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gyumazing · 2 years ago

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Life is not a race, Taehyun.

Word count: 1.8k

Warnings: Non

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"Y/N, what are you doing there? Are you going to jump?" You heard a voice calling you.

You turned around and saw Taehyun who was standing firmly. Both his hands were placed inside his pockets. And, for someone who assumed that he was about to witness somebody jump off a building, he looked extremely calm.

You sighed.

"Why are you here?" you whispered under your breathe. You looked up the night sky and felt the cool gushing wind blowing towards you.

December air really hits differently. You wished every day could just be as calm and as plain as how December nights feels like.

"Get down here." Taehyun commanded. He walked slowly—but casually towards you. He didn't seem cautious or what.

How dare he order you to go down?

You rolled your eyes.

"Last time I checked, you weren't in the position to order me around." You glanced at him before closing your eyes.

The chirps of the crickets, the beeping of cars, it felt so nostalgic. You've never had this kind of peace in a while. But, somebody really needs to intervene, huh?

"Oh, so you're really going to jump?" Taehyun scoffed.

You looked at him in disbelief.

"Why do you even care?" You hissed, only for him to shrug lightly before attempting to climb up towards you.

"Alright, if you're not gonna get down here right now..." You then heard a light grunting, followed by a thud. Next thing you knew, the boy was already beside you. "I'll just join you up here." He finished his sentence.

You scanned his entire stature.

He was wearing a plain black shirt with a grey jacket on top of it. His short were dirty white and he was wearing black slide on slippers. With that, you found yourself mindlessly tugging on your own hoodie, trying to ignore the fact that the both of you had a strikingly similar sense of style.

"Leave me alone." you said calmly.

He slouched lowly and arched his back. His feet swayed relaxedly as if it wasn't hanging 10 stories above the ground.

Taehyun scoffed.

"Too bad. Last time I checked, I wasn't obliged to follow your orders."

You groaned.

"I was here first!" You stared at him fiercely, attempting to intimidate the lad. But alas! He didn't throw even a single glance at your direction.

Annoyed, you got up and was about to jump off the platform to leave.

But then you heard Taehyun call your name.

"Don't go yet. Please." Taehyun added. "This is not an order. It's a request." His big doe eyes looked as if they were trying to persuade you into staying still.

And it worked.

You didn't know why but you stood frozen beside him, staring down at his blonde hair awkwardly, trying to avoid his eyes. Only when he raised his head with a confused look did you snap out and sat back right beside him. With that, you heard a contented humm coming from his side.

You stared into the night sky and let your eyes wander upon the sea of stars. The wind was gushing cold brews of air along with the chimes of Christmas bells.

It was Christmas eve and you were supposed to be overjoyed. Why are you both on top of a lonely rooftop when there's a feast to celebrate downstairs?

You also didn't know.

"Y/N, Do you believe in the after life?" Taehyun randomly blurted out. You felt him shifting his position and now he was sitting crossed leg, back slightly slouched, elbows on top of his thighs, and the palms of his hands supporting the weight of his head.

He looked rather comfortable, considering the fact that one wrong move and he could literally fall off the building.

You threw a horrified gaze at the unfazed man.

"Why ask that?"

"It's just fascinating," Taehyun spoke softly. His voice sounded so mellow and comforting.

Taehyun was a family friend. You were a year younger than him and you knew each other since you were a child. The both of you are from the same school and you two were oftenly dubbed as the male and female version of each other. Were the two of you close? No. If hadn't it both of your moms being friends, you were sure you would've never interacted.

"What's so fascinating about the afterlife?" You asked.

"The concept that there's a place where we can go after we die," Taehyun replied earning a subtle scoff from you. "I think it's fascinating."

You stared at the guy as he was directing his gaze towards oblivion.

"Really? Don't you think there's tonshit of stuffs going on in our lives right now to even think about where we will go when we die?"

"No. Not really. I mean, why is life even created in the first place when we're destined to die?" He asked, earning nothing but a silence from you.

You wanted to rebutt something but your mind can't form out a coherent response to his statement.

Teahyun's mind wasn't the easiest to decipher so you never knew what's going on inside his head until he says it. To be honest, he's just way too weird for your liking. Up until now, you still haven't figured if you should be offended or be grateful when people see you as the female version of Taehyun.

"Aren't you afraid of being old Y/N?" Taehyun finally glanced on your side. "Aren't you worried of what life might be for you when you've already passed the age age of 60?" He tilted his head to the side while looking at you. His big doe eyes looked as if they were twinkling like the stars above him.

You shrugged.

"Not much," you stared back at him.

People worry about things too much. Life is a just big series mystery waiting to be unfold. Whatever happens it will just happen. If you spend your time wondering and worrying about what the future might hold for you, you'll just end up stressing over things that aren't worth stressing for.

"Really? I hope I could be just like you," Taehyun swayed left to right matching the beat of the muffled Christmas jingle from the inside of the hotel. "I hope I worry less."

You chuckled.

"Uh, not really dude," you brushed him off. "Part of why I don't really worry about what will happen to me when I'm old is because I plan on dying young."

He giggled upon your reply.

"You know what? You're really unpredictable, Y/N."

You were? You never pegged yourself as somebody who's unpredictable. Hearing this from Taehyun made you think otherwise.

"I'm not joking though." you uttered with the straightest face you could ever make.

He looked at you for a moment, as if he were deciphering codes before humming contently.

"Seems like it," Taehyun nodded, convinced.

You tugged your grey hoodie and pulled the sleeves to extend it and completely cover your palms.

Now, silence reigned between you two and the only thing you could hear was the faint sound coming from downstairs.

Dashing through the snow, with the one horse open sleigh~

All the things we go, laughing all the way~

You looked at Taehyun again.

"Are you okay?" You asked him after realizing the things that he had said to you earlier.

You heard him taking a deep deep breath.

You looked at his side and saw his conflicted expression.

"Spill the tea," you urged him. "This is not an order, okay?" You added teasingly.

He pondered for quite a while before speaking.

"I've been worrying about the path that I've choosen lately." He looked at you, observing if you were listening and you nodded, urging him to continue. "Well, I've been a trainee for six years now and I still haven't debuted." He sighed.

You saw him fidgeting with his fingers and you waited patiently for him to continue.

"You know what? I've been telling myself that the right time will just come. That everything that I've been working so hard for will all be worth it in the end." He said. "But, sometimes I can't help but think, maybe being an idol isn't just for me? That, maybe I should just quit so I won't waste my time anymore." You could hear fear, confusion, and uncertainty laced within his words.

You can't help but look at him in pitty. You never knew Taehyun felt this way.

"Wow, six years sure is a long time." You uttered slowly, unable to think of anything that'd make him feel better.

You heard Taehyun sigh for the nth time.

"I know. It's been so long. It feels like the thought of debuting is not even on the table anymore." He looked so lost, as if you could almost hear his heart shattering into pieces.

You can't help but feel sad for him too.

You wanted to reassure him but you're not quite sure how.

You coughed.

"Taehyun, I don't even know you that much but I know that you can sing really well and you can dance really well." You uttered slowly.

The man looked at you, confusion visibly etched on his face.

"What I meant is, you have everything that it takes in order to debut. Technically speaking, your skills are for an above average trainee. Plus, you're still young. Debut is definitely not out of the table." You explained. "Instead of worrying, why not try to challenge yourself and try to keep improving?"

"I always try my best to do things that will help me improve. But then, there's always this part of me that thinks 'no matter what I do, it's just not enough'. It tells me that I am just wasting my time and energy."

"Well, do you love what you are doing?" You eyed him. And with no hesitation, he muttered a small yes. You nodded. "I mean, I'm not telling you to not quit because that's still up to you. Rationally speaking though, don't you think you'll end up wasting even more time if you stopped right now after investing so much time?"

"I know. But, it's just, I feel like this won't lead me anywhere."

"How so?"

"My friends, they already debuted while I'm still here stuck in what seems like a time loop. I'm afraid that if I remain doing the same thing everyday, I'll eventually end up running out of time." He sighed. "What if I never debut?" He whispered.

You looked at him in pitty.

He looked so conflicted and confused. Never in your life did you expect that you'll ever see Taehyun this way.

You moved closer to him and tapped his right shoulder.

"Life is not a race, Taehyun. You shouldn't view life like it's 'start to finish line'. If you're afraid that one day you'll end up running out of time, then you're wasting even more time now by worrying now." You tried your best to comfort him. "Chill out dude. Breathe in and just savor what is in you plate right now. Life is too short to worry about things that are yet to happen."

You continued patting on his shoulders.

He nooded at you meekly.

"Again, do you love what you are doing?" You looked at him expectantly.

You could see his eyes glistening. How his face changed from a contemplating look to a softer one.

"Yes. Very."

You nodded.

"Then that's a reason enough to not give up."

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