#tokio hotel 2009

[d0wn-in-the-morgue]

can i just say, world behind my wall by tokio hotel needs more appreciation. this song has permanantly altered my brain chemistry. it has shifted my view on the world. it has left a mark on my heart that will never go away. this song is genuinely one of the most beautiful songs ever written and lowkey my favourite tokio hotel song. (apart from thema nummer eins ofc) i fucking love world behind my wall so fucking much. if i EVER got the chance to see tokio hotel live and they played THIS???? i think id piss my pants, faint, wake up, cry and probably bust a nut all at once. this song has honestly saved my life. everytime im sad, everytime i wanna give up, everytime i feel like i hate the world i stream world behind my wall and i instantly feel better. the theme of being scared to go into the future/real world and constantly hiding behind a wall of defense youve made for yourself resonates with me so hard its almost scary. i genuinely think this is my song. its healing. its when the world is finally starting to look okay. its finding beauty in things you never saw beauty in. the high notes after the 2nd bridge will forever live in my head rent free, theyre so perfect. how the fuck does bill manage to absolutely EATTTT every note in that song. the opening of the song whether tom plays it on guitar or piano is so perfectly written. the "woah oh woah" in the chorus feels like the ending to a cheesy kids movie but in the best way possible. nothing could be better in this song. it needs 0 improvements. its the perfect song. i lowkey love the humanoid version better, something about hearing the english lyrics and not having to think "oh i forgot what this part means" and just having bill directly say it feels so nice. also i think the chorus just sounds better in the humanoid version. normally i hate the english covers but theres just something about this one. but then again humanoid came out before lass uns laufen anway so...

please, for the love of fucking god, stream this damn song.

[billpinkkittyx]

when tom and bill both had dreads

[just-a-girl-07]

☆ October 2009

[tokiokaulitz483]

The making of Automatic in 2009

[mrsschafer-mrslisting]

Prettiest boy ever (every single year)

[zimmer-zupastar]

How me and Pookie look at eachother when the teacher says you can pick a partner

[19kaulitz89]

I turn 20 today! XD

=)))))))

[andreaheartscats]

Tom Kaulitz relationship headcanons

-> Tom is super sweet to you, even when he first met you he thought you were the most wonderful person ever. So pure, so innocent.

-> You know well that he is known as a player, as someone who goes around and sleeps with girls. But truth to be told he is very loyal to you.

-> At first you had your concernes, and to be fair who wouldn't? But he really proved himself to you, he showed you and made sure you could trust him and that he only loved you and no one else.

-> Tom wouldn't be Tom if he didn't shower you with gifts. You kinds felt bad cause he spent so much money on you by buying you gifts and taking you shopping but he was extremly happy seeing you all excited when you see a pair of shoes you really liked and he felt proud of himself cause he could buy them for you.

-> In private, he is all over you. And i mean literally. He lays on top of you and basically crushes you underneath him cause he just lives for your cuddles and the way you smell so good. Especially right after you get out of showr, Gosh. He just loves it soo much, to just lay with you wrapped in his arms or laying all his weight on you for you to rub his head.

-> I'd like to think that he smells like a mix of cigarettes and a good cologne.

a/n: wassupp yalllll, how yall doin? anyways here is more of my writing about Tom , hope you liked it and idk it feels sooo weird writing about a real person likeee? whatever LOL anyways luv u all smsmsmsm!!<33 (also yes this is very VERY short.)

[itzmaztercom]

THOSE picture make me go crazy

[minlipseperru]

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ That smile kills me

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[tomscocksleeve]

You fool

Summary: Tom was your best friend and he had fallen in love with you but you were closed off permanently after traumatic events that happened

Paring: Tom Kaulitz x closed off fem reader

Genre: Angst

Warnings; depression, family issues, suicides

Tom was always over at your house. It made you feel ashamed and guilty, every time he was over your parents were screaming and fighting and the look he would give you made you agitated. To him the look he gave was a sincere sad look but to you it seemed like false pity. You hated it. You started resenting him almost. He would try to hug you or comfort you but you ended up pushing him away and the more you did the more his eyes became filled with a despair look in them. Fuck you thought to yourself. Are you being too mean? Should you let him hug you? You had all these thoughts rushing into your head so you caved in.

When he went to give you a hug you let him and he had the most purest gentle smile. It was beautiful, the way his lip ring glistened and the way his lips moved to the side a bit, he was beautiful. You tightened the hug slightly and you felt his muscular arms wrap around you. He whispered something but you were so lost in your own head to even acknowledge it. Fuck he was so precious and pure but you felt nothing for him. You couldn’t feel anything, after your mom and dad ruined your life at your old house your feelings and emotions began to die completely. You locked yourself in your room, you snapped back at them and even after all of this, in their eyes, you were nothing but a monster.

Few weeks later Tom had brought you to the hangout you and him always go to. You seemed uninterested and not phased by the fact he planned this. You were told about what his plans were, he was going to ask you out and then you were supposed to just jump in his arms and date him for eternity or whatever love bullshit he had in mind. You crossed your arms under your breasts and you stared at him with an almost robotic expression. “Y/n I-�� he started saying before you cut him off. “I know what this is, save it.” You spoke coldly. He seemed hurt, his eyes glistened with tears that had yet to fall. He wasn’t going to break down just yet though, you admired his will power. “You’re going to confess I already know this, your crush has been obvious and I don’t have any feelings for you.” You had the coldest look imaginable.

You started walking away saying nothing and he didn’t stop you. You could hear the soft sounds of crying as he tried to keep it together. You grabbed at your shirt as you felt your heart ache. What the fuck? You haven’t felt that feeling in so, so long. Why now? Why here? You started walking faster to get away from him. You couldn’t bear to look at him crying, you couldn’t stand him crying. If you did go back you’d end up insulting him. You hated being this way, but you didn’t know any other way to act.

It’s been a while since you and him had spoken. He seemed so depressed lately and you just became colder by the day. He hated how you became and he was going to let you go. On Thursday the 13th you stood up on a high building your hoodie was lying on the roof and you were on the edge. Cops were there and everyone gathered. You saw cameras and saw the camera lights flash. Bastards. Taking pictures like this was some documentary. Tom ran up pushing past all the police and cameras and he made it just as you turned to face your back from them prepared to die. “No.. please.” He said, his voice breaking just like his heart had. “You’re a fool Tom Kaulitz. Running up here like some fucking hero. Why.” “I love you y/n that’s why. I can handle your emotions I can handle all the pain you feel but please killing yourself in front of all these people isn’t worth it.” You didn’t listen to anything he had to say and you leaned your body off the building. As you fell nothing ran through your head except for his cries. And the next thing you know… everything went black.

You eventually saw Tom. He grabbed your hand as you stood in a field together, what was odd is that you hadn’t felt any pain, any anger. All of it was gone. You were wearing a white dress and your shoes were gone. Tom had his beautiful smile and he gave your hand a squeeze before he pulled you by the tree that you two always hung out at. You gave a soft smile and sat next to him and rested your head on his shoulder in that paradise.

“I’m with you now and forever y/n..”

Hey guys! So I’ve been feeling a little numb and sort of depressed lately so I wanted to write some angst and if it wasn’t obvious Tom also killed himself but you don’t know that you just know he showed up with you.

[lebdiesekunde]

Mowhawk era 🛐

[just-a-girl-07]

dreamy

[tokiokaulitz483]

mohawk bill 🔛🔝 (of me)

[d0wn-in-the-morgue]

me looking at my friends train wreck of a life after i gave them advice that couldve saved them from all of this (they didnt listen to me)

[zimmer-zupastar]

LOOK AT HIS SHOESSS LMFAO