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TJ Tambellini @thisisnow-here

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XIII. The second scream

Everybody’s fucked up. Really fucked up. They just hide it well so they don’t look so broken, they don’t look so different, so they are not left alone. There is company in relating. What makes us different set us apart, leave us in a monologue that strugles between what must be and what unavoidably is.

We choose to must. ‘Must’ withdraws us from the intrinsic feeling of loneliness we all have borned with. That ingrained loneliness we all carry inside.

So, they don’t realise, they don’t realise that everyone is faking too.

Keeping that loneliness inside as if it was an unchaste secret. The same way we repulse the nudity of our bodies, same way those grimmest feelings terrify us and we cover them with diverse prepared layers for every occasion. As we know, that’s good manners.

Why do we convince ourselves we’re alone in this? I mean, we are alone.

But we are not alone in feeling lonely with this stripped off being whom with accusing look demands us to be fed.

Besides I know, I know that that thing you don’t want to tell me, I feel it too.

IfeelreallylonelytooIdon’tknowwhyidowhatidotoo.Whatfor.Ifeelavoidinsidemychestthatnomatterhowmuchitryicannotfill.I’vetriedsomanywaysandattheendtheonlythingicanfeelisthevoid.It’sonlyusthevoidandme.Ifeelverylonelytoo.Ifeelunpronounceablethingstoo.Igotosleepwishingineverwakeuptoo.Ifeellonelytoo.

Why is it, as much as I try, I cannot touch you? We don’t listen to each other. We’re so desparate to be listened to, we can’t hear the other one in their hysterical scream to be listened.

And so on. Can you hear me? Did I scream or didn’t I listen to you? Spanish version

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GEAR SHIFTN by @aircredits + sims

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All the lovely bride squad are here! They look harmonious and stylish at the same time! 😍💞 #lemotionphoto #lemotionwedding #thisisnow #liveupdate (at HI Kempinski Jakarta)

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Octover 3rd tues

Today i slept in later than anticipated. I helped clean the guest house before i left for MN. At the beginning of the trip, i stopped at dairy queen for lunch and got a chicken strip basket and large onion rings. Unfortunately, the chicken strips made me extremely sick before i could even enjoy my awesome onion rings. It was the hot flashes, cold sweats, and sudden nausea within 10mins of eating. I almost stopped to puke. ThNkfully i didnt and i deal with the feeling crappy till i got into St.louis.

Throughout my trip back, i made a voicelog of the ThisisNow concepts i needed to do for jaspers class. It was super nice sunset with the rising moon mirroring it

As dusk set in, i drove further into the storm on the horizon and watched lightning while i drove. It was freaking awesome to watch while listening to the new Gary Numan album. I made an AMAZING short vid (one min.) but its too long to upload 😐 but here is an awesome accident photo

The drive stil took 10+ hrs. When i passed MN border i aimlessly wandered around a huge truck stop restruant gift store place. I almost got lost hahhaa. It had started to mist and drizzle by the time i got the twin cities..I was glad to be home

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We in here #ATownWest #LongLiveaMalik #CelebrationofLife #ATownWest #ThisIsNow

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Who’s ready for Putri & Fahmi’s bouquet-throwing session?! Get ready cause here it comes! #lemotionphoto #lemotionwedding #thisisnow #liveupdate Vendor Mua: @marlenehariman Decor: @garda_dekorasi Lighting: @uplightpro Venue: @bidakaragrandpancoranjkt Kebaya resepsi: @merrasofficial Siger, Adat & Beskap resepsi: @gse_ekayana Photography: @lemotionphoto (at Bidakara Grand Pancoran Jakarta)

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This-Is-Now! Live from Sumba we give you a sneak-peak of Ray and Tiffany's Pre-Wedding Photo shoot. Here is one of our favorite!❤ Feel the excitement as we bring you back to the nature! 🌴🍃🌊#lemotionphoto #lemotionprewedding #sumba #preweddingphoto #fotograferjakarta #fotograferprewedding #nature #thisisnow #liveupdate (at Sumba)

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And here is the most tense yet very precious moment, where the man officially asked the father's blessing for marrying his lovely daughter and promise to take care his daughter for the rest of his life👰🏻💖 #lemotionphoto #adatpalembang #thisisnow #liveupdates

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Mother ー pretty bride-to-be ー mother in law🌷 The three women standing here are just so...indescribeable beautiful💖 #lemotionphoto #weddingphotographer #pernikahanadatjawa #thisisnow #liveupdates

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Let love be the focal point of your daily life. May you find hope, peace, faith and love in each other’s arms. Congratulation for the wedding @diba.saleh & @dechan08 ❤ Here are our same day edit video from Iksan & Diba's wedding 💕 #lemotionphoto #lemotionvideo #thisisnow #liveupdate (at Hotel Bidakara, Pancoran Jkt.Selatan)

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May your love story be as magical and charming as in fairy tales! Congratulations on the wedding! Here our same day edit for @evasoewignyo & @ardiyusuframadhan Makeup : @upanduvan Paes & Adat : @naninazeh Kebaya : @myrnamyura Decoration : @azkaanggunart Wedding Organizer : @royal_kenzie Venue : @royalkuningan Photo & Video : @lemotionphoto #lemotionphoto #liveupdate #thisisnow (at Royal Kuningan Hotel Jakarta)