#thrillrs / sol.

[byanyan]

@thrillrs (lee sol) sent:ㅤ“hey, remember that time you kissed me?” he’s not looking at them, instead focusing on the floor beneath them, looking at the little patterns. he can’t bring himself to look up at them, unwilling to see the expression on their face after his confession. “it was my first kiss… just… thought you’d like to know.”

ㅤeyebrows raise in response to the question, despite the fact that sol is very pointedly not looking at them — a silent 'yeah, duh, of course i remember, it wasn't that long ago' — but byan otherwise waits for him to continue. he does, and... truthfully, they aren't as shocked as he perhaps thinks they will be. it's a bit of a surprise, to be sure — they tend to assume that most people have at least had a kiss by seventeen — but at the same time, sol has never really struck them as the sort to have played around with his sexuality all that much. that, they suppose, is what ended up intriguing them so much when he'd first said he wasn't opposed to the idea of kissing them.

although it's probably not the response he's looking for, byan can't help but chuckle at the admission.

ㅤㅤ" yeah? well, that explains why y'just stared at me for like two whole minutes afterward, "ㅤthey tease, an easy, if also amused grin pulling at their features. it's kind of cute, really, the way he's straight up admitting to it being his first kiss even though he's obviously so shy about it. kind of brave even, in a way, given he no doubt expects to hear no end to them bugging him for it, considering how well he knows them by now. honestly, if the situation was reversed, they wouldn't have said a damn word, so they can't help but kind of respect the choice.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤ—not that it's going to stop them from teasing him over it, but still.

ㅤㅤ" damn though, didn't think you were quite that green. y'should'a said somethin', we could'a made it a little more special. "ㅤstepping closer to him now, amusement glints in their eyes, and byan gives their eyebrows a playful wiggle.ㅤ" could make your second kiss a little more remarkable t' make up for it, if y'want. "

[byanyan]

ㅤㅤ" says the guy who's had two kisses in his whole life, an' both of 'em were with me, "ㅤthey chuckle, even though the compliment does have them preening a bit. obviously they'll seem like a good kisser, given they're the one with experience and he has no one to compare them to, but hey — a compliment is a compliment, and they'll happily take it.

sol is enjoying himself too, it would seem — byan is admittedly somewhat surprised by his eagerness to continue, although they certainly aren't complaining. lips part to agree, but sol is leaning in to catch them with his own before any sound can escape. huh. he's way more into this than they expected. smiling into the kiss, byan's eyes close over again and they press in with a little more pressure this time just to keep things interesting.

the kiss is relatively clumsy again on sol's part but, with it being his first time engaging in such an act, they can't exactly fault him for that. what's important is that he's learning fast, his movements already becoming less stilted and stiff, which has byan making a quiet noise of approval against his mouth — an encouragement of sorts to let him know he's on the right track. the fingers in sol's hair begin toying idly with his dark locks, meanwhile the hand bunched in the fabric of his shirt releases its grip in favour of coming to a rest against his waist. this isn't exactly where they anticipated their answer to something as dumb as 'kiss, marry, kill' would lead, but it is, they think, probably the best case scenario.

the kiss is overwhelming at first, as the kiss progresses, it becomes painfully clear that he has no clue what he's supposed to do. and when he picks up on the gentleness on their end, he's a bit surprised, he didn't know that they were capable of such a thing. it's a nice surprise, their gentleness is what helps him become more confident, and soon enough, he's able to pick up on some of what they're doing.

still not enough to be good, but that's what practice is for!

when they finally pull away from the kiss, there's a smile on his face, only growing when he sees that grin on their face. unlike their fist kiss, he can actually look them in the eyes afterwards, although he does have to think about their words. “ it was good, better than the first one.... you're a really good kisser. ” his compliment is genuine, even though he's completely biased, since they're his only kiss.

“ ... but i think we should keep going, just so we can practice. ” and this time, it's his turn to initiate the kiss, pressing his lips against theirs.

[byanyan]

ㅤhe's faster to respond this time, that's good. then again, he's had a lot more warning this time around, and one previous experience to build off of. he's picking things up pretty quickly too, almost surprising them when they feel his arm wrapping around their shoulder — it's a good sign though, it shows an eagerness that his nerves must have been concealing.

despite being one to enjoy a lot more intensity in a kiss, byan suspects that this is already fairly overwhelming for sol, still too new to the whole thing to be prepared for anything more than a simple, baseline kiss. so... that's what they give him. taking it slow, they keep the movement of their lips gentle and easy, leading the way through example, guiding him through a much less spontaneous kiss. it's... kind of nice, actually. there's something very pleasant about the act — maybe it's the simplicity of it? or maybe it has something to do with this being sol, someone they consider a friend, who they've grown relatively close with? orrr... perhaps it's the lack of pressure for anything more?

ㅤ—whatever it might be, byan can't deny that they're enjoying themself.

ㅤㅤ" how's'at? "ㅤquestion comes in a low murmur when they pull back a few moments later, though not so far away that he won't be able to feel their breath against his lips. eyes flutter open, eager to see the other's reaction, and already their grin is beginning to creep its way across their features once more, inquiry present in the way they quirk an eyebrow.ㅤ" better than the first one? or should we keep goin' 'til we really get it right? "

when they give him that look, checking to see if he's okay with this, his heart flutters. there's something about that look that makes his heart go crazy, he doesn't know what it is about them. that damn grin of theirs, makes him feel things he's never felt before. he does appreciate the way they're going about this, if they just kissed him right then and there, he'd probably have the same reaction as last time.

he's given more time to prepare himself for the kiss, but no amount of preparation can keep the nerves at bay. he's just really thankful that he's anticipating it.

although, at the same time, the fact that they're making him wait starts to make him antsy. especially when their faces are inches apart. a soft gasp escapes his lips when their arm wraps around their face, but he quickly relaxes. their lips finally meet, and sol immediately kisses back, practically melting into the kiss. his eyes close, and he eventually wraps drapes his arm over their shoulder.

it's funny, he never understood the appeal of kissing someone, but with their lips on his... he's beginning understand.

[byanyan]

ㅤa breath of a laugh escapes at how he doesn't back away as they close in, but still stammers nervously regardless. yeah, his inexperience is only continuing to make itself more obvious, but byan can't say that they mind. it's endearing. plus, they've always taken a great amount of joy in being able to fluster others.

ㅤㅤ" you would, huh? "ㅤgrin remaining firmly in place, they tilt their head to one side, eyes surveying sol's expression in detail. one thing they want to be sure of before proceeding is that he isn't uncomfortable, that it is just nerves that are affecting him — they might be pushy and forceful in getting their way in most things, but even they have lines they'll draw. bashful as sol might be though, he is encouraging them, so byan takes that next step closer, gaze leaving his eyes in favour of his lips.

the urge to poke a bit of fun at him is there, as it always is, but the part of them that wants him to have better experiences with his first few kisses than they did thinks better of it. —they can always tease him later, anyway.

wanting to up the anticipation this time, byan leans in more slowly than they had for the first kiss, grin softening ever so slightly. drawing to a pause less than an inch from sol's face, eyes flit back up to his, then back down as they close over and byan finally closes the space, catching his lips with their own. hands raise, one to grasp at the waist of his shirt, the other to come rest neatly along his jaw, fingers under his ear and tucking themselves into his hair. might as well show him what a kiss should be since they'd failed on that front the first time, right?

he doesn’t know what he expects, he feels like there are a million things they could do. and the more he thinks about it, the more worst case scenarios he comes up with. they could belittle him, call him a loser for not having his first kiss yet. would he blame them for having that kind of reaction? not necessarily. in fact, now that he thinks about it, that’s the kind of reaction he expects to get from them.

it’d crush him a bit, sure, but he’d get over it. after all, it was just a joke to them.

right?

the silence between the two is deafening, but thankfully, they speak up, so he doesn’t have to. he finally looks up at them, ignoring the way his heart flutters as he does look at them. their words do make him raise his eyebrows, as he wonders what they mean by that.

before he can ask, they’re stepping closer to him, causing his heart to pound against his chest. only now, does he find the right words to say. “ y-yeah? i’d like to see how you do that… ”