#tired and depressed and axious and dead inside

[winteriron-trash]

You haven’t been posting a lot and I just wanna check in on you. Are you doing okay??

Hey, anon. First of all, I’m very touched that you even care about me enough to notice and want to check up on me, that’s very sweet and honestly, I’ve got too many feels rn. 

Second of all, to answer your question, no, not really. I’m a piping hot mess. 

So recently, I just got back into therapy because my mental health has been slipping and that’s no fun for anybody tbh. I’ve tried two new antidepressants, and the one I’m on now doesn’t seem to be doing much but scattering my brain, which can make it just a wee hard to do any sort of writing that involves being able to you know, write a coherent sentence. I haven’t been to school in oh, about five weeks now. So that’s also fun.

There’s not much explanation for why except it just be like that with mental illness sometimes. There are ups and downs, and I’m in one of the worst downs I’ve been in for a while. I can’t do much of anything that’s productive, and fucking trust me, I wish I knew why. If one more person asks me why I think I might explode at this point.

Honestly, thank you for caring enough to send this. I don’t know when I’ll be able to get things back to usual around here, and I certainly don’t know anything about when I’m going to get myself back to usual, but it is what it is. I’m trying my best and at this point, my best is not falling apart more than I already have. I’m getting there, but lord knows how I’m gonna get there.