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2020 Writing Review

Married ChristmasIt’s the final week of 2020 if you can believe it! I did a post like this last year where I listed all the things I had written throughout the year. 

This year, sadly, will be a little smaller than 2019. The pandemic took hold of my writing muse in March and didn’t let it breathe until the end of June, and even then, it had been a struggle until recently. The pandemic took a toll on my mental health, and there were months where I didn’t write anything (between Someone, Somewhere and Brighter is from May to October). You’ll notice there is no coda fic for episodes 12 and 13 and that was because that’s when COVID-19 panic really struck in my area of the country, and I was unable to write them (though they will be written soon).

Despite it all, by the end of June, we took a week-long trip to a beach house, a beach house I know and love, since we couldn’t go to our usual spot in Ogunquit, Maine. It was a responsible vacation with no one with us, not around anyone at all, and only going on the beach in the very early morning and after suppertime when no one was there. 

That’s when I started to write my DCBB, ‘Victory’. I wrote 30k during that week and it was like I could finally breathe fresh air again. 

It was still a struggle to finish that DCBB, and I thank @cuddlemonsterdean and @malallory​ for their help with that. And with my Pinefest as well! But when you’re living at your mother’s house with a new puppy and no where to write, I’m surprised I got ‘Victory’ out at all. 

So here are some links to the things I wrote this year. It’s not a long list, but I’m hoping 2021 will be fruitful and full of creative energy. I’m finally living on my own again with my writing desk, my white board, and my lo-fi music!

For a preview of 2021, I am going to be working on a lot of fics related to a post-finale world I’m creating based off of things I wanted to see. That will wind up being its own post. I’m excited to get writing in 2021! <3 

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And A Happy New Year

[Started in 2019 but led into 2020] 

Summary: Is it possible to thank a cursed, constantly breaking car for your relationship? What started as a mutual, hidden crush between Cas and Dean ends up being a first date and kiss just in time for Christmas. But, are they on the same page, and will the holiday magic last?

Details: Rated E | Words: 26,682 | Chapters: 3/3 | Tags: Fluff, Tooth-Rotting Fluff, First Kiss, Secret Crush, Christmas Fluff, Mechanic Dean Winchester, Snowed In, Self-Doubt, Implied/Referenced Suicide, Car Accidents, Frottage, Light Dom/sub, Miscommunication, Anxiety Attacks, New Year's Eve, New Year's Kiss, Happy Ending, Military Families, Minor Character Death, Miscarriage Mention

A Sound of Thunder

Summary: 15x09 ‘The Trap’ Coda | A horrible ending, a good ending, and a hesitant beginning.

Details: Rated: M | Words: 8,121 | Chapters:1/1 | Tags: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Suicidal Thoughts, Insanity, Claustrophobia, Pining, Buried Alive, I Love You, Canon Compliant, Alternate Universe, Panic Attacks, Anxiety, Purgatory, Self-Hatred, Self-Doubt, Coda

2029

Summary: Dean turns 50 but he's not feeling festive due a self-described "mid-life crisis"

Details: Rated: T |  Words: 1,681 | Chapters:1/1 | Tags: Birthday, Existential Crisis, Canon Compliant, Death, Talking About Death, Communication, No Smut, Implied Sexual Content

Clarity

Summary: 15x10 ‘The Heroes’ Journey’ Coda | Cas's trip to Heaven was very much needed, but not for the reasons he told Dean and Sam.

Details: Rated: T | Words: 2,841 | Chapters:1/1 | Tags: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Purgatory, Pining, Leviathans, Self-Reflection, Lies, Heaven, Dean Winchester Prays to Castiel, Prayer

Shibboleth

Summary: 15x11 ‘The Gamblers’ Coda | Having Jack back doesn't fix everything or make everything suddenly okay, but it can keep everyone moving forward until it is.

Details: Rated: T | Words: 1,536 | Chapters:1/1 | Tags: Anxiety, Pining, Having Faith, Trust Issues

Que Sera, Sera

Summary: A few months into his new human life, Cas comes down with a fever and cough. Usually, that wouldn't be a concern, but now there's a contagious, new illness spreading across the country, and the anxiety that comes along with it.

Details: Rated: G | Words: 4,359 | Chapters:1/1 | Tags: Part of ‘Lockdown Fest’ Sickfic, Sick Character, Sick Castiel (Supernatural), Covid-19 Related, Pandemics, Happy Ending, Human Castiel (Supernatural), Anxiety, self-quarantine

Someone, Somewhere

Summary: Pinefest 2020 | When Cas is plucked from his and Dean's comfy life in New York to serve his country, their relationship gets put to the test. Trying over the course of the year to keep their love strong through letter-writing, things hit a breaking point when Allied forces launch the largest seaborne invasion in history. The letters soon become a roadmap in rediscovering themselves and each other.

Details: Rated: E | Words: 64,251 | Chapters:9/9 | Tags: Mutual Pining, Alternate Universe - World War II, Love Letters, Unprotected Sex, Infidelity, Consensual Somnophilia, Public Sex, Memory Loss, Aphasia, Dirty Pictures, Dirty Talk, Internalized Homophobia, Hate Crimes, Disability, John Winchester Being an Asshole, Verbal Abuse, Physical Abuse, Slurs, Period-Typical Racism, Suicidal Thoughts, Anxiety, Depression, Emotional Manipulation, Drunk Sex, New York City, Night Terrors, deancaspinefest, Homophobia

Brighter

Summary: 15x14 ‘Last Holiday’ Coda | “We often confuse what we wish for with what is.” ― Neil Gaiman, MirrorMask

Details: Rated: T | Words: 3,831 | Chapters:1/1 | Tags: Birthday, John Winchester Being an Asshole, Canon Compliant, Pining, Kid Dean Winchester, Kid Sam Winchester

Aperture

Summary: 15x15 ‘Gimmie Shelter’ Coda | How the hell did Cas get a photo of himself in a damn cowboy hat?

Details: Rated: T | Words: 1,754 | Chapters:1/1 | Tags:  Major Character Death, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Character Death, but it's okay because he's alive again, Canon Compliant

Movement

Summary: 15x16 ‘Drag Me Away (From You)’ Coda | It's a familiar situation, a painful one, but Dean knows his place and knows his role, and knows better than to hope for anything different.

Details: Rated: T | Words: 687 | Chapters:1/1 | Tags: Internal Conflict, Angst and Feels, Self-Esteem Issues, Pining

Separate Ways

Summary: 15x17 ‘Unity’ Coda | Millions of missed chances; Millions of different choices; Millions of ways they came so, so close.

Details: Rated: T | Words: 2,663 | Chapters:1/1 | Tags: Major Character Death, Alternate Universe, Heaven & Hell, Apocalypse, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Missed Opportunities, Demon Dean Winchester but not the one from season 10

red

Summary: 15x18 ‘Despair’ Coda | "There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are the messengers of overwhelming grief, of deep contrition, and of unspeakable love." — Washington Irving

Details: Rated: T | Words: 1,043 | Chapters:1/1 | Tags: Major Character Death,  Grief/Mourning, POV Second Person, Pining

Victory

Summary: Dean/Cas Big Bang 2020 | Life has a certain way in Worthington. For Dean Winchester, the last of his family to remain in town, it includes trying to rile up the head of a rival, affluent, and powerful family: The Charlestons. Things were bleak until Dean accidentally stumbles across a captivating member of the Charlestons he had never met before. Castiel has returned home after a miserably failed attempt at becoming a priest post-college. He’s instantly thrown back in the strong grip of his family’s politics but meets a young man in town that shows Cas the door that would help him escape his harsh life.

They want each other, they want a happy ending, but will past histories and family demands threaten that dream, or can they push through the noise for the sake of love?

Details: Rated: E | Words: 81,786 | Chapters:21/21 | Tags: Inspired by Romeo and Juliet, Arranged Marriage, Gun Violence, First Time, First Kiss, Religion, Religious Content, Religious Guilt, Self-Esteem Issues, Self-Doubt, Self-Discovery, First Time Blow Jobs, Public Blow Jobs, Frottage, Anal Sex, Anal Fingering, Teasing, I Love You, John Winchester Being an Asshole, Physical Abuse, Emotional/Psychological Abuse, Dean/Cas Big Bang 2020 (Supernatural), Suicide Discussion, Unprotected Sex

After the War

Summary: “If there ever comes a day when we can’t be together, keep me in your heart, I’ll stay there forever.” A.A. Milne | “So it’s true, when all is said and done, grief is the price we pay for love.” — E.A. Bucchianeri

Details: Rated: T | Words: 1,304 | Chapters:1/1 | Tags: Major Character Death, Grief/Mourning, Nightmares, Emotional Hurt/Comfort

Married Christmas

Summary: Time has passed since the dust settled and everything had been put "right". Things once seen as impossible in Dean's eyes is now tangible to him. All it needs is a wedding band and the promise of a future full of love and happiness.

Details: Rated: T | Words:14,028 | Chapters:4/4 | Tags: Wedding Rings, Christmas, Christmas Fluff, Fluff, Marriage Proposal, Miscommunication, Idiots in Love, Sex(but not graphic), Canon Compliant, Headcanon1, 5x20 doesn't exist, Post-Finale, Human Castiel (Supernatural), Human Jack Kline

Welcome Home

Summary: Destiel Secret Santa Exchange 2020 | Dean and Cas take a special trip up to the mountains for their first Christmas together. Dean hopes they'll be many more to celebrate in the future together.

Details: Rated: T | Words: 3,717 | Chapters:1/1 | Tags: Alternate Universe - 1950s, Christmas Fluff, Christmas Presents, Dorks in Love

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Destiel Trope Collection 2018 Day 17 | Holiday Fic

Witchcraft and Whiskers | @nox-lee​ Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 6,401 Main Tags/Warnings: alternate universe, spell failure, cats, fluff, bed sharing, halloween Summary: Castiel brings home a disgruntled, abandoned cat the night before Halloween. He thinks nothing of it. He lets the animal inside and gives it something to eat and a warm place to sleep. Pretty typical, right? Well, that would be until Castiel wakes up to find his animal companion gone and a certain someone standing in his kitchen. Naked.

Baby Its Cold Outside | @nox-lee​ Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 2,043 Main Tags/Warnings: Impala POV, cold weather, huddling for warmth, fluff, christmas Summary: Baby is tired, cold, and dirty. All she wants is to be home in the bunker for the holidays where she can stay warm and clean. But her OTP are being idiots. In which Baby ships Destiel. Fed up with their unresolved sexual tension, she intervenes to encourage a Christmas miracle.

The Archaeologist and the Disco Ball | @saltnhalo​ Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 2,761 Main Tags/Warnings: Alternate Universe - High School, Halloween, Halloween Costumes, Fluff, Love Confessions Summary: When Dean had agreed to take Castiel shopping for a costume to wear to Meg’s Halloween party this Friday, he had not expected the actual expedition to be so… difficult.

New Traditions | @pherryt​ Rating: General Audiences Word Count: 27,683 Main Tags/Warnings: Hurt/Comfort, Bedsharing, First Kiss, Coming Out, Forced Coming out, Fluff and Angst, Mutual Pining, Disowning, Confessions, Christmas Summary: Cas’s Christmas season is fraught with ups and downs. He’s not going home to visit his family - which is great for avoiding drama - but now that means he’s going to be celebrating it alone - which isn’t so great just in general. And to top it off, none of his roommates seem to be in the holiday spirit. But he’s determined to enjoy the holiday, alone or not. Good thing he won’t be as alone as he thinks.

Express Yourself | @50shadesofsubtext Rating: Mature Word Count: 1,301 Main Tags/Warnings: Halloween, Drag Queens, Drag Kings, Dean in Panties, Public Hand Jobs Summary: Dean and the squad cross dress Halloween in full Disney drag and bar hop around town.

Mermen and Mistletoe | @robotsnchicks Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 6,490 Main Tags/Warnings: Office Co-workers AU, Awkward Flirting, Oblivious!Castiel, Lonely!Castiel, Christmas Fluff, Christmas Party Gift Exchange, First Kiss, Mistletoe, Mutual Pining Summary: When Castiel draws his long-term crush’s name for the office gift exchange, he is determined to find the perfect gift. Unfortunately his co-worker Meg has an unconventional suggestion.

This Christmas (Destiel Christmas One Shot) | @anchorsoutatsea Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 7,488 Main Tags/Warnings: Christmas, domestic fluff, canonverse Summary: Dean isn’t supposed to be able to have this, a happy ending. But he does…with Cas. It’s the first Christmas he, Cas, and Sammy have been able to spend together with the world not ending at their doorstep, and Sam and Cas are determined to make it the best Christmas they possibly can.

Just One Thing I Need | @blueascend Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 3,503 Main Tags/Warnings: Christmas, competition, fluff Summary: Dean and Castiel get competitive over Christmas gifts.

Better Not Pout | @blueascend​ Rating: Explicit Word Count: 907 Main Tags/Warnings: Christmas, PWP Summary: For a moment, everything is wet tight heat, and Cas’ hands grabbing at his hips hard enough to leave bruises, and then Dean makes the mistake of looking down. And promptly bursts out laughing.  Cas pulls away and gives him an irritated look.  “Sorry,” Dean manages to gasp. “I just- I can���t take you seriously with that thing.” Cas sighs and reaches for the Santa hat on his head. “Do you want me to take it off?”

Oh, Howly Night! | @thedogsled​ Rating: General Audiences  Word Count: 1,256 Main Tags/Warnings: Tooth rotting fluff, Christmas fic, Domestic!Dean, Sam gets a dog, Team Free Will 2.0, Proposal, Poetry Summary: It’s Christmas morning in the bunker on Jack’s first Christmas as part of the Winchester family. Castiel is here, of course, and gifts wait around the tree to be given out. And if one of those gifts, labeled “Sam”, gives a little wiggle, then no big deal, right? Illustrated by the author

The Promise in a Kiss | @destimushi​ Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 1,348 Main Tags/Warnings: Valentine’s Day, county fair, Post-Canon, Kiss cam, Marriage Proposal, Cas loves bees Summary: It’s Valentine’s Day and the annual County Fair is in town. Dean uses this chance to do something he’s been meaning to for a long time.

My Christmas Valentine | @ellen-of-oz Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 9,756 Main Tags/Warnings: Christmas Fluff, Christmas in the Bunker, Bunker Fluff, Romantic Fluff, Season 13, First Kiss Summary: Christmas isn’t usually a big deal for the Winchesters, but this year with Cas home and Jack excited for the holiday, the Christmas spirit is strong in the bunker. Cas is looking for a reason to stay and Dean is trying to give him one, if he can only find the courage to do so.

Waiting in the Wings | @flightoftheseraph​ Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 2,107 Main Tags/Warnings: Reverse!Verse, Angel!Dean, Hunter!Castiel, Mild Blood, Valentines Summary: Castiel an injured hunter stumbles into a town and meets an angel who may just have be having the same rotten luck he is.

Tradition (Tradition) | @alxdiamond​ Rating: Explicit Word Count: 2,843 Main Tags/Warnings: Human!AU, Holiday Traditions, Jewish!Castiel, Semi-Public Sex, Inappropriate use of a Christmas Tree Summary: “Look,” Aaron said more seriously, “it’s been how many years since high school? It’s about time you got together with your idiot and figured out a shared tradition that’s meaningful to both of you, instead of getting grumpy about it. Welcome to the modern reality of the blended family.” Dean has loved the town Christmas tree his whole life; Cas has resented it for almost as long. They work out a compromise.

Honest as Always | @surlybobbies Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 3,186 Main Tags/Warnings: Christmas, friends to lovers, fluff Summary: He turns off the engine. “Get it together, Winchester,” he mumbles to himself, a pitiful pep talk for facing the man he’s been in love with for two years. He takes a deep breath to steel himself, then grabs the plate of cookies from the passenger seat before getting out of the car. He walks up the steps to the porch just in time for Cas to open his front door. He’s wearing a thick dark blue sweater with a large googly-eyed reindeer sewn onto the front. He probably made it himself. “Dean,” Cas says, and there’s so much surprise and affection in his voice that Dean stumbles on the snow-covered ceramic frog near the top of the stairs.

Plotbunny | @mittensmorgul Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 21,550 Main Tags/Warnings: Case Fic, Canon Divergence, Fluff and Humor, Crack Treated Seriously, Sharing a Bed, John Winchester’s A+ Parenting, Implied/Referenced Homophobia, vaguely implied attempted rape, Easter Summary: Sam finds a case in a town that harbors long-repressed childhood trauma for both him and Dean. Once upon a time, it played host to Sam’s discovery that the Easter bunny was a fraud perpetuated by his brother. But while Sam was busy resenting Dean for how that truth came to light, he missed the bigger picture of what Dean had been up to for the month John had left them behind, and the boy he’d spent most of his time with. Now, with a potential supernatural killer on the loose, Dean has to dredge up a part of his past he’d thought he’d safely buried so deep it would never see the light of day. Cas helps.

A Lot to Learn About Living | @zetsubounikki Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 9,184 Main Tags/Warnings: God!Castiel, Christmas, Animal Sanctuary, AU - Hunters Summary: At the tail end of a hunt on Christmas Eve, Sam hatches a brilliant idea. Said idea takes Dean blissfully away from Homestead, Florida to the uninhabited island of Marquesas Key off the coast of Florida, all under the guise of finding a god. Only upon their arrival, they’re not met with a human face, but rather, the large muzzles of two Newfoundlands instead. Because Marquesas Key isn’t home to just any God. Marquesas Key is home to Castiel, the God of pets, and over the centuries, Castiel has inherited a problem–at any given point in the year, strangers leave their ailing animals on the island, believing that Castiel would take care of them in the afterlife. Dean and Sam are the first humans Castiel has unwillingly interacted with in decades, not counting the Christmas banquets in Key West centered around feeding the community. And the moment Dean sets foot on Castiel’s porch, Dean is utterly lost in this Jimmy Buffett reject that breathes new life into everything he touches. One thing he knows for sure, Dean will never forget this Christmas.

Garbage Cookies | @sternchencas Rating: General Audiences Word Count: 2,389 Main Tags/Warnings: fluff, Christmas Eve Summary: Both Dean and Castiel aren’t very fond of Christmas. They don’t even put up Christmas lights, incurring their neighbors disapproval. But when Castiel notices Dean’s sadness, he decides to bring a little light in the other man’s life.

match made in hell | @sternchencas Rating: General Audiences Word Count: 5,682 Main Tags/Warnings: Valentine’s Day, naked cupids, declaration of love Summary: Dean deliberately ignores Valentine’s day so Sam feels the need to find a date for him. With help from a very naked cupid. Or two.

Brother Duty | @profound-boning Rating: General Audiences Word Count: 1,059 Main Tags/Warnings: POV alternating, gross boyfriends, pure fluff, halloween Summary: “Dean Winchester, you are taking your little brother trick-or-treating tonight and that is final.”

Never Take an Ex-Angel Shopping | @firefly124 Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 2,635 Main Tags/Warnings: bunker!fic, christmas Summary: Dean knew it was a bad idea to take Cas shopping for Christmas decorations. Good thing he did it anyway.