#tk has bpd

[padfoot0216]

Okay but hear me out (I say this as if I’m about to say something completely normal, but I’m not. None of this is normal) TK and Carlos would both use Tik Tok. They would make POV videos except they are just real things that have happened to them. No one can tell if they are joking.

TK and Carlos’s Tik Tok adventures

- Carlos would start it. Something like “POV Your boyfriend almost set your kitchen on fire (he used to be a firefighter)” And it would show TK in the back trying to put out a very on fire pan.

- TK would retaliate by creating his own Tik Tok. “POV Your boyfriend fell down the stairs, and now you have to provide first aid” Showing Carlos sitting with and ice pack in his head and TK holding a first aid kid.

- They just become more unhinged after that. Everyone in the 126 follows them and so does the 118.

- POV Your boyfriend is in a coma after getting shot by a 10 year old ( TK in a hospital bed)

- POV your boyfriend is apparently just “your colleague” seriously TK

- POV your boyfriend brought a flesh eating lizard into your house and now your scared for your life (He says he wasn’t flesh eating but they found him inside a wound. So excuse me if I don’t believe him)

- The 126 each have their favorite videos

- Owen enjoys watching what his son gets up to but is also kind of concerned for his well being after seeing some of the videos

- POV your a former drug addict and your boyfriend brings drugs into the apartment (a bottle of Tylenol sits on the counter”. This is one one of the videos that concerns Owen.

- POV your boyfriend is crying because the lights were to loud (he swears he’s neurotypical)” Owen is once again concerned about his son

- Marjan enjoys the chaos of the videos.

- POV your dad and your boyfriends dad teamed up to stop an arsonist. They did catch him but now you don’t have a house (so many hoodie are gone) *pile of rubble in the background*

- POV your boyfriend won’t stop crying about his hoodies so now your spending your life savings at 3am to buy new ones

- Mateo is mostly confused and the more he watches the more confused he is

- POV your the bpd (note: try and tell me TK doesn’t have borderline personality disorder) boyfriend and your having a breakdown in the kitchen

- POV All you want to do is sleep but your boyfriend keeps talking about a couch

- Judd is genuinely concerned about both of their well beings

- POV your boyfriend just got kidnapped by a homocidal maniac but refuses to get therapy *carlos is crying in the background

- POV your boyfriend just went into a three day coma and now refuses to go to sleep (yes tk sleep is needed for human survival)

- Paul is entertained by it all

- POV your boyfriend is out with Cooper, whats so great about Cooper, I’m a cop Cooper

- POV A fight breaks out between the police and firefighters softball teams and your boyfriend won’t let you fight and steps in to fight for you (he tells them he’s a cop, it doesn’t work because they are also cops and have desks right next to them. He was invited to one of there childrens graduations. He apologizes to Brian his name was Grant)

- Nancy kind of wishes she never started following them

- POV you wake your boyfriend up at 2 am to tell him you want to write your will (he asks if the lizard is back, not sure why that’s the first thing that came to mind but ok)

- POV you were held captive by a lady who apparently loves the gays (she may want me dead but at least she’s not homophobic)

- Tommy just wants an explanation to it all

- POV Your boyfriend just became a paramedic and was kidnapped by a group of criminals (his dumbass tried to play hero and got knocked out)

- POV your boyfriend blames himself for the death of a criminal (it wasn’t his fault) and is now spending all of his time trying to solve the case (Grace is enabling him.) (I have the first aid kid on stand by)

- The 118 had there own questions and concerns, but the main one being how they know so much about their lives they just met them.

- POV Your boyfriend won’t stop talking about buddie and the couch theory. (Send help)

- POV Your boyfriend is crying because you wouldn’t stop talking about how we aren’t the main show (it’s because we’re in Texas)

Welp that’s it. I’m normal. I swear

[softly-sage]

perhaps i maybe might be projecting, but i 1000000% headcanon/believe that tk has bpd and nobody can change my mind

[hardcoffeegardener]

TMF JAKE HEADCANONS Bi+Trans ftm He/him Normal hc: Favorite game is 100% something like Mario Kart. Any disorders?: Yes! He’s autistic and has BPD and ADHD TICKLE HEADCANONS UNDER THE CUT

Bad at resisting! Horribly tklish, will just- absolutely wheeze. Definitely somewhere like his ribs is the worst. Doesn’t usually start tk fights for his own good.

[rosesandthorns44]

Okay. Catching up on 911 Lone Star and crying.

TK saying "and maybe my life has been scarred with loss. And at times it's felt inescapable" and then talking about how with Carlos the love he feels is finally more powerful than the fear of losing it...

That hits different...

I'm so afraid of losing anyone ever again that I don't let anyone get close. I don't let anyone near the wounded pieces at my core that still hurt no matter how many years pass. As soon as someone tries to get close I run.

I have my three best friends, and even with them I struggle to tell them everything. I don't want them to see the ugly bits.

[cosmic-eye]

suggested by @perish-lolz

Name: Impulse

Disposition: Aggressive

Appearance: Short stature, small body, & large head / Wood-like skin / Large, sharp teeth

Interactions: Can not be grabbed with TK / Has a variety of attacks including; projectiles, fire, & biting / May self-destruct as a last resort

Other: FAST / High numbers are common in minds with conditions like ADHD, BPD, & OCD

[lonestarbabe]

Is TK suffering from borderline?

I've touched on this a little bit before, but since you asked, I'll give a little more of my thoughts on the matter.

But before I get into it, here's my overall takes on the matter. The rest will be under the cut.

TK has symptoms that align with borderline personality disorder, so the case could be made that he has it, but those symptoms can also be aligned with a lot of other mental health issues.

While I think it could be a good storyline if done right (because showing people with mental illnesses without making them villains or flat characters is something we always need more of), I don't trust the show to do it right and I don't think the show would ever explicitly label him as having BPD.

Regardless, the idea intrigues me, and a lot of canon events reflect this diagnosis. As I don't have psychological training, I'm not an expert on this by any means, so take what I say with a grain of salt. I’ll try to add links to resources to add some insight.

Excuse this long and winding rant and the lack of proofreading.

Throughout the first two seasons of 911: Lone Star, viewers watch TK struggle with mostly undefined mental health issues. Substance abuse issues are defined in canon, but potential depression and other mental health issues are left vague. However, the source content suggests that there is more going on with TK than is mentioned on screen or will ever be mentioned on screen, and Borderline Personality Disorder seems to match TK’s behaviors and thought processes. This essay is just one lens to view TK’s character, and there are many others that are equally interesting and valid. Of course, BPD symptoms can reflect symptoms of other conditions such as depression, PTSD, anxiety, or ADHD, and BPD is often comorbid with other conditions. Even so, it’s hard to deny the behavior patterns that TK tends to have and how they connect to BPD. Based on on TK’s emotional behaviors, mental health issues, and thought patterns, it can be argued that he shows at least the symptoms of BPD.

According to NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness, Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) “is a condition characterized by difficulties regulating emotions.” Being a personality disorder, a person with BPD has an inflexible pattern of thought and corresponding behaviors. The hallmarks of BPD include tumultuous relationships, intense emotions, trouble with self-regulation, impulsivity, and self-image and identity issues. Unfortunately, seventy percent of people with BPD will attempt suicide in their lives due to the intensity of their feels and feelings of emptiness that can often occur in those with this condition.

BPD is not an uncommon condition, but it is often misunderstood or stigmatized. Salters-Pedneault from verywellmind highlights that studies suggest that 1.6% of the population has BPD. Furthermore, although  75% of people who are diagnosed with this condition are women, some researchers believe that this discrepancy is due to misdiagnosis, and men with BPD may be diagnosed with conditions like PTSD or depression. Interestingly, diagnosis tends to be higher among those who are lesbian, gay, or bisexual due to diagnostic models that may not always give the proper results. Thus, even among professionals, diagnosis can be tricky and finding the true prevalence is a challenge.

In additional to diagnosis challenges, there is stigma among the public and the mental health treatment community. Research suggests that BPD is the condition that mental health professionals most often stigmatize. Some professionals won’t treat those with BPD and those who do, may not truly understand the nature of BPD. This stigma, unfortunately, reiterates the worries of abandonment and rejection that BPD sufferers face and cause them to think they cannot get help when BPD is actually highly treatable using techniques like DBT. Though, because it can greatly impact functionality, it is highly studied. Thus, for those wanting to learn more about it, there are resources available.

While the causes of BPD are not entirely known, TK’s childhood meets many of the environmental factors that are common in those with BPD. BPD is often associated to children not receiving the emotional validation they need. A review by Kulacaoglu and Kose discusses how BPD results in genetic, psychological, and neurobiological factors. Due to the increased prevalence in monozygotic twins, research suggests that people are predisposed to BPD and often develop it when they are in a non-supportive environment. An environment can be non-supportive in a wide range of ways, and Kulacaoglu and Kose suggest that childhood trauma is the most prevalent cause. The Optimum Performance Institute, which specializes in BPD treatment for young adults,  cites PTSD, childhood abandonment, and unstable family relationships as some of the top environmental influencers for BPD. 9/11 and the resulting trauma, including his parents likely unstable and clearly dysfunctional relationship, could all be factors in the development of BPD. Additionally, in the season 1 finale, TK expresses that Owen left when TK was seven, and that’s a clear sense of abandonment, regardless of Owen’s intentions or reasonings.

T.K. also clearly fits many of the traits outlined by the DSM, which is used in the U.S. (and beyond) to diagnosis BPD. According to the DSM-V, One of the traits of those with BPD is “frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment,” relating to TK’s persistent worries about being abandoned or rejected. During 9/11, TK likely had very real fears that his father would die, which to a child often feels like abandonment, and then, despite Owen still being alive, he became more distant, which would have validated TK’s fears rather than easing them. Owen’s trauma kept him away from TK, and TK began to associate Owen’s firefighters as his real family, which likely influenced TK’s decision to be a firefighter because he was desperately trying to make himself part of Owen’s life. TK continues to act in ways to please Owen because he doesn’t want to lose the relationship he has with Owen.

There are a ton of concrete moments where we see TK acting in a way that’s clearly informed by his worry that someone will abandon or reject him. TK often pushes other people away before they can reject him or leave him. In S01E03, TK literally pushes Judd away from him in response to Judd’s angry reaction to TK’s reckless behavior in the silo: trauma meet trauma. Judd’s anger comes from a place of concern, but TK cannot see that because he can’t see past the worry of being unliked or judged. Or, even worse, Judd suggests that TK gets preferential treatment from his father. While TK certainly does get special treatment from his father, the implication is aggravating to TK because TK feels like Owen has always given preferential treatment to his firefighters, and Owen choosing the firehouse over his family is one of TK’s triggers.

Then, in S01E02, we see the disastrous almost-date between TK and Carlos. TK was devastated by his breakup with Alex and his relapse. He didn’t want anything serious with Carlos, not because he didn’t want deep connection but because he was afraid of the pain that of someone deciding he wasn’t worth it. When Carlos tried to make TK dinner, TK became uncomfortable, and when Carlos pulls out alcoholic beverages, that speaks even more poignantly to TK’s insecurities. His addiction likely fuels his fears of not being enough, which relate to his fears of abandonment. What this means is that it’s not uncommon for people with mental illnesses to think that they are broken or lesser because of those issues, and TK’s addiction is hard for him to open up about, especially at first.

TK’s relationship with Alex alone points to him going to extreme efforts to avoid abandonment. Owen hints that the relationship wasn’t at a place that was ready for marriage when TK suggests that he is going to propose in S01E01. Then, it turns out that Owen is cheating at TK, and the proposal doesn’t lead to a new chapter in TK’s relationship, but it is the end. Other people clearly suspected their were issues in the relationship, and it’s likely that TK proposed because he sensed the relationship slipping, and so he used a “grand gesture” to avoid losing Alex. Then, when TK knows the truth, it results in a relapse and him nearly dying, which could relate more the his fears of abandonment than the breakup itself.

Another DSM criterion is “a pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized between extremes of idealization and devaluation.” This is a defensive mechanism to shield the BPD sufferer from hurt, but it can cause unstable relationships and relates to all or nothing thinking. There are no explicit moments of TK “splitting,” the term for when people with BPD change from idealization to devaluation or vice versa—going from admiration and love to anger and dislike. Yet, there are certainly moments when TK’s feelings about people are clearly driven by his fears. Idealization allows a person to feel less anxious because it “allows them to keep the fantasy of perfection intact.” Again, this is something that fits well with the Alex storyline. In S01E05, TK even calls Alex his soulmate, despite the fact that several indicators (not living together, Owen’s skepticism, etc.) suggest that they may not have been as serious or close as TK suggested. Even after everything that happened, TK still thought Alex was his soulmate.

When someone feels threatened, they may switch from seeing someone as all good to deeming the other person as bad because it’s easier to deal with someone’s rejection when that person is flawed without any good attributes. Throughout the series, when TK gets upset with someone, he often gets disproportionately upset, and he feels as though he is the problem without being able to see the pain of others. For example, after he has a fight with Judd, he reduces Judd to just his flaws. Similarly, to a lesser degree, after Nancy criticizes the changes TK has made to the ambulance, TK goes on a rant on how Nancy is wrong without being able to stop and think that Nancy’s reaction is more related to her grief than to do with TK’s core character. The same is true of Judd; Judd got upset because he already lost his crew, and he didn’t want to lose his new crew. In S02E04, TK doesn’t even like Carlos explain himself before his rage (and of course the underlying fears that cause rage) takes over. While before the incident with Carlos’ parents, TK was blissfully in love and admiring Carlos, after that moment, he says hurtful things to hurt Carlos,

On the same note, people with BPD often have a “favorite person,” and Owen could represent TK’s favorite person, at least in the beginning of the show. The favorite person does not always relate to the person the BPD sufferer loves most. Rather, it more closely relates to the most important person in someone’s life and the one who validates them. As Arzt and Troy of Choosing Therapy suggest, “The individual with BPD wants their favorite person’s attention as much as possible, and the quality of the relationship can undoubtedly shape their mood, confidence, and sense of security.” TK often puts Owen in the place of a hero.

TK idolizes Owen more than anyone else, and viewers often see him looking to Owen for a sense of direction. For example, in the season 1 finale, TK questions his role as a firefighter, which he later questions in season 2, and he goes to Owen for help. He expresses his feelings of abandonment, which is one of the core fears he has, and Owen responds by telling TK how many firefighters died on 9/11 and justifying his absence, and the conversation feels familiar, like Owen has shared that statistic every time this conversation has come up. The important part of this moment is that when Owen starts talking about 9/11, TK becomes quieter and more fidgety. He shuts down that line of thought, and he defers to Owen. It felt very much like a defense mechanism because TK knew that to keep his father’s affection, he had to repress his feelings and concerns.

Of course, TK’s silence cannot last forever, and we see him pulling away from Owen is season 2 and starting to acknowledge his dad’s flaws. In S02E04, after blowing up at Carlos, he sees his parents inability to communicate well with one another, and through the realization as their flaws, he can then go back to Carlos and be more understanding. Through personal growth, he’s been able to think less in extremes and moderate some of his fear-fueled thoughts. And after Owen makes that comment about being a father again, TK eventually decides to become a paramedic (a career change that the season 1 finale hinted at when he saved the woman from the bus with his medical skills). He’s in a much happier headspace in season 2, and part of that is because of his healthier relationships and also because he starts to detach himself from Owen and some of his idealization.

TK’s mood varies greatly in the show, which reflects his potential, “affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood.” TK can go from one intense emotion to another. People with BPD are often incredibly sensitive, and they feel like they are exposed nerves. Shari Y. Manning describes in her book, Loving Someone with Borderline Personality Disorder how “People with BPD have an exquisite vulnerability to emotions.” In many of the scenes and storylines listed, viewers see TK’s emotions shifting unexpectedly. People with BPD often react more extremely than average people would, both in their emotions and responses.

TK is prone to outbursts of anger and emotional intensity. When he’s been set off, he struggles to return to his baseline. As we see in S01E03, when TK is on a date with Carlos, he cannot stop talking about his grudge with Judd, even though TK already blew off his steam getting into his bar fight, got detained by the police, and had additional time between those moments. Most people would have cooled down, but TK still seems rageful. Judd seems stubborn as he expresses his concerns to Grace, but even he doesn’t still have the heat that TK does. Overall, TK’s emotions are more volatile and prone to fast changes than those of other characters. Sometimes, he’s nervously fidgeting. Sometimes, he’s angry and loudly picking fights. Sometimes, he’s depressed and quiet. He has a range of emotions that can shift without much notice.

An “inappropriate, intense anger or difficulty controlling anger” is one of the symptoms that is most explicit in TK’s behavior. Clearly, this relates substantially to his emotional intensity and moodiness. Anger is certainly one of his default emotions, and when he’s hurt, it’s the part of him that comes out. The anger he has in S01E03 established his angry response several times in one episode. He gets into a shoving match with Judd and then starts another fight, but there are other examples of his anger. For instance, in S02E11, when Owen is arrested for being an arsonist due to a plan by him and Carlos’ dad, TK gest physical with Carlos and physically and verbally pushes him away. This physical response is not the marker of a healthy relationship or response to emotions. Of course, it’s important to note that it’s not right to assume that people with BPD will be violent or dangerous, but physical altercations can be a result of BPD, and they are in TK’s case.

People with BPD also experience an “identity disturbance: markedly and persistently unstable self-image or sense of self,” which TK no doubt experiences. For example, in the season 1 finale, he not only doesn’t know if he wants to still be a firefighter, but he doesn’t know if he wants to be in a relationship with Carlos. After nearly dying from a gunshot wound in S01E08, he struggles to figure out his place on the world, and this is basically the conversation he has with Zoe later, who is his dad’s vaguely girlfriend. He looked for an outside source, just trying to figure out what to do because a lot of his other relationships were complicated at that moment (his dad, Carlos). Of course, all this would be fairly normal with a near-death experience, but TK’s indecision and uncertainty seem to have deeper roots. When he wakes up from his coma, in many ways, he is waking up from a dissociative state, where he was going through the motions and trying to deal with the lingering pain. He was emerging from the gray of his life into the color, showing how his inability to know himself and what he wants leads to him feel deprived and even possible dissociative.

While there are no strong ties to TK having “transient, stress-related paranoid ideation or severe dissociative symptoms,” it can be argued that he has dissociative symptoms on at least some level. For example, the police station scene in S01E03 explains a lot about TK’s mental state. He expresses feeling numb, and that numbness can cause a person to feel disconnected to themselves, and often, TK doesn’t even know who he is or what he wants.

Throughout the first season especially but also into season 2, TK is lost because what he knew himself as— son to an infallible hero, boyfriend to Alex, firefighter, New Yorker— was all called into question. The first episode marks a transition. Even Owen’s cancer shakes the view that TK has of Owen as being a hero who always wins, rather than as a real human who is bound to die. That realization must shake his world because the cancer makes TK confront some of his fears, just as Buttercup represents TK’s fears of abandonment (due to death in this instance), and TK refuses to love Buttercup because he is afraid of loss, which correlates to how emotionally shut down he is in season 1 despite wanting to feel closer to others to fill his core needs. Thus, while dissociative symptoms are never mentioned, TK does experience detachment as a coping mechanism because if he can distance himself from everyone and everything that might give him joy, he can never feel pain.

TK also experiences, “recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures, or threats, or self-mutilating behaviors.” For example, the fight he gets into at the bar in S01E03 could count as self-harm because the set-up of the fight makes it pretty clear that a fight was exactly what TK intended when he walked into the bar, and really, going to a bar at all was self-destructive because no matter what behavior TK chose to do (fighting, drinking, or even in certain instance trying to find a guy to have sex with) could count as not just reckless but destructive. He was in no state of mind do act in a healthy way. He was intentionally trying to hurt, trying to feel something. Accordingly, the self-harming behaviors seem fitting.

Beyond the self-harm, we have potential suicidal thoughts and actions. When Owen asks TK in the pilot if he was trying to kill himself after his overdose, there was a beat too long between the answer, and TK’s expression shifted noticeably. This moment could suggest that despite TK’s answer of “No,” that he may have had some suicidal intentions, even if they were just, “I’ll take these pills and leave it to fate if I live or die.” Furthermore, because Owen thought to ask, there may have been signs that indicated intentional overdose, or TK may have had a history that supported that conclusion. We also know that Ronen Rubenstein played TK as suicidal as he mentioned in his Pop Cultarish interview, which suggests that was his intention for the scene and possibly the director’s/writer’s intentions. In any case, TK’s behaviors are concerning and do point to at least thoughts of suicide.

TK also tends to, “impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging.” The clearest area of TK’s impulsivity is his addiction, but he is also impulsive in other ways. For example, when he picks the fight with Judd after the grain silo and then goes to a bar to pick another fight in S01E03, which is an episode that highlights a lot of TK’s mental illness. Often, when TK is impulsive, he does so in a way that could get him hurt, and sometimes, he does to promote hurt.

The impulsive behavior associated most with TK is his substance use. Addiction and substance abuse are often comorbid with BPD, which research has long shown. This updated 2018 review by Trull et al. uses over 100 studies on the association between substance use disorders and BPD. Across the studies reviewed, the researchers determined that 57.4% of people with BPD had substance use disorders as well. Furthermore, the American Addiction Centers suggests that, in one survey,  among people who requested buprenorphine to treat opioid addiction, 40% also had BPD. Furthermore, 50% of BPD patients experienced prescription drug abuse. While substance abuse can certainly occur without BPD, in conjunction with other BPD symptoms, it is telling.

The show implicitly links TK’s addiction, self-harming, and reckless behaviors with the anger and emptiness he feels. People with BPD commonly experience feelings of “chronic emptiness.” In S01E03, after TK’s bar fight, he confesses to Carlos that he wanted to feel something, and ever since he arrived in Texas, he felt gray and numb. While these symptoms can relate to depression, they can also relate to the emptiness characteristic of BPD, as a result of other common BPD issues, such as a lack of a sense of an identity, feelings of unworthiness, loss of direction, feeling misunderstood, or wanting but failing to have meaningful relationships. TK wants to feel, but he also has defensive mechanisms that numb him from his feelings because his feelings are often so intense.  

TK acts outwardly in fights, and when he’s fighting, he puts on a tough act, not showing anyone the intense feelings happening within, but there’s a lot more going on inside of him. He also directs that anger inward and does things he know will hurt himself. After his fight with Judd, he’s emotionally spiraling, and the viewers see this as he goes to a bar fittingly named The Trap. While he may be tempted to drink alcohol, he doesn’t give into that urge and chooses mineral water; instead, he picks a fight with two guys, acting smug and unbreakable. Moments later, he is sat in front of Carlos, any semblance of the arrogance and confidence he has in his fights is gone.  

While the symptoms could be interpreted in other ways that don’t reflect BPD, many of the symptoms fit TK too well to be a coincidence, while the others can be applied with certain interpretive lenses. Thus, it’s clear to me that TK has BPD symptoms, which doesn’t mean that he has BPD, but many of his thought patterns do have an uncanny likeness to those with BPD, and ultimately, BPD shows itself in a myriad of ways. Some experts have grouped the condition into four groups to more clearly define the way the condition can present itself. The point is that BPD, like any other condition, doesn’t have a one size fit all explanation or set of symptoms. Whether TK has BPD or not, his thoughts and behaviors are frequently a result of his mental illness, and he shows the reality for many people with various types of mental illness.

[jackpotsadmon]

etke’s digimon disorder zone

ok i’m so sorry to any of my followers or mutuals who don’t know what the fuck i’m talking about but i’m thinking about Problems and Disorders in digimon so i’m spilling my thoughts here

just gonna make like a list of characters and go from there. there is not a single neurotypical or person without mental illness in this anime

this will probably be edited or added to at points im rlly tired rn

please like. be nice if you have a different idea or think i’m misinterpreting smthn please tell me but don’t be aggressive about it or i won’t be able to respond in a mature and Normal way

taichi: ptsd, adhd, autism

yamato: depression

sora: autism

izzy/koushiro: autism

jou/joe: generalized anxiety disorder, ocd

mimi: autism

tk/takeru: ptsd, ocd

hikari/kari: depersonalization disorder, ptsd, depression

daisuke: autism, adhd, maybe bpd

ken: ptsd, dissociative amnesia, depression

miyako: autism

iori: idk yet but he has Problems gd

i will add characters from either seasons but i’m gonna leave it at this 4 now bc i’m sleepy

again these r just my thoughts my word isn’t like law it’s 12am

[underpassgraffiti]

listen. tk has bpd. i don't make the rules. him and carlos going through this makes me feral because i've been there with the love of my life, who i'm going to marry, and i have severe bpd.

tk is very fucking flawed, and the fact that he hasn't actually processed any of his trauma in two seasons and yet was in a committed relationship with someone who genuinely loves him? it's huge. it's too much. they both need to work through shit. this is where they can.

tk is a recovering substance user, and the two of them built their relationship on sex first. tk has little emotional regulation. they love each other so fucking much but tk still has to take accountability for his mental health! carlos cannot be his crutch!

also this is a drama show written by timothy

[littleoddwriter]

RonaldRX Fic Masterlist (Characters by A-Z; Fics by Date)

9-1-1 & 9-1-1: Lone Star:

Feeling at Home (TK Strand x Male!Reader)

Anakin Skywalker:

Shut Up (Male!Reader) | Smut

Asa Emory/The Collector:

No One Can Hurt You When You’re With Me (GN!Reader)

Soulmates (GN!Reader)

Billy Butcher:

Real Man (TRANSMale!Reader)

Blackheart (Ghost Rider ‘07):

Entranced (GN!Reader)

First Time | N/SFW Headcanons (GN!Reader)

Chop Top Sawyer:

DIY Clothing Headcanons (GN!Reader)

Curt Wild:

Morning (GN!Reader)

Late Night Conversation (GN!Reader)

Restrained (GN!Reader) | Smut

Dan Torrance:

Help (GN!Reader)

Panic (GN!Reader) 

Spoiling You (GN!Reader)

Deserving Better (GN!Reader)

Damaged (GN!Reader)

Finally (GN!Reader)

Cosy (Male!Reader)

Focus (Male!Reader)

Jealous (Male!Reader)

Christmas Decoration (GN!Reader)

Making Love (Male!Reader) | Smut

Jesse Cromeans/Chromeskull:

Mistake (GN!Reader)

Too Far (GN!Reader)

Leo Campo:

Stupido (Male!Reader)

Mark Renton:

It’s Okay To Not Be Okay (GN!Reader)

Maxwell Lord:

Don't You Wish For More? (Male!Reader)

Happy New Year (GN!Reader)

Out of Mind (DomTopMale!Reader) | Smut

Upset (GN!Reader)

In Love (Male!Reader)

McKirk:

Darlin', I've Got Your Back

Nubbins Sawyer:

Dating Headcanons (GN!Reader)

Oberyn Martell:

Perfect (GenderNeutral!Reader)

Belonging (Male!Reader)

Obi-Wan Kenobi:

Too Much (Male!Reader)

Breathe (GN!Reader)

Rafael Barba:

Coming Out (TransMasc!Reader)

Only Your Happiness Matters (TransMale!ChildReader)

Headcanons w/ TransMale!Reader | Smut

Partners (Male!Reader)

Should Have Said Something (Male!Reader)

Roman Sionis (Male!Reader only):

Comfort 

Mine

Reassurance (TRANSMale!Reader)

Welcome Home

 Asking for Help

Good Boy (x Victor Zsasz x Reader) | Smut

Tired

Nuisance

F#ck You, Don’t Leave Me

Patience

Touch (TRANSMale!Reader)

Annoying

Hurt (ComicBook!Roman - Red Hood and the Outlaws)

Wounded

Cocky

Bored | Smut

Naughty | Smut

Don’t You Die on Me

Attention (x Victor Zsasz x Reader)

Shower Sex | Smut

Trust

You're Alright

Desperate | Smut

While You're Asleep | Smut

You're Alright (Part 2)

Take My Breath Away | Smut

Scared of Losing You

You're Alright (Part 3)

Lucky (x Victor Zsasz x Reader) | Smut

Hope

I’ve Got You

Match (x Victor Zsasz x Reader)

Soothing

Replaceable

Life's Good

Heavy Heart

Fight or Flight

SickRent:

Pretty | Smut

Slashers Headcanons:

Kisses with GN!Reader x Sawyer Brothers

GN!GrimReaper!Reader

Kisses with GN!Reader

GN!Reader, who has Dermatitis/Eczema

GN!Reader, who likes tight-fitting, short clothes (Poly!Asa and Jesse)

GN!Reader, who has BPD

GN!Reader, who sings (Bubba and Vincent only)

Autistic!GN!Reader

Trans!Male!Reader

Male!Reader, who is a librarian (Asa and Bo only)

GN!Reader, who has a lot of piercings and tattoos

GN!Reader, who owns a Pet Bunny (Sinclair Brothers only)

GN!Reader, who is a Cheshire Cat

GN!Reader, who goes back to School (Sawyer Brothers only)

GN!Reader, who knits

ZsaszMask:

Afraid

Is this what Jealousy is like?

Gotta Try Harder

Embarrassment | Smut

A Day in the Life... (TransMasc!Zsasz, who uses Neopronouns)

Match Made in Heaven

Not Alone

Sick

Bad Puppy | Smut

A Shit Situation Overall

Listen

Dumbass

Maid | Smut

More ZsaszMask fics from me are on Ao3 if anyone should be interested.

Ruining You | Smut

Intimate

Pride | Kid Fic

Mx. Sinister

Why Me?

Unsolved

Stupid | Smut

Sacrifices | Kid Fic

Respect

Short-Comings

Common Ground

Agony (TW Periods)

Remember Me

Dysphoria

I'll Guide You

Frozen

Intoxicating | N/SFW

Money

Perfection

Don’t You Trust Me? | Kid Fic

Interrupted

Perfect Just The Way You Are | N/SFW

You’re Just Like Me

You’re Just Like Me (Part 2)

Stay | N/SFW

Better Than Being Dead

Alive and Safe | Kid Fic

[pretty-volatile]

Sunday, May 22, 2022 11:55 am

Hello it's been a while. Soooo I withdrew from school. COVID continues to get worse & school was requiring in person classes & I couldn't get myself to campus because I'm too physically disabled to consistently walk to campus while also maintaining my same work hours in order to afford to live in my apartment & feed us so...yeah. School is low on the priority list. I told my dad, he said to take care of myself so I think he understands ? Idk when and if I'll go back, it's all too stressful. Plus the in person classes followed a bit after my official autism self diagnosis & being in person was way too triggering. I have a good relationship with my siblings that I know of. They mean the most to me honestly. I just want to know they're okay & that they have a family member looking out for them. My father & his wife misgender & misname my middle sibling and it makes me feel uncomfortable because I've like tried to correctly name & gender them in front of their parents but it just goes over their parents' heads. It's also been a source of argument between their mom & I. I've talked about it on here before. I don't wanna talk about it except mention that we STILL haven't talked about that fight soooo fuck that. Work has been better! Not physically....and I could definitely be paid more but in terms of the social environment, it's better :) I'm no longer the only trans person at my job & that incited me to stand up for myself so now everyone correctly refers to me except one or two coworkers that are still working on it (though it's annoying & embarrassing for me because sometimes the customers witness it & I don't know what to like do lol). I would say I do a fair job of ensuring everyone feels respected & appreciated there, though sometimes that can be a lot of mental/emotional work to maintain thinking of literally everyone else but myself. My only selfish thing I do is i like to escape for cigs whenever I can but I'm literally on top of everything. Idk if I've ever mentioned but everyone at my job is very Neurodivergeant & we work very well together now & can pick up on each other's communication styles etc. It's really a nice work flow. But my body gets so exhausted. I haven't seen a doctor & idk if my dad takes me seriously about it. It's always "do physical therapy" or "get another job" and it's just like....you're missing the point sir....but anyway. My partner & I are doing well and I love them very very much and I'm so appreciative that they're in my life & I don't know what I'd do without them, anygay. Though father says or does some cringe shit I would say our relationship/communication is a lot better than before. I've been better at like just letting myself be awkward or quiet or to the point & just overall trying to be more myself around him. Very much related to tryna & autism, the difficulty of talking tk my father. But literally no one caught onto that....we had a therapist try to work in that with my & him when I first moved out. I didn't like her but I didn't know how to say that & i didn't want to start over. She didn't believe me about my anxiety & she listened to my father more than me. I'd lie to hear about self harm or suicidal thoughts/attempts etc. But like she never picked up that it was probably from all the missed time & trauma & masking autism (for both of us?). But my last therapist kinda picked up on it, but STILL she didn't mention autism! She picked up on my stimming & originally she didn't believe that i had BPD & she knew how I described my father (like a stereotypical white autistic man) but she never popped the seed into my brain. She encouraged other research but she didn't mention autism and idk i guess that it makes me sad that maybe she knew and maybe i could've started working in things sooner. Idk. I met her at a very tumultuous & overwhelming time. Idk if I would've had the mental capacity to take all that on at once tbh. But oh well.

Anygay, that was cathartic I guess. But now I've stayed up longer than I should :P I have to take a nap before work. Goodbye for now

[ouroroshi]

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[balarsen22]

Therapy 4/25

We started out talking about my face (I have a really nice black eye from a high block at practice last night). She thought that Bruise needed consequences for it, but its roller derby, and i know she wouldn't have hit me in the face on purpose. She asked me if I made a list of things to talk about,and the rest of the session we went through the list. It was very businesslike to be honest.

I started with saying that its ED week, and that I’m going to see a nutritionist at the end of the week, and that she specializes in sports nutrition and eating disorders. She asked what I was hoping to find out, and I wanted to know what the end goal should actually be. She asked what I would do if she wouldn't tell me, and I said at that point I would find someone that would. She told me that I was really stubborn, and I retorted that I know that already. She also said that I’m a bit of an elitist when it comes to treatment, that I think I know better. And that I could just keep looking around and at some point I would find someone who would agree with me and tell me what I wanted to hear, but it didn't mean I was right I argued that if I was shown the science behind what they told me, that I would listen, but started to get really annoyed and then went numb. She said she assumed that I would want to stay at the calories I was at until I met with the nutritionist on friday. I said I would probably want to stay at where I was at anyways, and she commented that I would find any excuse to not have to increase my intake. That hurt, and it was really hard not to get defensive. I didn't respond to her comment.

She asked what else was on the list, and I told her about retaking the equipment exam and how I would've had 100%. It sucks that I still will have a 7% on it. She commented that at least I know I would get through it, and I said that Dr. Hellyer mentioned that he’s not worried about me being on clinics, so that's good at least.

We moved on to the next thing on the list, and I told her about my little freak out of whether or not people could tell if something was going on with me.I had 3 different doctors ask me between Friday and saturday how I'm doing, in that voice people get when they're genuinely asking, and they're people that normally don't. I've worked with Dr Kawcak for like 3 years and he's never asked me (or anyone else that I've seen) if everything's going ok before, but he asked me on Friday. And I had 2 different clinicians on saturday when I was on call ask how everything is going/ if everything's good. And Pounder asked me saturday morning if everything was alright with me. And holly asked friday at lunch If I was ok. Maybe it's just a coincidence, but since I can't accurately evaluate my appearance because my eating disorder distorts the image, I never truly know what I look like. I was probably making a bigger deal of it than it needs to be, but it's stressing me out. Jessica said that she only sees me twice a week in her office, so she couldn't really say. I told her that  I texted Megan about it, and read her the reply: "I don't think there is anything that makes you 'look' like something is wrong. That being said those who have spent some time knowing you can see when you may be having an off week or days that are not great. I would say it is more in your actions than appearance. Like you zone out more and are not 100% engaged when you are having a bad day. The only thing appearance wise that people can probably pick up on is if you look tired because you have gotten less sleep than normal. In that case, anyone could then ask and if they ask, it is out of genuine concern because they care about you and value you. It isn't a bad thing when someone asks, it is more likely they want to help you if you have a problem that you want to share. She asked if maybe they heard about the anesthesia exam and asked about that, but I don't think that would really spread around the hospital like that, to different departments. She said that I didn't look tired to her, but again she only sees me in her office twice a week so she couldn't be sure. She asked why it matters so much, and I actually wasn't 100% sure. I just don't like people to know I’m struggling, not like I am at least. She asked me how my mood has been. I said its been up and down. Well not really up, but neutral and down. That I’m exhausted, mentally, physically, emotionally. She asked if I thought I still needed to go to treatment. I said that I honestly didn't know. There’s a lot of times that I think I need to, but I’ve had moments that I’ve been okay. And I haven't been quite so bad as I had been. She asked what I thought contributed to feeling better, and the only thing I could come up with was that I’ve been getting more sleep. She thought that contradicted with what I just said about being tired, but even though I’m getting more sleep than I was i’m still not getting a lot. She left it at that, and asked me what else was on the list.

I asked if I actually had borderline personality disorder too, because that's what TK had told me. She said that factitious and bpd are intertwined, as both are the attention seeking behavior, but with my relationship issues I also fit the criteria for bpd, and it's hard to tease apart. She did say that most people for factitious don't actually seek treatment, so tk probably just assumed bpd. I got really hard on myself about being attention seeking, but also didn't say anything because I know its true. I’m an attention seeking little prat. She said that diagnoses aren't what's important though, it's more just being aware of what I do. She asked what I felt about it, and I didn't really feel anything about it. I just was thinking about it and wanted to know. She asked if I still talk to a lot of people from TK, and I said there’s a few that I talk a lot with- molly, jenna, corrine. She asked me where everyone lives, and I mentioned that corrine might be coming to denver for an internship this summer. When I told her she was looking at being a nutritionist, she commented how many dieticians and nutritionists have had or still have eating disorders. I said that it makes sense- at least with me, I obsess about food. I obsess about the nutrition and how it affects my body and I want to know as much about it as possible. I want to know the science behind it. So it doesn't surprise me.

We moved onto the last thing on the list, and I said how I was talking to sarah and she was complaining about someone hitting on her, and I got to thinking that I don't even know what it's like. I know I don't really put myself in situations that it could happen, and I don't even really know if I want to date. Like I feel like I’m missing out on something I should be doing, that normal people are doing, but other than that I don't really feel the need. She said that maybe I should start putting myself out there and figuring it out, but I’m terrified of datingt. She asked me what I was afraid of, and I guess the main thing is the physical aspect of it. Even just saying the words out loud made my stomach drop and my chest tighten. She said that she thinks that because I like hugs so much that with the right person, it might not actually be as scary as I think, and that I might actually really enjoy it and take comfort in it. That I wouldn't have to do anything I wasn't ready for. But the thing is, I’m such a people pleaser and want so badly to be socially “normal” that I’m afraid that if I’m pressured that I would, even if I'm not ready (I didn't know how to say that though). I was so uncomfortable talking about it. I also didn't say how I’m wondering if i should just find some random tinder hook up and screw someone to just get it out of the way, so I don't end up the 40 year old virgin. She asked if I ever talked with Megan about it, which I don't really. she told me I should ask her, and tell her I’m thinking about giving it a try. I said okay, but I’m definitely nervous about it. She suggested waiting until summer, and getting through the end of school first, which I’m all for waiting on it. In the meantime, she wants me to notice what I’m attracted to. just notice for now, and then once summer starts, begin figuring it out. God, I hate talking about it. I hate thinking about it. It's just so uncomfortable. Really, anything sexually related makes me uncomfortable, and I don't know why. It just always has. I didn't tell her that either though. I can't imagine someone actually wanting to do anything physical anyways.

We just chatted like normal people at the end. (I learned that she loves mini animals).  Thursday is EMDR day, she wished me luck with giving blood. I wanted to ask when her wedding was, but wasnt sure if it was appropriate so I didn't.

I couldn’t stop thinking about her calling me an elitist for the rest of the day though. I feel like I’m just done putting up with bullshit that I don't think is going to help, not an elitist. Amanda texted me later on that night about having multiple professionals tell her she needs to go back to treatment, but that her ED voice is so strong and she so badly wants to hold onto it. I responded to her: “I can understand that. ED is an asshole, but he’s a very convincing asshole. And its so hard when you’re the one fighting him 24/7. Sometimes you need some people to help you fight, and treatment is where you’re going to get that. But when it comes down to it, it is always going to be your choice. but I do want you to know that ED is a liar. you are worth recovery, you deserve to live a long, healthy, happy life. but fighting day after day wears you down, and its hard to believe that all the time when you have that voice in the back of your head that is telling you differently. In my experience, living with an eating disorder is paradoxically much easier when I am sicker. Then, my aims in life are, essentially, to restrict and lose weigh, get rid of fat, t. Nothing else matters much. , all the loneliness, guilt, fear are shoved under the rug by the overwhelming drive to starve, the only clear thing in my fuzzy, food-deprived mind. It’s a bleak, joyless existence, but so straightforward. This all changes, though, when I try to recover, or even just get a little better. Suddenly, things matter again. I feel. I want. I empathize. I care. There are too many decisions. I hate myself for eating and I hate myself for not eating. My body is a massive burden I have to drag along with me. It’s intensely uncomfortable, when it isn’t painful. It’s scary. It’s complicated. It makes me want to go back to my ED, and sometimes I do. But I’m trying to believe that it will be worth it in the end. Because a life with ED isn’t actually living.” It made me decide that what jessica had said earlier was right- that I wouldn't listen to a dietician unless they told me what my eating disorder wanted to hear. So I decided to cancel the appointment on friday, and up my calories for the week. I texted her wednesday morning and also told her to up the contract to 1725 this week. I also said how much I hate it when she calls me out on stuff and she’s right. I said it lightly (i added lol at the end), but I really am frustrated with her. But maybe its more my eating disorder brain that's frustrated with her?

[gianhovn]

[Bé yêu] Hướng dẫn đọc kết quả siêu âm thai với những chỉ số quan trọng nhất

Cực dễ cách đọc kết quả siêu âm thai với các chỉ sổ cơ bản: chiều dài xương đùi, chiều dài lưỡng đĩnh, đường kính bụng, tư thế nằm của trẻ trong bụng mẹ, tình trạng nước ối & những chỉ số cơ bản nhất trong kết quả siêu âm.

Lịch siêu âm và khám thai cho bà bầu ĐẦY ĐỦ NHẤT

Cách đoán con trai con gái không cần siêu âm

Siêu âm thai được đưa vào sử dụng rộng rãi trong ngành y từ năm 1950 và được coi là phương pháp an toàn, không tác động đến thai nhi và mang lại hiệu quả cao, theo dõi chính xác được sự phát triển của em bé trong bụng mẹ. Máy quét sẽ được bác sĩ sử dụng để đọc những thông tin quan trọng và cung cấp hình ảnh trên màn hình mà bố mẹ cũng có thể nhìn thấy. Tuy nhiên, những thông tin mà bác sĩ cung cấp lại cho sản phụ hầu hết là những điều cần thiết nhất chứ không phải tất cả những thông tin về em bé.

Cách đọc kết quả siêu âm phụ khoa với những chỉ số & ý nghĩa quan trọng nhất

CRL : crown rump length (chiều dài từ đầu mông)

BPD : biparietal diameter (đường kính lưỡng đỉnh)

TTD: Đường kính ngang bụng

APTD: Đường kính trước và sau bụng

AC : abdominal circumference (chu vi bụng)

  FL : femur length (chiều dài xương đùi)

Ý nghĩa các ký hiệu viết tắt trong kết quả siêu âm thai nhi

GS : gestational sac diameter (đường kính túi thai)

HC : head circumference (chu vi đầu)

AF : amniotic fluid (nước ối)

AFI : amniotic fluid index (chỉ số nước ối)

OFD : occipital frontal diameter (đường kính xương chẩm)

BD : binocular distance (khoảng cách hai mắt)

CER : cerebellum diameter (đường kính tiểu não)

THD : thoracic diameter (đường kính ngực)

TAD : transverse abdominal diameter (đường kính cơ hoành)

APAD : anteroposterior abdominal diameter (đường kính bụng từ trước tới sau)

FTA : fetal trunk cross-sectional area (thiết diện ngang thân thai)

HUM : humerus length (chiều dài xương cánh tay)

Ulna : ulna length (chiều dài xương khuỷu tay)

Tibia : tibia length (chiều dài xương ống chân)

Radius: Chiều dài xương quay

Fibular: Chiều dài xương mác

EFW : estimated fetal weight (khối lượng thai ước đoán)

GA : gestational age (tuổi thai)

EDD : estimated date of delivery (ngày sinh ước đoán)

LMP : last menstrual period (giai đoạn kinh nguyệt cuối)

BBT : basal Body Temperature (nhiệt độ cơ thể cơ sở)

FBP : fetus biophysical profile (sơ lược tình trạng lý sinh của thai)

FG : fetal growth (sự phát triển thai)

OB/GYN : obstetrics/gyneacology (sản/phụ khoa)

FHR : fetal heart rate (nhịp tim thai)

FM : fetal movement (sự di chuyển của thai)

FBM : fetal breathing movement (sư dịch chuyển hô hấp)

FT : fetal tensionPL : placenta level (đánh giá mức độ nhau thai)

Ý nghĩa các thuật ngữ thường thấy khi xem kết quả siêu âm

HBSAg: Xét nghiện về viêm gan.

AFP: Alpha FetoProtein.

Alb: Albumin (một protein) trong nước tiểu.

HA: Huyết áp.

Ngôi mông: Đít em bé ở dưới.

Ngôi đầu: Em bé ở vị trí bình thường (đầu ở dưới).

MLT: Mổ lấy con.

Lọt: Đầu em bé đã lọt vào khung xương chậu.

DS: Dự kiến ngày sinh.

Fe: Kê toa viên sắt bổ sung.

TT:Tim thai.

TT(+): Tim thai nghe thấy.

TT(-): Tim thai không nghe thấy.

BCTC: Chiều cao tử cung.

Hb: Mức Haemoglobin trong máu (để kiểm tra xem có thiếu máu không).

HAcao: Huyết áp cao.

KC: Kỳ kinh cuối.

MNT: Mẫu nước tiểu lấy phần giữa (của một lần đi tiểu).

NTBT: Không có gì bất thường phát hiện trong nước tiểu.

KL: Đầu em bé chưa lọt vào khung xương chậu.

Phù: Phù (sưng).

Para 0000: Người phụ nữ chưa sinh lần nào (con so).

TSG: Tiền sản giật.

Ngôi: Em bé ở ví trí xuôi, ngược, xoay trước, sau thế nào.

NC: Nhẹ cân lúc lọt lòng.

TK: Tái khám.

NV: Nhập viện.

SA: Siêu âm.

KAĐ: Khám âm đạo.

VDRL: Thử nghiệm tìm giang mai.

HIV(-): Xét nghiệm AIDS âm tính.

Tư thế nằm của trẻ

CCPT: Xương chẩm xoay bên phải, đưa ra đằng trước.

CCTT: Xương chẩm xoay bên trái, đưa ra đằng trước.

CCPS: Xương chẩm xoay bên phải đưa ra đằng sau

CCTS: Xương chẩm xoay bên trái đưa ra đằng sau.

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[lonestarbabe]

If TK relapsed at age 26 he was clean for probably 9 years. However I'm a bit confused how he directly walks into a dealer and just bought some oxy out of the blue after he was clean for 9 years. Yes, Alex split up with him but the question is did he really wanted to kill himself. Don't want to sound rude but sometimes it seems like he suffers from borderline. Maybe I'm completely wrong but this dramatic reactions are quite common.

I have a lot of thoughts as always lol.

We really have know idea how long he was sober for. We know it'd been multiple years based on what TK said, but other than that, we can't say for sure how long it's been. Even if he was sober for nine years, it wouldn't be unusual for him to still have thoughts of having drugs and he would still know how to get those drugs. I wouldn't be surprised if there were many other occasions when he considered having substances, and in those times, he could have made plans about what he would do to get those drugs. Or like even little things could be a trigger and remind him of when he was using oxy. And bigger life events don't necessarily directly correlate to how someone is going to respond or whether they will relapse. A small issue can be that final straw. The whole Alex thing was a pretty big deal, and it spoke to deeper fears within TK, so I think he was dealing with more than just heartbreak and I would guess his abandonment issues were at play as well when he was making his decision.

As for the suicide thing, I know this is contested. I do think that he was suicidal on some level when he took the drugs, but I also think even TK is a little confused about his state of mind. In my head canon, he got the drugs and when he got them, he didn't have any suicidal plans. I think he used them, and he was possible met with a lot of complex emotions about what he'd done. You know the type of mentality where he was like "I've already ruined everything. The sobriety I worked is gone. I should just give up" Like, he got stuck in the all or nothing thinking where one mistake means he might as well keep making mistakes and double down on his behavior. And then I think that all kind of spiraled, and he sort of thought, there's no way to make this better, and maybe impulsively took more oxy than he normally would and maybe he wasn't like "I'm trying to die," but more like "if this kills me so be it." Anyways, an accidental overdose is certainly plausible as well.

I have considered the BPD angle for TK before. He definitely has some of the symptoms, and sometimes his actions really scream BPD to me. I also don't think they'd ever commit to this diagnosis on the show. Though, it would be pretty great to see a character with BPD who wasn't a criminal or evil like characters with BPD often are. and looking at TK's relationships, you see certain patterns. Like, even the limited content we see of Alex, we get a lot of insight. I suspect that TK felt the relationship slip away so that's why he decided to propose because he was trying to avoid feeling rejected. Or there have been hints that he idealizes and devalues people. Or he also has his identity issues. He very clearly has the risky and impulsive behaviors. We see a lot of mood fluctuations with him, and he can have angry outbursts that are disproportionate. So, yeah, there's definitely a case to be made.

**Also, just as a note, and I know the intention here wasn't bad and that English isn't always people's first language and whatnot, but I prefer the word sober to clean because clean is stigmatizing (in that the opposite of clean is dirty, so that creates the connection that addiction is dirty) , so I'd like I'd prefer using sober on my blog!

[lonestarbabe]

My ex boyfriend had borderline and if T.K has it there will be hard times for Carlos. Our relationship contained of ups and downs. I hope Carlos has the power to be T.Ks rock in the stormy sea.

All relationships have struggles and ups and downs. People with BPD would have different ones that add unique complications to the relationship and may require more work in some areas versus others, so I think if that were the case, it would require both TK and Carlos to be communicative and open about their feelings and to both put the work in to make sure they each felt safe and secure in the relationship.

[lonestarbabe]

I read a lot about borderline recently and I'm sure TK has it. He has all the signs. Substance abuse, suicide as an overwhelming reaction, extreme emotional swings, chronical feelings of emptiness, impulsive self-distructive behavior, fear of abandonment, unstable relationships. it's even more interesting how things work out between him and Owen and Carlos.

I definitely agree that he has many of the symptoms from what we’ve seen of him, but can I say for sure that he has it? Not so much because BPD symptoms can overlap with symptoms of other conditions (and of course comorbidity can impact what symptoms a person has too). If he did have it, it would be important to know because his psychological treatment plan would have to change to create long term progress, so I do think it’s an interesting consideration, and it would impact his relationships extensively (which would be interesting to see how he makes his relationship with Carlos with BPD).

For anyone who doesn’t know a lot about BPD, this doctor makes some really informative videos, and he specializes in personality disorders so he understands BPD in a way that many psychologists and mental health professionals don’t.