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Little bright colored outfit with a fun vest ~
(shoes from ebay like 10 years ago. everything else is thrifted)
#ootd#jfashion#fashion#fantasy fashion#mori kei#....like... adjacent... lol#no idea what style this would be lol.. makes me think of like whimsical vaguely fantasy themed childrens book character#finally posting one of my aforementioned seven million drafts of actual outfits and costumes i have finished and edited#the photos for but just never feel like posting lol..#I need to find one of those people whos like 'omg i am ADDICTED to social media ugh i wish i could get off of it#im just browsing and posting like 60 times a daaaaay!!!' and take a little magical bottle and suck some of the social media#enthusiasim out of them. for moi. In exchange they can have some of my 'literally just never in the mood to post or interact with the#outside world ever' energy. We can balance each other. huzzah and so on#Though I think maybe it's part of the general thing I've heard of like.. I can't remember if it was in reference to adhd or just some sort#of general execcutive functioning issue type of thing - but the idea that things have to be ''just right'' before you do something. like#'oh i need to do this task. but i have to wait until XYZ first' or 'oh i can do this but only if X specific condition is met' or etc#The fact that I even have to be in a Specific Mindset to post. or sometimes will delay posting on social media because like 'oh well#I'm going somewhere tomorrow. somehow this matters. i cannot spend 5 minuts posting TONIGHT. clearly it will interfere#somehow schedule wise with the doctor appointment i have 15 hours from now. yes. yes. i must wait until my appointment is over#tomorrow afternoon. THEN i shall post' or etc. etc. lol. NOT even taking into account the many days#I just genuinely and physically sick and it's not even a mental thing. I just physically dont feel like sitting at the computer lol..#ANYWAY.. trying to get back into it. trying to get a business bank account.. make a proper paypal so i can start selling sculptures again.#selling clothes and sculptures.. posting about such things then of course as one must. etc... chanting to hype up and motivate myself lol#But yes. this is my favorite outfit out of the bunch so I am posting it first I guess.. maybe others later..#Also the purple dress says its from shein. which I've heard is bad fast fashion stuff. but maybe okay since its second hand? I havent#been to the bins since like 2020 or late 2019 even. and I think stuff like shein and temu has only become poular in the past few years#but I bet if I went to the bins now I might would find a good handfull of that stuff. Probably now not much different than what you#find in a walmart or a forever 21 or actual physical stores you can go to though. I hear quality of clothing is down everywhere no matter#where you get it or whatnot. What bountiful joys unfettered capitalism and exploitation bestows upon us (<being sarcastic).#Wearing one of my favorite little vests though. I love the texture of it and the clasps on it
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“I could never choose a favorite between all the Gravity Falls AUs, I love them all equally!”
[Later]
“I do not care for Reverse Falls.”
#I don't care for Reverse Falls or Transcendence tbh- but I have more of a distaste for Reverse Falls#I didn't like Transcendence because I find it confusing but Reverse Falls… I have a bone to pick with that one#its such a cool concept you could be running with; but every time I ever saw it back in the day I ALWAYS saw someone sexualizing the twins#it was almost impossible to go through that tag without someone being weird about those two and if made my brain wanna explode#DONT GET ME STARTED ON WILL#I HATE THAT BLUE TRIANGLE#Bill Cipher had so much potential in that AU; Whats the opposite of chaos? ORDER. Make him just as deranged as he usually is-#but in a scary and meticulously organized way!!! it couldve been so cool!!! I don't want that winey blue baby!!! bring me back my yellow guy#anyone wild tag rant over I'm gonna go doodle and eat pizza I guess lol#prince rambles in this chilies tonight
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I finished! Ha, it's nice to see the end result of the last four days of hard work, especially since I wasn't sure if it would turn out well or not. But! Not only did it turn out so, so nice (IMHO), but it turned out so much better than I ever expected!
For those who couldn't tell, I decided to customize a Funko Pop into Ciri, from The Witcher (based on her design from The Witcher 3 game), using a House of Dragon Daemon whatever his last name Funko I saw at Walmart. It was a little tricky to change the design over, and I made a few mistakes that I had to roll with (for example, her sword is purposely broken since I had originally tried to make it longer, it broke accidentally, I couldn't get the dried milliput I used off, so I decided that instead of sanding it, I would embrace it and make it purposely broken, ha), but overall, I'm happy with how it turned out!
Let me know what you think! This is the... fifth? Funko I've customized, and I think that I'm getting better at it, ha. ^-^ I've never been the best at sculpting, especially small things, but I'm getting there. The braid almost did me in, but I think it turned out really nice in the end. ^-^
#Ciri#Ciri of Cintra#cirilla fiona elen riannon#witcher ciri#The witcher#the witcher 3#funko pop#Funko#funko custom#My art#Ooof#Dang am I proud of how this turned out#Honestly it didn't take as long as I'd have thought#I started on Wednesday I think?#Yeah on New Years Day#And I finished tonight#Not too bad#I worked maybe 2-3 hours at most a day so...#About 7-8 hours? At most?#I originally wasn't going to give her a base but the braid made her very top heavy and she kept falling over so she needed a base ha#I also gave her her extra sword. I'm glad it fit on her back#I wasn't sure if it would or if I'd have to have it as an accessory by her feet#OH. And I did actually make her her own mini Wolf medallion and you can kinda see it but uh... it doesn't look very good ha#Like I said I'm not the best sculptor in the world and mini things are the bane of my existence in general#The fact I made it look like anything is a miracle#Oh also I'm only blazing this since I get a free blaze a month and I might as well you know?#Anyway if you're still reading these tags you're amazing and I love you. :-)
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20/10 stars little guy
#me (scrounging undetected autist whose ideal fashion sense is ''if i have to be seen at all: shrouded'') seeing encanto the other month.....#and on top of it all i LOVE slice of life. encanto being so focused on What It's About that there's so much of that + character / dynamic#also part of what i loved abt pixar luca. ppl like ''simple story but not a problem :)'' like YEAH thank god it's Also so slice of lifey#2021 what a year lol. though again i only Just saw encanto....tfw Studio Creative Control backs off a bit more than usual: Joy & Wonders#anyway i knew going in bruno wasn't an antagonist (fine if he was though b/c slay & b/c scapegoats can do whatever they want)#knew i'd love him b/c again Scapegoat shows up & i'm the Amazing Showstopping Totally Unique Never The Same gif on loop#but what a delight even beyond those expectations lol. love again how Focused the movie is on What It's About & Thee Points it makes#the Characters / Dynamics & the Metaphor & the plot stays right with all of that. the focus & importance re: thee scapegoats....#& bruno being disabled like whole layer of Yay Yay Yay spamming. that even when He's Back we're reminded he's not ''normal now'' or w/e#(i.e. presenting that as The Good Ending for the disabled outcast. vs just being embraced as part of the group again & accepted As He Is)#meanwhile was like hmm chat is there queercoding do we think? like is he queer: Yes. but is there coding? hmm#sure isn't cishet coded though. but i was also having the thought like fellas is it gay to [higher tenor tessitura or w/e] lol#made me go ''do i know this voice? ok do i know this name / face / actor? (i have never seen anything ever / bad w/names/faces/voices)''#indeed was like yeah haven't seen this; heard of this; seen it once ages ago no way i remember more than like 0.6 details#then from ''ohh haha I'm A Mammal That Cares....yeah i hear that'' to ''omg CHI-CHI RODRIGUEZ???? ;;0;;'' waaah fantastic revelation lmao#also the way Literal Future Seer ability was externalized to make it more wrangleable for plot is so impressive & fun & excellent#got a lot of [i like this thing i saw a lot] i got to say....guess i can do that w/the sideblog i made for one drawing i made last night#encanto 2021#bruno madrigal#also the way bruno is so Nervous + Hiding / Bold + Big Personality like yes ha ha ha Yes....tamped down as ''too much'' experience#also the [stuttering stumbling muttering mumbling] line: i fr nigh wept upon going back over a moment like what am i hearing here?#& realizing the answer was: it's bruno quietly stuttering a moment during this one line (& then (& then (& then)) i saw you) ;;;mm;;;#hang onnn....the first scapegoat who's driven off being Disabled is so real so ;m; that again they're like so he got Weirder; Okay ;;m;;#that we get jorge thumbs up nobody having an Aside to be like [ugh; this guy] or Anything. augh always have too much to say for 30 tags#fabric drape there sure not accurate but i was like okay if i try to really reference that i'm not getting this done tonight
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McStareface Part 3 - NO JEWELRY!
Trequel to McStareface Part 1
Sequel to McStareface Part 2 - Smack Talk
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No Jewelry
Was the purpose of this entire mini comic series (Especially part 3) because of panel 9?
YES***
Like Eda Mode's "NO CAPES!", growing up when I used to play sports in school we were not allowed to wear jewelry while playing.
And in my mind, magical dueling is as much of a sport just like any other individual 1-v-1 muggle sport.
When I first saw that duel between MC and Sebastian in which Prof. Hecat pits the two students against each other, I couldn't help but think that if that was me, out of habit, I would jump off the piste (in fencing terms, that is the fencing strip play area you would duel on and I would like to imagine that's also the magical name of the dueling strip play area since to me dueling is just the magical version of fencing) and immediately take my jewelry off because I have no wishes to become the next horror story of how wearing jewelry during sports caused an injury.
And hence why part 1, 2 and 3 of McStareface was born - all because of panel 9.
That's it.
That's the whole reason.
***That and to give a reason for Iñaki to call Sebastian "Stare-y McStareface" since she doesn't know his name yet. She essentially gave him the Boaty McBoatface type of nickname as a stand in until she learned his real name 😂. I needed to make part one in order to get part 2 and 3 where I wanted to be and for that nickname she picked for him to make sense. 🤣 This was more than 3 months in the making 😂🤣😂
You won't be catching Iñaki getting a dumb injury because of her jewelry, but unfortunately (or fortunately I guess in this case -depending which scenario you're looking at due to my MC coming from NY) most people (muggleborns and half-bloods who know muggle culture and seen American media) will probably see her taking her earrings as a sign she's going to get in a serious fight and she's not someone to not play around with. Especially since she's Latina and when you tell people that you're from New York, everyone automatically think's you're from the city lol. Ahh, stereotypes. I didn't mean to accidentally stumble upon it with Iñaki 😅😂.
(I mean she used to be from NYC before she moved to the 'burbs and turned to a suburban kid, but that's not the point XD)
While Iñaki isn't someone to play around, (she has ancient magic - not that anybody knows about it) she REALLY just doesn't want to get injured wearing jewelry while playing magical sports. Heck getting your earrings caught in either clothing, your comb or hair is painful (speaking from experience), I REALLY don't want to imagine how painful it will be in a sports injury. 😬
So she gives it to Natty to hold since she finds her new friendly classmate trustworthy enough to hold it. And Natty is all too pleased to help her new friend.
After all, Natty wants for her new friend, Iñaki, to destroy sweep Sebastian off his feet seeing how Natty couldn't defeat her number one nemesis in Crossed Wands yet. 🤗
Just a girl who wants to support another girl to destroy her dueling rival -just girly things, you know? 🤗🤭😁
Not that Natty is the only one who wants to see the undefeatable Sebastian Sallow go down.
Even if Iñaki doesn't know anything about his dueling record -heck, she doesn't even know who McStareface is- one thing she does know is that she's SOOOOO looking forward to returning the favor of his smack talk in a duel 🤗😁🤗
After all, it's “Perro que ladra no muerde”/ (A dog that barks doesn't bite) talk to her right now. And after her rough entrance to Hogwarts, Iñaki knows how to bite between the dragon, knights and everything not nice she had to face so far up to this point.
So a duel with McStareface should be fun. 🤗
✨🌺💅🌺✨Just girly things, you know? ✨🌺💅🌺✨
Click Here For Iñaki "MC" Martinez Cariaga Masterlist
#hogwarts legacy#Iñaki Martinez Cariaga#Iñaki “MC” Martinez Cariaga#Inaki Martinez Cariaga#sebastian sallow#Natty#natsai onai#hogwarts legacy au#hogwarts legacy mc#modern au...sort of#kay9leo drawings#And with this I finally FINALLY finished all of my art projects I had on hold because of work#This would've been up sooner as just line art but then I had to listen that voice#that was curious on how these would look if I colored it in#I spent over 5 hours coloring it in on Friday night! I didn't even realize how much time went by since it was rather meditative#and before I knew it - it was 1 AM!#And I finished up the last two panels tonight#I hate art - actually no i don't. I just hate how long it takes to make it lol#Panel 10 is my favorite since I decided to draw the background we would be seeing behind Sebastian in game from our POV#I honestly didn't expect it to come out that nice! :D#but heck if you think I would make the rest of the other backgrounds just as nice#I have a bridge in Brooklyn I can sell you#I'm trying to get this done and posted before my break ends#No but seriously this makes me have even higher respect for anyone who draws/paint/creates any medium of art#at any level more since it's all becomes a work of love#So to all artists here no matter your level hats off to you! You're all amazing!#So that's my ted talk. Bye! ^U^#But seriously now I do want to fight Sebastian now for how much work went to his hair#Avenge me Iñaki. Avenge me girl!#But seriously don't wear jewelry while playing sports for safety reasons
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i like when Alastor gets drawn like he's never had a single thought in his head ever
just... absolutely nothing but tumbleweeds and cobwebs behind those eyes... the decadence of it all... good for him xD
#i have unmedicated adhd so you know my ass has never experienced a moment of genuine not-thinking Ever lmfao#i know he wouldn't actually know the mii music SHHH just let me meme x'3c#gasp! another deerman on my blog so soon??? ... bc i gotta work my way back up to the Best LadsTM hdjshsjsjs#while i'm still figuring out the new sitch. and i was lazy today & wanted to do my nails again finally over messing with that mess#so a colored Al sketch it is for tonight~!! now off to get ready for bed & work in the morning =v=#alastor#hazbin hotel#doodle
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the adult horror conversation with yourself of 'i could have tortillas with dinner tonight. i just had tortillas the other day. that's okay. i can, in fact, have tortillas again! i am putting a different filling in them! but if i have these tortillas, i will have a total of six tortillas left in the freezer. eventually i will have to buy more tortillas. by god, girl, you are allowed to eat the things you have in the freezer, instead of feeling like you have to save them for some potential eventuality so you don't run out of them, and like, what situation are you even imagining where the tortillas would be better to have later instead of for this particular dinner??? if you keep feeling like you have to save them for Something you will just not eat the tortillas!! eventually EVERYTHING runs out and you have to buy more of them!! that is the way the world works!! you are allowed to not have things aggressively stockpiled, except for like, tissues, but that was a purchasing incident on mom's card while she was still here, so you just happen to have, a bizarre amount of tissue boxes. AND WHILE YOUR FINANCES ARE STILL BIG RED QUESTION MARKS, YOU CAN, IN FACT, AFFORD TO GO BUY MORE TORTILLAS IF YOU FUCKING WANT TO!!! YOU GET THE STREET TACO SIZE AND THEY'RE LIKE $2.99!!!!! AND WHEN DID YOU EVEN BUY THESE TORTILLAS, HUH???????? YOU DON'T KNOW, DO YOU???? WHICH MEANS YOU HAVE GONE THROUGH THE TORTILLAS AT AN ACCEPTABLE PACE!! WHATEVER THE HELL THAT SENTENCE MEANS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!'
anyway i'm eating the tortillas. or i mean they're on the counter defrosting while i have some chicken toasting in the toaster oven
#adulting is going soooooooo normally i tell you WHAT#first option of how to keep the house is going to fall through (or well it's not long-term sustainable)#so now we're on second option to keep the house and tomorrow that process starts and i will find out soon if THAT'S possible!!!!!!!!!!!#aaaaaaaaaand if not! then! well!!! will have to move. some places i have an eye on but it's also. Thousand Yard Stare#i got a projected electricity bill -- that was A+ i was so pleased with it!! not bad at all!!! sooo much lower than i was assuming. yay.#BUT THE GAS BILL MADE ME GO 'ARE YOU FUCKING FOR REAL??????'#FIRST OFF LOCAL GAS COMPANY IT'S NOT MY FAULT IF YOUR METER READER CAN'T TRUDGE THROUGH THE SNOW TO THE BACKYARD#AND IS ESTIMATING 100 UNITS HIGHER THAN PREVIOUS USAGE WHICH I'M SURE MAKES A DIFFERENCE#THERE ARE PEOPLE LOCALLY WHO KEEP THEIR HEATER ON 60 BTW AND YOU'RE STILL CHARGING THEM $300 WHICH AT LEAST YOU AREN'T CHARGING ME BUT DAMN#this area is having a bit of a Time with gas and electric bills. it's a whole Thing. mostly i have luckily escaped that.#/crosses self for good luck even if it does NOT work that way and i am Not religious by ANY means#also they're breaking up a security deposit over 3 months bc i didn't have any other real bills in my name when i switched all the bills#(at least the gas was the only one that wanted a security deposit. and they'll give it back to me in a year if i'm current for a year.)#(but also. rrrrrrrrrrude)#so i was expecting that but also a specific budget billing but they are asking for moreeeee than i thought they would!#mostly this is a jan-march issue. after march at least it'll go down like $90. which is better but also. still. sigh.#idk if i should call and argue about the reading. i should just let it go probably. i don't like it but. well. idk.#WELL I GOTTA GET THROUGH TOMORROW FIRST.#AND BEFORE THAT. TONIGHT. AND MY TORTILLAS.
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ive never gone to see an opera live in europe let alone one outside of a major theater that regularly records and broadcasts their productions so grain of salt etc but i think there's some kind of distinct cultural difference between how european companies do "reimagined" productions of operas vs how american companies do it
#sasha speaks#especially thinking about the number of 'canonical' operas that are recently getting adaptations over here#frequently into english language musicals/operettas#not like rent and miss saigon though i mean more like matchbox magic flute#and la périchole getting adapted as songbird by glimmerglass and wno#or the local company that's putting on a 'circus' version of rigoletto with a new english libretto here in dec#(not sure what that will entail yet but i'm intrigued to find out)#hell even the upcoming pirates of penzance revival on bway which is also weirdly enough getting the jazz age new orleans makeover#ik pirates and bway is a different story from Opera(tm) Proper but still. tangential#anyway don't expect much more elaboration tonight i'm in bed rn as i type.#plus i'd want some actual researched data to back up my claim here if i were to really go on#and i have enough school related research to be prioritizing rn as it is#anyway#oh also smth about what content does and does not appeal to american vs european audiences#and by extension what you can and cannot get away with depicting onstage#(for a recent example consider sancta susanna vs grounded)#(okay anyway gn for real this time)
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"Step five: Get his mutinous ass keelhauled, whatever the hell that means." Now envisioning exactly how keelhauling in space would go
#it is very horrible but not necessarily ALWAYS fatal#depends on if you drown or get shredded by barnacles#so my guess is theoretically you'd put the person in the suit#and then haul them over the hull#from one airlock to another#and part of the suspense is whether their suit breaks along the way#this has been terrible NAUTICAL facts with kat clonerightsagenda tonight#now I'm going to bed
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Going back through my ship/character tag was a mistake.
#we're now stuck on a loop of 'BEAUTIFUL DANGEROUS LADY. PLEASE MURDER ME. I LOVE YOU.' while like. actually no-joke swooning.#literally I am not going to get anything done tonight because I'm too distracted by being gay over this character TRULY I am the most#predictable person to ever live a;klsfjas;lfjkasl;dfk
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pls know if you're my friend, my desire to ship increases tenfold and i'm becoming that mom who tries to set her daughter up with her friend's kid bc wouldn't it be so dang cute if they ended up together uvu
#it's just!! very fun to ship with friends and longtime mutuals bc there's a level of comfort there#like you never have to stress over shipping with me bc i'm a sucker for it and the build up and the character development and everything#about it really asdfg but fr if we're pals come here and let's let our muses pine for each other <3#and if you're wondering if i consider us pals the answer is yes. yes you silly bean. we're pals if you've spoken to me#and liked my silly lil ramblings and i'm smooching your forehead rn and holding your hand <3#asdfg alright enough out of me!#get ready to ramble | ooc#btw why is writing so hard tonight... i managed one reply after literal hours of agonizing whyyyyy
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but what if... what if there's a prologue from a third character's perspective. She's a victim, or at least painted to be one. She's forced to sell out her husband for a crime he didn't commit to save the lives of her children. The rest of her story isn't from her point of view. She is only viewed and referenced by one of the main characters , whom despises her. The MC views this side character as a murderer and a villain, among many other things. But there's so much bullshitery going on that we learn on her double agent mission that you would have no way of knowing if the MC is right or wrong until suddenly, it's plain as day. The side character that everyone thought was a hopeless, helpless victim--innocent as a rose--is actually the villain. And our MC pays the price of underestimating her.
#writeblr community#writeblr#creative writing#original writing#writers of tumblr#lgbt writers#wip#writing community#writerscommunity#writer#dark fantasy#lgbtq fantasy#lgbt fiction#theliestheytellwip#Had some of my home grown devil's lettuce tonight#first batch of the year#and lemme tell you#it dusted some serious cobwebs from my writer brain#and my wip#and said get to work#so yeah#these are my thoughts#I'm going to go cry over plotting the second act of the book#and writing the end of the first#before I've even fully written it all#because I want to suffer
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Just saw this comment on a story posted a month ago.
*cries in Eddie Munson Solo Series no one wanted to read, interact with or request for*
No shade to the person that commented this on their own fic if you recognize it. It's not their fault. I'm not mad at them. More crying in the tags.
#and no I didn't tag the solo series like I normally would because it's not about THAT. It's not about trying to get people to read it#It was just really ouchie to see the same concept I wrote 2 years ago get triple the notes in ONE MONTH.#and double the notes of my solo series masterlist in general in one month vs 2 years of my stories sitting there rotting#Then I see people saying they need more solo Eddie and I'm just here like my dudes I begged for requests. BEGGED. But bc I wasn't#/have never been a popular writer people don't want it from ME. It's like omg we want THIS but not like that. Not from you.#Can't help but let it get you down when nothing has changed in 2 years. It's not like I worked my way up and have the interaction now#that every other blog I used to commiserate with back in the day is getting currently. Fandom isn't a competition but it's not fair either#and I really struggle with that a lot of the time#Also yes I will concede I should be happy with the notes on the solo series because they are the highest of all the work on my page but#they're still nothing compared to what some people have just hours after posting a new story.#I saw someone complaining the other day that there are less new stories in the fandom than ever 1. That's simply not true. 2. Even if it wa#can you blame writers for giving up when readers are checking the same popular blogs over again or reading the same 5 tropes the same#2 pairings over and over. The same series? Over and over. Ignoring everything else and then complaining that their faves don't post enough?#That the popular writer with the incredible series (that rightfully deserves interaction) hasn't posted a new dad!eddie or rockstar!eddie#drabble in ages meanwhile there are writes out there pouring their souls into dad!eddie and no one reads it. There is so much rockstar Eddi#smut out there that it could sustain a brand new reader for an entire year before they needed a new fic#Idk man. I'm just feeling so defeated. I write for fun now. But there was a point in time where I desperately tried to build a platform by#offering requests and writing a lot of things I would not otherwise write to try and gain traction on my page and every time I see another#food fucking fic get hundreds of notes I get so sad that I wrote that stupid Melon fic because I had people in my life that told me#they would be excited to read it and for what? One of them still talks to me. The others moved on so fast. Most didn't even reblog it.#Some of them have since written their own food fucking fics that got triple the notes of my OG. Again. No shade to them. I don't own the#concept. It's just disheartening and fucking sad above all else. How hard I tried to get people to LIKE me and my stories. 😂#Just sad hours in general tonight my guys. Going to go and pour the bad feelings into Aftermath and then maybe make a bad life choice and#pour all my savings into an ipad#YES I KNOW first world problems. I know. That's why I try not to talk about it bc it seems so petty considering the state of the world#But you can't help what gets you down#EMMs Journal#EMM's Journal
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vibrating in my chair bc i think i might just be able to finish up the carrd tonight... think i'm juuuust about finished the bio, which means!! just the timeline left after that!!! ...and then proofreading + fixing anything that needs it ig, but!!!!!! ;u;
#we're so closeeeee as long as i don't lose steam there's a good chance of getting it posted tonight aaaaaa#then i can finally return to my drafts and stash 'em all in my queue until i'm caught up lmfao#and probably also log properly back in to discord bc i think my social battery is finally doing a little better!!!#god i hadn't even realized but it's actually been almost a whole month since i've replied to a few of you over there i'm so sORRY about tha#time blindness + chronic overwhelm is a fuckin bitch of a combo ;A;#been in big time avoidance mode for a lotta things this last month or so but i'm looking to change that!!#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don't @ me.
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parents are gone on a cruise. time to tear through my room looking for the tatting shuttles i know i bought years ago and am 95% sure are not lost to The Old House
#textiles#tatting#rosie babbles#*red string corkboard voice* you see if i can get good enough at tatting i can make little bits of lace jewelry and such#which i can THEN see if the cutesy little coffee shop that makes a point to sell local artists' works would be willing to buy from me and#then sell or straight-up sell for me or however the fuck it works and THEN on the slim chance that everything has gone to plan so far i#CONTINUE DOING THIS until such time as i have Wheels™ and then KEEP GOING SOME MORE until i either have a stable non-craft job#or i'm stable enough doing This that my parents will stop treating me like a ''lazy entitled asshole''#anyway. it is after midnight and i am feeling the mental illness in this chilis tonight#it's either this or feet pics. and late-night-deranged me and daytime-deranged me are violently clashing over whether or not to do the feet#pics thing but they're in complete agreement over the tatting thing
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