#time to go cry

[somebluemelodies]

Putting Richarlyson to bed was an emotional feat that night.

He tried to not let anything on, but it was hard getting things past his son. His boy didn't know what it was, but he knew it was something. Especially since Cellbit was forced to go investigate alone.

But if there was a subtle mist in his pai's striking eyes, his voice softer than normal, if he sat even closer on the end of the bed to Richarlyson than he normally did... the hatchling let it be.

Cellbit pulled him onto his lap. Not a total surprise.

But the tightness of Cellbit's embrace was. As if the boy would vanish if he let go.

(His pai hadn't held him this tightly since the day they reunited. When he and Pai Felps were rescued, completely shaken up.)

(Did something shake up his pai again?)

Nevertheless, Richarlyson nuzzled himself deeper into Cellbit's arms, refraining from pulling back to ask any questions. He felt a hand against the back of his head, a firm kiss pressed into the crown of his wild curls.

He could almost hear the silent I love yous.

The hatchling looked up. Cellbit's eyes were closed, but they opened after a few seconds, glassy. His pai watched him closely.

A lone tear slipped down. Richarlyson studied him worriedly, lost in confusion.

Cellbit only buried his face into his son's curls.

You're never gonna be alone.

(I'll never forget you.)

[idoweirdcrap]

GET TO KNOW MY FRIENDS

Me- [pansexual, apothisexual, demiboy, transmasc] literally the best person in the world and will stay up if you stay up bc i love listening to ppl talk. That may or may not be why i stayed up till 3am talking to Eli. ANYWAYS- i have a weird dependence on these guys. 0_o

Brianna- [pansexual] bro is LITERALLY crazy. Short, cis girl who loves melanie martinez with an undying passion. will she ever shut up? not sure. not sure.

Izzy- [aroace, demigirl] (@belabeya) tall, with ridiculously long blonde-brown hair. is VERY emo.

Julian- [GAY] way too hyperactive. brown hair and dresses like a twink bc he is one.

Axel- [genderfluid, lesbian] very firm. the only sane person here. but loves music and is probably where i discovered most of my fav bands, first hand or second hand.

Elliot/Eli- [transmasc, gay] short with BLACK HAIR and VERY EMO. his failure and suffering is amusing to me. giving main character trauma vibes. {insert uwu giggles here}

Paige- [omnisexual, aroace (i think)] medium height and dresses like an uwu j pop gorl. keeps disconnecting us from the dicord call and is pretty insane at 2 am.

Dextina- I MEAN DEXTER (dont kill me plz)- [pansexual? questioning.] ABSOLUTELY SIMPING FOR ELI. AND HE DOESNT HIDE IT. ITS EVERYWHERE IN THE SERVER WAHHHHH T - T. brown hair and a nickname he hates (please refer to him as dextina)

Jake the Internet Explorer- [pansexual, queer] hes so cool and is basically my therapist at this point T - T. show jakey some love. antisocial, but humourous.

Melody- [straight ally] thats all. just straight JKJKJKjk blonde hair and freckles, is convinced i have to get a boost slushie and is holding me hostage until i do so. :3

i hope i didnt miss anyone its a big friendship group T - T

who do u think would be the best friend/ the funniest?

[tortured-writers-parttime-poets]

since apparently im posting good shit i find in my notes today, have this. have fun crying.

...

i think im in a sad mood today. 

[inspo - my future , billie eilish : 'can't you hear me? i'm not coming home.']

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[oh darling all of the city lights never shined as bright as your eyes.]

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[bleeding out in a back alley, holding each other.]

[whispering to eachother, crying silently, touya dies first.]

“I was a double agent..” 

“I know.”

“What?”

“You are a terrible liar, hawks.”

“Keigo.”

“What?”

“My name. It's Keigo.” 

“Oh. I’m Touya.”

“Touya..” 

“Yeah.”

“I love you, Touya.”

“I love you too, Keigo.”

"will you marry me, touya?"

"of course.." 

"i love you."

"i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you.."

keigo whispering it over and over again, the words becoming more and more distorted through the lightheadedness as he slowly loses consciousness. 

him holding touya close until his last breaths, gasping out the words, sobbing quietly, the cold seeping in through his jacket.

they're found hours later, surrounded by a pool of dried blood, cold bodies still holding eachother delicately, lovingly. 

tear stains on keigo's face, blood stains on touya's. when the audio and video footage from the tiny camera in the corner is uncovered, no one knows what to think. 

they're buried together, heaps of flowers laying on their grave, left by heroes and villains alike. 

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[i've dug two graves for us my dear.]

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“You're obsessed. You doodled your wedding invitations earlier.”

Keigo gasped, “That was our joint tombstone!”

“Right, my bad,” Rumi had joked.

Now, sitting in front of it, it's not so funny, she thinks.

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[even now when we're already over, i cant help myself from looking for ya'.]

[when it fell, something died, because i knew that that was the last time.]

[let it burn.]

[frnkiebby]

I know I'm a tad late to the post about credits, and I know I don't know you personally by any means, but I felt emotion in that rant and I feel the need to tell you that it's okay to be tired and not feel physically capable of the things that make you happy. I may be younger and thriving in comparison, but don't beat yourself up for not having the energy to do the things you want to do, and please, don't feel wrong for being selfish about the one thing that makes you happy. Happiness and peacefulness come in many different forms from person to person, and you're not required to take any single piece of advice from a stranger online when it comes to something minor in life that makes you happy. I know, I've kind of taken the meaning of that rant and twisted it to talk more about you and your health, but I felt called to leave a kind message. From one person who has struggled and still sometimes does to another, life is hard and overwhelming. Hold onto what makes you happy and keep living. It'll all be worth it in the end, yeah?

anon….i really really fucking appreciate this far more than you can possibly know. like seriously. i know we’re both random people in the internet but this was so kind and honestly really good to have in my inbox. i just signed off of playing a game with my bestie and that helped but this made my night even better overall.

so seriously. i love you. thank you.~🎃

[justasopearchive]

You Can’t Separate Them 😪

Not even participating in rubbing Hobi’s head or nothing. Poor thing is frozen in place 🥲

[why-am-i-always-hungruy]

welp just lost my sh-clean streak

[eddieschains]

just thinking about how i’ve made genuine real friendships because of a man who had 20 minutes of screen time in a tv show

[chryblossomjjk]

look what i made

[starry-skies-116]

holy son of a FUCK my pain acted up so BADLY today and it's only like what the first day of school? holy shit my poor thighs (and my right knee which for some reason decided to hurt more than my left like fr I was limping the whole day)

like shit thought it was an eczema flare up or sumn??

[inconsistentracoon]

FUCK I forgot to filter totk spoilers

[inkskinned]

the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.

sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.

you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.

it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.

but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.

they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.

they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.

barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.

and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.

but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.

they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!

this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.

[yallstar]

"...I'm not done telling you all the things that I wanted to say; there's still so much. It's been so long since anyone listened to me talk. Won't you stay?"

Heaven Official's Blessing, Vol 8

[puppyeared]

thanks @chipper-smol for getting me ISAT i will be so irresponsible with the looping

[pidgydraws]

⚙️ for a moment we had it all... ⚙️

[southfarthing]

22nd September: Bilbo and Frodo's birthday!

Then Thursday, September the 22nd, actually dawned. The sun got up, the clouds vanished, flags were unfurled and the fun began.

[gum-iie]

centuries wept away