#this was originally going to be a drawing representing my BPD and black and white thoughts

[inutiliacapra]

a look inside my dark and twisted mind.... the thoughts of someone with a serious mental illness.... what i ponder of for days on end....

[clemthewitchbitch]

Spirit Companions

Here is a brief list of my spirit companions, there origins, and description (in case you were wondering!)

S’RAEL:

A buff, stocky metallic gray male dragon. He has amber eyes and thick, dark black chin spikes. He’s gruff, but kindhearted, proud, confident, and strong. He’s a father of three young dragons, although his mate has since passed. He reached out to me while I was drawing—we talked for a while, and I offered him art, but it was hard to keep up the relationship without him being bound to a vessel. After visiting him a few times in the astral, we agreed to have him bound to a chunk of hematite (which I wear as a necklace). His favorite offerings are art (of him), as well as bits of bone, metal, coins, and runes. He gets along best with Teladu.He likes things a certain way.

 TELADU:

I purchased Teladu through creepyhallows for one of their penny deals. He came bound to a light orange polished stone that was likely glass. I ended up transferring him to a clear quartz pendant. He’s a “quartz dragon;” translucent white, like quartz, with strikingly blue eyes. Oh, and he’s fucking huge. Like larger than a building. He’s over 1,400 years old, but very young at heart. He’s kind and smart, somewhat nihilistic, friendly and easygoing. He’s had many humans before me. He likes bits of fur and bone, anything relating to water and ice, and quartz stones. He and S’rael are fairly close.

 NETTLE:

Nettle was fetched and vetted for me with S’rael’s help, to occupy a vessel that I had premade. I wasn’t sure what type of spirit I wanted for it, but I was certain I wanted something canine. (The vessel is a stuffed GSD with a real coyote face mask stitched to it, a rabbit foot for one paw, and a real coyote tail I stitched on.) She is a lithe, shaggy black hellhound a bit larger than a dog, with large feet, yellow-orange eyes, and tiny horns. She’s mischievous, but not maliciously so. She’s noncommittal by nature, but dedicated to her pack (we are her pack at this point). She’s rather young. She is connected to fire, of course, but earth as well; she likes vanilla, and any plant with thorns, although especially nettle. She will also except meat, blood, or dog treats.  She gets along pretty well with everyone, although she’s closest to me and Noface.

 NOFACE:

Noface is my thoughtform, which I created on accident. Yes, like Noface from spirited away (that’s his vessel). He’s more like a mimikyu, though; he takes the astral form of Noface, and shares some characteristics, but his true form is mutable, like a black blob with a face. He’s sweet and kind, but shy and insecure. He sort of represents the softer side of my bpd—the deep compassion and empathy, the passionate love for your fp, and the vulnerability. He’s very—soft, if you know what I mean. He likes cute pink things (like little girl’s jewelry), seashells, flowers, minimuffins, and anything I bring back from somewhere new that I go. He’s never been to the sea, but he wants to. He and Nettle get along, and he’s adept at astral travel. He and S’rael don’t get along that well. He loves watching cheesy romance, and coming to school with me.  

 OTHERS:

 There’s a spirit called Angela living in my cat skull. She was a long furred black cat. But she won’t talk to me beyond that. She’s either quite long dead, or not interested in communicating. She seems somewhat sad, but content.

 MILERI:

Mileri is my guardian angel—a blitz angel. She’s short and cute, with a bob haircut, outgoing and optimistic, but a strong fighter. We aren’t that well acquainted yet.