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[iamrubyjanerabaca]

2023.10.26 Giving up

I don’t normally give up on things that are hard for I am me. I don’t pretend to be like everyone else. I am who I am, not who people think I am. I don’t have time for drama (but somehow is always caught by drama). If you don’t like who I am, then that’s alright. I am not living for people (anymore). I am living for myself and for God who has his arms around me all the time.

I’ve built walls around to ensure I never get hurt again, but now I know I should trust the right people. I shouldn’t put my energy into meaningless relationships and toxic people. I know my worth and won’t settle for less than I deserve.

Today, I have witnessed how God has his hands around me from sparing me of trouble for the activities I have set out for my kids to enjoy Halloween which didn’t sit right with everyone at work. But God had me protected.

Then, I am supposed to have breakfast with co-workers tomorrow which won’t happen anymore because my boss cancelled the plan today. Which I am grateful because I don’t want to be around people whom I can feel ingenuity.

God humbled me today that regardless how fierce I look getting through the day, I am still but a weak creation made by God. He is my strength and he my deliverer. My only hope and salvation. Thank you Lord Jesus for another day that you have allowed me to see your goodness.

[iamrubyjanerabaca]

2024.7.24 22

Dear Self,

You made it! 22 thriving years. No cuts for this long. I am proud of you though emotions are bigger and stronger, you held strong.

Self, always remember that you are not alone. When times come and loneliness creeps in, allow yourself to feel it and get through it. God is with and walks with you through this.

Don’t be scared. You have everything you need. You are so much better than you think you are.

Be more prayerful each day. Be more grateful each day. Trust that you can do everything you want to do and achieve all that you want to achieve if you put your heart and mind to it without forgetting your Lord, Jesus Christ.

Always dedicate and give back all the glory to Him. You cannot do it alone but with Him you can do everything.

Loving you a little bit more each day,

Me

[iamrubyjanerabaca]

2024.7.20 Into the Unknown

There is so much to say but few words to describe things at the moment.

23rd. Drunk. Tired. Happy. Sad. Frustrated. Hopeless. Hopeful. Grateful. I don’t even know anymore.

Here’s me, sharing my piece/s.

Hoping to see glimmers of hope in the unknown.

#confused

[iamrubyjanerabaca]

2024.5.23 Moved out.

It’s been almost a month and a half since I moved out from the Land of the Rising Sun to the Land of the Free.

Life is still the same : ups, downs, twists, turns and everything in between. In all these, I am beyond grateful for what the Lord has done.

For now, I leave this post open to log how life had been 6months ago up until today.

All I can say is, the Lord Jesus Christ has done it again and again for me. He was, is and will forever be my redeemer and my anchor of hope.

[iamrubyjanerabaca]

2023.10.7 Anchor

Today as I was changing my earrings before bed. I saw my anchor earrings, 2 pairs of it. I also got an anchor necklace and a cross hoops.

It remind me that the anchor of my hope is Christ for He alone is my savior and my salvation.

I also remembered that the cross reminded me the without Christ, I will not be able to come to God. I will not be reconciled with God without Christ. He alone is my savior and my king. How privileged am I to called His child, his princess. I may not be a princess here on earth but my crowns are in heaven and while I am here on earth, tonight I pray that God continue to guide me and hone me to be the godly woman he desired for me to be. I also pray that he continues to remind me that I am His. Life here on earth is not easy but then again I am here for a purpose and for whatever it is and however it may be, I pray that I continue to do good to glorify His name.

Again, thank you Lord Jesus Christ for reminding me that the anchor of my soul is You.

[iamrubyjanerabaca]

2023.8.8 Dandelions

Recently came back to doodling but I don’t think this is a doodle, I don’t know art. I’m not good as it but I try because it’s interesting. Sketch here, sketch there, sketch everywhere.

These are the few I’ve made during my first week of summer vacation.

I owe this to the Man above who allows me to have creations like these.

Thankful.

[iamrubyjanerabaca]

2023.7. 5 HALF

Half of the year has gone by and today is just another appointment day at the base. It’s crazy how far have I gone through. I never thought I would be doing these things.

A lot has happened in 6 months. I got to travel with my then boyfriend now husband without having to think about money because he paid for everything. Okay background story before we left for that winter break, we got into a fight and it really scared me but I surrendered immediately. My husband found out that I was still talking to my ex and he didn’t like it. We have very different mindset about relationships, I used to think there’s nothing wrong with still being friends with your ex but then I realized how hurt my husband was and he literally told me “I am not an option!”. That was my awakening. I immediately said sorry because in that instant God told me to surrender it to him and I did. My husband and I prayed together and he stayed. Fast forward, here we are : married.

Married. Wow. It’s a word I have been longing for a long long time and God has truly fulfilled his promise. I knew then that it was undeserved grace for me when my husband chose to stay and fought for us giving us another chance. I knew it wasn’t just my husband, I knew it was God and I thank God for allowing my husband to stay and for allowing us to enjoy what we have now.

Tomorrow, we will be 2 months married. When God moves, he moves in mysterious ways. I never thought I would be married to someone whom I’ve only known less than a year.

3 months of knowing each other through email, decided to date each other, spent 3 weekends together before he goes back to a 4 month deployment and back to emailing each other again everyday (this time). Came back from deployment, spent weekends together before our actual trip to Kansai area. Spent Christmas together, enjoyed the snow in Hiroshima, met his friends, met my friends, enjoying each other’s time. Then talked about what I mentioned above and went on a trip. Known each other better. Talked about the future, started talking about getting married. Timelines and plans. He tested positive for H. Pylori, got more serious about getting married and timelines where and how are we going to make the paper work. Started to do the paperwork through his command and it didn’t work, got led to a person who was also processing the same thing as we do. He was taught how to do the online ceremony and it’s legal. Prayed about it as it was going fast and decided to get married. Engaged and I broke the ring and he was just laughing coz the ring was cheap so it didn’t really bother him. I cried but he laughed. I had to get it fixed and I couldn’t find a place to get it fixed. The day before our wedding, we went out late to find our rings, engagement ring included. He chose the ring I wanted, I didn’t need a fancy one. I don’t need big stones. I just want to get married and we did. He got orders to go back to the states. We were left with just a month to spend time together and before his flight. Sent him off to fly through a military plane back to the states. Spent the night together before his flight traveled for an hour to get to the airport and saw my kids in school while in train. He looked happy to see my kids and wasn’t even bothered when I spent 20mins talking to my kids. He’s the sweetest. He left and now it’s been almost a month since he left and I am just truly grateful for what the Lord has done to my life. Insurmountable blessings over blessings in the first half of 2023. I don’t know what is in-store for us in this second half of the year.

But all glory to God. We will continue to pray and hope and have faith that God will bring us back to each other’s arms. For now, we just want to spend more time talking and resting our case in our God’s hands.

Truly, our God is amazing.

[iamrubyjanerabaca]

2023.2.9 God is great. There is no other way to describe the God who’s with me, for me and in me. Jesus, how faithful are you to me, you are incomparable my Lord. You deserve all the praise and glory. You deserve everything, my Lord, my God, my personal Savior : Jesus Christ. Background: So, I wasn’t at my best mood today due to life’s mundane and came home a bit “meh” few hours later while chilling with my boyfriend @armadillodick online. He on blender and I on my writing and reading, suddenly came across an old notebook I had in 2021. In there, I read how honest I was with my emotions toward God and read His promises to me on the 103rd day of 2021. God’s promise was that He will make me a companion for someone. Fast forward 2023, I am now a companion for Moises Israel Aguilarsanchez. God keeps his promise. God is constantly at work in me and I will continually pray for me to have a receptive heart for me to serve Him better. #godgirl #prayingwomanofgod #thrivingwomanofgod #grateful (at Arashiyama) https://www.instagram.com/p/CocLusIJLJo/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[iamrubyjanerabaca]

2023.1.17 Little Things In my life, small things are my cornerstones. Thank God for all the small things He has given and provided for me. To Him, I give the honor and glory. Lesson learned days before 2023: When guilt is attached to holding on, the only remedy is to let go. Let go of everything literally everything and continue looking forward in faith. This is to protect oneself and people that matters to me the most. Again, God has been very graceful. #godgirl #thrivingwomanofgod #pray #relationship #smallthingsmatter #faithful #workinprogress (at Arashiyama) https://www.instagram.com/p/CnhKVV-JRgR/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[iamrubyjanerabaca]

093/365.2 3 decades and 5! Can you imagine? How blessed am I to be called His daughter. He who knows me completely celebrated my birth. I loathe celebrating my birthday for many reasons but December 9th from this year, I will celebrate you. I will celebrate myself. I will celebrate because I was born and my God decided to bring me to this broken world for a reason. 35years of existing, thriving, and pursuing life of greatness on earth with my Lord, my God. *deep breaths 😉 This I leave to remember December 9,2022 : “Now we see things imperfectly, like puzzling reflections in a mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity. All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely.” ‭‭1 Corinthians‬ ‭13‬:‭12‬ ‭NLT‬‬ #birthdays #35 #godgirl #love #thrivingwomanofgod https://www.instagram.com/p/Cl-AlY9vH72/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[iamrubyjanerabaca]

058/365.2 My journey of self love isn’t about me being selfish, it’s about me becoming the best version of myself. I want to be able to stand tall and free myself from what people think about me but think about what God think about me. I believe He wants me to be the best version of myself and so here I am, making a stand. #realizations #adulting #independentlydependent #godgirl #thrivingwomanofgod #trustinggod #hiswaysnotourways (at Hiroshima) https://www.instagram.com/p/Ck4nuvZpccq/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[iamrubyjanerabaca]

064/365.2 FALLING IN LOVE with the process of becoming the best version of myself. As for many of you who knows me or closely watching me, I was a people-pleaser and sometimes I still am but as I walk outside today, seeing how leaves turn from green to yellow to orange to red so is me. Slowly allowing myself to be vulnerable about what I truly feel without hesitation but there are times I find myself explaining myself when I didn’t have to. But that is all part of the process. The process of becoming the BEST version of myself. Preparing to re-introduce myself in a whole new level. 😉 Just be patient with me as I am with myself. #thrivingwomanofgod #godgirl #newself (at Hiroshima) https://www.instagram.com/p/Ckxu-uBJnZ5/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=