#tiredandexhausted

[invisiblewarrioradvocate]

Just

*Today will be talking about a tough subject. I am NOT contemplating hurting myself, nor is it in my plans. I have too much life to live and I plan to watch my boys grown into husbands and fathers one day.*

Will it be today, will it be tomorrow, when will it be? That day when you say I am so tired, just tired of everything. To tired to care, to tired to sleep, to think, to breathe, to do anything really. So mentally and physically exhausted. I know I feel I have had those days, where I thought it would be the "end," where I thought I can't do this anymore.

The pain, the exhaustion, the mental fatigue is just so present, I just want it to stop; having tinnitus (constant ringing in the ears), it sounds like there is always some sound ringing through your head, that never stops. At times it is completely deafening. You can't hear yourself think, so to speak. Then you try to concentrate and the thoughts elude you and so you try to concentrate even more and the ringing gets louder and the exhaustion gets worse.

Many years ago, I went through a battery of testing that determined even during "sleep" periods, my brain activity was as if, I was still awake, my brain did not go into the REM sleep period, where I got the restful, restorative sleep; that is why my body felt so fatigued and I was having difficulty creating new pathways and new memories, that along with the early onset Alzheimer's.

Be tired, be wore out, be whatever, but don't be done. It is ok to feel defeated, exhausted, to feel done. But please don't give up. Take it second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day, if need be, but don't be done. Find someone to lean on, to turn to, if you don't think you have anyone, reach out to me. You may not know me, but I am fighting with these same struggles, where I have to take it second by second and minute by minute sometimes. And I don't want to hear the excuse, well I know you are struggling too, so I don't want to add more to your plate. Please, I wouldn't offer if I didn't mean it. Yes, I hurt and I struggle, but if I knew one person gave up because they didn't want to add to my plate, that would hurt. We all need someone, even if we don't know them.

I know many aren't religious or believe in God, or willing to admit in believing. Well I am one who does. My biggest strength in scripture I remember is, "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13

I heard that verse many years ago, early in my journey of fighting for a new normalcy. Normalcy, what a laugh. I don't know what that is anymore. It is funny I think of all those who are going through cancer treatments and what they face. Or what any of us face on a daily basis with pain. Our lives have been turned upside down and inside out. We have lost normal a long time ago, and I joke, some of us never had it to begin with.

Just remember you can do anything! You are not alone! Just one more second, one more minute, one more hour, one more day. Just keep going. I am tired too, but together we can do this.

[fashionistaru]

Evening mood... need rest. No credits found. Source: @armano_scacci #tiredandexhausted #attheendoftheday #eveningmood (at Lucca, Italy)

[ladysuetini]

slowly drifting...drifting away #friday #worstweekever #tiredandexhausted #helloweekend

[luidollblog]

About to cry over this piece of 💩💩 #butitsgone #screwyou #nothappy #tiredandexhausted

[animosity-within]

I’m tired and exhausted. The humidity and heat the past week at work is shitting on me. I just want a gorgeous honey to come home to and make my day brighter

[aileestela-blog-blog]

Whole Day Editing 121713 #OJT #HumanResource #Photoshop #Thesis #MSWord #TiredANDExhausted (at Sacred Heart College)

[msmimay01-blog]

Fever. @jalz_esma poor lil sistah.. #nursefortonight #tiredandexhausted #ugh

[thejennybean]

Now we wait #macarons #resting #baking #shells #tiredandexhausted

[landsslides]

I do not want to go to work. #me #tiredandexhausted