#thoughts about sifdile

[beneathsilverstars]

thinkign about odile with fangies,,

au where odile is a vampire and siffrin "donates blood" for money (classic occupation for someone lonely and hopeless) and siffrin says something funny while woozily recovering and odile did NOT expect that from him and laughs and siffrin is like. oh fuck yes i'm getting a good grade in being vampire food.

it's not even a purposeful dumb joke he's just a little out of it and saying things. which odile usually gets annoyed when people go all no-filter and say things to her that she is not interested in hearing or god forbid having to respond to. but siffrin is just being cute and earnest and still not too chatty!

and then siffrin is like I MADE HER LSUGH I HAVE TO KEEP BEING FUNNY and his actual attempts at jokes are so weak that they wrap back around to being entertaining. odiles like mhm im sure there was a joke in there somewhere maybe try again in twenty minutes.

they're going through an agency at first, but odile gets annoyed at how large of a cut the agency takes, but it's easier and safer than trying to arrange something with a stranger independently. but she really likes siffrin so after a couple times she's like. no pressure but if you'd rather get paid a little more we could just continue doing this informally. and siffrin is like YES PLEASE bc they really need the money and they like odile too!

but then siffrin starts donating too much blood bc he's still going through the agency as often as allowed And going to odile independently. it's pretty obvious pretty quickly though, and as soon as she catches on odile lectures them and says she won't keep doing this if siffrin won't take care of themself, and siffrin gets all sad (<- hates to be rejected) and is like oh.. ok.. guess i'll leave... and odile is like oh my god no you still have to drink your orange juice first and you should not have even driven HERE in the first place. *i* will drive you home. which has siffrin all ?? bc wow mixed messages (<- has never been cared about before). but odile finds out that siffrin lives in the shittiest apartment ever and is always this close away from getting evicted and long story short siffrin ends up moving in with odile.

odile is like. well. this is kind of a problematic setup but definitely better than the alternative.

[splish--splash--sploosh]

not now - discover something new about yourself

You don’t even finish your sentence. Odile grabs you by the collar. You suck in a breath, eye wide. You’re so close. You’re so close. She looks at you with an expression you’ve never seen on her before. Sure, you’ve seen her angry in the past. But never like this. Never directed at you. Your eye is fixed on hers, on the way she’s furrowed them and her mouth is set into a thin line. Her mouth… You can’t help it. You don’t mean for your thoughts to stray, especially when you’re not entirely certain she won’t slap you like Mira did. But she’s just so close and seeing her like this is doing things to your brain you’re not entirely sure what to make of.

Surprise. Brushes the dust off this AO3 just to post some ISAT.

I was expecting my first ISAT fic to be isafrin, not sifdile, but. sometimes things happen and you get motivation so now this exists.

[composeregg]

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Isafrin, sifloop, isasifloop, isaloop, sifdile, loopdile, mirasif

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Last updated 11/30/2024

[avloki-pal]

Yeah it’s you in the tags!! Didn’t @ you since I was reblogging from you already, which means you would get the notification, and didn’t know how much you wanted to be perceived

And they so are fucked up third thing, and you’re so right about Loop trying to kill Siffrin immediately making their relationship queer, in both the weird and fruity sense. The opposite of love is indifference and all that. In my view of them they do hold hands but also bite each other, they’re so cat coded I can’t help but see them interacting with that in mind

I too like tag rambling, tho it has the disadvantage of the words in it often getting lost, which I don’t like, specially for my own posts, I tend to put so many tidbits there!! And most people don’t see it!! Which is exactly why I like to add the og tags then add <prev tags at the end of it, then add my own, when reblogging

I’m so glad you liked being perceived, there are many reblogs I want to but don’t reply to because I’m both unsure how the person feels about it and feel weird responding to it through reblogging. I pretty much always answer to comments because it doesn’t have those two factors. Fellow tag ramblers: I see you and appreciate you

And yeah! There are many things I go “hmm, not really my thing (or in the case of this art specifically not really the idea I had for it), but I known it’s other people’s and I hope they have fun with it” (such as clothes with deep neck cuts) or “hmm, wouldn’t have thought of it myself and won’t really add it to my hoard but it’s in yours and I love what you’re making with it” (such as romantic Sifdile, it’s something I see the appeal of and liked I lot of work with it, but don’t really add to my good ol headcanon pile). I also like easing peoples doubts, I know I myself have wondered “oh is it okay to interpret this thing as this? Is it okay to do [—]?” It also sets a precedent and boundaries of sorts for how people interact with my work, maybe in the future I’ll go “don’t tag as [X] or do [Y]”! Tho I think thats more likely to happen to work of my own OCs and that I make for other fandoms considering what I’ve observed of this one so far

Hope you have a good day! Feel free to come back anytime

To self soothe

Finally finished watching that SAAP stream and got inspired, I am so normal about them

[beneathsilverstars]

writing any kind of sifdile meet cute is so hard bc siffrin is shy and odile is anti-social. these bitches would NOT start chatting in a coffee shop. in one of my aus i had to hit siffrin with a car in front of odile so they'd be forced to spend the next several hours together as she took them to the hospital

[beneathsilverstars]

[beneathsilverstars]

anyway the lore in my mind palace is that siffrin has a big meaningless crush on odile - they get flustered by how much they like her, but it's not something they'd think about as a romantic potential, it's just normal social nerves and clingy impulses but sweeter.

and then post-canon loop is like . i need to crawl inside someone and die like a bug, but it can't be siffrin bc he'd get all emo about it and it can't be isabeau bc absolutely not and it can't be mira bc i can't do that to her. but luckily that leaves one person. who i've always rly liked but siffrin would never consider an option. and she also won't cry all over me. odile can i sleep on the floor in your bedroom and bring you trinkets like a cat brings home dead birds

[beneathsilverstars]

my favorite flavor of sifdile personally is sasasap sifdile for a variety of reasons that exist solely in my mind but also because I need to get my doomed yuri fix somehow

see i love a good sap!frin/dile, but to me it's a type of loopdile... it just hasn't been cooked yet so it has its own unique doomed yuri flavor profile, but it's the base of the whole loopdile recipe! gotta steal a few bites while the oven preheats for sure

there's some good interactions in sasasap! and i feel like her aloof practicality would get more and more appealing the longer sap!frin is stuck in the loops, as opposed to the others' energetic determination that he knows won't pan out, yknow.

i went looking back at sasasap so here's some choice interactions ^^

[beneathsilverstars]

writing this sifdile fic is soo funny. out here deleting a paragraph about siffrin leaning against odile's side like woah we haven't made it to THAT base yet let's save that for like half an hour from now

[beneathsilverstars]

what's the best image in ISAT and why is it

[beneathsilverstars]

i'm trying to think about sifdile thoughts to post but i'm eating yogurt so i'm just sitting here like what if siffrin and odile went grocery shopping together and bought some chobani nonfat greek yogurt vanilla with other natural flavors

[beneathsilverstars]

whenever i think about canon-compliant loopdile i put a lot of consideration into the juxtaposition with isafrin and exactly why loop chose not to be part of that, or at least to not be committed in the same way, and how this affects the party dynamics as a whole

but whenever i think about canon-compliant sifdile i'm just like damn isabeau confess faster next time i guess

[beneathsilverstars]

i'm losing the battle against this pre-pre-canon sifdile fic :|

[beneathsilverstars]

okay you mentjoned the precanon sifdile again that reminded me last tine you mentiined that i had a ton of thoughts its!!!!!!! like it literally could have happened. and siffrin doesnt remember. and odile either doesnt remember or is just like oh haha funny coicidence if they bring it up we can talk about it otherwise ill assume they just wanna act like it didnt happen. and it drvies me insane . like to become so different as to meet again later and potentianlly not recognize eachother to look at all these small things they do and wonder if the other used to do them or if its new habits or if you just didnt get a chance to see that its so. so.

yeah 😭😭😭😭 siffrin is so distinctive that i think odile would definitely remember him, but ofc she wouldn’t say anything about it! if sif wants to act like they’ve never met she’s fine with playing along, it’s not like she’d exactly want an emotional conversation about it either.

but then as she gets to know them more it’s like wait… they might just genuinely not remember…. but at that point it’s like. kinda too late to bring it up? and it would just make things awkward anyway?? but also now the pretending they’d never met feels disingenuous, it’s not fair that she learned things about them during their first meeting that they wouldn’t have chosen to share with her now, while they don’t even remember that they’ve met her!!

ofc my ideal daydream pre-pre-canon sifdile scenario is that they just keep traveling together “haha funny coincidence i was heading that way too” style and eventually join up with mirabelle and isabeau as a pair. but having basically a one night stand (except platonic except not platonic) and then running into each other half a year later is soo juicy

[beneathsilverstars]

life is so beautiful in the world of my discord dms

[beneathsilverstars]

every day i stare at these two little zeros like a hopeless romantic staring at their flip phone awaiting a text from their crush or perhaps like a weary traveler watching the horizon for a place to resupply and rest before they get back to the long road