#to all of my followers as well ily!!

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

Hi? Gosh how do I even start with this :'D

I know it's been ages since I've last popped up on here. I've been debating when to post this for a while, but I kept adding to my draft more and more and now it's the end of JULY omgg I felt so guilty disappearing with zero updates but then thought my birthday would be the best day to finally address this considering it'll feel less random? idk but Ive always celebrated my bday with you guys and I'd feel so bad answering your kind asks without me at least explaining why I was gone for months.

Truth be told, I was dealing with a lot of stuff irl. health issues and sudden declining grades that left me stumped and drained for months now- along with technical issues like having to replace some parts of my computer that took a while for me to find to even draw digitally, which I didn't have the time for anyway with how tired and weary I felt every day.

I'm frankly shaken up by a lot of shit rn and I don't know how to be active online with this burden on my chest- Especially as it's been a while since I've even looked at utmv related content and my motivation dwindled. I swear I'd hype myself up to post or reblog something- but I'd see just how much I've missed or the overwhelming amount of posts I'd need to go through and I'd feel so swamped with exhaustion and most importantly guilt, for not clearing the air up sooner to reassure you guys that I'm, y'know, alive, and not dead in a ditch somewhere. And I'd procrastinate cause typing it all out is hard and I'd give up halfway every time and it's just not fair to you all!

I thought I was handling it well when I started going out and socializing more, instead of staying cooped up at home on my computer all day. and in the first draft of this post I made months ago I was gonna detail some of the fun plans I had, for my life and for this blog :D but relaxing my strict study schedule and letting go a bit of my tight routine, thinking it was better than wringing myself dry to keep it up, backfired horribly, to say the least.

I know right?? so silly to be hung up on stupid shit like studies of all things! but this is a very important thing for me considering my career plans and the competitivity encouraged by everyone I'm surrounded by, the pressure of keeping up adding to my already stressful days. I had to fix myself up first and I couldn't handle the strain nor interact with people and thinking of jobs and exams sapped my energy so much it's frankly embarrassing. writing this feels so cheesy too and it frustrates me to know I could've come back a month earlier if it weren't for that, but I also know putting all of this into words then would just sound like incoherent venting (not that this is very different tbf) and I wasn't in the right headspace to address my absence, or anything really- I didn't want everyone to see me return when I couldn't muster up a genuinely positive message, let alone talk to anyone with a shadow of my usual cheer

I feel like a complete mess and It drives me up the wall how depressed I've gotten. I debated deleting this blog so many times 'cause the fear of disappointing my audience and my friends, for lack of a more fitting sentiment, made me feel even shittier. I'm constantly thinking if this wall of text is worth posting, or if it's better not to burden you all with all my sappy troubles as if it's the end of the world. Trust me, I'll be fine. I'm not trying to dramatize this situation, but I don't think I'm up to pretending I'm all sunshine and enthusiasm you're all accustomed to.

So sorry for worrying you all! I'll try to catch up, deliver some missed birthday gifts, and answer some asks while I'm at it! Again, I can't state how much I appreciate your support throughout the years. It's frankly a miracle I kept any of you around with how much I keep popping and leaving at random with no warning. I definitely can't promise for my stay to be without a hitch, and if you don't mind an inconsistent schedule you're free to stay of course, but I'm afraid I can't sustain the pace I had when I first started this blog. I'll keep posting art, but lower my activity in the fandom sphere to reduce the strain on my mental health. so fewer rants and walls of text, more art, and less stress overall. Love you all and thanks for waiting for this long <3

[perhaps-mr-collins-has-a-cousin]

Hello praying people, I'm not doing well and would really appreciate your prayers right now <3

[sehtoast]

me: MY HAIRLINE IS RECEDING OH NO OH FUCK

also me: full time student (worth noting i wrote stupid here at first without realizing), 20-30 hours in customer service every week, teaching myself 3/4 classes, teaching myself advanced algebra with a teacher (basically just a proctor) who shuts down any/all asks for help, juggling college financial woes, navigating dying relationships/people abandoning and/or attacking me bc i don't have time for things i used to anymore, none of my hobbies are making me happy when and if i have time for them,, i have no time for myself, i'm on my second all-nighter this week, i'm perpetually exhausted in a way sleep isn't fixing, my body aches because i'm so tired, and i'm barely able to stay asleep when i do get the chance bc the anxiety wakes me up

my hairline: two hops this time!

[bed-of-ashes]

I love small fandoms because yeah if you read my fics we're friends now. if I recognize your url or ao3 handle on sight then we're neighbors and I respect you

[lamortwrites]

ais i have thought i was following you this

entire fucking time i dont know why i

wasn't

i was like WOW YOURE QUIET

fixing this

I could NEVER be quiet I am simply too annoying <3

[thedo0zyslider]

a warning in advance: the next few chapters of the arranged marriage fic (chapters 4-7, with 6 and 7 being the worst) will contain heavy themes of transphobia, please take caution when reading them, and feel free to skip past it of you have too. i will include a symbol at the start and end of the worst scenes to make that easier + the usual warnings at the start of the chapters

stay safe my lovelies <3

[yoohyeon]

I miss you all and I wanna come back, but the minute I’m back here I sigh and close the app I just can’t 😭 but I hope you all know :

[stonerzelda]

im so in love with cotl charactersss man like they really gave us nothing (not their fault tho i rly dont think they thought it would take off much, it was just a small game) but omfgg i love it so much <3 im super happy w the dlc bc it gave me shit that i DREAMEDD abt but im slefish and i want. More,,...give me more Bishops lore...more Bishops interaction...mmORE

[aroace-poly-show]

MARLO I LOVE YOU FRIEND 🫂🫂🫂💛💛💛💛💛💥💥💥 You are genuinely so sweet and kind and I’m always excited to interact with you. Thank you for always being so nice to Momo as well you’re a real one I owe you a ton 🫂

(this is hilow fhstsyufudus)

WAUGHHHHH IM GONNA CRY YOU’RE SO SO NICE AND SWEET I LOVE YOU TOOOOOOO RUAGHHH 💥💥💥

[heymacy]

hiii love seeing mickey with more friends on tumblr i was wondering how many followers has he got now? ^_^

hello my love! goodness so do i! it’s what he deserves after so many years of loneliness and isolation 🥺

i’d say he’s got a couple hundred followers by now — his proximity & frequent interactions with ian and cassie (who both have blogs that are 7+ years old and the followers to match, especially ian) have put him in people’s sights. he’s not just an anonymous lurker anymore! he’s mickey! he’s real! and he has great taste and a snarky attitude that fits well into the tumblrsphere, so naturally people will be drawn towards him & his account!

[twodragonsinatrenchcoat]

terrified for how large the number on that post may be by tomorrow please don't give me any more notes. go give my friends' art more notes please and thank you <3

[phayz]

so sorry about the stupid ask you just got. but it DID make me want to go check out your art and oghh i love ur style !!!! id love to commission you whenever i get the money for it !! wishing u good luck on getting some commissions sold ❤️❤️❤️

thank u sooooo much ur so so sweet im glad you like it 💕💕💕 commissions r open for the foreseeable future so no rush!! I'll be happy to make u anything u want 😊😊

[pocketweiss]

having a rough day. Someone pls send me cute art of weiss/monochrome or give me your soft headcanons about her/them. You will receive my unending love and affection

[petrifiedchild]

@gayfishermanfive @mementio-mori @lils-does-stuff @nessyexistsagain how i feel ab every single one of you 🥰

Cats and their rodent admirers. Simplicissimus. July 18, 1896. Cover art.

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[asimplearchivist]

hrrhhhrrmrm...velmgarb...*indistinguishable gnawing noises*

[sugurouge]

drop this sunflower🌻into the inboxes of the blogs that make you happy! lets spread a little sunshine ☀️ (smooches for you Tea you literally make my day everytime I see you 💖)

SMOOCHES AND SUNFLOWERS BACK TO YOU SAM MY BELOVED <3