#tia muses on stuff

[jqupohtia]

J'qupoh's Relationships (an update/addition)

J'sylpa Rahni - J'qupoh's mother. Seeker of the Sun Miqo’te, former Gleaner that was primarily assigned to tasks for Saint Mocianne’s Arboretum, forcibly retired adventurer with a victim complex. An expert botanist but her true passion lies in thrill-seeking and fighting, and traveling as a gleaner only scratched that itch so much. Moogle obsessed. Once regarded by Qupoh as a hero, but due to some really shit decisions and generally being an asshole they now have a very rocky relationship that he's very conflicted about. Once a decent fighter but got caught up in some bad business that left her the only surviving member of her party, and forced to rely on her children while she recovered.

Miomir Adajana

J'qupoh's father. Helions Hrothgar, researcher formerly working in Saint Moicianne’s Arboretum, most recently working on some research he cannot discuss. Member of Sharlayan's Forum. Specializes in warding and containment magics, but also pretty good at illusions and enchantments, and was the one to teach Qupoh. Means well but has the flimsiest spine in Sharlayan. Qupoh barely knows him and spent years thinking he was a terrible person because of a misunderstanding and J'sylpa being a dick. Tried to reach out a few times, but Poh never answered his letters, so he eventually decided to stop bothering his son and let him have his space. Attempts were still made over the years, but not response ever came. Poh probably would have answered eventually if he actually got them. Only recently reconnected and things are awkward but okay?

J'mogri Miomir

Younger sister, Miqo’thgar, blacksmith and goldsmith who learned her trade from Gobbies, grouchy exterior over a squishy core. Is well aware her brother left to be an adventurer, not just join the Botanists guild, but let him believe she didn't know until recently. Allows Poh the mercy of not wearing anything with heels while around him so he can keep pretending he’s taller. Not that she typically wears them anyway, she doesn’t exactly need to be any taller than she already is. Basically raised by Poh, and he would commit murder for her. Has more friends amongst the goblins than other peoples, and is very skittish around Miqo'te women.

Midnight Dew

Good friends, they were in a relationship for a couple years but broke things off amicably. They’ve kept in contact while Poh is out getting himself into trouble, and while he never went into specifics, he at least gave more of the truth of what's been happening to her than he has to Mogri. Midnight is well aware, and constantly harasses him over it. He’s dreading the day she makes good on her threat to set up a linkshell. Partially responsible for the few Jackal tribe (and others) Tias in Idyllshire challenging Poh. She thought it was funny only because Poh was clueless why other Miqo’te kept wanting to fight him. Poh made her the Thavnairian sarouel she wears and gave her the earrings, and he still uses the cane she gave him up until it breaks at Holminster Switch.

Urianger

In spite of everything, one of the Scions Poh trusts the most. Urianger has seen Poh at some of his most vulnerable moments, and is more familiar with Poh’s weaknesses than some might expect. Though Poh has definitely been angry over some of his lies and the consequences of them, he trusts Urianger to have good intentions and to be a couple steps ahead of the rest of them. If Uri is acting shifty, it’s time to start paying attention. They have had many late night discussions about Astrology and prophecies, with Poh’s childhood fascination being rekindled by Urianger’s enthusiasm for the subjects in the wake of the elezen’s attempts to calm him down after his disastrous experience with the Lord of Levin. Also Poh just finds his voice soothing and Urianger has learned that it is not an issue of him being bored if Poh ends up (quite literally) falling asleep on him.

[marionmaverick]

"Gyr Abania originally, I just travel around the globe anymore."

He sighs and looks up at the sky. Two moons are rising above them. There has only been one on Hydaelyn since the Calamity brought Dalamud crashing down. Another world with whole other species. He shouldn't take it out on Solas.

"It's another world, called Hydaelyn." He admitted, "I'm sorry for taking out my frustration on you. I really shouldn't, considering you are the only normal person I've met here."

@marionmaverick sent: (Marionmaverick, Calem) “You’re staring like you’ve never seen a Miqo’te before.”

~ " I apologize -- I did not mean to stare. But you are correct -- I have never seen a...Miqu'te before. " He titled his head at the stranger. " Where are you from? " ~

[panlight]

Today's musings are about the visiting vampires in Breaking Dawn and modern technology:

The group slowly dispersed, some off to hunt, some to while away the time with Carlisle's books or televisions or computers.

Mealtimes were dicey, though. Our company cooperated as best they could. They gave Forks and La Push a wide berth, only hunting out of state; Edward was a gracious host, lending out his cars as needed without so much as a wince.

Maybe it's just me, but my impression from the books and the guide was that the non-vegetarian vampires weren't like, super involved in the human world. I mean it was 2006 and the Cullens had to physically go and find these people (other than the Denali), which supports the idea that they were off the grid. No phones, no computers. Couldn't just email amun@karnaktemple.org and ask him to come visit. Couldn't ring up Siobhan and explain.

So how familiar would they realistically be with the tech of 2006? I thought most of the vampires were just like, chilling in the wilderness or their hidden lairs and only interacted with the human world to hunt and steal the clothes from their victims, so the idea of like these ancient vampires all knowing how to drive and how to use a computer threw me off a bit. Like sure they would have had all the time in the world to learn this stuff, but where? Under what circumstances? They're nomads; they don't live in a house and pay for cable and internet and car insurance like the Cullens. Are Siobhan, Liam and Maggie popping into public libraries to use the internet? Vladimir and Stefan going to sports bars to watch soccer/football or something? Did younger-looking ones like Benjamin, Tia and Maggie take a driving course and then teach the others?

And why would they even want to borrow a car when they can just run? For the novelty of it, maybe?

Were all these vampires huddled around the Cullens' TV watching Hallmark Christmas movies? What are they googling on the computers? Or are they just playing solitaire? Or using Carlisle's eBay account?

[suusoh]

Monster Drag Race headcanons

ola. remember how I said i will not be monster posting? yeah me too <3

I first thought of Johan as the lipsync assassin, but he rarely makes it into the bottom with his runway looks. So maybe the only time he does lipsync is for his legacy

that being said, lipsync assassin either goes to miss Nina fortner (stunt queen <33), Lunge (captures the vibes and emotions of the song, so he knows if its supposed to be an emotional, comedic, sassy, etc.), or Grimmer (knows how to make the judges and ru laugh and grab their attention)

Eva heinemman is not a lipsync assassin but does have one lipsync that's more iconic than other seasons before or after her.

that being said about who the lipsync assassins, Johan is a RUNWAY QUEEN. Looks are always snatched and gags international audiences everywhere. (he gives me very violet chachki vibes <3)

Speaking of Johan, his most viewed video is in the reading challenge

reads queens to FILTH. There's 30 minute compilations of him on youtube just absolutely reading the fuck out of everyone. It's shocking how fast and accurately he reads. Not even cocky or smirky. He's just reading casually.

LUNGE WINS SNATCH GAME. HANDS DOWN 🙌 went toe to toe with Johan. Although both embodied their character to a T, Johan bantering along as his character and his answers always hit, his character is a bit popular and could be played by another queen as well. Whereas Lunge wins because the character he chose is slightly more specific and does things that make people convinced that only Lunge could be able to pull off that snatch game character.

Grimmer gives me comedy queen vibes. Very unserious, very silly. Very Tammy Brown, Jimbo, Tia Kofi, Jinx, or Bob. Grimmer also wins miss congeniality.

Some might say Kenzo for congeniality.... but Kenzo is more on the lowkey. Also sided with and defended the wrong queen in the early parts of the season when he was still playing it safe. Acknowledges his mistake in All Stars

Some might say Nina too, but surprisingly, I wouldn't put Nina under there because Nina can cuss a bitch out if needed but it's super rare (has a full on blown out argument with Johan and it's featured on Untucked) and lowkey throws shade all the time (think that Rose moment where Kandy muse asked "do you think I'm arrogant?" and rose answering "a little bit." without missing a beat HAHAHHAHAHAH)

SPEAKING OF DRAMA MOMENTS.

who are the most dramatic queens? Johan, Bonaparta, Eva, and Roberto.

Johan intentionally causes drama lowkey. institagates fights and stuff. Everyone, including the audience barely realise how some fights among contestants are from Johan's doing.

Bonaparta unintentionally becomes the "everyone vs. _____" queen (Laganja, Mimi Imfurst, Serena Cha Cha, Aiden Zhane, Kandy Muse) HFDSHJFAF. He's trying to defend himself but the girls are circling around him 😭 becomes the most hated queen for a while.

Eva intentionally causes drama but HIGHKEY. Starts drama because the producers told her to and she knows that this is reality tv so might as well give the audience what they really came here for. People love her for it because it's iconic when she does it.

Roberto also intentionally causes drama, thinking he's cool and lowkey like johan, but ends up being highkey about it. People hate him for it. Does not look cool at all and comes off as attention seeking and cringe. comments section is filled with "they really thought they ate that..." "go girl give us NOTHING 😍", branded as the delusional queen JSKFHHJJJAHAJA

Karl shares an almost friendly and honest moment with Johan. Audience becomes GAGGED when Johan eliminates him out. (Johan being Johan, there will be fans defending the moment saying "it was a long time coming" or "Johan was right. next week is about the top queens now, and Karl just does not cut it.")

Along with Nina, miss LOTTEEEEEEE calls out johan from time to time. She may look like a safe queen, but she knows when Johan is being shady. People quote her all the time.

Lotte is an underrated queen. Might have been playing it safe with her looks and even made it to the bottom two a lot in the early seasons, but miss m'am came to play later on. Unexpected queen slayer later on in the seasons. Fans love her redemption.

Jan Suk gets eliminated early, but was pretty wholesome while he was there. Probably becomes a meme, despite not being a popular queen who stays long. ("miss vanjie")

Johan does NOT win drag race. He self eliminates Ben de la Creme style. Some people online say it's cause he just didn't want to be in the show anymore and is tired, some say that he did it because he knew Nina would be eliminated so he gave himself, some say it's a political statement against the show and how he doesn't agree with the staging and fakeness of everything. But it's a fourth secret option that we will never know. (turns out he just got eliminated over breaking a small technical error staying past the cast curfew in the hotel. Technical guidelines put that to prevent queens from cheating and working on their dresses or outsourcing outside the show. Also it turns out he was taking a massive smoke break (which is also breaking anotherpolicy in the hotel 😭 aFDSF) he just voted himself to make his elimination look iconic )

to this day fans keep saying Johan was robbed of the crown (no tf he wasn't.)

start drama in the comments <33

[yzeltia]

(@driftward) MULTIMUSE ASKS CHOOSING - 2. If you HAD to choose, who's your favourite muse? 5. If you HAD to choose, who''s your least favourite muse? 28. Can you sort your muses from weakest and strongest? (If yes, do so) 29. Which muse are you considering deleting? Name them.

2. V'anille

5. Ezelliot

28. Did Strongest to Weakest in terms of power

God Tier

Y'zel Leonnioux L'lolamo

S Tier

Rahn Violet Jannie Keith

A Tier

V'anille G'khenna Hayzel Natsu Patient Tereel Ja

B Tier

C'kett Carter Fuyu'li Raiden Saru Saru'a Saru'to Zel

C Tier

Bounding Sammy Drowning Hhseyo V'tenpe

D Tier

Delah Eliose Salah Sasi V'mauhli Y'lem Melancholy

F Tier

Ahi'a Alpkallunaud Kirian U'rahn's Daughters U'rahn Tia

29.

C'kett as I've only used him for porny stuff and haven't had a chance to use him much or give him much thought.

[ardynzunia]

Calem squawks as the giant beast comes barrelling toward him. He's short of a weapon at the moment, so he instead bares his claws. Until Rusi'a;s voice starts to tumble from it's vicious maw. Of course his friend would wind up in a mess like this.

He rolls his eyes at the pleas and walks over slowly, giving his friends beastly shape a comforting pet.

"Of course I'll help you, We're friends after all." He assured him, "Though my help will likely consist on sneaking you onto a cart and taking you to Urianger, I'm no good with magical nonsense."

@ardynzunia // [creates a beast] [puts them in a situation]

a monster barrels forth from a tree, a large blur of black fur. rusi'a shouts upon seeing calem, sprinting for him, then realizes their current situation and attempts to skid to a stop. beast goes ass-over-head with a scrabbling of claw, locomotion not quite figured out. "calem! thank the matron. calem, hey--" rusi'a wriggles, catches themselves in the jaw with a hind paw, and ends up in a pile of themself on the ground.

rusi'a's voice comes from the monster on the ground, now looking pleadingly up at calem. it's their same voice and bright blue eyes, but the rest of them is a large black beast that physiologically seems to be a blend between tiger and whittret, a bit longer than a man is tall. "please do not stab me. it's me, you know, good pal rusi. i've been looking for ages for somebody i know— i need some help." clearly. not used to their current length or anatomy, rusi'a is trying very hard to untwist themselves and get up. "uhm. you'll help me, right?" at least their pleading expression is still cute enough to earn some pity points, right? right? please. they hope.

[ar-lene]

Hello fellow yttders!!! Tis i!! The midori connoseuer who drew him once during jeandori takeover.

Under cut is a midori centered (Though The main cast have alot of elaboration on them, too.) yttd bungo stray dogs au me and 3 other people thought on a bit.

I intended to do something bigger with it. But since im working on the midori dating sim. I just cant. So im using this as a sort of hivemind post for anyone to compile ideas for this au!!!

So! Let us start with the *new* ability users and their abilities

Sou 'midori' hiyori:

Ability: "the silence of the lambs"

Affiliation: Armed detective agency. (Early story)

Rats in the house of the dead (later in the story)

This ability, allows anyone with contact to midori to establish a mental connection to, midori. Where they can swap out conciousness, speak telepathically. Or even hear the other persons thoughts and emotions. Midori is the one in control of all of that, though.

Now, as you might have guessed. This *does* have something to do with shin. Specifcally, midori ripped a layed of his skin, sew it into a scarf. Which shin now wears!! Meaning as long as that scarf is on shin. They can swap out conciousnessnesses! Shin is aware of this.

Funfacts: in yttd we see that midori has a very slight hunch. In this au, its due to shins bad posture, blowing his cover whenever he was in midoris body. So after many horribly gone attempts in fixing shins posture, Midori had to compromise.

Midori mostly uses shins conciousness in situations where his "non human way of thinking" would be a hindrance like: when he was passing the ada entrance exam.

Gin ibushi:

The switch is instant. And happens in the blink of an eye.

The name "midori" was given to him by the ada

Ability: "Knuffle kitty"

Affiliation: port mafia

Gins ability, allows any plushie animal, organ, or essentialy 'living tissue' made by gin. To become functional as if it were a living thing. With gins ability, you can easly replace someones organs or limbs as long as theres a surgeon to attach the plushie limbs to the actual host. He can also create poisonous animals to then throw at his enemies. Which is whoever is watching over him most of the time. (Lets face it. Its shin and sou who're getting stuff thrown at them.)

Fun facts: gin was transferred to the port mafia via saras request.

Kyuusaku and gin were buddies before Q witnessed the horrors.

Mori views gin as a sort of "mini yosano" and has a little collection of poisonous insects which gin has made for offensive use.

When dazai first met gin, in chuuyas presence. When gin began speaking in his "woof, meow" s. Dazai pointed at chuuya and said "he talks like you"

Joe tazuna:

Ability: 「トリプルドッグデスバラージ」 (TRIPLE DOG DEATH BARRAGE!) (Sorry i had to)

Affiliation: port mafia

His ability. Is self explanitory.

There are three dogs.

They will death barrage you.

And they regenerate atsushi style.

Funfacts: hes here due to!! Sara!!

He tried to get ryoko (was that her name??? Doner kabab gurl.) Into the port mafia too, but sara said its too dangerous for her.

Sara chidouin:

Ability: "Muses, mad men and prophets."

Affiliation: Port mafia

Her ability is meant for crowd control, and large, quick genocide. Whenever sara kills someone. They manifest as a "hallucination." Of themselves. Which wander around like normal passerbys. She, can swap her location with any of these "hallucinations" . No matter how far.

Hallucinations cannot be contained. And pass through walls. Hallucinations will dissipate after an hour has passed.

Funfacts: she works with kouyou for her training.

She was introduced to the port mafia via her father.

She kicks ass

Reko yabusame:

Ability: "perfect pitch"

Affiliation: port mafia

Juonos hearing. She can detect sound waves. She is all hearing. She detects them snitches.

Funfacts: she came to the port mafia for alice.

She and nao are girlfriends

Tia safalin:

Ability: "Babushka's doll"

Affiliation: none (sort of.) She does freelance work for whatever faction needs her. She has the most expirience working for the special ability division, rats in the house of the dead and the port mafia.

Her ability allows her to create dolls which she can give a portion of her memories to, they will then function as normal people. And can go through with tasks.

Funfacts: i got none

Maple:

YUP!!! MAPLES FINALLY GETTIN SCREEN TIME!!!!

Ability: "The tea party in the woods"

Affiliation: none (because she deserves happiness)

Her ability causes the person shes using her ability on, to expirience a vision in their mind. Which time does not pass in. The vision will display the most comforting envoirment for the person the ability is used on. Maple, can interact with the other person during this vision. And the vision can only be stopped once the host, has drunk a whole cup of tea. This room can be used as a sort of quick therapy room, or somewhere to share confidential information with. Only 3 can enter at a time.

Funfact: she comes to the cafe under the ada very often, and has made great friends with lucy and atsushi. Shes also met midori, but its just a little baby crush.

Now, we get to characters with no ability, and their affiliations.

Alice Yabusame:

Hes part of the port mafia due to reko

Yelling. Alot of it.

Shoved in here by midori so he pays for the attempted murder

Tries his best.

Keiji shinogi:

Affiliation: Armed detective agency.

The wahaha man.

Hes a little like ranpo, in that he has no ability but is very preceptive.

When he joined the ada midori was so panicked he forced shin to interact with him. So now midori has to act like shin whenever keiji is talking to him.

Its not fun.

His arrival at the ada was NOT expected.

He was transferred to the ada from the speacial ability division.

Kanna!!! :

Affiliation: port mafia, because she kicks ass.

She helps out with mais bakery alot since its right below her house.

Shes learned alot from sara. And it shows in her fighting style.

She fights with her FISTS

She likes kyoka alot. Kinda sad shes in the ada, and sneaks to go to the cafe to see kyoka.

During one of these sneaking sessions shin (in midoris body) spotted her. And now shin has to cover for her whenever shes off to see kyoka.

Just. Genuinely a very kind girl

She doesnt deserve to be in the port mafia. And everyone knows that.

She could probably beat chuuya in a fist fight if chuuya didnt use his ability.

Shin tsukimi:

Affiliation: port mafia.

Shoved in here by midori.

Everyone and everything is out to kill him so he has a gun and several knives under his very large coat.

Most of his time is spent yelling at computers because theyre too slow for his liking.

Picks fights with sara over the stupidest little things, which sara wasnt even disagreeing with him on.

The unfortunate person who has to watch over all the children

Koyou scares him.

Higuchi is like the only non intimidating person to him, and exclusively because of how non-decietful she is.

Hatred for dazai osamu

Admiration of chuuya nakahara

Hatred of mori

Confusion of akutagawa ryuunosuke

People i dont have much thoughts on:

Megumi is a part of the special ability division.

Hayasaka is a member of the port mafia

The satous are part of the port mafia.

Mishima and nao live normal lives.

Q-taro is a part of the guild.

Hanako is an ex port mafia member

Clown girl is leading a normal life as a clown. (But im kinda considering throwing her in rithod and giving her an ability)

Ranmaru joined the port mafia for sara

Miley works with tia. But has ties to the port mafia

Teki....is teki???

Shes like..the miku of bsd i guess.

Main plot points im experimenting with: (midori exclusive)

Midoris motive from joining the ada being finding fyodor due to more information on "god" and assuming they follow the same god for this.

Midori being found out by dazai/ranpo/keiji , because midori is forced to switch into shins body to save shins ass during an ada raid. (Probably during the cannibalism) because midori isnt skilled enough in combat to hide his combat style. And shin cant fight for shit.

Midori getting his ass beat by keiji due to giving him piss hair and trauma.

Midori and fyodor kiss and make out (aka midori magically manifests in the tower during dead apple because his ability would just...be a copy of shin)

[burtai]

Slowly making up bios for all my new FFXIV muses before I start reblogging stuff and make a new promo but I figured I'd throw the disgustingly long list on here. Is this also so that I can get tags for them sorted? No shut up

Canon Characters ☼ Hesperos - Pandaemonium Raid Series | Ancient ☼ Hythlodaeus - Chief of the Bureau of the Architect | Ancient ☼ Seiryu - Resident Serpent Guy of the Four Lords ☼ Koana - Vow of Reason ☼ Jullus pyr Norbanus - Officer of the 1st Imperial Legion ☼ Lord Joacin Charlemend Francel de Haillenarte - youngest son of House Haillenarte ☼ T'laqa Tia - Professor of Aetherology in the Studium of Old Sharlayan

OCs ☼ Vesper - Sundered Source shardlet of Hesperos ☼ Florian Desjardins - It's just Florian but in XIV font ☼ Aristaeus - it's just Florian but in Ancient (slash Azem (verse-dependent)) font ☼ Dionysos - Holder of the Seat of Altima on the Convocation of Fourteen ☼ Freyr Elpiakis - tiny twink of a Viera but also he's a tank ☼ Auguste Thibaut - Ishgardian Duskwight academic

[prettyhawkward]

TW- abuse mentions, DID stuff, physical medical stuff, child abuse. In general just approach with caution if you're easily triggered or just don't want that sort of stuff in your brain!

🖤

Just musings/rantings on DID stuff for my own reference-

I've spent so much time picking apart my own actions and words and happenings. And like many traumatised folk, I carry an unhealthily large dose of 'you're a massive faker/attention seeking prick' right inside my guts.

I suppose the most notable thing about that is that this /doesn't/ give me any extra attention. I live with my two kids and partner system. We've honestly mostly got this shit down... we mostly can tell who is who, we roll with it. Anyone fronting is given the same respect and affection and care regardless of who they are. It's created a sense of safety and love which is exactly what you need when you're like... I dont know. An alter whose entire existence was about being hurt or whatever...

But recently there's been stuff happening. It feels like you have periods of like... calm and its not normalcy. Our day to day lives in private are normal and comfortable for us. We clean, we do crafts, we buy food and make dinners, we take the kids to school and when we can afford it on trips or for treats. But I'd say underneath that is the awareness that for most people it's not a daily occurance to maybe be five or seven different people at different points and not have their partner be the same.

Healing is a weird process. Integration in the sense of.. alters coming forward, communicating and allowing themselves to be seen is not at all a linear thing and tbh it is awful at times.

Last week I had a seizure in the street. This was preceded by nightmares and hallucinations of alters that go back to when I was a child.

I've had two TIA's and a history of migraines so tbh I did just assume. Hey, there's probably something physically wrong with my brain and I'm going to die. I do have elevated wbc so I'm fighting something, but I'm also midway through a pancreatitis flare up so I /would/ have elevated wbc. Like..

Anyway. Night before last I started drifting to sleep at around 10.20pm or so. I was dreaming about my house, just vaguely wandering around as I always do. It's my house. We live here. I hear footsteps and I put my hand behind me in a greeting, someone took my hand. Again, this is my house, I'm familiar with my people. This feels weird and different so I turn and 'He' is there and I'm like... immediately a bit irritated. My head and body hurts and I'm like. Come on. I'm tired of this. I'm tired of 'new' alters creeping out of the darkness like little bugs skittering out because they feel safe. This is just me personally. But I don't want to learn there's other parts. Knowing there's others in here involves at least subconsciously acknowledging that there's always going to be trauma and memories suppressed that deeply. I don't want to know that. Who wants to acknowledge that this man exists this vividly because something terrible happened to you? You know it had to be when you were a child because you remember seeing him when you were a child. You know damn well the kinds of evil fucked up things people do to little kids. I don't want to think about that. I don't want to even imagine that that's possible. Why do you exists then? I was lonely, sure, but you're not the friends who kept me company. I had a little girl called Clementine, and a boy called George. They're now parts of other alters. But they were my little friends. I used to see them sitting on the swing or running next to me. Laying in bed on my side and holding their hands listening to my parents scream and throw things and slam doors. George would sit with me when I would hide in this closet. (Lol) I drew a picture of him in there. So, somewhere in a closet in Egypt there's a little drawing of George with his silly hair. He was ginger, which was probably a heavy projection from my love of Anne of Green Gables at the time.

On one birthday I made little cakes and treats out of blue-tak and we squeezed into this little cupboard underneath the boiler and 'blew out' the candles. (Like most autistic kids I loved squeezing into dark/surrounded areas.)

But like.. to me those make sense. I was a lonely kid with an active imagination and I was dissociating from a pretty traumatising environment with very little stability. We moved every few months. As we got older it became fun to joke that it was a miracle if we stayed anywhere longer than 6 months, so we had no friends, or any friends we made we knew would soon be gone. You can't make lasting connections or friendships when next week you'll be flying to a different country or whatever. So, might as well carry those in your mind with you. I vividly remember a thought along the lines of 'you can't take away someone if they're in my head with me'. Like it was a powerfully vindictive thought for how young I was.

This man- I know he's been here a long time. So I know. I'm not stupid. You can't convince me you get alters like this because you used to get beaten or starved or moved too much or were lonely. If you're a little kid, and your tiny little child brain conjures up a figure meant to stand with you and protect you. Or cover your eyes so you can't see the bad stuff. He's going to look scary. But amusingly, heavily inspired by all the tales of the devil they told us. 'He's beautiful and effeminate (because its evil for a male to have female characteristics and vice versa, like full on BS) he has pale skin and long hair. Long painted nails. Black lips and pointed teeth. Inhumanly tall/long limbed. He moves faster than you have time to blink and his voice is silky and creeps inside your mind.' It cracks me up in hindsight. You told little kids that /this/ is what the devil looks like. Literally used the words beautiful again and again.

Anyway, this dream... I was holding his hand, I was confused because it wasn't /my/ Sebastian and in my weird state I didn't entirely get what this was. I tried to pull my hand back, but he held it harder and pulled me close, pushed me against the wall and the wall was holding me there while he pressed his hand into my chest and I was trying to fight and push him off but it was like he was trying to push into my chest. I couldn't breathe and I got into that half awake/half paralysed sleep paralysis state and in that state I could see him standing over me next to my bed pushing on my chest and I was panicking because I really couldn't breathe in at all and then Sebastian pushed him off and I could move my finger and break out of the paralysis. It took a while to fade off all the way and because I had been inside the walls there were like spiders crawling inside my ears and I felt crawling all over me.

My 'trauma' and internal workings have always merged into the visual waking world. Like even if it was just the whole vividly seeing alters outside in the waking world. As a child they performed countless 'exorcisms' on me because I hadn't yet learned to keep it to myself that there was a beautiful woman staring at everyone from the side of the room.

Now as an adult I can /generally/ tell the difference between the people in my head and the people outside. Generally.

Audio stuff is harder to differentiate. In the safety of home and with a partner who gets it and isn't at all like, hey do you mind, we often fall into the comfortable habit of responding or talking to each other out loud but obviously that comes with dangers of like... you can't be doing that in public. It happens. But people don't really like it.

Things like drugs, alcohol, sleep deprivation or stress can make the lines blur in a way that makes it much harder to differentiate. I've tried to explain it as at any point I can see my house and the outside world. There's an overlap. It's comfortable and familiar to close my eyes and ease into my house. I'm safe in here. You can't hurt me because you can't come in here and the people with me would soon have you dealt with in various vicious ways.

I don't even remember what my intention was with writing this... just musing. I'm going through processes and somehow life just.. keeps on. What a life.

[expectiations]

the only goal i can objectively achieve in life is making sure my drafts stay under or the same as my follower count

[ochazos]

Are you happy with how your favorite canon muse was portrayed in canon?

How far do go with divergencies when it comes to your canon muse?

Questions for the mun / @fatexbound - accepting

// errrrr. so it's hard to say who my favorite canon muse IS. like right now it's makoto and I would say more or less though he is pretty basic. if it means character i am ungodly attached to that i rped, it would be g'raha tia and that is a whole can of worms because yes and no. but it's more like i HATE the way fanon has made him and i live in fear that the canon starts bending to that because he is literally one of the most complex characters i have ever seen and loved and people for some reason still can't figure out that he doesn't have two personalities and that he is literally still the same guy and he doesn't seem as depressed because he isn't LITERALLY GOING TO KILL HIMSELF AT THE END OF THE STORY like he was earlier. Like this part of his character is literally early game him and him later MIXED TOGETHER. because he gets to actually LIVE instead of be burdened with trying to save two worlds at once and know that the person that he loves (if you see it that way which i do) is going to suffer and hate him due to him HAVING to betray them in order for the plan to work. idk just... i am not normal about him. canon is fine. i feel like i live in constant fear that the balance is going to be out of whack which is has been in some instances. and obviously xiv could def lean more on him learning to be present in this day and age a little bit more too but blah blah it's an mmo. i wish i could write him and explore more of that stuff but honestly writing him was hellish due to the sheer amount of ship forcing since he is such a top contender for a love interest for the protagonist which i ship too but it was just all anyone ever wanted without anything deeper.

// it depends on the muse. there are so characters that were done dirty by the source material. i tend to be more divergent when i am super unhappy with the way things are settled or handled. for example: any female character in xiv basically or characters that are killed for no reason aside from pointless shock value. i tend to be more canon aside from if i totally fucking hate what is done with the character.

[feraecor]

“👀” + “He’s moved on and living a happier life despite the outcome of before, y’know the whole ‘out of sight, out of mind’ .” (Nesimah about Sivel // 🥺😌)

@lunarxdaydream | Third Party Muse Answers | Accepting (cause its funny)

Tia ran a hand through her hair absently as she sat next to Nesimah's bed, waiting for him to regain consciousness. After his fight with Sivel and their argument, all in the center of the revel, it had been a hectic scene of trying to get him out of there without any one stopping them.

Propping her chin on one of her hands, she absentmindedly fiddled with the blanket. "You know...he's probably moved on, Em. He's pretty happy, at least from what it looks like. I've seen him with that one gentry and..." Tia huffed and pressed her forehead to the bed. "Despite what happened before...y'know before the whole out of sight, out of mind stuff...he's been moving forward..."

"I think you should do the same thing. Focus on yourself, maybe finding a purpose outside of the past...something or maybe someone to focus on? You have friends here, but you've been alone so long...its just something to keep in mind..."

"You have people in your corner, Nesimah and I just...don't want you to keep hurting yourself like this." Tia sighed and pushed at his hand. "So wake up already and buck the fuck up."

[arachnaesfurie]

Your Muses Inventory ! Inventory: In a roleplaying game, inventory refers to the collection of items your character is currently carrying  !

Rules: List the things your Muse carries in their pockets or bags in their every day life. Repost, don’t Reblog ! Optional: Explain their significance. Original @treasurechestrpmemes​ !  

Tagged By: @h-osborn Tagging: @wallcravvler @h0b1e @awolxsiblings (Ayleen) @spiiderneon @sambaranha @neonwebs @chxxseyourfighter (Miles)

I think Alecto has a good amount of stuff in her pockets and bags, from day life or nightlife.

Pocket-

Keys--house, car, and gym locker key. They're on a pink lanyard that is decorated with stickers when her sister had a sticker face

Sharpies--she loves to create art, and sometimes will pull out a random piece of paper from her purse and start doodling. She tries to get a variety of colors if she decides to just go full artist and make designs. Mainly for her spidersuit.

Wallet--has her school ID, regular ID, money, a debit card, cash, and pictures of her family. The last family picture involved her dad, a picture of her baby sister Tia, and her and Nico one time when they went to Disneyland.

Phone--A well-reliable, good ol phone that has a slight crack when she fell in the tomb when she went to Greece for the summer after her father's death. Despite the crack--it's still very good. The phone is fingerprint locked so it only activates for her only.

Earbuds--tangled and a mess in her pocket.

In her bags would be...

Notebooks--full of art history notes, and research on learning from Frida Khalo to Vincent Van Gogh. In the corner, there's little doodles of scribbles and practicing her "signature" script when she becomes famous.

Granola bars, snacks--every college student/superhero has to have something to eat? And she loooveesss granola bars with chocolate chips.

Pepper spray, pocket knife--Living in Los Angeles, in the area where some gangs are, makes one extremely cautious. Although she had super strength, she had to pull her punches, and would always have pepper spray around if she gets cornered on her way to her dorm, or home.

Her spidersuit--in a worn-out duffel bag that she keeps in the backseat under her driver's seat. She kind of flips in the seat when she's alone and goes to switch in the back.

[013hasablognow]

blog intro 😋

hii!! im buffporcupine but this is my rp blog!! i’ll use it occasionally since i won’t post many starters, but i’ll use this blog for rps as to not clutter my main.

everything is below the cut bc this post is kinda long!

~ stuff I WILL rp:

-oc x canon (I can play the canon character or the oc)

-oc x oc

-angst (including heavy angst, but I won’t go beyond what the other person wants to have in our rp)

-implied angsty stuff

I’ll add to this list when i think of more stuff lol, if it’s reasonable and if it’s not in the no-go list, then go for it lolz.

~ stuff i WILL NOT rp:

-large age gap, stuff of that sort

-unhealthy stuff

-i don’t do 18+/smut rps (I’m a minor)

-just don’t do anything repulsive and you’ll be fine

~ Anyway, my main muse list is ocs, but I can also do canon characters from Danganronpa, Your Turn To Die, BNHA, Death Note, and some other stuff. i’m also better at playing girls and genderqueer characters than boys.

when listing ocs, I do their name, an additional name if possible in brackets, then gender in parentheses. genders I list are male, female, and gnc/gq (gender non-comforming/genderqueer).

also, i hope i’m using the word muse right! i’m not good at rp vocab.

ocs (i’ll link the intro posts as i make them):

-Kiyomi Itō (f)

-Rosa [Clover] (f)

-Akira Itō (m)

-Aurelia Scott [Aurie, Scotty] (F)

-Kirumi [kiru] (gnc)

-013 (f)

-R [Raye, Ricky] (f)

More ocs to be added soon lolz!!

~

Canon Characters I will Play:

For these, I’ll bold any character I prefer/ like especially.

Danganronpa Trigger Happy Havoc

Sayaka Maizono

Toko Fukawa (Genocider Syo as well)

Mondo Ohwada

Kiyotaka Ishimaru

Junko Enoshima

Mukuro Ikusaba

Chihiro Fujisaki

Kyouko Kirigiri

Super Danganronpa 2: Goodbye Despair

Mikan Tsumiki

Ibuki Mioda

Mahiru Koizumi

Peko Pekoyama

Akane Owari

Gundham Tanaka

Hajime Hinata

Chiaki Nanami

Sonia Nevermind

Danganronpa V3: Killing Harmony

Kaede Akamatsu

Kirumi Tojo

Rantaro Amami

Korekiyo Shinguji

Tenko Chabashira

Himiko Yumeno

Miu Iruma

Kokichi Ouma

Kaito Momota

Tsumugi Shirogane

Death Note

Light Yagami

L Lawliet

Misa Amane

Kiyomi Takada

Your Turn To Die

Sara Chidouin

Joe Tazuna

Kanna Kizuchi

Reko Yabusame

Alice Yabusame

Gin Ibushi

Sue Miley

Tia Safalin

~ If you wanna do a ship rp for two (or more, idc) canon characters, then just say so, and as long as it’s in the realm of reasonability, then I’ll do it.

~ Thank you for reading!

[fandom-rpfinder]

hello! i'm squid, he/him, i'm 21 looking for preferably someone around my age (def no one below 18, obv) for a most likely kinda vaguely canon compliant final fantasy 14 (XIV) roleplay on discord!

i preferrrr cc x cc, but i LOVE final fantasy 14 ocs, they make me so unbelievably happy! so any oc x cc, or even oc x oc if i'm feeling the vibes strongly enough are good for me. i personally like to write a lot of ccs, solely because they are really precious to me and some of their stories hit super hard! i don't really double up though tbh that's a Lil too much for me...scary

my main muses, aside from my ocs, are...

- g'raha tia

- emet-selch

- hermes

- themis/elidibus

- alisaie

- sidurgu orl

however! the muses i have kind of sort of very vaguely dabbled in/would Like to write are...

- zenos

- lahabrea (!!!!)

- thancred

- estinien

- wuk lamat 🥹

i have the most brainworms specifically for the ancients/the ascians, they're so unbelievably precious to me. most of all tbh is emet-selch/hythlodaeus, they're. ugh. Ugh!! mostly what i'm looking for here tbh. BUT!!! again, i do love cc x oc, and my guilty pleasures definitely have to be some cuties azemet, dark knight wol x sidurgu, and wol x g'raha. maybe some shadowbringers stuff to be had there....

regardless, i got a lot of thoughts, and just want an ffxiv writing partner to bounce em off of! if you like this post then i will shoot you a dm, or you can just straight up dm me and we can go from there!

👾

[oc-menagerie-archived]

“checklist”

TIa

Send  “checklist” and my muse will fill out the list below with their thoughts about yours! For multimuse blogs, please specify sending/receiving muses. (Modified from/inspired by this meme.)

I find you to be:

[ X ] interesting [ X ] cute [ X ] attractive [ X ] sexy [ X ] reassuring [ ] intimidating [ ] annoying [ ] tedious [ ] terrifying

I think we should:

[ X ] talk more [ X ] hang out more [ X ] date [ ] adopt each other as found family [ ] fight (friendly) [ ] fight (hostile) [ ] avoid each other if at all possible

If we spent an evening together we would:

[ X ] just hang out [ X ] talk about deep stuff [ X ] cuddle [ X ] go to bed together (to sleep) [ X ] go to bed together (to… not sleep) [ X ] go out and party till sunrise [ ] both get arrested [ ] probably wind up killing each other

If we kissed it would be:

[ ] a chaste press of lips [ X ] a playful smooch [ X ] swift and stolen [ X ] deep, sweet, and sincerely meant [ ] all teeth and tongue and hot as heck [ ] not happening

If we had sex it would be:

[ X ] romantic and luxurious [ ] fast, rough and hard [ ] against the nearest wall [ X ] fantastic [ ] awkward [ ] a really bad idea [ ] an all-around disaster [ ] not happening

If I woke up and found you unexpectedly in my bed I would:

[ X ] cuddle you [ X ] offer you breakfast [ ] attempt to seduce you [ ] kick you out [ ] demand to know how you got there [ ] scream