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Pick A Card Reading

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A love read for people in relationships. Singles can also watch it. Minors do not interact. These reads can be used as an insight provider for your current or past relationships and can be used for self improvement or relationship improvement journaling.

I personally don't believe in picking up other's energies except the person interacting with my energy. So this would be an insight guide on your relationships through your energy. For singles out here, this read can be for you, just take the shoe if it fits and can be used as an insight guide as well, you may or may not get the messages of your liking here. Channelled messages are in double quotation text.

So trigger warning ⚠️ these reads are long can be triggering, are pretty deep and require presence of mind. Sorry ADHD people, but trust me on this. This is an intuitive psychic work. Please only take the storyline of what resonates. If its not for you, its not meant to be. A lot of violence, SA and intense themes of suicide came up,please take breaks while reading it, this read was one long and intense ride. I cried many times, its pretty intense and looong. Its too much honestly speaking Iam a Scorpio and this is a deep emotionally intense ride, so take your time, if you feel you have understood the message and jist of the reading mid way reading it, please leave. There's no compulsion,this read is for the purposes of journalling only. And yeah, I am sorry for not including pictures of diverse couples. please forgive me, just got those 6 pictures as my pinterest recommends.

How to find that depth in your relationships to keep its spark going? What is it that you aren't seeing/doing when it comes to navigating your love life?

So today I asked my cards for a PAC topic so this is what came through

These are some channeled song. At first I thought I had to help you guys express your feelings to your partners and get out of your comfort zone but then came a message from the people in relationships who are circling back in a loveless relationship just for the comfort of it, have love for each other, the $ex could have been kept at side (even though its good) and are struggling to keep the spark going despite loving each other the most and feeling as if the relationship is at its brink despite having an open communication and conversation. So what is it that will keep "us" going? Idk what it is, but let's find out, and see what comes out. If you have been feeling this way, this might be the reading for you. This can be applied to similar context with "friends just for now" (situationships) or people who haven't found their significant other where you guys could be having trouble moving past the comfort zone to express those real and genuine feelings. In the end take what resonates and leave the rest.

Every pile is divided into 6 categories

1. Confirmations

2. How deep is your relationship with them? (Singles this could be your past or future person, idk take it how it resonates)

3. How can you look for depth in your relationships?

4. What is it that you aren't seeing or doing about your relationships?

5. How is this lack of depth in your energy affecting your relationships?

6. What else can you do to navigate your/through your love life smoothly? (Cause love life sometimes needs navigating through some external obstacles 🤷🏻‍♀️)

So here are the piles

The link to pile 6 is here

Pile 1

1. Confirmations:

Someone here could be indian or from Spain or knows the language Hindi, and Spanish, 6, june, july, someone could have recently taken or shared their MBTI Test, Letters MBBP, the it boy song BBNO$, number 7, Isabel LaRosa's song I'm yours 🎵 you are so pretty it hurts🎵, Lion, ♌ Leo, july Leo

2. How deep is your relationship with each other?

Right off the bat, Im feeling thirsty 🥵 trust me I'm hearing DPR IAN -Dont go insane, the heavy breathing part with chains ⛓️ or belts. Ok. "Kaamna" you both could have wished for this relationship. Kaamna,Seema or Odette (the swan princess coming through) could be someone's name as well. I am also getting nutcracker music. Some of you here could be a ballerinas. Idk why all this gives me christmas vibes. Maybe some of you aren't over Christmas yet and haven't removed the decorations as well 😆.

Basically this doesn't seems like the traditional relationship but it definitely could be one of those relationships that is still at the early stages of commitment but could have been rushed without proper communication.

3. How can you look for depth in your relationships ?

High Priestess here said "You need to look for info within oneself " you both should see your old pictures, "I'm getting one man boat or boating pictures" and maybe revisit the site of that old business venture that you both wanted to do together but couldn't get time for it. It reminds me of a youtube animation movie with the same plot of growing apart from each other due to differences in goals, in the movie, the husband and wife came together and wanted to open a bakery together. So the husband and wife started earning money through various sources and had to leave their hobbies of baking behind to focus on work/ for someone this could be about focusing on shares rather than what you are passionate about doing. Anyway all this hustle culture could have promoted both of you quickly and may have rewarded you with lots of money only to forget about what both of you were actually passionate about despite getting a small pay for pursuing those hobbies. This is specific but someone could have started an Only Fans, to earn a lot of money only to invite their friends over to gain cash in terms of price for their services. It seems like you both could have forgotten the real reason both of you yearned for this money. "Its over a month already" "when will we get new clients" I guess this is the energy that is coming through. But yeah what you need to look for is your search for your inner calling.

4. What is it that you aren't doing/seeing about your relationship?

I'm getting the word "Seema" . Seems like you are pretty bad at setting proper boundaries in the guise of thinking "its hot" even when its uncomfortable for you. Do you, Iam not judging, just know that it isn't hot when it's uncomfortable to do so. You seem to have a hard time leaving what doesn't serves you anymore.

And the other thing you are doing is not connecting with people who can give you meaningful connections. There's a lack of wholesomeness in your connections cause there are beautiful connections that you are gifted with which aren't getting their deserving time and attention from you, because you could be so tired and exhausted of overbearing new relationships in this relationship that you are almost handling your meaningful connections in a wild manner.

5. How is this lack of depth in your energy affecting your relationships?

Its this unconscious, unsaid yet unfamiliar promise that you have unknowingly kept with others. Its the vows that you could be breaking. Someone's name could be "Colby,Coby,Cody". I don't necessarily think it's the vows that you have kept. It's that when we agree to live a normal life in society, we bind ourselves to follow a social moral code of conduct. And that includes not being a participant in breaking the vows or promises we have knowingly or unknowingly made with other people for eg the promise of not leaving others behind in misery after they have helped you through your tough times. Please don't try to hurt other people knowingly or unknowingly without their consent as there's a huge karmic energy piling up through these un-consented individuals as they didn't subscribe to getting hurt, especially if you are someone in their plain sight

I'm also getting that someone (very sincere) here could have been left out in the drought and harsh period of their lives, while the person who promised to be with them kept them in the dark. Idk if this person has kept you in dark on purpose or not, and I can see how this vow must have bound you indefinitely and breaking it could have been the only way for you to express your deep pain, frustration, desire and anguish, but please don't hurt yourself in the process of hurting the other and getting revenge as its not necessary, your downfall could affect this person sometimes people can go from people you know to people you don't, and they can act indifferently to your misconduct. So don't go on ruining your life if that's the case.

Iam getting Kim Namjoon's lost, "you are a ghost" like there's heavy energy of getting ghosted, isolated and now ghosting other people in return and not wanting any sorts of physical contact with anyone. Wandering around with other people yet dissociating in your own body, cause you don't want to face the feeling, so you traumatize your body by engaging in $3xual behaviour you don't yourself like, so you can disengage yourself due the anger and hatred. Iam really sorry if you are going through this, but punishing/overstimulating your own body to forget this feeling isn't always the answer. Its your body at the end of the day, and our vessel has a limit to its stimulation. Please don't over exert yourself for these heart ripping feelings. This is so sad pile 1, I'm so sad you had to go through so much emotional turmoil and pain. I'm sorry if these messages triggered you and ruffled some feathers. I will put a trigger warning above this pile. You are a brave soul for facing those neglected feelings. Be proud of yourself for that.

6. What else can you do to navigate through your love life smoothly?

First of all, here's Yamas :-

1. Ahimsa (Non-violence)

Avoid harm in thoughts, words, and actions to yourself, others, and nature. Practice kindness and compassion.

2. Satya (Truthfulness)

Be honest and truthful without causing harm. Align your words and actions with your inner truth.

3. Asteya (Non-stealing)

Do not take what does not belong to you, including material goods, time, or energy. Cultivate gratitude and generosity.

4. Brahmacharya (Moderation)

Practice self-control and balance your desires, especially regarding sensual pleasures. Focus on higher spiritual goals. Bring yourself to balance and focus on building a balanced mind for yourself

5. Aparigraha (Non-possessiveness)

Let go of greed and material attachments. Embrace simplicity and contentment with what you have.

Now that we are here. Dear Pile 1, stop remaining stuck in your fear of losing someone by making them remember you as someone they would regret leaving behind by describing highly of your life, yet being so hard on yourself (beating yourself up) for your own past regrets, and not being happy with your present, respecting the life lessons and wisdom you could have earned from those mistakes, no matter what job you had to do in your miserable times, you still have the chance to be someone who can change the world in one way or other. I just realised that there's so much pent up energy and frustration within you that some of you have burned yourself out in your own anger and anguish that some of you don't even realise how this constant effort to keep the spark alive is slowly killing you, venomous for you and is visually distorting you from your higher purpose in life. Do you believe that you have a higher calling in life? Stop trying so hard, and changing yourself.

Stop over analysing your success and your beautiful relationships based on your past experiences. They don't define you, the lessons you learnt from and actions you take based on them in your present makes you who you are today. Teach your learning to the world, share your happiness and do the things you want to live for. "I don't like, I don't care" it could be something you may say you don't like or care about due to low self esteem. Create an identity for yourself that doesn't revolve around relationships or love in general.

Clean and Tidy up yourself "your name" and meetup with new people, take that risk and make that talk, if you looking for reconciliation or are in a relationship, but aren't confident of making the first move, take that risk and do it. At first, saying your heart out might feel a bit heavy, restless, and even exhausting for you but work hard at being this compassionate lover, and expressing your inner vulnerability and emotions as some of you could struggle with opening up your heart, only if trust your partner or companion or the dating scene, it will change with a some patience and love for yourself. Don't be afraid of rejection, stand at your personal resolve of improving your love life and try opening up your heart space for others to let in. Don't bother with the people of low quality who play with you (if you are single and in dating scene). Avoid infections/ "plague" if you are in some open relationships(that was for somebody specific, im getting inflammatory disease). Also avoid spending low quality time with each other or remove distractions when spending time with each other.

"Do not leave behind the toilet roll, avoid leaving behind the toilet roll" idk what I just channeled

Hope I helped you Pile 1. Have a great day 💝😊

Pile 2

1. Confirmations

Fortnite -Taylor Swift,

🎵 and for a fortnite there, we were forever. 🎵Run into you sometimes,ask about the weather 🎵now you're in my backyard🎵, confusing between spirituality and materialism, water sign, sprinkles, water sprinklers, rain, aftermath of rain, growing of plants, swati nakshatra, earth sign, meditative energy, Dark complextion, "Grace", ate Tandoori, being on good graces, "correct your posture, straighten it", earthy or fresh forest or grassy or light floral mists or scents, African, caravan, trailer van, nomads, 3, march,4,April, Muladhara Chakra/root chakra, Father figure, someone is feeling a lack of father figure or fears facing things head on because their father figure failed to do so, Daytime, War, Letter : V,R,M,A,V,O,R

2. How deep is your relationship with each other?

5 of wands - needless to say very competitive, and friends just for now

The depth of this relationship stays in terms of friendship as rivals, this relationship could be at a phase where both of you are just starting out and are getting to know each other, but the intensity of this romantic dynamic could have intensified with rivalry and healthy competitiveness which seems pretty good to be honest. Your energy reminds me of a mountain or mountain goat, a very persevering energy with a fixed mindset towards your own goals and deeds. "Reaches for the stars" That's what I have been meaning to say, you are someone ambitious and goal oriented and someone with traditional values and sometimes you might end up finding yourself pursuing your family's dream. Some of you could be hier to some sort ancestral legacy or business line. There's something here about "wanting to be just like them" in the times of celebration. Its as if wanting to hold hands during any wins or celebrations but ending up putting a lot of things at stake, I am getting Sleeping Beauty where if she touches the needle the entire kingdom goes to sleep due to Maleficent 's curse. Its something around that, its as if you both said your feelings out loud, some sort of false idea would vanish and you both will have to prepare to rebel against something. Im getting "La la la" from Naughty boy ft Sam Smith. It's as if you both are ready to cover your ears like a kid and go la la la.

3. How can you find depth in your relationship?

Five of Swords in reverse and three of cups - Sounds more like, you both need to stop trying to one up each other to the point of ending each other. I see silly fights between you two that end up being hurtful to each other's inner child. Its as if you both call out each other's egoistic selves and then get angry and cry over being called that 😭😭😭, stop fighting you two, I think there are times when your friendly fights might end up not only exposing each other but end up bruising each other's ego. (Tarot reader :- What is this? What are you two doing, Why are you two fighting each other like dogs? Stop getting on each other's neck and cutting off the oxygen supply, what are you two doing, French revolution?🤦🏻‍♀️)

But both of you love each other like its your time!

Ok you two, what?!!! You both need to stop fighting ugly bro/sis. There's some African spirit guide saying this. Like you know this, I don't even have to tell you, (the guide is like I don't have to tell you, mathafakarz, just stop it already). Oh my God the Drama between you too. Accept yourself for who you are and accept each other. Learn to be vulnerable enough to speak your wounds or past hurts or trauma to each other. Good friends understand each other. Oh God and stop acting like rivals only to end up hurting each other. Oh God why am I getting that you both care for each other after hurting sending each other videos of that Gwenchana deng deng deng deng . 🤣🤣🤣 What?! Okay Circus Jokers! You know what I am talking about. Just don't hurt each other and remain open to listening to the other side. Anyways one of you could have poked the other's hand with sea urchin or hedgehog spikes, idk why I channeled that, but I feel like that's what has isolated one from the other or something painful like that.

4. What is it you aren't seeing/doing about your relationship?

Okay gurl/gal idk what can be more obvious than the title of the song itself. Aaaaaaaaaah!!! You both are closer than all this fighting, if something happens to you they will be there. Like I'm already hearing piano and guitar strings

Like the song is about a hope to see the person again and then yet wanting to forget. Idk maybe they are giving you hints, but you aren't reciprocating or responding despite THROWING THE OBVIOUS SIGNS, anyways this feels like a bestie that can never let you go but feels the obvious signs. Idk why now getting that maybe its you who has always been sending signals, maybe even sent them an UFO with Aliens to tell them that but they never respond. One of you isn't reciprocating or atleast responding to the obvious signs. When in spite you both might throw each other deep shade and other isn't responding. Okay what's with this love-hate relationship, now I am confused 🤷🏻‍♀️ you two like to role play Kendrick Lamar and Drake????

I guess they like you but you end up hurting them so much, you could be in such a hurry to get the results of perfecting your craft that you could have ended up treating them so unfairly that they felt hurt, their heart feels rushed and dragged, its as if even though they have good comebacks for your insults. It seems like you need to learn to take accountability when you are wrong instead of acting like you are right. Oh my God 😭 this person could be a musician. I understand this reading must sound so one sided, but its an introspective read, focused on you not them

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5. How is the lack of depth in your energy affecting your relationships?

These are some lyrics I channeled from Shinee Don't Call Me :

🎵You won’t be able to handle it, you’re just obsessed

Because nobody was good as I was, ya🎵

I am getting this lack of serious energy, and also this song 🎵rap việt không sao cả🎵 gosh girl why is this so annoying! Honestly I am getting someone who hides their disappointment in their love life, and through music (piano specifically) its as if they forget all their responsibilities and are burried within their own thoughts and feelings of hatred against each other hence they try to cope it with humour. This could be the case for both of you. You both are using humour to deflect responsibilities and accountability of hurting each other, i heard "almost ruining each other's life" to a point and extent where there's no return. Your comedy, is your deflection to not look at the world and accept the uniqueness of the creatures sent here by the Divine himself and live in harmony with them. I think you are a very light hearted joyous and nice person which is a good thing but this habit of yours is causing lack of depth in your relationships to an extent where people either don't see you as a marriage material or player or they might find you lack accountability in relationships making you unreliable and untrustworthy. Iam channeling Closer by Jungkook (Golden Album). " You grew morose and deeply pained by those sorrows your heart held in it deep mournful silence."

Idk what else could describe suppression of emotions better than this. There's so much trickery, malice and manipulation in this energy yet so much energy of a person who could have accepted every sort of pain thrown their way with grace, someone's mom in this pile could have "inhaled chains of smoke to keep you alive" "Iam getting the name "Parvati" and a mother figure, definitely feeling a broken person who could have been forced to accept any challenge thrown their way , and got traumatized to cross that invisible line created by their perpetrator

Iam seeing your lack of empathizing with yourself "for letting all the bad things happen to you ". even though I can assure you that none of this could have been your fault to begin with, causing you to deflect it with humour and hence not forming meaningful connections with the people , you often don't allow people into your heart space and say its alright. Hence you never ask for help and suffer alone, and then unconsciously do the same with other people,you let them suffer alone when they need you the most or worst hurt them where they feel like you are tricking them into sacrificing something/or a part of themselves unwillingly. Its the lack of depth or apparent lack of maturity or unwillingness to works with other's emotions with empathy cause you don't empathize with yourself that could make you seem lacking depth in relationships.

I'm also getting that this can be due to a lack of father figure or a disappointing father figure who couldn't show you how to fight wolves, hence you too learnt to give up cause you saw your pillar not fight for you and started depreciating every effort you made in life with humour, this father figure may have mocked your efforts or tricked you into sacrificing yourself in childhood due to which you don't take responsibility for mistakes you made in life and sometimes might end up sacrificing more than what is usually required of you to make up for those mistakes. Hence sometimes boosting your own ego or people perceiving you as someone egoistic. I'm sorry if you went through that. And stop saying its alright, its not alright, you never deserved to be treated like a toy, please treat yourself with empathy next time than saying its alright for everything and not expressing your obvious discomfort for things in life.

6. What else can you do to navigate through your love life smoothly?

First of all what I see is somebody constantly getting defensive or lying about their culture and their origins, its as if you don't want to give a bad vibe for being someone who doesn't belongs to the culture, because you don't want strangers to associate you with your very own culture and you don't want them to see you as who you are. Stop trying to partner up with people for surface level connections. Stop chiming in with other people's music if they cannot chime in yours. Cause this isn't what you dreamt of. Stop living a lie, in hopes of fulfilling an empty surface level dream, stop chasing it just because everyone else is doing so,

Now your love life could be deteriorating due to you pushing aside your old cultural routines and habits replacing them with a new one. I got "chinese 4th year and chinese netizens or year of netizen streaks" some of you could be popular on social media. Chinese 4th year is year of rabbit 🐇 it could be of significance for someone here. Your success in your career and relationships depends more on going back to your roots and enlivening them for others to see of the beauty of your culture. I felt somebody really really embarrassed to show their culture, like they would rather flip the table to end the conversation than to show it to others. Your person or you could feel betrayal due to abandoning your own culture maybe through each other or your family. Anyway the harmony, stability and balance comes with accepting who you are and not trying to change yourself for others. Something related to the throne and prison are coming through but yeah this pile was def giving me a lot of royal vibes. The whole time I was channeling this pile, I was getting flashes of my old friend who was also from a royal family. This can't be a coincidence. I feel like whoever you are, you are being asked to move on from this copy cat energy and try finding ways to enliven and introduce your culture to other people rather than succumbing to theirs. It also gave me a vision of an immigrant family who decides to change their entire food habits and small things they liked to do back home to get along with others, only to find out the things they bonded over was their little traditional cultural values and habits that they had once abandoned, hence souring their beautiful relationship. This low self esteem could also be due to feeling desperately unabundant or financially unstable despite having everything rooted in their culture. Maybe going back to your roots will not only make both of you feel abundant again but in turn help you manifest more of it in return. Use or eat more food items of colour red in your diet or do exercises to activate your root chakra.

Hope you liked this reading Pile 2 bye

Pile 3

1. Confirmations :-

Investigative journalism, detective and horror genres, 1, 4, 6, June,July, January, April, someone's name could be April or start with letter "J", Producer-Director, Public Display of Affection, Pedaling bicycles, P,D,E,L,G, Pedagogy, kpop group G-Idle, your person's name could start with letter E like Eunchae or something

2. How deep is your relationship with each other?

I cannot even start explaining how my cards were exploring each other and were trying to explain the entire depth of the situation. By the way some of you could be here to see how deep your relationship with your future soulmate or spouse is going to be, which is alright, no shade being thrown here, but this is meant to be an introspective read which is here to explore your love life and it might not directly be about them and also that this read might feel like a prediction for your future relationship.

Aight now I see both you exploring each other in various ways in bed, seeing how good you teo can be, some of you could be dancers or might love doing tiktok, yt shorts or reel challenges as a couple. 555, this relationship can be highly transformational for the both of you and 666 gives me a vibe of slightly karmic or heavy smexually addicted to each other kinda energy. Though both of you seemed to give off that goth vibe. I am also getting someone doing "Inshallah" like now I am getting a Goth Vibe Muslim girly. 🎵Pose for me - jack remix🎵 coming through. Unlike what many people believe or what you both could have got them believing, this relationship is far from abusive or anything like that, its sweet, wholesome, both of you will be the it couple and everyone would want to have what you two have, people will get inspired by your relationship and they will admire your relationship far and wide. Iam also seeing you two being in a long term relationship committed to each other and doing the efforts and hard work on taking this relationship to the next step.

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As I can see this completely different from your previous relationship, your prev relationship could have been @bu$ive and I am so sorry if you went through that. For some of you this old relationship could have been an arranged or contractual agreement or work related relationship. Iam getting 🎵Build A Bitch by Bella Paorch 🎵 and 🎵 Cinderella 's Dead by Emeline🎵 like someone here could have gone through body shaming and breast surgery just to appease their previous partner. Like this old relationship was "tormenting, tumultuous" and maybe sometimes the abuse would leave you "panting for breathe 🫁" like "your lungs would swell" either someone was abused to the point of suffocation or state of asphyxiation through physical or repetitive addiction to substance abuse. Someone here could be a single mom who decided to move out along with her child, like this person could have created some bad situation "like for some of you, you could have been rushed to hospital when this situation happened and then got drove out of the house or left you alone to pay the bills". Like there are some so and so stories of something like this happening right or something for someone that has already happened. If you are in some physically abusive relationship please leave it right away. For those who have moved on....

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You might feel so traumatized from your previous one that your new person might feel like a distraction to you at the start only for him to turn into the male lead. This person will direct and straightforward in their ways. Unlike your previous relationship this person might even urge you to eat more. Aww healthy masculinity, girl the way you are going to become a girl boss under his presence. Like damn "all the girls are girling girling"

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Like you have daughters or a lot of girlfriends they are all cheering the two of you.

3. How can you find depth in your relationship?

By learning how to stand up for yourself when your relationships go sour, learning how to be courageous enough to confront the truth and see it for what it is, rather than pondering upon the time, money, love and energy you had invested into your relationships and see it for what is and see where you and your partner stands in this relationship. You need to understand how to let go of your love for your partners and courageously see the truth of your relationships for what they are. Learn to unsee the roles of third parties, whether it be work or someone who might think are the cause of the end of your relationship when they are nothing more than secondary factors who played a part in the end of the relationship. The main cause always being the weak and shaky foundations of the initial relationships.

Yeah another thing is to stop finding depth in your relationships through images, old photographs or remembering the past or revisiting the memories or anything of that sort or nature, you are not responsible for someone's loveless behaviour towards you.

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🎵Think of you when I'm goin' to bed

When I wake up, think of you again

You are my homie, lover and friend

Exactly why🎵

I'm also getting that "you should stop pandering over his whims". Some of you could be "photobooth girlies". You could have an air of wisdom around you, there's are very genuine aura about, you might be the type to pander over "someone's boyfriend" I'm also getting "Sloan in the office". It might resonate with you.

Anyway your pandering over your partners could skyrocket to an extent that I guess in your case, you might end up unseeing a lot of their wrongs. I also see that the depth in your relationships can be found by you developing an identity of your own rather than being all about your partner and their life. Find something you are passionate about, and try turning your hobbies into something materialistic, meaningful and worthwhile memory that can stand a lifetime with you. Create some substance and depth in your own identity and character. Chase after your dreams and what you like, chase your financial goals and preserve through financial debts and loans to get over the sadness of the shaky foundations of a relationship or a breakup to not think too much about it.

You will get and make justice for all the sorrows that you could have been through. I'm also getting a storyline of someone "accusing someone of money extortions while reaping benefits of their hard work " asked to persevere and pay the financial debts that someone else had created despite the challenges as this phase has come in your to prove yourself of your worth so that you don't sell yourself short just because you see worth in other people's eyes.

4. What is it you aren't seeing/doing about this relationship?

You may have a tendency to show off your happiness or talk a lot about good things happening in your life to the internet to not focus on the anger or unsuccessful attempts at reviving a relationship from hell. (Like Gurl what are you doing 😱, what is not meant for you will never be there for you for a good reason) Like why are you trying to call back this goon right here, like I get the hots you had and might still kinda have for him even if you don't want to admit it but dude what are you doing??? Everyone's confused, your friends, your family, your Spotify playlist and your kdrama and Netflix algorithm are all confused at the same time. Why are you angry about him going away? You know you can still feel those cookie pleasures with other guys, damn you don't need him, what the heck girl? Spirit is saying "stop showing up your price" gurl remember the price of your happiness might be cheap for somebody else, so stop showing off how happy you are and how good you are doing to everyone. Its showing like they know you are sad about something. I'm getting "Mittens it ain't nothing to be that sad about anyway, they are a bunch of losers anyways" "like dude don't count down your blessings, stop cucking it for everyone to see, they are your gifts, not something to show but things to be proud of. If you are proud of it and feels like an expression of yourself then yeah post it, but stop highlighting it and showing it off. OMG girl, its giving insecure like professional insecure" idk why I gave y'all a nickname and then that sass talk, but some of your sassy girlfriends are like, they are also cheering you on "yess girly move on" "row row row your boat, row it away from him"

I think first things you are seeing everything as a price not precious memories and experiences cause maybe you are so immersed in your previous experiences that you don't see the value in your current relationship or current state of affairs despite knowing the fact that you are an Empress, you can have whoever you want whenever you want in your life. You could not want to see those blessings as blessings cause maybe they feel like a loan that will become a debt, so now instead of focusing on working to pay that you have officially decided to halt and not accept the blessings that are being given to you. But remember not everybody gets a loan, you have to be eligible to get one, so know that life is giving it to you because it knows you can pay it back.

So stop treating beautiful relationships and connections that come to you like a blessing as a loan and know that you are getting the privilege to experience it because you have the potential to pay it back and work for it. 💝

OMG damn girl!

5. How is the lack of depth in your energy affecting your relationships?

I almost said "how is your physiology affecting your biology" you guys could be gym trainers or health advocates, dieticians or athletes . I am getting the word "condemning". "Part of it is misconstrued " seems like part of the reason why your partners might feel you lack depth could be their own misunderstandings about your image.

Regardless that's on them, people who know each other closely know that it all starts with communication. Assumptions in a relationship doesn't last long. Idk why pile 3 but I do feel like there can be some communication issue on your part as well, afterall if you are someone who gets misjudged a lot, why doesn't your partner communicate their doubts with you, so you can clarify them. You may have a past of letting in shallow people into your life without even getting to know them on a deep enough level to start a relationship. This gives "misconstrued ideas led to Frieda being the golden poster boy, even though she's a girl"

What I'm seeing with my cards here. All of it just seems like a lot. Pile 3, do you even realise the weight of taking your parent's behaviour or tradition or legacy or do you just take whatever is being given onto you. I wouldn't lie, someone's parent or specifically grandparent's here seems more like the character Shakuni from the Indian mythology Mahabharata. For context this character was considered as one of the most cunning cruel and clever human beings of his time, whose intellect and smartness rivaled to that of Gods, but this man had a problem ,he used his cleverness and smartness to push Duryodhana and all his 99 brothers against the kind and well meaning 5 brothers of the Pandava clan. He was also responsible for spreading his venom in the King's ears leading to a great war later on. I feel like some of your difficulties start from this type of father/grandfather archetype who spews nonsensical venom in your ears, and you listen to it without using any of your own judgement or discernment of your own. I'm getting the word "hostel". R.K. Narayan's Malgudi Days could be significant for someone here. There's a story related to it, Father's help, where we see that Swami is more scared of provoking his dad than telling him the truth. I don't know I think you are either scared to question the forceful authority in your household/friend group/community than follow the truth and wisdom your heart speaks to you. My Tumblr banner is "Let your heart be your compass". Trust your heart, let it row your boat, without judgement. Your heart knows, I don't why I am getting this unforgiving treacherous eye on someone. You guys could be quite unforgiving towards people due to a slight mistake people could do in your tradition or culture. This is so sad pile 3. Not everyone knows everything about you or your traditions.

I also see you not taking a stand against this injustice when your parents or elders in your family cuss at your partner. This is so disappointing. Iam also seeing the lack of depth could be due to your parents treating you like some object whose love life needs to be decided by them. I also see you blindly following some sort of standard like caste, bloodline, religion or a certain job that your parents wanted you to do, and the partner they think you should have. This either seems like a barbie doll game to them where everything from A-Z needs to be perfect or you seriously are allowing this kind of mindset, generational pattern or parents to genuinely take over the autonomy of your relationships, for them to decide your life.

The key here is to actually feel what you actually feel about a person, or things related to your partner rather than pushing your feelings aside, letting your parents handle it, or not seeing how much it hurts both you and your partner to be in a position of being dictated by your parents. The more you push your emotions and judgment aside, the more you will push a huge amount of suppressed emotions waiting to break you, your character or your partner down one day.

6. What else can you do to navigate your love life smoothly?

I honestly feel like coming to balance with yourself and your partner is the first step to start. I see you being someone who takes the initiative every single time, thereby stressing yourself and eventually putting so much of your energy, time, and attention on the people you love without expecting the same in return. This constant need to " win over a person" needs to stop. You are not broken or defective for you to be the only person to fix everything in a relationship. Both of you can see how broken the relationship is, if your partner isn't willing to try, stop trying to make it work in order to keep the relationship. What's the point? If they are already not putting in efforts, what's the point of keeping this relationship going? Its never going to work. Why do you have to be the person putting in all of the work? Why should it always be you who puts efforts into the relationship and not them.

In my cards you need to understand the difference between when and when not to put efforts into a relationship. Try understanding the energy of receiving in a relationship. You could be the type of person who gives a lot to their other half. Stop it, open your eyes and see, if this is even getting reciprocated or not. I'm not saying measure your love, I'm saying if you aren't getting reciprocated the same in return, why not communicating that with your partner and reaching a conclusion? Cause sometimes its our fault as well, we give so much love, gifts, flowers to our loved ones in hope they know we love them and then later on find them dissatisfied with us, cause maybe your partner just expected you to gift them all those only for wanting to touch their body, never realizing you wanted more depth. That's why communication is so important. Hence understand that our efforts may not be taken in the same way our partners might think. Hence become who not only nourishes but also gets nourished in their relationships.

Let your guard down and allow people to spend their money, time and energy on you. Allow new beginnings a relationship or for someone here allow people to gift you and bring new relationships towards you, let it all get balanced, you do not have to win over everyone. Partners may not understand your love language, stop giving away everything (like are you some $uicudal bit¢h or what? Why are you giving away everything? Calm down, learn the art of reciprocation and let them pamper you a little bit)

I'm getting this specific, someone's own suicide memories could have got triggered somewhere, so sorry about that. Idk if I should delete the joke or not. But please don't read the next paragraph thank you

(now please don't get offended on $uicide joke, this admin is a bit crack on dark humour, if I offended you I'm sorry for triggering something)

Stop trying to be this unforgettable lover and listen or heed the advice of lover once, stop trying to create an epic live story, just create a good one)

Omg Pile 3, so many hesitations, so many worries, things happening around in an untimely manner, someone here could have mars square Pluto, mars square some planet in scorpio in natal chart, mars square venus with their partner, or venus square in their natal chart. Stop trying to build the relationship without putting any emotional work or communication into it and focus more on connecting and receiving love.

Yup Pile 3. Take care and Be yourself in a relationship. Bubye, (idk why I wanted to call you my bubbas or something, maybe you guys work with children on a daily basis on something)

Pile 4

1. Confirmations :

Someone in this pile could be waiting for an answer for proposal, "have you decided yet", Important decisions, Wakanda, Earrings, UAE, T,compass, 🧭, WWE, letter T,W,K,W,U,E, number 3,6, 9,March,June, September, August, Sagittarius

2. How deep is your relationship with each other?

"How deep is your mistake with each other?" What an interesting storyline, is this relationship relationship built on deep faith and trust with each other due to the things you mistook about one another. Its as if you both were able to forgive big mistakes made in this relationship and thus formed a healthy relationship later. Oh my gosh! What a love, my loves.....💖

Idk why I want to ask, what is this mistake you made about each other....

Its in the past, but one of you guys mistook the other to be a showoff of some sort, idk for freely giving out their money or wealth, some family member could have defamed the other as some shameless gold digger, 🤣 I see this family member being on the lookout, nothing more, though it must have been harsh for you. I am literally getting "the golden couple" for you guys. Omg! So you guys could be moving slowly building this relationship and investing into. Some of you could be pregnant, congratulations! May God Bless both of you a long life with your baby. 💖💖💖

I am getting "Diet Mountain Dew" by Lana Del Rey

I was shuffling the deck, and then there was this mysterious card that tried to fly out but mysteriously went back flying in as nothing happened. And this was the card of work, perseverance, patience, focus and mastering the masterpiece, 8 of pentacles or so I thought but the way it hid itself only to reveal 3 of pentacles to me, despite my intuition shouting 8 of pentacles tells me a lot of things, your hard work in a collaborative effort remains hidden. You could be some sorta hidden in helping your person, family or business build their fortune. Its actually a collaborative effort, but my oh my, does your person know this? Wow so you love helping people without telling them a thing huh? OMG your love is lucky, i heard "pretty annoying", guess they don't like you interfering with their workspace, oh my gosh! And you, our Quite Quintessence are helping them behind the scenes. Your giggles could be infectious pile 4, trust me, this relationship is deeper than the formation of this land!!! OMG this seems like a past past way way past life couple. Oh my gosh, what are you guys doing here on Earth? I mean Thank You for inviting us in this space, thank you for allowing me and my spirit guides to write about your beautiful friendship/relationship. Thank you for healing this space with your sacred energy, sacred bond and following your heart's will. We are grateful to have you here, through this stormy Planet Earth. This is definitely a connection which goes way back, with starseed energy, circulating its love through the Cosmos.

I think this is a soul bond and only time will tell where it will lead the both of you together in this journey. Iam not the one who can tell you that. If this connection 's reconciliation is what's haunting you, know you have been friends before lovers, so this will go way back. You both are here for each other always as supporters and cheerleaders for each other's soul. Don't let human parameters make you fixate on this relationship 's terms and conditions. This seems like a soul connection that could have gone cold for some of you

3. How can you look for depth in your relationships?

I feel like someone's asking me "How can you find the soul connection?"

First of all, I didn't even apply oil to my hands. Iam already channeling "Oily hands" ok what? "Steak" 🥩, "stake", don't tell me you two fight over leftovers 🤦🏻‍♀️ . I think someone here wants to know how to find that soul connection. Maybe you are being confused by your own mind right now. It seems this is a higher dimensional connection, where the energies are forming current. I feel like you should remain, rest assured that they are watching over you, whether dead or alive in their soul form, they are not trying to find you though, they could be pretty much invested in some other connection for some of you. So maybe we are looking into your future connection. Avoid trying to bypass their spirit guides and their ancestral protection, some of you could be bypassing that by the means of intuition, Iam almost getting that you are bypassing their safety, on a spiritual sense by doing activities like physical spying, which could be triggering spiritual warfare towards them or through them, just stop it, "do not overdue your time and luck on Earth" that's a call out for some of you there. You could be getting attacked in your sleep, dreams or subconscious recently, it's their ancestors attacking you. Do not bypass anyone's spiritual protection, their soul decided to be a part of their family to help alleviate the generational curses in their family line not yours. Everybody has a spiritual protection, do not by pass it by any means. It might ultimately affect your connection only. Don't judge their family legacy, don't get tempted by greed, idk don't try to force something like this. Let it happen. The dominant one in this relationship could be a female, anyway it feels like the dominant energy is pretty much looking for their lover everywhere in their grief and pain, while the other is gone, and are unable to let go of them. Be careful for what you wish for though, have some patience and let God clarify your path. They are no good for you, still you want them right now.

How can you find depth in your relationships? Or what can you do to find that depth in your relationships? Well, "sharp gaze" "knock it off" someone could feel real flustered with someone's deep eyes and sharp glaze. I feel like this has something to do with you learning to connect with your emotions, 🥺 letting all your emotions flow, rather than selective emotions such as rage and anger, you should also allow the flow of softer emotions like sadness, pain, fear, as you might be someone who doesn't allows themselves to channel those emotions, hence despite being in a relationship you sometimes end up carrying trinkets of emotional baggage from your past connections, without even realising it. The baggage from your past connections and your present connections weigh you heavily in your heart space. You might not realise this at the start but will find it hard to let go of the emotional comfort, depth, energy and attention someone could have given you. Without realising this you subconsciously look for the same in your next connections, without realising the impact of that connection, you don't realise how your heart actually craves for all those emotions that your ex /past connections gave you, and how badly you are craving the same in other connections to the point you aren't able to sleep peacefully with your new connections cause internally you haven't sorted out your feelings and aren't able to fulfill what others fulfilled within you on your own. Your heart is exposing these feelings, you know what they are, let yourself be vulnerable, explore yourself and find out. Find a quiet place like cave (without snakes ofc) or some mountain to meditate and find out what it is that you are suppressing within yourself.

The depth of your relationships relies on you finding who you are

4. What is it that you aren't seeing or doing about your relationship?

First of all I am getting a storyline here, maybe there's a lot of lies and gossip mongers in (idk why I wanted to say in you or inside you, maybe its just the voices in your head) and around your circle, lying to you about your relationship. Like try putting less emphasis on these friends or community or family members. Honestly test them, cause I feel like they are here with you, standing for you because of your money only and these people won't last long, once you stop helping them. I am also getting that there's a lot of gossip in these groups about your past relationships and ex connections. There's someone you aren't seeing yet, this gossip monger is investigating in your life and telling all this info to these circles. Once you stop putting so much emphasis or investing into these circles, the value of these rumours would fade away and this person will be left with emotionally manipulative ways and tactics with which they will try to repeat again and again just for the sake of getting popular or keep telling the same tale in hopes of someone noticing them. Nothing but a bunch of lies and hoaxes. Let them bring about the misery to themselves. Let them stay restless and let them keep crying your name till endless nights while you sit back and relax. Maybe you are investing way too much in these mid-ass friend circles to whom this person is also trying to enter by breaking the fourth wall through the info they have on you. And trust me all these friend circle and communities they seem really self serving, selfish, immature and childish energies. If they are being immature with you why care about investing your time, money, energy and affection in them, they don't seem mature enough to understand, you seem like the type to give a shot to these friends. Why just stop doing so and say goodbye 👋🏻.

5. How is the lack of depth in your energy affecting your relationships?

I am seeing a storyline here again. So pile 4 you guys could be some sort of writers, or people with imaginative and creative vocations or mostly storytelling, or writing pursuits.

Anyway I see that there's someone, (could be a person in their feminine energy, can a male too) who is unwilling to see the reality or dark side of the situation as the truth of the matter. They are clinging to this energy of a healer, or clinging on to this healing energy quite tightly, they could be a healer themselves, it seems like they have been clearing a lot of karmic debts recently. This person could be really good at understanding their losses and accepting the truth of the situation and even transmute their energy as a compassionate soul but seems like its hurting their ego as they progress to see truth, the ego of wanting everything to be exactly the way they want to preserve it, they could be losing sone sort of possesion property or literally a child, they aren't willing enough to see the changes, as watching the things they love go away drives them to insanity, to the point they could be locking themselves up in a bubble, seeing the reality for what it is but not accepting it. They are wrathful against whatever that reason because of which their relationship is being taken away from them, whether its because of their own behaviour, someone else's behaviour or external circumstances they have no control over. They are crying over it.

I think this is a cycle that continues, until they see their own reflection in the mirror and reflect to see where they have come in life. Thus upon seeing themselves in this desperate and miserable position, this person decides to make a decision, and they decide to cut the vows, the commitment they once made, the same commitment that was keeping them stuck for all this time and they take time to introspect, reflect and understand what had actually happened to them in this journey mid way. And come back to their center to finally find the very essence of the universe within themselves and try to reunite with spirit and awaken their spark through this universe's help once again, the spark that once that had once faded that was once thought to faded or dead, where the person who thought their way, purpose and passion was all over and gone, there this person starts their journey to find their truth, their beliefs through their prayers again.

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I think this lack of depth in your relationships is making you weak, it makes you cling onto people almost co-dependent on them. Its your need to protect, to cling thats what's making you lose depth in your relationships. Believe it or not, you might be someone whose presence is really healing almost soothing and comforting to the point that people wouldn't want to leave this comfort zone, but its this need to cling, to protect the people you love from change, from transformation from the chaos itself where all you end up seeing and let's just say breeding (someone here has breeding kinks) is this past version of your partner's self, not wanting to see them grow, transform, become somebody else because you are so afraid of change yourself. You hate the truth, the reality, the reality that your partner, your exes, the people you loved could ever change, I am not saying you are someone bad or manipulative who wants to keep people in their comfort zone, you are so scared of losing them, and could have based your self worth on protecting or helping out your partners to an extent you might not even realize how you end torturing the people you nurture. Its literally giving me a mama snake eating her own eggs due to hunger. Its as if you saved these egglings or these people by healing them and protecting them only to end up depending on them for your energy. Do not do this anymore. You might think you have the power to give, give, give but one day whether you like it or not, life's karma works in a way where you will not even realise how much of an energy vampire you are turning into, by loving and giving so much of your energy and letting people go when they please after taking you for granted. If you don't unlearn this behaviour of clinging onto partners, you will not even realise how quickly it will take away your own energy from self. Stop making vows just to follow them, live those vows, be discerning of when those vows are broken, don't wait till your spark dies out.

I think its a friend group in this case, an immature circle who are constantly killing you and your spark and passion for life, and it seems you aren't willing to see their dark side. Omg pile 4.

I think your answer is right, cut-off from these fake-listed friends, find your peace, live your truth, why you tryna be with them, be like them, girl just leave stop getting angry on other people's behalf, stop taking their beliefs, you are not them, they are not you. Stop taking a stand for them and let them live their life. Let them go, make mistakes and do whatever they want to do. Let it go. Stop interfering in other people's lives and taking stand for them, you are committing spiritual bypassing, let people learn from their mistakes. Do not stand for them. Let them learn on their own two feet.

Just leave them, stop coddling a bunch of adults. Stop being so overly protective of others that you won't even let them grow.

6. What else can you do to navigate through your love life smoothly?

Right off the bat, I see an inability to move on from lovers, family, friends, enemies and classmates, and it seems like there's a lot of external influences in your relationships. Like a lot of third party energy in here. I am getting the world in reverse, this could be chasing that half baked dream, having achieved nothing in life, so you run in circles. What I see here is you unable to confront yourself and your own fears of leaving behind your friends, family, co-workers and all sorts of people, and then feeling for every one, every little being, every creature , every little person. Just stop, stop ok. Do you even know all these properly, even if you know everything there's to know about these people, does that make you close to them, or does that make you knowledgeable. That's it, you haven't connected with them on a level where they'll reciprocate your feelings for them the same way you would. Suppose you got transmigrated to your fav manga, do you know these characters yes, maybe you do know the tea, but did you connect with them, did you feel for them, did they give you back the same in return. That's my question to you pile 4, you act like you sort of know or understand people based on your knowledge of human psychology or tarotology or astrology or biology or anatomy but that doesn't mean you have connected with them, formed a bond with them. These people cannot be obliged to fill your emptiness just because you know them, and they have known you. If they haven't connected to you the way you have, you don't need to reciprocate further than how much they reciprocate.

Maybe that's why you were asked to become more vulnerable to feel people and form bonds with them and connect with them rather than relying on your knowledge about them. That's not how it works. If you don't express your love, feelings, efforts you have put on people and aren't brave enough to let them go when they tell you to do so, how will you ever find someone who will someone who will reciprocate your love, your feelings and your efforts. Knowing somebody doesn't mean you have connected to them, making efforts to know them doesn't mean they owe you something. You should be smart enough to discern when to let go of a person who doesn't want to let go and is clinging to you, your energy, your time and your attention mercilessly at your own cost. Let people go, don't let them latch onto you or attach to you or your energy you don't deserve this.

Please understand that if you haven't built a proper foundation with someone, you cannot expect them to know you as well as you do nor reciprocate you in the same manner. Please stop staying stuck in a loop of depression, chaos, shouting against this injustice. Just speak up, express your feelings, draw your boundaries and leave them. Don't engage with them, hate on them, or exact revenge from them, its just restless. Take your big sis's advice.

And instead of looking at all the investment you made in your relationships and pondering over it all sadly and recollecting those past stories, and reliving those feelings and emotions, focus on yourself, your own self care routines, exercises, hobbies, passions and things you would love to do. Take the risk and do what excites you, pursue your dreams.

Pile 5

1. Confirmations :

Yung kai - blue, lose you love me -selena gomez, Baymax, Axe, Quantico the series, Gunshot,Blood Loss, Bongola Bongo Cha cha cha, "Hit the Intelligent button Todd that's right" I channeled this, J Cole fan, someone here in this pile could be in midst of feud, Obsessed - Mariah Carrey,YSL, MySQL,SQL server, number 9,6,3, September,March, June, August, May, letters: S,Q,L,X

2. How deep is your relationship with each other?

Immediately I am getting the word "abuse" (excuse me?). As I can see in your previous relationship whatever relationship this is /was. You made the right choice by walking away despite missing this person from time and time again. It must have been really hard to let go of your past lover ("someone who was berating you with comments you didn't deserve to be abused with"). The universe is thanking you for choosing to leave this( "stay at home dad") dead beat person alone. After they had trampled on your emotions. And thank you for realising you were hurting yourself,( "I needed to lose you to love me " ) by keeping this dead beat around. ("Lazy ass lying about" iam channeling, don't shoot the messenger)

Thank you for leaving this person behind. Idk why I am channeling for someone named Stacy or maybe somebody being yelled at for telling their dead beat stay at home husband to buy pads for them. Thank you for leaving this abuser.

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Thank you for standing up for yourself and speaking up. You may be feeling miserable right now, but that's just because you were learning and got manipulated into aligning to this attention seeking, Gen-Z spirit (could be younger than you) that you have ended up (unfortunately) successfully manifesting this misery for yourself. Its okay look up, there's light out there, there's hope out there, go and achieve whatever you want. You may feel undeserving of it but learn to trust and believe in yourself despite all those long years of successfully possessing (you could be possessive of your partners) this person and realizing that it only ended up in you attracting more misery and chaos for yourself. You may still have that competitive spirit in you, so go for it, it isn't late to make those "wish upon stars" dreams come true.

Good job finding peace again. It must be a long battle of survival. You can rest here if you want 👇🏻

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3. How can you look for depth in your relationships?

"By expecting princess treatment and by expecting yourself to be guided by others"

This is such a weird message but seems like you need to understand how to listen and obey a good advice diligently with discipline to achieve good results in life. It seems like you are the type who always needs someone telling you what to do, or someone addicted to enabling relationships, enabling dynamics and some enabling tarot readers to tell you how to live life and experience it. I am someone who is personally against telling people how to live their lives. So if you are an impressionable mind or a minor, do not interact. This reading isn't for you. Please leave.

Anyways, following up the Sabrina Carpenter song, please please please, the depth you need to look for in relationships by observing the amount of times you needed to pretend to somebody else to save face for the sake of your family. How you had to sacrifice your finances to support this family member and to show the outsiders that your family has the money, the time you had to force your smile in public to act like you are in a happy relationship and everything's alright. The time you had to play hide seek with everyone around you including your partner despite living the worst "nightmare come true". Watching your entire family celebrate while your mental, emotional and spiritual health was breaking down.

You know how to find depth in situations like these, becoming so accustomed to truth that all you see is truth in life and see things for what they actually are. That's what you need, not a last minute fix, you need to align with the truth, live in truth and see truth for what it is rather than sulking into depression all the time your feelings get hurt. Stop being so attached to the feelings of the past to the extent and point that you keep deluding yourself with the feelings of attachments and keep pulling yourself down just because one or two people are pulling you down.

Educate yourself on gaslighting, toxic behaviour, and how to draw boundaries with people. There are free resources available to do that. You could have stayed in a toxic relationship for so long that now you go or sulk into depression every time someone says something that triggers your trigger buttons and bam! you are sad. Stop doing that. Recognize your own patterns that you follow in relationships and don't get comfortable with abuse if that's what your past made you comfortable with, (be careful with the next partners that feel comfortable to you guys) . Fight against those trigger patterns with knowledge and never put yourself in this situation ever again where you end up sulking into a severe depression and become paralyzed with fear to even stand up for yourself.

Only true knowledge can help you to fight back without literally fighting or making anyone else know your vulnerabilities and trigger buttons. Please recognise the people who make you pretend/fake your entire self and life to the point of mental illness, and educate yourself with proper weapons to properly fight back.

You need to train your mind in such a way that it realises how people/partners around you are trying to trigger you and understand who to ignore and who to fight against. Educate yourself and your mind to quickly come forward to your rescue with what someone's implying and what their actual intentions are than to succumb to depression and letting these words break their spirit. Once you start recognizing abusive behaviour in people, and the difference between normal and abusive behaviour, only then can you look for depth in your relationships. You could be someone very accustomed to toxic behaviour almost considering that as a comfortable feeling within men.

4. What is it that you aren't seeing/doing about your relationships?

"Merciless cards" idk seems like to you, nothing's more scary than watching or listening to the truth. These cards are not being merciless to you. They deliver truth to you or whatever the law of karm and Universe needs you to understand at the moment. They work on the ancient wisdom of the Universe, so you are often being told what needs to be known to you. These cards are coming through for you as guidance, please take their messages if their messages resonate with you. Whether your brain knows it or not, your heart knows it too. You can or will feel this message resonating if this is your truth. If not, leave, stop taking unbridled appreciative statements as a form of validation. I'm not here to validate you.

You don't or want to see /value the efforts of your inner self's gentleness and kindness, (I'm getting inner giant self). You don't value the genuineness within you. It seems like the truth that could balance you and your life out and set you free from these compromising situations is hurting you. I don't know but all of a sudden, after I wrote, I am not here to validate you, I was being pushed to be nice or something. Iam getting that some of you could have been pushed too far into being nice, mediocre and nothing more a effing daruma doll 🪆, seems like even the layers inside you were traumatized into becoming a people pleaser. It seems like you were forced into being this frickin barbie doll, this is so sad, heartbreaking and this molding is something my energy hates a lot, I can see why I can become full swing annoyed with you if I met you in my personal life cause I am not someone like that, I never did fold myself for other's needs, either hid myself and became strong enough to express it or stayed hidden till I got/ made a place to vent it all out. This seems like a person who was made out to be this way, someone who was manufactured into something appeasing and breathtaking or jaw dropping in everyone's eyes only to have their own real self being compromised. This is so sad pile 5

"I see you, I understand your pain " maybe you have said these words way too many times to too many people ("problems" maybe they were problematic people who were continuously abusing you) without them ever seeing or understanding your pain. This could have happened too many times and again it's heartbreaking for you having to go through all that. Oftentimes if you don't have a proper defence mechanism or a proper sense of your sense of self, people end up thinking that their trauma mechanism is their sense of self which is not even true. Dear Pile 5 just because you weren't allowed to react towards the pain, sorrow or problems in your life the way you would normally react to since childhood, you could have turned out to be either A) overreactive towards every minor little inconvenience or B) extremely suppressed to even talk about problems

I am getting B) it is. You could have problems speaking up, saying your mind, speaking and living your truth for yourself. There could have been people around who manipulated you into succumbing to this shell, this limit and this potential from where you could only dream of the skies, and ask yourself who would you actually be if you were allowed to see things naturally without these shells or walls on you. You feel suppressed to talk about your problems cause you don't want to appear broke, problematic or messy on the outside. But the truth is simple, you are hurt, you are broken, you are messy, you can be problematic, everyone is. What's the problem in telling that out loud? Its relatable, understandable, and might not be what people might assume about you on the outside but what's the problem in breaking this shell open and letting people, some may call you weak, some might like to dismiss this part of you, why be sad at them? Why go depressed? Why make an effort to make them understand something? Girl why do we got to do all that?!! Be confident in your flaws baby girl, just let them see it. You are unique, you are different, that's much better than everyday manufactured you. C'mon now. Be confident in you. If someone criticizes your flaws and shuns you for being you, its their thingy, why give them so much power over yourself. Go and talk to the next person! Who knows, maybe they might turn out to be nice. Why miss your whole life on partners and people who want average ping pongs and not the unique you who is different and filled with flaws and scars of experience! And this is not to say the people they choose are npc or something, this is to say that all of them are as average and as beautifully smexy as you are but at varying degrees, then why waste so much of your time on chasing people who see nothing but flaws in you girl. Why let the pain of the truth cut you so deep, when it exists to set you free? Your flaws may not attract certain people but it might attract completely your kinda people towards you.

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Oh God, what you aren't seeing or doing in relationships is letting your guard down, letting people see your flaws and instead of taking their judgement to your heart, becoming a judge of their character and communicating your problem to them and if they don't understand it and continue to disrespect it. Leave it girl/boy, why you sulking? When your insecurities are the very things making you unique. Stop it! You need help if you think you gotta change anything about yourself. Like c'mon girl/boy you okay?

Take charge of your own emotions, don't let others hurt it, understand that your insecurities ARE NOT A PROBLEM. Be genuinely happy and respectful towards who you are. Only then can you actually work in partnership

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Absolutely feel the rain on your skin, no one else can do it for you, no one else, no one else. Feel the rain on your skin.

Feel life through your skin, see its colours through your eyes, go and experience love the way you would like to, not through these inhibitions, doors, or walls someone or this society has offset on you. Instead of taking up other's words and judgement listen to your heart, is this what you want. Become an emotionally balanced person no matter what thick and thin comes your way in relationships. The only person you don't see when it comes to relationships is YOU baby girl YOU 💋😘.

Don't try to make it work at places where you get constant heartbreaks. Disrespect doesn't equate to explanation. You don't need to explain yourself to anyone. And yeah there could have been a third party situation in your relationship. Why focus on a person who keeps prioritising third party over you, not for you.

5. How is this lack of depth in your energy affecting your relationships?

Okay Pile 5, I'm noticing this from the start that your cards have been pretty straightforward and the messages are crisp. I see that you may be someone who loves to thrive on illusionary happiness if not real one rather than see the truth for what it is. You remind me of a friend I had , she was someone who relied on the illusion of happiness that her abusive husband might change one day, despite all the pain she went through. When the party's over by Billie Eilish might resonate. Its as if you would rather fight with your partner in a relationship and get hurt than leave. You find it hard to detach from people who hurt you. Maybe because you are in constant effort to make them like you or understand them.

I don't know why I am getting a father wound here or daddy issues. Its as if there's someone who's unable to forgive themselves for defying or standing against their authority figures or a father figure,( I'm also getting a father figure employee) The depth that you could lack could be, not being able to see yourself for who you are/were naturally (in terms of stamina, strength, power or regality something), and burning out your own energy for others, this isn't fair pile 5.

I feel like there's a warning here, idk there's a warning here of some sort, you are being asked trust the unseen, and let them lead your way towards your soulmate. Some of you could have a Divine Love contract, the purpose of this is to love, understand and grow in life. There's something about letting God do the thinking instead of you controlling all the masts. I see they are not sending this divine connection on your way for a reason. There's something about losing yourself, burning out completely due to suffering, fighting and struggling so much with the Divine himself for control.

Let it rain, let life happen, you are here to experience it not control it.

I'm legit feeling Lana Del Rey's sweet voice soothingly singing "I'm on the run with you my sweet love, There's nothing wrong contemplating God, under the chemtrails over the country club"

I'm getting that someone here hates God or doesn't wants to believe in him, especially His silence. Its as if they are do not like the silence behind their divine lover or their future spouse or their next future lover messages. You might be real eager to know who this person is, without even working on yourself. Or maybe you are here with this expectation, BYE BYE

Anyways your lack of depth in your energy could be due to you staying stuck in your comfort zone. I am getting "travel" , it feels like you are being asked to release this need to control, self sabotage, seek validation and find answers but instead sit and meditate in His energy and come back home in yourself rather than finding it through external means. "Keep your workspace or home clean". "Homestuck Ballet" you can't practice ballet in home or a small room, try getting out for some fresh air, now now be a little like Quasimoto and Merida, if there are strict restrictions on going out, then break those rules a little and have your well deserved break among nature . Maintain your Work - life balance. Keep a maid if you want.

Homestuck Ballerina could be significant for you.

6. What else can you do to navigate through your love life smoothly?

Idk why but I am getting Princess Mononoke, (Ghibli studios) where the lady workers are telling me, "chalo bhatti chale" which means common let's get to the furnace. And there are two cards that popped out of the archetype deck. Spirit is telling me They aren't extra. But a part of your lesson or insight maybe that you will take with you today. Idk something about this connection is deeply connected to Divine's plan on a collective consciousness maybe. I am seeing someone drowning their better judgement or logical discernment, due to their emotional weakness or emotional state. Iam getting heavy Pisces and Cancer energy. But I see someone drowning in their emotions letting their mental logic drown despite being right. It feels like a subconscious or unconscious energy that is emotionally drowning your mental judgement.

This message is specifically for people who feel a twin flame like connection with a significant other, please understand that these soul contracts or soul connections are promises or vows your souls have made, these connections can only thrive when you can let go and allow fruit to ripe, that is when you allow the Divine to take their time and send you the green signal intuitively, only then do you move forward. Till then train your subconscious mind to stop drowning in emotions and forcing connection. Instead use the Sword to summon a storm that will seperate the water and the sky. Your actual goal in this lifetime could be learning how to discipline yourself and your desires rather than connecting with each other. The truth can be bitter. But your soul is here to learn. 💗

You are being asked to become an active learner in life, grow achieve adapt celebrate and expand your growth and keep aiming for higher goals to feel go and reach towards the Divine Light.

Definitely guard your heart for now, focus on healing yourself and when your heart settles down go for love again. "I think about you all the time 24x7 365 " 365 by Katy Perry. You all could be going googly eyed in love or something. Maybe be careful of restless and lustful energies trying to use your emotional energy to balance their life, basically energy vamps, Also set some standards for the kind of partner you want to manifest.

Idk I think there's some reality check needed here, maybe you are hiding your love or infatuation for this person, they could have unconsciously become your reason for happiness, but deep down this person/ you could be hurt,(for some its just you, for some its them too) I'm hearing Pasoori, oh my god, you both are painstakingly missing each other. This hurts, given how emotional Pasoori's lyrics are. It feels like both of you are stuck in this "Debbie Downer" mode. This could due to feeling embarrassed to admit your feelings to each other as it might do more harm than good.

Now either this person's committed to someone else. Or they are forced into this situation due to strict parents. One of you had to let go. Though it does seem like you both are ready to fight tooth and nail over this, cause you two or maybe its just your energy are possessive lovers. But I think the message here is to cultivate the patience and discipline so that both of you or just you end up trapping the other in your effort to successfully salvage your ego by reviving this connection.

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