#though FNAF may be more near and dear to my heart

[chloesimaginationthings]

Are you more of FNAF or Jojo? (Ofc you will then say, I can be both-)

Why pick when they are so similar/hj

[pixelmightbeneurodivergent]

Hi. I haven’t been on this blog for a while now and that’s cuz I’ve been struggling with my thoughts on whether or not I’m neurodivergent, and whether or not I’ve just made a blog that was basically shouting from the rooftops that, “I’m autistic!”, when that was never my intention. The intention of this blog was to analyze certain factors of my daily life, including certain issues that I’ve been facing but never had a personal explanation for, and figuring out if the reasons for those struggles have something to do with some sort of Neurodivergency.

Also I recently (and by recently, I mean some months ago; like one or two months before summer began) got semi-diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder by my therapist who saw some signs, and I’ve definitely noticed some examples of anxiety plaguing my life in more than two ways, so I guess I can consider that a semi-confirmed. I haven’t been wholly diagnosed by a doctor yet, but hopefully that day comes soon. I’m not sure yet though.

That dilemma is faint now as I have bigger things to worry about, but the matter is still and important one in my life and so I’m gonna try and continue this pattern I’ve made for myself to list my monthly obsessions as much as I can:

August 2023:

Danganronpa (Very Strong; the hold this fandom has on me is crippling and agonizing. The last time I think I was this wholly obsessed with a fandom was with FNaF, and even then, I don’t think I was this obsessed with it, maybe I’m wrong, maybe I’m right, idk. Anyways, even if I try to switch my focus on Danganronpa to the other fandoms that I like, like Fnaf or Little Nightmares, it always switches back to Danganronpa no matter how hard to I try to switch my focus. The only fandom I can switch my focus onto for longer than the other fandoms is Astrology, Zodiac Signs, and my personal story, and that’s only because I’m incorporating zodiac and astrology into my personal story and Danganronpa. So yeah.)

My Personal Story (Very Strong: If I’m not thinking about Danganronpa, I’m thinking about my personal story and what I could do to improve it, enhance it, make it more interesting for me or myself, or just listen to playlists so I can daydream about my characters and possibly incorporate those daydreams into the story itself in some shape or form. My own story has definitely caused me daydreaming to skyrocket, which may or may not have small, personal detriments to my daily life but hey! Who’s counting?)

Zodiac Signs (Strong; Again, Ranges from High to Low, but has recently been more high because I’ve been incorporating it into my stories so yeah)

FNaF (Average; Kinda like Zodiac Signs where it ranges from High to Low, Rose Up From the release of Security Breach Ruin, but if I were to compare it to my obsession with Danganronpa and Zodiac Signs, it would be like comparing a small cup of water that people regularly drink out of to an entire never ending truckload of water, if that makes sense. Also, compared to my previous obsession with Fnaf, my current interest in Fnaf is not as obsessive, all-consuming, fanatic and borderline neurotic as it used to be. So if that’s anything to go by, I’d say this obsession, while it’s still near and dear to my heart, isn’t as much of an obsessive interest to me.)

Obey Me (Mostly Faint; Not as Strong as it used to be; mostly cuz of Nightbringers Release and the sudden downer the game became for me)

Fuck it and fuck you /j I’m just gonna start listing out my personal obsessions every month. It’ll help me clear out the possibility of I experience hyperfixations or not.

I’m gonna tag them: “Monthly Obsessions” so I know which post is which.

January 2023 (Currently):

Obey Me (Strong)

Zodiac Signs (Ranges From High to Low)

Danganronpa (Faint)

[dark-imagine-robots]

FNAF canon and TOTC FNAF au 1: Won't you be my Friend?

This is the AU of which the canon and TOTC FNAF stories prexist together. In other words, they are one story rather than a real collusion. "A dear of light, that's what you are." that is what Timothy's mother, Anna Whidden, use to say to him. Before...she parished. One may moarn, one may pass on, and one would be vengful. In 1982, Anna passed leaving her two children behind, Timothy Michael Whidden and Maxwell Ernest Whidden. Timothy was 8 years old, his brother was 10 in 1982. Their grandparents, their decease father's parents, were meant to keep care of them. They were under custody, but never took them in. The grandparents would only pay the bills for the house the two children sleep in, and only come to give them money for food and clothes before leaving again. It is unclear why it was this way, it could have been so many things. Timothy was always in his home, with only the company of his dear bear. A special, gold bear, a plush Fredbear. One that his mother has given him a long time ago. This bear is his only friend when it came to being home, but among other friends, he will always the best friend. Timothy had two other friends, Charles Emily and William Afton. Both boys were the same age as Timothy. Charles was a very playful boy, he loved to play games of all kinds, but he always loved to play toys with the two other boys as the favorite game. William was a smart boy, quite imaginative within a world of his own. All though William was not spry boy, due to his weight, he was never left behind by his friends. A trio of a perfect childhood friendship. That is, until 1983. The Fazbear company was rather a busy company in the 80s and 70s, having two locations and one under way as of 1983. It is owned by Fredric Cawthon, under help with co-owner Dan McFly Whidden and Tech/robotics maker Peter Calvin Whidden. However, the Whidden brothers seemed to be the true heart of Fazbear's. The main Fazbear loction, of that time, would be Fredbear's Family Diner, which is the location where the brothers mostly worked. These brothers are Timothy's lost uncles, or uncles he was never introduced too. They would only find out about Timothy until October of 1983, Peter was the one to find Timothy locked away and frightened in his workshop. That day, is when Timothy and his uncles grew as familias relatives. Maxwell was found out as well, but rather furious. Not because he was not being given any attention, but because this would mean he wasn't going to be able to control and torment his brother anymore. Maxwell wanted to always be undercontrol for his own gains, he was young. With the death of both his father and mother, he blamed Timothy since there was no one else to blame. Such young mind like his could not comprehend the fact that life takes, it always has to be someone's fault. It felt quite nice to blame someone you least favor, so that is what Maxwell did. This control lead him in wrong directions, as well as becoming a troublesome child with a group of very troublesome children. Which he did have a rather mischievous that always followed his lead. It was nearing Timothy's birthday in November of 1983, but things were very rocky. Charles was at the hospital to treat a cancer he had, and William's family were going through a rough patch of divorce and separation. Timothy was alone on the days nearing his birthday, scared and alone with only his bear. But even his bear could not stop what happened next. Maxwell, Timothy's own brother, and the children that followed Max stuffed Timothy between the jaws of the Fredbear animatronic. Thus crushing Timothy's skull. William saw it all, as he and his mother just walked in as a surprise for Timothy. They came in just a moment befor witnessing Timothy's skull being crushed. It was quite the scene, seeing a friend's relative remove him from the jaws of a robot. Witness the relative screaming and crying out in pain, as they held your dying friend in their arms. William was in shock, disbelief, he never seen such a loss nor felt it ever in his life. He never seen so much blood, nor has he seen a man in so much pain. Will was never the same after that, on the inside. After the death of his friend, he had to share it with Charles once he was out of the hospital. They both moarned, but could not do anything. Slowly and eventually, William and Charles began to drift apart. Then one day, Charles was just missing entirely on 1984. Rumor went and gone that someone took him, or killed him. But William could not share anything about Charles because of how far apart they already were. In 1985, on William's 10 th birthday, William was brought to Fazbear's second location since the first was promptly shut down due to low costumers. William was not a fan of the toy animatronics, but did not hate them. He always loved the Fazbear robots and mascots, they always striked him curious and made his mind wonder. On William's birthday, he was registered for a personal party. His mother wanted it to be a special party, so William would not feel any less due to lack of friends. William's mother would leave Will alone to not make him feel restrained in a Fazbear place, she knows how much he loves these things. He felt alone at his party at first, until a gold rabbit with a purple bow and starey purple vest came along to greet William with cake. William was overwhelmed with joy, he never seen the mascot before and it was not at all robotic. It sparked hope in William, and made him feel, truely, special. William wanted more company from this version of Bonbear (springbonnie), and so he did. The rabbit sat by his side and told William fictional stories of many sorts. Then the rabbit offered William a "breif tour" of the place. William, of course, agrees to it. It was indeed a tour, but William got to even see the original robots that were pushed out for the toys. They were withered, but William was not petrafied. He found it very interesting that they were in this state. Out of curiosity, William would try to look inside of them, which he would breifly see something he wasn't suppose to see before the rabbit stops Will. The rabbit had not a single disturbance in its tone of voice, it just simply told will that the tour is over and it is time to go home, in a playful tone. Will was then brought back safely, and after that party, Will never came back due to his family moving around. William had a rough few years of elementary and middle school, since his family kept moving. Once settled, high school was only hell. The school work was rather a breeze for Will since he is rather intelligent, but the students always bullied him due to his weight and smile. Will only smiled just to seem friendly and maybe gain friends, yet he gets punched for it and ending up with a chipped tooth. After high school, he tries to find jobs since colleges were just too costly to afford right away. Which he had factory jobs, it was enough to get by and he gets into a Technology college. He was young, but unhealthy, he was told he might become diabetic if he doesn't fix his eating habits. He gets to it, going through a keto diet until he got better, yet he lost track of eating sometimes since he has college, a factory job, and an unstudy money balance. So he was both thin and had dark eyes to match. William was tired of his old name, he is not the William he once was so he gave himself the new name of Dave Miller. He thought it would be better that way. After graduating college, Dave quit his factory job to find a better job. Despite his smile, he was not sound of mind. His tired psyche, and his mind of wonder truely became mixed. So his applications had rather strange fill-outs. At this time, Fazbear was long gone, until it started to spark back to life again. Dave finds this out rather quickly, his mother always knew he loved that place, so she was the one to give the news. However, his applications were always rejected. Years and years his applications were rejected. So long, in fact, he was there when both the official and fan websites of the Fazbear company were started. He learned and studied both websites tiredlessly, since he had nothing else to do but wait and only test out his tech skills here and there. Then... One faithful day, Dave was finally up to interview and the next he was hired. His happiest day will continue on to the happiest days. But he would be rather odd under all of this satisfaction, he knows there is something wrong that makes him believe it is something right. He is not a murder, he is strange, just compeled towards more, dark areas and cracks. Simply attracted to the mysteries, knowing full well that they may be true. Even attracted and has addmiration for the one that made his childhood wonders come to life, which somehow that one, that man, is still walking on earth and among the living.