#tho at least this tells me something about the horror i like/dont like

[lesbienneanarchiste]

Am thinking of DNF-ing The Troop. I read about 30% of it today (like. 182 pages. Not insignificant) and I like the writing but a) don't like most of the boys and I'm one of those people who needs the balance of likeable to dislikeable to be in favor of likeable and b) don't find this particular body horror compelling, I don't hate it but it isn't working for me, and c) my one big thing I hate and find terrifying in a bad bad way is zombies and I am suspecting it's less the zombie part and more the contagion and compulsive consumption part which this has and I can't tell where the line is between "this is fine" and "this was a horrible triggering mistake" when it comes to The Troop, which is not a zombie novel but has the elements that bother me. So I'm about 60% convinced to DNF it but again, I like the writing itself and also it's such a well established horror novel in the circles I run in and I kind of want to know where I stand on it, especially since it is pretty readable even though it's long. So. :/

[wasyago]

Please more Trail's gone cold au I'm begging you I need it just pour out every thought in your brain I want to hear it

hgdhhfbd i mean, sure why not

everything plot related is in the main post, there's nothing else really to tell. but i could share random details that didn't really fit into the lore drop. again tho, it's a small au and mostly an exploration of the concept, so there's not a lot.

❄️ gem and etho are siblings, i don't think it was mentioned anywhere? blood related and all that, they both have black hair, gem just dyes hers.

❄️ behind the scenes reasons for the order of deaths. generally i picked these three to be the main cast because i suddenly realized pet crew were just dungeon master and his two winners, and that was too crazy of a concept to not do anything with? so, tango as the main guy and actual master of the dungeon had to die first, seeing how he's the cave's favorite. pearl as the main explorer and as the one to unlock all the secrets had to die second, because she had to return to the dungeon / the cave to find out the truth, and she conquered it but never actually got out. and etho had to survive, because he's the "proper" winner and the one who actually escaped the dungeon with treasures.

❄️ lore reasons for the order of infection. tango you already know, but pearl and etho went in at the same time so in theory they had to start experiencing the effects together. but because etho was wearing a mask it did lessen the amount of sculk he inhaled, slowing down the process. wear masks kids!

and, well, you did say you wanted to hear every thought so. i really like the plot point of them leaving tango to die, so im gonna ramble a little about it. even just, the difference in their views on the situation is so satisfying to me. because tango had no idea something scary was happening to him! and for pearl and etho it was a life or death situation. and just-- they were talking about leaving tango and tango obviously, obviously, protested, because what the actual hell??? yes okay he's ill and a burden, but don't leave an ill guy to freeze to death in a cave, what is wrong with them????? or, okay, what is wrong with etho, pearl was against the idea. but, straight up tango did not plan for it to end this way, he had his whole life ahead of him and so many things ha still wanted to do! of course he cried when they left, what else was he supposed to do? thank etho for his awesome decision? be all cool and stoic and sacrifice himself? hell no, he didn't want to die, he never asked for this.

he did die tho, so. whomp whomp 🎺... i imagine he passed before pearl and etho even reached the stairs, so at least he didn't suffer for long. if he had a breakdown about being left alone he probably hyperventilated and inhaled like a ton more sculk, so that killed him even faster. must've sucked tho...

and then pearl, god, pearl.... she didn't encounter any dangers on the way back, since she wasn't trying to escape and the cave had no reason to be hostile towards her. but seeing how she was at the last stage before turning... she probably didn't get to tango before collapsing... not dying just yet, but too feverish and too weak to walk. but if tango was already back, he could very much go and find her. can you imagine the pure horror of drowning in your regrets as you slowly die and then having your supposedly already dead friend appear in front of you all cheery and oh so wrong. i dont know how much of tango is left in that thing, but the image of him sitting by pearl and holding her until she dies is so-- its haunting but it's sweet. and then there's still enough time to catch up with etho.

actually, gahhhh, all three pet povs are their own unique horror story and it's so good.

the horror of having to go through this terrifying experience, and then being the only survivor, knowing full well that the only reason you lived is because you left your friends to die, and there's no way of fixing it now.

the horror of everything falling apart around you because of miscommunication, and then the one time you decide to do it right you end up regretting every single decision and witnessing the direct result of your mistakes come for you.

the horror of being stupid... the horror of losing all control over your life and being betrayed in the moment of your most vulnerability, dying fully and utterly helpless.

this au is so sad but i love it so much...

okay wow that's enough for one post, ask more if you want tho!

[louscartridge]

dating bose o'brien thoughts or wtvr

bose obrien x gn reader

i do not give permission for my fics to be posted claiming to be yours, translated, or posted on another platform.

cw- reader knows bose is brainstorm, cuddling, mentions of horror movies, established relationship, reader calls bose 'baby' and /silly' once, angst/hurt +comfort if you squint, reader and bose say "i love you" to eachother.

danger force masterlist here

❥ bose is Literally the most golden retriever boyfriend to ever exist. anyways following you around and wanting to be with you. he'd (attempt to) do almost anything for you. when you're not around he gets all mopey and cant stop talking about you.

"no wonder he cant remember anything. all he ever thinks about is y/n"

❥His love language(s) are physical touch, and gift giving. Hes always clinging onto you when hes scared, or sad, or just around you honestly. You remember that one episode of danger force where shwoz's mom was "sick" and bose got her golf clubs? (Im gonna pretend he used his own money for that 💀) He uses the little money he gets from occasionally working at nacho ball, on you.

you put what bose had bought you back in the box, and onto the table that was in the middle of the couch the two of you were sitting on.

"Bose, baby. As much as i love this, and you, you really dont have to spend any of your money on me at all. Get something YOU want for yourself." you tell him.

"All i want to myself is you" he replies, his voice cracking slightly at the end making you smile while you blush at his statement.

"Ok, Ill tell you what. How about you get that new dvd you were talking about a few days ago, and we can watch it together. Then, we'll both have what we want"

❥ Obviously you guys watch shows and movies together all the time. I feel like he really likes watching cartoons with you alot too. You make him happy, cartoons make him happy, therefore- extra happy bose. You love horror movies, but as we know, bose is a bit of a scaredy cat when it comes to horror movies. However, that doesnt mean that he wont watch them with you. He knows how much you like them, and he also knows how much it means to the both of you to watch stuff together.

Youre on of the few people he'll actually watch a horror movie with. Though he still gets scared, he always feels the most safe and secure while watching a horror movie when youre there. Boes is practically hooked on your back like a koala, and his arms loosely wrapped around your neck. As hes watching the movie with you, he would occasionally yelp, and bury his face in the crock of your neck and his arms, tightening the hold his arms have around your neck slightly, all while saying "im not scared i dont know what you're talking about"

❥ This man absolutely loves cuddling. Spooning, sitting in the others lap, it didnt matter. As long as you were touching eachother, he was happy.

Hes most definitely is usually a little spoon. He feels insanely safe and protected by you. As much as he always says to the rest of his co-workers and friends that he "can protect himself" you know that sometimes he needs a little help, and he gets more scared then hed like to admit. With you tho, he had absolutely no doubt that he'll be alright.

❥ i feel like bose doesnt really care too much about sounding cheesy when hes talking to you or about you. At first he might've been a little scared to tell you how he feels about you, but after that, god he just keeps going on. He loves you and he'll sure as hell tell you that he does. He doesnt say "i love you" excessively, but he definitely says it at least twice everyday. At least once in the morning, and at least once before he or you go to sleep.

He actually said it first. One of his favorite shirts got ripped and he asked you to fix it. When you were done sewing it and gave it back to him, he exitedly grabbed it out of your hands while enthusiasticly saying "oh my god thank you, i love you" before running away.

a bit later bose came back to the couch in the mans nest where you were sitting, only this time he was wearing the shirt that you had just fixed for him a little bit ago. He sat down next to you but he seemed kinda anxious.

"Whats wrong bose?" You asked him, leaning forward slightly so you could see his face better. He was biting at his lower lip a little and looking down at his hands that were bouncing up and down from his leg bouncing. "I-im sorry if i weirded you out or anything earlier" he said not looking up from his hands. "No you didnt. Why would you? You didnt do anything" you took your left hand and softly brought it up to his jaw , turning his face so you could see eachother properly. Bose hesitated for a second before answering. "When I said i love you" it seemed as if he was holding himself back from looking at you, instead he was looking aimlessly behind you, or back down again. Only time time, instead of seeing his hands, he sees his knees slightly touching yours. You slowly rubbed your boyfriends cheekbone with your thumb. "Oh my god bose, thats what you're worried about?" You chuckle slightly. "I love you too. I said it back, you just ran away too fast for you to hear it silly" Once you said that, boses eyes immediately shot to yours. "Really?" Even tho he said it quietly, you could still hear the happiness in his voice.

"Really." You confirmed, bringing him into a soft kiss.

[kim-deadja]

[100 coins have been sponsored]

I know you just answered one and we’re probably not expecting me so soon… but uh… I got bored..

Anyways, I’ll tell ya about my break so far since idk what else to talk to you about..

About me getting sick, I’m FINALLY getting better. I’ve been sick since Friday last week. I’m actually going insane I don’t know how many more sicknesses I can take 💔💔

My friends have had me on call for HOURS playing some stupid roblox horror games all week too 😔 (kidding I love playing). Yesterday they somehow kept the call for like 12 hours 💔 I was actually going insane my week just consists of waking up, eating breakfast, getting on call, playing games, getting off call, an hour or two to myself, and going to bed. My sleep schedule is gonna be fucked once I get back to school…

And yeah if I missed any assignments then oh well, at least the majority of my grades could keep my GPA up cuz I made a bet with my brother and mom about if I could finish the year with a 4.0 they would buy me freaking figures… I needed something to look forwards to cuz last year I didn’t and it got me fucked (half my grades were like C- and below and half C and above..)

OU YEAH IM GOING CAMPING!!! I love camping so much I love climbing rocks so much it’s so fun. This one time I tried to climb a rock I fell off the other I was tryna boost myself up with and hit my back kinda hard. All good tho cuz then I was like “I understand it now” and managed to get up on my second try 🙂‍↕️ I did get momentarily stuck on it tho bc I got nervous from the height (lies I just didn’t trust myself to get down cuz knowing me I’d step weirdly on the other rock and hit my head hard..). It was all good tho cuz I still managed to get down, just had to hang off of like 2 other rocks 😓😓

ANYWAYS IM GOING OUT AGAIN BYE DOKJA LOVE YA (n ya too mod 🥰) STAY SAFE DONT DRJNK COFFEE TOO MUCH OR ILL STOP FUNDINF KT 😾

I answered your last ask five minutes ago. How did you already cook up this much in that short amount of time... Are you writing these in advance?

That aside, congratulations on finally getting better. Maybe stick to a healthy sleep schedule to avoid getting sick again. 12 hours of screen time everyday will only bring health hazards.

A 4.0 GPA for figures? Seems reasonable. Good luck, but don’t stress yourself out—unless the figures are limited edition, then maybe it’s worth it.

As for climbing rocks… Be careful. I’d rather not receive an ask from you saying you’ve broken something.

[wench-and-jezebel]

Devour Reaction:

Jezebel (@typicalopposite) reacts [with occasional asides by Wench (@scripted-downfall)]

Bby Ackles  [bby Ackles :)]

[Realizing that the entire movie is contained in the startup and you just.  don't realize it yet.  but anyway]  ☠️☠️☠️☠️

God his kids look just like him

Anne Kilton 👀🤣  [I KNOW! When I tell you this film has SPN vibes… Not a lie]

Dean!

Sir, that’s not- Leave.  Run!  Your white is showing

TF

THE FUCK IS HE DOING WITH THE GUTS  [The fact that you haven't gone hunting before is showing]  ☠️☠️☠️ Blechhhh

Now a baby???  BUDDY GTFO.  FLEE

Mysterious cabin in the woods

Nekked crying person

SIR

[The end.  He ded. Sorry, did you think Jackles was in the whole thing?  Oh wait :)]

The voice

[Weirdo monologues are back: Max-coded]  Talking in circles

Oh nooo drugs  [Dean-coded protective streak pt. 1]

TF [Dean-coded protective streak pt. 2]

[His jacket tho... Dean-coded]  RIGHT?!  But also… Wtf?! The kid was just gonna shoot them?!

Oooo, bitch

Wot.  Is happening.  [She was getting the champagne and intentionally being provocative]  Oh shit

She favors Kirsten Dunst  [Yup, agree]

Yeet.  You just gave the lagoon monster a weapon

Ma’am  [You mean that’s not how computers work?]

You burn candles on your laptop?  Again... Ma’am

“YeH, I pushed a button.”  You idjit.

“Watch your fucking language”  ☠️☠️☠️  [I hate his boss btw]

Alan Ackles has arrived

Bruh his dad reminds me of your dad 👀☠️  [ASDFASDFADF YOU'RE NOT WRONG]  Lemme find out you’re related to the Ackles  [I would pass the frick away]  I would too! ☠️☠️☠️

[Dean-coded protective streak pt. 3]

WOT

BRUH ITS WILD CHARLIE  [Dean-coded protective streak pt. 4]

[Buddy, I love you, but please ask why your friend is demanding your personal info and typing on a computer]  ☠️☠️☠️

Wait is this uncoolness again  [His friends are very uncool throughout the film: you'll see]

Huh.  Uh, y’all run.  HE CRAZY

[I love his acting in this scene.  The turkey line is so well done too aalksdfj]

WHY CANT THIS MAN HAVE GOOD FRIENDS???  EVER???

BRUH  [Did I mention friends putting personal information into random computer programs = not good idea?]  LIKE… dude!

Ohhh noooo

Bruh… I’m tripppinnn lol this movie is wild  [I KNOW RIGHT]

[Get ready for hate-his-boss hours]

BRUH

BRUH.  BRUHHHH!!!  WHAT AN ASSHOLEEEEEE!!

["You wouldn't have let Conrad sign you on" HE DIDN'T KNOW?!!?!?]  RIGHT?!?

Can this dude keep a mom!!??  [I say nothing… I love them tho]

[Dean-coded protective streak pt. 5]  😭😭😭😭

Say you want him in your pants/skirt without saying it ma’am

[This mom's better at the love-life-meddling than Mary]

He’s so cute thoooo  [I KNOWWWW]

☠️☠️☠️☠️ Buddy

[I love Jackles in this whole scene… His smirk/fist pump thing alskdfj *chef's kiss*]

He’s too cute… I can’t even  [I KNOWWWWWWWWWW]

Ma’am.

Sir.  

Masir.

It’s. Not. Like.  This.  What is she.  DOING.  TO HIS HEAD.  WHAT.  AM I WATCHING WOMAN???  I HAD TO TURN THE VOLUME DOWN.  ☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️  [I did warn you about this scene]  

AND SHE JUST WALKS AWAY

[Okay, two things… a) I love Jackles playing the romantic type.  And b) the promised friend-uncoolness]  *huff sigh*

Bruh why does the voice on the phone sound like him 🤔🤔

Jump scareeee ☠️☠️

Bruh that’s the devilll run  [Okay, but.  To be fair.  His entire life is vaguely concerning rn.  Buddy's head ain't even safe]  

The smileeee!  Isss too cute  

Ooooof  Wench’s dad, run!

Oh shit  [He didn't run]  Reverse daydream???

Ah!  A k!  Ack!!!

Nope. I almost passed out for that one.  Bruh.

[Dean-coded protective streak pt. 6.  And continued friend uncoolness.  At least he apologized immediately, unlike SOME people] 🥺🥺

Uh ohhh he in trouble

Or something

Runnnnnn

[Oh, I forgot that intercourse bit, sorry.] Oooooof.  They ded.  [They did the deed in a horror movie; isn't that, like, a cardinal rule?]  ☠️☠️☠️☠️ Fair.  But they didn’t even get to finish

Buddy. DONT WALK INTO A CRIME SCENE.  [HE'S CONCERNED FOR HIS FRIEND; CUT HIM SOME SLACK]

OH SHIT THE TONGUE.  BLECH

[Dean-coded hug right there.]  WITH JODY  [And guilt complex.  Poor buddy getting blamed by other people again, too]  RIGHT!?  ["You coulda brought the gun to me" Yeah, you see how me reporting someone else's crime went this time; of course I could have]

Oh no sad music  [Buddy's friend just died; I think it's deserved alkdsfj]

Buddyyyy 🥺🥺🥺  Oh noooo

Oh nooooooo  [Wot?]  The little "son" got me

The way he says “Ok” *dissolves*

[I do like his "play it cool" line.  Is so cute alksdjf  Help]  

Clothes change  [Jonathan/Wayne Stranger Things jacket]

Oooop look at that he’s drinking  [also Wench's dad-coded]

[Jake's look when daddy grabs his arm is a bit.   Concerning.]  🥺🥺🥺🥺  Yep

*sigh*  Poor Jake/Tom/Dean

“Marisol”  Like aerosol  [alskdjf]

[Frecklessss!!!  That's the most pronounced I've ever seen them]  I KNOWWW

BRUH She got that crazy look in her eye.  Don’t go.  DONT BRING YOUR FRIEND.

*sigh*

[Did I mention romantic!Jackles is so great compared to the emotionally-repressed character he usually plays?  Like, nothing against those roles — I love them, too — but it’s a nice change.]  I KNOWWWWW!  IMAGINE.  JUST FREAKINGGGG IMAGINEEEEE.  HIM WOOING CAS LIKE THIS.  Poor buddy would combust!  [Is trueeee]

Aight… I’m calling it the pathway is them.  At least their voices.  They are calling themselves.

[Love her ringssss]  I knowwww

Blech.  Blechhhh!  Fingers

POOR BUDDY

Susssssspciousssss

I am Native American; I can confirm they probably do weird shit like that

Buddy only been with this girl 10 mins and she’s already pouring his coffee; I’ve been with my husband 15 years and he pours his own shit ☠️

FREAKING MOVIES KISSING. THOSE FIRST THREE WERE JUST FITTING THEIR MOUTHS TOGETHER

the cat  🤣☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️ Tf

👀👀👀  I seeee you

Roar

[Get ready for more Dean-coded]

Well damn Jake can’t catch a break-

WHAT THE FUCK BUDDY HE DED

*sigh*

“Give rest o christ… cause you have took half our town already.  Please chill out”  (I’m going to hell)

[btw, SPN-coded lore-gathering session]  Right!  [The lights are pretty tho.  He be pretty too]

The priest is like this is ABOVE my pay grade

IF HE CUTS HIS TONGUE ONE MORE TIME AACKK

i just kept the tat… ya know… cause- ☠️☠️☠️

☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️  [My dude slandering Metallica]

[The dog's name is Sammy asdlf *Now* who's getting replaced with a dog?!]

☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️

[I am waitinggggg for your reaction to the ending of this film btw; seems like is gonna be gold]  🤣🤣🤣🤣 [Edit: I was right. Be warned about the increase in cursing alskdjf]

Well shit.  Poor devil guy

Ooooooh the plotttt thickenssss

[Early Jackles films has him brooding and staring at things a lot]  🤣🤣🤣

More sitting, more staring  [tbf, buddy pulls off the Heathcliffe aura real well]

Ahh!  It came in handy!

Oooooooh!  Devil shit!

A GHOST

OH SHIT

why Jake gotta go to hell?  He’s so sweet  [You'll see]  And cute ☠️☠️

[WAIT OH HOLY SHIT OH MY GOD THAT’S AMES WHITE FROM DARK ANGEL]  What?!? 👀👀  [You'll understand the significance later… for now, @witchy-writer-lady and I shall keep the secrets]

👀👀👀

👀👀👀👀👀👀

OH WAIT!

OOH SHITTTT!!!

LE GASSSPPP!

[aka: this entire movie is trying to sell us on the fact that this lil ray of sunshine is the spawn of Satan laksfdj]

OH SHIT [Bye bye Ames]  WHOOOPSIE

BITCH YOU DED

[btw, um.  You thought that twist was something.  Wait for the next one.]  WAIT.  Is tarot girl ANNE?!?!  Pls Say- [I say nada]  Womannnnnnnn she gave him the smooches!  That’s not ok  [I DID NOT CONFIRM]  Like I know he is foineeee but it’s not ok! If it is the case

Oh shittttt

WHY WOULD YOU GRAB THE BLOODY KNIFEEEE??! BUDDY, WHATCHA DOIN THERE?!?!  [Okay but horror movie, weapon = good]

This fucking movieeeeee-  [Is not done yet] Is wilddddd

Ooof

Ohhhh shit… That’ll do it.  He gonna snap [aslkdjf]  And start killing with the pick axe  [ALSKDFJ]

[That was.  That was a yes on the momma thing.]  I CALLED IT. ACK.  ACKKKK.   ACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.  KKKKKKKKKKKK.  KKKKKKKKKKK.  NOOOOOOOOOOO.

VSIDUEBEBSZKIZHSSGV  I CANT

I CANT

IMEOT

WOR

How type?  I can’t

DEVIL

WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENINGGGGG

[Sam-letting-Dean-turn-into-a-vampire-scene-coded.  Which is kinda concerning given the.  Undertones.  of that scene.]  BLEHCH

WELL SHIT

SHORT END.  EVERYTIME

– – –

Endpoint Reaction:

Wench: I want you to know that I've been cackling at your reaction this whoel time

Jezebel: FUCK COFFEE I NEED LIQUOR ADTET THAT.  I STILL CANT TUPE

Wench: asdk

Jezebel: I’m just- Yeah.

Wench: I'm dying of laughter rn

Jezebel: I just…. What.  Why.  His mother.  She was his mother.  “I can be anything you need me to be”  HOW ABOUT A DECENT FUCKING MOTHER YOU MANIPULATIVE DEVIL BITCH

Wench: One of the few films where Jackles comes out with two parents still alive, and it’s only true because he had four at the beginning and lost two along the way aldskfj

Jezebel: Well, three, ‘cause he killed her too

Wench: Nah, she didn't die

Jezebel: Wtf.  But she was dead at the end, wasn’t she?

Wench: The human vessel was.  And that's a maybe.  We don't know for sure.  But she's definitely alive enough to force-feed him blood and shit, so

Jezebel: Oooh.  Blech.  His MOTHER.  Who wroteeee this shit.  Bleach.  I need bleach for my eyessss

Wench (aside to the audience): She’s never forgiving me.

Jezebel: I just  ☠️☠️☠️☠️  Ok I’m good I think

Wench: aklsjdf

Jezebel: It was a pretty good movie.  Until the end.  That happens a lot in Ackles case.

Wench: Do you see what I mean by, his acting was actually, like, really good?  Especially in that context?

Jezebel: Yess! Buddy just couldn’t get a good ending if it was standing right in front of him…  Ten Inch Hero next, so I can be equally pissed at the ending but in a happier tone.  Maybe tomorrow?

Wench: YEAH.  FINALLYYYY. Sandwich shoppe, here we come!

Jezebel: Ending note.  SHE WAS HIS FUCKINGMOTHER!?!?

[nablah]

OK!! so all throughout finals week i kept thinking about alceste because of The Pain and radiation therapy because of The Exam, so my brain combined them, voila alceste set in the radiology department (nicky as far as niche things go this is surely something)

Alceste is a type of Orfeo ed Euridice: you have the beloved who's not quite dead and the lover whose actions that bring about the story can only stem from their love. You have the somewhat present god who offers a bargain to the lover to bring back the beloved from the dead. And finally you have the clause of not telling the beloved about the bargain. ANYWAY. That's the 3 main elements.

So the Alceste set in the radiology department would primarily incorporate the Euripidean origins of the opera while retaining some ties to show the interpretation in the modern world. We keep the Euripidean """fantastical"""" world because like Orfeo, Alceste represents a fantasy: to bring someone from the dead. You've got Alceste and Admeto who are idk rad tech / medical physicist because they hold relative power in the radiology dept but they dont over matters of life and death. Admeto is dying etc etc except now the context is radiation induced (btw dyk they have this estimate for how long radiation professionals cut down their lives and its BS at this point but y'know. Stochastic effects) which presents something interesting to me because radiation induced means he brought it on himself, like the myth and the play, and also because treating it only means he'll survive and most likely die of it later, when he's older. So it's a terminal thing at least. So Alceste gets the news and its already all blurring into a picture where the foreground is still the hospital, probably Admeto is on a LINAC, but the backdrop is a combination of ancient greece and a hospital. It's dreamlike, because again, its a fantasy, either the audience's or Alceste's.

So the oracle proclaims the bargain etc etc no one will die for Admeto (both in a hospital setting and in Thessaly). She just goes on prepping the machine maybe while she makes the bargain in the forest. NOW HERES WHY I KNOW THIS WORKS AS A SETTING. As a rad tech she has to administer the dose, i.e. she gives the treatment to her husband while she herself is exposed to radiation i.e. she's trading her life for his. it's a long term commitment tho which she probably assumes but the shades tell her she's going to die right there and then she asks for time. insert acute radiation syndrome, maybe on the GI system (i'll explain later!!). Back in the hospital Admeto is feeling better (disclaimer unfortunately this doesnt happen irl the client will most likely feel nauseous after a treatment round) and yay theyre rejoicing but bam Alceste's feeling sick (in radiation sickness GI system level this is what we call the manifest illness stage. the latent stage for GI ARS can last a few hours to days) so the relief that turns into horror scene goes thru and Admeto leaves to bargain with the gods. or the doctors. Alceste is reaching the end of the manifest illness stage and this is followed by either recovery or death. She's being given transfusions supportive care etc all until the 3rd act. Admeto is outside the room because its ARS and thats a major safety breach. Theyre mourning outside with the kids and with Alceste inside and then bam she dies. cue the mourning again and Admeto goes mad, maybe tries to get into the room where her body is and then Apollo deux ex machina saves everyone Alceste recovers (you can recover from GI ARS with proper care) and the opera finishes. Theyre both permanently disabled btw, but theyre alive.

If you read until here you may have noticed this was just a major infodump on radiation safety and radiation induced effects. Dont play with radiation :)) even if its for an opera!

[florenceisfalling]

Sits down in front of u. Tell me abt *looks at smudged writing on my hand* btd.. dtb? tbd,dbt-

hiiii anon

btd is boyfriend to death!! it is an erotic horror visual novel by gatobob, darqx and another guy but we dont talk about him. the first game and its sequel feature their ocs rire (by darqx), strade, ren, ashe, farz and lawrence (by gato), and some others that i do not know much at all about or did not particularly get into all that much (just not my thing! ive heard sano is pretty cool tho. however these r by the other guy and he sucks)

strade and farz are actually also ocs from a different story gato has created called "this is not romance," which is a fun little webcomic i highly recommend! its both lacking in horror and horny (more scifi?) so if you are looking for something more general audience, there it is :) to my knowledge, strades btd iteration is not canon to tinr or vice versa, hes just a multi-use oc! farz's feature in btd was not written by gato and is very distant from what hes actually supposed to be like so we ignore that too. this whole thing is just an excuse to talk abt tinr

anyway! for btd, whether or not the emphasis in "horrorporn" is on porn or horror is pretty much up to which ever character and route you end up on. either way it'll Typically most of the time get at least a little horny or romantic. i personally am scared of sex so it is all horror to me. lol

but there is actually Lore, i unironically play it for the plot (and gratuitous violence) and i love readin through gato's blogs to know more abt the characters. darqx also has lots of lore for rire but i gotta actually finish his routes first oops

in fact! said lore continues into a game gato has made called "the price of flesh" that i REALLY wanna play (cant yet bc money, its not that expensive ive just got other priorities rn) bc it looks super good !! has a hot woman in it also!!

the strade/ren/lawrence trio is my favorite bc they r all intertwined and deeply fucked up. most mentally ill men alive. it is actually kinda hilarious at times despite the like... limb removal scenes. strade is silly! yet a little more complex than i think he is given credit for! and lawrence is tragic!! and i understand why a lot of people choose ren to be their target for vent art or kinning, most little guy ever!!!

so yeah if youre ever thinking "yknow what would be a nice date night? getting locked in a basement." these games are for you :) (check the website tws first, but btd1 and 2 are free!). if you think i sound insane, perhaps not and u can blacklist the btd tag on my blog :)

[resmarted]

happy birthday weekend to me! was just thinking i should do red dress run and forgot it was this weekend. i keep forgetting things i wanna do on the day of! i dont even own a red dress. lots of babely dudes in red dresses tho. lots of hot girls but girls are always hot. faced my fears and watched cuckoo only bc I knew I would do a double feach and see the one movie that is not a fucking horror film after it was over bc literally all cinema is horror like do these people not realize some of us live alone and already survive the horrors on a regular basis and we can't psychologically handle the constant infliction of being terrorized?? i guess its the only type of film people will still go to the theaters for other than superhero movies. luckily it did not scar me as badly as I was anticipating and tbh the mixed reviews saying it was kinda bad sold me on wanting to see it bc at least if it ends up being cheesy I can say I saw it and have an opinion opening weekend like a very cultured american. I saw the trailer months ago when I was surviving the opening chapter of recent traumatic life events and every time I see a trailer for movies like this I am like wow looks very good but I am at an age or point in my life journey where content like this will surely follow me home and live in my brain and I do not trust that I can handle media the way I once did as a fearless young girl unburdened by the diabolical energies of this world. I even tried to watch one of the new scream movies recently and was like uh no thanks this is too much there's like demons transmitting through the screen and I do not enjoy this and not even sure how I once enjoyed this. like a very disturbed child that needed to be cool once liked this but adult me that knows how scary the world is likes none of this like I can just read the news thanks ANYWAY mom can't handle scary movies BUT the movie kneecap was everything I hoped it would be and more 10/10 highly recommend and cannot believe the lack of advertising this has. they went from playing it at noon and ten to just ten hence why I had to go to something before bc mom can't leave the house for 10pm it's just not going to happen I have to be already out and have already had 37 iced coffees throughout the day to prepare for such an event. cannot stress enough this is the only good movie out right now that is not a Pixar film or of the marvel franchise and if anything it is pleasing to the eyes as it revolves around two young dudes with the sickest fades you have ever seen like the music ripped but the haircuts ripped so much harder. great plot great vibe all around the only thing any of us have to be hyped about in this current climate. remind me to start telling you to fuck up instead of fuck off in my new working Irish accent and other linguistics I learned along the way. thank u pls drive thru 🇮🇪

[thefanciestflower]

watched a horror movie that I told myself I would watch for YEARS and never got to and I am so MAD because it was so COOL!!!! GOD... ugh.. I need something that makes me do the things I want to do sooner instead of me just not doing things for so long ifthat makes sense... I am so BAD at getting myself to watch movies, cause thinking about paying attention to videos over an hour is so dreadful and hard because I am like.. a creature.. that cannot do that... BUT IT WAS SO COOL!!!!!! foaming at the mouth someone please make smth that can make me do things without putting them off forever first

I always do this to myself when I see smth cool istg; like every cool movie I see I tell myself, "I'm going to watch that!! it looks cool!!", and then I DONT!!! Then I keep telling myself that I'll watch it, and keep not watching it, and then it's only months or YEARS later that I'll finally watch it!!!

The same thing happens with shows and books and games and art and everything too tbh, but I can usually start them more easily. If I don't finish things in a certain amount of time tho, if I don't finish things fast enough, like, I'll just drop them. And it makes me so so so so so mad- because it's not like I lose interest- I DONT, I just like can't get myself to finsih, and I hate IT. Like I drop them for so long, and only sometimes after months or yearssss will I come back and finally finish them off; or at least try to.

Like examples: Literally all my art, I draw basically everything I post in a single sitting; if I don't then I'll likely abandon it. Only sometimes will I come back to an unfinished piece that I didn't complete all at one time to finish it. Or, like another example, PLA, I played that game sooooo so so much when it first came out, I LOVED IT. But you know what? I went through the wholeee story but then I just *did not* do the postgame- and I wanted TO, believe me, I loved the game; but I just didn't do it. It took me so LONG to finally complete the postgame, and do the arceus fight, because I literally just did not touch the game for maybe over a year- even tho I wanted to, I just didn't do it. AND I DONT KNOW WHY!!!! It just happens to me and I hate it and it's evil, it's like I am so so so lazy about things but trying not to be lazy is like trying to eat rocks, so I can only do things at specific times when it is not like eating rocks and is fun. idk, idk if this makes sense I am just rambling lol

[starlightkun]

omg omg omg okay so im like in the middle of my final exams before im done with highschool but i need to tell you all about the fics that you have been releasing because wOW.

okay BUZZER BEATER

GOD THOSE TWO ARE SO FLUFFY. i dont have chronic illness but the way you described it just reminds me of starting adhd meds where i had to take so many pills at random intervals during the day and felt awful 24/7 and how im afraid that going into uni, people are going to ask for my meds for recreational purposes (which makes me so mad btw cause like i need meds to live dont ask for medication that is in limited supply so you can get lit but anyways). But yeah i didn't know that much about migraines other than the fact that its terrible but yeah the way you wrote mc was so beautiful and relatable and im just so sorry that you have to be burdened by these migraines and spend so much time and energy managing it. The way you wrote sungchan though was beautiful. his character is absolutely the most pure and loving guy (whilst also being a loserboy) and the fact that he did not question or judge or put pressure on mc ever was so healing. just watching him be so open with his affection and just blatantly pine for mc without any reservations about it makes me really want a sungchan of my own now. I just want a cute, sweet, uncomplicated, loserboy so i can just live my life in both sickness and health and not be judged by what hurdles my body choses to throw at me today (my psychiatrist was saying my stomach is just really sensitive so thats why ive been going through hell which is sucky but at least i have answers and know what to avoid lmao). But yeah thank you for writing something so beautiful about an experience that i felt so alone in having, because now i feel less guilty about struggling with my own health and most importantly less alone.

now onto Dr Magic!

dear lord jesus if i felt seen by buzzer beater, ive never felt more out of my depths by Dr Magic. Its such a hilarious fic and renjun and mc are both so insane and crazy but in a way thats realistic (i go to one of the top high schools in australia and there are people here who are so dedicated to school the same way renjun and mc). The way renjun just wants mc to spit in his mouth, I swear ive met boys like that too. also the steamy makeout sesh?! soft renjunnie with caring and dominant reader who asks for consent?! mc is so sexy for that, i love her. Also! your description of renjun wearing a yellow hoodie, jeans and a red cap was so scrumptious that i embodied mc in that moment and wanted to eat him whole also. the scene where renjun owns up to the mean things he said to mc whilst mc talks about spitting in his mouth in front of TEN?! shes so confident and strong despite being hurt and i love that for her. i really love how in your fics, you mix humor with maturity to create such well rounded works that really celebrate being wild and having fun whilst also being a grown and mature person. just like you, i could never be renjun and mc but im happy for them and what they have.

side note: thank you for being pro palestine, i know being pro palestine is a simple thing and a low bar to set for myself in finding good people in the world, but with all the people in power and celebrities (cough eric nam cough) publicly supporting the genocide that is happening, im very glad to find others who see the horrors for what it is.

-✨anon

yeah i will always be anti-genocide and anti-apartheid ethnostates, and it truly does boggle my mind to see people support that??? somehow???? but seeing all the pro palestine demonstrations and protests and posts all over does give me hope to hold onto

rest of my response to ur lovely feedback under the cut to not make this post any longer lol <33

BUZZER BEATER!!!!

i also want my own loserboy sungchan so bad 🤧🤧 he was just so perfect in that one ugh. im glad that u were still able to see urself in some of the mc (tho im NOT glad that ur having side effect trouble w ur meds, sending out my love as a fellow tummy trouble side effect haver 🫶). and yeah i rlly wanted my bb sungchan to be not necessarily a himbo per se (bc imo u have to be like BUFF and stupid and sweet, i.e, kronk from emperor's new groove, and alas, sungchan is not built like wonho im not that delusional) but he is at least a big (read: tall), sweet, not quite dumb but not as academically rigorous in the same way as mc, jock who is used to kind of following the same script when in that college "talking phase" with a girl (a little bit of flirting, parties, inviting her to a game maybe, buying her a drink, etc.) bc it's safe and he rlly likes reader so he doesn't want to mess it up but then he realizes that he has to throw it all out bc reader can't actually do like most of that and is like ok. new plan. and ends up just fully embracing his pining, soft loserboy self and how down bad he is for reader. ugh i love him 💗💗💗

dr_magic2303!!!!

i would greatly admire, respect, and fear in equal measure anybody who feels seen by dr_magic2303 lmao. like good for u but COULDN'T BE ME!!! like some of the bits of mc's hyperfixation on her personal projects and that raw hunger for knowledge (as opposed to being the best) was modeled after my own hyperfixations and kind of manic flow states that i get with my adhd (i've yet to put up a conspiracy board in my apartment but i do routinely feel like the pepe silvia meme from it's always sunny) but i have not been a neurotic overachieving academic since jr yr of high school thank god! 4 years of cognitive behavioral therapy and a lot of anti-depressants cured me of that. this is coming from a former gifted kid lmao.

when i knew that i wanted this fic to take the this route (renjun getting consensually dosed up w siren venom) i knew i wanted there to be some form of a convo like that. like consent is sexy!!! and making sure ppl r being taken care of when they're consensually giving up and transferring power for a limited time (with or without the use of magical aphrodisiacs) is sexy!!! aftercare is sexy!!! (even tho renjun threw reader out before they could rlly finish that part but u know) and i rlly hope that came across in that scene

reader talking about spitting in renjun's mouth in front of ten isn't THAT weird for sirens (reader and ten were JUST talking about ten's nipple rings and their lack of sex lives like five seconds earlier in that same convo so like yknow) but ten could obviously tell that there was something a lot deeper going on than just some casual saliva swapping between pals so that's why he left lmao

as always thank you sm for your ask and your feedback on my fics 🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶 good luck with the end of school you got this b 💗💗💗💗

[iscratchdoors]

blah blah trans healthcare rant dont mind me

i know people get pissy about regrets being given voice but holy fucking shit i should have not taken my time trying to get on hrt. i already knew i would eventually have to get top surgery to live my life normally at like 14 years old but for like 2-4 years after i was going back and forth on wanting to go on t, partially bc i wasn't sure i wanted all its effects and to look like a Manly Macho Man (wow a 15 year old struggling with the idea of looking like a 40 year old man? no way) and other gender stuff but mostly because everything i'd heard about trying to get hrt was a fucking horror story and i was already dealing with a ton of shit so i took my time to really make 100% sure i wanted to be on t (coincidentally happened when i became an adult and youthful androgyny stopped being an option, who woulda thought?) before ever contacting a doctor about it and holy FUCK was that a bad idea

it's always "take your time" and "don't rush into things" but holy fuck the waiting game is fucking insufferable. i did exactly that and took my time but turns out, so will my doctor! it does not matter how much Taking My Time(tm) i have done before seeking medical intervention this dipshit needs to take half a fucking year to even start talking to me about treatment. 6 appointments since last year and i've so far done nearly all the talking and gotten 0 information back and for about half of those ive been hearing that "next time we might talk about the next step" and guess what! we fucking haven't! because i need to wait, wait, wait, and make sure, and wait

for fucking what? ive already done all the making sure, giving me more time isn't going to change shit except delay my ability to live a normal goddamn life. he's not a psychologist and clearly doesn't know shit about autism, so i have no clue why he thinks he's qualified to decide if that has somehow tricked me into thinking im trans, a thing that famously happens. he's not telling me shit about fuck about how my treatment might even go and im not allowed to even fucking ask because that immediately gets shot down with "well we cant just give you hormones right away" BITCH FIRST OF ALL its been MONTHS ive had all my psychiatric work done for YEARS before i ever had to deal with your donkey-headed ass and im literally just ASKING. FOR INFORMATION. NOT A PRESCRIPTION.

but noooo we have to wait wait wait, wait before we even talk about the one goddamn thing i came for. like we arent sitting here having talks about my truest inner self and how to best achieve it or whatever the fuck i didnt come here for counseling and it certainly isnt what im fucking getting. like what the fuck does he think is going to happen during an arbitrarily decided waiting period? i suddenly change my mind? without him giving me ANY information about what im getting myself into? hes going to discover some secret psychosis i have that my ACTUAL PSYCHIATRIST didn't for years??? it doesn't make any sense. it's always "oh you can't get hormones on the first appointment" WELL CAN I AT LEAST BE FUCKING SENT TO ENDO BY THE GODDAMN SIXTH???? im not taking shit at my own pace im entirely reliant on someone else's that they decided for me with frankly no justification

and i can't even vent my frustrations about this to acquaintances and relatives because for some goddamn fucking reason, they almost ALWAYS take the doctor's side. i complain about the shit i had to go with my joints, nobody assumes the doctor was in the right when i tell a story of how they fucked something up or were a prick. i say one bad word about THIS motherfucker and suddenly well the doctor has his reasons surely :((( you cant just expect to be given what you want immediately :(((((( what if someone gets on hormones and changes their mind :(((((( not you just Someone :((((((( still your problem tho :(((((((( by the way i need you to listen to this story about how a trans person you've never met annoyed me once :) i dont have anything against trans people btw did i mention that? i really dont. if you want medical treatment die tho.

every single fucking time. what the hell is it about transgender healthcare specifically that always makes people play defense for a medical professional they dont know anything about. i know im kind of unhinged with anger and hyperbolic from rant frenzy but i mean no exaggeration when i say that i genuinely believe that half of these people would rather see 100 trans dudes kill themselves than let 1 confused cis girl end up with a deep voice and extra body hair. it's fucking ridiculous. even my goddamn social worker gave me the "can't expect hormones at first appointment" speech. a fucking WEEK ago. first appointment was LAST YEAR girl. no matter how directly i describe exactly what's wrong with my doctor's approach and why (it's not only the waiting period he's just a general cunt) somehow the narrative of the entitled impatient trans person who is attacking this poor poor medical professional on an unhinged whim when really they could just accept themself and be cis and happy :( is the first thing that springs to their mind. there's not an ounce of trust in me, or anyone else in my position.

and this is all just the first step. i'm already looking into paying out of pocket for surgery because the fucking rate this is going at doing it the standard way seems a last resort more than anything. but to even get into talks about getting surgery done, in ANOTHER FUCKING COUNTRY most likely, at that, because fuck me for being born here, i of course need to be diagnosed and on hrt! haha! amazing! i can't do shit to progress any further until ONE OLD FART decides that i'm allowed! wanna permanently ruin your health with booze and smoking? sure! you're an adult! wanna get a cosmetic surgery in line with your agab? aye if you can pay for it! oh you want to get a different cosmetic surgery to improve your mental health at well over 18? now hold on there bucko we're going to need 2 doctors to sign off on that, what if youre just being an insane wackadoodle and you'll regret the horrible, horrible fate of not having titties while living as a dude. that's not a decision you can just make. have you considered spending the rest of your life unable to comfortably go outside or even move around much inside your own home instead? seems like a much safer option.

and all the waiting and frustration is one thing but the absolute lack of support is what really finishes the job. i go to my dumbass dipshit appointments and do my dumbass dipshit jester dance of how good of a trans i am and may i please please please have a crumb of medical care sir? spare a doing your fucking job sir? and after that goddamn exhausting ordeal of justifying my right to existence and well being i go home and instead of winding down i fucking do it again. no reprieve. and then i go to my room and i wait, wait, wait, wait, and wait, and it never fucking ends, and all i do is wait, wait wait, wait, wait, and i barely even get to talk to people who aren't paid to do it anymore, and i wait, wait, wait, and im slowly going more and more insane, and wait, wait, wait, and life is a fucking nightmare, and i wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, and there's no one left to ask for help, and i wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, and think about putting a hole in my skull, and wait, and wait, and wait

[honkhonk-ducky]

Live Episode Reaction (spoilers under cut):

- SAM ANSWER THE FUCKING PHONE

- Curiosity killed the Khalid cat amiright?

- bro, did sam get sick bcuz of getting archived

- OH THE NIGHTTIME TRAIN??? spooky (I am not British, i dont know wtf a nighttime train is)

- APOCALYPTIC CONFLICT YOU SAY?

- YOU ARE NOT SAFE. ANSWER ALICE'S CAAAAAAALLLLLLS

- Alice my bby 💞💗💕💖💞💕💞💓

- this fucking train worker guy sounds so tired lol

- COLIN???????? COLIN WHAT ARE YOU DOING??? WHY'RE YOU IN THE OFFICE??? WHAT ABOUT FREDI??? (FR3-D1? Freddy? idk)

- BRO IS COLIN GONNA DIE?

- GWEN. LENA. AAAAAAAAAAAAAA

- Lena's voice is shaking?? Omg. I can't tell if she's angry or scared or relieved (or all three)

- "GOODBYE GWEN." GURL. "BEST OF LUCK, YOU'RE ALL GOING TO NEED IT"???? GURL

- *Insert Evil Bouchard Laugh here* You now have something in common with Mr. Jonahlias Douchard now :D

- "Just checking for tape recorders" 👀

- "EVEN IF IT WAS ON THE TRAIN-" it fucking IS. IF YOU JUST ANSWERED ALICE'S CALLS-

- "We want your teeth." no thank you.

- "suspicious door, and we both know what happens if we open it" Good enough for me! 🚪🌀WELCOME BACK THE DISTORTION!!!!🌀🚪

- is that the TMA theme in the background?????

- wow, a side character finally admits a place is haunted in a horror podcast?

- "stay out the way of whatever goes on" ADD THIS MAN TO THE "SMART MAGPOD CHARACTERS" LIST. (Joshua Gillespie and Sebastian Skinner lol)

- "50 quid" hell yeah BRIBERY!!!!

- this custodian is a mood

- WOAH WAIT A MINUTE. WAIT A MINUTE. STATEMENT??? STATEMENT???

- ARCHIVIST!!!!!!!!!!!

- "Is this place a wound that never healed?" YES. A WOUND IN REALITY.

- So... is the Hilltop Center basically a shopping center run by the Fears or smth?? Imagine working as a cashier here. Literal nightmares lol

- "it was the whimpering" just like Jon Jarchivist Jims-

- MANNEQUINS, YOU SAY?

- Sam should learn from this custodian and STOP ASKING QUESTIONS.

- NOOOO DID THIS MAN JUST GET BURIED ALIVE???

- TAPE RECORDER ALERT!!!!!

- Back to Samelia, I see...

- STAIRS? TO THE BASEMENT? JUST LIKE THE STAIRS IN TMA HILLTOP ROAD THAT LED TO THE CRACK IN REALITY?????

- high-pitched humming?

- Oh. My. God. DONT TOUCH IT. IS IT THE TEAR IN REALITY??? SOME ALCHEMY THING?

- Spill the beans, Celia

- oOOOOHHHH SAM SNAPPED.

- CELIA FROM ANOTHER REALITY CONFIRMED!!! HELL YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!

- "it keeps pulling me back"

- She doesn't remember??? THERE'S NOTHING TO GO BACK TO? WHAT HAPPENED TO TMA-VERSE THEN????

- WAIT. NO. NO. CELIA. OH SHIT, IS SHE GONNA BETRAY HIM?? FUCK. CELIA WHAT THE FUCK NO

- "I really did like you" CELIA. YOU BITCH

- STATEMENT?

- TAPE RECORDER???

- CELIA'S EXPERIENCE IN THE EYEPOCALYPSE ASHSJFIWHENDKD

- THE FEARLESS ONE? GEORGIE????

- WTF HAPPENED???? HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT

- ALICE!!! OH GOD.

- TMA THEME???

- custodian guy!!!! (oh shit, he dead)

- "We are the Hilltop" We are FNAF frfr

- GWEN OH BOY. (Is that alcohol??? Lena had alcohol on her office?????)

- I have a feeling Lena was right and Gwen is WAY over her head. But at least now there's a Bouchard in charge of a supernatural orgnization again :p

- THAT COMPUTER GLITCH THO

- CELIA'S ALIVE!!! ALICE IS HERE!!!!

- "where's Sam?" 😨

- "They're gone, Alice." WTF DO YOU MEAN THEY'RE GONE??? OMG THE PREDICTIONS OF SAM TRAVELLING TO TMA-VERSE AAAAAAAAA—

- I CANNOT WAIT MONTHS FOR THE NEXT EPISODE, WHAT THE FUCK???!?!?!?!?

GUYS PLS PLS PLS WRITE FANFICTION OF SAM IN THE TMAVERSE. PLEAAAASEEEEEEEEE

LISTENING TO THE MAGNUS PROTOCOL SEASON FINALE ON THE TRAIN HOME 🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪 (i sure hope an Archivist isn't there with me)

I'm reblogging this with thoughts post-episode

[thespineoftherighteous]

how about yeah neil's british accent only pops up in certain circumstances (and when it does, !) BUT he uses british language full time

[shittyblogname]

I've been neglecting you guys, I'm so sorry. Things are going shitty rn & I can't find time for any of my hobbies, but have some Michael fluff because I need it and maybe you do too 😤 (writing this on my phone so it'll look ugly)

btw, this is kinda like a self insert ig, I got this idea because I could use some fluff irl rn. Reader will still be GN tho, in case you need some fluff aswell :)

Michael Afton x sad reader

The door just fell closed as Michael peeled his coat off, exhausted from work. His eyes searched for the clock you kept on the hallway wall, reminding him that it was almost midnight. He was ready to fall into your arms and pass out, although what he was met with immedeately flipped a switch in his mind. There were you, cradling yourself on the shared bed with tears staining your cheeks, not daring to meet his gaze. Michael sat down beside you, slowly curling his arm around your shoulders. He sat there in silence with you, gently caressing your arms until you were ready to speak up, although he didn't feel in a rush to make you do so. "do you want to take a shower?" he whispered, careful not to overwhelm you with a loud tone. "maybe a long, warm one?" his head tilted down to yours, pressing a soft kiss to your temple. He waited for a nod, or anything to take as a sign of approval or disapproval, he knew better than to force you to speak. Eventually, you showed your face to him, nodding slightly. Maybe you were expecting a look of disappointment, shame or even anger, yet all you saw in his face was concern. He smiled slightly, gently wiping the remaining tears away before moving to stand, taking you up into his arms. "work was exhausting, some kid literally spat at me." you chuckled, making him scoff in a playful manner as he lowered you down onto your feet. "what got you so upset darling?" he hummed, closing the door to shut out any remaining light. Your look searched for him in the dark, hands stretching out to feel around for your lover. His arms snaked around your waist, making you jump a little. "I don't know, everything?" you sighed, relaxing into his chest. He nodded to make sure you knew he was listening, struggling a little to undress in the darkness. "I thought that maybe showering in the dark will at least ease your mind about your body?" he placed his chin on your shoulder once naked. "although I adore you in every way possible." he pecked your neck gently, helping you to undress aswell before moving to stand in the shower. The warm water seemed to wash all your problems away, at least it did in Michaels arms. He rubbed small circles onto your hips, keeping you in a tight hug. "you're doing well love." his hands moved to your back, massaging your shoulders. "I'm proud of you." his head rested on top of yours, pressing soft kisses to your forehead. "what's there to be proud of?" your voice shook, tears stinging your eyes again. "You dont have to make every day a good day in order for me or anybody to be proud of you." he added. "At the end of the day the goal of every living thing is to just survive." his hands firmly placed on either side of you now. "and I'm proud of you for surviving, even with all the horrors, catastrophes and mountains in your way." you smiled into his chest, hot tears streaming down your face. They weren't tears of sadness, that nagging empty feeling at the pit of your heart or the voice in your mind telling you what's right and what's wrong. They were simply tears of joy and comfort, something you could always come back to in your lovers arms.

[turtle-go-brrrr]

The gang during movie nights

Leonardo

Easily impressed

Like, there is an arrow shooting off toward the camera and he's ducking

It's hilarious

He gets so invested, especially in shows, like I can't stress enough how attached to the characters he can be

Won't cry, but will be deeply hurt if anything bad happens

Doesn't handle r*pe scenes well at all (none of them really do, but he'sthe worst)

Doesn't understand why they need to be shown on screen when the implication of that act can be just as disturbing and powerful

Likes to know how good the actors were treated on set too

If he learns that they weren't treated well he's gonna shit on the director for a really long time

When no one can decide on a movie he's the one choosing

Will sometimes let you choose, but dont count on it very often

He loves thrillers and mysteries, trying to guess what will happen along the characters

Not as good at it as he thought he would be though

Donatello

Unless he's captivated by the movie, he's the worst person you could watch anything with

Talks constantly

Critiques any illogical thing he can see

Don't tell me about plot holes

Goes on and on about character development

Discussing a movie with him is fantastic, but watching it? No sir

Unless you're like that too

He has the best taste in movies tho

He loves indie movies the best

His favorite movies (as of late) is The Shape Of Water

(He just loves the fact that the two characters fell in love because of what they are instead of despite it)

(Also it's a monster lover movie and he secretly hopes he can find someone at some point)

Will put his legs on your lap but won't share the blanket

Will give you unlimited access to his stack of snacks tho

Raphael

Pretends to love horror movies because he's the Tough Guy but actually hates them

Either because they're not scary (and therefore cringy) or because they're too scary

And he doesn't like being vulnerable

Will watch any and all movies starring Vin Diesel

His favorite is Baby Sittor

Doesnt like the Fast and Furious movies as much as he makes it out, he just has a big crush on Diesel

Really likes animated movies

If they want to explore dark themes, they have to do so subtly instead of throwing blood and sex scenes in your face all the time

They have to be creative about everything and he likes that aspect

If you guys are watching an horror movie, he'll cling to you at every jumpscare and act as if he was just shifty

Will silently claim unbreake loyalty to you if you hold his hand during the scary parts

Will put you on a pedestal forever if you don't tell anyone about any of this

Michelangelo

Always in his phone

It's not because he's not paying attention, he just needs to do something at the same time to be able to pay attention better

ADHD amaright

Cries easily too

Not just from sadness, but from laughter too

Really likes comedies, but loves thrillers and drama even more

The shittier, the better

He just loves being fake interested in the characters life and criticizing every bad choice they make

"Don't go back with him Linda, he cheated on you!"

Ends up being real invested and cant take his eyes off of the screen (he gotta knows what happens next)

This is especially true with Christmas Hallmark movies

He knows exactly what will happen, the acting is bad and it's all too cliche

But he has to see it anyway

The ultimate snack maker, but won't share his

Will give you as many blankets and pillows as you need

Will also most likely fall asleep on you

Which is a huge problem when you need a bathroom break, because no one will help you move him without waking him up

April

She doesn't really have a favorite genre

But if there's murder in it, she's gonna live it

"I'm just saying, it would have been a lot better if he died after falling down the pit." "What did you expect from Dora the explorer?!"

Unironically loves really bad movies

Velocipastor, Vikingdom, Sharknado and the likes

They have this weird, we-got-drunk-and-made-a-whole-movie-before-the-hangover kind of energy that she loves

Don't let her choose the movie because she will choose this kind of trash film

If she manages to pull it off, you two will have the time of your life in from of this trash

Like constant laughter, trying to guess how far they'll take the absurdity etc

Just an honest good laugh

Casey

Adventure kinda guy

Like Indiana Jones, Jumanji, The Mummy, etc

He just loves the adventure and action ok

Especially if Dwayne "the Rock" Johnson is in it

He has a secret crush on him

(As secret as Raph's crush on Vin Diesel, so not so secret)

Also has a thing for romances

Really really likes them if they're somehow tragic

Like "two lovers getting separated during the war and finding each other again in the battlefield" kind of tragic

Doesn't like it if it ends on a bad and depressing note

Like it has to at least have a message of hope at the end

He's the one shushing everyone when it becomes too much

Also the one to refill snacks, and give you "secret" snacks if you help him

(It's your favorite candy)

Likes to act as if he was giving you drugs or soemthing when in reality it's like. Caramel

[drzibs]

spoilers + apologies, i get a bit rambly lol

my understanding is that its who the person views as their closest family.

i will point out that while gideon did have his father, when talking about his memory building a motorbike with pa coal, he mentioned that it was one of, if not his only happy memory with him. so in his mind currently, he either just doesnt remember having a father and perhaps grew up mostly an orphan, or any other memory involving pa coal is a not so happy memory, and further drives a familial wedge between them. with twig there are complicated feelings, but we know gideon basically imprinted on her and takes on a role of something either paternal, or at the least a big brother/little sister vibe.

as far as kremy goes, we all know just how attached he is to gideon, platonic or otherwise. and in his memory we learned he left his family fairly young, and other than passing through i dont think he’s ever really gone back home for visits. he has fond memories of meemaw as she taught him his culinary skills, but he doesnt speak much more on it. he has a lot more trust in gideon given the nature of their relationship, running together even well before their failed carnival and before meeting gricko, frost, and torbek, so its safe to assume that he views gideon as his most trusted ally, and even family in this instance.

frost and gricko did not have inherently bad childhoods growing up, or in frost’s case, he doesnt remember the bad parts. gricko had a fairly functional family from what we can tell, despite the whole horror story surrounding uncle glorbo, but he is ALWAYS talking about his family back home. he speaks often about cousins or his mom, so it makes total sense that he sees his immediate family as his true family. he cares about the party to a degree, but perhaps he sees them as more his employer and coworkers than true found family.

frost, we have the least info about. he comes off as apathetic, but just seems more emotionally stunted than anything. being raised in a psyonic order that revolves around controlling the mind is bound to do that to someone. however, he speaks fondly of his parents in his flashback, and seemed honestly pretty upset at the thought of their eventual demise. its safe to assume that in his mind, his parents were his closest kin, and now without the added trauma of their deaths, he thinks of them now more than ever before. he probably views the party in a similar vein to gricko, as they were hired together.

(edit: this could also stem from their understanding of family too! like gricko might believe a family is your parents, your children, their siblings and children, etc. so that might explain why his dad was up there and he didnt necessarily know him. he probably just thinks ‘oh me mum and dad’ and the portraits said ‘oh shit heres your absentee father then’)

this is only my understanding tho! avantrisblr, please correct me if im wrong on any assumptions.

OUaW ep 55 spoilers

Okay, so I love the paintings thing, but I have a question.

First, not the question, I love Torbek’s paintings being the whole group and that it lead to him standing up for himself more when he realized that he wasn’t part of anyone else’s. I really hope that he has an opportunity to really be angry about the way he’s been treated, he deserves at least that, and that everyone else continues to grow and treat him better and apologize.

Second, my actual question, why would Gideon and Kremy’s be limited to just each other (and Twig for Gid)? Like I get that it’s who is their close family, but like, Gricko saw his father, yet Kremy and Gideon didn’t see any of their bio family. It’s certainly not that it can only be family that’s alive, we have no idea who of Kremy’s family is alive, we know Gideon’s father is dead and can assume any other family he may have had is too, and then Twig is complicated. Frost’s parents are also dead, but he doesn’t remember that, so maybe that’s why, but then Uncle Glorbo is there? And Gricko at least thinks he’s dead, we don’t really know. Torbek’s makes perfect sense to me so I don’t really have any questions there.

I don’t expect that this will be narratively explained, but I want to know why Kremy and Gideon’s parents, possible siblings, or Kremy’s MeeMaw wouldn’t be there.