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beneathsilverstars · 6 months ago

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been thinking about the differences between SASASAP and ISAT lately. because looking just at ISAT and the two hats ending, you'd think loop went through the exact same house as our siffrin, but looking at SASASAP, it's different. it's mixed up. it's obviously a condensed prototype.

but. that doesn't have to mean it's a different universe entirely.

maybe that's just what happens after a thousand loops.

the house warped in act 5. siffrin lost their shit and the house got changed and corrupted, far past its baseline king uncanniness. so it wouldn't be too out-of-the-question for it to be able to warp in more subtle ways as well, due to a more subtle breakdown.

like a jpeg uploaded and downloaded a thousand times, siffrin changed, and the loops changed. over a thousand loops of efficiency, the house got more efficient. rooms combining. items moving. data compressing. and of course, run in a changed house, the script changed as well. it did so slowly, one bit at a time, over a thousand loops of zoned-out half-listening – and by the time siffrin would have noticed each difference, they were already used to it. (and in the moments that they did look at a room that was less familiar than it should be and realize that they had no idea where to find the key, well. that's just classic siffrin, isn't it.)

through sheer repetition, siffrin was corrupted, and the loops and the house along with them. all purpose lost, all signals distorted, until finally they couldn't recognize the meaning in any of it. it was all noise and despair.

so they made a wish. and the loop restarted. not just a reboot, but something more complete.

the data was backed up onto a star – a guide, a warning, a reference – and the loops were factory reset. and for the first time in a thousand loops, siffrin woke up to a clear mind and the crisp sound of birdsong.

#but NO MATTER HOW FAR LOOP WALKED they would STILL BE MADE OUT OF MUD!!!#sorry i love writing metaphors about loop i guess #here's a couple i had to cut. for cohesion. :#you ever sing along to a song so many times you could sing it in your sleep? you no longer use the same kind of music player that you first #listened to it on. but you still sing it in the shower and tap it onto your steering wheel and whistle it in the rain #and then one day you re-find the original on another platform and realize that somewhere along the line you'd started getting it wrong?#it was a little like that.#siffrin changed and the house changed and the script changed. one board of the deck and one thread of the sail at a time.#until one day that wreck of thesues could no longer recognize himself and made a wish.#in stars and time #isat loop #loop #isat #isat spoilers #in stars and time spoilers #sasasap #anyway. thinking of it this way makes it make a lot more sense to me why loop can't get magicked back to their old timeline #it doesn't exist. not any more than any of siffrin's 108 failed loops do.#siffrin is siffrin is siffrin #thoughts #thoughts about loop #thoughts about worldbuilding

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godblooded · 6 months ago

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you know i gotta be an old bastard about it but i miss the old school rpc.

#ooc. o kaptain.#[like. the days when you could arbitrarily send whatever and not ask yourself 32 times if it was fine. the days when reblog karma wasn’t a #discussion and no one had thread trackers or interest trackers because it was just writing and that was it. when the most graphics anyone #ever had were icons they probably found on lj or had painstakingly printscreened their obsessive media. i just. miss it sometimes. i wish it #didn’t feel so completely locked down and obsessively critical on every level. just thinking thoughts honestly. i just. miss when it was #RELAXED and everything wasn’t second guessed to hell or abandoned.]

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itspileofgoodthings · 1 month ago

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I find political talk so distressing. And not for the reasons you’d think.

#I mean or maybe you would idk #I think some of it has to do with the fact that I like to be—if not always in a central role. centered myself #holding many threads in my hands that tie back to others #weaving them all together. braiding. whatever metaphor you want #but weaving is part of the picture. and I do work with many threads all the time #but when it comes to politics I have simply no threads at all. and I don’t know how they fit together #it is isolating and awful.#it’s one of the only times I truly actually deeply wish I was married #I don’t even fully know why #but yeah.#anyways. it was a good day!#but it’s hard right now

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visionkept · 2 months ago

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I truly don't think Tomo would be able to see the aranaras. They are someone forced to grow out of that "child-wonder" early on in their life. Never had the time to be a "child" nor dream like one. From the start they centered themselves towards surviving and getting by so this "freedom of imagination", of dreaming and being as careless as one could be, was never something they had the chance to experience. Tomo's dreams as a child would be mostly about eating their favorite treats or having a warm roof above their head but those were occasional at best. You could say that they had to "grow up" to make it another day and that took away any chance to be a kid like any other. This has made them lose that kind of opportunity to see past some of the cruel reality of life. They are someone that focuses on what's present and what takes to get to that tomorrow, such way of thinking has never allowed them to have that pure and "free" way of seeing things like kids that most people lose when growing up. Most lose it when growing up, Tomo, on the other hand, wasn't able to even have it with everything they were subjected to as a child.

#︾╼╼ █ █ ║˚ ▹ HEADCANONS.▕🗲#ah tama would meow at the aranaras and play with them. tomo would think that she's playing with the air or the sunlight #cause they really can't see any of those lil creatures #aaargh asdkja kid tomo had to steal to survive and having three meals a day was rare... didn't have time to b a kid #hHMMM like they never had a 'imaginary friend' or a naive kid wish like wishing to b able to fly or breathe under water #they simply wanted something any one else had oooOF a wish that could b seen more as one of an adult. stability #hihi thread where your muse can see the aranaras but tomo can't ! !! and when your muse asks an aranara why tomo can't see them-#-the aranara goes: ' this human is a lil fucked up actually. are they even human? cause they didn't seem to go thro that kid phase at all'

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disfrutalaisla · 10 months ago

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Can someone tell me the lore with the ghost in the prison

#qsmp #I saw threads but they weren’t in English and the auto translations were messed up #I just saw a tiktok edit and even that was in languages I don’t know so I know literally nothing #Sidenote I wish we had more update accounts that followed literally everything and posted in every language #bc the qsmp ones giving a brief rundown of the day for other languages is so unhelpful with stuff like this

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one-vivid-judgment · 4 days ago

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Let's play "Is the seasonal depression coming back strong or am I just days/hours away from getting my period and my serotonin levels are, therefore, below the Earth's surface?"

#literally nothing excites me anymore rn #i turn on my switch to play and I'm exhausted barely two minutes in #i can't watch a series cause I'm not in the appropriate mood/headspace #i don't even bother opening the fic doc these days cause i know I'm gonna give up after like. 10 words #haven't gotten any more comments asking for updates on L&L thank God #but i did get a very guilt-trippy anon like. a few weeks ago or so? when someone asked if I still did yakuza hcs #i didn't see it until now #said smt like 'now imagine all the people who sent you requests crying and going HOW COULD YOU DELETE THEM? :)'#which like... fuck you then #i wish my hyperfixations could stay still for ten fucking minutes but guess what. that shit ain't up to me #and those kinds of asks are really NOT an incentive to come back to writing yakuza stuff if I ever jump back to it #like. girl I deleted all my hc posts before. you don't want that to happen again #but in any case that ask is the reason I've taken anon privileges away #I'm already hanging on by a thread and have barely functioned as a normal person this past week—#one more guilt trip and/or someone asking for fic updates and I'm gonna go ham on somebody

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yaoianimeremade · 8 months ago

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Soon im rly gonna do it

#🕸️#sui mention #< in the tags tho cuz it feels nicer to talk abt this in tags than in the post itself cuz to me posts are like talking normally but tags are #like whispering? talking you can tune out if you want but whispering is rather more voluntary to say it doesnt matter however #every single year passes and i wish i didnt live in each and every one of them i feel disconnected dissatisfied empty disappointed every day #it can be a small part of a day or a bigger but its still there clenching onto me like and never letting go im tired of it theres always a #wall between me and otyer ppl im unsure if i put it there or was it put there by other ppl but its there and even if anyone tries to reach #into it do i understand how even if close are we really far away it makes me understand just how much of an abnormality i am and how much i #cant ever be like them no matter how much i try and climb and crawl until i bleed its exhausting its maddening #almost everything i do is shaped by spite i wear one bracelet for years out of spite i dont smoke out of spite i dont shave my hands not #only because im normal abt body hair but also out of spite the more i know ppl the spiteful i get only way for me to truly like someone is #to keep them at a lenght outside that wall if they get in then theres only two choices for them to dislike me or even hate my entire being #or me to shove them back out without ever letting them get in #coworkers say im a nice kind person but im not its all just a facade to make my life easier and to suit myself im hateful but i dont believe #its entirely my fault after all they will to my face make fun of. laugh at. and hate everything of me they would see in other ppl that dont #hide it deep within like i do and then it rly hits me how different abnormal foul disgusting and unnatural i am #im hit with his every talk that goes on too long every word that keeps going every touch every expression every comment made on my behalf #its exhausting to live this way i fear im near my limit i havent reached it but who knows when i will #i sometimes dream of doing it and leaving behind a note wishing nothing but painful suffering to everyone i ever knew irl but i dont want to #do that to my best friends and my dog but who knows how long its left before the thread breaks #thats all like comment and subscribe if you personally would do me a favor by taking me out back and shooting me

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coollyinterferes · 9 months ago

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"Back by unpopular demand:"

"Us!"

#[*trips and falls to the ground like that one pepe frog meme but dramatically explodes into a million pieces instead* hi hi]#[i'll start by apologizing and thanking y'all for your patience bc wheew its been almost 2 months since my last post holy shittt]#[mental health along with intrusive thoughts and stuff have been absolute ass and still are right now]#[not gonna go into much detail bc i'm dealing with tons of bad stuff and negativity but yeah]#[at this point i aint even going to say 'im back!' bc everytime i do some even more terrible shit happens irl so naw]#[i also can't promise thread replies today bc i already know i'll likely not be able to finish any]#[but i will try to at least start working on some of them ;v;]#[other than that please feel free to send in stuff if you wish!]#[i haven't been around in so long that i feel completely rusty and out of the loop rn]#[but i think i'll start with the few asks i was unable to get to last time]#[if you guys who sent them see this: i'm sorry for the super looooong wait and thank you so much for your patience!!! <3]#[hope everyone's having a lovely day/night!!! <3]#;ic #(?#;ooc #(??#[the world will never truly know *x files music plays*]

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acourtofquestions · 1 month ago

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Boots crunched in hay, and then he was knee to knee before her.

Aedion.

There was nothing kind on his face. No pity or warmth.

For a long minute, they only stared at each other.

Then the prince growled softly, "Your plan was bullshit."

She said nothing, and couldn't stop her shoulders from curving inward.

"Your plan was bullshit," he breathed, his eyes sparking. "How could you ever be her, wear her skin, and think to get away with it? How could you ever think you'd get around the fact that our armies are counting on you to burn the enemy to ashes, and all you can do is run away and emerge as some beast instead?"

"You don't get to pin this retreat on me," she rasped. The first words she'd spoken in days and days.

"You agreed to let Aelin go to her death, and leave us here to be slashed to bloody ribbons. You two told no one of this plan, told none of us who might have explained the realities of this war, and that we would need a gods-damned Fire-Bringer and not an untrained, useless shape-shifter against Morath."

Blow after blow, the words landed upon her weary heart. "We—"

"If you were so willing to let Aelin die, then you should have let her do it after she incinerated Erawan's hordes!"

"It would not have stopped Maeve from capturing her."

"If you'd told us, we might have planned differently, acted differently, and we would not be here, damn you!"

She stared at the muddy hay. "Throw me out of your army, then."

"You ruined everything." His words were colder than the wind outside. "You, and her."

Lysandra closed her eyes.

Hay rustled, and she knew he'd risen to his feet, knew it as his words speared from above her bowed head. "Get out of my tent."

She wasn't certain she could move enough to obey, though she wished to. Needed to. Fight back. She should fight back. Rage at him as he lashed at her, needing an outlet for his fear and despair.

Lysandra opened her eyes, peering up at him. At the rage on his face, the hatred She managed to stand, her body bleating in pain. Managed to look him in the eye, even as Aedion said again with quiet cold, "Get out."

Barefoot in the snow, naked beneath her cloak. Aedion glanced at her bare legs, as if realizing it. And not caring.

So Lysandra nodded, clutching Ansel's cloak tighter, and strode into the frigid night.

"Where is she?" Ren asked, a mug of what smelled like watery soup in one hand, a chunk of bread in the other. The lord scanned the tent as if he would find her under the cot, the hay.

Aedion stared at the precious few logs burning in the brazier, and said nothing.

"What have you done?" Ren breathed.

Everything was about to end. Had been doomed since Maeve had stolen Aelin. Since his queen and the shifter had struck their agreement.

So it didn't matter, what he'd said. He hadn't cared if it wasn't fair, wasn't true.

Didn't care if he was so tired he couldn't muster shame at his pinning on her the blame for the sure defeat they'd face in a matter of days before Perranth's walls.

He wished she'd smacked him, had screamed at him. But she had let him rage. And had walked out into the snow, barefoot.

He'd promised to save Terrasen, to hold the lines. Had done so for years. And yet this test against Morath, when it had counted ... he had failed.

He’d muster the strength to fight again. To rally his men. He just ... he needed to sleep.

Aedion didn't notice when Ren left, undoubtedly in search of the shifter with who he was so damned enamored.

He should summon his Bane commanders. See how they thought to manage this disaster.

But he couldn't. Could do nothing but stare into that fire as the long night passed.

#Chapter 34 #Kingdom of Ash #Sarah J. Maas #Aedion Ashryver #Lysandra Ennar #no spoilers please #first read #read with me #read along #more tags more spoilers below and above warned #the magic thread - if only there was Aelin - the fire - what the sky shows - he had failed - retreat and live fight and die - to Perranth #the sound of shields is giving infinity war vibes and while I try to stay a little optimistic even I must admit things are getting sticky #the Crown Prince splattered with blood both red and black. — Manorian I’ll bleed whatever color you tell me to lol — the Thealis reference #Ashryver eyes dim — okay that one hurt — I will follow you cousin however this may end but we cannot keep this up not — to whatever end #Where is the Queen? Where is her Fire? but if the Firebringer fought without flame they would know — She has run away. AGAIN.#asking why Aelin of the Wildfire did not burn away their enemies Did not at least give them light by which to fight. Ok but I luv Wyvern Lys #Two Silent Assassins noticed on the second night that the dead soldier still lay on Lysandra's back. — a line that broke me #They treated her with kindness nonetheless. No one made to reach for the lone horse — Aedion should’ve been there should’ve been kind to her #Even the Queen of the Wastes was pale her wine-red hair plastered to her head beneath the dirt and blood. —no ur plan was bullshit #he’s not speak to her it’s him to him-You don't get to pin this retreat on me she rasped. The first words she'd spoken in days and days.#She wasn't certain she could move enough to obey though she wished to. Needed to. Fight back. Rage at him as he lashed at her. but she knew #he knew it and he’s wishing she’d punish him for it but she didn’t #Barefoot in the snow naked beneath her cloak. Aedion glanced at her bare legs as if realizing it. And not caring.#So Lysandra nodded clutching Ansel's cloak tighter and strode into the frigid night. — this chapter hurt me — I’m with Ren WHERE IS SHE #Aedion stared at the precious few logs burning in the brazier and said nothing… well not nothing & braziers double haunts me forever #Everything was about to end. Had been doomed since Maeve had stolen Aelin. Since his queen and the shifter had struck their agreement.#So it didn't matter what he'd said. He hadn't cared if it wasn't fair wasn't true… mmm no those words mattered they were awful #why must we repeat HoF mistakes per ship #He wished she'd smacked him had screamed at him But she had let him rage. And had walked out into the snow barefoot #soon — they will come soon — they ghost leopard dis not falter — the Crochans and Rolfe and ugh so many people just need to show up soon

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monster-noises · 3 months ago

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Ooo.. ouch. Just got very, rightfully,.. rejected? Dismissed?.. yeah sumarily Dismissed and Blocked

By a guy i've been talking to from a dating site and he was very nice about it but Ouch..

It's completely my fault, I am not good at responding to messages in a timely manner at the best of times and the past few Months have Not been the best of times and I've been leaving longer and longer gaps between replies which is completely unfair of me to do and definitely not cool or nice but I just couldn't make it happen

And i feel So Bad because he was really nice, and really patient, and really kind, and genuinely very nice to talk to but there truly is only so much one can take and I really can't blame him if he reached his limit like.. yeah.

It's one of the damn things about myself that i Desperately wish i could Fix because this is Not the first time this has happened (though usually i just get ghosted) and i'm Fully aware of how it looks from the other side, and it's Gutting to be so aware that I must come off as such a fucking Asshole

Sometimes I can pull it together and it gets better but so So much more often I just fumble it and the executive dysfunction and Reply Anxiety just gets Worse and Worse and it just catastrophically Drops out when my mental health takes a dip, which funnily always matches up with when i'm trying to get to know several new people at once lmao, and I can Try and Try but it doesn't get any better.. and I've managed to get through it with a Handful of people to the point where i have Less reply anxiety and can message them back Sooner (though often still at a delay) but on the whole this is just... How this goes

And I just wish i wasn't like this, I don't want to do this people but I don't want to be Alone but I don't know how to Fix It either and it just Sucks on top of everything else Sucking right now

Blegh

#monster noises #if i loose track of a notification and then loose track of time that's It I'm Finished #but then if a notification stays on my screen too long i get Scared and can't reply to it #the window is Soso small and Sososo precarious #and I feel like such a Jerk!!!#i don't want to do this people!!!!#but i am genuinely Trying to not do this and it still happens!!!!!!!!#i either forget to reply or i don't have the time or i don't have the energy #i don't understand how people can have multiple active one on one dm's and group chats and servers etc etc #because i try to keep One Text Thread alive and i literally can't because there is not enough time in the Day #for me to do that and Also Other Things #sometimes it really feels like i Less Time than other people #i just hate that I'm like this #i wish I knew what to do about it #something that would Actually Work #manual control only works Sometimes and can only take me so far #it's just really really shitty in the mean time

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risingsunresistance · 7 months ago

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IM GONNA BE SO POWERFUL

#NO ONE IS EVER GONNA CHECK IT BUT THANK GOD COMMISSIONS ARE VISIBLE KJFDHKJG #YES I HAVE A NORMAL AMOUNT OF COMMISSIONS DONE.#i wish i could replicate the noise i just made irl when i read this part of the thread *&@(*^)(&*(^#these changes have been on alpha for a few days but i didnt see the notes until today #chat #sb

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orangetintedglasses · 2 years ago

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Not to beat a dead horse into the ground at this point but... Vash? Is everything ok?

Everything has come full circle.

There is no more Remade. There's barely even a Greenhorn right now, cradled against a bloodied Diablo, surrounded and connected to his eldest counterpart by glowing, ethereal feathers and the tendrils they've created. Softly glowing with his own light, his eyes fell shut at some point, and now he lies unmoving in the older Vash's arms with only the rise and fall of his chest proof that he's still alive. Just... asleep, in a way.

It shouldn't be too much longer.

#vash responds;;#( the monster's gone. he's on the run. )#( I wish I'd thought of an event server prior to this thread I do feel bad accidentally locking Diablo here like. day ONE )#( this was prior to being in contact with everyone involved )#( I have learned for next time )#event: rewrite successful ( COMPLETE )#curtains up ✧〗( ic )#the faceless crowd ✧〗( anon ask )

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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 years ago

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