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putschki1969 · 5 years ago

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Wakana SPICE Interview TRANSLATION

Source: https://spice.eplus.jp/articles/261442

Notes: Finally, here’s my translation of Wakana’s SPICE interview. This took forever. *sobs* But it was worth it. It’s a really nice and candid interview, I adore it. Wakana is so precious talking about love and I really like how she is so honest about her struggles when it comes to meeting the expectations of fans. Takeshi Kato is a great interviewer and it’s obvious that both Wakana as well as Hikaru feel very comfortable wiith him. Please keep in mind that my Japanese is by no means perfect, neither is my English. I still tried my best though. Credit me if you use this translation or parts of it elsewhere!!

Wakana talks about Love ~ Enclosed in her first EP is「her real self which she wants to convey」

Wakana has released her first EP 「Aki no Sakura EP」 on November 20. This work is all about showcasing her clear singing voice which has been dubbed “Botanical Voice” as well as depicting a more familiar and real sense of femininity. Wakana is in the midst of preparing for her 『Wakana Winter Special Live 2019 ～Matataki～』which will take place in Osaka and Tokyo starting from December 8. She has taken the time to sit down with me and talk about “LOVE” and all the secret stories behind this release.

―― Today I would like to hear everything you have got to say about your release「Aki no Sakura EP」. Does it feel like you have been very busy with work lately?

Yes! All I have been doing is make music, in fact, I am working on something new as we speak. I would like to go into more detail ... but all I can say is that it’s amazing *laughs*. So yeah, I will be busy working until the end of the year..

―― Your title song is promoted as “Autumn Sakura Song” where one is thinking about a love that started in the cherry blossom season while strolling around in autumn surrounded by fallen leaves. I think this is a very rare approach. How did you come up with this motif?

When I first got to choose this song I thought that the recurring melody of the 「咲いて咲いて咲い | saite saite saite | blooming blooming blooming」 part was very catchy, it’s something that stays with you, something you won’t easily forget. This song already came with lyrics and I didn’t change anything about this particular section - 「秋の桜がもう咲いて咲いて咲いて | aki no sakura ga mou saite saite saite | the Autumn cherry blossoms are already blooming」. The title was also “Aki no Sakura” from the get-go but the world-view presented in the song was quite different in the beginning so I put some finishing touches to the lyrics in order to create a more real atmosphere that would suit me better.

―― I see, you added bits of your own world-view to it?.

Yes, I was actually talking about this yesterday but the song description “thinking about a love that started in the cherry blossom season while strolling around in autumn surrounded by fallen leaves” kinda suggests that it was a short love that only lasted a few months, doesn’t it? But I will tell you something, that’s not really the case *laughs*.

――It really does sound like that though *laughs*..

If you read the lyrics carefully, there is a section that says, 「落ち葉を鳴らして笑いあったね | ochiba wo narashite warai atta ne | Among the rustling of the fallen leaves we shared laughter」which implies that those two lovers spent at least one autumn together already, so they have been together for more than a year!

―― They started dating in Spring but their love didn’t end in Autumn.

Yes Yes Yes! Just yesterday I was recording a comment all by myself and I caught myself saying, “it’s about a love that started in Spring and ended in Autumn”. I immediately backpedaled and scolded myself because that’s absolutely not what the song is about. I really had to think hard about how to put it into words *laughs*.

――People tend to interpret it as a brief summer love, I guess.

When you listen to Aki no Sakura, I think there are many people who immediately think of a contained space where just Autumn Cherry Blossom exist. But I want people to listen closely to the lyrics of the song to get to the truth. I personally believe that the lyrical main character of the song has held their loved one dear to their heart for a very long time. When you see dead leaves flying in the Autumn wind people might be reminded of the cherry blossom season, you are just looking at the scenery and all of a sudden that certain Spring comes to mind and everything else that’s buried within your heart. I think this song is not so much about remembering a specific time or moment, it’s more about a very memorable person and all the associations you have with them.

―― I personally didn’t see it as a summer fling, I thought it was about a moment or situation that reminds you of a love from a long time ago.

There is definitely a sense of suddenly being overcome with memories, I think many people will see it like that as well.

―― Memories... they do have a habit of hitting us all of a sudden. And to our surrounding it all seems so insignificant. That comes across well in the chorus. In that sense, I think it is quite the sad song. For me it was very refreshing to hear you sing a song like that - a song about someone who is so clearly recalling a past love.

It certainly was refreshing. As we established earlier, the memories of our main character are being triggered by autumn leaves and cherry blossoms but really, it can be anything that triggers your memories, in my case I associate most things with certain odors and scents. And of course music! Listening to a song that I used to listen to a lot back in the days will bring back all sorts of memories for me. Truly, all these triggers appear in real life.

―― Naturally music is a big trigger for you.

Yes, it’s music. When I listen to “Top of the World” by The Carpenters for example, I am immediately thrown back to my junior high school days. It used to be broadcast on campus in the morning time. On my way to school it would gradually get louder until I reached the school gates where the teachers would stand to greet us. Listening to it reminds me of my mornings in junior high school.

―― Now what about the other songs on the EP, "Koi wa Itsumo" and "Orange"? “Orange” was written by you, right? Earlier we talked about your worries regarding the impressions and world-views of the title song, how about the other songs? It seems like each song has a very different impression? There is lots of variety.

That also applies to the first song “eve”, I really wanted to have lots of different atmospheres in this EP, different from anything I had ever done before. “Koi wa Itsumo” is probably where I outdid myself *laughs*. I want you to not believe your ears when you hear it. I personally think the lyrics are very clear-cut. There is a sense of cuteness and embarrassment, I thought a lot about how to sing those lyrics. Eventually I settled on trying to sing them in a happy manner. I wanted to create a pure and honest atmosphere so I tried to convey a thrilling sense of excitement with my voice.

――You are singing words you have never sung before such as 「独り占めしたいんです | hitori jime shitaindesu | I would like to have you all to myself」or 「困らせたい | komara setai | I want to bother you」.

That’s right. But this is actually all me. I am that sort of person. It's embarrassing to admit but I wanted to have these parts included in the song. One by one I want to tackle things that people don’t expect of me, I would like to break away from images like, “oh, that doesn’t feel like Wakana” or “this doesn’t sound like Wakana”. First and foremost I wanted to increase the number of songs that could be enjoyed by everyone so this is why I dared to take it a step further and hit the gas pedal hard.

―― Now please tell us about “Orange”.

"Orange" already came with lyrics. But it was quite difficult to make it into something of my own based on the images that were being conveyed... I have a few friends around the same age as me who I meet regularly about once a month. Recently, we often end up talking about all the hardships, worries and rewarding aspects of work.

―― Yes, in your age group responsibilities certainly increase.

I personally often felt like I couldn’t really relate to many of the thoughts, troubles and feelings everyone else experienced. All of them are very self-assured, everything about them feels real. I wanted to try and put that into words because I respect that and find it very interesting.

―― Well, I guess since you are an artist your work and life-style are quite different from that of others with normal 9-to-5 jobs.

Actually, all of them are working in the industry, they are video creators, photographers, directors and such...One thing they all have in common though, they had something they wanted to do when they were young but for whatever reason it never happened, their dream never became reality. I listened to all their stories and this sense of regret is shared by everyone. And yet, they all power through, they are still living their lives, working hard, doing their best. That is why I wanted to write lyrics dedicated to the people like that - who work so very hard every day even though they are not living their dreams. But I didn’t want to make a big deal out of it, I guess it’s just meant as encouragement or something.

―― By which you mean what exactly?.

Well, at the end of every day you are still the same you and nothing else, no matter how often you go to sleep and wake up again, yesterday’s mistakes and failures will not go away, today’s amount of work won’t change even if you sleep for an entire day, looking at yourself in the mirror, don’t you always see someone who is tired of getting up every morning? It’s all these things I wanted to convey in my song but without making it too sad.

―― I see.

That’s why the “anata/you” that appears in the final part of “Orange” is supposed to be oneself. You are reborn every day when you go to bed and wake up again. There were times when all you did was being motionless among the waves and scream. If possible you want to return to that moment to embrace yourself in order to provide comfort. But now all of that is in the past, it’s overcome, there is joy to be found at work, I see it when I watch my friends, they all seem to love their job.「あなたの笑顔に会いたい | anata no eigao ni aitai | I want to meet your smile」is about getting up in the morning and seeing your smiling face in the mirror. It's a song that’s meant to make you smile, it shouldn’t make you sad.

―― Now your fifth song “Yuuyake”, you recorded it all in one go, right?

I went into the recording booth together with Ikekubo-san, the guitarist. we did a few takes and eventually decided we would make it slower than it was originally intended. I discussed this with Minnie P., the composer of the song, I told her I wanted to do it a little more slowly. I felt like my voice came out best at a slower tempo, Ikekubo-san and I gave it a few tries before we finally figured out the perfect tempo, it was a lot of fun.

―― I have noticed this before, especially in your live performances, there is a strong sense of realness, everything seems very natural and raw. I thought it was very interesting to see this sort of approach from you.

Well, there is an already existing world-view when it comes to Kalafina, I treasure that a lot, it is very important to me, I do not plan to ever destroy it but right now I am trying to discover new things for myself, I am pursuing the potential of my voice and I think that’s very important.

―― Based on what you just said I think people will want to listen to your songs. But the main theme for two of your songs, “Koi wa Itsumo” and “Aki no Sakura”, is undoubtedly love, right?

Yes, that’s right.

―― I think compared to your Kalafina days the number of life-sized casual songs has increased immensely ever since you became a solo-artist. What exactly does “love” mean to you? I would like to talk about that a little bit.

Well, I think love is “selfishness”. When you fall in love, one is usually hiding in the shadows, thinking “oh, he is so cool and good-looking!” “I wish he would notice me!” or “Oh, I want us to hold hands!!” *laughs*. Or when you are going to a live of your favourite artist, hoping, “please look at me, please smile at me!” All of that is selfishness...you have a lot of demands when you love someone.

――Yes, there is certainly some truth in that. Please smile at me!!! *laughs*

However, love is also about understanding each other and finding a compromise. Compromise is about indulging someone to please them even though you feel like doing something entirely different.

―― You mentioned that this time the lyrics very much represent your own thoughts and parts of yourself? So what about Wakana's love life? I am not asking about who you are going out with but I would like to know about your philosophy of love.

I wonder if I can even talk about it, I have never done it before. It's very embarrassing *laughs*.

―― Now is a good time to start! *laughs*

Well, I guess I can manage to talk about love to the same extent that I have written about it in my lyrics *laughs*. What I told you before is my personal opinion. Perhaps there are people who only think about love and affection when they fall in love. But in my case, when I fall for someone, I feel a strong sense of greed, I want the person I like to notice me, to turn around and look at me, to pay attention to me.

―― That’s quite understandable.

But even if our feelings turn to true love, even if we love each other very much, there will still be greed within me. I think love should be regarded and treated the same way as a relationship with your good friend. But as a lover I can’t help it, I am apt to become selfish. For example, I end up telling my lover things I would never say to a friend. There are certain things I would never say to my friends because I don’t want my friends to dislike me. I guess when it comes to love, I just stop faking it. Typically I read the air and act accordingly but with my partner I don’t read the air at all.

―― Can you give me an example? The things your friends might not tolerate ...?

Sorry. Well...Imagine your friends want to go and eat Yakitori today, I would never say "meh..I don’t wanna eat Yakitori today”.... Instead I would say, “YAY, let’s go and eat Yakitori!” *laughs*. Maybe I would give it a try and silently suggest, “anyone feel like Yakiniku instead?"

―― So you fight back a little.

I fight back a tiny bit. But it still ends up with “let’s go have Yakitori!!” *laughs*

―― And how is it with your partner?.

"No, don’t you want Yakiniku? We will go have Yakiniku!" *laughs* I will just send the restaurant information and be done with it. I kinda like to get into little competitive fights about stuff like that. “This place is better” “No, the other place has way better chicken!”

―― What kind of man do you find appealing?

I sometimes think about this question but it’s very difficult for me to find an answer. I have favourite actors of course but I only know their TV persona. When it comes to my favourite artists it’s pretty much the same, all I am aware of is their singing voice and stage presence.... But I want to get to know all the personal aspects of that person's life, I want to meet the real human being behind the facade, I want to explore all of that. I wonder if by doing that you gradually fall in love. Well, anyways, I'd like someone in whose presence I can just be myself. Of course I would tolerate and accept everything about him. But in turn I want him to accept everything about me, all my faults and everything ...Ahh, I'm terribly selfish, let’s stop here *laughs*.

―― You want to show your true self to the person you love.

I agree. When I was younger I spent a lot of time putting on a facade but these days I just wanna be myself, if I have a shitty day I wanna be able to say that I have a shitty day, I don’t want to have to pretend that I am doing fine.

―― Somehow I feel like there is so much realness and humanity in this interview and your new songs.

I'm glad to hear that!

―― I am also curious about your singing style. As a member of Kalafina you were in charge of the soprano parts but now as a solo artist you are pretty much singing all parts, right? I feel like the quality of your voice has changed a bit. Is it because you are trying to find a singing style that’s suitable for you as a solo singer?

Yes, that's right.

―― I always wondered whether you did it on purpose by training or whether it happened naturally.

My previously released album 『Wakana』 was my first proper release as a solo artist, I decided to use the title “Wakana” because for me that album was sort of like my business card, a proper representation of myself so to speak. But truth is, I wanna go through various changes in the future. This year, I got so many opportunities to express myself in various songs and I held lots of live performances.

―― I feel like you have put a lot of thought into being more expressive at your live performances..

Yeah, when I go back and watch all of my live recordings I think it’s crazy how much my singing has changed. I have opened this door of change intentionally, those changes will always correlate with whatever music I am currently creating. I want everyone to look forward to further changes.

―― So there is really a lot of purpose and intention behind your actions.

Yes, I just wanted to convey something more real, I wanted to show everyone the real me. I think what my audience is looking for is probably some sort of insight, a deeper understanding of who I am. I think it would be very rude if I didn’t meet those expectations. Speaking of changes, in my song “Orange” I used a lot of heavy breaths while singing it, initially I was very reluctant to sing it that way but I thought I would give it a try.

―― Why exactly were you reluctant?

Because I was never really required to sing like that. However, once I had realised that I could probably do it, my desire to give it a try became stronger.

―― Right now Takebe-san is your live producer but I feel like you would like to try and produce your lives yourself eventually, do you have the wish to do these things?

I do!

―― I think you are currently working on creating more freedom for yourself so you can do the things you want.

That's right. I want to create a wider scope of action for me. But I think one has to be careful when doing such a thing, after all, I do not want to betray my fans. It was never my intention to disappoint all the people who have certain expectations of me so I tried my best to respond to their wishes. But I am still uncertain how to best meet those expectations and at the same time I don’t want to neglect the things I personally want to do...it’s very difficult and I am constantly thinking about how to do things, how to find a balance. I feel like it will always be like that....

―― I guess that’s something all artists struggle with?

Yes, I think that many popular artists deal with these sorts of anxieties. If a fan listens to a good song of an artist they will immediately have a certain expectation and look forward to the next song. Since I am a singer myself I sometimes struggle listening to the music of other artists because there is a sense of envy. Of course there are also people who may not be able to listen to a new song by their favourite artist right away. The shock would be too great. It will just be "WOW, that's amazing!!!"

―― That you are thinking this way is proof that you are an artist.

I guess. Right now I am a huge fan of Official HIGE DANdism! When I realised I was hooked, I listened to all of their albums. I am currently in a state where I would be totally shocked and blown away if a new song came out. I would be all over it, “aaaahhh, it’s so amazing!!”

―― So this does happen to you sometimes too, even if the genre is different?

Especially if the genre is different, I think it’s easier for me that way. This way I learn to appreciate and be grateful for the listeners’ expectations. Even if I am in a state of shock, I am trying to listen to the song properly. I am learning a lot this way.

―― By the way, you will be holding a one-man live on December 8 @Umeda Club Quattro (Osaka) and on December 10 @My Navi BLITZ Akasaka (Tokyo).

That's right. I have never held a proper live twice a day with a day and evening performance. It’s very intriguing. I am quite excited and a little nervous.

―― All the worries that come with deciding on the setlist and such?

Yes. I decided to name my live “Matataki | Blink”, I chose this title because I want us all to enjoy this special moment together. Those moments in time, those worldviews which are presented in my releases and lives are completely different so I want everyone to enjoy those blinks of time individually. Rather than focusing on expressing the worldviews of my EP, I want to find an expression that’s unique to a live and that can be enjoyed by everyone. I think it’s a different way of enjoyment.

―― Live performances are not about creating a perfect reproduction of the studio version, it’s about pursuing the unique and fun aspects of a live.

Yes, I see it that way. I want to hold a live that everyone can enjoy, where people can find happiness. I really want to treasure this live, after all, it’s almost been half a year since my last proper concert.

―― I am very curious how you will present yourself. I'm really looking forward to it.

It’s said that the twinkling of stars, the light we see right now when we look up is actually millions of years old. I am a romantic at heart so things like that mean a lot to me. Even if the brightness is not visible right now, surely one day it will shine among all the stars. This moment right now. Having said all of this, I hope you enjoy this EP.

―― Now let’s talk about next year. Since this is probably our last time talking this year. What kind of year is 2020 going to be for you?

Next year in 2020 we will have the Tokyo Olympics so I think it will be a very lively year. I want to create memorable music without being rushed, I wanna take my time and of course I want to always keep my listeners in mind. My personal challenge will be to balance selfishness and love. However, instead of demanding the other party to just listen because I took up this challenge, I would like to take the other party’s feelings into account.❇ Staying true to myself I want to face all the struggles that come with making music, I want to create new songs with care. I also want to continue doing lives.

Interview: Takeshi Kato; Photo: Saori Shikiji

❇) The interview is quite ambiguous when it comes to Wakana and the topic of love. It kinda sounds like she could currently have a partner but in this case she could also be referring to the love and selfishness among artists and fans...

#kalafina #wakana #my translations #spice interview #aki no sakura #long text post #wakana is so precious talking about love

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aki-draws-things · 5 years ago

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Hi Aki~ I know you prefer to hurt Tybalt, but for BTHB "Dying in their arms" how about hurting Mercutio instead? (T could still be the focus). In a Tycutio way I reckon that would hurt T a lot anyway. Maybe M is protecting T against someone (lord C?), or they're fighting someone together. And then when the situation is resolved M doesn't realise he's been hurt - until Tybalt looks at him, horrified (cue angst, blood, and tears).

You asked for angst, You’ll have angst. Also written in a single sitting, which is a very good thing.

Prompt: Dying in their armsFandom: Romeo et JulietteShip: Tycutio

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Tybalt didn’t hate Romeo, why should he? He was his cousin’s husband, Juliet loved him so much she challenged death itself for him. - Maybe he could hate him a bit for that. Just a tiny little bit. - In the end he didn’t hate him, not really, not as everyone believed. But he did hate Lord Montague, and he had every reason for that, his hate was justified, the Prince would even allow him to hate him even more.

“What are you doing here?” The voice reminded Tybalt so much of his own uncle and unconsciously he took a step back, just a bit farther from his reach, in case he decided – But that was not Lord Capulet. - And yet that fear settled on his chest and refused to leave, a cold hold around his heart and a too deep instinct to cower. He hated himself so much for such a childish reaction. -

“I need to speak with Juliet.” He finally said looking back up. “No need to be afraid, Tybalt. You’re not a child, don’t act like one.” He thought.

“No.”

Tybalt blinked confused for a moment. No? Was he – Was he refusing him to see his cousin? That made no sense.

“No Capulets here. You may want to leave before I call a guard. Or worse.”

He noticed how the hand slipped to the hilt of the rapier at his side. Were really his uncle and this man so similar? Hands and swords always quicker than words? He had been the same, he couldn’t deny it, but he was younger, he could learn, and he did learn not to let anger lead his hand. Those men were the one supposed to teach them that. Instead here he was, threatening him for such a simple request.

“I just need Juliet for a second, I –”

“I thought I had been clear.” Tybalt took another step back as the blade shone catching a ray of sun. He wasn’t scared, not really. - He simply valued his life. -

“I won’t even get inside, please, I –” He almost tripped on the two steps behind him when Lord Montague stepped forward. He wasn’t scared, Tybalt tried to convince himself, he wasn’t. He still preferred to be far from his reach and from his hand, scared or not.

He left without even see his cousin, let alone speak to her. It wasn’t like he had to ask her much, it was only a little proposal. Extremely little. He needed a witness with him, only for a moment, some minutes, not even long, and of all the people he knew she was the only one who cared enough for him to accept. The only one who would understand. - The one who would be overjoyed for him. -

“How did it went, love?” Tybalt muttered something sitting on the couch and curling against Mercutio’s side like an overgrown cat.

“I didn’t ask her.” He revealed after a while.

“Why?”

Tybalt almost lied. It’ wouldn’t be fair of course, he promised to be honest, he wanted to be honest, but Mercutio was also so close to the Montague’s family that for a moment he feared he wouldn’t believe him.

“I didn’t see her.” Small steps toward the truth, maybe it would be easier that way.

“Was she out? You could have waited for her a little longer. You don’t have a curfew.” Tybalt didn’t move from his position against him. He wanted to lie, he couldn’t risk to break something Mercutio held so dear like his friendship and association with the Montagues. “Tybalt? My good Tybalt, what’s wrong with you today? What happened?” He inquired worriedly turning and taking Tybalt’s face in his hands. He so wanted to lie. And yet he couldn’t.

“Lord Montague didn’t let me see her.”

“He what?”

“I could have insisted, I know, but he put a hand on his rapier and I…” Mercutio was looking at him in shock and Tybalt lowered his eyes in shame. He was supposed to be fearless, he was supposed to be the best swordsman of the Capulets, of all of Verona. He used to be one of the best. -He still was if he wanted. - Instead he backed away once a man put the hand on the rapier, like a child. Scared and trembling. - He had every reason. His uncle’s actions made him fear sudden movements like those. He raised his rapier against him in the “good name of a lesson”, he would say. -

“How could he?” Shock turned into rage. “How dare he?!” Rage turned into fury. Tybalt took his hands in his and held them tight.

“It doesn’t matter. I can write her a letter and –”

“No. - Mercutio stood and held a hand to him. - We’ll go there and he will let you see Juliet. Right now.”

Making him change his mind was almost impossible, Tybalt had learned it long ago, before they eve started to be something more than just enemies, or friends, or occasional lovers. Mercutio was a hurricane, unstoppable once he set his mind on something.

- Never like in that moment he wished he could have changed his mind. It would have saved them much pain and tears and – It was too late now. -

Tybalt almost remained on the door of the Montague palace when a servant opened the door and gestured them to enter, so used to Mercutio’s presence around the place.

“Come. - He said taking his hand. - You have nothing to fear with me, I promise.”

He felt a bit stupid for a moment, acting so much like a scared child, letting Mercutio protect him, shield him. He should be the one protecting the future Prince, not the other way around, it was absurd.

What was absurd for Mercutio, on the other hand, was how Lord Montague shot up from his seat at their sight and pointed a finger at Tybalt.

“I said no Capulet here. You’re testing my patience here.”

“Funny coming from you and then taking in a Capulet. Go ahead, go to her.” He mouthed a quick “My love” that in another moment would have made him blush. Tybalt moved to Juliet just a bit but as soon as he stepped away from Mercutio Lord Montague stepped forward, rapier already in hand.

Everything blurred for a moment, someone moved, someone screamed, people stood from their seats. It was all almost surreal.

“You really are a fool.” Mercutio said and it was his voice that cleared Tybalt’s mind from that fog. - He wished it didn’t. - You are the fool, he wanted to say, biggest fool of all.

When Mercutio turned Tybalt’s eyes were wide, tears already forming and fear, so much fear painted on his face that made Mercutio want to reach out. Instead he fell in his arms with a groan, blood seeping through his doublet, through Tybalt’s desperate hands, dripping on the floor beneath them.

“Oh… closer than expected.” He muttered, more blood coming from his lips. Tybalt’s hands slipped slightly as he tried to hold him against himself, Mercutio laid his head against Tybalt’s chest. “Don’t cry, love. - He brushed a hand on his cheek drying the tears for a moment. - You know you’re so much prettier when you smile. And you said you would keep tears for the big day, didn’t you?”

If possible that brought more tears from his eyes, he clutched at his doublet and a sob escaped his throat.

“It’s all right. I’m here, in your arms, what better place?” Mercutio covered a hand with his, caressed gently his knuckles before letting it slip down at his side, too weak to keep it there. “That’s my favorite place to be, you know? - Tybalt wanted to nod, of course he knew, Mercutio always said it. But it wasn’t fair, not right now. Who gave him the right to say it now? He caressed his cheek drying the tears that in the end fell from Mercutio’s eyes. Everything around them was still, like the world stopped for a moment to give them time. A little more time. Just a little more. - I wouldn’t change it.”

Tears turned into sobs, something Juliet never heard before coming from a person, something almost unnatural, even more coming from her cousin.

The world started to spin around them again, faster than before, to make up for the lost time. Guards in neutral colors came forward and took the blade from Lord Montague’s hands, they dragged him away and no one dared to stop them. Two of them knelt by Mercutio and Tybalt, they whispered something and Tybalt almost pushed them away, but they were kind, they understood, he knew them, and in the end he let one of them take Mercutio’s body from his arms. - He promised, profusely, to be careful as he carried him away. - The other, younger one waited for him, kneeling on one knee by his side, never touching him but close enough, until Tybalt took his hand as a support to stand.

“I’m –” Romeo’s voice was broken as Tybalt walked out of the palace.

“Don’t. His sins are his alone. You are guiltless. Don’t apologize.” Apologies, he thought as he walked to the Escalus palace in a sort of daze, won’t bring him back to me.

The Prince was waiting by the door when he arrived, the young guard made a quick bow and left swiftly, Tybalt kept his eyes on the ground, too scared to look up and see that man he could have called uncle blame him. Because of course he would blame him for Mercutio, he blamed himself. He was the one who should have changed his mind, the one who was supposed to protect him, the one –

The Prince walked closer, stopped right in front of him and raised a hand. Instinctively Tybalt flinched and screwed shut his eyes. The hand touched his cheek, slipped behind his head, under the hair and pulled him closer until he was resting against him, his other arm wrapped around the shoulders and held him close.

“Come, nephew, - He said after some minutes, when he heard the sobs slow down a bit. - let’s get you inside.”

#tycutio #character death #prompt: dying in their arms #lord Montague is not exactly bad... he just doesn't want capulets around his palace #except for juliet but she's no longer a capulet #and tybalt stepped in the way so it was most likely an accident #that won't stop the prince from making him pay #also he will consider Tybalt his nephew despite him and cutio not being married #they were going to. that's what he wanted to ask Julie...#aaaangst!!#angst #bad things happen bingo #bthb #romeo et juliette #retj #fanfic #aki writes

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i-might-be-a-kpop-fan · 6 years ago

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KPOP SONGS! Part 2/?

So I thought I’d make a list of the songs in my „kpop“ playlist and write a little about them because I’m bored. These are supposed to be chronological, but after looking at the list I’m not so sure about it also because I love to buy music in bulks.

PT.1

THESE ARE JUST MY OPINIONS/EXPERIENCES TAKE IT WITH A PINCH OF SALT AND DON’T KILL ME!

Also write me if you wanna chat about it :D

ZUTTER - GD & T.O.P:

This song is a little scary tbh, apart from the badass vibes

I always loved T.O.P’s deep ass voice and with GD’s high pitched rap it’s just perfect

The MV is funny, creepy and a bit fucked up but what did we expect honestly :D

They rhyme aLOT in this song which makes it really interesting to listen to

made me addicted to the GD & T.O.P combination

…..ZUTTER!

THE BADDEST FEMALE - CL:

It took me a while to understand that this isn’t a solo version of „I’m the best“

It’s the queen saying she’s a bad bitch so you know it’s a banger

As almost all CL songs this is good to let off steam and regain your badass level after someone pissed you off

The MV is a sexual awakening on it’s own and performances of that song are also definitely worth a watch

„Not bad meaning bad, but bad meaning good you know?“

Perfect to practice bitch drops and feel yourself to

Burning Up (Fire) - BTS:

So I don’t really listen a lot to it but I still like it

Has all kinds of badass vibes and I like the soft breaks in-between

RM’s part is by far my favourite his deep voice is so satisfying

The MV is also really cool

You can see from previous songs I had a badass song phase (I still have this phase, I love badass songs) where I only took badass kpop songs seriously

Growl - EXO:

Okay, so I sometimes forget about this song haha

A good song that screams SM to be honest which I always thought was not that much the case with other EXO songs

The dance to this is really satisfying to watch and was probably the reason I bought this song

It shows EXO’s excellent vocals, has a nice feel and is easy to listen to

Quite an early song too

I love that you could potentially dance really hard to this but still is very soft

Instantly recognisable and also a kpop classic I would say

GOOD BOY - GD & Taeyang:

Is this a kink? This is a kink right?

An awesome song i have bopped to a million times

I really love the „pretty/good boy“ trope and who is better for that then our bad boys™️ GD and Taeyang?

Their voices sound a bit alike and I sometimes had trouble differencing them….whoops

The dance is so so good and the MV is such an accurate representation of these two freaks

God I just love them and miss them so much

I am the best (JP. Ver) - 2ne1:

Welcome to another round of Aki isn’t capable of differencing Japanese and Korean lol

I must say I prefer this version though, I recently bought the korean version and it’s just not the same I got so used to the english parts lol

This is also a classic, bow to the queens of badass girl group songs!

The MV made me fall in love with CL and the gang

„It’s 2 in the morning our bodies getting freaky, the beats bumping loud but this boy keeps talking! I can’t really hear him but I think he’s saying he loves me? Put his number on this paper but i throw it like frisbee, huh?“

I C O N I C this song raised me, fed me, dressed me and gave me the kick in the butt I needed.

Oh my god!

BOOMBAYAH - BLACKPINK:

Why of course after discovering 2ne1 BP wasn’t far behind

Recently showed this MV to a non kpop friend of mine and she drooled over all of them soooo, you can do that

Loved this song the second it started and love dancing violently to it

I now, btw, also own the whole album but it took me a bit to get into them (I was in girl group denial, don’t be like me show them girls some love!)

OPPA!

Being only four really makes it possible for all of them to shine, the vocals are clean and pretty but raspy enough to fit the concept and Jennie and Lisas raps are perfect as always

The beat is easy as is the whole song, doesn’t get annoying and is just a bop.

Fantastic Baby - BIGBANG:

Nananananananana wow, fantastic baby!

Well well well if it isn’t history right there

Watch the MV, listen to the song! It’s mandatory to know this I’m sorry I don’t make the rules

Danceable, walkable just all in all go crazy(-able)

Boomshakalaka!

A bit poppy so maybe not for everyone as it sounds a lot like stuff that is randomly on the radio

A dance song that probably was never intended to be more than that. Typically YG, a bit flatter than Bang Bang Bang

I’m repeating myself but you know I heard it’s also something non kpop people enjoy (Basically show them all of BIGBANG, lol)

Ice cream cake - Red Velvet:

Oh boy! My first Red Velvet song that I have because the refrain was stuck in my head and I wanted to know what it was

There’s way more RV later on but for now I think it was the only song

As I said I was in denial of girl groups that didn’t have a badass concept which was soooo dumb!

I love the song, it’s cute and easy to listen to

I love RV’s kinda cute-creepy concept and with the music box in the background it feeds into my liking very easily

I have moved on from it though after discovering other songs from them so I don’t listen to it as often

„I scream, you scream, gimme that, gimme that ice cream!“

Sherlock (Clue + Note) - SHINee:

I have known this song for years! Back when my best friend was into kpop and told me all about SHINee I looked into it, Youtube gave me this song and I instantly clicked. Didn’t like it clicked away and didn’t touch it for 5 years

Well now I love it and can’t stop dancing when it’s on

„SHINees back….“

The MV is confusing but god they’re all so cute in it! Taemin looks so adorable with long hair!

I have watched the dance practice about 100x times and you should too! (jk)

„Tonight, SHINee’s in da house! So give it up for SHINee!“

And as much as I love SHINee’s vocal squad and they’re great in this, Key and Minho really do it for me in this song

The song lives from the dance and the performance and makes it 10x better

It’s also good for just listening though but not really calm and casual so be prepared to break out into sudden song

„Oh I’m curious, yeah!“ (Is it noticeable that I’m listening to it while I write? probably not.)

Breaking News - SHINee:

And my struggle with japanese songs continues haha

„Come on break down the walls!“

I really like this song though, especially the refrain it’s so much fun

It’s also really danceable (as I think every SHINee song is, I mean have you seen them dance?)

Partly really dramatic (slay Onew slay), partly badass rapping

I mean it’s SHINee it’s fun bright and has a dance rhythm what more could you possibly want?

Ring Ding Dong - SHINee:

Yeah, i doubt you don’t know this one

Coincidently the first kpop MV I watched after deciding to dive deeper down the rabbit hole and well would you know it…now we’re here

It’s the one about the broken doorbell! Break it down!

This song and dance is Legendary!

Also a fun song that isn’t to be taken too seriously

The MV is kinda dramatic for this song lol

Good to listen to, has a nice beat and melody

There are these songs that every idol can dance to, this is one of them (In the list of “songs every idol can dance to” you’d find a LOT of SHINee btw)

„Ringdingdongringdindongringdigidingdigiding“

SHAKE THAT BRASS - AMBER (feat. Taeyon):

Amber…oh Amber. I love her really a whole lot and as I saw the MV I just had to have this song!

It’s a super fun and dancey song with (as the title suggests) a brassy sound

Much like Woof Woof I really enjoy this song bc of the MV,

Amber is rapping and being the goofball she is ;)

BUT! As much as I like that song and think she deserves all the solo stuff she can get I like her new stuff more because it’s more „hers“. I really enjoy her singing as well.

And confession of the month: I don’t like f(x)’s sound so I’m happy she does solo stuff

She’s such an inspiration with her unique style and attitude (sighs in very gay)

Lucifer - SHINee:

I LOVE this song! OMG!

The MV is kinda uneventful but the DANCE PRACTICE!

Oh boy! Well first off Lee Taemin is very distracting in it but you have to see the dance to believe it! That’s what they perform with! On a regular basis!

The sound is very electric and theres a quiet electric melody running through the whole of it that kinda sounds like some alarm clocks lol

Edgy™️

You should absolutely watch performances! Jonghyuns high note is not portrayed well in the recorded version, boy has breath forever!

Apart from the vocals slaying absolutely every note the rap parts can’t be discarded by any means

It all just fits so perfectly

Oh and of course for a song of it’s time it’s just a little bit...nonsensical (especially the english parts lol: Loverholic, robotronic. what?)

Hero - MONSTA X:

I’m thinking of a helicopter landing platform, pulled up shirts and a scared Wonho

The dance to this song is…well do yourself a favour if you like abs and boys

Apart from the drool worthy performance, the song is super cool! Kinda chill, but still powerful and damn rapline went off!

This song really made them known more and it’s for a good reason

The sound in this is what is „typically“ MX for long time (Till up until Jealousy I’d say)

„I can be your hero, I can be your man!“

Sometimes a bit repetitive but what song isn’t lol?

Also still is in the „we all dress awful and don’t know what to do with our hands“ phase but that passes soon

Lead to many wonderful reality shows that makes it easy for new fans to get to know them better (Their group dynamic never changes they all just mature a bit it’s really nice to see.)

Also yes, Jooheon is kinda scary in this but I swear he a cutie

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manju-girl · 8 years ago

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Letters to You pt. 8 (Shigezane X MC x ?????)

so hyped up in writing this, thanks for the anon who sent me an ask the other day! and to @frywen-babbles @shingenelena @noomsu @kitty-kat-ty here it goes.

so the plan was to make this a 10 part story but I guess that plan goes down the drain. buhbye

Eight: Don’t we make a perfect couple?!

Her only response to Inuchiyo’s confession was to look down.

She did not know, that he’s looking for her after all these years. What’s more, was that he loved her and he still does.

“Inuchiyo…” she called his name again, his hand still on her cheeks, she smiled “Let’s go back.”

She stood up first, refusing to look at him in the eyes. The ache in her heart, the one she can’t ignore. Was is it wrong to ask him that? His own reason why…?

To be honest, she had mixed feelings about this. She was glad that he was looking for her, that he never forgot about her and that they’re finally together, but his confession made her more confused.

“Aki… are you going back to the castle?” He asked, she knew that he was trying to change the awkward atmosphere between them, so she tried her best too.

“No, its too late to go back and…” she trailed off, walking slowly to match Inuchiyo’s pace. “I want too see you off tomorrow.” She grinned..

“What?”

“I’ll be staying at the inn and see you off tomorrow.” She repeated. When she looked up at him, he was blushing. She can’t help but tease him “Are you blushing?” She stiffled a laugh, playfully punching him in the arm

“I am not blushing.”

“You’re adorable, Inuchiyo.” She giggled, poking his cheeks.

“Stop… that.”

The streets were now quiet, with the shops closing and only the inns has its lights on. The two walked leisurely as if they have all the time in the world. After all, it would be a waste to not enjoy this beautiful night.

"You don’t have to answer me right now.” Inuchiyo broke the silence, looking ahead. “Take your time, Aki. It must be shocking for you. I promise to come back to you.”

She smiled a sad one, looking up to his amethyst eyes once more “Thank you, and I am sorry.”

They arrived at the inn quite late, the moment they do, Inuchiyo asked the owner of the inn if they still have a spare room, only to get a no.

“How about a spare bedding?” Inuchiyo asked, getting worried that Aki may not be able to sleep well.

“My apologies, but we ran out of spare beddings too, milord.” The innkeeper bowed.

“I guess we have no choice. Let’s just sleep together.” Aki suggested, walking straight to Inuchiyo’s room. Her suggestion made Inuchiyo blush again and widened his eyes in surprise,

Sleep together…? Does she mean that? Come on. He is a man.

“WHAT?!"Inuchiyo blurted out

"It seemed that your lover is very straightforward, milord.” hearing the innkeeper chuckle beside him. HearingInuchiyo blushed a deeper shade of red.

Thus, Inuchiyo followed Aki. Getting nervous of what she meant. The moment he got inside, he saw her sitting on the corner of the room. Her dark blue haori on the floor as her bedding and the spare sleeping robe as a makeshift pillow.

“Haaaaaah, I’ll just sleep here. You sleep in the bedding, okay? Well then, we need to be in bed early. Good night.” Aki yawned, lying in her makeshift bedding. Inuchiyo just can’t let this one go. He can’t let her sleep on the floor.

“No. Sleep at the bedding, I’ll sleep on the floor.”

“Inuchiyo you need to take a good rest. Take the bedding, I don’t mind.” She turned around to explain to him. Inuchiyo moved quick and leaned close to hers,

“No.” He replied shortly, lifting her into his arms and gently carries her to the bedding.

“Hey! Don’t make a fuss, Inuchiyo! I’m used in sleeping on the floor. Put me down!” Aki tried to protest.

“You should be the one not making a fuss. I can’t let you sleep on the floor, got it?” He answered back, pulling the covers up to her chest. “Now sleep, I won’t blow out the lights until you fall asleep. Good night.” Inuchiyo knows, at least Kojuro told him. That she was afraid of complete darkness even at night. He stared at her eyes, her eyes full of worry and the pain of the past. She turned away from him, mumbling a short reply.

“�� fine, Good night.” With that, he smiled and stayed at her bedside. Inuchiyo was thinking of a way to make her sleep fast. A few minutes later he heard her gentle snores. He can’t help but smile to himself, smoothing out and running his fingers through her hair. She leaned to his touch unconsciously, mumbling a name.

“Inu…chiyo…”

When he woke up, she was nowhere to be found. He stood up from the bedding and changed to his kimono. He figured she would be gone before sunrise, considering that she still has a job at Yonezawa.

“So I guess I’ll leave alone.” He mumbled to himself, gathering his things and preparing to go out. He felt disappointed that he never got the chance to see her before he leaves, but dismissed his personal feelings as he will soon depart for battle.

“Inuchiyoooooo!! Where the hell do you think you’re going?!” That… voice.

He turned around to see her. She was running at the corridor of the inn like she owned the place. He stopped walking to see

“DON’T YOU DARE LEAVE OSHU WITHOUT HAVING BREAKFAST!” She panted. Ah, how energetic. He thought.

“What are you doing here?” He asked, wondering as to why she was still here when she should’ve been in the castle.

“I told you I’d see you off, didn’t I? Hah.” Ah, oh course she did, but he never thought that she’d be serious. Inuchiyo smiled, she never changed. She’s still strict when it comes to food and skipping meals. Just like her late mother.

But what surprised him the most was that she’s wearing the kimono and hairpin he bought for her. It’s a light blue one with floral designs. It perfectly suited her, calm and dignified as he known her to be based on how she works.

She dragged him back to their room last night. He came in to find a small table at the center filled with his favorite foods. She made him sit opposite of her.

“Well! Let’s eat!” She clapped her hands together before digging in to the foods while Inuchiyo savored each dish that she made, he will surely miss this. He saw the familiar dish as the main course, Absolute Victory Bowl.

Not so much of a word was exchanged between them while having breakfast.

After breakfast, Aki saw off Inuchiyo in the outskirts of town, he knew that she was worried for his safety.

“Inuchiyo, take care. And may victory find you.” She said, biting her lower lip. He smiled at her reassuringly. He pulled her close to his chest, completely trapping her in an embrace.

He felt his own and her heart beating fast. Although he was nervous, he knew that he wanted to reassure her of his vow and his feelings for her.

“I’ll come back to you, I promise.” He said, smoothing out her hair and then looking at her straight in her eyes, she has her mouth agape. His fingers traced her lower lip, and he leaned his face to her forehead, planting a light peck just at the top of her head.

“Well then, I must go.” He said, turning his back and leaving his heart in Oshu. While Aki was dumbfoundedly made her way back to Yonezawa Castle.

“He’ll come back safely… I know.”

After meeting Masamune, Shigezane and Aki was preparing to depart for their mission.

“Matchaaakiiiiiiii~”

“What do you want Taiyaaaakiiii?”

“So what’s with the kimono and the hairpin?”

“…”

“Dolll~”

“Since when did you call me a doll?” She said, fixing the reins on the horse. He peered close at her face. He can’t help but adore the way she is dressed today. An azure blue kimono designed with silver florals, and a darker blue obi and a black tie . It suited her, he saw a blush on her cheeks. She doesn’t want the attention, he knew that.

“What, do you feel regret now that I can look this pretty?” She teased, winking at him. “Ah, I know. You wish I was your bride instead.” She added, trying to pose in a er… uh seductive way? But as always. It looked funny.

“Pft! Hahahahaha! Aki please stop!” Shigezane laughed, his hand in his stomach and mirth in his eyes.

“Shigezane. You’re mean.” She said, going back to fix the reins on the horse. “I was just kidding!” She kicked his leg.

“OW! SORRY! Ahaha. No, you have always been beautiful in my eyes.” He smiled gently, wiping the tears from laughing too much. “And I never said no to your confession now, did I?”

“Was I supposed to believe that after you laughed so hard?” She asked a question back.

“Aha, sorry sorry. You have to get comfortable in wearing kimonos,though” he grinned, “You’ll get married soon. Ahaha!”

“Keep on talking about my ‘marriage’ and I’ll completely break your leg. Let’s just get down to what Lord Masamune has asked us to do. So that you can get back to Lady Ayame.” She said,

“Who would have ever thought that Lord Masamune wanted us to go to an onsen” she feigned that she’s getting chills. “And staying at the same room…” she looked at him, crossing her arms across her chest. “Don’t you dare touch me okay?!” She pointed a accusing finger on Shigezane, who seemed to have calmed down laughing.

“Well well, who would have thought huh?” He inhaled the cold summer wind, “atleast we can be a together all alone even if its just all for a mission right?”

“Whatever you say. Move faster, Taiyaki.” She said. Shigezane grinned, packing the things he needed at the side of the horse.

“Aki.” Kojuro walked close to them along with Masamune who has a cat at hand, blushing lightly at the fluffy animal in his hands. Shigezane eyed the animal curiously, since this is the first time he saw the cat.

“Tokimunemaru won’t eat, but he was undeniably fond of Lord Masamune…” Kojuro sighed in defeat, with Masamune nodding along. Tokimunemaru… now that name sounded familiar to him.

“A cat… Tokimunemaru..” Shigezane mumbled, looking at Aki who was all smiles.

“Remember the stray cat we found? I took care of him. I named him Tokimunemaru.” She said, petting the cat while looking at Shigezane.

“Come on… what’s wrong with you siblings, really. Kojuro named his turtle Bontenmaru, and you named your cat after my childhood name?”

“Well… they are quite the siblings, if I must say.” Masamune said, petting the cat on its head, “Naming their pets after us… well I can’t complain. All of them are, cute.” He added when the cat purred.

“Masamune-chan… you’re so cute holding that cat.” Aki said, wiping the tears from her eyes, Kojuro nodded. “Milord, I couldn’t agree more.”

“Hey… you two.” Masamune said. The scene in front of Shigezane was so warm. What he catches was how Masamune looked at Aki. There’s no denying that she was beautiful, as always. But this is not just an admiration of her looks now.

It was something, much more than admiration.

Shigezane had to admit, that it was unpleasant to think that a person, who you treated like your own brother was also inlove with the one woman you love. Unable to control the jealousy he feels, he held her arm and pulled her to his side.

“Well now, what do you want us to do, Masamune?” Shigezane asked, grinning. Back to his usual self. Masamune looked at them handing the cat back to Kojuro who took it anxiously, sweat forming on his forehead.

“I want you to pretend as a couple and spy on Satake’s retainers.” Masamune said seriously, looking at the both of them. Shigezane was not surprised hearing this, he knew the plan from the start. “We received word that they are going to hold a secret meeting in one of the onsens just outside Oshu.”

“Huh? But why as a couple?” Aki asked,tilting her head.

“To avoid suspicions.” Kojuro answered this time, holding the cat close to his chest. “If two people were to spy it would be much efficient, you both can move freely and safely.”

Deep down, Shigezane was very happy to be with Aki on this mission.

“Ah, I see. If Taiya– I mean, Lord Shigezane had no objections to it, I will do my best. If not, I will still do my best for the Clan.”

“So basically you still have to do your best.” Shigezane grinned, slipping a hand on her waist and putting his head on her shoulder, he said

“Besides, we make a perfect couple, don’t we?”

#date shigezane #date masamune #katakura kojuro #slbp fanfic

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