#thoughts about sifdile

[beneathsilverstars]

writing any kind of sifdile meet cute is so hard bc siffrin is shy and odile is anti-social. these bitches would NOT start chatting in a coffee shop. in one of my aus i had to hit siffrin with a car in front of odile so they'd be forced to spend the next several hours together as she took them to the hospital

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You don’t even finish your sentence. Odile grabs you by the collar. You suck in a breath, eye wide. You’re so close. You’re so close. She looks at you with an expression you’ve never seen on her before. Sure, you’ve seen her angry in the past. But never like this. Never directed at you. Your eye is fixed on hers, on the way she’s furrowed them and her mouth is set into a thin line. Her mouth… You can’t help it. You don’t mean for your thoughts to stray, especially when you’re not entirely certain she won’t slap you like Mira did. But she’s just so close and seeing her like this is doing things to your brain you’re not entirely sure what to make of.

Surprise. Brushes the dust off this AO3 just to post some ISAT.

I was expecting my first ISAT fic to be isafrin, not sifdile, but. sometimes things happen and you get motivation so now this exists.

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thinkign about odile with fangies,,

au where odile is a vampire and siffrin "donates blood" for money (classic occupation for someone lonely and hopeless) and siffrin says something funny while woozily recovering and odile did NOT expect that from him and laughs and siffrin is like. oh fuck yes i'm getting a good grade in being vampire food.

it's not even a purposeful dumb joke he's just a little out of it and saying things. which odile usually gets annoyed when people go all no-filter and say things to her that she is not interested in hearing or god forbid having to respond to. but siffrin is just being cute and earnest and still not too chatty!

and then siffrin is like I MADE HER LSUGH I HAVE TO KEEP BEING FUNNY and his actual attempts at jokes are so weak that they wrap back around to being entertaining. odiles like mhm im sure there was a joke in there somewhere maybe try again in twenty minutes.

they're going through an agency at first, but odile gets annoyed at how large of a cut the agency takes, but it's easier and safer than trying to arrange something with a stranger independently. but she really likes siffrin so after a couple times she's like. no pressure but if you'd rather get paid a little more we could just continue doing this informally. and siffrin is like YES PLEASE bc they really need the money and they like odile too!

but then siffrin starts donating too much blood bc he's still going through the agency as often as allowed And going to odile independently. it's pretty obvious pretty quickly though, and as soon as she catches on odile lectures them and says she won't keep doing this if siffrin won't take care of themself, and siffrin gets all sad (<- hates to be rejected) and is like oh.. ok.. guess i'll leave... and odile is like oh my god no you still have to drink your orange juice first and you should not have even driven HERE in the first place. *i* will drive you home. which has siffrin all ?? bc wow mixed messages (<- has never been cared about before). but odile finds out that siffrin lives in the shittiest apartment ever and is always this close away from getting evicted and long story short siffrin ends up moving in with odile.

odile is like. well. this is kind of a problematic setup but definitely better than the alternative.

[beneathsilverstars]

anyway the lore in my mind palace is that siffrin has a big meaningless crush on odile - they get flustered by how much they like her, but it's not something they'd think about as a romantic potential, it's just normal social nerves and clingy impulses but sweeter.

and then post-canon loop is like . i need to crawl inside someone and die like a bug, but it can't be siffrin bc he'd get all emo about it and it can't be isabeau bc absolutely not and it can't be mira bc i can't do that to her. but luckily that leaves one person. who i've always rly liked but siffrin would never consider an option. and she also won't cry all over me. odile can i sleep on the floor in your bedroom and bring you trinkets like a cat brings home dead birds

[beneathsilverstars]

my favorite flavor of sifdile personally is sasasap sifdile for a variety of reasons that exist solely in my mind but also because I need to get my doomed yuri fix somehow

see i love a good sap!frin/dile, but to me it's a type of loopdile... it just hasn't been cooked yet so it has its own unique doomed yuri flavor profile, but it's the base of the whole loopdile recipe! gotta steal a few bites while the oven preheats for sure

there's some good interactions in sasasap! and i feel like her aloof practicality would get more and more appealing the longer sap!frin is stuck in the loops, as opposed to the others' energetic determination that he knows won't pan out, yknow.

i went looking back at sasasap so here's some choice interactions ^^

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what's the best image in ISAT and why is it

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i'm trying to think about sifdile thoughts to post but i'm eating yogurt so i'm just sitting here like what if siffrin and odile went grocery shopping together and bought some chobani nonfat greek yogurt vanilla with other natural flavors

[beneathsilverstars]

whenever i think about canon-compliant loopdile i put a lot of consideration into the juxtaposition with isafrin and exactly why loop chose not to be part of that, or at least to not be committed in the same way, and how this affects the party dynamics as a whole

but whenever i think about canon-compliant sifdile i'm just like damn isabeau confess faster next time i guess

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writing this sifdile fic is soo funny. out here deleting a paragraph about siffrin leaning against odile's side like woah we haven't made it to THAT base yet let's save that for like half an hour from now

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i'm losing the battle against this pre-pre-canon sifdile fic :|

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every day i stare at these two little zeros like a hopeless romantic staring at their flip phone awaiting a text from their crush or perhaps like a weary traveler watching the horizon for a place to resupply and rest before they get back to the long road

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people reblogging my post about shipping loopdile and sifdile like "oh so true" where are you then 😭 where are you shipping my ships and explaining why you like them, let me see 😭😭😭

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if ISAT was adapted for an alternian audience it would be marketed as a love-triangle-style pale romcom

isa is trying to confess flushed, but in the end he can't do it bc he's too concerned about sif being upset and wants to help them feel better... pale feelings sneaking up on him just bc that's what sif needs rn... and sif gets so frustrated that they also flip caliginous on him for a moment? vacillation city.

odile obviously thinks siffrin needs a good feelings jam but she can't figure out what it is he needs to jam about! and then once she does, siffrin freaks out about her pale overtures bc he can't be vulnerable like that right now and loops back.

mirabelle is the more subtle steady presence, instead of making it a whole thing she just. talks to them about how she's feeling, and they seem to reciprocate..? but she doesn't realize yet how much siffrin needs her to be the conciliating party.

sifloop are all over the map, as opposed to isafrin's flipping sifloop are just smearing quadrants left and right. but none of it is really working. loop hates siffrin too much to conciliate him, but pities him too much to be caliginous! but since they have the most info, they manage some pitch-tinted pale moments.

and then act 5 happens, and they all work together to conciliate siffrin down from his rampage!! how deviant and hedonistic!!!

but then mirabelle is the one who actually goes "hey bottling up all your feelings made you lose it, next time talk to me before it gets to that point?" so endgame is siffrin<>mirabelle. and now that siffrin is pacified they can settle into <3 with isabeau. and then obviously a relationship as volatile as sifloop needs a stabilizing influence so odile goes c3< with them, which is also a better fit for her harsher methods of conciliation. and at this point why not get every quadrant filled, maybe they go <3< with euphrasie after all those loops of building hatred but also building respect but also oh my god you were so close to helping but you fucked it up worse. yay serendipity!

obviously this is ignoring ISAT's themes of like. fuck labels, we just care about each other. but ofc an alternian adaptation would ignore those themes, teehee.

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life is so beautiful in the world of my discord dms

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odile emoji:

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