#thoughts about sifdile

[catdile]

I feel like in the siffdile time loops, Odile would get so annoyed with isabeaus failed confession waking her up every night that at least once she'd drag sif into her bed so they could both sleep properly a night or two (sifdile time loops have been plaguing me since you posted about it...)

She just wants one damn good nights sleep is that so much to ask

[beneathsilverstars]

I really like isafrin, but I also like your sifdile posts. And then I thought it would be very funny if siffrin and loop get a crush on isabeau and odile respectively (or the reverse) but don't do anything bc they assume loop/siffrin has the same feelings and they would feel like a horrible person for taking the others crush (horrible communication and martyr complex strikes again)

hjsdgfjsdf real. siffrin's like "i already won, it would be so unfair of me to get everything, i can't swap places with loop entirely but i could let this one thing be just theirs instead of mine!! i don't mind, i just want them to be happy." meanwhile loop is like "i already tried to take stardust's family and i am not trying again!!! they get everything they want and that's just how it is!! ofc, not like there's any chance that anyone would want to be with me when they could be with the real siffrin. but i couldn't bear the pathetic faces stardust would make either way!"

[plaguethewaters]

sifdile au where they were actually togheter the whole time way before the whole king quest, they are just very very chill about it and travel on their own sometimes (ofc siffrin still hasnt opened up about his severe abandonment issues anyway this is Repression Man we're talking about) and the party has. no idea

theyre not into pda and they sleep separately anyway because odile doesnt like bedsharing so its not like its obvious - odile continuously teasing Isabeau about his crush does not help at all

(she is a little bit jealous on the inside but like. Her and siffrin being The Way They Are they never had a proper conversation about their relationship status despite being, by all meter of measurement, together, so she's like. Well. It isnt really fair to deprive Isabeau ofnhis chanche at confessimg just because Ive known siffrin longer. Maybe they'll chose him in the end and that will be Fine < lying < thought this while her and siffrin were actively making out on a secret quest)

at the end when isa confesses sif does go "ily too" but theyre also like. Sorry ??? ive been dating odile this whole time?????

and everyone Odile Included just turn to him in shock - to which he stops and like. Odile why are You surprised.

She has to go all bashful for the first time of her life, shes trying to keep a straught serious fave about it but it is. so fucking embarassing actually and she has to be like. Well. We never talked about it.

And isas like Oh you are so made for each other actually. Neither of you know how to talk at all a match made in heaven for real.

They continue behaving in the exact same way as before except every now and them they Hold Hands while walking. Odile flirts by subtly insulting them and sarcasm and siffrin flirts with horrible horrible jokes. Bonnie tries to call them disgusting Once and gets roasted so fucking bard by odile that they never try it again in their whole life

[splish--splash--sploosh]

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You don’t even finish your sentence. Odile grabs you by the collar. You suck in a breath, eye wide. You’re so close. You’re so close. She looks at you with an expression you’ve never seen on her before. Sure, you’ve seen her angry in the past. But never like this. Never directed at you. Your eye is fixed on hers, on the way she’s furrowed them and her mouth is set into a thin line. Her mouth… You can’t help it. You don’t mean for your thoughts to stray, especially when you’re not entirely certain she won’t slap you like Mira did. But she’s just so close and seeing her like this is doing things to your brain you’re not entirely sure what to make of.

Surprise. Brushes the dust off this AO3 just to post some ISAT.

I was expecting my first ISAT fic to be isafrin, not sifdile, but. sometimes things happen and you get motivation so now this exists.

[composeregg]

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Isafrin, sifloop, isasifloop, isaloop, sifdile, loopdile, mirasif

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[avloki-pal]

Yeah it’s you in the tags!! Didn’t @ you since I was reblogging from you already, which means you would get the notification, and didn’t know how much you wanted to be perceived

And they so are fucked up third thing, and you’re so right about Loop trying to kill Siffrin immediately making their relationship queer, in both the weird and fruity sense. The opposite of love is indifference and all that. In my view of them they do hold hands but also bite each other, they’re so cat coded I can’t help but see them interacting with that in mind

I too like tag rambling, tho it has the disadvantage of the words in it often getting lost, which I don’t like, specially for my own posts, I tend to put so many tidbits there!! And most people don’t see it!! Which is exactly why I like to add the og tags then add <prev tags at the end of it, then add my own, when reblogging

I’m so glad you liked being perceived, there are many reblogs I want to but don’t reply to because I’m both unsure how the person feels about it and feel weird responding to it through reblogging. I pretty much always answer to comments because it doesn’t have those two factors. Fellow tag ramblers: I see you and appreciate you

And yeah! There are many things I go “hmm, not really my thing (or in the case of this art specifically not really the idea I had for it), but I known it’s other people’s and I hope they have fun with it” (such as clothes with deep neck cuts) or “hmm, wouldn’t have thought of it myself and won’t really add it to my hoard but it’s in yours and I love what you’re making with it” (such as romantic Sifdile, it’s something I see the appeal of and liked I lot of work with it, but don’t really add to my good ol headcanon pile). I also like easing peoples doubts, I know I myself have wondered “oh is it okay to interpret this thing as this? Is it okay to do [—]?” It also sets a precedent and boundaries of sorts for how people interact with my work, maybe in the future I’ll go “don’t tag as [X] or do [Y]”! Tho I think thats more likely to happen to work of my own OCs and that I make for other fandoms considering what I’ve observed of this one so far

Hope you have a good day! Feel free to come back anytime

To self soothe

Finally finished watching that SAAP stream and got inspired, I am so normal about them

[catdile]

When I really take a minute to think about Sifdile’s relationship to me, I end up with this jumbled think mess of

“they’re not romantic but they’re not platonic either”

“they’re more than platonic and less than romantic, or are they more than romantic? But not romantic.”

“Queer platonic? Most likely???”

“They do not look at each other with love in their eyes they look at each other with…….something. I don’t know what it is, hell THEY probably don’t know what it is but it’s …..something.”

“They would never get bonded. BUUUUT the thought of them with the earrings makes me ill……..promise earrings………ohhhhhellyea…”

And then I fester on the ground and writhe and scream and then get shot exactly 47 times for disturbing the peace.

[beneathsilverstars]

okay you mentjoned the precanon sifdile again that reminded me last tine you mentiined that i had a ton of thoughts its!!!!!!! like it literally could have happened. and siffrin doesnt remember. and odile either doesnt remember or is just like oh haha funny coicidence if they bring it up we can talk about it otherwise ill assume they just wanna act like it didnt happen. and it drvies me insane . like to become so different as to meet again later and potentianlly not recognize eachother to look at all these small things they do and wonder if the other used to do them or if its new habits or if you just didnt get a chance to see that its so. so.

yeah 😭😭😭😭 siffrin is so distinctive that i think odile would definitely remember him, but ofc she wouldn’t say anything about it! if sif wants to act like they’ve never met she’s fine with playing along, it’s not like she’d exactly want an emotional conversation about it either.

but then as she gets to know them more it’s like wait… they might just genuinely not remember…. but at that point it’s like. kinda too late to bring it up? and it would just make things awkward anyway?? but also now the pretending they’d never met feels disingenuous, it’s not fair that she learned things about them during their first meeting that they wouldn’t have chosen to share with her now, while they don’t even remember that they’ve met her!!

ofc my ideal daydream pre-pre-canon sifdile scenario is that they just keep traveling together “haha funny coincidence i was heading that way too” style and eventually join up with mirabelle and isabeau as a pair. but having basically a one night stand (except platonic except not platonic) and then running into each other half a year later is soo juicy

[beneathsilverstars]

i'm trying to think about sifdile thoughts to post but i'm eating yogurt so i'm just sitting here like what if siffrin and odile went grocery shopping together and bought some chobani nonfat greek yogurt vanilla with other natural flavors

[beneathsilverstars]

ok i have more to say actually. i can't decide if it's funnier if isabeau does or doesn't know about the sifdile

i mean i suppose ofc at first he doesn't. and then eventually he does and he's like aw fuck. :( i guess it's good i never worked up the courage to ask if i could court them... i don't have a chance....

isabeau confides in mirabelle which goes like

mirabelle: OH NO.... but you do still have a chance! they're not married or anything you could still win his hand!!! isabeau: over actual royalty?????? no way mirabelle: this is siffrin we're talking about, they don't care about that stuff :| isabeau: stilll, odile's my friend too, i'm not trying to be a homewrecker :( mirabelle: if siffrin chooses you that's his choice... isabeau: i don't want to make him choose!! isabeau: also. have you seen odile when someone bothers siffrin. she would kill me. mirabelle: you wouldn't be bothering them if they're agreeing to court you!! but. i guess you might be bothering her.... mirabelle: love triangles are just so dramatic and romantic in the stories!! but i suppose drama's less fun when it happens to you...

so isabeau tries to be normal and not flirt (not that he was successfully flirting before but what if he was??) and get over his crush. but siffrin can tell that isa is a little more withdrawn over the next couple weeks, so he gets nervous that isa doesn't like him anymore. so then He gets all mopey too. which spirals as both of them get more sad and avoid each other more and get more sad and avoid each other more.

until finally odile is like oh my god the vibes are awful i GUESS i'll step in. and by step in i mean she tells mirabelle to step in, bc mira's better at feelings than she is.

mirabelle: um??? yeah this sucks but i don't know what to do either?? odile: do you know what the problem is at least. i'm pretty sure it was isabeau who started pulling away at first but why. mirabelle: um... i'm not sure i should say......... odile: i suppose i don't need to know, if you know and can do something about it mirabelle: ahhh but i can't.... odile: then tell me and i'll see if i can. mirabelle: ughgh it's just. it's. kinda related to you...? odile: well now you have to tell me mirabelle: mmm okay okay but don't tell isabeau i told you. and don't tell siffrin about it either!! mirabelle: but, um, isabeau kind of loves siffrin and was hoping to court them? but, he found out that you and siffrin, are... involved, so i guess he was trying to respect that by stepping back a bit? odile: odile: this whole time it was just that??? gems alive. i thought isabeau already knew about me and siffrin?? mirabelle: WHAT!! you thought he knew but was still trying to court siffrin? and you didn't. do anything about that?? odile: why would i. siffrin can do as they like. mirabelle: but? if you're???? then? odile: it's not like i'm courting him. mirabelle: BUT ISABEAU SAW YOU KISSING??? odile: yes? it's possible to kiss someone without courting them, you know. mirabelle: w. but. why would you do that?? odile: for.. fun...? mirabelle: really..?? odile: do you. not think kissing is fun? mirabelle: i've never done it! i wouldn't know!!! odile: huh. well, i enjoy it, and so does siffrin, and it's not like i have many options that won't get politically complicated mirabelle: oh... i guess that makes sense. mirabelle: and. it would also get politically complicated to court siffrin...? odile: well, yes, but that's not why i'm not doing it. we're just friends. mirabelle: so.. you're just friends. but you kiss. but you really don't want to court him at all..? odile: nope. i'm not really the courting type. mirabelle: wait, do you never want to court anyone ever?? (<- sparkly eyed excitement) odile: it's not something i particularly care for. i did.. hm. i wouldn't call it courting exactly. but i fell in love once and it did not go well. mirabelle: oh... mirabelle: ohHH.. they broke your heart, and now you can never risk love again..... odile: what? no. i left her, and it improved my life immensely. we kind of hated each other. mirabelle: WHAT???? but then. why were you courting her?? odile: i told you, we weren't exactly courting? it was more of a passionate rivalry thing. mirabelle: ....?????? odile: ANYWAY. back to isabeau and siffrin. we need to fix this before siffrin's jokes get any more concerning. mirabelle: oh, right! i guess... if you really don't mind.... you could? tell isabeau? and then maybe things would go back to normal? odile: ugh. can't you? mirabelle: i don't know if he'd believe me! and then i'd have to say i talked to you about it!! odile: fine, fine. i'll tell him something. but honestly, even if i was courting siffrin, that wouldn't mean he needs to stop. he could still shoot his shot. win their hand. mirabelle: THAT'S WHAT I SAID!!! but he was all 'ohh she's the queen' and 'she's scary when she's mad.' odile: heh. well he better grow a backbone if he wants to get anywhere with his courting. i don't think siffrin's even realized his intentions, yet. mirabelle: i knoww, i keep telling him to just go for it, but he doesn't want to mess it up... odile: well. can't mess it up any worse than this last month. mirabelle: ;o; i hope he didn't really mess up their friendship... it's been so awkward..... odile: oh, don't worry, siffrin will just be glad to have him back. they'd forgive a thief for stabbing them and then apologize for getting blood everywhere. odile: loop, on the other hand.... mirabelle: ah. mirabelle: well. it's been nice knowing him! odile: perhaps i'll ask his favorite flowers when i talk to him. for the funeral. mirabelle: and maybe... as secret info for siffrin for when they start courting...?? odile: don't hold your breath.

i have nothing else to do with that au... i just want siffrin to jingle merrily around the court and piss everyone off. and then make out with odile