#this was posted like 4 seconds ago but i don’t care!!! it’s interesting!!!!

[yingxtkm]

Did anyone let you yap on the ask game?? IF NOT I AM HERE!! For Sephiroth!

1. Do you project onto this character?

2. Did you always like this character?

3. What first drew you to this character?

4. Did you initially dislike/hate this character?

Unfortunately no HAHAHA but I kinda expected it since I kinda don’t interact with the community that much until recently even then it’s still pretty minimal /sweats

But thanks for sending the ask hehe 💖💖

1) Uhh not that I know of?? I usually don’t really project on charas in general for some reason, even if they’re considered comfort characters oddly enough.

2) Surprisingly, no. Explanation: Question 3

3) Ironically, when I first got into ff7 I adored Cloud, (not that I don’t even now but he’s kind of in the background for me being a grump as usual), Sephiroth didn’t really interest me bc I personally already dislike toxic/possessive tropes so Post Nibel Seph was a huge turn off for me (surprise, I don’t care for sefikura LMAO) and he just existed as that pretty villain I can just admire from afar but all my attention was on Cloud being a stupid dork with Aerith and Avalanche.

Now, it became a different story when I found out about Pre Nibel Seph. I’ve always been a sucker for gap moe and just really closed off characters that seem untouchable on the outside but in reality they’re very vulnerable and gentle/soft. That human aspect of him wanting to fit in but never being able to bc of his upbringing really clicked for me and I was like wow, ok I actually really love this character before he went batshit insane and decided yeah man fuck the Planet, it’s gonna go kaboom and I get to be with my not mommy forever! Tldr: Sad wet cat Sephiroth lives in my head rent free now

Fun fact: I actually found a poster of Pre Nibel Seph at a convention a few years ago and immediately bought it without a second thought lmao (**image down below)😭😭

4) No, uhhhhh I’m that kind of person that doesn’t get really insanely passionate over whether I love or hate a character, it floats between I simply don’t care about them or I ignore them if they don’t interest me, so when I first got into FF7 he was kinda just. There. That is until Pre Nibel Seph decided to kick down the door and say surprise motherfucker 😂😂

Wow ok that’s a lot. Thanks for listening to my TED talk LOL

[louisisalarrie]

Harry’s lyric “I’m well aware I write too many songs about you” is the biggest Larry proof out there. If you think he’s written that about his past “girlfriends” who he spent a year to the day or less with, you don’t know him at all

I agree, it’s a major piece to the puzzle. If he was still writing songs about someone he loved, long term beautiful romantic songs, he wouldn’t be parading with a new girl every second day. It’s clear so many of those songs are about louis.

I particularly like the “I know that you’re scared because hearts get broken, I know that you’re scared because I’m so open” from Golden because I think that is so larry coded (and so many more lyrics for this song but I tend to not dig into song analysis on here). But relation to those specific lyrics, Harry is extremely open with dancing with flags, being ambiguous about his sexuality, saying cheeky very not straight things on stage, wearing very non masculine outfits, and I think it’s a comment about louis being more scared about coming out than H. I mean, it’s a massive deal to come out in this industry, particularly in their positions with their history,but Harry is 3/4 of the way there and has been for a while now. And louis might be a little more frightened bc of his stunts, image, etc., he hasn’t kind of stepped away from that image as much as Harry has. Not to say louis isn’t fighting to come out, whatsoever, but it’s a very strong lyric and that’s how I take it. Anyway, that’s probably been talked about and analysed a bunch. But yeah, that’s definitely one of my fave lines.

I actually saw a theory not too long ago that Harry wrote Chicago for louis, too. Like… ages ago. Not recently. And the lyrics would kind of line up on that situation with bbg. And if you think about it, you can definitely see the story. Not sure how much I agree with that theory as it’s a bit far fetched, but was interesting. Idk.

And I know a multitude of Harry’s love songs are in fact a little on the heartbroken/sad side, but there are many that are uplifting and full of hope. Golden is the perfect example of that, in my opinion. It’s about fighting hard for it. And like “loving you’s the antidote”?????? Come on hahahaha.

But re Falling, yes, hugely larry coded. Like Harry asking who he is now that he’s solo with a huge image shift, and is it truly him? What if he’s someone louis cares about and deeply misses, but Harry gets the feeling he won’t need him because louis is embarking on his own journey and again, im sure there are deeper and better posts about this song, but yeah. Idk. Harry’s house certainly sounded more hopeful and a bit less depressing, for the most part hehe. I think things are fine between them, truly.

Anyway this turned into something entirely off topic now sorry about that hahahah but yes, I agree with you! Those lyrics scream to me that it’s about someone long term. I wrote a similar lyric years ago about one person, and so it’s truly powerful and resonates a lot.

[waterfire1848]

1, 4, and 19 for the Fun meta asks please!

Hello @stardust948 !!!

Tell us about your current project(s) - What's it about, how's progress, what do you love most about it?

Hopefully I get all of my WIPS!

Dragons In The Lake - Azula and Zuko wind up in BSS when they’re very young (4 and 6) and Long Feng decides to kidnap them and hold them in Lake Laogai. Flash forward 10 years later, when the Gaang arrive looking for Appa and find both him and two dragon firebenders - I have two chapters left but for some reason I'm struggling to write them - I really love getting to write Azula and Zuko in this new dynamic as they are much closer here and this is a fic where they don't need a redemption because they were never raised (that much) on FN propaganda

Here's The Deal - Sokka arrives in a small Fire Nation village in the hopes of getting some shelter from a storm and some time to relax. He's shocked to discover not only that Azula is in the same village but also that there's a blue dragon with very familiar golden eyes living in the forest - I'm done. Just posting chapters now and doing some light editing - I love the Sokkla fluff so much!

I Had the Best Day With You - Foster kids Zuko and Azula are taken in by Kya and Hakoda and brought to live with them and their children, Katara and Sokka. The family goes through many ups and downs while trying to accept one another - 47% complete. I'd like to write another 3 or 4 chapters before I publish anything though - @ilikepjo24 came up with this idea and my favorite thing is actually a spoiler but it involves an Azula & Hakoda and Azula & Kya moment.

When World's Collide - Mermaid!Azula is taken by captors to a sea park where she meets Katara and the two begin a friendship that turns into a romance - .09%. I really need to start making progress on this thing for Mermay - I like being able to create this world that Azula's from. In the story she's a warrior and that's actually part of the reason she's captured in the first place.

My Baby, My Baby - After the events of The Beach, Zuko goes to talk to Azula about what she said. When she brushes him off, Zuko thinks nothing of it and heads to bed. The next morning, he's woken up by Mai shaking him away and Ty Lee holding a toddler - Have hardly started because two days ago I decided to completely change when this story takes place to make it shorter - Easily writing baby!Azula. Plus writing Zuko & Azula having a good relationship is always fun

Lightning Swap - During The Avatar State, Azula and Iroh accidentally swap bodies and are forced to try and find one another and find a way to swap back - I've written....some. I'm in the middle of a writers block for this fic actually because it was originally a oneshot but I have no idea what else to write for it - Body swapping shenanigans are always fun.

4. Share a sentence or paragraph from your writing that you're really proud of (explain why, if you like)

“Oh!” Sokka’s eyes suddenly went dark, “Azula, if you even think of going anywhere near that dragon-“

“Might be a bit difficult.”

“I’m not kidding.” A small part of Azula could admit that Sokka’s voice did scare her a little. She’d never heard him sound this serious. Even when he yelled at her during the invasion, he wasn’t this scary. Maybe that was because he had the Avatar and Toph behind him, so he didn’t feel the need to be at 100%. The two powerful benders behind him could do the heavy lifting. Or maybe it was because at the time he was just angry and yelling and Azula knew that he didn’t mean any of his empty threats. 

“I don’t think you are, but I do think you’ll be interested in what I have to say.” Azula removed her coat, being careful not to hurt the fabric that was so nicely wrapped around her arm.

The second Sokka saw his fabric on Azula’s arm, his eyes grew. He looked between her and the fabric again and again and again.

“You’ll get it in a moment.” Azula promised, smirking at how dumbfounded he looked.

“YOU’RE THE DRAGON!?!”

From chapter 2 of Here's The Deal. I like Sokka being protective over Azula even when he doesn't know it's Azula.

19. Is there something you always find yourself repeating in your writing? (favorite verb, something you describe 'too often', trope you can't get enough of?)

Probably the word but and said. I feel like almost every other sentence I write had the word but in it. While every time someone talks I have to stop myself from just writing "blank said"

[rosyandraw]

Hi sweetie, same anon who asked about your future projects a few weeks ago (more specifically, 17 lol) I was supposed to send you this message when I finished the nmfy chapter but life has been kicking my ass, sorry for the delay. I loved the nmfy ending, so sweet, I love them so much! You wrote them so well, I'm so happy you were able to give them a happy ending, they deserve it.

Okay, now back to future projects (the topic in the last ask I sent), I'm obviously interested in your 2-page trigger warning project, like is it really two pages? Is it something related to more underworld themes (like mafia, prostitution, etc.) or more personal themes (like mental health and everyday life)? The fic literally hasn't even come out and I'm already dying to ask more about it lol.

Out of the 7 you mentioned (in the post), which one has the best chance of being published first? I confess that the first 4 interested me the most, because they are modern au and focus on Damen and Laurent (personally I can only like them as a couple, any other couple doesn't really appeal to me sorry :(( ).

Anyway, take your time and do everything with care and love. I admire you infinitely as an author and I am very excited to follow your future projects.

stay safe! <3

Hey lovely!

Not a problem at all hun, I am rarely on tumblr anyway haha, it’s so nice of you to pop back over though! I’m so glad you enjoyed the end of NMFY, it certainly was a long time coming from little old me, apologies

Hahaha soooo yes, it is that long! And it’s a bit of both tbh, it’s focused mostly around more personal themes (Mental Health, Hypersexuality, trauma) with quite a few darker themes such as trafficking and prostitution. It’s not a happy fic and just like in NMFY no one is an angel. Like, at all.

As I said it’s an infidelity fic so it does feature Damen/Erasmus (who is being cheated on) and Laurent/Others. It’s Laurent POV so you don’t get much D/E and all of Laurent’s scenes with people other than Damen are either throw away comments or there is something else happening that’s the focus of the scene. Those scenes aren’t given the same gratuitous graphic smut scenes Damen/Laurent get from me.

Again, I’m aware it absolutely will not be for everyone.

The kink tags alone will make sure of that because there is a lot of (17 and counting atm) unconventional kinks involved and it’s not RACK.

It’s a love story, but it’s not lovely and first and foremost it’s about Laurent’s relationship with himself.

And nah hun I get it, I will only ever write Damen/Laurent as a couple, I literally can’t ship Laurent with anyone else, Damen I can be a lil more flexible with but in that specific fic I mentioned it’s basically a FWB thing with Auguste who he met first and then he met Laurent, it’s weirdly more of a romcom than anything else? Idk haha

The Roman one will be first, literally in the next day or two, the coming (literal) of age masquerade party will be second I think. The long fic I’m gonna finish before I post so as to avoid the same issue I had with NMFY haha

Thanks my lovely, I appreciate you, I hope you have a lovely day/night/week 💕💕

[xxskycrystalxx]

Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 3 Thoughts [heavy spoilers below]

not in any particular order, just my thoughts mushed in one post ;)

1. Gotg Vol. 3 was an emotional rollercoaster. I cried and laughed a lot. I did more crying though ;)

2. The guardians are my comfort family. It’s sad to think that we’ll never see them again like this anymore but at the same time, nothing is impossible. I’m also quite interested in seeing the “new” guardian team in action as well.

3. It really seems like Marvel really hates me and my ships in the MCU. First pepperony, palmerstrange, then fosterson, and now starmora? Ok. Ok. I see how it is. I love how they feed us with the romances + the crumbs, and then end them like it was nothing 🫠

4. I don’t know what to think about Adam Warlock. I thought they’d do more with his character but he ended up being a sort of comic relief and that was all.  Although perhaps being in the new guardians team and showing up in other movies/shows could change that.

5. Rocket’s backstory was heartwrenching and really had me bawling almost the entire movie. The guardians doing everything they can to save him, like this is the found family I love so much. Not to mention how Peter was crying over Rocket when he was dying like why the additional emotional damage? PAY FOR MY THERAPY MARVEL

- Rocket & Lylla were so damn adorable and I literally gasped out loud when THAT* happened. Rocket, Lylla, Teefs, and Floor were just 😩💕 They all deserved sm better.

6. The many times Peter mentioned that Rocket was his best friend was just so sweet and made me “aww” a lot while clutching my heart and breaking down. Then there’s Drax: “second best friend.” HAHAHAHA 😂😂😂

7. NATHAN FILLIONNNNNNNNNNN (cue my Castle binge a few months ago and having a total nathan fillion/castle phase)

8. Gamora & Nebula’s way of communicating with grunts has me rolling on the floor but also it’s soooooo like them too.

9. The High Evolutionary. Tbf, idk how to really feel about him as the antagonist/villain in the movie. I despised what he did to Rocket and everyone else but other than that I didn’t really care about him. When Rocket took off his mask though and we see what he looked like underneath it? Ick. The one right thing he did was wearing it LMAO

10. THE AMONG US SPACESUITS HAHA

11. Kraglin finally coming in clutch with Yondu’s arrow. I miss Yondu ;;-;; and Krgalin with Cosmo. Cosmo is a good dog <3

12. “You were everything to me.” “I bet we were fun // Like you wouldn’t believe it.” Catch me sobbing till the end of time. My clown a** really thought I’d get my endgame, as if I never learned from my other ships 🤡 Granted, I think they left their relationship on the more open side by the end of the movie, a possibility that could happen in the future, so I won’t be give up. Ever. Because 2014 Gamora, by the end, can acknowledge and perhaps see why Peter and 2018 Gamora were in love. She even said “we,” and I think that’s enough hope for me as is. Including how they were standing back-to-back, the way it was filmed. In general, Chris & Zoe have rlly good chemistry (petition to have them be in a rom-com together). And although I was a bit disappointed with the way things were left out and what wasn’t done, I can see why it’s like that. Doesn’t make it feel much better though. 😭 One day, I’ll write up all the reasons why I love Starmora and how I never recovered and will never forgive them for what happened to Gamora in Infinity War. Other than that... live laugh love Starmora, my precious star-crossed lovers who deserved better. 😃❤️ 

+

“what were you programming?” “self destruction code” and then proceeds to stare at each other while smiling. I. AM. NOT. OK.

13. I LIVED for the Nebula + Drax + Mantis dynamic in the movie. We love you Drax, even if you’re invisible sometimes + love the way Mantis was arguing with Nebula and being like “I love Drax even though he’s stupid” LOL 😂 and Nebula saying that Drax is not the destroyer but meant to be a father. I shed tears. Also, Nebula crying when she knew Rocket was ok 🥲

14. Peter yeeting that guy out of the ship was hilarious af but such peak Quill behavior, and the way he and Groot tag-teamed was just 😘🤌

15. The only thing that I disliked about the movie was not the movie itself but the soundtrack. Nothing beats the first movie’s soundtrack. The second had a few that I liked but with the third movie.... there really weren’t any until they brought back ‘Come and Get Your Love’ at the end. Iconic really, how the movies started with it and ended with it.

16. “I love you guys.” When I tell ya’ll I lost it when Groot said that. 

17. “The legendary Star-Lord will return.” WHAT DOES THAT MEAN???? ARE WE GETTING A SOLO STAR-LORD SERIES OR MOVIE???? It would be amazing if he did, he’s literally my second favorite character in the MCU. I literally broke down seeing him floating in space like that, bout to end it all if they killed him off but thankfully they didn’t 😊 Give mah boi some more love ❤️

also

GIMME ANOTHER GUARDIANS MOVIE BECAUSE I NEED MY FOUND FAMILY BACK ASAP 

18. I miss them all sm and I just literally finished the movie a few hours ago. Someone send help.

19. Thank you Marvel, for the 100th time, for not killing any of the guardians off. I haven’t been this grateful to Marvel since like ever. When promotions for the movie were coming, there were so many “dropped” hints of one or two of the guardians dying in the movie, like the red flags were everywhere. But no, they did the opposite and I’m forever thankful <333

Overall, it was an A M A Z I N G movie. GOTG movies never disappoint me, they’re my second favorite movie trilogy in the MCU for a reason (besides the Iron Man movies ofc). I think the movie was able to do a send-off of all the characters very well by the end, with essentially all their storylines wrapped up in a quite wholesome and hopeful ending. Despite them not being in a team in official capacity anymore, it doesn’t mean it can’t happen sometime in the future. Never lose hope. The whole cast and James Gunn were amazing and really made the movies and characters what they are. I have plenty more to say, but for now this is it. 

"You Said It Yourself, B****. We're The Guardians Of The Galaxy."

[buddys-ramblings]

I’m just gonna name some of the things I’m interested in, hopefully to prevent the posts over here getting too stale

Key:

Red = hyperfixation

Orange = knowledgeable interest

Green = regular interest

Blue = non-knowledgeable interest

Object Shows - Love these things to death. I even have my own (hypothetical) one. Just, no spoilers for any non-BFDI, non-II, non-ONE shows, please.

Smash Bros. - How fast the hours I have on this game went from 20 to 180 should tell you something.

Nintendo in general - I love Nintendo. I always have and I probably always will.

Worldbuilding - I’ve been doing this in such a specific way for so long that I just feel kind of empty without a world in my head. Hopefully at least one of mine can become an actual piece of media. Though, I have my other blog for this, so don’t expect too much of it over here.

Writing - As in, creating fictional stories. Any other kind of writing is 👎 in my opinion. And my creative writing is kind of garbage, so don’t expect me to make it public and tell you about it anytime soon.

Pokémon - Ah, yes, the longest of Buddy’s known hyperfixations at four years straight, five years total. How much I care for the electric rat varies from day to day, but I’m pretty sure I’ll always like the franchise.

The Legend of Zelda - Or more specifically, the Breath of the Wild subseries. I beat BOTW in four months, which is a record time for me. I’ve beat the Wind, Water, and Lightning Temples in Tears of the Kingdom, but nothing beyond that, so no spoilers, please.

My Singing Monsters - Ah, yes, the fourth longest of Buddy’s hyperfixations, at 16 months. Though I’m not hyperfixated on it anymore, I still try to log in every day and the occasional song gets stuck in my head.

Plushies - I like the idea of owning plushies, but I feel like I’m wasting money on them because I never do anything with them.

Bugsnax - I really like this game, I totally recommend it if you’ve got a spare 30 bucks.

Minecraft - Ah, yes, the third longest of Buddy’s interests at two years. I like Minecraft and everything, but I kinda stopped keeping track of updates around after the Nether Update. Remember when Update Aquatic was the new cool thing? Good times.

SCP Foundation - I used to be annoyingly obsessed with this fictional organization a few years ago, but now I’m less interested. I’m trying to get back into it, though.

Digimon - Ah, yes, the second longest of Buddy’s hyperfixations at three years straight, four years total. As much as I love this franchise, I’ll be the first to admit that I know nothing about it. I only finished the first season of the anime (which I don’t remember because it was years ago) I watched and thoroughly enjoyed, but didn’t finish, seasons two and three, and I lost interest in season four when I saw that the Digi-Destined didn’t get partner Digimon. I also finished Fusion (which I also don’t remember because it was more years ago).

Splatoon - I’ve only ever played the smallest amount of Splatoon 1, but I’m hoping to rectify that this September. Hopefully there’s just as much, if not more time in between Splatoon 3 and 4 than there was between 2 and 3.

Fire Emblem - I started gaining interest when I realized that I knew literally nothing about Fire Emblem, especially compared to the other 1st party Nintendo games. I’m specifically interested in the 3DS games and more specifically in Fates; yes, that Fire Emblem Fates. The one with Corrin in it. The anime swordsman that nobody likes.

[chairofchaos]

AO3 Chaos

I invite anyone who is interested to 1) Respond to these questions and 2) TELL ME WHAT YOUR AO3 IS SO I CAN FIND YOU THERE!

Thank you @c-starstuff-man0 for the tag! (I think someone else also tagged me but I could not find it- so thank you to you, as well, whoever you are!)

1. How many works do you have on AO3? I currently have 7 works up on AO3.

2. What's your total AO3 word count? 26,150. (That will easily double when I start posting Letters of Love, since LoL is already about 40,000 words. Oops!)

3. What fandoms do you write for? On AO3, currently only ACOTAR and Crescent City (so, SJM Universe stuff)

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos? (I linked my AO3 at the bottom if you want to go check any of these out!)

The Power of Jewelry (Azris, fluff)

When the Blood Burns (Azris, angst/MCD stuff)

Stormy Night in the Library (Azriel x Reader, fluff)

Death & All That Follows (Azris, definitely angst at this point). This is hilarious because it’s only half done and I’m not sure I like the ending I’ve written, which means it could go happy or sad and I don’t know how to feel about that.

Even In the Dark (Cassian x Reader, hurt/comfort and kind of fluffy) I won’t lie I had to revisit this one to remember what it was lol

5. Do you respond to comments? Yes, and I’m mean about it. Sorry to anyone who has been on the receiving end of a teasing chaos comment. I maybe have too much fun dangling teasers like carrots on a stick...

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? Hahahha. Uh. Probably When the Blood Burns. For now, anyways.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? (Do I write happy endings?) Stormy Night in the Library takes my vote for this, though Say It’s True (Mor x Emerie) is also cute and ends happily. I love them. 

8. Do you write smut? Yes. There are some smutty elements to things I have posted. I haven’t written anything specifically for smut though.

9. Do you write crossovers? Nothing that’s posted.

10. Have you ever had a fic translated? Nope.

11. Have you ever co-written a fic before? Uh… not on AO3! (But if you want to check out the Gold Star Crack Headcanons @ninthcircleofprythian and I wrote a little bit ago here they are!)

12. What is your all-time favorite ship? Please. Please don’t hate me. I’ve been on a Dramione train for years now. I know it’s controversial. I can’t get them out of my head.

13. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? Would it be bad if I said “Letters of Love”? No. I want to finish it so badly. I do. I’m just scared. I’m working on it, I swear. It just feels monstrous at this point. 

In actuality, I think it’s the crossover that I’m working on. It’s a Throne of Glass/ACOTAR/Crescent City monstrosity that would be roughly 400 9x11 pages long, 12 pt font single spaced with formatting. It started as a romance, morphed into a second-gen TOG x ACOTAR throuple adventure and political drama. Now I just don’t know what to do with it because the universe I’ve imagined for this is so insane and I cannot do it justice.

14. What are your writing strengths? I write with my whole heart, and I care about every word. I’ve been practicing for years.

15. What are your writing weaknesses? Mental illness. Procrastination. Writing 10k in 24 hours and then never finishing that work. I overthink everything. Next question. Please.

16. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? I love it. However, I much prefer it when it’s canon that the character speaks another language. I feel awkward prescribing languages to characters unless it’s some sort of AU. I read an incredible Azris AU (linked HERE, check the tags please, written by the wonderful @annaskareninas for Azris Week) where Eris is Italian, and it worked beautifully because it was an AU! But if I was writing in universe, I would have a harder time making Eris speak Italian because for all we know they’re speaking Fae Language We Don't Have a Name For and Italian doesn’t exist in the universe. It’s a mental block for me. I don't mind reading it though!

17. First fandom you wrote for? …Harry Potter. It was 2011, okay?! However, the first I ever POSTED was Percy Jackson. Don't ask me where they ended up, it was a long time ago and those secrets were lost to the sea

18. Favorite fic you’ve written? When the Blood Burns. It hurts just right.

Tags (no pressure!): @positivelyruined @annaskareninas @ ANYONE WHO WANTS TO DO THIS! Also, let me know what your AO3 is in replies or reblogs. I need to follow more of you over there <3

My AO3 is keyboard_clacks, or chairofchaos. I post and respond to comments under both pseuds! Find Me Here!

[tangsvem]

Hey so uh

Sheriffs Pet is being deleted off of ao3. This is something Tangs Anzy and I decided on as we don’t want to go through making a new acc and reposting it there. SOOOOO ch 1 is being posted here entirely for those who want to revisit it. This deletion is also due to more personal reasons that we won’t fully get into.

Incredibly sorry for this. This account will still remain but update rarely as Sheriffs Pet motivation has been lost and we have left the hermit and empires fandom due to lost of interest

A man walks into Tumble Town's local tavern and approaches the bartender.

“One glass of water and a beer please.”

The woman working the bar nods and gets to work on his order. The man lets out a hum as he patiently taps his fingers on the counter waiting for his client, or well business partner.

Soon the drinks arrive just as the sheriff walks in the tavern. The sheriff is a man the town respects deeply, he’s the one to help them with a corrupt mayor years back. They all know he has had dealings with a certain band of people recently, he had been expressing his want for a pet, someone who will behave for him and do as he wants whenever.

The man smirks as he sees the sheriff walk in and waves the blonde over.

“Sheriff Jimmy, it’s good to see you old sport. I assume you’re here about our little deal?” The man asks as he drinks his water. Jimmy nods while sitting down.

“So how is he? Is he ready to come home? I’m excited for my first pet.” He says this with a dark tone, his eyes lighting up in delight but have dark intentions in them. He can barely contain his excitement.

The man nods. “He’s ready to be sold. But be careful he is very skittish due to what hybrid he is. Blazes are not pets that people usually get as their first pet due to how skittish and short tempered they are.” He says while giving the avian a curious look.

Jimmy scowls as he looks at the seller. “Just tell me where I can get him and then we can be down here Alec.” His tone slips into one showing he will not hesitate to end the man, Alec, in a split second. Alec takes a sip of water trying to act calm even if he’s panicked at Jimmy’s change in personality.

“Tonight at the edge of Tumble Town, near the old gunpowder farm. You’ll see a coworker of mine there.” Alec says as he gets up to leave. Jimmy quickly stops him.

“What’s the pets name?” Jimmy asks already planning on what he can do to make his pet obey him yet feel welcomed.

“Tango, TangoTek.” Alec says as he leaves the tavern.

Jimmy smirks, his eyes gaining a possessive look to them.

“Tango. What an interesting name. I like it.”

Jimmy looks towards the barkeep and smiles. “Just a single beer for me Maxe.” The barkeep, Maxe, nods as they go to get Jimmy his drink.

The tavern is lively as ever on the last day of the Spring season. Jimmy can hear the chatter of the townsfolk and even frequent visitors to Tumble Town chatting and drinking.

He smiles and thinks back to four months prior when he heard of Alec and his job. That night was similar to the current mood of the tavern.

Now that was a fun time.

~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_

4 months ago.

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Jimmy walks into the tavern with a tired look. Bags are very clear on his eyes from what’s been keeping him up recently.

When he enters the twin bar keepers on duty, Atlas and Alatus, wave hello to the tired sheriff. Atlas walks off to the back knowing what the Sheriff wants when it sees the tired look.

Jimmy sits down and Alatus shoots him a grin.

“Any leads?” They question while cleaning some mugs. Jimmy shakes his head and lets out a tired groan.

“Those fucking bandits, this is the fifteenth time this month. How the hell does Madison and her gang do it? They’ve managed to evade me and even my dad when he was in charge.”

The avian looks like he’s going to continue but just groans in annoyance at how the only local bandits have evaded him and the old sheriff.

Alatus looks at Jimmy with pity in their eyes. This isn’t the first time he’s come in to get shit faced drunk due to the situation going on.

While Jimmy has his head down and grumbles about Madison and her gang, Atlas returns with his drink.

It slides the beverage towards Jimmy, who immediately takes a sip of it once he sees it.

Altas shoots its sibling a confused look which Alatus returns with a look.

“Ya know, I know a guy who is in a business that’ll get you something to de stress with.” Atlas begins and catches Jimmy’s attention.

“Oh? Tell me.” He looks at Atlas with curiosity in his eyes.

It lets a sly smile appear on its face.

“His name is Alec, and he sells hybrids as pets. They are obedient little things, know some people who have ‘em and say they are a great help to destress. They’ll do whatever you want ‘em to once ya break ‘em.” It explains to Jimmy.

The more he hears it explain the more he smiles, a dark look appears in Jimmy’s eyes.

Alatus scoffs at something that makes Jimmy snap out of whatever trance he was in. He turns around in his seat to see a fight break.

“Fifth one tonight. Wait, is that Engi and Nov fighting?! Holy shit.” Their mood shifts from annoyed to surprised upon seeing who the fighters were.

Jimmy watches with a glint in his eye as the two frost element users brawl.

Engi throws a punch towards Nov. The frost blaze managed to dodge and hit the mage in retaliation. This goes on for a while until both are bloodied and look like they are about to pass out. Jimmy decides he should step in seeing how Nov was starting to make the tavern freeze.

He gets up and walks over.

“Novem! Calm yourself, you're making this place freeze.” He snaps towards the frost blaze, he gets a snarl in response but Hels grabs his friend and drags him away before Nov attacks Jimmy.

The sound of drunken giggling from where Engi is is heard by Jimmy. He looks over towards Engi with the same annoyed and pissed off look.

“Don’t think you’re safe, Engineer. You are as guilty as the blacksmith is.” He says glaring at Engi. This makes the raccoon hybrid shut his trap, nobody likes a pissed off sheriff.

Engi is dragged away by one of his friends.

Jimmy shoots a glare in both directions, a dark look in his eyes that isn’t supposed to be there evident.

He walks on over to where he was before and downs his beer in an instant. He gives the twins a look which they understand immediately. Atlas goes to the back once more to grab what Jimmy wants.

Alatus looks over Jimmy’s shoulder at the damage. “Damn, they froze the floor. We just had this place remodeled and the first night open again?! We had a fight and the floors were ruined.” They saw in an exasperated voice. Jimmy looks over and sees that the whole floor is frozen over, the downside to bar fights between those with an element it seems.

“It’ll defrost. Nothing bad is going to happen.” He says taking a sip of the drink Atlas brought out for Jimmy.

Alatus glares at the sheriff with a look asking if he’s being serious. Jimmy just raises a brow.

“You fucking-“ Alatus is quickly cut off by Atlas. They give a glare towards their sibling before walking away to serve more customers who’ve come in.

“Good call. Wouldn’t want Al to end up hurt. They should know by now where they stand here.” Jimmy says, continuing to sip his drink.

Atlas sighs and walks away to help Alatus serve customers.

Jimmy continues to drink and order some more drinks when he finishes his current one. The sound of the bar becomes a buzz in the background as he thinks on what Atlas said earlier.

‘A man who sells hybrids into slavery as pets…Interesting…interesting indeed. Wonder if I can get one for myself.’

He thinks as he drinks. Soon he feels the effect of the alcohol hit him.

Jimmy clumsily gets up and pays for his drinks. He has enough sense left to realize it’s late and he has a job to do.

He slowly and clumsily walks out of the tavern. You can smell the scent of alcohol on him from a mile away.

A drunk sheriff was a dangerous sheriff.

He’s halfway to his house when he blacks out.

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Current time, hours after Alec and Jimmy’s conversation

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Jimmy walks to the place where he is to meet the man who sells the hybrids.

He tries to remain calm but can’t help but feel nervous.

‘What if he notices I myself am a hybrid?!’ He wonders the whole walk to the meeting point.

This runs through his mind up until the moment he gets to the place. It’s a small closed off area of Tumble Town, one that hasn’t been lived in for many years.

He approaches a figure dressed in an outfit not meant for the harsh heat from the hottest month of the year here in the mesa.

Just the aura of this man infront of Jimmy sends his instincts into override on the need to run. But he has a goal.

He needs to finish the deal and get his hybrid pet finally after all these months.

As he finally gets close enough, Jimmy clears his throat, catching the man’s attention.

“I assume you’re Morris Jojan correct? Alec’s coworker ?” He questions earning a hum from the man, Morris.

“Indeed I am. And you must be the Sheriff. Correct?” Morris says examining Jimmy as if he’s looking for something.

“Interesting, very interesting to see you here. Thought you followed the law and did not deal in illegal activities such as this? Honestly didn’t believe old Al that you of all people bought a pet.” He is curious as to why the sheriff, a man whom follows the law and the goddess of law, would partake in buying a hybrid as a pet.

Jimmy clears his throat, noticing Morris zone out as if he’s thinking.

“That is not of your concern. I am here to buy a pet. Now,” he pauses as he walks over to the seller towering over the man as he continues “are you capable of selling me a pet or are you a incompetent man who believes any rumor of how the sheriff is thought to act and will refuse his service to a customer?” He says in a tone that makes it clear he isn’t planning on being here long, just enough time to make the purchase and wait for his pet to be brought to him.

As if sensing the sheriff's growing annoyance, Morris reveals a cage covered with a cloth. The cage looks like it could fit a big dog and possibly a hybrid or normal player if they were small enough.

Jimmy’s eyes light up as it would take an idiot to not know what’s inside.

“Had to sedate him. Bastard put up a fight when getting him in here. But overall he’s docile and an obedient bitch.” Morris says as Jimmy slowly crouches in front of the cage grinning like a maniac.

“Doesn’t sound docile if he puts up a fight.” Jimmy remarks as he raises the cloth abit to see the man in the cage

‘Oh he’s perfect ~’

Inside the cage, seemingly out of it, is a Blazeborn. Only thing that’s making Jimmy pissed is the obvious signs of malnourishment, but his “business partner” doesn’t need to know how pissed he is at the sight of the pet.

“They all do this when we put them in the cage to be sold. Should have seen the data hopper when that guy was sold. Had to be sedated heavily. But hey he gave quite a bit of gold from that king.” Morris says, foot tapping the ground impatiently.

“Now, Sheriff Solidarity shall we discuss how much gold?” Morris says this with a greedy grin forming on his face.

“150 gold.”

This catches Morris off guard.

Interesting.

“Oh? That much for a Blazeborn? Are you sure.” He asks, failing at hiding the look of greed growing in his eyes.

“I’m sure.” Jimmy says while standing up and pulling out a pouch with the gold.

He hands it over and watches as the seller counts the gold.

After a few moments Morris gives a satisfied nod.

“All accounted for. You’ll be needing to see Alec at a later date.” Morris gets a confused look from the Sheriff.

“Look I only sell and report back.” He raises is hands in mock defense as Jimmy glares at him.

“I’ll keep that in mind.” Jimmy picks up the cage, surprised by how light it is for a metal cage holding a (malnourished) full grown Blazeborn.

The two men part ways with a quick goodbye.

Now all Jimmy needs to do is get home before sunrise. Maybe the twins are willing to help him get his new pet home.

[obscurushydrae]

Rules of Play

Please at least give it a read! Liking this post also means it’s more likely I will follow back, as I know you have RAU’d.

Updated 08/19/2024

ABOUT:

Kar/Karmun/Karthonic either-or. If you'd rather separate mun/muse you can use my middle name, Asher to refer to me.

They/Them is cool.

From New York, so the timezone is EST.

Birthday’s January 1990, so 30+

Spoonie with AuDHD

Artist, and educator, so I can get busy. I commute, so I'm on the train for a few hours a day as well and can be sporadic activity wise.

On mobile most of the time.

I left the Tumblr RPC 4 years ago so forgive me as I catch up with the new etiquette, etc.

Personal blog @karthonic.

Sci-Fi Muse: @stellevatum

ARK AU: @sidisaspecto & @hln-4

GENERAL:

Above all else: Be Excellent to each other and party on, dudes!

First and foremost: my activity is sporadic. I refuse to let myself be like I was when I left the RPC in 2019. I may queue a lot of shit. I may go into a black hole for a few weeks or months. I may forget threads or lose them. It doesn't mean I don't care-- I am here to have fun and not get stressed over things.

If you ever want to reach out-- all my blogs and personal are listed above, and my discord is on request to mutuals, even though I'm just as much a cryptid on there as well.

Lurking for a bit before reaching out is fine, but I would like genuinely interested folks. Optional but I have an Interest Tracker for organization purposes.

Communication is key. My muse might be intimidating, but I'm not-- just very busy and on mobile more often than not. Don’t know something, or want me to elaborate: ask! I forgot a reply or not feeling a thing anymore, lemme know. I'm good. I like get to know the people I write with, it makes me plot things better.

This incarnation Kar is for Contemporary Supernatural/Fantasy/Mythology like verses. You can find the Og/Sci-Fi flavored Kar at @stellevatum.

While she's BPRD based,  don’t sweat it if you don’t know the other stuff. If your fandom/verse has a way in, I can finagle her into all sorts of place (she's literally an cosmic horror at heart).

That ‘selective’ part comes into play. I have every right to not follow someone, decline a roleplay, just as you do. Just be polite and respectful.

Crossover/AU/Multiverse/Self Insert friendly. Not your thing, then feel free to not follow.

There will be casual mentions of recreational drug use, more often than not mentions of alcohol than drugs, but will be tagged upon request. Other possible triggers are her fatalistic humor. 

This is not a content resource blog. If you’re here for the pretty pictures, aesthetics, or memes, this is not the blog for you.

Godmoding is discouraged but I’m not going to stop it. I will likely try to out ridiculous you Bugs Bunny style. Even though she can’t die, you’re free to try and kill her, but let me know first (either way she’s gonna be pissed FYI).

Most art is mine but will be credited. If I reblog any art reposted without the original creator’s permission, let me know. I’ll remove it.

FOLLOWING/UNFOLLOWING:

Please don’t follow/interact if you’re under 18. If I follow anyone underage, it’s because I wasn’t able to access any about/ooc information, please don’t take it personally if I unfollow!

If I don’t follow you and you follow me, please just hit me up before doing something. Just because I don’t follow means I’m not interested, I just don’t think our characters mesh with the information given. If we chat about it, who knows!

If I follow you or like a post but not follow, it's likely because I want to check out your rules but can't find a mobile friendly/need time to look through things, especially if it's a carrd. If you follow back, I'll message/send passwords as I don't want to overstep.

I don’t usually greet/interact with personal blogs, so side blogs off personals give me a heads up. Otherwise, I might miss you.

I may unfollow or softblock-- but that doesn't mean I am not against second chances. It usually mean either we haven't really done anything and I'm keeping my dash tidy or you never followed back so I'm taking the hint and stepping off, or you were inactive for 6+ month and I assume you abandoned the blog.

If you'd prefer I don't accidentally re-follow, you are free to hardblock. It's a bummer, but we need to what makes each of us comfortable to write. I will only hardblock if it is in your rules or if it was something serious that warrants it.

IN CHARACTER:

Compatible Fandoms (ie I am Familiar with): BPRD/Hellboy, Hades, Devil May Cry, Wolfenstein, Gravity Falls, WTNV, Obey Me!, Sandman, Good Omens, Hellsing, Persona, Durarara!!, Castlevania, Blood of Zeus, Chilling Adventures of Sabrina, Basically anything with demons/angels/gods and the like. I will interact with Hazbin Hotel/Helluva Boss muses, even though personally I don't vibe with Viv.

Kar is an ancient cosmic horror who was supposed to destroy all reality. Raised by mortals, so she thought she was. But she's also got other forms, which folks may see.

As for appearance, unless you’re really looking you might notice the fangs. And for the most part, assume she’s wearing her signature sunglasses covering her eyes since those rarely are taken off in public.

While not usually brought up, but Kar has attempted to end her life and self-harmed. Nowadays it’s usually just masked with fatalistic humor, recreational drug use, and lots of drinking. 

There will be mentions of Nazis particularly of the occult sort, so if that makes you uncomfortable please feel free to step away.

ASKS:

Askbox will only be open for IC interactions, save for when the meme specifies Mun. IMs are for OOC communication. Anon feature is for sideblogs, multimuses to interact ICly with me. Any Anon messages good or bad directed to the Mun (outside of memes) will be ignored. The Anon feature is privilege, I will revoke it for my well-being if need be.

No Magic Anons, please!

There’s no need to wait to send me a meme if you’ve followed me for 5 minutes or 5 months, send the thing.

Reblog Karma is going to be enforced on this blog. That is, if you reblog an ask meme off me, please send me one. Otherwise, reblog the meme from @karref

THREADS:

Jump on any open post, there’s no need to ask permission, they’re there for that reason!

I will be keeping my posts simple! I don't have the time/energy to make formatted posts, and I like to keep things as accessible as possible. I do try to keep track of the heavily plotted stuff, but the casual things might drop off. Feel free to remind me if it's been a bit!

Communicate! If you’re having trouble writing a reply, talk to me! If you don’t like or not feeling a thread, say so and drop the thread. That also doesn’t mean things are done for good. Come to me if you want to skip/do something else.

If you’d rather we move things to discord, just ask! I’ll set up a server just for us!

SHIPPING:

Shipping is welcomed and willing to discuss the possibility, but I leave the rest to chemistry and just how we as writers write. Kar is into male muses, and will be polite about turning other people down, unless one doesn’t take the hint.

I will only write ships with muns older than 21, but 25+ is preferred.

That being said, I will no longer tolerate stringing me along, or vague replies. Please be clear and direct. If you are interested; say so. If you are not or no longer wanting to go in that direction, tell me. Any vague or non-committal replies will be treated as disinterest and dropped.

This blog is multiship, meaning each relationship is treated as its own separate place in the multiverse unless discussed and agreed upon.

Kar can be polifidelitous. She’s okay with having multiple partners and those partners having partners if your character is cool with it. But she can be selectively monogamous in your little bubble too.

NSFW may be on here, or I might do it over discord. I'm playing it by vibes. As I don't really have any established romantic stuff since rebooting, I can't say with any certainty. Will update when I do know.

TAGGING/ HARD LIMITS:

Blood, Gore, Body Horror, Drugs, etc, will be tagged with (name); for instance drugs; . Special Tags on request.

Posts will be tagged upon request, just let me know!

If you read and understand this, I would appreciate if you'd leave a like the post, that way I know you have without forcing a password.

But if you'd like to message me, here's a DM icebreaker: What's your favorite extinct animal? (If you're lucky I may have cool fact about it.)

HOPE TO WRITE WITH YOU SOON! :D

[steddie-fanfic-recs]

Pretty Boy

by shibbi

Rating: Explicit Archive Warning: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationship: Steve Harrington/Eddie Munson Characters: Steve Harrington, Eddie Munson Additional Tags: Stranger Things 4, Post-Stranger Things 4 Vol. 2, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Alternate Universe - Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies, Gay Eddie Munson, Bisexual Steve Harrington, Smut, Shameless Smut, Porn With Plot, Porn with Feelings, Virgin Eddie Munson, because you can't convince me he's not a virgin, I don't care what anyone says, but he knows what he likes, and he has no impulse control, Steve Harrington Has a Praise Kink, Because obviously he does, Eddie Munsons hands, Blow Jobs, First Time Blow Jobs, Choking, gagging, ok that's enough now maybe, added a second chapter so adding tags, Anal Sex, Anal Fingering, Rough Sex, idk guys it's porn, what do you want from me? Words: 7,555 Chapters: 2/2

Summary

If you’d asked Eddie Munson two months ago if he knew how to read bedroom eyes, if he felt confident enough to take what he wanted regarding sex, he would have told you, unequivocally, no. But then again, if you had asked him two months ago if dream demons and a parallel dimension existed, he probably also would have said no. So here we are. ---- Or, Steve offers to let Eddie's first kiss be him and they quickly discovered their overlapping interests.

[hanibalistic]

huuuuuuuuuuuuuu. i just went down a spiral of remembering old fics i read in 2020 and i vaguely remembered one of your fics. i searched up hyunjin x reader wc on safari and prayed. i distinctly remembered how your theme looked and the gifs you used and the colors but i completely forgot your blog name until i saw Jeonginks on an old rb and i yelled out like i came across some guy i met at a bar and told all my deepest darkest secrets one night 4 years ago and never saw again on the street. like i looked for a good long second and went. IT’S YOU .

anyway i have bad memory so i don’t really remember anything you wrote just the feeling of reading your fics and having my brain chemistry altered. so when i realized your blog was deactivated and i couldn’t reread and remember whatever life changing work it was i read 4 years ago during quarantine where all i had was x reader fanfics and solitude i was lowkey highkey Devastated. until i had the bright idea to just search up jeonginks on tumblr again and scroll through posts because Maybe i’d find something

anyway! this is all to say IT’S YOU !!!

i just wanted to share bc there is little more that’s as frustrating as not being able to find something when you want to so badly and it literally being right in front of you and you Still can’t get it (like how i feel when i see smth a kpop idol wears and wanting it and not being able to find it Anywhere.) but i was able to find you in the end and now i’m feeling very happy. anyway! i will be reading ur works now thank u for still being alive and for still writing

(it's me indeed!)

hello ꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱₊˚⊹ it has been a while, hasn't it! given that my old blog was where you came from, haha.

i think less than a handful of people figured out it's me at the beginning of this blog (before i deleted jeonginks) because of the similar writing style. i assume it may be more difficult to realize that now because i have changed drastically over the years, or at least i like to think so. i'm a hanner now (literally the worst change ever!!!), and while i write relatively similarly to before, the content is still somewhat different in specific themes, i think? i'm not hiding the fact that i was jeonginks anymore, though. i think it's been long enough and like, genuinely who cares?

i hope you like whatever i have on this blog. i am going through a very slow process of rewriting my old works, mostly because i'm more interested in either not writing at all or writing new things. my current goal is to finish the historical hyunjin au i had ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁

[isawken]

haha heyyyyy jesties

this year has been rough stuff. and the problem is nothing life shattering has happened so i don’t even get to have a spectacular mental breakdown. it’s just been a lot of grind and disappointment and struggle to keep up or have any energy to do anything other than the bare minimum. to everyone who reached out to me with love or kindness or memes and waited weeks or more for a response i love you. and i’m so sorry for my total absence of personhood. i’ve never gotten a dm even if it’s just a silly post and an “i thought of you” that i didn’t like. and your patience with me is appreciated more than you know.

i have some stuff i want to work on. some hobbies i want to pick up again. some friendships i want to recultivate. some pieces of my life i want to try to rekindle. i used to have so much creative energy and impulse. did you know i used to make zines? i fuckin loved making zines. the tactile experience of cutting up thick paper and punching holes and using thread to bind em and filling it with vague thoughts and little collages and splashes of acrylic paint. that shit ruled. about a month ago i tried making one for the first time in years. i cut up some old paper and dusted off the ol' hole punch. this time instead of my usual embroidery thread i used necklace chain to bind it. i was proud of that idea. when it came time to put stuff in it i choked. i had no creative thought. i forced myself to cover the first page with orange and yellow crayola markers. but that was it. i had nothing other than that. just hasty sloppy color thoughtlessly and restlessly thrown down. a dull background promised to a more interesting foreground that never came.

that shit did not rule.

in 1883 in pecos texas the first recorded rodeo takes place. in 2001 rob smets attends the PBR world finals in jeans and a sports jersey bearing sponsor logos. in 1780 joseph grimaldi makes his stage debut at 2 years old at london’s famed drury lane. in the many, many years before any white person ever laid eyes on it, a man in what you’d now call northern arizona paints his body in black and white stripes and puts corn husks in his hair. in 1557 ivan the terrible acts as pallbearer to a man who walked naked in the streets of moscow, even in the dead of winter. 1568 the gelosi acting company coalesces in italy to perform the hot new style of live improv entertainment. in 2017 the ringling bro’s circus performs its last show, 146 years after the titular brothers first formed it. all of these moments (and more!) live in my head rolling around like marbles and one day i’ll tell you all why.

i’ve been on mood stabilizers for so long it’s hard for me to tell if this has just been a really long depressive swing or if this is just how i am now. if this is just what getting older is like. i don’t really think it is. i am like 90% sure this will not last. but the two questions that follow are always 1. how do i get out of it, and 2. what if it is tho xD?

i recently went down to southeastern ohio to visit my family. went up the mountain at 1 am saturday night to help my gramma grab the 8 year old boy she’s been helping to take care of from his strung out mother. the next day i saw my various other relations, aunts and cousins however many times removed. i hung out with my second cousin. same age as me, with two twin girls, 4 years old. she’s a great mom. and enjoys it, too. got a decent husband with a good job. obviously i don’t know her struggles. not like we talk often. but she seemed overall pleased when she spoke about her life. i told her about my work from home job and my loving partner of 8 years and my plans for the future. she told me i was living the dream. and like. i kind of am. so why do i wake up every morning in various states of hangover (it's the mental illness)

i live in one of the cloudiest cities in these united states. my house is about 500 square feet. it’s dark at 5pm now. i already miss the sun. i want to get sunburned again. i want to be sweaty. i want to put talcum powder in my skort. i want to get through this winter without having to rub snow on my face to stave off more serious impulses. i want to check the 5 items off my to do list.

all of my want is like a song stuck in my head.

i miss that stickbug meme

i should dress up like a clown again

maybe tomorrow i’ll just lay under my weighted blanket for 5 hours

or maybe i’ll actually do something i like to do and feel good and real and human about it. who knows. only time will tell. and in the meantime. thanks if you read this <3

[jeggsistence]

Emi Jones x Ryan Drummond

When the internet simply cares too much..

Zamn, only one post in and shit’s already devolved into a generic article churning out stupid news about celebrities that never had relevance. I'on even care.

Imagine that you’re like me, ‘doomscrolling’ on twitter like every reasonable Zoomer (slang for Gen Z). Terrifying thought, but you’re also mildly interested in Sonic the Hedgehog. As you’re scrolling through, trying to find something to waste your anger on, you encounter this image:

A meme, they call it. It may be passed off as random flubber, but it’s a sign that your Twitter feed will become unbearable for about a week.

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So, who is Emi Jones?

Basically, Emi Jones is a semi-popular voice actress in the Sonic community, mostly known for her audio series, “Sonic and Tails R”, conveniently starring a Ryan Drummond.

Who is Ryan Drummond?

He used to be the voice actor for Sonic during the “Adventure era” of Sonic, which is around 1998-2004. He’s important to the… story.

What happened?

Zamn they need to fucking paywall you from asking rhetorical questions—

Basically, Emi Jones had a private Twitter account, which gave away the fact that she and Ryan were having a private relationship.

(Editor’s note: A bunch of private Twitter accounts)

This came out just 3 days ago, which means it’s already dead news, BUT LET ME HAVE MY MOMENT.

(Editor’s note: Apparently, information on this relationship came out in 2020, and actual evidence surfaced recently.)

I’on even know why I’m saying it like this. I’m too broke for an editor-

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Anyway, this could be considered an example of a celebrity controversy. However, this is the most milquetoast controversy I’ve personally witnessed.

Nothing actually problematic surfaced, such as Justin Roiland being sued for domestic abuse, or most fittingly, Hunnid P, rapper known for the Knuckles tracks in SA2, attempting to extort Emi for money she didn’t have.

It can be boiled down into people complaining about two consenting adults having sex, or people complaining about people complaining about two consenting adults having sex.

Technically speaking, I’m adding fuel to the fire too, except the fuel is already burnt coal and I’m somehow expecting it to undergo nuclear fusion even though that’s not how it works; and the fire is like a candle’s flame.

Poetic. But basically, terminally online people (like me) should find better ways to waste their time. However, at the end of the day, iss funy doe.

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Aight fuck this shit. It’s fucking boring, so I’m gonna list a Top 5 FUNNIEST EL MEHME from that spawned from this. Unlike how my father de-spawned from my household-

NUMBER 5:

This tweet was posted by the woman herself and ZAMN! It definitely gave a TERRIFYING foreshadowing to what would come out in approximately 2 months and 13 days.

However, I must give it a 6.5/10 because I don’t like Sonic Heroes (2003).

NUMBER 4:

This screenshot is of a Youtube video and Got damh there is so much to analyze. Sonic is characterized to be shrugging as his Sonic Adventure 1 (1998) model, representing Ryan Drummond and how he simply could not resist getting into trouble like the rebel he is!!

The second aspect you would notice is the woman on the right drawn to look somewhat seductive (oooh). However, you’ll be bamboozled to find out that that woman has the manliest voice on the planet. I’m talking full on Dwayne the rock, Tyler, the creator type bass. It’s like if a man and a woman had a child!

The “RANK A” is simply the cherry on top of such a delightful meme!

This would be a 10/10 image, however points must be taken off for informalities as some parts of the image are written in It*lian, so it’s a 6.7/12.

NUMBER 3:

HAHAHHAHA LOOK AT THIS IDIOT! THIS FUCKING DUMBASS WAS TRYING TO CORRECT SOMEONE ON WHETHER RYAN CHEATED ON HIS WIFE WITH EMI, BY CLAIMING THEY WERE DIVORCED IN 2019, BEFORE THE NEWS CAME. BUT TURNS OUT THIS AFFAIR WAS FROM 2015 AND THIS IDIOT WAS SHOT DOWN WITH AN UNRECOVERABLE BLOW!!!

Overall, 7.4/10, it has a little something for everyone.

NUMBER 2:

This one is exceptionally dank!! It uses a snippet from the theme song of Sonic Adventure 2: Live and Learn, but the caption has changed the entire context of the lyric, making it sound sexual, as well as a joke making fun of Emi’s skill in bed!!

8/10.

NUMBER 1:

This cannot continue. The pain is immense

WELL THAT’S ALL FOR TODAY, LIKE AND HIT THAT FOLLOW BUTTON SO YOU CAN IGNORE YOUR TAX EMAILS FOR A CUTIE LIKE ME!

Follow. Now.

[punch-a-tree]

oh boy

This about to be a terrible terrible post LMFAO

so

I met you 8 months ago, back in November. I didn’t think anything of you. I just noticed you were conventionally pretty and didn’t think you’d ever have interest in talking to me

6 months ago in Jan, we started to chat at work on occasion, i don’t remember thinking anything of you much tbh, but I wish to remember what was going through my mind

4 months ago, in March, we first hung out. I thought you were pretty chill, was down to get to know you, mostly bc my other work friends would talk to you and I wanted to too. We started hanging out regularly after this.

1 month ago in June, after being friends for 3 months already, I caught myself thinking about you a little too much. We’d hang, we’d chat, but suddenly one day we just started texting a lot, and I caught myself being a little too eager to talk to/ see you than just any of my friends.

Oh shit, I realized, am I developing some sort of feelings here. SHIT.

So now, it’s been a month, that I’ve noticed/realized I like you. We’ve become good friends. Close friends. We text all the time, we see eachother often. And with every week that has passed, I keep falling for you too much.

I don’t even know what to say/ or do. You are clearly, so so pretty. So painfully pretty it makes me want to kms sometimes because I’m nowhere in your league. Yet you’re still my friend.

So painful since, I see people fall for how pretty you are all the time around you. So much you’re extremely uncomfortable by it. Yet I didn’t fall for just your looks. I feel for you.

I fell for how you text me all the time. I fell for you how you invite me to hang out with your friends so often. I fell for you how we laugh about the same things all the time. I feel for you how we jam out to the same music. I fell for how adventurous and spontaneous you are like me. And on top of that you are so so gorgeous.

But I’m just your fun friend. A person you trust, and feel comfortable around. A person to rely on. A person you can vent your problems to. A person you can confide in when random people hit on you and you don’t like it. That’s why that can’t ever be me.

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I’ve met many people that I’ve liked/ crushed on over the years. Some I did for months/ years. None of them did I even feel vibed on the same level as me. You make me set a standard for what I would look for in a future partner. The humour, spontaneity, the consideration and care for people around you.

I say that because I know that will never be you. You are too pretty to ever want me. Too wild to ever settle for me. All I can be is your good friend.

And a good friend I am. Id do anything for you. I already do what I can for you. I pick you up and drop you off places. I take you anywhere you want to go. I do anything you want to do. Id do anything for you.

I’m scared you will catch on. Notice how I’m always there for you. Notice how I’m always so eager to reply to you. Notice how I’d do anything for you. The last thing I want is for you to notice. Because I know that would put you off, after all the trust you put in me for being just a good friend. But I cannot help myself but be all I can be for you.

I’m pretty fucked, I’m pretty doomed. I’m stuck here waking up every morning waking up thinking about you. Waiting for your message. Stuck here falling asleep to the thought of you. I cannot help it. I’m whipped for nothing.

All I can do is pray and hope one day someone as pretty, funny, charming, and chill just like you will cross my path and fall for me.

Because you won’t. You have your whole life still to live and explore. And I won’t be a bigger part of it than a good friend. And I have to learn to live with that.

It’s just so fucking hard when I can’t stop thinking about you every second of every day. It’s so messy. My feelings are so fucked up.

But I just gotta live through it, and wish for the best. Feelings like this are so rough, because everytime I’m around you in person all I wish and imagine is to hold you tight, kiss your cheeks, and brush my fingers through your hair.

But unfortunately I can’t do that. So I admire you from a slight distance. And wish to meet anyone as cool as you one day.

All I can do is wish and wait. Youre so precious, you break my heart. Shatter it. Somehow I’ll live through it.

Idk how, but I will.

[loiswolf]

Day 31 June 29 Lloydminster- Battleford Nth 140kms

Today was as hard as yesterday was easy. Maybe not physically tough ( although there were issues I will get to) but mentally tough.

This is the lovely home I stayed in last night. Dee Dee and I talked for quite a while last night. It’s really interesting to hear about other people lives, their jobs, and families. Nobody has a perfect life.

I left really early because I knew it was going to be a long hot day. Straight up onto the highway. It’s really flat and really monotonous. The surroundings are ok but the road seems interminable.

I just concentrated on the first 50 odd kilometres to Maidstone. The traffic came in clusters but the shoulder was usually good enough to stay out of the way.

There was a turnoff to Maidstone which kind of cut through a corner of the highway. A few kms along the side road I came upon the town. Unfortunately it was not another quaint, cute little place like Kitscoty or Vilma. It was very dusty, old and rundown.

I located the cafe I has seen on the map but it had relocated. I doubled back to find the new location which was also closed. Sigh! It didn’t matter, there was a Subway/general store just a few doors up. It had coffee, seats, air con and ice creams so I was happy. I selected a Magnum and a chocolate cake thing.

I’m sure Magnums used to be a lot bigger. The cake was huge. I was served by a surly young teenage girl with purple hair. Not quite the lovely ladies I met yesterday. They seemed to be playing 3 or 4 songs on a loop. After hearing Meghan Trainor’s “I made you look”*, for the second time, I decided to leave.

Just after I returned to the main road I stopped to talk to a man who was fixing a broken strap holding a quad bike on a trailer. He had an empty tray on the back of his ute. I’m such an idiot! Why didn’t I ask him for a lift? He had the perfect setup. I guess I wasn’t thinking about getting a lift so soon after a break.

Another 30 or 40kms I definitely regretting not asking for a lift.

My right knee which has had the odd twinge was really starting to hurt. I’m sure it’s a touch of Patellofemoral Syndrome but the constancy of the ride was not helping.

My next goal was a bit after 100kms at a place called Delmas. I had actually called them last night about accommodation. Hahaha, so glad they didn’t have any. The place was dire. Even though my knee was burning there was no way I wanted to stay there the night. There was a bar, some tables and poker machines. The very bored looking man sold me a bottle of Diet Pepsi which I drank slowly while working on my knee and leg. Did I look stupid? Probably. Do I care? No! I also spent the time googling bus and train routes.

Eventually I returned to Shirley the knee feeling considerably better, although not perfect. Only a few kms up the road and a Toyota Corolla pulled over in front of me and the man gave me a cold drink. I thanked him and popped it in my food bag. He wasn’t to know I had just consumed a large bottle of Pepsi. It’s always nice when someone does something like that.

I wasn’t breaking any speed records on the last 35kms but I got there eventually. Here’s a photo from the road.

Not very exciting is it? Years ago I loved the challenge of riding well over a hundred kilometres on a highway. I think I’m over that now.

My knee will be alright, I know how to treat it but I’ll need to rest it a bit.

I’m not sure if I want to wait around for the bus to Saskatoon tomorrow. It doesn’t leave until after 3.

From Saskatoon I’ll probably take the train to Winnipeg. These huge flat prairies are just too monotonous. I’ll keep you posted

*I actually like that song. I understand if you don’t want to be my friend anymore. 😁

[one-systems-journey]

23.5.23

It’s been a long time since I posted here. Mostly because I’ve felt hopeless & didn’t find any benefit in sharing the same old shit.A lot has happened. My psych decided about 2 months ago, maybe a bit more that she couldn’t help me any more & didn’t feel like she could ‘be objective anymore’. Still not 100% sure what that was suppose to mean, if she hated me or cared too much or what. But she did say she was feeling my stuckness. What was most frustrating & upsetting was that she wasn’t going to wait til I was settled with a new psych to finish. She wanted me gone within 4 sessions.

The week prior to her announcing this we had been back in contact with someone who is more experienced with DID/OSDD & I went back on her wait list. I’m still waiting, I think I have 2-3 weeks wait left. She said at the time that she would likely have availability within 3 months.

In the mean time I’ve started with a counsellor at a clinic that specialises in EMDR & trauma. The lady I’m seeing has an interest in neurodiversity, so that’s been helpful. I wasn’t the biggest fan of this person to begin with. Our appointments felt scattered & it was a huge blow when I found out she only had level one EMDR training. For reference my previous psych had done level 1 & 2, structural dissociation plus others. I do not trust this clinics reception staff to actually understand or correctly convey the skills of their therapists because this is not the first time they’ve mislead us. But anyways. It seems to have kind of worked out. I think I like this new person. She’s promised she won’t give up on me. Trying not to hold too much hope in that. She’s in the right place to learn a lot, the owner of the clinic does a lot of training on both EMDR & parts. Her supervisor is also very experienced with DID & that person has a close contact with a lot of experience too. So there’s some hope that she could help. The neurodivergent stuff is useful too. But I’m also not sure if it’s worth staying in the hope that she can help, or if it’s better to move on to the more experienced person because that’s more likely to be helpful. There’s the toss up of experience vs. relationship. I guess I’ll see if I find the more experienced person to be a good fit relationship wise. I don’t know what I’m going to do if I like both of them. Eeep.

We’re already experiencing resistance to doing EMDR though. Struggling to access memories & the wall fragment comes up to block access to any inner thoughts, feelings, memories, any access to anyone else. It’s frustrating & annoying & overwhelming. Young parts are also crying a lot. They’re confused about the upheaval, the opening up to someone new & we’ve been experiencing flashback quite a bit. It’s been awful. I’m torn between letting them open up about trauma or not with this new person, ultimately is doesn’t help & the littles forget that we’ve told someone about it. But I also feel like maybe it will quiet them down for a bit. It’s probably helpful for the counsellor to know a bit more.

We’re mostly writing all of this because the counsellor is away this week & it’s hard. It feels like the last little while has been a lot of just holding on as hard we can, while hurting so incredibly much. It’s the second week in the almost 2 months I’ve been working with her that she’s been away. As well as unstable appointments, one time it was a Monday one week & the following Friday which made the gap longer than when she actually was away. I struggle without the regular support & I was just starting to feel a bit more settled. Anyways. Will update if or when there’s something worth saying. Good or bad.