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#don’t know what happened to me I went from not really being interested in T to wanting to microdose/try it out for funsies#to like actively desiring it thinking abt it going ahh#last part in the span of like two weeks#slight cw for body image in the tags nothing detailed or intense tho#I had gotten to a point where I was o happy w how I look but these past few weeks I just really have not been feeling it!!!!#and I know t isn’t going to magically change me. abd honestly I don’t want it to. so I want to be aware of that and have realistic expec#tations etc#but I wouldn’t be able to start until the summer anyway so that’s good that gives me time to sit w the idea more#but yeah!!! weird little moment going on.#I also need a haircut maybe a haircut will help fix me
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ridi hi ! yr like one of my biggest writing inspirations and im going to try writing r/s so i wanted to ask for a bit of advice (if you don't mind!!) how did you first sort of insert yourself into the fandom? ive never really written hp before and kinda don't know where to start (without feeling like some sort of imposter lol) thought id get yr opinion hope you don't feel pressured to answer tho <3
hi hi !! ahh fhdsfjds thats so lovely thank you so much!! thank u for this q, ill put my thoughts under the cut hope thats okay mwah <33
i was writing on ao3 for a fair bit of time b4 i was made this blog on here to post about my writing (i dont know if most people went in that order?? maybe??) but once i was on here i just found authors whose stuff i enjoyed on ao3 and who had mentioned they had a tumblr. i found honestly just interacting with people + their work n stuff was the easiest way to make friends!! n just messaging those people even though it was a bit terrifying. at the same time, though, when talking about hp specifically i think u've gotta keep in mind that its a massive space and also largely a cesspit lol...for that reason ive had no desire to get too involved in most of it aside from circles of people i know n trust and i would say, especially on the topic of interacting with people: be extra careful when you're following people, and also screen ur followers as best you can for terf shit and projkr shit and all of that.
as for the writing side! its way, way less daunting if you're just writing what you want honestly. i wrote things because there was stuff i wanted to read, and now i do it because i enjoy writing! and i think having any other motivation for doing it except that will result in it becoming a bit of a draining and joyless activity pretty quickly. don't worry about canon (esp when the source material is as shite and lazy as hp canon is anyway), don't worry about adhering to popular headcanons if they don't interest you...the imposter thing is tricky but also very very common and probably nearly everyone doing something creative + sharing it will feel like that to some extent? and if everyone feels like an imposter sometimes then i'd argue that nobody can really, genuinely be one, so don't worry abt it too much (again, writing for yourself rather than any other motivation will probably help with that a bit). and have fun writing babe that is really at the end of the day all there is to it like if ur enjoying urself then whatever u write will b brilliant n worth ur time <33 good luck !!
#i think the first person i EVER messaged on here was liv <3 i was so scared i was psyching myself up for ages to compose that message <3#i was like what if this is the weirdest creepiest thing anyones ever done. what if i DIE#what if ive accidentally typed fuck you without realising. what if???#hiii liv if u see this hi babs <333#again i dont know ive really inserted myself into the fandom that much or if i even want to do that but i really think just in terms of#posting on HERE? just having some mutuals u love n trust literally that is all u need. and posting on ao3? just write what u want and share#however much of it you want!! ao3 is not a social media n its scary to think of it as posting stuff into the void but its a lot LESS scary#if you just think of it as a place where you're putting your works. like a portfolio like a document folder.#it is just a place for them to be kept <3 like a bookshelf!#telegram#anon
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i feel like jk's ex gaslighted him and that's why he's so afraid of relationships - when he was in this original relationship i think she messed up his sense of reality so much that he doesn't want to give someone else the opportunity to manipulate him like that again. while i don't think she and oc are similar i think the jk's feeling the same stuff with oc rn as he did at the beginning of his relationship with his ex and that's why he was a total douche canoe when oc tried to confess (1/?)
Anonymous said:tbh jk is making me v mad, even though he was explicit from the beginning that he didn't want a relationship, because it seems like he's passing on his gaslighting trauma to oc now (if my theory is correct that his ex gaslighted him) with his conflicting actions. i think jk made his own set of new rules following that break up and the fact that oc is bringing those feelings back to him, effectively breaking his rules, resulted in him being such a douche canoe (2/?)
Anonymous said:unlike oc now, i think jk hasn't gotten the chance to confront his ex yet about the abusive aspect of their relationship so he projects his anger and hurt feelings onto other people that would want to date him. like his rxn towards oc was cruel but i think that cruelty stems from his desire to do that to his ex, to make her feel as small/powerless/defeated as he felt as a result of her gaslighting. idk just my thoughts, i hope this theory-crafting wasn't annoying for you Lu (3/3)
Anonymous said:i mean the last line of new rules is you’re getting over him so im gonna be optimistic ab
Anonymous said:hi thank u for writing us that quality smut. it seems to me that jk is in it for sex and companionship. but i do wonder why jk was so jealous of hobi and reader? im sorry if you’ve alr answered that before but bc y/n wants a romantic connection, i wonder who she’ll get it from if she reconciles with jk not ever being able to meet her romantic needs
Anonymous said:i think i'm gonna reread new rules again to get more perspective on this chapter's events; i totally understand what you're saying about JK, his fuckboi ways and the dismissal of platonic feelings, but my mind is used to that shift to romantic feelings in these kinds of stories so i wanna go back and analyze. your stories always get me so worked up :,( i sent asks last night that were probably annoying for you to read (if tumblr didn't eat them) so i'm going back IOT check myself for the future
Anonymous said:Did no one else pick up on jungkook being apparently good at skating on his date with hyejin? Whilst he was terrible at it with the OC...? That was the warning sign for me...
Anonymous said:Something definitely happened in Jungkook’s past for him to have that perspective on relationships. Loved the new chapter of NR, I want you to know that you’re an absolutely amazing writer💛
vickyyy97 said:Wow! The chapter had me on the edge of my seat! My heart was beating so fast! I really want to know the story between him and his ex girlfriend. What happened that made him not go into relationships? Why did he confess if he told her his views on relationships? So many questions! I think Jungkook is scared to go into relationships. Maybe they're not ready. Maybe they need to give their feelings more time. So excited for the time skip! Your writing is absolutely amazing! Take your time please! ❤
Anonymous said:You know the moment when she overheard that they went to skate on a date. I thought that maybe it not him but hyejin took him there? Or is it really him? Is it some kind of his plan? He doesn't want her to catch feeling for him? He is afraid that he hurts her? I'm being ridiculous, right?Then why does he need her to admit that she likes him as well?Oh, he wants her to like him as a good fuxk and a friend.Looking forward to the next chapter (no pressure.just saying.I'll wait as long as I have to)
Anonymous said:✨1// Hello! Silent follower here, hope youre doing well ☺️Just read the new nr update; i loved it and just wanted to share my thoughts hehe. I think of myself as a dense reader (not very good at analysing text 😥) so I’m not sure my interpretation is correct and i apologise if its not! Ahh where do i even begin? Overall i find your portrayal of hook up culture so skillful and accurate.
Anonymous said:✨2// I love the recurring portrayal of the ironic intricacies of hook up culture--the very conflicts and uncertainties people want to avoid when they engage in fwb. I also think your approach to this story and its characters is so raw and refreshing; its so smart the way you integrate some of jungkooks actions so that his thoughts and place in him and oc's relationship are blurred for the readers/oc! The confusion in a lot of your anons i think is a sign of how well youve done it 😅
Anonymous said:✨3// In terms of the whole jungkook-relationship-thing from this update.. jungkook's past relationship clearly affected his view on relationships/what they should be. Maybe he was led to believe that sexual activity should be enjoyed in platonic circumstances? maybe he believes that platonic relationships are stronger than romantic? Or maybe he simply only has platonic feelings for OC-
Anonymous said:✨4// -but is also really expressive/affectionate to his friends, causing her to see his actions as small confessions and eventually developing feelings herself? There r so many different possibilities i can think of but we'll never know until his past is revealed! I’m curious to see what happened. I could keep going abt the things I’m curious abt/love abt this fic & ur writing but this is getting so long kdsndj tysm for ur updates despite being so busy💕💕we rly appreciate all the work u put in!
Anonymous said:New rules is such a wonderful story& I definitely go back to reread each chapter and always end up finding something that makes me love this story more. Thank you for creating something amazing despite being so busy with real life. Also, with the ending of this update,is Jungkook's past relationship with his highschool girlfriend, maybe one of the reasons why he has these views on relationships, the way he does? Almost like a turning point for him, in some ways, to him being who he is now?
Anonymous said:Wasn’t expecting that ending for Chap 9 but I was still awed! That ending makes me want to reread all the chaps leading to the latest because I am guilty of reading them in rose colored glasses. This really makes me think on the amt of romantic undertones I perceived with JK and how false they were. I’m excited where NR is heading because this was unexpected yet in character with how you set the mc and JK from the beginning.
Here are more lovely reactions, theories, and thoughtful questions. I LOVE NEW RULES BOOKCLUB SO MUCH!!! THANK YOU MY LOVELIES
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airmom. tumblr. com/post/159215839296 is the mars post I was talking about you doing for the rest of the signs. it's simple, to the point, and informative. I like it a lot. lol.
ooo hehehe ok sure
Aries Mars:-anger e over everything- 1, 2, 3 action! (cannot handle laziness)-loves competition, either gym rat or athlete monstr-hates waiting -angr e sex could be a strong desire-strong risk-takers, u either try or die trying-loves the chase-actions speak louder than words!!!-str8 to the point-wants to play basketball w ur feelings probably-wants to live their life to fullest
Taurus Mars:-likes to touch rather than talk-process things slowly and steadily (not saying they’re slow, I meant by approach)-takes patience to understand them heh-might b a sugar daddy/sugar baby-obsessed with their things, so don’t b surprised how protective they can b abt u-so calm, so hard to read-keeps sexual activity like a secret, sh-might forget that sex is abt creating a bond, bc they are so focused on their own pleasure oopz
Gemini Mars:-so unpredictable omgknjvnsjvnd-like to makes things abt themselves sometimes-likes to learn, hit them with that new math problem u learned at school-double-texters imo-want someone to keep up w them-so easily distracted, and scattered o no-have a way w words oo la la-likes to talk over the phone, might have a phone sex kink (shrug)-prefers variety and to keep their options open-needs their space, does not like to rush into things
Cancer Mars:-will talk about having children-cute girls > hot girls-protective-huge homebody oo co zee-most likely to come off really cute!!! cute energy!!!-v smart, will make the effort to the things they want to achieve-hides in their shell, so ppl don’t see their true intentions-takes a while to get with these bad bois (eas e peas e? ya u tHouGht)-likes to observe the ones they like-might give u a quiz, n will see where the relationship is going from there (might make platonic or romantic move on u, and see ur response to it)-might come off harsh if they feel trapped -want to feel secure!!
Leo Mars:-anger e over everything pt 2-lazy but are very goal-oriented-confident over the person they r trying to pursue (might not always b the case)-need to learn to slow their roll, 100/100 likely to go straight into flirting-likes attention n affection hehe-when they aren’t trying to seek a partner, they r busy doing something artistic-loves everything art-wants to make themselves n the ppl around them proud!!!-super stubborn grrr-loves the adrenaline they get when they r in love ahh, thats y they like falling love-enthusiastic, and warm makes them v cute partners-pretty much a top
Virgo Mars:-keeps it one hunneh-likes to pursue things n not make a big deal out of it, they know they did good-strives 4 success-polite conversations > flirting-calm, and quick-minded-dont get in their way bc they’ll just push u aside-has sharp-tongue (b careful when u french kiss them o no)-can turn calm into detached, ya theres a difference-hit them with that correct grammar and that advanced english-old-skool loverz-they remind me of….office sex-another earth mars that keeps things secret sh-prefer to do things thru experience
Libra Mars:-another air sign that has a way w words oo la la-commitment is not in their dictionary (ehehe jokes)-most likely to win ur heart (fUcK)-so charming, alluring, and kno how to grab ur attention-dont kno what they want -decisions r so frusTurAtInG-when they become weak when they are being pressured (sorry I’m exposing u like this)-struggles to be fair, what other ppl want and what they want-want to have fun, so rushing things will b ur downfall heh-like to b complimented and shown any type of attention-likes dirty talk probably, sexting may b?
Scorpio Mars:-hates losing, losing is not an option-prefer to have a few goals, so they can b focused in order to achieve them easily-possessive & controlling -will sit back n think whether u r worth the effort-digs deep into things-probably a stalker (love to research and find out things for themselves but that doesn’t mean u should b dishonest w them)-very hard to befriend -takes a while to gain their trust, lots of patience pls-pls proceed w caution-very good healers, very strong fighters-fascinated w occults, death, dangers, and things that r unanswered
Sagittarius Mars:-adventure seekers-change their wants everyday probably-always coming up w ideas-likes someone who keeps them entertained-not a cheesy/corny lover-fun > emotions-quick-witted, and r very fun to have a conversation w-funny!!!!! so funny!!!!-they r so spontaneous -always going thru new experiences, wisdom is key!!!-can never finish projects bc a new idea always pops up o no!!-will dip when things get 2 serious 2 soon
Capricorn Mars:-DADDDY KINKS I SWEAR TO GODDJSKJLF-sorry but reality is harsh and so are Cappys-goals come first-very serious & straight-forward, lets cut to the chase-work-oriented, especially when they r pursuing someone!!!-patient-can b cold when u c their bad side, move aside, they want to achieve-love and sex is a slow-burning pleasure yummy-they strive for success like the other earth signs-can control their anger-old-skool as heck-plans for the future!!!-make great spouses tbh-dry dark sense of humor ):
Aquarius Mars:-rules? never heard of her-r not obvious lovers-prefer to b ur friend first!!!-they think instead of express, they r an air sign not a water (ahem)-can be very detached, anything expressive or physical can give them discomfort-reasonable, and calm-kink e-they like to experiment ((((;-idealists, they know what they abt to do to u -logic & reasoning, logic & reasoning-have a very headstrong approach to everythinnnnnnng-independent!!! quirky!!!!-”me, myself, and ego”
Pisces Mars:-things change their moods v easily n they won’t notice!!!-goes thru things unconsciously-will like u one day then won’t answer ur texts the next (wauw)-so indirect-if they want to pursue something they need to b emotionally committed ):-go-with-the-flow-never know where their feelings r coming from when they express them (y r they sad? tHey DOnT KnOW)-things like money, power, security, etc will not tempt them-they r v soothing, feels like u r rocking in the ocean when they hug u (try it)-patience pls for this water sign (aside Cancer & Scorpio)-difficult, u r in for a ride!!!!-should meditate when angered+ I got some lil understandings from this site
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hey its the fic anon again! i just wanted to apologise in case my previous ask has done you harm! sorry that i‘ve dumped that on you, i too am super frustrated with how the writing is going in canon and in fanon. its clear Hori and majority of the fandom dont know how to write kids/teenagers and survivors. also i guess my experiences are different from yours too so that might‘ve been a factor, i just desire to see Izuku given the choice to finally walk away from this mess. 1/2
and that Katsuki finally faces consequences by having it laid bare to him that that shit was not okay, him acknowledging it and. yknow. Finally improving and growing as a person, like how long is the story gonna skirt around this?? and tbh i‘m super scared of those revenge fics going around since i‘m super sensitive when it comes to kids in fiction. ahh i think i already took too much of your time! Again, i‘m sorry. I hope you‘ll still have a good day! 2/2
oh no don’t worry anon!! you probably caught me at a bad time because i was exhausted and just tired in general so i took the opportunity to rant abt my mha feelings of a bit before i passed out for seven hours lmao. you can send me your thoughts at any time, i’ll deffo reply and i’ll just tell you straight up if i don’t like smth you said lol
yeah i definitely find it cathartic for the two to confront their issues, and have it all laid out. i like the idea of bakugou bettering himself, but only in the way that doesn’t inflate his own ego. that he respects izuku’s space and doesn’t talk to him until izuku approaches him. but honestly in canon the way that it’s going in the manga (spoilers if you’re not caught up) especially the way that bakugou is actively helping with the one for all situation which i hate by the way it looks like everything was forgotten, forgiven and resolved. which is so fucking stupid it’s the leading reason i’m done w horikoshi’s bullshit.
and while i am a v avid fan of fanfics and mha fanfics, i’ll admit i haven’t been checking out the newest ones. and even that it’s with enough blacklisted tags to hide over half of them on ao3. revenge fics?? yikes. never been a fan of revenge fics really, especially with mha. i just think it’s petty and sigh yeah no thank you.
#Anonymous#i like to call what im in the transitional phase in which im slowly leaving the mha fandom#first step is hating the author and the direction canon content is going#then it's loathing the fandom in nearly it's entirety#then it's not finding any interesting fanfcs in said fandom#then find a new fandom to dedicate the next year or two to#rn the only thing keeping me in mha is my love for izuku and enby-izukus fics tbh#my only issue is that rn i don't have a new fandom to get into and have no idea what it should be
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