @passionateparamour, @cherryirises, @victuuri-dads, @narratingnavigating, @reballoo, @corn-on-the-ass, @duperderedere, and @akuumea and anyone who has said ‘fuck’ at least once today