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lesbianstarlightglimmer · 2 years ago

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Sometimes I get mad at stupid stuff but really it’s usually something deeper that I haven’t always processed as being the actual thing I’m mad at. My brain focuses on the smaller more manageable grievance than the bigger one and ends up making me look like a whiny bitch

#meows #example being rn I’m annoyed we can’t eat out dinner tonight #and have to eat hot dogs (which I have an on again off again relationship)#but what’s probably the bigger picture is my relationship w food bc of my family #bc everything goes back to my f*ther #literally we can’t eat anywhere unless he wants it #constantly having to tiptoe and pick safe foods for HIM #to pacify him is just a lil tiring! makes me bad at choosing food too #when I’m eating w people #so my annoyance could be at that or also be in combination w #how when I first started college my mom promised me #the weekends I was home she’d cook food I liked #aaand that lasted like one and a half weekends #and again it goes back to what my f*ther wants #that all the food she’d make those weekends would #be things HE likes. can’t have xyz bc he doesn’t like it #and idk Ik I can’t complain bc at least I’m getting food #etc etc but it just feels like she puts him over her own kids

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