#though there's a lot of room for interesting conversation when it comes to an aligned style Deathsaurus

[orbitariums]

older art x younger black reader sugar daddy aspect... short lil smut included with breeding kink... art is grown and tired as ever but the most alive when he's with you.

older! art + younger black reader is something so sacred like. he's absolutely smitten by you, obsessed, and not shy about showing it. your laugh is like tinkling bells to him, and you laugh a lot. you're so innocent in the sense that you haven't been marked with the scar of age that mars your joie de vivre. each time you laugh, really laugh with the full force of your body, throwing your head back so your nose aligns with the stars, he just grins up at you in pure bliss.

you're so gentle with each other – when you're out walking together he always holds your hand, pulls you gently aside when a bike whizzes by. when he's tired after a day of training you straddle his lap on the edge of the bed, arms wrapped around his neck and pressing your forehead to his, like you're trying to telecommunicate a feeling of calm. you never fight, at least not the way art used to in his past relationships. if you're upset about something, you listen to each other. you come to a compromise. you sleep on it and revisit it the next day with a fresh mind (but you never go to bed angry). he speaks to you in dulcet, crooning tones — "you okay honey?" "i know baby."

he buys you whatever you want. if you're out with him you might as well leave your wallet at home. art is your wallet. he knows it and doesn't even think twice about it. even when you do try to pay for something, he's already taken care of it or he's stepping in front of you wordlessly and tapping his card. if you want something, it's in your hands in a heartbeat, no matter how expensive. if you even mention a bag you’ve been eyeing, it’s at your doorstep the next day.

you've introduced him to so many new things aligning with your generation. sometimes it's hard not to feel like an old fogey, but he takes a genuine interest in filming your tiktoks, brainstorming instagram post captions, and rating movies on letterboxd with you. his latest favorite has been watching reels and tiktoks of wig installs with you. he's practically begging you to let him do your braid down. you settle on letting him do the voiceover for your grwm tiktoks instead. you even enrich his taste palate — he'd never had or heard of seafood boil before you and now slapping on a pair of plastic gloves and getting king crab legs is your favorite thing to do on date nights.

you've taken to your own nicknames for him — "artie", "pookie", "my love." the most curious one though, and possibly his favorite — is "baby daddy."

you'd said it one time casually in conversation after he bought you a dress you'd tried on in the airport before your flight to fiji, hugging him close at the register and doting on him,

"thank you baby daddy!"

he stills when he hears you say it, swipes his card wordlessly and heads out of the shop with you still clung to his hip. while you're sitting in the lounge at the airport, he suddenly needs clarification,

"baby daddy? doesn't that imply that... i'm the father of your children?"

"huh...?" you were occupied with your nails. you looked up at him, noting the slightly clouded expression on his face. "i mean, technically yeah. but it's just a cute pet name to me. why, do you not like it?"

"i like it," was all art said in reply, and you placed a big kiss on his cheek, snuggling into his neck.

later that night in the hotel room, you're pressed beneath art as he places practically all of his weight on top of you. his hips are rolling into yours, unforgivably deep and penetrating. you can feel the curvature of his body digging against you. he can feel the plush of your breasts and the sweat slicking between the two of you. you're moaning raucously into his ear, fingers combing through his hair, damp with sweat.

"i'm your baby daddy?" he questions, his mouth pressed against your ear. you whimper when you hear it from him, low and imploring, even though he knows you can't respond right now. he's fucking you too good and he knows it, knows when you've reached an unresponsive state while he fucks you into oblivion. "want me to pump you full of my fucking kids? feed your pussy my cum?"

you're pulsing around him like crazy the more he talks, and he pulls away just slightly so he can see your face. his eyes gazing into yours, he asks,

"hmm? you want that? you want me to get you pregnant?"

his thrusts grow sharper and quicker, and somehow deeper. you yelp at the pleasure, and nod vigorously as you throw your hand over your mouth.

"art," you can barely whisper. he nods, his jaw grit so hard it's visible through his cheeks.

"i know baby, i know. i wanna hear you say it. want you to cum around this cock while you say it."

your back arches off the bed as you squeal,

"fuck, daddy, yes! i want you to get me fucking pregnant, want you to fill this pussy up with your cum, please."

it's like that sends him into overdrive and he fucks you at a pace you didn't know was previously possible. you're shaking as he thrusts harshly into you, pulsating around his dick and squeezing him with a vice grip when you finally come.

art's head hangs when he feels you squeeze around him and his thrusts start to grow stuttered and sloppy as he whimpers your name,

"fuck, yn. make me come, yes."

as promised, he shoots ropes of cum inside of you. when you think he's done, there's still more, painting your insides and eventually oozing out of you. two slow, redeeming thrusts to keep it all inside of you, and he's finally slowly pulling out. the both of you watch as some of it drips out of you. art rushes to finger it back inside of your sensitive, sore pussy. but you have no complaints.

he collapses beside you and you immediately bury yourself into his side.

"so baby daddy does it for you, huh?" you giggle.

art sighs deeply, resting one hand on your shoulder and the other on his stomach. even he is in awe of himself. he takes a deep breath, trying to commit the memory of your pussy dripping with his cum to his mind,

"you could say that."

[court-jobi]

Alexa, Play...

((banner by me! I don't own Horikoshi's work OR the mindblowing art of @gsony24~used w permission))

Pairing: Midoriya x reader

Words: 1.6k

Rating: G~

Warnings: Southern US!GNreader, comfort fic, tooth-rotting fluff here y'all, established relationship, language barrier, dancing-in-the-kitchen level self-insert

Summary:

Izuku comes home to spot your grocery list on the fridge written out in your native language- something he sees just as rarely as hearing you speak it. Just when he thinks he couldn't possibly find you more adorable, you strike a match and chuck it into his heart with a touch as simple as a peck on his cheek, a laugh thrown his way... or -like now- when you chat over the phone in an accent he never gets to hear. He wants to hear more so badly, and asks for it so sweetly.

A/N: a short n'sweet one today, folks, bc I was missing writing for this sweet green bean. I have yet to see MHA: You're Next, but have no one to see it with ughhhhh so off to writing fanfic to soothe the pain~

For my My Hero Academia Masterlist, check it out here!

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You're on the phone with your mom when Izuku finds your sticky note for shopping on the fridge. His mindful shut of the door was appreciated by your mouthed apology, but let him know that he'd best occupy himself solo for a bit while you catch up. The time difference between your home country and here leaves your windows to chat limited, so he’s happy when your schedules align like this. 

If you'll be on a while longer, he thinks he can take a quick drive and pick up these few things for you. Inspired by the idea, he plucks the list out from the magnet’s hold.

You've got nice handwriting, a blend between printed letters and a tilted, cursive script. Personality shines especially near the end of a word, when you're rushing to move onto the next thought. 

Painter’s tape

bananas

white vinegar (stupid drain line)

It's so simple, but when it's written in your native language by default, it feels like a secret to be reading even something so simple as a list like this– scribbled out in the way as it appears in your head.

For most formal paperwork, your kana characters are decently executed, though it's always going to be harder when you grew up speaking Japanese rather than filling out lines and lines of bellwork in the kanji style. This isn't to say you've not been trying:

Over the course of your courtship, you've bonded with young Eri as an extension of Izuku's life and have inherited some of her early learning textbooks. You happened on them by accident, when you were helping her paint her room a few months ago. It sounded elementary when you expressed the interest to read and write Japanese better, and the sweet girl was so enthusiastic to help! 

She lent you her books, but of course you weren't becoming an expert overnight. However slow you’d pace yourself, Izuku was plenty proud of you for making the effort. He'd allow you as much grace as he could spare– especially since your notes were still so cute to find here and there~

Across the room, pacing along every other tile on the floor like stepping stones, you look up catching Izuku staring. You’ve been deep in conversation for only about an hour, but give him a wrench of your nose in jest, and begin wrapping up the call explaining that he’s home and you’d like to greet him properly. 

Izuku calls out a quick 'hi’ and ‘bye' to your mom when he motions to go on speaker; you're not one to refuse him, as he well knows. 

You seem pleased on more than one front when he asks to talk to your family, so he continues to do it. For one, you’re touched by how spirited he is to even want to interact with your mother, and his dropping of formalities and reverting to English to speak to her means a lot to you. Neither point is lost on sweet Izuku, based on how your smile brightens when he jogs over to you to be more in speaking range. 

When you hang up, you're quick to pop up and kiss him as a welcome home. Izuku hangs onto you a little longer than usual, thumb rubbing into your cheek as he savors you several times in quick succession. 

Just when he thinks he couldn't possibly find you more adorable, you strike a match and chuck it into his heart with a touch as simple as a peck on his cheek or a laugh thrown his way. 

“‘Zuku, what's that look for, babe?” 

In your sentimental bliss, you're still surprised to get such adoring treatment from him almost a year into a relationship. 

“Nothing,” Izuku chimes back, “I just forget that you're this American sometimes~”

“Whaddya mean, ‘you forget’?!” the concept sounds hilarious to you. 

“I do!” Izuku offers to take your phone to plug it in nearby, “I have to remind myself that Japanese isn't your first language, until I see you on FaceTime with your mom. Out of nowhere, I'll just hear you sound so different, like: ‘byyyye~ talk to y'all later’!”

You snort at his attempt at a southern accent– stiff and stuck on the wrong vowels. Clearly this succeeds in amusing you, because you hop up and down on the balls of your feet like you've discovered a new game:

“Oh my God, ‘Texas Smash Deku’ is the stuff of my fantasies!– oo!! say, ‘I’d like a honey butter chicken biscuit’~”

“WHAT?? N-no!!”

“What YES!! Please??”

Both doubled over in laughter, you're entertained over his thorough embarrassment, but you're both smitten and carefree: holding onto each other despite nearly buckling at the knees.

Izuku tries his best to catch his breathe first, determined to explain himself,

“I can't do it right! It's like- you say things- I don't know how to describe it! It's not just the flat, movie star accent.. It's–"

“What, a-- ‘drawl’? ‘Twang’?”

Izuku snaps at the realization.

“Yes!! That!! The country kind, like that chef you watch!”

You've rolled your eyes, stepping out of his kind hold in favor of checking out what takeout he brought home. 

“-Hey, no, come back!”

“‘Makin’ fun'ah my accent, I outta smack you’.”

You're far from really mad as you tote around the kitchen getting silverware and soy sauce, but Izuku follows you around like a shadow regardless. Eyes full of that puppy love, he does try to block you in from the pantry closet,

“I’m sorry, honey~”

“No you're not.” --but you're grinning out of forgiveness anyway.

Izuku sneaks a hold on you, reeling you in. It’s cozy in your shared kitchen, alight with just the right amount of overhead lighting and enough space for you two to stand and share tasks.

“I do like hearing you talk like that,” he shares contentedly, “It’s nice to listen to that side of you, especially when you have a lot to say.”

“Yeah well,” you turn into his arms, rather than away, “I'm sure you've noticed already, it comes from her side of the family. Guess I can't really ditch the accent whenever I switch back. The more I think about it… I'm gonna be happy if I can keep sounding like her as I get older. Lets me keep something of hers- even if my ‘dashing hero’ of a man over here thinks I'm being cheeky."

“No, I'm not teasing now! I mean it,” Izuku presses into you, “I only meant, you don't hold back or anything when you're chatty with her.”

He wonders if it stems from shyness, your avoidance of using too much English here at home. If you’re jamming out while doing chores -presuming you’re alone- you’ll switch the station once you know you have an audience.

“Not trying to hide it with you! I'm just out of practice here. No one else in our circle really uses English, so it doesn't come up, I guess.”

You make the point with a wistful aire. Occasionally you'll sub English classes as a favor to Izuku’s effervescent coworker at UA, but not often enough to get too much exposure. He's always been impressed with your Japanese diction, and thinks you could very well go into teaching if you ever wanted a career change.

Still, whether its for work or play, it’s a sound that’s intrinsically you, and there’s a magic to it that Izuku finds himself chasing. A secret power of yours, if he could only unlock it.

“--Plus, I don't think a lot of the slang translates over?” you get comfortable in his arms, locking your fingers behind his neck with no intention of leaving as you muse, “You guys have your own here, and that’s hard to figure out anyway.”

“I suppose you’re right.” 

Tenderly, you run your nails through his hair, a thoughtful look up to him, 

“Do you want me to use it more at home? Lay on the sugar for ya?”

A chance to hear you at your core? Watch your handwritten notes come alive?

“If you want-” Izuku softens, “-if you’re comfortable.”

“Can you understand me though?”

“I can hear you. It only gets hard when you get excited, ‘cuz you talk fast.”

You fuss back at him, “Oh, as if you don't.”

Caught under your hypocritical eye, he can only offer an honest chuckle back, “Fair~”

But for all of your feeling put on the spotlight, you seem to hold a soft spot for the way Izuku makes his requests:

“ ‘I guess I can indulge ya, since you asked so nicely.’ ”

–and it’s enough for him to try his hand to give you a linguistic sparring partner right back:

“ ‘Say something else.’ ”

All English flies out the window when he's looking at you like this, as you fall under a fit of nervous laughter, “What am I supposed to say?!” 

“ ‘Sing me a song, my love. Something 'twangy'.”

You giggled, "'Twangy', good Lord…” 

Izuku could write novels on everything from your finest features to even your most pensive insecurities, romanticizing each of them into a beautifully imperfect anthology. He does so in his mind, at least, when you’re barely lucid on the edge of sleep but still trying to engage him in meaningful conversation. He’ll do so in the notes on his phone, when he learns of yet another favorite token of yours, and wants to add it to the list of comfort measures he can refer to when you need it most.

And when you prompt Alexa to play your newly revealed ‘Karaoke hours that will never see the light of day’ playlist -the one that’s chock-full of female power ballads which you begin to sing your own rendition to-  Izuku is certain his mind nor fingers nor heart can catalog how much more he can possibly love you… though he’ll dance in place with you as he listens and soaks it all in.

[the-cosmic-cauldron]

🌸 Spring’s Coming: What’s Happening To You In March Based On Your Moon Sign🌸

February has passed, and now we’re welcomed into a new month: March. The month when the cold days that make us curl up under a warm blanket with a hot cup of tea begin to transform into sunnier days. The sun’s rays shine so deeply into your room that their warmth feels almost furnace-like. When you step outside, there’s still that slight chill in the breeze, but it reinvigorates your body and helps you breathe a little easier. Spring is just around the corner. March is here, and before we know it, the cherry blossoms will bloom, flowers will sprout, the grass will turn greener, and the air will remind us of all the beautiful, precious moments.

Today’s reading is a collective one, based on your moon sign, offering insights into what March holds for you in terms of love, career, and emotional well-being. It may not resonate with everyone, but there should be some truth in it that speaks to your month ahead. I hope you enjoy the rest of your day and have a blessed one.

Aries Moon: Avoidance, Loss, and Impatience

Love

In terms of love, this month feels like a time of avoidance for Aries. You are stuck, heavily reflecting on the past, and there’s a noticeable hesitance in moving forward. The main issue here is avoidance—you’re avoiding addressing the unresolved matters within your relationship that are holding you back from progression. You may feel lost when it comes to how to move forward, and that’s because communication is lacking. You are not talking to the person you care about or are interested in, and there’s a chance they may be avoiding you too.

While there’s a desire to connect, have fun, and make exciting plans with this person, you’re holding back. In order to do so, though, you’d need to open up and have a conversation. This lack of communication makes the energy feel stale and stagnant in your love life throughout March. There is a lot of potential, but without addressing these issues, progress will be difficult.

Career

For Aries in March, there may be job loss or job transition. Some of you may experience being laid off, fired, or choosing to walk away from your current position. This will not be an easy process—it will feel like the job has discarded you, leaving you in a vulnerable financial situation. However, this career setback has a silver lining. Although it may initially feel like a blow, this loss is actually designed to push you toward something better, something that aligns more with your purpose.

As you go through the struggle, there will be opportunities for growth. You’ll be motivated to look for better opportunities, perhaps in areas you hadn’t considered before. Despite the difficulty, this can ultimately open new doors for you.

Emotional Themes

March is a month where emotions are running high for Aries. You’re driven by goals and ambition, and you have a sense of urgency about achieving what you want right now. However, there’s a lack of patience and a struggle with work ethic, making it hard to execute those goals. The desire for immediate results clashes with the reality that achieving your ambitions will take time and effort. This internal conflict could lead to pessimism and frustration.

You might feel disheartened at times, as things are not moving at the pace you’d like. However, there will be a moment of emotional clarity later in the month. During this time, you’ll take a step back, introspect, and come to realize that you’ve been pushing too hard and approaching things the wrong way. This self-reflection will help you regain balance. You’ll understand that things take time, and you’ll start to approach your goals with more patience and organization. Ultimately, you’ll move toward a state of emotional fulfillment and steadiness, overcoming the negativity that may have plagued you earlier in the month.

Taurus Moon: Lucky Lover, New Money, A Break From Someone

Love

For Taurus Moons in March, the beginning of the month brings a tendency to overthink your love life. You may find yourself staying up late, preoccupying your mind with thoughts about someone, or driving yourself crazy mentally. This overthinking is excessive and not reflective of reality. It may stem from past experiences that have caused stress when it comes to approaching relationships.

Despite the mental strain, you’re on a great page with the person you’re dealing with. There’s harmony between the two of you, as you both align with each other’s desires and preferences. Communication is flowing easily, and there’s a sense of reassurance in the connection. Luck seems to be on your side this month, with positive circumstances that bring unexpected good fortune. Some things may happen that you didn’t anticipate, leaving you thinking, “How did this happen? How is this so great?”

Career

In terms of your career, Taurus Moons are likely to experience a fresh start this month. You may have been feeling unfulfilled in your current job and unable to continue with the emotional exhaustion and frustration it has brought. Now, you’re ready to move past that disappointment. March is a powerful month for you to apply for a new job or explore new career paths. You are ambitious and eager to manifest change, no longer willing to wait or take your time. You’ll actively jump on any opportunity that comes your way to make it happen. This is a month of stability and financial prosperity, as you move toward a more stable path in your career. You’re not hesitating to take on this new chapter.

Emotional Themes

Emotionally, Taurus Moons in March will start to feel incredibly capable. There’s a revitalization of confidence and a renewed sense of empowerment. Things that once seemed difficult or out of reach now feel achievable. This shift in perception will bring a total transformation in your mindset and life journey. You’ll feel not only more capable but also more aware of yourself and your surroundings.

However, there may be a falling out with someone this month, likely due to disagreements or being on different mental pages. You may find yourself questioning, “Why did this fight happen? Why did this argument take place?” While you may want to walk away from the situation without engaging in drama, the conflict could leave you reflecting on the intensity of the exchange. You might feel a bit avoidant, retreating into your own world and steering clear of further drama.

Gemini: Non-Committal, Powerful Networking, Unfulfillment

Love

For Gemini Moons in March, there is a lack of commitment in your love life. Some of you may be cheating or being dishonest, sneaking off and engaging with someone else, only to return to your partner as if nothing happened. This dishonesty is causing tension in your relationships.

Others of you may have recently gone through a breakup or will experience one this month. Even if you’re still together physically, there’s a disconnect emotionally and mentally. There’s a lack of affection and intimacy, and the bond feels weak. The relationship may feel like you’re together but not truly united. There’s no real closeness or affection, and the maturity needed to address these issues is lacking. Neither you nor your partner seem willing to resolve the situation or acknowledge the disconnect. You may be avoiding responsibility for the state of the relationship and are focused more on selfish desires, like seeking personal pleasure and indulgence, while neglecting the relational aspect.

Career

Career-wise, March looks to be an exciting and powerful month. You’re in a highly creative space, full of ideas that you can execute. You’ll be making important decisions that could have significant payoffs for your career. There are powerful moves ahead, and you’re in a position to make things happen.

Networking opportunities will also be abundant this month. You’ll meet people who could offer you the potential to level up in your career. It’s a social month in terms of your career, and you’ll be engaging with others who can help you grow. Your desire for exponential growth is strong, and you’re taking the steps necessary to turn that into reality.

Emotional Themes

Emotionally, Gemini Moons are experiencing heartache and pain in March. You’re feeling mentally exhausted and beaten down, and you may be struggling with feelings of unfulfillment. There was an opportunity that you thought would be rewarding, but it slipped away, leaving you feeling disappointed and regretful.

You’re struggling with emotional confusion and fear about the future, and you may feel emotionally stagnant. There’s a sense of shrinking away from others and even from yourself. You’re finding it hard to nurture and care for yourself in the midst of this emotional turmoil. There are a lot of mental blocks and growth obstacles that make it difficult to move forward. In March, you may feel emotionally low and overwhelmed by the challenges you’re facing.

Cancer Moon: Lingering Pain, Tension At Work, Stuck On The Past

Love

At the beginning of March, Cancer Moons will experience feelings of deep hurt. Someone may have wronged you, either by cheating or saying something that deeply affected you. You will likely feel like this is the end, and your hope for love might seem dim, especially at the start of the month. You may spend time wallowing in the pain, as it becomes a major emotional theme in March.

However, this emotional state will linger, though it won’t last indefinitely. As the month progresses, you’ll begin to go out more and engage with others. You may find yourself on dates and enjoying the company of a lover. There may be moments of fun, indulgence, and perhaps even drinking or using substances together, though it’s likely to happen in public settings surrounded by people rather than intimate, private moments.

In terms of commitment, March seems to bring a shift, and by the end of the month, there could be a solidified commitment with the person you are involved with. You may find yourselves thinking about the future and making decisions together. It’s a surprising turn, going from feeling hurt and disconnected to enjoying yourself and even receiving commitment from a partner.

Career

In February, you may have felt like you were burning out at work, overextending yourself. However, in March, you will gradually begin to recover from that burnout, finding a balance and incorporating more relaxation into your work routine. This shift will lead to positive results, and you’ll feel more confident in your career. There may also be recognition and accolades coming your way, which is likely to boost your confidence even further.

Additionally, someone at work may have developed a crush on you or is keeping an eye on you, which could add a bit of intrigue to your work environment. Despite these positive developments, you may still struggle with certain conflicts at work. You may not see eye to eye with some coworkers or have difficulty deciding how to approach specific tasks. While you’re shining in your career, the desire to do too much could lead to overextending yourself again, causing conflict and potentially burnout if you’re not careful. It’s important to balance your ambitions with self-care.

Emotional Themes

Emotionally, Cancer Moons will find themselves relying heavily on others for support, encouragement, and enthusiasm throughout the month. Your support system will be a vital source of strength, helping you navigate emotional challenges and enjoy yourself in various ways.

However, despite this support, you may still feel stuck on something from the past. There could be a mental roadblock preventing you from fully moving forward with certain emotions, making it difficult for you to process or let go of past feelings. These unresolved emotions might cause a sense of being overwhelmed, and you could feel like you’re emotionally unstable or disrupted throughout the month.

This emotional intensity may cause you to feel uprooted or unsafe emotionally, and it may take some time and effort to ground yourself. You’ll likely need to confront these destabilizing emotions and work through them in order to regain emotional equilibrium.

Leo Moon: Cutting Through The Bullshit, Taking A Break From Work, Emotionally Unstable

Love

In March, Leo Moons will experience tension in their romantic connections. There will be too much energy between you and your partner, leading to conflict. Both of you may want each other but have different desires and approaches, causing a clash. This tension will dominate the beginning of the month and could feel like a collision between your needs and expectations.

However, by the end of the month, there will be a breakthrough. The cycle of conflict you’ve been experiencing—possibly since February—will come to an end. A new phase will emerge in your romantic life, marked by change. You’ll be stepping away from old patterns and entering a period where you’re more focused on clear, mature communication. This shift will bring peace, balance, and stillness into your connection, allowing for smoother and more constructive conversations. If you’re in an existing relationship, this will significantly improve the dynamic. If you’re starting a new connection, it will feel clear, communicative, and balanced.

Career

In February, you may have been overworking and using a lot of mental energy in your career. However, in March, you will likely feel the need to take a step back. You may seek rest, take vacation, or prioritize things like early bedtimes to rejuvenate yourself. You’re no longer interested in pushing yourself too hard and want to take a break from the constant grind of work.

Despite this desire to rest, there will still be some blockages in your career growth. You may struggle with feeling grounded and finding your flow, and there may be difficulty flourishing in your work. You will find it challenging to invest your energy into your career in March, and this struggle could lead to tension. You might be torn between withdrawing and needing to do more, pushing yourself hard at times, and not realizing how this might negatively affect your well-being.

This tension between rest and work could create emotional instability in your professional life. You may feel like you’re not seeing things clearly or might overcommit again without realizing it, falling back into old habits of overwork. It’s important to find a balance between nurturing yourself and your career.

Emotional Themes

March will be an emotionally unstable month for Leo Moons. You may feel like you have little control over your emotions, and there might be a desire to withdraw from others. You won’t be as open about your feelings or experiences, preferring to keep things to yourself. This could be a time where you’re focused on deepening your emotional understanding and following your intuition, but it’s possible that your emotions will come up suddenly and strongly, prompting you to act on them without fully processing or considering the consequences.

There could also be difficulty connecting with others—whether with friends, family, or romantic partners. You may feel disappointed or isolated emotionally, leading to moments of acting impulsively based on your emotions. Instead of taking time to reflect, you may make decisions on the fly, which could lead to feelings of regret or frustration later.

Virgo Moon: Emotional Coldness, Unstable Work, Nostalgic

Love

In March, Virgo Moons will experience some emotional coldness in their romantic connections. There’s a lack of nurturance in the bond between you and your partner, which is causing a sense of disconnection. Your focus is still on the relationship, but you’re trying to avoid being overwhelmed by emotional tensions, particularly as you work to balance your personal life and responsibilities.

While you may desire a passionate and sexually charged connection with your partner, it seems that you are suppressing these desires in favor of focusing on the practical aspects of life. You’re trying to see if this emotional distance will pass, while also managing other aspects of your life, including work.

Career

March will bring instability in your career. There are blocks in your progress, and goals may not be completed as expected. Procrastination, lack of organization, and a general lack of creativity may hinder your work performance. You might not feel enthusiastic or engaged with your job, and this lack of motivation will have an emotional impact, leaving you disappointed and dissatisfied with your work life.

However, by the end of the month, you may make an effort to turn things around. There will be roadblocks and challenges, but you’ll likely try to implement changes and take actions to achieve your goals, despite the obstacles.

Emotional Landscape

In March, Virgo Moons will feel nostalgic and may want to reconnect with their childlike self. You’ll crave freedom and a break from responsibilities, wanting to spend time in nature, around children, or engaging in creative activities like drawing or coloring. You may find yourself longing for a sense of playfulness and lightheartedness during this time.

Despite the challenges, March will bring moments of pride and confidence. Something will go well for you emotionally, making you feel free and on top of the world. There are blessings and emotional growth on the horizon, which will lift your spirits.

However, you may also struggle with a sense of laziness, not wanting to do much, and a tendency to be swept away by strong emotions—even if those emotions are positive. This may lead to emotional immaturity, as you might have difficulty grounding yourself and might get caught up in your emotional states. This could result in moments where your feelings take over, preventing you from staying grounded.

Libra Moon:Breakthroughs,Difficult Communication,Disconnected

Love

In the month of March, Libra Moons will experience a breakdown in their love life before a breakthrough occurs. There’s a sense of pettiness and immaturity in the communication between you and your partner. Conversations seem to repeat, and there’s a lack of resolution, with no clear solutions being found. It feels as if one or both partners are more focused on their own interests, making it hard to have a meaningful conversation—one where both are talking to each other, rather than just at each other.

For a period of time, the arguments and mental conflicts will persist. However, a shift occurs, and the energy moves from mental disagreements to an emotional breakthrough. Eventually, there will be a conversation that focuses less on the logical and mental aspects of the relationship, and more on expressing emotions. This emotional revitalization will bring a new beginning, allowing you both to reconnect emotionally and build a deeper bond.

Career

In your career, confusion and lack of clarity will persist throughout March. You may feel uncertain about what steps to take next, possibly due to an aversion to confrontation. There’s a sense of things being left unsaid, leading to a buildup of unspoken tensions. Your fears and overthinking might cause difficulties in communication at work, leading to misunderstandings or heated arguments during conversations. This could destabilize the work environment, making it less exciting and leaving you feeling dissatisfied with your job.

Despite these challenges, by the end of the month, there will be a shift towards more balance and clarity. While there will be moments of emotional confusion and chaos, you will gradually begin to focus on restoring harmony in your work life. You’ll approach work with a more mature mindset, seeking to manage relationships and work dynamics with greater stability. By the end of the month, after navigating through some initial difficulties, you will find a clearer path forward and regain balance in your career.

Emotional Landscape

Emotionally, Libra Moons may experience some coldness and a sense of disconnection in March. You may not feel fully nurtured or aligned with others, leading you to take more time for yourself. There’s a need for introspection as you seek clarity about your next move. You may feel unsure about what direction to take and will likely focus on grounding yourself.

Rather than becoming overwhelmed by emotions, you’ll focus on balancing them by reflecting and spending time alone. This will allow you to restore emotional equilibrium and prepare for a more stable emotional state moving forward, particularly as you approach April. It’s a time of self-reflection as you seek to understand what’s truly important and how to regain emotional stability.

Scorpio Moon: Break From Your Lover, Balancing Work, Standing Your Ground

Love

In February, you were deeply focused on your person, trying to communicate and resolve issues. However, it seems that your efforts were not as successful as you’d hoped. As a result, you’re taking a step back from this person in March. This break is necessary because the situation became mentally exhausting, and you didn’t want to continue putting yourself through that.

However, this break is also causing some instability and powerlessness in your life, as you likely wanted to keep moving forward with this person instead of taking a break. Despite the discomfort, this time apart will be helpful in shifting your mindset. You were overburdened by the situation, and the space is allowing you to start unpacking the mental distress and relieving yourself from the negative thoughts that had been weighing on you. By the end of March, you will begin to feel freer mentally, as the break gives you the space to reflect and reset.

Career

In your career, things will start to ease up in March. You’re no longer feeling as overwhelmed, and you’ll find it easier to delegate responsibilities and tasks. This shift will bring relief, especially considering the stress you’ve been under at work. You’ll find yourself operating at a more manageable pace, and you will have time to breathe, reflect, and even daydream—an unexpected but welcome change.

That said, the beginning of March will still be busy and full of challenges in your work environment. There will be a lot to juggle, and you may experience some frustration due to the demanding nature of your job. However, you will persevere through these challenges, and by the end of the month, you’ll achieve the balance you’ve been seeking in your work life.

Emotional Landscape

Emotionally, Scorpio Moons will be in a place where you’re not willing to tolerate much this month. If someone tries to push your emotions, you will stand your ground and assert your boundaries. This is a sign of emotional growth, as you’re no longer willing to be passive in emotional situations. You’re now firmly standing up for what you believe is right and for the emotional strength you’ve developed.

However, before this emotional empowerment takes place, you’ll go through a period of emotional pain, feeling bogged down by negative emotions. In the early part of March, you may experience pessimism, emotional exhaustion, and hurt. This is compounded by a sense of betrayal and a struggle with trusting others in the future. After this period of emotional difficulty, you will rise stronger, implement your boundaries, and stand up for yourself in a way that reflects the emotional growth you’ve undergone.

Sagittarius Moon: Ice Cold Heart, Locked In, Facades

Love

In March, it seems like you’re feeling unfulfilled in your love life. You desire someone who truly cares for you, nurtures you, and gives to you, but you’re not receiving that from your partner. There’s a feeling of coldness and neglect from the person you’re involved with, which is painful and deeply hurtful. Your heart is feeling heavy, and you’re experiencing significant emotional pain. You’re emotionally upset, and it’s difficult to focus on the situation because you’re overwhelmed by the demands in other areas of your life.

However, despite the emotional turmoil, the end of March brings a new beginning. There’s a shift in your love life, and you may meet someone new, or you may experience a fresh opportunity in your current relationship that can help you break free from the emotional slump you’ve been in. This shift will bring spontaneity and adventurous energy into your romantic life, whether you’re single or in a relationship. The energy of spring brings exciting and positive changes, creating a more exciting and fulfilling dynamic in your love life.

Career

In your career, March is a time for serious focus. You are determined to improve and make great strides in your professional life. Everything you do at work is aligned with your long-term goals. You are highly invested in self-improvement and are dedicated to advancing in your career, whether that’s through a promotion, a new position, or enhancing your skills. You may even be taking courses or going back to school to aid your career growth.

While you’re focused and committed to success, the month will be busy and demanding. You’ll face non-stop action and back-to-back tasks, making it difficult to catch a break. However, the hard work will pay off, as you are likely to see financial rewards. March will be a month where you’re serious about your career and putting in the effort to build stability for your future. Though the workload may be overwhelming, you’re taking the necessary steps to reach your goals, even if you’re struggling at times to handle everything on your own.

Emotional Landscape

Emotionally, you’re going through a lot in March. On the outside, you may be projecting an image of strength and success, showing the world that you have everything together. However, internally, you’re struggling. One of the biggest emotional challenges is your tendency to ruminate on past situations, which has become unhealthy. You know it’s not good for you, but it’s hard to stop.

You’ve spent a lot of time processing your emotions and trying to make sense of everything, but you’re hesitant to admit that you need time to yourself. Instead, you try to act like everything is fine, even though you’re not truly okay. There’s a sense of emotional exhaustion, and at times, you may feel like giving up. You may even entertain the thought of just walking away from it all, but deep down, you know you need to keep going. Despite the emotional obstacles, you are trying to gather yourself and put on a strong front, showing others that you’re fine, even though you’re still dealing with a lot behind the scenes.

Capricorn Moon: Unfinished Business, Blessings, Analytical

Love

For Capricorn Moons, March brings some significant shifts in love. There may be something that has been left unspoken or unresolved in your relationship, and it’s starting to affect the connection. It feels like there’s an unspoken awareness that the connection is fizzling out, but no one is taking responsibility or acknowledging it. For some of you, this might result in a breakup, or simply the relationship slowly losing its spark.

Both you and your partner might have been passive for some time, but things are about to change. Someone is going to step up and finally address everything that has been left unsaid, asserting their feelings and desires. It could be a moment of clarity, where the relationship either ends or moves toward resolution. If there has been a period of disconnect or a break, this month marks a turning point.

An ex or someone with unfinished business in your life might return. This person will re-enter your life with a positive and mature energy, bringing blessings rather than negativity. The connection could feel fated, as if they came back at just the right time. They’ve become clearer and more assertive, and they’ll likely be bold, excited, and passionate when they approach you. This person might even exude a strong sexual energy and be very attractive. Whether you’re open to them or not, expect some unresolved matters to come back into focus.

Career

March is a blessed month for Capricorn Moons in terms of career and finances. Whether you’re starting a new job, getting a promotion, or launching a business, there’s a financial blessing in store for you. You’ve been putting in the hard work, and it’s starting to pay off.

Capricorns are always known for their diligence, but this month, you’re particularly focused. You’re being very intentional with your efforts and working hard to improve your career. There’s a lot of self-control at play, and you’re making sure that everything you do is aligned with your long-term goals. You’re fully committed to your work and not wasting any energy, ensuring that the effort you’re putting in this month will bring significant rewards.

Emotional Landscape

In March, you may feel like you’re experiencing a creative block or lack of inspiration. This is reflected in your career as well, where you’re more focused on practical tasks and routine rather than creative pursuits. Your energy is being directed toward getting things done, which leaves little room for inspiration or excitement in other areas of your life.

Emotionally, you may not be deeply immersed in your feelings. Instead, you’re relying more on logic and practicality. When it comes to expressing yourself emotionally, you’re doing so in a calm, analytical way, rather than from a place of emotional vulnerability. You may even set boundaries this month, with a need to stand your ground and let others know they can’t mess with you. You might find yourself having to assertively tell someone off, making it clear that they cannot sway you emotionally. You’re showing that you won’t tolerate emotional manipulation and will take control of your emotional space.

Aquarius Moon: Toxic Love, Job Dissatisfaction, Indecision

Love

In March, Aquarius Moons may experience disappointment in their love life. It seems that someone is leaving a sour taste in your mouth, causing you to feel like pulling away or walking away from them. This person’s behavior may have left you feeling drained and uncertain about continuing the relationship. As a result, you’re beginning to realize that focusing on yourself is necessary.

It seems you’re dealing with a toxic partner. This person might say things that aren’t true or fail to follow through on their promises. Despite the toxicity, there’s an undeniable attraction—possibly good sex or engaging conversations that keep drawing you back. However, you feel the need to take breaks to regain emotional stability and prevent being consumed by their energy.

Even when you take these breaks and manage to stabilize yourself, this person remains on your mind. You might find yourself feeling stuck on them, unable to move on. It’s possible this person is generally a good and consistent person, but the relationship dynamic has become toxic. The connection may sometimes feel overwhelming, leading to some hot-and-cold behavior—moments when you want them, followed by moments of pulling away to regain balance.

Career

March brings some challenges in the career realm. For Aquarius Moons, it looks like you’ve been dealing with a toxic workplace that hasn’t been a place of peace. There may have been a job loss or the realization that your current job isn’t fulfilling or promising for the future. As you begin to prioritize yourself and your well-being, you’re actively seeking out new opportunities.

You might be feeling disappointed and sad about the current or past job situation, and the job search process may feel discouraging. However, don’t lose hope—March holds a blessing for you. A great job opportunity is on the horizon, whether through a promotion that moves you out of the toxic environment or a financial blessing to help alleviate some of the strain. If you’re jobless, this financial support could be crucial, so stay optimistic and keep pushing forward.

Emotional Landscape

Emotionally, March might bring a creative block for Aquarius Moons. You may not feel as inspired or energetic, which could affect your ability to engage in the things you love. It’s a time when you may feel a little indecisive and unclear about what you want to do next. This can leave you feeling somewhat disconnected from your emotions and uncertain about the direction of your life.

Despite the lack of inspiration, you may find yourself crushing on someone or feeling an emotional pull toward love. This could bring some warmth to your heart, even though you’re still feeling a bit distant from your usual energetic self.

There’s a sense that you’re feeling like a failure or unsure about your progress in life. You may be grappling with the feeling that you’re repeating patterns you’d rather not repeat, leaving you disappointed and unsure of your next steps. This emotional fog is causing some doubt in your ability to make decisions, leaving you with a general sense of lack of direction or uncertainty.

Pisces Moon: Sudden Shifts, Risk Taking, Clarity

Love

At the start of March, some of you are in no contact or are avoiding the person you care about. The lack of communication can feel frustrating, and there may be more arguments than resolutions. This leads to feelings of disappointment and loss of hope, making you question the future of the relationship.

Mid-month, there’s a sudden shift. What started as no communication or distance turns into frequent contact. You may find yourselves spending more time together, having deep conversations, or even going on outings. There’s a noticeable change in the dynamic, going from tense to relaxed and positive. You might even share moments on social media, enjoying each other’s company, taking photos, and having fun in public settings.

This change can feel sudden and almost jarring, but it brings positivity and excitement after a period of emotional lows. It’s as if the situation shifts overnight, going from feeling stuck to enjoying each other’s presence with renewed energy.

Career

The first part of the month may bring dissatisfaction and emotional discouragement about your job. You might feel disconnected from coworkers or unsure about your position, leading to inner turmoil. You may even fear losing your job or feel a lack of stability.

Despite the early challenges, there’s a significant shift in your career by the end of the month. Some of you will take a risk—whether that’s pursuing a new opportunity, shifting positions, or making a bold career move. This risk will pay off, bringing a sense of fulfillment and success. If you decide to leave your current job, you could find better opportunities elsewhere, which will feel like a major accomplishment. Others who take a calculated risk within the job will also see positive results, feeling validated and empowered by the outcome.

Emotional Landscape

Emotionally, March begins with inner conflict and dissatisfaction. You might feel disconnected, disappointed, and unsure of the direction your life is heading in. There’s a sense of emotional imbalance, leaving you feeling unfulfilled and uncertain.

As the month progresses, this emotional turmoil starts to subside. By the end of March, you’ll feel a newfound sense of balance, maturity, and emotional control. The chaos of earlier in the month will give way to clarity, as you find peace within yourself. You will emerge from the month feeling more assured and emotionally stable, having navigated the emotional highs and lows successfully.

[watatsumiis]

Being A Part of the Sumeru Squad!

I've been thinking a lot recently about being a part of the ‘in’ group in Sumeru - the ones shown to be good friends on screen already (Tighnari, Cyno, Al Haitham and Kaveh!) I feel like there's lots of ways one could slot themselves into the dynamic and it's just very pleasant and fun to think about. 

(Rambles below the cut. Platonic stuff, reader is referred to as ‘you’ and is entirely gender neutral) 

Though the squad is almost constantly making playful little jabs at one another, bickering back and forth and whatnot, they're overall a pretty supportive and kind group and accept you into their midst without too much fuss. 

You soon find yourself invited to a myriad of small, casual get-togethers where the group catches up with one another. It's kind of weirdly formal at first, with so many of them holding such high and important statuses. 

Luckily, Kaveh also ends up feeling pretty left out during these discussions, so you'll have someone to chat with or ask questions when you've lost track of the topic at hand. Plus, he's often got some very funny (and surprisingly astute) commentary to add on, even when the subject is painfully dull. 

Once all the politics are out of the way, the conversation tends to ease right up for a little while. Regardless of whether you're at some restaurant or cafe, or just hanging out at someone's house, there's usually snacks available and things will remain super lighthearted for a bit, all jokes and talks of recently released books or occasional infodumps about hyperfixations and special interests. 

On that subject, whenever the stars align and two or more group members have the same special interest or hyperfixation, hoo boy, you can expect them to monopolise the conversation and somehow always drag it back to whatever niche fascinations that they may have accrued lately. 

If you have something you want to talk about, you can rest assured that at least one person in the room will be able to engage. Everybody has their own collection of equally specific and obscure knowledge - with the occasional kind of hilarious overlap. Kaveh and Cyno’s shared fascination with Fontanian machinery, or Tighnari and Al-Haitham’s in-depth discussions of insectoid languages and their potential overlap with human ones are some of the first to come to mind. 

Of course, disagreements do break out every now and then - but everyone is fairly civil for the most part, if a little bit overdramatic and occasionally loud. It's interesting to see how everyone the group tends to take sides almost as soon as a hint of a possible disagreement rears its head. Al-Haitham once questioned Cyno's sense of humour, querying whether it could really be considered comedy if nobody was laughing, and pretty soon, Tighnari and Kaveh were arguing along as passionately as if they'd been personally insulted. 

You tend to be the tiebreaker more often than not - with such an evenly split group, there often tends to be an even balance between whatever arguments. It doesn't help that Al-Haitham likes to break it all down and give pros and cons for both sides (while still keeping his own stance firm), which may make it impossible for you to decide. 

Luckily, it's easy enough for you to guide the group's attention elsewhere. Just offer to make them some hot drinks or ask if someone wants to play a round of Genius Invocation, and it's like the argument never happened at all. 

It's easy to wind up feeling a little out of place in a group of such highly ranking people, but it's like your friends develop a sixth sense for when you're starting to get a little confused or feeling out of your depth. Instead of poking fun at you (like they do for Kaveh), they'll find a way to rope you into the conversation that doesn't put too much pressure on you. Cyno and Tighnari, especially, seem to have a way of relating things to subjects that are in your area of expertise to help you parse them better so you can find your footing and be debating back and forth with the rest of them. 

Game nights tend to get really intense. It's not a case of if someone will flip their lid, it's simply a case of when. Alliances and subsequent betrayals are all too common, and you'll often find yourself being bribed to help someone one-up another person. 

They even have a ‘trophy’ for winning each week's game night. It's a tiny crown, carved out of wood and painted gold. Collei made it and donated it to the group. Whoever possesses the crown also possesses the ultimate bragging rights until the next gaming night (or until they accidentally sit on it and squash it with their big clumsy butt. Kaveh ). 

Though the group is chaotic, noisy, and constantly teasing one another, they're all so supportive of one another and will stick together through thick and thin. As the conversations slow down, sometimes some pretty serious subjects get brought up, heavy venting and other such similar things. 

Though, they're all very understanding if someone isn't in the correct headspace for that sort of talk, and will happily postpone it or talk about it elsewhere if needed. They're also very used to multiple conversations happening at once, so it's easy enough for someone to dodge around the heavy topics if they need to. 

The squad can be almost violently supportive at times. Sometimes you worry that Cyno may be one hundred percent genuine about abusing his status as the General Mahamatra to threaten somebody who mildly inconvenienced you one time in the market last week. 

Overall, the vibes of the friend group are super fun (if a little intense at times). They may not say it directly, but everyone is super glad to have you around, hanging out with them and getting in on all the goofs they make and shaking up their dynamic a little bit.

Please don't repost, steal, copy or otherwise plagiarise my writing! I do not consent for my works to be translated and posted elsewhere, or copy - pasted into bot or AI technology.

[the-sappho-of-lesbos]

I was so incredibly anxious when I first started dating my gf. I was having horrible OCD about telling anyone, I was worried about our compatibility, I was scared we didn’t have enough in common or our interests didn’t align properly.

I would have multiple crying episodes over all of these things. I was comparing my feelings to how I felt with my ex, trying to analyse if I was lying to my gf about my feelings. I got so much relationship and sexuality ocd come up which was hard for both of us. I started getting really bad contamination ocd in a way I never had before , so I was struggling to navigate this new part of myself. I would spiral in terms of my ED a lot too.

Everything felt so heavy. There were times I was convinced it wasn’t working and that I had to break up with her because all these emotions felt like too much.

But I feel like I’m in such a good place with my feelings and relationship at the moment. I feel like we have found a rhythm that works well for us.

When I was with my ex (even though it was for a stupid short amount of time aha ) it all felt so explosive. It was so intense and I was convinced I’d found my soulmate. That I had found the only person who I could build a life with. It was all new. I had many of my firsts with her so that just added to the feelings of intensity. When she broke up with me I was so lost and devastated for years. It genuinely felt like something I would never fully get over.

I was scared and questioned everything when I was with my gf because things didn’t feel like with my ex. There wasn’t this intense explosion or obsession. I was constantly calling my gf in tears confessing to her all this , worried I was leading her on, that I was lying to both of us, that I was going to hurt her.

But it’s just I had a different kind of love with my gf as I did to my ex. My ex was fast, new, intense and like a child seeing fireworks for the first time.

My love with my gf feels more like a fireplace. Took a while to get going , maybe brought out a little frustration because you think you aren’t lighting it right. You don’t feel the heat right away. But it’s there. It slowly warms up the room and feels comforting to the point you don’t even really think about it. But if you step outside you are blasted with so much you know need it and like it inside. Takes a bit of effort to maintain, but it’s worth it.

I feel like I’ve tried my best to meet her where she is at, and I know she has done the same for me.

She is genuinely my best friend, and for a while that worried me, made me feel it wasn’t real love and I was deluding myself. But I think it’s the type of love I’m most suited to. I don’t feel drained being around her. I can be silly with her. I can have deep and intelligent conversations. I can be there for her in my own ways and she can be there for me in hers.

I love having a best friend.

And as we always say: we are different in many ways, but similar in many more.

[icarusdiesatdawn]

Hatchetfield + Magnus Archives

I'm sure this has been explored plenty, but I've not actually seen much of it around so I want to give my own two cents to this conversation. I've been thinking about the Lords in Black and the Fears since NPMD came out, but I've never properly shared my thoughts, so here goes

Basically;

Pokey is the Corruption 🪱

Blinky the Eye 👁️

Nibbly the Flesh 🥩

These are pretty much on the nose I reckon. Tinky and Wiggly are a little more interesting to me personally, so I'm going to elaborate a bit. This ended up being a lot longer than I anticipated - apperantly Ido have many thoughts and feelings on this crossover - so I'm putting a break here.

[Also a fair warning for TMA spoilers]

Wiggly clearly got to be the Slaughter🩸 (at first I thought he might be affiliated with the Hunt, maybe they bleed into each other a little bit)

What I find most interesting though is when you put Black Friday in the context of TMA. Because it is basically just Wiggly's most devoted avatar Wilbur Cross, trying to execute a ritual for Wiggog Y’Wrath, aka the Slaughter, so he can come through to our dimension and bring about the apocalypse in his vision.

Similarly TGWDLM would be Pokotho's apocalypse (apokolypse) if the Web pushes through in a ritual. The fact that the Hatchetfield musicals all seem to be parallel universes works so well with the way the Fears work with parallel universes in TMA lore. Obviously this doesn't add up completely since Pokey's meteor backstory doesn't align with the concept of rituals in TMA, - and of course the whole point was that the rituals would all fail anyway because you need all the Fears together for it to work. But in Hatchetverse the Lords can!

Now I like to imagine what the rituals for the other Lords might look like. This is really scratching an itch in my brain

Also the Black Book is a Leitner, we all know it

Now I still haven't talked about Tinky. This is actually my favourite thing to think about because he's not as obvious to me as the others when it comes to the Fears.

I am very sure that Tinky is the Spiral🌀

The way he seems to enjoy to just fuck with Ted people's lives and trapping them in his toy box - which feels a little reminiscent of trapping people in, say, certain hallways. Fucking about with time and space to make their victims lose sanity seems about right for the Spiral.

Another part of the Spiral is deceit, the It Is Lies, and while this might seem like a stretch - I do think this is just as if not more so important to Tinky's whole deal. It's kind of the main thing he uses to play with Ted. He makes him believe he has anctually chance with Jenny again, makes him believe he's in control and knows what he's doing, when in reality it's just Tinky having a bit of fun toying with his feelings. All of this rings closely to the Web as well, but there two aren't quite off from eachother anyway, since lies and deceits are just a way of manipulation at the end of the day.

We only have Time Bastard to assess Tinky's personality, but it would be super interesting if this story would be explored in a whole play or musical, just to see the length of Tinky's manipulation tactics. Especially knowing they can take form as humans if they want to, he could - like the Distortion does - pretend to be Ted's friend to play his mind games. ...I might actually want to write this now

Okay, but the Spiral is not all T'Noy Karaxis is about. Again, just based on Ted's story, it actually becomes quite clear that Tinky is also the Lonely ☁️

Seriously, Ted's story is lonely coded through and through. Starting with the reason why Tinky picked Ted in the first place. He's at Emma and Paul's wedding, unenvited, unwanted, and probably the most lonely he's ever felt because what could make you more aware of your own loneliness than a room full of happy people who don't want you to be there. He's reminiscing about the time he had with the only person he's had a genuine strong connection to, then Tinky chimes in like "He's perfect, I can work with that"

And it's really just so sad. Ted has to go through losing Jenny again, and then ending up being comppletely and utterly removed from society. He doesn't even get to keep his sense of identity. His life. He just becomes "Homeless Guy", watching the people he once knew pass him by in the streets, seeing his little brother, his younger self - as strangers he lost all connection to. And he can't do anything about it. He is truly alone. Absolutely bonkers insane, I am eating drywall

do you get me???

Also just the Spiral / Lonely combo aesthetically clashes so hard but is actually not far removed. It really shows that the Fears bleed into eachother. From the Web to the Spiral, the Spiral and the Stranger, the Stranger and the Lonely, it kinda drives me insane I love it

Anyway, knowing that Tinky's a fan favourite for many of you, I'd love to hear your thoughts on this, so please let me know what you think!!!

EDIT: as some have pointed out, Pokey much better fits the corruption than the web, you are RIGHT I am an idiot

[radioapplerevue]

Hello!!! I was wondering if u had any radioapple headcanons? :)

Hello! I am... very sorry it took this long for me to reply. I saw the ask at work and then closed it to answer later, but once it was closed and out of my view then in my brain's opinion, it promptly ceased to exist.

Anyway my headcanons are a bit malleable depending on the situation/how they got together/the environment they're in/etc. But I'll try and jot down a few.

Alastor picks Lucifer up a lot. I mean look at him, he's tiny. Sometimes Alastor will have conversations with people with Lucifer slung over his shoulders, hanging from the crook of his elbow, or in the occasional princess carry. Alastor enjoys this because he thinks it's embarrassing for Lucifer. Lucifer enjoys this because he gets to be carried (even if he acts like it's embarrassing so Alastor will keep doing it).

Their coming together was slow, and started by them just learning to be in the same room without going for the throat. Eventually it turned into them talking, and then their chairs getting closer, and then Lucifer showing interest in one of Alastor's hobbies -- probably music. Because they are both overenthusiastic weirdos about their personal interests, and while Alastor doesn't share some of Lucifer's (the ducks, the circus, all things fruity and sweet, etc), Lucifer shares quite a few of Alastor's (music, dancing, cooking, disliking television, well tailored clothes, etc).

One of their favorite things to do is just hole up in a room in their respective spots and read. Their tastes in fiction don't always align, but they learn enough about the other's tastes that they can recognize what they might like when they come across it. Lucifer starts bringing Alastor books as gifts, and eventually Alastor starts to reciprocate, but only by leaving books in places that Lucifer is likely to run across them. If Lucifer tries to thank him, he'll disavow all knowledge.

Lucifer enjoys listening to Alastor's radio show.

Alastor enjoys listening to Lucifer sing.

Lucifer, as an angel, existed long before sex and gender were even things. Thus, he doesn't have any particular attachment to either. He's been in one form for ten thousand years because it's the one that Lilith (and later Charlie) knew, but he's fine with shifting it around as he pleases. Regarding sex, Lucifer enjoys it, but doesn't need it. If his partner isn't into it, then neither is he. What he desires isn't sex, but intimacy. He wants to be wanted, in whatever form that takes.

It takes a while before Alastor trusts Lucifer enough to even begin to allow any sort of sexual activities, but he quickly relaxes once it's proven that Lucifer will not only not force anything onto him, but will not expect anything of him, either. Lucifer will be just as happy if the night ends in a cuddle, or even just lying side by side and talking if Alastor's not up for that.

When they do start having sex, though they will play around with different dynamics as it suits them, Alastor tends to prefer letting Lucifer take the lead. Since his interest in sex is most often not the sex and more about being close to Lucifer and enjoying being the source of his pleasure, he doesn't feel any particular inclination to be the one making decisions. Plus, this way Lucifer has to do all the work, and Alastor's the center of attention the entire time. Why would he pass up on that?

Alastor doesn't feel like he's lacking any control when Lucifer leads in bed. There's a heady sort of power that comes from the knowledge that no matter what they're doing, no matter how close Lucifer is to climax, all it takes is one word or one unhappy noise from Alastor and Lucifer will stop completely. And if Alastor says so, then that's it for the night. He's tested it, in the early days when he was still skeptical, and Lucifer never complains, never pushes. (There's safety in this as well as power, but Alastor tries to think about that less.)

Lucifer, for his part, understands how much trust Alastor is showing in him by allowing himself to be that vulnerable. This makes him feel touched, honored, possessive and honestly, very protective. (Angel Dust has learned the hard way by now not to ask for details about how Alastor is in bed -- and it wasn't from Alastor. Lucifer will protect Alastor's vulnerabilities with his life).

I'm thrilled that fandom has run with the "Alastor's shadow is affectionate with Lucifer" idea, because it's one of my favorites. I also believe that his shadow is an extension of his own feelings, particularly the ones he hides behind his buttoned up exterior -- so when things start to get friendlier with Lucifer, the shadow shows Alastor's growing interest before Alastor himself does. And when they do get farther along... well. Good luck reining that thing in. (SHADOW RIGHTS)

When Charlie first found out, she thought it was a prank on their part in order to get them out of bonding exercises.

That's some of them! Hope that'll do!

[poorlytunedukulele]

Day 2 - Tower/Day 4 - Reunion

Over his years as the Vanguard, Andal Brask finds himself falling into certain routines.   It’s not bad, exactly- he does things for a reason, and without the chaos of a wild Hunter life constantly throwing spanners into his works, those reasons tend towards similar means.  His Consensus days, for example, always begin with a pot of tea.  Enough for a nice large mug to soothe his morning nerves, and the rest to fill a thermos for sipping during the hours-long debates.  He chooses a couple of Crucible feeds with funny commentators to put on in the background while doing busywork.  He acquires a favorite baker’s stall on the concourse.  He takes walks in the same courtyards.

Some habits are born out of necessity.  He finds himself showering at the same time every day (partially driven by a need to sleep in, partially to avoid the crowds in the Hunter dorm’s communal bathrooms).  He becomes a regular at a few restaurants he can drop by for a quick, dependable lunch on his breaks.  He stops short of taking the same route to work every day, but when he’s running late, he knows the quickest path by heart.

Some routines, though, are born of joy.  He has his welcome speech for new Guardians down pat, with just the right mix of showmanship and reassurance.  The look of wonder in their eyes as they take in the Tower never gets old.  (A few years into his tenure and he’s already made far too many farewells.  He tries to savor the introductions when he can.)

His favorites, however, are the reunions.  He can go weeks without seeing his Pack in person.  They come by the Tower more often now, but their schedules don’t always align.  He’s busy.  They’re busy.  So when they do have a chance to get together and catch up, he tries to make the most of it.

Shiro, he tries to ply with new, interesting things.  They visit foundries and armorsmiths, test out guns, debate the merits of just-invented technologies and old relics.  Andal keeps the spiciest bits of gossip and intel for him.  They go out to museums, too, and good restaurants.  There are a thousand cool things the City has to offer, if you’re willing to spend the time to find them.  In his heart, Andal knows it’s not really the sights Shiro keeps coming to see.  He gets the feeling he could start taking the younger Hunter to Thaumaturgy lectures and he’d still keep tagging along.  It’s not the novelty that Shiro needs, it’s the sense of normalcy.  He needs to be reminded there’s a world away from Fallen troop movements and Hive rituals.

When Azra comes back, he’ll take her out to dinner, as well.  Someplace quiet, or with takeout to bring back to his room.  Maybe they go for a walk, or go look at some gear.  But he’s always sure to, at minimum, load her stomach with good food and pack up the leftovers for her (she’s always been the type to just go for the easiest thing around, and he worries).  And he’ll ply her for information on whatever exotic locale she’s run off to lately.  He’ll trade her stories with ones of his own- funny anecdotes from strikes, Vanguard intel that’s technically top-secret, the likes.  They talk about anything that isn’t the City.  Even when Azra’s just touched down, she’s always itching to go.  It pains Andal that he never quite sees her comfortable anymore.  He remembers the bored, ponderous conversations and the lazy musings she used to drop into the quiet of the woods.  She used to nap.  He has to pray that the others are keeping a safe place for her.

Tevis needs a room more than anything else.  A safe place to sleep and a confidante.  His demons have always had sharp claws and a lot of stamina.  Andal knows he talks to Shiro some, and Azra more, but as the two oldest in their pack, Andal and Tevis have always shared a special bond.  So the Nightstalker will drop by and Andal will make him some tea, and maybe they’ll talk and maybe they won’t, but they always end up curled together on the futon when the sun sets.  Whatever’s said in the dead of night, whatever worries are breathed, whatever tears are shed, they stay there.  The morning is always better for it.  Tevis will make omelets, and with the sun streaming through the open windows, they can talk about lighter things.  Andal notices how Tevis’s shoulders sag less when he leaves.  He measures it and hopes it is enough.

When Cayde comes back from some long haul, they always take a night on the town.  Drinking, eating, getting up to general mischief (as much mischief as the Hunter Vanguard can get away with, in any case).  Their time together is always bright and exciting.  Andal notices how it becomes a bit more frantic as the years go on.  Both he and Cayde are trying to make up for lost time, and they’re both always coming up short.  They sing and dance and Cayde’s smile is always a little too eager, his optics a little too bright.  Somewhere, Cayde is realizing that this might be all he ever gets.  Every time the sun rises and Cayde trundles back out into the wilds, Andal promises himself if won’t be.

AO3 Linky!

[chaintheghoul]

During a RP my mind just pieced together some of Chain’s history. I really need to crack down on his personality and lore (clearly. he’s changed wayyy too much since I started this account) so I guess this will help somewhat.

This might be a mix of a fic and of just bullet points of lore, so have fun reading I guess.(?)

And I just gotta mention that this is basically an AU. Doesn’t have to align with your HCs, this is pretty much how I imagine a character I’ve given a personality to.

It starts off like this:

Chain had been summoned. He was Primo’s first summon ever, summoned to aid in continuing the Ghost project so the ministry could expand and ‘take over the world’. He was a water ghoul, handed a bass and taught how to play. He was definitely interesting, not speaking to many people and he always drew bones on the back of his hand, but he was kind to others. He minded his own business, never getting into arguments because he rarely spoke to his new packmates.

However, Primo noticed how alone the ghoul seemed, and decided to speak with him. Already, because of the bond they had due to the summoning, Chain liked the man, however this conversation seemed to spark a flame in him.

The two got along well, and eventually you weren’t able to split the two up, not even onstage.

BUT ANYWAYS, that’s not what this is about.

This segment is about his sad backstory :(( poor chain 😣

Jshrwisntkqkfktbwo how do i write again?

Chain had been in the band Ghost for a few months now. He’d been happy as ever, enjoying spending time with his favorite person and playing an instrument that he had learned to enjoy, however the ministry had noticed that something was wrong with him.

They noticed how he constantly isolated himself, he zoned out a lot, he constantly spoke to people that seemingly weren’t there, and he constantly shut people out and believed the craziest things, ranging from saying the world was about to explode to telling them that the ghouls around him were making him crazy. It was getting worse.

Noticing that Chain had taken a liking to a chain he had used as a belt, the ministry ‘therapist’ had the idea to use chains and keep him detained… ‘safe’ so he wouldn’t hurt anyone if it ever came to that.

They set up a room for him, similar to what you’d see in a psych ward because they weren’t really used to having to deal with anyone like this but Primo refused to send him back.

They basicallt experimented with him, testing his limits and taking advantage of him because they could. It wasn’t common to find ghouls with disorders like this, so they’d run tests and learn more about him.

So, Chain had been detained, taken to the room after being initially examined and chained to the wall so they could record him. He of course fought back, and they put a muzzle on him, which is what inspired them to put a muzzle on Chain when they locked him up with Miasma. (by that time it was a little more advanced though)

They recorded him, and eventually diagnosed him with his schizophrenia. Chain stayed in the room for months, eventually getting out when Primo finally convinced them to let him out. Of course this means that the pack had to move on, they replaced him with Lake, became Secondo’s ghouls, blah blah.

Whenever he’d go outside the room, he’d be held back by chains and guards carrying them. He’d barely be allowed in the lake since they didn’t want him drowning himself.

Eventually he’d be let off on his own, spending time only with Primo for years until he was inevitably killed, leading to Chain completely isolating himself for years until finally coming out of hiding.

That whole story might have it’s own explanation though, it’s a long thought.

I’m mainly focusing on his time spent in the infirmary. Obviously we know that he was completely mistreated, and stress is known to induce episodes for people dealing with schizophrenia, so of course the whole experience would lead to them thinking he was actually a lot worse than he was. This also means that there was a lot of misinformation around the ministry when it comes to psychotic disorders, because they weren’t common in the ministry. However luckily they’re educated now because Chain’s mistreatment just means that they need to improve and become more knowledgeable on these topics👍👍

I could go on for hours about how all of this affects Chain and his actions nowadays, so let’s rant!!!

I haven’t really been focusing on what I’ve said in RPs. I’m truly just now going through and picking my boy apart, so apologies if it’s inaccurate or doesn’t meet your expectations, I’m trying my best lol

So Chain was generally nice to Miasma when they were locked up. I imagine that this is because that was when he just came out of years of isolating himself, and he knows that he should try to make friends because he knows Primo isn’t going to be back any time soon. He doesn’t enjoy socializing, and being locked up with a ghoul really just meant free friend in his eyes.

And then they tried to kill Copia. This was generally just revenge. Being locked up didn’t really do much to him, but he just wanted Copia to understand that he wasn’t going to be taken advantage of again.

Blah blah, Miasma kills Ifrit or smth and then Primo comes back alive. Primo is literally the center of Chain’s universe, the Jesus Christ of his life because Primo quite literally saved him from the doctors. So of course as soon as he comes along, Chain obeys anything and will literally do anything to make Primo happy. Also Primo is literally re-alived after being dead so it’s a shock and Chain is just happy about it.

And then I generally don’t really remember much else. Miasma became a human or whatever, but we come to the part where Chain is starting to go a little crazy because of everything happening.

Miasma has been kind of influential on Chain’s thoughts. He’s seen his two favorite people doing the most deranged things, and he’s starting to wonder if he could do it to. So he tried to kill Primo in the lake, then he tried to kill Miasma, and in the end because he loves Miasma so much, he tried to kill off whatever is keeping Miasma away from Chain. (Jim.) I can go on about why Chain is so obsessed with Miasma and his attention and why he’s so addicted to the attention he receives from others, but I can go in detail another time, I’ve got some good ideas about that.

What I’m trying to point out is that Chain is starting to think a lot more violently, as shown by his yandere moment of attempting to lure Jim to the lake. And then after, he guts a fish and did the one thing he swore to himself he wouldn’t do, he ate one of his fish.

^^ That is what really changes him, I’d think. I feel like him doing that is a sort of ‘relapse’ into his old habits of needing to hurt something to release dopamine, because he wanted a release from feeling so controlled and watched. He wanted to feel rebellious and like himself and not the perfect ghoul they wanted him to be.

It sounds edgy, but I feel like it’d be true. In their eyes, he’s insane, and he knows he’s not, but he also just doesn’t want to be perfect because it’d be weak, it’d mean that he wouldn’t need to be restrained, that he didn’t need to be watched, that he didn’t deserve the attention he was getting. So if he was crazy, he’d get the attention, and even if it was bad, at least someone was talking to him. Asking how he felt, he could socialize but he didn’t need to do any heavy lifting. He knew socialization was good, he just didn’t want to do it.

Gonna be honest, that doesn’t make any sense psychologically. But I’ll leave it for me to fix later I guess

And then there’s the ongoing RP with Sister Nyx. Basically, Chain has PTSD. And as everyone knows, PTSD and Schizophrenia do NOT mix. Just a recipe for disaster, and it sure is a disaster. Chain is constantly reminded of the memories of being dragged around n shit.

I’m starting to get a little tired so I’ll probably post more thoughts tomorrow. Maybe an entire fic if I feel like it tbh. I’ll probably go more into detail about his time at the infirmary, this is really messy and I kind of hate it. BUT at least I got my thoughts down.

@asksisternyx I know you wanted to see this :3

and @ask-papa-primo sorry for the mention but jusr thought you might be interested.

This was not proofread and I suck at having clear/organized thoughts so I’m sorry if this doesn’t make any sense 😭 Give me like a week to figure it out LOL

In conclusion, don’t listen to depressing Sleep Token while writing character lore 🫶

[glassrowboat]

Could you tell us a little about what you and Mydei get up to together to relax? :3 perhaps for Simone + Reca and Baizhu + Michi as well? I'm afraid to ask for Dokja x you

Wow, I can't possibly imagine why my mutuals think that there's something to he scared about when it comes to my selfship with Dokja. But just for that, I'm adding him, too, sucker. F for Shingen getting no love.

Michi and Baizhu

Listening to the story teller together while drinking tea. They like to talk about the tales after on their walk back to Bubu (Michi is always sure to walk Baizhu back even if it rubs at his pride a little)

Dinners with Zhongli and Hutao!

Nail painting sessions with Qiqi. Baizhu used to do them regularly, but now Michi takes up the job, and he can simply talk and watch the two. They have lots of shenanigans together as a family, but that is a notable one because once Qiqi wanted to paint their nails for doing hers and...it ended up a mess. Still, Michi didn't fix her nails until they were chipping.

Gossiping sessions with Changsheng (though Baizhu will pretend he's not interested).

And Michi will sometimes just see something in his house that looks like it needs to be fixed up and will take the job herself. He usually always insists she stays for a meal after as a thank you.

Simone and Reca

Thrift stores and antique malls. Simone loves them cause she can find more vintage fashion to her tastes while Reca can acquire more realistic props for whatever movie he's planning to work on next. He stands by having something that was actually used and loved is far better than buying a cheap copy that will get tossed after.

Making outfits for AD. Reca will spout on about all the cute little dresses, bows, and hats his beloved Assistant needs while Simone sews them up. And yes, AD loves them all.

Penacony isn't exactly short of events given its attraction as a tourist hot spot, so there's always something fun to do. Reca drags Simone along to check them out so they can experience new and exciting things together. Though sometimes this does end up in them both bumping into fans who want autographs, which is well... a terrible way to end a date...so they sneak off to go get some greasy food at a food truck.

Hanging out with Simone's older sister Irene! This usually ends up in Irene miffed at Reca, but hey, they're getting better at being in the same room together. (They're not).

And it feels wrong not to mention binge watching movies together.

Risse and Dokja

We share a love of books, both online novels and traditional. We read together in the few moments where it's just...calm and can cuddle up together. These moments are few and far between, and we're more likely to find out we both read some crappy manhua before the world went to shit and then diss it to high heaven.

Playing with his adopted kids! Biyoo likes to float around and watch as Yoosung and Gilyoung argue about whether her monsters or his bugs are better. They get pretty noisy, and if one of the kids claims themselves as the favorite, I end up getting pulled into the conversation to help settle their doubts... (His favorite is Biyoo).

Sometimes, we try and see just how much stupid shut we can do before the constellations stop donating coins. It can get pretty absurd, though, because those guys are willing to encourage anything as a means of entertainment.

If he's in his Demon King of Salvation form, I like to bury my face in his wings.

Watching him scroll through the Dokkaebi shop to see what wild items come up. It's...crazy in there.

Risse and Mydei

We're very big into parrel play because a lot of our hobbies don't actually align, but we enjoy being close to each other. So, a lot of the time, I'll be editing a script or something or another to keep myself busy while he's doodling little drawings for his account as Fig Stew is so Yummy! (he makes TikTok animations if anyone hasn't seen those). He likes to draw us as little chimeras together, though most of the time, the one with my color scheme is suspiciously always chewing on some part of the orange chimera -_-

Watching him train. It really started as me needing a reference for a fight scene, but Mydei found himself trying to little bit harder than usual for the sake of impressing me. <- Phainon has noticed this and teases him about it.

Enjoying the baths together. The reason I enjoy this is totally innocent.

Him telling me about Kremonian culture. I clearly don't know a lot, and my self insert doesn't even hail from Okhema so it's kind of hard getting all this history down pat when there's so much false information born simply out of disdain for the other race. Luckily, Mydei is always willing to answer my questions if I ever bring any to him.

After closing night at the theater, the group typically stays for a long time after to have drinks and say goodbye to the characters they were playing in a fairly tame get-together. I tend to invite him, though he is a bit awkward and keeps to himself at first. This is how Mydei met most of the people at the theater who slowly, over time, become more acquainted with him! Shame he has to deal with tipsy Risse because of this, though...

[twstgarden]

✰ ❝ match-up for @doodler17 ❞

━ match-up trades are open. for more information, please visit the catalogue and the rules. ━ a florist sorting through the flowers to find your perfect match. according to the red tulip's petals, your match is...

━ 𝙞𝙙𝙞𝙖 𝙨𝙝𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙙 ━

➻ the introverted dormitory manager of ignihyde and acting director of s.t.y.x. appears to be the best match for you, based on your interests and partner preferences.

➻ there will be a mutual understanding with you both, and a mutual appreciation for one another as you can have deep, intellectual conversations with him that keep both of your minds stimulated with knowledge.

➻ your interests align with his. he'd draw with you, he'd watch anime with you, he'd collect manga and figurines with you. everything you love to do; he'll be there to geek around with you.

➻ hearing you play for your school band makes him think he bagged the perfect partner. i mean, someone who loves anime just as much as he does and is very talented? you must be a gift from the heavens above.

➻ he understands your fear and frustration when being forced to socialise, so he, of course, would never drag you out of your room just to talk to people as he does not even do the same to himself. he'd prefer getting comfortable under his blanket with a console in hand and a few snacks surrounding him, all alone or just with you.

➻ just like him, you love to ramble on about your interests and there will not be a second where he won't ever listen. he'd sit silently and let you talk, paying attention to every word you say as you talk about your interests with great passion and love in your eyes.

➻ idia may be a lot of things to other people, but he is one who never sugarcoats his words. if you seek the truth, then the truth is what you get. he never does well with trying to please you by telling white lies to make you feel better.

➻ overall, idia appears to be a great partner for you. one who would make you feel understood and stimulated. though there may be a problem when it comes to emotional support, the best way to tackle this problem is through developing your communication skills.

━ possible matches: ➻ trey clover (a balanced and fulfilling relationship, but may become overwhelming with the amount of emotions and values poured by him into the relationship) ➻ lilia vanrouge (may have similar interests and would work well together as he is an incredibly understanding and selfless partner) ➻ vil schoenheit (a relationship with personal growth as you two can learn a lot from one another. he would never sugarcoat things with you and tell you the truth as it is, having your development and interest in mind. however, he may be a little overwhelming for you.)

© twstgarden 2023 || please do not steal, translate without my permission, or use this to train a.i.

[skitskatdacat63]

How about 2 + 70 Vettonso?

Royal AU x Locked in a Room

Keke I'm assuming you're asking for boy king au? 🤭🤭 I feel like they often get locked in rooms together because everyone is so done with their bickering. Like oh noooo we lost the key, you guys are gonna have to wait in there. Together. Alone. Unfortunately the locksmith lives across Vienna. Btw he’s scared of horse carriages. Oh no.  Don’t worry, Mark makes sure to lock them in a room with a notable lack of sharp objects. I think when they’re away from everyone else, away from their situation, they feel a lot more comfortable with each other. They’re stuck in a room for the foreseeable future with no one else watching, what is the real point of putting up a front anymore in this situation; this is the man they’re going to be stuck with forever after all, just not in the confines of this specific room. They are both a very specific breed of ultra competitive and devoted, so even though they’re having a perfectly “normal” conversation about literature they enjoyed(Fernando: Machiavelli’s The Prince, he says it's a very good, relatable and interesting guide. Seb: Don Quixote, he told Fernando it reminds him of a certain someone), to everyone outside, it’s like “oh god what is that muffled yelling, are they scuffling???” When they’re not being scrutinized by the rest of the palace and court, I think they can have very calm constructive conversations about running the kingdom(no matter how seemingly competitive they sound.)  Also even if Seb cares less about image than Fernando, I think he still definitely puts up a front, it’s just a lot less negative than Fernando; so this situation gives them a situation where they can be their most free and open selves. Yeah yeah they spend time alone together often, like in their bedchamber, but that still has a notable time limit most of the time, and technically one of them could just dip at any moment. So everytime they get conveniently stuck in a room, they come out of it a lot closer and a lot more aligned, and a lot more fond of each other. I say “come out of the room” but more often than not, they’re found passed out, cuddled together on some surface, the furniture and their clothes in disaray. I’ll leave it up to your imagination how they ended up there, and what their state of undress is 🤭

[mataiandellie]

today was your first day back after a long break with me. turns out i accidentally left a hairtie in your space. TIL you have a cute ffs pin... i got to text with you throughout my day (i think i caught you at night and in the morning... my morning, my night... lofl wtf are we doing).

some things:

my car speakers suckkkk

actually there was at least another thing earlier, but i forgot.

i'm trying to do some reflection. mostly trying to think about conversation with charles (ofc idk what he'll say but)...

in 2020, it felt like my desire to have a child came out of nowhere. someone then suggested that it was because i'd finally met someone who made me feel like it could be possible. i heard that and felt some clarity. i loved this man -- funny, stylish, thoughtful, and when interest is piqued, attentive. a smoker. it was the first time i loved someone who wasn't going through some VERY major personal stuff that compelled me to stay until my safety was threatened. we both found surprising alignment in our third culture identities. we both cared about our families a lot. we both enjoyed a lot of the same music. we have taste.

we differed in our communication styles. a. lot. and our love languages. our apology languages.

side note because i'm thinking about points that have come up in trying to uncover what's behind our differences: i do actually come from a loud family, but it's a big reason why i felt alienated in that space as a young person (i've learned to get by in that space with alcohol and have made my peace with being one of the odd aunties). meanwhile, it was a normal experience for him (and i think for taco, she just talked to me about lebanese and latine families being similar).

in the years that followed, it became hard to explore being a mother in the context of my relationship with charles. i feel like i can trace back the origins of how things unfolded in a sad and gutwrenching way to our beginnings. he introduced to me the phrase 'no cherished outcomes,' which bothered me but which i also found very beautiful as a concept. what could it look like to fall in love with no preconceived notion of what it could be? it was honestly a thrill to think about what it could be to fall from the precipice of unknowing forever.

in reflection, i realize i actually wanted more stability. and in reaction -- my mistake here -- i guarded my hopes and wishes as best i could. i felt like i knew i loved him from very early on, but it would be months before i could say it, because i couldn't bear to do it before he did. i ignored the feeling in my throat of not saying something i needed to say out loud.

and so, when i first talked about motherhood, i saw it as 'my problem.' and it meant that when i had my first conversation with him about hoping he would be interested, he said the way i talked about it never felt like it included him. gut wrench ing. and it continued to be painful. it weighed on our relationship until i finally let go of my desire for him to be the father of my children. and, that helped a lot. so did separating our rooms -- we still sleep in the same bed often, though it's rare that we have sex. that's another conversation....

i think the other special condition that i am now reflecting on about that pandemic space is that i was RESTED. i remember being on your deck and having a beautiful vision of children playing around us, and it makes me cry with happiness to imagine, even if we are both still navigating what it even means to love each other, nevermind what it means to channel that love into love for offspring.

but, i am so grateful to be in a space where we can talk about these things. you talk about being good breeding stock... going to just point to this as an existing example of how you are broadly seen as a fine specimen. LOL.

i love you for you, but i'm coming to know you in a way that feels so vulnerable and ripe for plenty of joy or hurt. i thought about this today while i was in the shower: you're the co-parent i want.

excuse all the practicality here, hopefully this brings more weird sense to our coming together... you're the FIRST tidy guy i've ever been with. seriously. you already know what it's like to be around young people and are S tier good at connecting with them. see many examples of people writing to you much later in gratitude, see nora. you know how to make shit. you know how to fix shit. you have some sense of methods of intervention and (i actually think i am weak here, more on that at a later date). you care about imparting knowledge. you are patient (at least, so far, with me). you are flexible. when you have committed to something, you stick with it.

anyway, this was very vulnerable to write. i love you. please don't let this scare you. i will be okay if this isn't where we end up, because at the end of the day, you are good for me and with me.

[cleverhottubmiracle]

No topic is off limits for Nina Lorez Collins. At 51, the founder of The Woolfer—a digital platform for women over 40—and a mother of four fledgling adults, she is as self-actualized as she is self-deprecating. A big career as a literary agent, then as a writer for Elle and Vogue, led to Nina’s creation of The Woolfer, her highly engaged tribe of sassy, brassy women who congregate on the site or app to serve as each other’s sounding boards, friends and life coaches. Their posts, seminars and meet-ups are lively, candid, awkward and occasionally vulgar—authentic, like she is. What followed was her book, What Would Virginia Woolf Do? And Other Questions I Ask Myself as I Attempt to Age Without Apology, as well as the “Raging Gracefully” podcast. Nina lives in Brooklyn and East Hampton, sometimes with her new boyfriend and all the time with her new poodle, Strudel. She spent a recent afternoon telling Bare Necessities about traversing that long, winding road of life while fearlessly living on-brand. Nina at home, all photographed by Tanya Malott Q: So how did you get here?A: I was born and raised in New York, and I fell into book publishing. First, I was a scout for European publishers, then I started my own company. The idea was to find books to publish in other languages and to option for film. Eventually I wondered, is this all there is? So in my 30s, I shut it down, had kids, and started a literary agency. After about seven years, I got divorced, left publishing and took a few years to write. In my 40s, I got my Masters degree in Narrative Medicine, which is essentially how we talk about death, dying, end-of-life-care and, in a way, about women at transitional times. My mother, Kathleen Collins, was a writer and a filmmaker, and she died of breast cancer when I was 19. She was one of the first Black women to make a feature film, Losing Ground, about the Black female experience. I brought her work back into the light and posthumously published two books by her. In the midst of this, I accidentally started a community that took over my life. Q: Tell us more about the genesis of The Woolfer.A: Five years ago, I started not sleeping very well and realized it was perimenopause. Suddenly all of these things were happening to me I didn’t expect. No one had ever talked to me about this. I posted a joke about it online, which led to a bunch of my friends saying we needed a space to talk about taboo topics. I created a Facebook group called What Would Virginia Woolf Do, because she killed herself in her 50s—my friends are readers and feminists, and they were saying that if she threw in the towel, maybe we should, too. We were kidding, of course, but it struck a nerve. I thought this thing would be for me and my friends, but we ended up with 32,000 members. Q: What’s The Woolfer all about? What’s your mission?A: The Woolfer gives smart women room to talk about growing older: the indignities, the feelings of irrelevance, sex, divorce, living in the sandwich generation. Ultimately, we’re a club. We do a lot of events, which have moved online now. There was a session on unlearning racism; there’s a daily writers’ room, visual arts workshops, a regular sex conversation, a book club, online cocktail parties.… There’s a lot of discussion around health and sexuality, and always a lot of helpful humor. [perfectpullquote align=”left” bordertop=”false” cite=”” link=”” color=”” class=”” size=””]”The idea is that there is no shame. We’re aging. We are still interesting and fabulous. We talk honestly about what we’re losing and gaining”[/perfectpullquote] The idea is that there is no shame. We’re aging; this is who we are and where we are. We are still interesting and fabulous. We talk honestly about what we’re losing and what we’re gaining. It’s like always having a girlfriend in your pocket. It’s a funny coming-together of all my interests. I’ve always been interested in women’s stories and how we deal with loss. And even though it’s hard, I like building things. Q:  What drives you?A: Helping women feel less alone, and to know they’re normal. Secrecy is often really not good for people. I want to help others understand how much strength we can derive from each other. Q: What does a typical day look like?A: I’m on the app or on Facebook monitoring conversations, responding to comments, posting and creating content. I’m working on growing and developing the business, and on events like Woolfer Weekend, which we just had with Macy Gray. I like to paddleboard in the morning or take a long walk with the puppy. After hours, my boyfriend cooks and I’ll do the Peloton or hang out with friends. Q: How do you avoid burnout?A: That’s part of getting older. Now that I’m post-menopausal and the kids are out of the house, I’m privileged and grateful to focus on myself. I notice a big difference now in how I approach the issues. In my 30s and 40s, I felt like I had so much to prove and more worries over what I was doing with my time. Now, I feel much more focused, with less pressure to prove myself. I’ve done a lot, and it’s good. I’m more able to take a step back and reflect. It’s easier to remember that life is always changing. I learn a lot from the women in their 60s and 70s in the community. It makes me mindful of the fact that I continue to evolve. Yes, my body will continue to disintegrate, and I know more people who will die, but there is also greater freedom—you feel better physically and psychologically to be done with a certain part of your life. We take solace from each other. We get permission to relax a little. Q: What challenges have you had to overcome, and how?A: I decided to turn this concept into a business. I had to figure out how to build an app. We took a gamble walking away from Facebook, but I knew I couldn’t spend the rest of my life basically working for Mark Zuckerberg. I just had to accept that this is the way I live and that, at times, it can be uncomfortable, and that’s okay. I needed the balls and the naivety to think that I could do this, and it would be fine. [perfectpullquote align=”right” bordertop=”false” cite=”” link=”” color=”” class=”” size=””]”I had to accept that this is the way I live. At times, it can be uncomfortable, and that’s okay”[/perfectpullquote] At first, I resisted because I knew nothing about online, technology or marketing. I don’t like to feel like a dilettante, so I formed a team and found an investor who is a spreadsheet person. I am so not a spreadsheet person, but I’m comfortable asking for help with what I don’t know. I also trust my instincts. Now I am intentionally balancing the way I want to live. I know I don’t have to make this a huge business. If I were younger and hungrier, I’d have made different decisions already. Q: What have you learned along the way about how we can best support one another and ourselves?A: For younger women, you should explore working for yourself. People are learning from Covid that they can, and it’s very satisfying. You should also have your own money. Also: It’s so often not even about you! We spend so much time thinking about what others think about us, and most people don’t care because they’re thinking about themselves. Have integrity and do your best because all you can really control is you. To women my age and older: You have no idea how many chapters you’re going to have! If you don’t make bold decisions to move ahead, you’ll never know what’s on the other side. Change is good. THE WORLD ACCORDING TO NINAGo-to bra and undies: Natori Feathers is a great bra, with a little boost, and my favorite panties are black Hanky Panky Signature Lace Retro V-Kinis.Best way to de-stress: Pull down the shades and go to bed.Career highlight: Making Crain’s “40 Under 40” list at 29.Weakness for: Linen sheets. Convertibles. Arrogant men.Secret talent: I am the best parallel parker the world has ever known.Fear you’re trying to overcome: Dying young.Now watching: Radha Blank’s “The 40-Year-Old Version.”Now reading: What Are You Going Through by Sigrid Nunez.Most useful emoji: The shrug.Mood-boosting song: “Fire” by The Pointer Sisters.In a word: Strong. Source link

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No topic is off limits for Nina Lorez Collins. At 51, the founder of The Woolfer—a digital platform for women over 40—and a mother of four fledgling adults, she is as self-actualized as she is self-deprecating. A big career as a literary agent, then as a writer for Elle and Vogue, led to Nina’s creation of The Woolfer, her highly engaged tribe of sassy, brassy women who congregate on the site or app to serve as each other’s sounding boards, friends and life coaches. Their posts, seminars and meet-ups are lively, candid, awkward and occasionally vulgar—authentic, like she is. What followed was her book, What Would Virginia Woolf Do? And Other Questions I Ask Myself as I Attempt to Age Without Apology, as well as the “Raging Gracefully” podcast. Nina lives in Brooklyn and East Hampton, sometimes with her new boyfriend and all the time with her new poodle, Strudel. She spent a recent afternoon telling Bare Necessities about traversing that long, winding road of life while fearlessly living on-brand. Nina at home, all photographed by Tanya Malott Q: So how did you get here?A: I was born and raised in New York, and I fell into book publishing. First, I was a scout for European publishers, then I started my own company. The idea was to find books to publish in other languages and to option for film. Eventually I wondered, is this all there is? So in my 30s, I shut it down, had kids, and started a literary agency. After about seven years, I got divorced, left publishing and took a few years to write. In my 40s, I got my Masters degree in Narrative Medicine, which is essentially how we talk about death, dying, end-of-life-care and, in a way, about women at transitional times. My mother, Kathleen Collins, was a writer and a filmmaker, and she died of breast cancer when I was 19. She was one of the first Black women to make a feature film, Losing Ground, about the Black female experience. I brought her work back into the light and posthumously published two books by her. In the midst of this, I accidentally started a community that took over my life. Q: Tell us more about the genesis of The Woolfer.A: Five years ago, I started not sleeping very well and realized it was perimenopause. Suddenly all of these things were happening to me I didn’t expect. No one had ever talked to me about this. I posted a joke about it online, which led to a bunch of my friends saying we needed a space to talk about taboo topics. I created a Facebook group called What Would Virginia Woolf Do, because she killed herself in her 50s—my friends are readers and feminists, and they were saying that if she threw in the towel, maybe we should, too. We were kidding, of course, but it struck a nerve. I thought this thing would be for me and my friends, but we ended up with 32,000 members. Q: What’s The Woolfer all about? What’s your mission?A: The Woolfer gives smart women room to talk about growing older: the indignities, the feelings of irrelevance, sex, divorce, living in the sandwich generation. Ultimately, we’re a club. We do a lot of events, which have moved online now. There was a session on unlearning racism; there’s a daily writers’ room, visual arts workshops, a regular sex conversation, a book club, online cocktail parties.… There’s a lot of discussion around health and sexuality, and always a lot of helpful humor. [perfectpullquote align=”left” bordertop=”false” cite=”” link=”” color=”” class=”” size=””]”The idea is that there is no shame. We’re aging. We are still interesting and fabulous. We talk honestly about what we’re losing and gaining”[/perfectpullquote] The idea is that there is no shame. We’re aging; this is who we are and where we are. We are still interesting and fabulous. We talk honestly about what we’re losing and what we’re gaining. It’s like always having a girlfriend in your pocket. It’s a funny coming-together of all my interests. I’ve always been interested in women’s stories and how we deal with loss. And even though it’s hard, I like building things. Q:  What drives you?A: Helping women feel less alone, and to know they’re normal. Secrecy is often really not good for people. I want to help others understand how much strength we can derive from each other. Q: What does a typical day look like?A: I’m on the app or on Facebook monitoring conversations, responding to comments, posting and creating content. I’m working on growing and developing the business, and on events like Woolfer Weekend, which we just had with Macy Gray. I like to paddleboard in the morning or take a long walk with the puppy. After hours, my boyfriend cooks and I’ll do the Peloton or hang out with friends. Q: How do you avoid burnout?A: That’s part of getting older. Now that I’m post-menopausal and the kids are out of the house, I’m privileged and grateful to focus on myself. I notice a big difference now in how I approach the issues. In my 30s and 40s, I felt like I had so much to prove and more worries over what I was doing with my time. Now, I feel much more focused, with less pressure to prove myself. I’ve done a lot, and it’s good. I’m more able to take a step back and reflect. It’s easier to remember that life is always changing. I learn a lot from the women in their 60s and 70s in the community. It makes me mindful of the fact that I continue to evolve. Yes, my body will continue to disintegrate, and I know more people who will die, but there is also greater freedom—you feel better physically and psychologically to be done with a certain part of your life. We take solace from each other. We get permission to relax a little. Q: What challenges have you had to overcome, and how?A: I decided to turn this concept into a business. I had to figure out how to build an app. We took a gamble walking away from Facebook, but I knew I couldn’t spend the rest of my life basically working for Mark Zuckerberg. I just had to accept that this is the way I live and that, at times, it can be uncomfortable, and that’s okay. I needed the balls and the naivety to think that I could do this, and it would be fine. [perfectpullquote align=”right” bordertop=”false” cite=”” link=”” color=”” class=”” size=””]”I had to accept that this is the way I live. At times, it can be uncomfortable, and that’s okay”[/perfectpullquote] At first, I resisted because I knew nothing about online, technology or marketing. I don’t like to feel like a dilettante, so I formed a team and found an investor who is a spreadsheet person. I am so not a spreadsheet person, but I’m comfortable asking for help with what I don’t know. I also trust my instincts. Now I am intentionally balancing the way I want to live. I know I don’t have to make this a huge business. If I were younger and hungrier, I’d have made different decisions already. Q: What have you learned along the way about how we can best support one another and ourselves?A: For younger women, you should explore working for yourself. People are learning from Covid that they can, and it’s very satisfying. You should also have your own money. Also: It’s so often not even about you! We spend so much time thinking about what others think about us, and most people don’t care because they’re thinking about themselves. Have integrity and do your best because all you can really control is you. To women my age and older: You have no idea how many chapters you’re going to have! If you don’t make bold decisions to move ahead, you’ll never know what’s on the other side. Change is good. THE WORLD ACCORDING TO NINAGo-to bra and undies: Natori Feathers is a great bra, with a little boost, and my favorite panties are black Hanky Panky Signature Lace Retro V-Kinis.Best way to de-stress: Pull down the shades and go to bed.Career highlight: Making Crain’s “40 Under 40” list at 29.Weakness for: Linen sheets. Convertibles. Arrogant men.Secret talent: I am the best parallel parker the world has ever known.Fear you’re trying to overcome: Dying young.Now watching: Radha Blank’s “The 40-Year-Old Version.”Now reading: What Are You Going Through by Sigrid Nunez.Most useful emoji: The shrug.Mood-boosting song: “Fire” by The Pointer Sisters.In a word: Strong. Source link

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No topic is off limits for Nina Lorez Collins. At 51, the founder of The Woolfer—a digital platform for women over 40—and a mother of four fledgling adults, she is as self-actualized as she is self-deprecating. A big career as a literary agent, then as a writer for Elle and Vogue, led to Nina’s creation of The Woolfer, her highly engaged tribe of sassy, brassy women who congregate on the site or app to serve as each other’s sounding boards, friends and life coaches. Their posts, seminars and meet-ups are lively, candid, awkward and occasionally vulgar—authentic, like she is. What followed was her book, What Would Virginia Woolf Do? And Other Questions I Ask Myself as I Attempt to Age Without Apology, as well as the “Raging Gracefully” podcast. Nina lives in Brooklyn and East Hampton, sometimes with her new boyfriend and all the time with her new poodle, Strudel. She spent a recent afternoon telling Bare Necessities about traversing that long, winding road of life while fearlessly living on-brand. Nina at home, all photographed by Tanya Malott Q: So how did you get here?A: I was born and raised in New York, and I fell into book publishing. First, I was a scout for European publishers, then I started my own company. The idea was to find books to publish in other languages and to option for film. Eventually I wondered, is this all there is? So in my 30s, I shut it down, had kids, and started a literary agency. After about seven years, I got divorced, left publishing and took a few years to write. In my 40s, I got my Masters degree in Narrative Medicine, which is essentially how we talk about death, dying, end-of-life-care and, in a way, about women at transitional times. My mother, Kathleen Collins, was a writer and a filmmaker, and she died of breast cancer when I was 19. She was one of the first Black women to make a feature film, Losing Ground, about the Black female experience. I brought her work back into the light and posthumously published two books by her. In the midst of this, I accidentally started a community that took over my life. Q: Tell us more about the genesis of The Woolfer.A: Five years ago, I started not sleeping very well and realized it was perimenopause. Suddenly all of these things were happening to me I didn’t expect. No one had ever talked to me about this. I posted a joke about it online, which led to a bunch of my friends saying we needed a space to talk about taboo topics. I created a Facebook group called What Would Virginia Woolf Do, because she killed herself in her 50s—my friends are readers and feminists, and they were saying that if she threw in the towel, maybe we should, too. We were kidding, of course, but it struck a nerve. I thought this thing would be for me and my friends, but we ended up with 32,000 members. Q: What’s The Woolfer all about? What’s your mission?A: The Woolfer gives smart women room to talk about growing older: the indignities, the feelings of irrelevance, sex, divorce, living in the sandwich generation. Ultimately, we’re a club. We do a lot of events, which have moved online now. There was a session on unlearning racism; there’s a daily writers’ room, visual arts workshops, a regular sex conversation, a book club, online cocktail parties.… There’s a lot of discussion around health and sexuality, and always a lot of helpful humor. [perfectpullquote align=”left” bordertop=”false” cite=”” link=”” color=”” class=”” size=””]”The idea is that there is no shame. We’re aging. We are still interesting and fabulous. We talk honestly about what we’re losing and gaining”[/perfectpullquote] The idea is that there is no shame. We’re aging; this is who we are and where we are. We are still interesting and fabulous. We talk honestly about what we’re losing and what we’re gaining. It’s like always having a girlfriend in your pocket. It’s a funny coming-together of all my interests. I’ve always been interested in women’s stories and how we deal with loss. And even though it’s hard, I like building things. Q:  What drives you?A: Helping women feel less alone, and to know they’re normal. Secrecy is often really not good for people. I want to help others understand how much strength we can derive from each other. Q: What does a typical day look like?A: I’m on the app or on Facebook monitoring conversations, responding to comments, posting and creating content. I’m working on growing and developing the business, and on events like Woolfer Weekend, which we just had with Macy Gray. I like to paddleboard in the morning or take a long walk with the puppy. After hours, my boyfriend cooks and I’ll do the Peloton or hang out with friends. Q: How do you avoid burnout?A: That’s part of getting older. Now that I’m post-menopausal and the kids are out of the house, I’m privileged and grateful to focus on myself. I notice a big difference now in how I approach the issues. In my 30s and 40s, I felt like I had so much to prove and more worries over what I was doing with my time. Now, I feel much more focused, with less pressure to prove myself. I’ve done a lot, and it’s good. I’m more able to take a step back and reflect. It’s easier to remember that life is always changing. I learn a lot from the women in their 60s and 70s in the community. It makes me mindful of the fact that I continue to evolve. Yes, my body will continue to disintegrate, and I know more people who will die, but there is also greater freedom—you feel better physically and psychologically to be done with a certain part of your life. We take solace from each other. We get permission to relax a little. Q: What challenges have you had to overcome, and how?A: I decided to turn this concept into a business. I had to figure out how to build an app. We took a gamble walking away from Facebook, but I knew I couldn’t spend the rest of my life basically working for Mark Zuckerberg. I just had to accept that this is the way I live and that, at times, it can be uncomfortable, and that’s okay. I needed the balls and the naivety to think that I could do this, and it would be fine. [perfectpullquote align=”right” bordertop=”false” cite=”” link=”” color=”” class=”” size=””]”I had to accept that this is the way I live. At times, it can be uncomfortable, and that’s okay”[/perfectpullquote] At first, I resisted because I knew nothing about online, technology or marketing. I don’t like to feel like a dilettante, so I formed a team and found an investor who is a spreadsheet person. I am so not a spreadsheet person, but I’m comfortable asking for help with what I don’t know. I also trust my instincts. Now I am intentionally balancing the way I want to live. I know I don’t have to make this a huge business. If I were younger and hungrier, I’d have made different decisions already. Q: What have you learned along the way about how we can best support one another and ourselves?A: For younger women, you should explore working for yourself. People are learning from Covid that they can, and it’s very satisfying. You should also have your own money. Also: It’s so often not even about you! We spend so much time thinking about what others think about us, and most people don’t care because they’re thinking about themselves. Have integrity and do your best because all you can really control is you. To women my age and older: You have no idea how many chapters you’re going to have! If you don’t make bold decisions to move ahead, you’ll never know what’s on the other side. Change is good. THE WORLD ACCORDING TO NINAGo-to bra and undies: Natori Feathers is a great bra, with a little boost, and my favorite panties are black Hanky Panky Signature Lace Retro V-Kinis.Best way to de-stress: Pull down the shades and go to bed.Career highlight: Making Crain’s “40 Under 40” list at 29.Weakness for: Linen sheets. Convertibles. Arrogant men.Secret talent: I am the best parallel parker the world has ever known.Fear you’re trying to overcome: Dying young.Now watching: Radha Blank’s “The 40-Year-Old Version.”Now reading: What Are You Going Through by Sigrid Nunez.Most useful emoji: The shrug.Mood-boosting song: “Fire” by The Pointer Sisters.In a word: Strong. Source link