#thoot health

[squeegin]

Please!! This mental image will cost me about three years of psicological therapy!!

I am going to eat this entire candy cane.

[axolotl-druk]

So veterinaries ARE the core of civilization uh

[anniflamma]

Wow! Your book idea sounds incredible! It's clear that you've poured a lot of dedication and love into it. The idea of having a retelling King Saul's story through his own perspective and go into a deep dive of his worldview and mental health, I would love to see!

I have always been interested in exploring Saul's mentality in the Bible from a different angle, delving into his psyche and the factors that may have contributed to his actions.

I have been listning to podcast and such, simply so I can hear others interpretations but some of them (give big side eyes) 😒 kinda have the approach that Saul is just wierd and the bible is written badly, or worse the topic gets placed on the table and it gets dismissed immediately. That is a big petpeeve of mine!

To give some sugesstions.. hmm, I am not really an author but I love stories that have a deeper character exploration. And it looks already that you are on it with that one! For me, delving deeper into the psyche of a character during their formative years, are really interesting. Explore his relationships with family and others, as well as the events and experiences that shaped his character.

Regarding your comments on focusing on Saul's childhood too much. It's important to note that focusing on it isn't all a bad thing. As seen in "The Prince's Psalm", giving attention to a character's childhood can be a good storytelling tool. It allows readers to deeply connect with the character and understand their motivations and inner struggles. The key is how you use this focus on childhood part. If it enhance the depth and complexity of Saul's character, as well as his relationships with others. Like you can make that Saul act like his father towards Jonathan, hence the generational trauma.

Another thing that I love when reading books, is the use of parallism or whatever it calls 😅 The bible dose it alot. And yhea, The Prince's Psalm dose it too, when David gives Micha his lion thoot necklace, Micha dies in the next chapter. Then SPOILERS (?????) when David gives the same necklace, Jonathan, you guessed it, dies too... So for us the reader, when we rereads the book, immediately connects that necklace with death. Or at least I do it 🥲 So drawing connections between Saul’s childhood experiences and his adult life, I would freaking love that!

Keep up the fantastic work! I would love to read it!!

Writing a book wow ✍️

Alright, lemme introduce you to a project I’ve been working on for a few years now 😘

I have been very dedicated to it, and it’s been through many, MANY changes because of the concept for it, which has been hard for even me to develop and have it make sense lol

Also here’s some art I made for it, hehe

This novel in question is, “Saul,” a fictional retelling of, well you know, King Saul 🥶 Strictly through his perspective and how he sees the world around him, which is shown in a very symbolic way. Everything about this story is symbolic with it presented through symbolic imagery that Saul experiences. Within the story, Saul would go through seven visions, given by Ze’ev, his evil spirit, detailing his state of mind and his gnawing grudges.

Basically, this story brings light to Saul’s mentality in the Bible in other means of interpreting it, in which Saul is honestly never sane and he has a lot of issues lol. Also, the story goes through his entire life, and I mean going back to when he’s around 15, which is where the story starts (other than his traumatic flashback that I’m not going to talk about loll) So it’s an origin story as well, but it ties into the whole idea of what drives Saul forward in the life he lives.

Also, there’s generational trauma 🥶 that explains Saul’s abuse for Jonathan (although there are many more aspects to it, Saul’s past is partly the reason for Saul’s abuse) in which Saul’s father, Kish, is the biggest asshole you’ll ever meet lol. And yeah, there’s a reason why, and yet, he’s an asshole through and through and there’s no redemption for him. Kish doesn’t want to be associated with his son which spirals into endless abuse and neglect (kind of explains why Saul has little to no confidence in himself and is constantly paranoid).

There are also prominent characters I’ve come up with, such as Saul’s mother, Hodesh, and basically the character of Saul’s evil spirit, Ze’ev, who is a shift-shaping demon wolf that guides Saul to seek his truest intentions while bringing fear into his heart so Ze’ev can feed off of him. Firstly, Hodesh holds a special place in Saul’s heart. And it’s to the point where he becomes obsessive of her, trying to find answers through her since she is the bearer of his life (also she sings really well, making it the origin for Saul’s musical needs). Ze’ev, on the other hand, stems from Saul’s traumas/fears and becomes prevalent later on to weaken Saul and to bring him to a place of chaos and terror so much so it hinders Saul seeking for the answers he’s been looking for for all his life.

And some other things about the novel: Saul’s childhood is absolute garbage, yet Ahinoam has always tried to alleviate him from his burdens. His relationship with Ahinoam, however, is at first very, very strong but becomes unstable when Saul’s drama with Rizpah comes into the picture, which is all Saul’s fault by the way lol. Him and Ahinoam though have a strong connection, despite their troubled beginnings with each other, and Jonathan is basically a combination of them in good ways lol. Jonathan is really prominent in the story too, and I’ll maybe make another post discussing David/Jonathan’s relationship in the story, because I’m still trying to figure out a symbolic way to add them into Saul’s narrative.

One thing about Jonathan is that Saul in his visions constantly imagines a scary version of Jonathan, which is supposed to be serious, but I’ve always found it funny loll. Like Saul would be waking up screaming from Jonathan drenched in blood and then sees a perfectly normal Jonathan smiling at him.

So ANYWAYS,

I’ve been working on this novel for a long while, and it has gone through a lot of changes. I have written the first draft for it, but I’ve recently scrapped the entire draft because the whole story has entirely changed lol. The first draft actually dwelled on Saul’s childhood, but the narrative ended up being really pandering and stupid while not adding anything to the story, if I’m being honest 🥶 I mean, there was a chapter of 10k words of just little Saul talking to little Abner about some plan of sneaking out to go and see the Philistines. They’re like 7 btw. You’d spend five chapters of an annoying, 7 year old Saul who thinks he’s tough and brave in every sentence he says loll.

Alright that’s enough rambling 😭 I doubt anyone would read this other than me, but if you have, then you’re amazing and I applaud you greatly 😎👏👏 I ramble a lot because I’m a nerd, and I’m very passionate, and uh- DAVID FOREVERRR 😍😘✨🫶 EEEEEEEEEE

Also, any ideas/suggestions would be AWESOME 😎👍✨