#thought i was gonna hate msg. loved it.

[felacunti]

I could argue that there are some saving graces about certain female characters in Zeta (aside from Lila, she was a queen thru and thru), but damn they did Fa so dirty and the worst part is that (to me at least) her situation is so weirdly... "real", she wanted to be a pilot like everyone else, but since she's good with kids (and seems to be the only person on this god-forsaken ship who actually gives a fuck about them) and she's a girl everyone pushes her in the direction of being their babysitter, it's always "Fa look after the kids", "Fa, how are the kids" yada yada... and I kind of get why she would settle for the role everyone expects her to accept, everyone is forcing it on her, there doesn't seem to be anyone who would support her own ambitions

maybe I'm just copying with this interpretation tho

also... why the fuck are those kids even there? i get that in MSG 0079 the kids didn't really have anywhere to go so they just stayed on the White Base but those two? why the fuck did Quattro even bring them on if he's not looking after them or taking them anywhere??? (still haven't finished Zeta, but I doubt that's gonna get answered)

sorry for rambling

sorry if this spoils zeta for you but youre looking around at posts about it so i guess it doesnt bother you much.

so heres my thing about the female characters in zeta, right? their saving graces are almost all conduits for them to be the boosters to male character's arcs. Either Jerid or Kamille. Even Haman, who by all means is the female character in Zeta with the most practical affect on the narrative and ability to voice her opinions and thoughts, is often framed via Char. Its a serious consistent issue. Reccoa is a sexual assault survivor and its pulled out as a surprise reveal in the last 5 seconds of her life and it retroactively makes her portrayal... kind of disgusting? that being said Fa does get it horrendously and she singlehandedly kind of undoes whatever progressive statements about feminism zeta tries to make. like, there are a lot of characters in the series with being misogynists as a character flaw, which is fine. but the idea that women shouldn't pilot mechs is kind of... right? In the narrative. The female pilots are either waifish hang-ons who suck (Sarah, Fa, Reccoa, Mouar) or they're irrational, impossible to control and prone to fits (Four, Rosamia, Reccoa). The exceptions are Lila (competent but killed because of the Jerid Woman Event Horizon), Haman (a Newtype and therefore a secret third gender), and Emma (does not care about her femininity which is supposed to be tragic (also gay! which is some great rep there.)) When Katz is a bad pilot, the series goes "Ok Katz get it together or you'll die." but he keeps getting to go. There's a period of time where Bright just says "lol no Fa is not launching in the Methuss, she fucking sucks."

ALSO YEAH I DO NOT KNOW WHY SHINTA AND QUM WERE THERE? like i kinda like them they were obviously introduced for levity and it was well needed but like. lmao.

[chiistarri]

what if instead of messaging me in the middle of the night about your stupid fucking girlfriend and your stupid fucking problems with her you actually act like my fucking friend and message me like how you message everyone else in our group

[ilovepaigebueckerss]

the other women.

word count: 886 (kinda short)

pairing: p.b. x reader

summary: After the live incident with Azzi y/n confronts paige.

pt: 2/3 (I think there will be 3 parts idk)

NOT PROOFREAD SO NTM.

i hope yall enjoy thiss. im gonna remake part 1 because it doesnt really fit with this part too well. i mean its good enough for yall to get the plot of the story but ykkk. SO SORRY FOR MAKING AZZI A BAD PERSON YALL ITS FOR THE PLOTTT🙏🙏 tried to do the lil picture thing evb be doing cs i thought it was cute how we feeling?..

-love gabby💋

3RD PERSON

Paige wakes up to an empty bed. She blinks rapidly trying to blink the sleepiness away. Wincing as she feels the hangover coming in. She notices the advil and glass of water on the bedside table you left for her. There was ice in the cup indicating the glass was filled not too long ago.

She doesn’t hesitate to pick up the glass and pills and takes them with one big gulp.

YOUR POV

Whenever you’re mind is too loud you usually vent to Paige and cry in her arms. You couldn’t do that this time so you went for a walk. You honestly had no clue where you were because you were so consumed in your thoughts you lost track of where you were walking.

Youre phone pinged snapping you out of your thoughts.

my fav blonde🖕🏻: Where are you?

You stared at the message not knowing if you should respond or not.

Just out for a walk.

You respond dryly trying to let her know you don’t want to speak to her. You hated confrontation so you didn’t know what you were going to do about the whole Azzi situation.

my fav blondie🖕🏻: Thanks for the advil and water, bug.

You stared at the phone not even realizing you were crying until you saw the tear droplet falling down your screen.

That damn nickname. She had given it to you as a joke when you first started dating and it’s stuck ever since. Whenever she called you it, a wave of comfort rushed through your body. Now it was just making you sad.

“You okay?” you hear a semi-familiar voice call out.

You look up quickly wiping your tears and see this girl from your psychology class. Her name was Addie or something like that.

“Yeah” you manage to croak out.

“You sure? Doesn’t really seem like it.” she says chuckling attempting to lighten the mood.

“Yeah. Thanks for asking.” You say smiling.

She smiles back. She was pretty, she had freckles and was brunette.

“Do you need a ride?” She offers still smiling.

“If its not too much of a bother.” You say embarrassed.

“Ofcourse! Hop in.”

PAIGES POV

Guilt is rushing through my body remembering the events from last night. It all happened so fast and it was a mistake.

my baby: omw home. 🤍 (hearted the msg)

my baby: got a ride from this girl

I smiled seeing her notification.

Theres even a video going around and im just praying y/n didnt see it. She could take it the wrong way. I would have to tell her eventually. She just cant find out through a video on social media.

FLASHBACK: AT THE BAR

STILL PAIGES POV

Azzi was being extra touchy tonight but I just assumed it was the alcohol. I mean she knows I have a girlfriend and she loves her.

“Paige, you look so good” Azzi slurs out running her hand down my chest.

I quickly move her hand off of me. “Thanks Azzi.” I say smiling. She puts her red solo cup up to her mouth “I think you’ve had enough to drink tonight” I say grabbing the drink from her.

“Nooooo” She whines. I just laugh at her drunk antics.

She grabs my face and gets really close. “Never noticed how pretty your eyes were.” She says staring at my eyes.

I just smile awkwardly trying to get out of her grasp. Before I knew it her lips were on mine. I gently push her off me. “Azzi.” I begin. “Paige you know you want me just as much as I want you.” She cuts me off.

“I have a girlfriend. And shes the only girl I want.” I say sharply.

“This is bullshit” She spits, pushing herself off of me.

PRESENT TIME

3RD PERSON

“Thanks for the ride.” Y/n says smiling at the brunette. Who smiles back “Anytime.”

—

Y/n is fumbling with her keys outside of the apartment door trying to find the right one. Once you find the key she puts it in the lock and unlocks the door.

Paige immediately shoots up of the couch and runs to her girlfriend. “Hi babyy.” she says smiling and giving you a hug. “missed you.” she says in your neck.

The feeling of Paige’s breathe on your neck made you shiver.

“Hey.” You couldn’t help but smile, missing Paiges warmth.

You let go of each other and you wander off into the kitchen while Paige goes back to her spot on the couch.

“Hey can we talk?” You manage to say. Paige looks up at you and hums in response already knowing what you’re going to say.

“What happened last night..” You pause and clear your throat “With Azzi?” You say trying to hold back your tears.

“Y/n I promise it wasn’t what it looked like.”

“Then what was it Paige.” You snap all your built up anger coming out. “Because it looked like the love of my life cheating on me with her BEST FRIEND.” You say emphasizing the last two words.

“Please let me explain baby.” Paige says, tears pricking her eyes.

“Don’t call me that.” You say coldly.

“You don’t need to explain anything I saw what I needed to see.” You say before Paige could open her mouth to speak.

You walk out of the door not wanting to make the situation worse.

—

thank you for reading mwahh!

[jjxkiaraxpopexcleoxjohnbxsarah]

What are your thoughts on Rudy’s girlfriend? I personally don’t like her and feel she’s the reason between his and Madison’s friendship ending . I just think she’s controlling and trying to make him be different . He’s not as fun loving as he once was at least to me .

ooh hard question anon.Tbh I have no idea what's going on and I have heard that Elaine has been racist and rude but I haven't actually seen anything cos like I have said b4 I don't rlly follow the cast's on everything. And so I rlly don't know if it's true.I think that Rudy and Madison's friendship is between them and them only. It is a private relationship and I personally believe that fans shouldn't be trying to find everything out. One thing that many ppl forget is that at the end of the day, celebrities are also humans and need privacy. As for Elaine, I rlly don't mind her cos I don't know much abt her. She seems nice and her relationship with Rudy doesn't seem toxic to me. I disagree with ur opinion that she's trying to make Rudy be different. People change and that's completely okay. If there is direct toxicity in their relationship I'm sure Rudy's family or friends will acknowledge it and help him out. Again this is a relationship and it is meant for only the two people in it. We shouldn't be pondering about how their relationship is going. Also every relationship has ups and downs.Anon I hope I don't come along as rude but I rlly think you and so many others have to stop breaking into celebrities lives.It isn't right.

One more thing, my blog is about the fictional characters in OBX. I have dedicated my blog to the fictional side of things and yes I may have posted here and now stuff about the cast. Like phot0s of Rudy+Drew's cute friendship but I do not go ponder about what is going on in their lives every minute(not that ur doing that but). I may look at their instagram stories when they post something but that's where I cross the line.I don't send hate msgs to Madison or Elaine. I don't have convos with others about the casts relationships and I don't blame any of the cast or the cast's friends/families for anything.It's not my place to do so. I am not there to actually see what's going on and I'm not related to them in any way.

I like to keep myself away from all of this cos it just ruins the magical feeling you get when you watch something you rlly love and instead of just enjoying ur gonna be analysing the actors every moves and I don't want that. Anon I hope ur satisfied with my answer💗

PS: No one come at me pls

[nightswithkookmin]

I really like your blog and how you voice your opinions! just wanted to say that it's really funny how everyone are and still saying how JK birthday video for Jimin had nothing to do with Jimin and how it only meant to be sexy for Army but if you search the words Jungkook birthday Taehyung on twitter all you get is lots of tweets about people can't wait for a JK thirst trap for V birthday dated 3 days ago or Why didn't we got/Where is the thirst trap for V birthday dates 2 days ago and when they got called out they said it has nothing to do with Jimin or jokers calling everyone fools and clowns. Which means this fandom and that subgroup if filled with liarsss because if it's nothing sexy and it ain't for Jimin why they want the same thing for their bias and why they want that type of greeting so badly

IT WASN'T FOR JIMIN????😳😳😳😳

DOES THE WORD JIMIN MEAN SOMETHING ELSE IN TUKTUKKER TALK??????

Happy birthday bro posted on 13th October- gee I wonder who he was wishing that bdae msg to

It couldn't possibly be jimin cause JM was born on the 13th month of tzulekber which is not even on the Gregorian calendar gotcha

And if you pay close attention he said Jhamin not Jimin. There's no one in BTS called JWAMIN

He wanted to be sexy for Army on JMs birthday just as his mother thought she would make his son a birthday soup on someone else's son's birthday

He made a portrait of Hobi for hobi on his birthday, exclusive to Hobi. The members taunted him for one but NO ONE GOT THE SAME GIFT. AS NO ONE SHOULD.

IT'S A ONE OF A KIND GIFT MEANT TO SHOW HOW HE FEELS TOWARDS WHOEVER RECEIVES IT.

He posted a photo of Suga on stage shot by him.

HE POSTED A PERSONALIZED VIDEO MESSAGE FOR JIMIN, DID HIS HAIR, PUT ON COLOGNE AND HIS CHRISTMAS OUTFIT- HE HAD A LOT ON HIS CHEST BUT DECIDED I'LL KEEP IT SHORT.

Do people understand that BTS members are high profile celebrities too? If any other artist hand painted a portrait or photographed another celebrity and sent it to them signed they would hang it in their living room and display it on their trophy shelf.

Do they know how much a gift like that is worth??

Clue, BTS costumes are currently on display in museums and anything they made get sold to us at a price as merch.

I hate when they do this gosh. They are so dense.

I bet JK was gonna make a video essay enumerating all the things Jimin had done for him and just how much he loves Jimin but changed his mind last minute.

THEY ARE TOO SLOW TO CATCH HIS DRIFT.

Perhaps he made a video message for JM because Video messages and Polaroid back and forth between them is how they communicate their love- WHY YALL THINK HE WAS FILMING THOSE GCFS😩

Because JM hates video messages???

The same guy who prefers face timing as a form of communication and spends ours face timing his soulmate on his sick bed??? Mmkay.

And perhaps he made a portrait because Hobi have always wanted him to make a portrait of him and Suga has always wanted to be photographed by JK?

For whatever reason this man has decided, no he is not going to treat everyone the same or standardize his affections for people in the name of equality and preserving the status quo to make people happy.

I WONDER WHY?!

It's not like he was constantly told to treat all the members the same and do for all what he does for one lest his relationship with X or Y stands out in the group. It's not like he felt pressured to normalize his relationship with certain members and act like they weren't special at all

Jikook is platonic twins from the same womb but THEY ALWAYS SUPERIMPOSE THEIR FAVE ONTO JIKOOK SELCAS

THEY SHOULD FRANKLY LEAVE JUNGKOOK ALONE TO DO AS HE PLEASES WITH WHOMEVER.

Dude has been posting Tae Kook photos on his gram, liking his posts and supporting his content, doing dance challenges with him.

And he is out here posting birthday videos for JM which is about all the social media interactions they had save for JM @ing at him. Correct me if I'm wrong. Memory fog.

He is not on bad terms with anyone. He doesn't hate Jimin and he doesn't hate Tae. He certainly doesn't hate Suga or Hobi just because he hasn't posted them either. He either doesn't have a selca with them in his collection or he just doesn't feel a need to validate them publicly to show he likes them- which is where my money is at.

Yet, while he CHOSE to crop himself out of a Tae Kook selca to post on Tae's birthday, he certainly didn't feel he needed to remove and distance himself from his post for Jimin. HE WAS THE BIRTHDAY PRESENT. GIFT WRAPPED AND DELIVERED ON JMS FRONT DOOR.

If they want a message intended for fans, they should look no further than his cropped out meme of Tae on Tae's birthday. That post was for Army so yall could have a good laugh.

It's no different from Jimin posting memes of Jin on his birthday. It's meant as a joke at his expense. Which us a fan way of teasing him.

Just know the last time Jungkook posted a similar meme of Jimin it was of a higher resolution and it came with an apology letter 😌

This is my dick 🚪

They shouldn't let it hit them on their way out of Jimin's hair.

Also thank you. I love my blog too. It's my best feature.

[fereldanwench]

so since i had the tower ending available to me, i figured i'd run through it

disorganized, spoilery thoughts under the cut

so a few world-state items of note:

valerie had no romance (ofc)

valerie did the parade and saved goro (ofc)

valerie never met kerry

valerie didn't help judy with the clouds stuff so judy was also not a friend to call

valerie did have panam and river available as friends

valerie and johnny were very much not friends

i had only seen the ending with a friendship johnny, so getting to experience the rival dialogue was actually really cool. i did record the whole thing so i'll probably upload some clips from that and muse on it properly, but yeah, i love it when valerie and johnny fight. i loved being able to have her call him a narcissist 10/10. and i like that i could play her as still somewhat sympathetic to his situation

i love 2079 reed. his tie and office bod are precious <333

since valerie had no romance, i did get to hear goro during her in-and-out-of-consciousness scenes, which i absolutely loved

i knew about river and panam's phone calls/msgs and neither one of them are actually that close to valerie so the emotional impact there for me was minimal

much like with the devil ending, though, i wish goro was at least listed in her phone, even if it went to a disconnected number in 2079. valerie did tell him she was going to go with hanako prior to this, so having some kind of 'hey, are we doing this thing' msgs from him in 2077 would have been cool.

and like there seems to be some recognition from the devs that players who didn't get attached to any of the romances or had any other friends likely had some degree of fondness towards goro--hence using his voice in the coma. so once again, it just feels like there's missing content from him, basically. not even asking for romantic stuff here either--just more platonic interactions would have been very much appreciated!!!!

vik's situation depresses the hell out of me, even moreso than v's, although i did love getting to spend more time with him and see a different side to him just for characterization purposes. i loved the employee eval on his computer that said he talks to patients too much, because MUSE FUEL MUSE FUEL MUSE FUEL

(i'm actually in the process of working on some story sets for the events that happen directly after the heist, and vik gossiping to goro has been on my mind since the 'vik likes to talk' line v can deliver so this just compounded that)

connecting with misty briefly does kind of heal the soul a little at least

seeing valerie un-chromed and with a shaved head was pretty jarring, although not as much as seeing her in those clothes lmao. like wtf did the fia do with the clothes she arrived in??? even if she wasn't in top form, she would still make an effort to look somewhat nice going to see an old friend but i mean, i get it, at this point my vision of valerie is so beyond the possibilities of the game's potential characterizations for v

i also have a glitch in my game in which she's constantly holding a pistol during some cutscenes lmao so uh having randos try to beat her up while she's visibly armed was odd

the devil ending is still valerie's canon so this was just a curiosity playthrough, but i am somewhat intrigued by the possibility of another AU/alternate timeline for her and goro playing off these events.

the obvious scenario would be valerie becoming a fixer and goro becoming her bodyguard after they work out their shit since goro is clearly unhappy in 2079 lmao, but this ending plays on the convenient-lack-of-communication tropes that i fucking hate in stories (like really, the FIA couldn't find a way to get in touch with v's friends and let them know what's going on? i don't buy it) so it'd require a lot of rework for me.

and i really can't see valerie willingly going with the FIA, particularly after she told goro she was gonna go with arasaka, so i think a lot of that would have to change too

but idk, it's not a priority. i like having the AU stuff to tinker with when i need a break from their canon, which i currently do not. maybe it'll be like the nomad AU and suddenly hit me out of nowhere :3

but yeah im glad i experienced it for myself since there can be so many little personalized variations, but i also feel kinda out of sorts because it just felt really OOC for valerie and there were some major downers there, lmao. i feel like i need a bit of a palette cleanser

OH and i liked rogue taking nibbles, that was a pleasant surprise

[amwife]

Wait wait girl can we talk about your new header??? LIKE THIS IS INTERESTING AND I WANNA KNOW ABOUT IT 🙏🙏

if you're willing to share that is, no worries if not

omg i think this is ab the boy bio thing so im js gonna assume it is nd tell u all anyways.

SO BASICALLY, ive been talking to this boy since may and its currently august rn so like four months, nd he super flirty but also super shy nd didnt know how to talk to me irl so i thought it ws cute, nd my name has like two dif parts and he called me a part of my name that i hate when ppl do it but i let it slide cus i liked him. AND WHEN PPL ASKED WHY HE CALLED ME IT HE SAID STUFF LIKE "cus only i can call her it"

but now he calls me the first part of my name, not the 'special' part so like 😣😣 ND CS WE HAVE A MUTUAL FRIEND, and she ws super obv ab the fact they would talk ab me (in a good way) nd try get the two of us tgth.

so for the past 2 weeks hes been rlly short answered nd js obv ab not wanting to talk and not liking me anymore, because he used to be really talkative but now he would ignore me and be on calls with girls 💔

ND SHE TOLD ME HE THINKS IM TOO GOOD FOR HIM SO HE WILL GAVE UP. which isnt rlly surprising cs me and him are a weird pairing anyways since he has way more girl friends that have the same interests BUT IT STILL HURTS 😒

nd she thought it ws a good thing like girl no im not happy to have the boy im inlove with give up on me 🤬🤬 but i tried to fix it nd kept texting him but he always js left my msgs on read so ive given up on him 😍😍

BC IDK WHAT TO DO (if yall have any ideas id love to hear them ☺️)

[lesb0tron69]

hi renren beloved you prob waited forever for this (& im sorry love eid & shit got in a way also no im not doing this bcs you asked more specifically i had a shit week & i need to do something to make me feel better)

this is prob not gonna sound like a love letter (LOONATEEN REFERENCE) but ill try anyways

its nearly a year since we’re together,,, crazy feels like ive known you forever. sometimes it feels like the only thing i really looked forward to when opening my phone is seeing your msgs / tweets & it feels really silly just laughing at it in public / private wherever. i love you so much do u know that, youre my motivation in life in trying to be a good person or hating myself lesser (prob how i survive finals week). this sounds cliche but i always think about how nice would it be if its just the 2 of us in this world or i could get rid of every bad thing that ever existed in your life (your mom ahem). maybe i should pick up drawing or print a pic of u & put it on a cardholder stand acting like youre a kpop idol just so i could live the next day in peace. one day we should meet. we NEED to meet & we’re gonna go on a date so out of my budget ill prob be broke the next day. i wanna live & be with you forever if its possible. i wanna see you smile everyday & itll just be all i ever wanted. i wanna make you proud when i got to live out my dreams. sorry if this sounds all too cliche & ooc but i had to get it off my chest. well to end it off i know you thought that i dont love you as much but i just wanna let you know the only reason i could be here right now was for you & waking up to a text from you. anyway i love you so much maybe after this tweet ill die of happiness perhaps.

p.s. what if we send each other long ass tumblr blogs & pretend this is some 1890s love letter & we’re both girls okay erh erm

[kuunibal]

{2nd part} The worst part? He made another id to msg me, being this NEW guy, saying how he'd obv "have to win back my trust" (since he himself broke it before), he'd always bring up how he HAS TO do all this bcz of my prev. exp., but still he's willing to, because of me. Initially I really thought it was sm1 else but figured out eventually cuz of his texting style & obv, why was he troubling himself so much for sm1 he met the same day. Didn't even know my name. He seemed to have known my previous energy & was trying hardest "i wanna bring back your old self", "i told you i wanted you n that still doesn't change". On one side he was saying he's willing to wait cuz i said I'm not in place to love, but on the other, he was obv expecting me to rush n be my old self, and start loving this NEW one. He was even listening abt this "previous guy" who was bad to me, consoling me but obv trying to make me NOT talk abt him by saying i shouldn't be more in that energy, saying he hates when i bring him up, etc. It's crazy how he feels no shame & was willing to leech me on. Again. Obviously he doesn't care about bitching abt his real self cuz he wants his marriage life unbothered. His entitlement is crazy, how he thinks women are just, supposed to be used again n again. He has no idea that I knew this time, so im NOT gonna put up with this "side chick" thing again. Cuz this time it'd be knowingly. His lack of remorse/shame is seriously baffling. A perfect textbook shiny narcissist for you right there! No woman wants to be a 2nd. Every woman deserves to be a 1st. I have self-respect. So obv i stopped msging the "new" guy within 2 days, deleted the account, the app.. Everything. Ik I did right, i am right, but seriously, keeping me aside, what do you think of THESE people? And this guy? The situation altogether?

I will respond to both of your messages here.

My opinion is that this guy is despicable, and I am glad you no longer think positively of him and cut him off completely. The entire situation is fucked up, and I am sorry you had to go through it. He is extremely manipulative and makes grandiose lies; I get the impression that he is egotistical and believes he can get away with anything. Perhaps he gets into outside relationships for the attention and amusement all while maintaining the stable safety net of a happy marriage as back up.

Now, I understand if you never wish to interact with this family ever again, although seeing how he appears to value keeping his marriage intact, would you ever consider informing his wife about him cheating? I would assume she doesn’t know about it, and if he does not feel remorse for lying to you, he would probably start if he is stripped of his family, even if it was only because he got caught. His wife likely does not deserve to be cheated on and lied to by this man either, along with the others he may be toying with.

[wttcsms]

Amber, I'm back to yell at you!!!! I'm literally dying over Most Noble what?! Its sooo good, i literally took a deep breath while my eyes watered cause of that ending! Oh to be in love with Sir Nanami 😍 He really is too much, the way he wants the mc so much, it gives off enemy to lovers vibes, with a lot of slow burn! Its so good the way I gasped when i read it on AO3 cause it said chapters 1/1 😭 No, its too good, YOU'RE the reason i even love Nanami so I refuse to believe thats it for them. But also thank you for that, it was such a good read the pining got me right in the feels i had to take a moment for myself to calm down. Please don't say its over 😭

Moving on lols, the way I read Balancing Act this morning! I wanted to scream, and I'm in no way a morning person but that one woke me up! Gojo being so self assured, I love that for him. The way you wrote the whole crew working for Gojo and Getou! Nanami saying that Getou is just like Gojo but would give himself 6 months instead KILLED ME!!!! Also just Nanami, and his whole work is shit rang through my head when you said he left then came back 😭 Just the way you wrote them all is soo good, the interaction between Gojo and Mc oooomph absolute genius! Utahime and Gojo friendship! Personally that little bit got me hook line and sinker cause i dont ship them 🫠 Finally that flashback of them as teenagers in high school!!! Yes queen him falling in love and not realizing it but also i loved that the mc ruined what i assumed would be his year of just fucking around! Its god tier I know im going to add this to my list of comfort fics!!!

hi hi, i was waiting til when i was less busy so that way i could give this lovely msg a proper response!!! as always, i love love love hearing ur thoughts and seeing u in my notifs makes me so happy, like kicking my feet and giggling happy because ur such an amazing reader and i love hearing ur thoughts on my work.

first of all, even w/out me, u would have fallen for nanami bc that's just the type of man he is. most noble was so fun to write purely bc i didn't have a set plot line in place, i just let the word vomit spew all over my docs and clicked post on tumblr. that being saidddddd, i am always open to revisiting our princess and sir nanami bc the fun part in writing mutual pining is the eventual getting together. like all fairytales, they are so gonna have a happy ending <3

im so happy you've read balancing act because for me, it's such a fun project and a way for me to not so subtly vent out any pent up feelings i had towards my experience in working in banking in nyc BAHAHAHA. i think workplace dynamics are so fun to write as well & i really wanted to incorporate just how blurry boundaries are within the field but also how close knit they truly are because most of the time, you see your coworkers more than your family and your significant other and it's hard not to become friends or something more (it's either that, or u all hate each other's guts LOL). geto and gojo would not be besties if they weren't both absolute menaces, i stand by that. utahime + gojo are lowkey MY dramione HAHA, and so i always like to write them in some type of relationship, whether that be platonic or romantic. they def squabble like siblings in this fic + it's going to be so much fun writing them in a diff light than i normally do (what's up for debate is whether or not i hint towards nanami x utahime :O) nanami found out that working in academia is JUST AS TOXIC as industry, so he's back bc, hey, at least he gets paid hella money, but we'll explore more nanami lore in balancing act once i decide on his exact role in the fic muahahaha.

thank you for always reaching out with your thoughts on my writing and just to chat in general, it means the world to me <3

[destinyc1020]

There have been a group of Z stans that have wanted her to date women since Shake It Up. They have thought that since Z liked urban fashion she was a lesbian and not that she grew up in a community where urban fashion and culture is popular among all young people. The fact that Z is playing a WLW character in Euphoria just further emboldened that group. Even if Z decided to date a woman in the future, Hunter may not be the best option because even though she's a very sweet person, she has had an extremely messy dating life and has said that she falls in love easily and thinks that you can be romantically in love with more than one person at the same time. That doesn't seem something that Z would really be into. Z seems to really like being a serial monogamist

Yea girl, it's crazy lol 😆

I'm not gonna comment on Hunter's dating history, coz I just don't know much about it 🤷🏾‍♀️

I'll just say that IF Z were gay or even bi, then I'd still support her no matter what! I also kind of feel like if she swung that way, she wouldn't have any issue in kind of making that clear, or at least putting out very VOCAL LGBTQ+ alliance msgs. She's not shy in sharing her support for various groups, and I feel like when you're part of that community, you can't help but feel a certain way about certain things that affect your community.

I think she'd still be private of course, but I also feel like she wouldn't necessarily be wanting to hide that part of herself, or living her life like a lie.

Z has PLENTY of LGBTQ friends and family members. I just don't see her living a lie. 🤷🏾‍♀️ That would almost be a slap in the face to them imo. She herself knows how she feels, so I just watch what ppl do.

She seems pretty open to me. So if she swung that way, I feel like there would be some signs by now....esp with how CLOSELY ppl follow her and her life my gosh lol. 😂

But hey, who knows? 🤷🏾‍♀️

Either way, I'm not here to police what or who black women find attractive. I'd still support her no matter what.

I just hate when ppl make up stuff out of thin air.

[myelocin]

tw: mentions of suicide

this past week has been a rollercoaster of even shittier dips bc of (the same root problem i unfortunately cannot get away from). and it’s hit me even worse than all the other times. what i went through just prompts me to come here to hopefully get the message across to somebody who may resonate w it now that i am speaking and thinking with a clearer head. three days ago i could barely speak clearly. i was angry, hurt, extremely terrified—above all, exhausted. but i feel the need to say this bc i feel that this is an unspoken problem a lot of us unknowingly carry:

you are not responsible for people and their actions. the burden is not on you if somebody tries to off themselves. you are not evil for establishing boundaries, ceasing contact, and curating your space to serve your peace and wellbeing.

the “im gonna k*ll myself so this is the last time i’ll ever msg u for a favor,” is a line i have heard my own father and sibling say to me time and time again every time i didn’t do what they wanted me to do. i used to feel so heavy all the time because of it. i felt chained in my environment. that threat felt like a creeping ghost that would sit on my shoulders everyday, trading shadows for flesh, growing so heavy it became tangible. and it did. this past week i felt like i was the devil. like i pulled the biggest sin because i wasn’t patient enough. i wasn’t kind enough. i wasn’t lenient with my own boundaries—for family— enough.

i thought keeping my space and staying no contact would be a temporary fix until i could get to somewhere more permanent. but i carried those words and wore them like they were my own self inflicted wounds. and they are not. i love my family so much. i hate that we are beyond repair. i hate that i let myself endure their mistreatment for over fifteen years. i hate that i tried to reshape myself into different forms of patience and strength when really i am just soft. i am tired; i am not angry nor vengeful; i am just nicole. more than anything i want to sit home for a week or two and just write for a while. i want to eat good food, sip a sweet drink, and sleep without feeling burdened by things that were pointed at me like weapons since i was so young.

i really….thought shit like that are just passing comments. perhaps to those who are more mentally tough. but i am just soft. i don’t want anyone to get hurt. none of this is my fault, and none of their misfortunes have ever been because of me. for god’s sake neither of them have ever supported me and i’m here making an honest living building life in a space away from all the energy that’s tried to drain me. i say and acknowledge that now with a thought process that isn’t as shaky as it was a few days ago.

idk things are changing, life is changing, and i am trying my best to grow stronger instead of become more and more drained. i want to apologize for now writing here as much either and just focusing on comms. tldr my company changed policy and tho i completed training i wont get a client assigned until jan 2023 since others have been pushed up and are more prioritized. things are just rocky rn. i will be here to write and tell stories again. just please bear w me a little bit longer. i love u all. myelocin is a safe space; a cozy corner; a nook where we all can just nap and chat and remind each other that life is swell. i miss u all sm.

[gyujeongfmd]

plot call!

with the event coming to an end, i thought i’d post a plot call considering i’m going to start fresh with threads! (if you’d like to keep some of the event threads, do let me know — i don’t mind continuing!) below the cut will be updates / current state of events regarding gyu & minjung. leave a like or feel free to msg me to plot something out!

gyu

gyu for the most part... is just busy. i hate to do this, considering i don’t consider him a workaholic muse. however, he’s pretty busy because he is writing music for other groups, his own group, all while prepping for a concert tour / new comeback that’s happening in a few months

as a result, he’s just gonna be grumpy when you run into him... or just bitch about how ridiculous it is of gold star to keep him locked in the dungeon till he’s done their bitch work

in terms of personal development, he’s in one of those states of mind where he’s just so physically busy he’s far out of touch from his emotions / what he’s feeling. he basically has no time to be heartbroken (albeit, he’s slowly gotten over his ex to the point where he probably only cries once every month about her each time he passes by their date places) so, mostly, he’s just upset over the workload given 

speaking of, anyone in love and ready to flaunt it in front of him? probably gonna make him gag and just roll his eyes because gyujeong will see that as a phony love rather than the real thing then lecture you like he knows what he’s talking about (in reality, he doesn’t know shit)

catch him in the studio, gold star’s building, any off-site dance building or just a random cafe during these times — though, the latter might cause for quick run-in since he doesn’t have time to sit in

some plot points i do have are: someone who comes to platinum’s concert? maybe they’re friends or maybe they’re just friends with his member, and they end up chatting it up post-show. 

someone who bumps into him in the studio, talking about the process of whatever song’s he’s writing — we can discuss whatever song, or maybe if your muse is writing a song, they can discuss and toss ideas here and there

this is a funny one — but one of gyu’s new years resolutions is to learn how to drink better. so, maybe it’s unexpected but somehow your muse ends up being his drinking teacher which just amounts to gyu getting drunk and divulging all his deeper secrets only to forget the next morning (ironic start to a friendship where he does the complementing and is a kind boy)

minjung

minjung is exhausted, but less physically more emotionally. last few months have been nothing short of a rollercoaster, and the final touches of our beloved summer are the striking whistle — aka: she’s ready to give up acting and call retirement early

nonetheless, acting is soon to be over and she’s working on equinox comebacks which she is actually happy / excited for since she likes the song and enjoys her part in it

in terms of her solo career, she’s doing less music just because she’s emotionally exhausted to the point of no inspiration when it comes to music. she can’t verbalize any words to how she wants to write, so she just chooses to do the opposite

meaning, her downtime consists of a lot of painting, walking, and museum hopping while mulling over her current state of emotional affairs

during this time, she might seek love advice or ask people what they think about soulmates since she’s constantly trying to craft that out of life

ironically, she’s actually going to do a music stage in america — coachella!! ur gurl is coachella bound, and she’s just happy as she sees it a reprieve from all the shit she’s been through. in tow, she’ll be at gold star prepping for it though it’s still relatively kept on the down low for now 

some plot points: i could see someone bumping into her whether it be at gold star or at an undesignated practice room? she’s practicing songs she normally doesn’t perform, so it causes conversation for coachella. ironically, take it one step further and if your muse doesn’t have anything to do, come take the trip with her : )

someone who asks about why she hasn’t write, which then possibly dives into a deeper conversation about feeling so emotionally exhausted you don’t wanna do something? even better if it’s over wine or whiskey 

someone who wants to bitch about how icky and mean boys are for playing with your hearts — gossip to the max

maybe, she’s too emotionally exhausted and brushes off your muse which leads to an altercation or misunderstanding for some conflict

aka: i’m open to all ideas and plotting things out further, so don’t hesitate to take a plot point and tweak it any way you want!

[muteddreamssilentscreams]

Thoughts I had while watching the IMAX livestream of the Jingle Ball show today

Okay Jax can really sing

Who the fuck is JVKE... oh this song

God I'd let Dove do disgraceful things to me. Holy shit she's doing the Lil Nas X cover!!!! These dancers really are the moment. Should I dress up as Jingle Ball Dove Cameron for Halloween??

Red Carpet Ad Break: Jenna Ushkowitz and Kevin McHale being real life besties is so fun. Dove is so iconic, ugh. Omg HeMo! Becca Tilley! Becca tilleys cohost!(😂) Amanda Kloots!

Is...is Ava Max lip syncing? Like I think she kinda is. Okay she's singing some but lip syncing a lot. 🤷🏾‍♀️

This experience is just reminding me of the time my mom wouldn't let me skip ONE middle school band concert to go to the JingleBall concert even though she'd already bought the tickets 🫠🙃

Ava is on but I'm literally still thinking about Dove stepping on me with those boots 🥵👢

Second time "seeing" Lauv this year hehe. Poor thing is sicky and still killing it. His look is giving a little Aaron Carter?

I feel kinda bad that JVKE only got to sing one song. Does he only have one song? Hmm.

Lauv is such a good performer. And he's hitting all the HITS. I wonder what he'll finish with. I bet I Like Me Better. Yeah, of course, how could he not.

LIIIIVVIING FOR ALL THE WOMEN IN SUITS TONIGHT

Did they just repeatedly misgender Demi or did I miss something? Okay, I literally researched this while she sang Sorry Not Sorry because I could NOT believe they would do that and apparently she's been using she/they pronouns so we good fam 👌🏾🫡 Now I can focus again. Why does their audio sound so much muddier than everyone else? Demi is ROCKING tonight.

Red Carpet Ad Break: OMG LIZZO IS GOING TO BE HERE? lol Martha Stewart is so awkward. Y'all she makes he grandkids call her MARTHA. I actually admire that part though.

How long is this whole thing gonna be I wonder. Was gonna hit up Trader Joe's tonight 🤔

Are two of the AJR brothers twins? Because the third one looks so different lol. The horn player is SLAYING this set!!!!! And okay yes when they hit the drop for Weak I smiled so big. It was joyous. But the run off stage and return with instruments was unnecessary and I kinda hated it.

Lizzo!!! Not the nails!

Okay everyone saying MSG is fucking s e n d i n g me

Why ARE men great until they gotta be great??? She really said something with that line guys.

Hell yeah BSB 2000 BREAK IT DOWN NOW!!! The boys still got it y'all. 29 fucking years damn. Uhh they have Christmas music?? Wow. The all white outfits are really working for me. Okay I would've ended on I Want it That Way but their choreo for Larger than Life is very impressive.

Red Carpet Ad Break: okay I'm over these. Let's just get to the music.

Wow Tate McCrae looks so much like Mackenzie Ziegler.

Lol not The Kid LAROI being tired of singing Stay 🤣 like I get it but you can't say it. The acoustic set was a nice change of pace and showed of his voice so well. Okay but his guitarist kinda slays.

Is Dua gonna close the show? Because that would rule

OMG Katie Holmes looks gorgeous. Okay she sucked at presenting though...

So... I guess the person in all the red carpet ad breaks I thought was Charlie Puth is not Charlie Puth because this is Charlie Puth. And he's adorable wow.

People are showing up to the theater 4 hours in?

Charlie has way too much confidence in this crowd lol its cute. Do I have a crush on Charlie Puth? Interesting, I thought the eyebrow notch was a stylistic choice but I think he just has a scar.

Red Carpet Ad Break: Zoey Duetch is so right--DUA LIPA SLAYS. And she loves to eat--FRIED POTATOES ALSO SLAY. omg hi Dove!

I'm dead at this guy in the theater he hates the ad break jingle so much but he screams when the audio goes out. Sir what do you want??

Hell yeah, it's Dua time. And she's giving HAIR. Wait this is my second time "seeing" her this year too! I'm sorry the Dua umbrella dance break 😲😍 oh and now a chair dance 😍🥵 Incredible. What a closer!!

Okay y'all the people who came in 4 hours late were actually there to see Black Panther that was supposed to start at 8:15...and Jingle Ball didn't end until 9 😳 well at least they got to see Dua, that was incredible.

In closing: can't believe I almost didn't come to this because I thought 30 bucks was too much. Didn't know I'd be there for 5 hours but it was so worth it. Loads of artists I'd never go see in concert alone and they of course played the HITS. Non stop bops? Yes please! This healed my childhood trauma of not getting to go hahaha. It's too late for Trader Joes now but that's okay we're having McDonald's tonight!!

If you read this all, you deserve an award... so, here you go 🏆

Peace and love my friends, happy holidays ✌🏾

[nana-au]

I’m honestly so anxious for the next chapters I’ve been checking your blog obsessively for an update and I just can’t wait aaaah! 😭

I’ve had this fear that the nsfw part is going to be satoru x princess but seeing how you’re excited im feeling a bit hopeful… anyway, I have a question which obviously you don’t have to respond to since I suppose it’s a spoiler but do you think the ending will be angst or a happy one? Thank you for this story btw, it’s so nice but so nerve wracking at the same time it’s keeping me in my toes 🫶🏻

hey lovely! thank you for sending a msg i love hearing all of ur thoughts eeee! there is SLIGHT spoilers ahead but Not Really - i more want to elaborate on the character's thoughts and also my own.

ok first let me ease ur worries by saying satoru finds the princess lovely but wouldn't touch her with a ten foot pole. like she is sweet and down to earth but she simply is not you. i personally interpret reader and satoru being soul mates - they are completely wrapped up in each other's worlds and they cannot fathom a life without the other. like they both would rather be alone than replace the other (all though they worry the other does not share the same sentiment; hence the jealousy and hurt). so i hope that makes you feel better in that regard! i don't want to spoil how the story takes a nsfw turn - but it probably is not in the way anyone is expecting.

and second, i HATE sad endings. like i always feel so unfulfilled when a story has a sad conclusion. so i am not gonna write one lol.

slight spoilers over - thank you so much for your continued interest in this series, i really did not expect this reaction but i feel so fulfilled knowing that people are genuinely interested in it like i am! thank you so much for the compliment and i hope i continue to write something that you enjoy.

i hope you have a great weekend coming up!!! again, thank you.

[lovelovex]

no x posts no announcements, kind rude p don’t you think cutting such a big amount of people who CARE about you guys is too much??? it is hard to keep up with all your updates via fucking RUMORS of all things for fucks sake

oh we’re right off w the accusations ok ok ok sometimes i hate being the spokesperson, P the diplomat, but here we go

i’m gonna use this post for the whole rant bc it’s all p much the same in my inbox:

if ‘rumors’ have been your only source of information for the past i dont rly rmbr how many months honey that’s intentional

sometime in july, before i made that post ab the healing process, we sat down and went thru every email subscribed to our mailing list, every account in every gc we used to have, decided fuck it and created all the new ones, rmbr when we had like 500+ members in one of them? well that’s not happening ever again, outsiders aren’t allowed anymore

did it hurt your feelings being left out?

well it hurt my feelings to find out how many of you were actually involved in the case behind my back, how many of you knew exactly what was happening in those two years and stayed silent or worse – chose to side w the person who wanted to take everything he could away from me

not just me, my friends, my family, the ppl i love more than anything else in this world, have suffered enormously bc of His actions and bc of Your support of those actions

i know exactly who you all are, i have a list of names i dont want to hear ever again in my life

the damage you’ve done is irreparable, and it’s beyond my imagination how any of you still feel entitled to anything, did you rly think i’d never find out? i thought it was common knowledge i always find out one way or another

we’re all grown up ppl, and it’s not my place to tell you who you can or cannot talk to, you’ve made your choices and we’ve made ours, and if you ended up on the outside of the circle, welcome to consequences 101, your actions actually do have an impact, what a concept

the case played a big part in the whole thing, but we’re way past that now, and the thing is – the real reason behind ‘cutting out such a big amount of ppl’ is we’re tired, the better part of our lives was dedicated solely to creating a safe space, and we did, only to realize we’re our own safe space, it’s the ppl, so the shows are still happening, the karaoke nights and the acoustic sessions, i say my thank yous from the stage and in emotional voice msgs at 3am bc my god do i love our space, my little sanity oasis, that part hasn’t and will never change

what changed is that we don’t have to subject ourselves to scrutiny, to any form of judgement anymore rly, what they dont know they can’t ruin i rmbr a post like this somewhere on this blog, i dont have to read your thoughts on every single detail of every single move we make, i only hear opinions from those ppl i actually want to listen to, and no, i dont only surround myself w yes men now, if i do smth wrong i still get called out, rightfully so

what i’m mostly tired of is those half-assed friendships, of ppl who only wanted me smiling and shiny, who would disappear the second things got a bit depressing, i dont know who hurt you, but it wasn’t me, or maybe it was, in that case that’s on you if you never had the guts to open your mouth and actually say smth

yk i’ve had to say so many goodbyes in the last two years, i’ll say some more if it comes to this, i’m getting better at letting ppl come and go, but i could never tolerate indifference or betrayal, and i’ve had enough of both of these things

you can still go off in my inbox, let it all out, i can’t rly stop you, just know it doesn’t make any difference to me