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hillerskalibrary Ā· 1 year ago
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Event poll results!
(summary version)
So last week I opened a poll to check what kind of YR fandom events you guys wanted to see and the respondents were... how shall I put it... "very excited" is most applicable I think? ;)
Because I'm a nerd who likes to analyze the results but also doesn't want to chase her entire following away, I'm going to make two result posts:
This post, where I will summarize the results as succint as I can, and address some of the remarks and suggestions that I received. I'll also make a conclusion on what I would suggest to do - feedback on that is certainly welcome!
A second post (which I'll link when I finish it, most likely tomorrow or even after cause I'm slow as fuck) with some more graphs, percentages, observations, cause I don't know shit about statistics but that won't stop me from having fun with it!
Fair warning - it's pretty long. I just find it easier to explain a little about the decisions I'm (not) taking, both to invite discussion and because I don't want this to be a black box blog that does whatever and you never know why. That being said...
Ready? Let's go!
RESULTS
I received 72 responses, 36 writers and 36 readers.
The top 3 most wanted events by READERS is: Big Bang (89%), Theme Week (86%), and Weekly Challenges (83%). The event they were least excited about is Author Interviews (56%).
The top 3 events writers most want to PARTICIPATE in is, in order: Author Interviews (69%), Theme Week (64%), and Fic Exchange (61%). The events they DO NOT want to participate in are Author Interviews (25%), very closely followed by Big Bang and Advent (both 22%).
READERS were (very) slightly more excited about a Wilmon theme week rather than a general YR week. WRITERS clearly preferred a general YR week. For both groups, a YR women week comes in third, and rarepair week is fourth.
All types of weekly writing challenges suggested scored similarly.
(I know some of these seem contradictory, which I why I'll make the second post explaining how I calculated these rankings and why -for example- Author Interviews are both the most AND the least popular event for writers ;) )
SUGGESTIONS
A lot of people wrote in suggestions, which I was SUPER happy about (I closed the form now but if you have any more, please just hit my inbox or DM me at @hilliska). A few people also offered to help, which I'm definitely gonna hold you to when decisions are starting to get made! ;)
Many people were excited about possible collabs between writers and artists.
"What about a "finish your draft/wip" or "write a new chapter on a wip". I have so many languishing WIPsā€¦" I think this is an EXCELLENT idea tbh - though we could incorporate it in the big bang by allowing wips as well. Also, as an FYI, there is also a (non-fandom-specific) Finish Your Shit-Big Bang that takes place every year (though this year's round is close to posting already) ;).
"Iā€™d also love to see more Podfic in this fandom, but I donā€™t know how that could be an event." I have zero experience with podfic but this does sound (ha!) like it could be fun. Maybe someone has experience with this from a different fandom? (honestly I'd love to experiment with this so hmu)
"Authors sign up to take one shot requests or readers get to write a prompt. Or if readers could submit or vote on prompts or something? Or readers submit a song and author writes a one shot based on a song. Something like that where readers can be involved too :)" We could also easily incoporate this in a big bang - do a prompt bang or a reverse bang (fic based on art) for example? Or maybe involve readers in the weekly challenges, by suggesting tropes/words/... ?
"Write a comment on a fic-week!" Yessss!!!! I am like... 95% sure there is a tumblr-wide event for this already but I can't for the life of me find it. So I could signal boost that or yeah, we could just pin a day ourselves :).
"Group chat/watch" I'm afraid I'm not the right person to organize this kind of thing, but if you've been thinking of doing this and you were afraid no one would be interested - this is your sign!! ;)
"live writing event" Same as above - though I do think there's some discords where this happens already?
"Some sort of collab, where authors get to write a fic together." This could definitely be fun! There is currently one that originated on Twitter called Unlabeled - I don't know all the writers but I recognize at least @yourdemiurge, @skydragon05, @1-life-to-give, and @in-amor-veritas. Which obviously doesn't help if you're a writer wanting to collab, but at least there's people with experience in this fandom ;).
"Maybe a poetry week?" I don't even write poetry but I'm obsessed with this suggestion. Could also be a writing challenge? Not sure about a whole week either, but there's World Poetry Day in March so maybe that can be a mini-event?
"Something not fic centered? Like fanart, edits, cosplay etc." This is one of those things that I'm throwing out there for other people to run with, maybe, because. Well, I'm a writer and I know fic, but I really don't know much about the rest... Which is not to say I don't want to (help) run anything like this because it definitely could be fun, but it's a little out of my wheelhouse. But maybe @youngroyalsfanartarchive can help or knows people who would?
And now what??
Consider the below not as a definitive list but as a stream-of-consciousness conversation starters, so don't hesitate to send me your thoughts.
I will definitely do a Big Bang. Prompt-based or art-based or wip-based or something else remains to be decided, but this will happen. It will not happen NOW, however, because we don't know when season 3 will air. Big Bangs are big events, they ask a lot from writers, and if the s3 premiers at any time between signups and publications, it's going to make everything more difficult. But there was sufficient interest by writers to participate, so once we got a s3 date I want to put a timeline on this.
I'm talking with people about a possible YR women's week. The general/Wilmon week scored higher in the polls, but since we already had that in spring I'd like to switch it up a little.
I would like to do *something* for the anniversary of s2. Don't want to go regular theme week for this because of the above possibility, but maybe the not-fic-centered event could be good for this - we could do favorite episode/favorite non-wilmon character/... which are things that non-content-creators can also participate in by writing a short paragraph, reblogging gifsets/art of that episode/character, ... "Finish your wip" would also be a good one for this though :)
The people behind the 2023 Secret Santa will not organize one this year, but I don't really want to jump in that, necessarily, because there's enough other possibilities and they might be back. But a Valentine fic exchange could maybe work?
The advent calendar idea drew mixed reactions (maybe because it's less well known?) and while I do think it could be fun, there's enough other things that people are excited about, so I'm putting it in the freezer for now.
The weekly challenges also drew mixed reactions - both readers and writers were excited to see them happen, but only a third of writers said they would definitely/probably participate. Then again, half of them said they would POSSIBLY participate. Maybe because it's an ongoing thing, so they don't want to promise they'd participate EACH WEEK but only sometimes? So I'm not sure about this (also because it would significantly up the time required to maintain the blog). So I'd love more feedback on this to see which shape or form you guys would like this to take.
Fic recs scored solidly in the middle of the possibilities for both reader and writers. I wanted to include it because I was curious, but I'm a little hesitant to really do something with it, mostly because it often ends up being a popularity contest and. Well. We already know how to sort by kudos/comments on AO3. So I'm curious to hear other people's experiences on how to maybe circumvent that.
The Author Interviews were the most contested event - even (or rather *especially* among writers (and I secretly think it's hilarious the most wanted event by writers is the one that doesn't require them to write at all :D). I do think it could be fun (though I admit this is a format mostly geared towards writers) to help other writers to find other people to collaborate with, find betas, learn about different writing processes, ... And a self-rec feature would allow for fic recs without the popularity factor. So I'll most likely run this as a (bi-)weekly feature alongside the other events.
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a-pale-azure-moon Ā· 1 year ago
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WIP Wednesday
It's done.
There will be revisions and tweaks to make between now and when I post it in a few days, but I have finished the final chapter of Someday We'll Shine Together. At long last, it is complete.
I'm struggling to distill all of my emotions into words at the moment. This ficĀ has been a part of my life for about three years now. I'm feeling accomplished and proud of myself for really and truly finishing it despite the fact that when I first had the idea, I was convinced this was another of those fleeting inspirational flashes that would never go anywhere and would forever languish in my WIP folder. I got very attached to this story in the process of creatingĀ it, and I got even more attached to it when it was one of the things that helped see me through a very difficult time in my personal life. As such, I'm also grieving that it's over and that I now must let it go. Sure, it'll always exist for me to revisit whenever I want, but that feeling is never the same as the one derived from actively working on it.
While I'm still digesting all of these emotions, here's a rough timeline and some background of the fic's development, so you can all see how I finally got to this point. This is pretty personal too, because the two are irrevocably intertwined. (Content warning: death/grief)
SummerĀ 2020: Initial inspiration hits after I rewatched UtenaĀ during COVID lockdown.
Fall 2020: Brainworms are on-and-off active, writing short blurbs in a Google doc when they come to me, but there's no true shape to the whole plot yet, itā€™s just random scenes. It's more or less still strictly a 3H-esque retelling of Utena, and I'm not expecting anything to actually come of these blurbs.
Winter 2020: More blurbs trickle in here and there. The story in my head is starting to divert more drastically from the show.
February 19, 2021: Draft of the pivotal scene at the end of Chapter 15 written. I remember the specific day for this because I wrote it the same day we put down our dog, Clancy. (Writing emotional scenes often helpsĀ me processĀ my own emotions.)
April 11, 2021: Creation of my dedicated author's notes file to keep track of the various threads and ideas I'd come up with, especially the backstory about Faerghus and how Dimitri became the Lion Prince. I filled it in like an extended summary or wikipedia entry about the 'verse and the overall plot of the story. I jotted a lot of stuff down between April and June as the brainworms really got to work again.
Summer 2021: I'm starting to entertain the idea of actually seeing this project through. Chapters 1 and 2 are drafted over the summer months, but I hit a block and the self doubt comes roaring right in to deter me.Ā Ā A LARGE part of my struggle with getting this fic out of development hell was me being unable to get out of my own way. Ā Every stumbling block I hit (especially early on) was an invitation for my inner critic to resume browbeating me into giving up this ā€œstupidā€ idea.
September 2021: I finally make up my mind that I'm really going to do this, and I spend the next six weeks ironing out the bumps in the plot and making a chapter-by-chapter outlineĀ highlighting the key scenes/plot points/character beats within each one. I organized the various blurbs I had into chronological order and put them under the correct chapter headings. I also started thinking of the best way to get myself to see this project through, as well as what would be a realistic timetable for its completion. I estimated that the final length of the whole thing would be around 350 pages or roughly 150K words. (This is hilariousĀ to me in hindsight.Ā Ā I severely underestimated the scope of this fic!)
November 2021: I try to do the NaNoWriMo challenge (50K words in a month) to draft as much of the fic as I can. I "only" produce about 35K words in the end, but it was enough to draft Chapters 3 and 4 and write at least one decent-sized blurb within each of all of the remaining chapters.
December 2021: I took a short hiatus from working on SWST to finish Beneath the Ethereal Moon. When that's done, I went over my outline yet again to refine it further and then cleaned up my draft of Chapter 1 with an eye on posting it after right after New Year's. I determined that posting (and writing) one chapter per month should be doable, especially since I have a generous buffer to start with.
January 2022: I get a bad case of cold feet/anxiety and don't post Chapter 1. I'm having trouble getting a feel for Chapter 5 and fail to finish it before the end of the month. (This naturally doesn't help alleviate my self-doubtĀ or silence my very loud inner critic.)
February 2022: Cold feet strike again and I fail to post Chapter 1 a second time. I'm still stuck on Chapter 5 (though I've at least made some progress), and while I'm extremely aware that I'm being my own worst enemy, that doesn't make it any easier to beat back old habits.
March 2, 2022: In the wee hours of the night (it was after midnight), I finally posted Chapter 1 and went straight to bed after. I slept terribly of course, haha.
I wish I could say "and you know the rest from here," but that's not true. Posting Chapter 1 was a huge mental hurdle cleared, but there were other things going on behind the scenes that almost derailed this project for good. The timing was such that if I were more prone to hubris, I'd think that the universe itself was testing my resolve. Or possibly mocking me.
On March 3, 2022 (yes, the day after I posted Chapter 1), my father was admitted to the hospital with a debilitating pain in his lower back. Initially, we thought it might be a flare up of his sciatica or maybe something like a kidney stone, but the truth was far worse. What he had was a spinal epidural abscess caused by a bacterial infection in his blood. He was transported to the ICU of a larger (further away) hospital once the severity of his condition was discovered, and he was pumped full of massive doses of antibiotics. Thanks to that, he stabilized, but what followed after was a long period of uncertainty as he would start to make gains only to suffer a setback. Even once the infection and his pain level were under control, he'd been so severely sick that the bacteria had ravaged his various body systems, leading to issues with his kidneys and his heart.
For 91 days, my family and I were stuck on a wretched rollercoaster of getting hopeful (he was transferred to a rehab facility three different times when it looked like he was improving) and then having our hopes dashed when something would happen that would see him sent back to the hospital (falling out of bed, chest pains, difficulty breathing). Hope began to fade in mid May when he was transferred back to the ICU due to diastolic heart failure, which caused his lungs to fill up with fluid. They tapped his lungs thrice, removing at least a liter of fluid each time, but they kept filling up again despite all the diuretics the doctors were giving him. Then his kidneys began to shut down too. We kept hoping right until the end, but he passed away on June 1, 2022, the day before what would've been his and my mother's 49th wedding anniversary.
(Proof that real life can be even crueler than fiction.)
I was only able to continue updating SWST while my father was sick because of that buffer I'd had, and I very nearly deleted the story from AO3 altogether after he died. I remember ruminating about how futile it was to continue with this project; I'd written almost nothing while he was sick, so my buffer was now gone and I questioned whether or not I'd be able to write, let alone write consistently,Ā with the promised months of grief and general upheaval ahead. Even writing a story that I had, to that point, been passionate about felt utterly pointless.
It was strange though. I woke up on June 2nd thinking that maybe I should go ahead and post chapter 4 anyway, since it was already done and it was one of the chapters I particularly liked. So I did. And in the following days, we had my father's funeral and a part of me felt like I could breathe again. I was grieving yes, but the constant daily stress and uncertainty from his illness was gone, and I think that freed my creative drive to start working again. I remember the first day I sat back down at my computer with the intention to write and how much better I felt in general after I got some words onto the screen.
It's hella ironic that I planned SWST with grief and loss as major themes and it turned out I'd be processing such things myself while writing most of it. I know my own grief affected the story, though it's impossible to say to what degree; I get a lot of catharsis in general from writing emotional scenes, so I tend to go hard on them regardless. It didn't change the plot or direction of the story at all, since that was already planned, but it's certainly safe to say that I channeled a lot of my own feelings into some of the most intense moments. The ending of Chapter 9 stands out in particular as something that felt like it was coming straight out of my own heart.
Even on the hard days when I was feeling too overwhelmed and/or the words just werenā€™t coming, this story gave me a reason to keep going. Ā Just keeping the goal in mind and reasserting my resolve to be consistent and see this project through to the end helped me cope. Ā It both kept me grounded and helped me process what I was going through and it gave me something to look forward to when I uploaded each chapter and anxiously waited to see what the readers would think.
I started this fic as a means of testing myself: testing my commitment to writing consistently, to finishing a long-term project, and to getting over at least some of the many, MANY mental hurdles that have held me back from writing for way too long. Ā I knew that this story would always be near and dear to me if I managed to finish it, but it became even more precious than I ever couldā€™ve imagined back in 2020. Ā It hurts that I must say goodbye to it, butā€¦itā€™s forever mine. Ā I can say with my whole chest that I MADE THIS THING and Iā€™m so very proud of it! <3
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iwtvdramacd18 Ā· 2 years ago
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i would love to hear your thoughts on this if and when you feel like sharing!! i put out those thoughts after e2 had aired and we've learned so much more about louis since!
OK so first of all this has been in my drafts forever I apologize:
I didn't even notice that was an older post my bad! But that stuff especially about a runs in the family type situation and the very deep intense fear that comes with seeing a family member with severe mental illness and also lacking the ability to fully understand.
I won't get into too many details but I will say that my analysis and reading of Louis' character is very much shaped by the fact that I have been in a lot of mental states/situations like his (its one of the reasons he's such an important character to me). My family has a lot of severe mental illness running through it, including one of my closest relatives who had schizophrenia. And while Paul doesn't have an explicitly stated diagnosis we do know he experiences hallucinations, as did my relative. Now growing up I didn't really understand the extent of the severity of mental illness, even while I had experienced symptoms myself all my life, which was really scary... I lacked a healthy recognition of severe mental illness, as I think it's very obvious in media especially with regards to psychosis it's horribly demonized. Just look at the way people throw around terms like "psychotic". Recognizing similarities between what I was experiencing and what my relative was experiencing not only scared me but also made me feel very shameful.
And that visceral fear of seeing a family member struggle with severe mental illness I think you really hit on the head, I think it does manifest in Louis in not only trying to rationalize/ separate himself from it but also a lot of shame regarding it. I think there is something to say about being the oldest (as I am), realizing you're very mentally ill further down the line, and a fear of having influenced your younger siblings. As far as we know Louis does not experience hallucinations, at least not like Paul, but I don't think it's a stretch to say that he has experienced psychosis (I believe it was yani? who has mentioned the small glimpse we got of the real version of Lestat's "death" with Louis attacking Claudia).
I'd expect that despite Claudia not being biologically Louis' daughter he'd also have those fears pop up again regarding a sort of "infection" of mental illness. One scene that REALLY stands out is his near attempt in episode 6 where he mentions the only reason he didn't carry through was because he didn't want to "ruin" Claudia's departure the way Paul's death "ruined" Grace's marriage night. Which is absolutely heart-rending to me. We know Louis languishes in a lot of shame and guilt and I think his mental illness is a huge one he keeps skirting around.
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jessaerys Ā· 1 year ago
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Any webweave/litstack tips for someone who's never done it before and thinks you are a genius?
HEHEHE thank you ever since i was a little girl i knew i wanted to make people insane about fictional characters.
the only advice i can think of is, take it slow! they'll be ready whenever they're ready. mine usually languish in my drafts for weeks as every now and then i read or see a post/quote that fits, and collect them at their own pace.
also: i think people often neglect rhythm. a webweave is an entire piece of writing, not just a collection of quotes. the same rules of prose apply!
i haven't read every single piece of literature the quotes come from, but some of them are made in-house. i am actually trying to remember to post more quotes from whatever i'm currently reading so i can trick myself into reading more through the peer validation of the alleged dopamine hit via the candy colored social media notification
also i am on pinterest an unhealthy amount
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thatinsufferablenerd Ā· 1 month ago
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Languishing in the Relentless Ache
The weather here is cool but cleared up from the rain we had last week. My husband started using our fireplace to keep our poorly insulated house warm without running up the gas bill. Our dogs like it. We all caught COVID again. Well, weā€™re not 100% sure itā€™s COVID since no one has gotten a test, but the symptoms line up and the misery is very, very real. It started setting in last weekend and has been kicking our asses since. My son spent three days home from school. All my energy has been focused on making sure heā€™s taken care of, that the bare minimum of housework is done, that our dogs go in and out and stay out of the litter boxes, things like that. My husband was affected differently and spent two days mostly asleep in bed. Between that and drumming up the courage to put out the call for a critique partner/writing buddy (and possibly finding one), I havenā€™t had the energy to do much. I donā€™t have the energy to be depressed about the election or worry about the actual nightmares Iā€™m having at the decision to get a job.Ā 
That being said, I am in the final chapters of the Arrancar saga of Bleach. The Big Bad has been defeated along with the other major players. Iā€™m a little behind on my update thoughts and havenā€™t read much in the last few days being busy with other things. Iā€™ve enjoyed the experience so much more in page form. I think anime is obligated to drag out fights a lot longer than necessary because they have a run time to fill and used to run week to week rather than the season model we get these days. Iā€™ve noticed it less in more recent adaptations. Combat just feels snappier on page. Iā€™ve learned that thereā€™s a difference between watching fight choreography and watching UFC or HEMA (shout out to Scenic Fights on YouTube). Itā€™s kind of the same in anime. I like a big dumb anime fight as much as anyone else, donā€™t get me wrong. When they hit, they really hit. I could name a dozen off the top of my head that are iconic and incredible for multiple reasons. But when they miss, they REALLY miss. Limited page space and chapter length really does help keep it from overstaying its welcome.Ā 
Instead of reading anything else on my TBR, I made an author friend who generously let me read his books in exchange for my first draft. Iā€™ve finished the first, barely started the second. Ruins of Ivy by Aaron Ramsby is book one in the Aurora Project series, Forgotten Steel is the second. Post-apocalyptic settings can offer quite a bit of material to explore. Itā€™s a good opportunity for speculative biology, stories with themes of perseverance and the power of community, interrogating our relationship with the past or other institutions. Like other types of speculative fiction, it relies on worldbuilding and lore revealed throughout the story. Ruins of Ivy was a zippy read for me with approachable prose and some intriguing hooks that are keeping me engaged into book two.Ā 
Making a friend with someone whoā€™s a published author is always a treat. Most authors (at least self-published ones, in my experience) are happy to lend a helping hand to newbies or other up-and-comers. Iā€™ve had more than one offer me encouraging words, compliment my work, give me some really helpful advice about the writing process or the publishing industry. In several cases, itā€™s led to free books too. Not as many lasting networking opportunities or friendships, though, but Iā€™ll admit thatā€™s partially my fault. Iā€™m as bad at keeping friends as I am making them. Iā€™m hoping to keep this friend. Having someone else believe in you is such a confidence booster. Sitting around thinking you write like a middle schooler on Wattpad and then having a stranger say you have an elegant, high brow style that inspires them to up their game? I cried.Ā 
Aaron has been kind enough to look over my current project. While heā€™s currently not far into it, he has given me a lot to think about. Thatā€™s whatā€™s taking up a lot of my time right now. Catching up on his books and talking nuts and bolts of prose to him. Well, that and being sick as a dog. Itā€™s nerve wracking, of course. The constant critical questions and playing devilā€™s advocate. My knee-jerk reaction is panic and put up my boxing gloves, but I know he isnā€™t doing it to be an asshole. Critique is key to the editing process, and if I intend to publish, GoodReads reviewers will be way harsher than he could ever be. Itā€™s easier now than it was at the beginning, and having reassurance helps. I wish I had more writing friends, though. Tolkien was lucky enough to have peers in two separate writing groups in his lifetime. Thatā€™s my dream.Ā 
I have done a little bit of writing. Not a lot, but enough to say I wrote. A page or two. Iā€™m more disappointed that I keep saying I need white board time and not getting it. I did get out my little one and jot some things down, but I need REAL time, with my thinking cap on, with notes and documents and research, like the old days. Itā€™s harder when I have sick kids to care for. Other things have been taking up my time. Like sleeping. And crying over the new Dan Da Dan episode.Ā 
Instead of rehashing in paragraph form all the good fucking good I watched YouTube this week, hereā€™s a handy list: -Pop Culture Detective: ā€œHuman Nature, Hope and Ice Creamā€Ā 
-FD Signifier: ā€œEdgelord Movies Finally BROKE MEā€Ā 
-Wrestling With Words: ā€œIf Youā€™re Doing These 7 Things Youā€™re Doing Worldbuilding Rightā€Ā 
-The Legendarium: ā€œWhat Makes Prose Goodā€ (parts 1-3)Ā 
-Tale Foundry: ā€œThe Kidsā€™ Horror Spiralā€
-Princess Weekes: ā€œMain Character Syndrome and The Authenticity Trapā€
-Curious Archive: ā€œThe Most Powerful Type of Worldbuildingā€Ā 
I know this post is much shorter than the last two, but I am very tired and sick. Iā€™m looking forward to being better next week.Ā 
Stay safe out there yā€™all. <3
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shavynel Ā· 2 years ago
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A question: if Gil ruled Europa, would he let Tarvek run it?
Strong maybe.
Probably also like by accident.
Tarvek probably would just naturally take over all the intricate details and make everything actually run.
You know, like all those things that are causing Gil to not sleep? Tarvek could probably just handle them in his sleep.
I mean weā€™ve already seen it happen before.
Gil would remain the face of the empire barony. The press just loves him.
Of course, the best part of this is Gil would endlessly just complain about the fact that Tarvek has taken over and canā€™t be trusted and why hasnā€™t anyone done anything about this.
And then, probably, if anyone actually questioned Tarvekā€™s administration, theyā€™d have to face Gil.
Wait ... hold on ... why does Gil even want to run an empire? Just ā€˜cause he inherited it and thinks itā€™s better than devolving into chaos?Ā 
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bangchanswolfpelt Ā· 3 years ago
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The way perv soob just PLAYYYSSS ON MY MINDDD NOW CUZ OF YOU šŸ˜£šŸ˜£šŸ˜£šŸ˜«šŸ˜«šŸ˜«šŸ˜«šŸ¤¤šŸ¤¤šŸ¤¤šŸ„“šŸ„“šŸ„ŗšŸ„ŗšŸ„ŗšŸ’–šŸ’–
If you can fit it in I would adore some more perv soob, perhaps some somno ?? Boob obsessed soob ?? Getting caught ?? If those don't fit the perv soob agenda then that's totally fine do whatever you will with it bestie šŸ˜«šŸ˜«šŸ¤¤šŸ¤¤
Also, I absolutely adore how half your stuff is 8 paragraphs minimum stop apologising for that silly, it hits too good for you to be cutting it down
Anyways hope youre doing well and have a good day <3
this is so sweet šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­
more pervy!Soob is definitely on the way, we have him penciled in for at least one day of Kinktober (and let's be real, i'm probably gonna work it into at least a couple of our other Soobin days too šŸ„“), and i'm definitely gonna be writing more of him beyond that as well because he's just too much fun to play with šŸ„°
and boo, the pervy Soobin agenda is anything and everything we want it to be, it is a malleable canon with diverging timelines, it is a choose-your-own-adventure. i've got out a longer somno fic i'm mapping out rn (and at least a couple of the branches on that involve him getting caught šŸ˜ˆ), and the inbox is full titty-loving Soobs waiting for my attention šŸ¤¤ if there's anything specific you wanna see with him, tho, don't worry about whether it's inconsistent with anything we've established and drop me a line!! pervy Soobin is a multiverse for all of us to play inšŸ’•
y'all are gonna inflate my ego so much, i'm gonna get insufferable if you don't cut this shit out šŸ˜­ but seriously, i really don't have the words to explain how much i appreciate messages like this??? i feel like a dummy repeating myself, but it really makes me so happy and so excited to keep sharing my writing with y'all šŸ„°
also, me apologizing about things getting long isn't actually about the length, so much as it isā€”i just don't know when to stop? which means nothing ever gets posted as soon as i want it to be, haha šŸ’€ y'all come to me with so many good ideas and i haaaaaate having them just languishing in my inbox or my drafts folder šŸ˜­
also, this seriously made my day when i got it, i hope you're doing great, nonniešŸ’•šŸ’•šŸ’•šŸ’•
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cyanoscarlet Ā· 4 years ago
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2020 writing review
Thanks for the tag, @gladiowritesā€‹! (I know itā€™s not a tag, but this is fun to do lol)
I.. honestly wrote a lot this 2020. No kidding. Quarantine productivity was real, but so is residency languishing by the wayside while everyone was busy surviving and adjusting. I highly doubt 2021 will be the same, but Iā€™ll always cherish 2020 just because of the writing and nothing else.
This is gonna be long.
FIRST CREATION + MOST RECENT CREATION OF 2020
8:15 amĀ  - Final Fantasy XV. Lunafreya. February 2020. - First piece everĀ written for the year. - Intended to be a Luna-centric AU, in which the Nox Fleurets were deposed and sheā€™s now a regular teacher. Never managed to write anything beyond that, though, because residency. (Back then, I didnā€™t know it was gonna be the beginning of the end, so I had hopes. Oh well.)
irresistible!, or the summer ramblings of nene yashiro and everything that followed - Toilet-Bound Hanako-Kun. Nene, Hanako. March 2020. - First one published on AO3 for 2020 (yes, thereā€™s a distinction). - If you think the title sounds familiar, youā€™re right.
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first yuletide - Final Fantasy XV. Nyx. December 2020. - Written for the FFXV Secret Santa event on Twitter. - Before yā€™all object and say whatĀ unwinding is, thatā€™s an old fic uploaded late.
ONE OF YOUR FAVORITE CREATIONS FROM 2020
Do I seriously have to choose? Omg.
take heart - Bungou Stray Dogs. Dazai/Chuuya. Gods/Humans AU. - Discovered so much about myself writing this. Also (hopefully) I managed to get into Dazaiā€™s headspace correctly. Heā€™s an extremely difficult character to write, so finishing this brought so much gratification.
you donā€™t raise heroes, you raise sons - Final Fantasy VIII. Laguna, Squall. Post-canon. - Probably my most heartfelt work of the year- scratch that, ever. Also happy with how I just let myself go writing this and didnā€™t need to think twice.
A CREATION YOUā€™RE REALLY PROUD OF
oneiric moments (or, five nights with you) - Bungou Stray Dogs. Dazai/Chuuya. - Written for the SKK Fic ExchangeĀ for Summer 2020. - Five interconnected fics. 18,985 words. - Might not be a big deal for others, but this was taxing because I donā€™t usually write long, multichaptered stuff. I got carried away, though. It ainā€™t as well-polished as my more recent stuff, but Iā€™m proud of myself for pulling this off.
A NEW STYLE YOU TRIED THIS YEAR & A FIC THAT USES IT
I... donā€™t think I have tried anything of the sort. My repertoire is sorely limited compared to others, Iā€™m afraid. Iā€™d probably have an answer for ā€œexplored new themes,ā€ but again, Iā€™ve a limited arsenal, too, in that regard.
A CREATION THAT TOOK YOU FOREVER
all in a dayā€™s work - Bungou Stray Dogs. Atsushi, Akutagawa. Cells at Work AU. - Itā€™s still being written, with a lot of side stories planned but never drafted. - I fell out of love with BSD, recovered from that, then got busy with residency.
YOUR CREATION FROM 2020 THAT RECEIVED THE MOST NOTES KUDOS
Also take heart. While I amĀ proud of it, I guess it hit the right spot for mainstream shippers, too, somewhat? My feelings about mainstream things have changed a lot because of things, but I am still happy.
A CREATION YOU THINK DESERVED MORE NOTES KUDOS
amÄ«citia - Bungou Stray Dogs. Dazai, Chuuya. Final Fantasy XV AU. - Petty indignancy for my self-indulgent baby aside, Iā€™m also proud of how I wrote Dazai in this one, similar to take heart.Ā  the fun they had - Bungou Stray Dogs. Kajii, Port Mafia Ensemble. - ... Guys. Please notice genfics.
A NEW FANDOM YOU JOINED AND A CREATION YOU MADE FOR IT
Everything I wrote for Bungou Stray Dogs. (I kid you not.)
If you want a single answer anyway:
on the flaming mountains - act-age. Chiyoko, Kei. Princess Iron Fan Arc. - arc words:Ā ā€œwhat shall i do with this ire?ā€ - I wouldnā€™t really say IĀ ā€œleftā€ the fandom, more like it fizzled out after Matsuki-sensei got arrested.
A CREATION YOU MADE THAT BREAKS YOUR HEART
a cycle of; - Bungou Stray Dogs. Dazai/Chuuya. Medico-legal AU. - Written out of much anger and frustration over things. Also because this in itself was frustrating to write.
AlsoĀ  you donā€™t raise heroes, you raise sons. Because no matter how much I hate my family at so many points in my life, I know I canā€™t truly hate them from the bottom of my heart. This fic is a reminder of that.
A SIMPLE CREATION THAT YOU REALLY LOVE
express delivery for love - Bungou Stray Dogs. Dazai/Chuuya. Real World Quarantine AU. - Itā€™s funny. Itā€™s orthodox. Itā€™s sweet. I donā€™t think it can get any better than that.
A CREATION THAT WAS INSPIRED BY ANOTHER ONE
rather be - Bungou Stray Dogs. Yosano. Pre-canon. - Inspired by yesterday is another world byĀ @wctercressā€‹ - The whole of primum non nocere, actually, but specifically this one, and the rest followed. - This is also my first BSD fic. Ever.
A FAVORITE CREATION CREATED BY SOMEONE ELSE
... You sure? Thereā€™s a lot, and this is just on the surface.Ā (unleashes the proverbial waterfall)
The aforementionedĀ yesterday is another world by @wctercressā€‹
silencer and snow white days by EKmisao - Bungou Stray Dogs. Dazai, Chuuya. Dead Apple canon-divergent. - The aftermath of Dead Apple, in which one of two goes wrong. - Theyā€™re unrelated, I know. But theyā€™re both sisters! Just trust me on this. - The proper entry for this would be silencer, but I canā€™t very well mention one without the other, so have both anyway. I read both only this year, after all. Waiting for Godot by @eternal-aegisā€‹ - Bungou Stray Dogs. Dazai, Fyodor, Chuuya. Canon-divergent. - Amazing theme, amazing philosophy, amazing writing. It makes you think. It makes you analyze and explore. This writer definitely knows her stuff, and it shows. Catharsis by @gladiowritesā€‹ - Final Fantasy VIII. Rinoa, Gen. Caraway. Post-canon. - The denouement to the Caraway family drama we all deserve. I love how Rinoa is presented in this fic. Sheā€™s a normal person who makes mistakes and learns her lessons. So is Fury. Burned bridges donā€™t always have to stay down, and this fic illustrates that wonderfully.
CulminationĀ by @gladiowritesā€‹ - Final Fantasy VIII. Squall, Rinoa. Post-canon. - We canā€™t all have happy endings. This fic also illustrates that very well. While I, a Squinoa fan, personally ascribe to the happy ending Squall and Rinoa must have had after the events of FF8, this fic is so compelling and grounded and reflective and I totally buy this.Ā 
Here Without You by @muselover1901ā€‹ - Akagami no Shirayuki-hime. Zen/Shirayuki. Real world quarantine AU. - One of the sweetest stories Iā€™ve ever read this year. I can definitely relate to a lot of things in this fic. Iā€™ve been rereading all of Museā€™s ANS stuff whenever I feel down, and they all hit the spot.
Savor The Moment by @joeys-pianoā€‹ - Bungou Stray Dogs. Oda. Pre-canon. - Yes, yes, YES. One of the best stories Iā€™ve ever read this year, ever. (And I mean stories, not fanfics.) Great character study about a man named Oda and a day in his life and a page (or three) out of his book of relationships. The love poured into this is simply overflowing and precious. Iā€™ve been following Joey since this fic was being written, and Iā€™m so proud of him.
False Equivalences by @slowquotesquill - Dai Gyakuten Saiban. Asougi, Ryuunosuke. Fullmetal Alchemist AU. - This fic also! Oh, My Heart. The cynicism of a state alchemist and the optimism of a foreign doctor. It perfectly hits the spot for everything FMA, and we all know that SQQā€™s Asouryuu fics are always to die for. Itā€™s the ultimate combo.
The whole Promptober Leo/Will/Despair series by @eternal-aegis - Kekkai Sensen. Various themes, many of which are dark/mature. - Iā€™ve said this with Waiting for Godot, and Iā€™ll say it again: Aegis knowsĀ her stuff. This is her exploring further in that direction, and you can feel the improvement with every fic in the series. I really love how adventurous these stories are, and how much depthĀ you can go with every one. Her characterization is layered and exquisite, and the underlying lore is well-thought-out. - tl;dr: B3 Goddess.
Predestined by Galkimasera - Final Fantasy VIII. Rinoa, Squall. Reverse/Fateswap AU. - A veryĀ well-written reverse AU! The circumstances of Squall and Rinoa in thisĀ ā€˜verse fit so well and are so well thought out. I love this AU so much, you donā€™t even know. It also fills my nostalgic shipperā€™s heart with much joy at seeing quality content in this Year of our Lord 2020.
For auld lang syne, my dear by @by-nina - Fullmetal Alchemist. Roy, Riza. Canon-compliant + post-canon. - Holiday feels, snapshots through time, and all over showing Roy and Rizaā€™s budding relationship over the years. And it does remind me of a lot of the SKK fics Iā€™ve written (thematic-wise). This was such a treat to read and to follow. All her FMA fics are. She does Royai so much justice. Am not yet finished reading smoke without fire, but Iā€™ll get to that, too!
SOME OF YOUR FAVORITE CONTENT CREATORS FROM THIS YEAR
Everyone in the answer above. Thereā€™s honestly a whole boatload of more, but this is getting too long already lololol
(might edit this when I feel like it, tho!)
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virareve Ā· 4 years ago
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JB Exchange is over and I wanted to share the story I wrote and post about the writing experience as it pulled me out of my comfort zone and brought me closer to people in fandom. ( A new and exciting first!)Ā 
ā€Øā€œBut youā€™ve known me forever and now I have to say, I always say what I feelā€ was a bit of a last minute write-up. During the months we had to work on our projects, I languished and wrote new story beginnings over and over trying to find something that worked. A few weeks before fics were due I hit my epiphany, and then the dreaded work emergency happened. I had to trade my evenings for weeks of 60+ hour weeks to meet my new work deadline (August 7th-fic day! D: ). Since I couldnā€™t change that situation, I crossed my fingers and hoped I could turn the 600 words Iā€™d started into one whole fic during the weekend that the fic posting was happening. Work ended and exhausted from three sequential 12 hours days, I took the day after to rest and decided ā€œOh, hey, itā€™s cool, Iā€™ll just write my whole story in one day.ā€ (VERY BAD IDEA) the day I was supposed to writeā€¦I ended up in a car accident and got a concussion. šŸ¤¦ā€ā™€ļø ā€Ø
My concussion was notā€¦er..not greatā€¦It was extremely difficult to think about plot since I would get migraines and I sometimes struggled with understanding the scenes I wrote because of the constant dizziness and vertigo (that also made it a pain to stare at a screen too long šŸ˜¬). Frantic, I decided to seek help from the fandom, a first time since Iā€™m generally socially anxious, but I really, really wanted to do my fic well and had to accept I couldnā€™t do it on my own. I first went to @naomignome whoā€™d Iā€™d exchanged words over fandom but was still terrified to talk to and then I went to @kurikaesu-haru who Iā€™d never really talked to but who had stated repeatedly that she was willing to beta if someone needed help for the exchange. Both were kind about being willing to proof my fic (which I brought over to them the night the postings were due). Their reception and feedback was incredibly helpful and helped me shape a mishmash of varied attempts into something entertaining. Iā€™m extremely thankful for them and the fun experience getting their reactions as they read my draft was so affirming as a novice writer! :) I canā€™t say enough how scared I was going to them for help and it was so easy. They were so helpful and kind!ā€ØIā€™m quite happy with what I produced, but, truly, itā€™s lovely to know there are such great people in the JB fandom who will help you if you ask. :)
Thatā€™s it. Thatā€™s my story. JB People are cool and Iā€™m glad to be a part of it. XP
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montpahrnah Ā· 5 years ago
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@moonypadfootforever tagged me in this writing meme a while ago! thank you for giving me a chance to think about this stuff. gonna tag @sqvalors @zeiat @alwaysalreadyangry @batmansymbol @direwolf-summer @coyotesuspect @chocochipbiscuit @todisturbtheuniverseĀ @silkcoeur @ebp-brain @bigblackdogfic and anybody else at all who wants to!
ao3 name: Ā montparnasse, i went through an extremely short-lived les mis phase and always intended to change it but never did
fandoms: Ā mostly harry potter and dragon age, which has been the case for a long time, but i used to write for mass effect once in a while
number of fics: Ā 52
fic i spent the most time on: Ā definitely on southerly winds... my writing process is extremely chaotic and i donā€™t normally go through drafts of things or whatever, but i wrote one much shorter, very different version of it in the summer of 2013 and then kept sporadically re-writing it until it became something else.
fic i spent the least amount of time on: Ā the waking years, which i wrote in just a few hours
longest fic: Ā leave the children behind. itā€™s wild how you can write 54k of lie low at lupinā€™s fic and still feel like you have infinitely more in you
shortest fic: Ā redrawn, which i wrote for a kink meme back when those were a thingā€¦ the prompt was first times and i went with first kill
most hits: Ā let nothing you dismay
most kudos: Ā also let nothing you dismay
most comment threads: Ā let nothing you dismay! i have definitely (in my opinion) written better stories than that one, but i get why itā€™s my most popular.
most bookmarks: Ā you know it
total word count: Ā 538,380
favorite fic i wrote: Ā this is hard... it might be on southerly winds. i have a severe fondness for da2 in general; hawke/isabela and isabela as a character are very dear to me, and like i said, i spent a long time with this story--much more than i do with most--so iā€™ve always been very proud of it. i actually cried when i finished it, and thatā€™s no small thing for me... on the r/s side of things, itā€™d maybe be like tinder for ghosts, because i also spent a weird amount of time with it for as (comparatively) short as it is, and it also looked very different when i first started writing it, but i really feel like it hits most of what i love about them and why that era is/has been/will always be everything to me.
fic i want to rewrite/expand on: Ā lately iā€™ve been thinking a lot about amateur cartography and things i wanted to do with it but didnā€™t have time for, and directions i couldā€™ve taken but didnā€™t... not sure what will come of that but we will see. iā€™m also always thinking about expanding on brighten the corners, but part of me thinks itā€™s fine as it is/iā€™ve said all that needs to be said. itā€™d be a good excuse to write more about the midwest though.
share a bit of a wip or story idea youā€™re working on: Ā from the post-apocalyptic AU, under the cut:
Sometime in mid-Marchā€”heā€™d never remember the exact date afterwards, though he triedā€”he woke at around five in the morning to the sound of his phone about to vibrate off his nightstand, knowing itā€™d be work calling him in before he even squinted into the harsh LED display in the pre-dawn dark of his apartment, the name of the nursing home lit up bright and promising a litany of bullshit he wasnā€™t prepared to process without at least two cups of coffee in him. It was supposed to be his day off; it had been a while since heā€™d gotten two in a row, what with people quitting left and right and the unusually severe flu season that had lingered into the anxious thaw of early spring. When he answered just before it wouldā€™ve gone to voicemail the charge nurse on the other end feigned contrition for long enough that he closed his eyes and for three entire blistering seconds entertained the thought of quitting on the spot until she asked him if heā€™d like to come in to cover for whatsherface, another nurseā€™s aide who worked in the dementia unit and had finally succumbed to the flu sheā€™d been futilely trying to fight off with vitamin C tablets for days now.
ā€œYeah, fine,ā€ he said, voice scraped raw with sleep. There was nothing heā€™d rather do less but unfortunately he did need the money, and he knew what it was like to take care of sixteen residents by oneself and tried not to abandon his coworkers to such a dismal fate. ā€œIs that everybody now? Like, all the staffā€™s had it?ā€
ā€œJust about,ā€ said the charge nurse, ā€œbut Iā€™mā€”I donā€™t know. Usually hits pretty quick, once you get it, but it took forever to really get to her, didnā€™t it?ā€
ā€œYou think sheā€™s got something else?ā€
ā€œI think she shouldnā€™t have been coming to work,ā€ said the charge nurse, and Remus bit back a remark about understaffing and underpaying and bullshit policies that effectively required healthcare workers to come to work sick. Heā€™d already been written up once in the last six months; best not chance it. ā€œI guess sheā€™s headed to the ER. Sounded like death to tell you the truth, she was having a hard time talking.ā€
ā€œMaybe pneumonia,ā€ said Remus, ā€œespecially if sheā€™s been overdoing it.ā€
ā€œShe didnā€™t seem bad off yesterday. Just like a mild cold or something.ā€ Here, she paused. Remus would remember thisā€”he would always remember this, that in that moment of crackling digitized quiet from the other end heā€™d taken a breath and looked out the window, where the scythe moon hung high overhead among the cold peal of early springtime stars. Already there was a robin singing, just out of season, just out of time. Heā€™d never heard one so early before. ā€œThey took Murray a few hours ago too. To the ER, I mean. Last I talked to them they were getting ready for an intubation.ā€
ā€œWhat the hell. He was fine on Tuesday.ā€
ā€œHe was fine yesterday, just a stuffy nose and a sore throat. Then all of a sudden heā€™s got a fever so high heā€™s seeing things and he canā€™t breathe and heā€™s coughing up blood.ā€
ā€œHuh,ā€ said Remus, who reluctantly worked night shifts and thus had limited capacity for complex thought or emotion before about ten in the morning these days. He hung up and laid in bed just kind of languishing spiritually for a few more minutes before he got up and set about making coffee and oatmeal and laying out a clean pair of scrubs. He opened his bedroom window to try and hear the robin as the morning sky with its ten-ton gray clouds began to lighten, but it didnā€™t sing again.
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lachlann-macnab Ā· 4 years ago
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Task #16 Jukebox Musical/TV or Movie Soundtrack: come up with a playlist of at least 10 songs, write a scene summary to go with each one. Disclaimer under the cut.
Disclaimer: I, once again, decided to abuse the system. Nowhere on the prompt does it say that the scenes have to be related to a character I have, that's why I present to you: "The prompt, but short stories done with characters Jean would love to write but doesn't have the time to actually have".
Also, weeb rights.
*King Ā (English cover) -Will Stetson John KingsburyĀ 
Watch your back no warning warning Taking all my stress there's only just one thing to do Brace yourself for all my love's attack now Left side right side Bear your fangs it's time to fight Pa - pa - pa parade in shame tonight Left side. Right side. Bear your fangs and come alive Pa- pa - pa, Hah! You are king!
Mother always did like Richard best.Ā 
Screw that, everyone always did like Richard best, even John liked his brother more than he liked himself. Even so, when he had been declared MIA during a mission with The Order, John quickly became the first option (the only option) for everyone -he was on cloud nine.
His new comrades didn't quite like him, but John didn't quite mind since he'd make sure that by the end of that year they'd be kneeling to him. Just Ā like he'd make sure that Richard never, ever came back, even if that meant making allies with a certain policeman and some Magicks whose information he'd make sure to erase from The Order's databases.
Pa, pa- pa Hah! He was (finally) King!
*La mer - Julio Iglesias coverĀ  Basil RathboneĀ 
Mrs. Judson would have never expected to hear Julio Iglesias, of all things, coming from the flat. It was a strangely cheerful song for someone like Basil to hear, being the snob (not only musical, but general snob) he'd always been.
She was unsure about whether she really wanted to open the door, suddenly afraid of what she might find on the other side. Sometimes Basil would be immersed reading files upon files upon files, sometimes he would be languishing on the sofa while staring blankly at the roof, sometimes he would be walking around while talking to himself in a very obvious bout of mania -he was a wild card, that Basil, and the fact that she simply couldn't guess what he'd do next always worried her.
Worried as she was, she opened the door.
She found Basil staring at the portrait that hung just above the chimney, just...watching it.Ā 
"I have always quite admired Le CarrƩ's works" Basil merely said, without even looking at Mrs. Judson and instead keeping his attention on his own personal Karla while the song went on and on, silently hurting in all of the right places.
*Everybody loves me - OneRepublicĀ  Kuzco Apaza
Get down, Swaying to my own sound Flashes in my face now All I know is everybody loves me Everybody loves me
Kuzco was on a roll.Ā 
He felt the stares as he made the street his personal catwalk and kept (very loudly) chatting with his lawyers on the other side of the phone. The sun was shining surprisingly strongly that day (surprisingly for that side of the world, that is), it's rays hit his jewelry and clothes and made him shine almost as strongly as the star itself.
There was no way anyone could ignore him. And he couldn't blame them -he was fabulous! A gift of the gods themselves, almost as brilliant as the sun and twice (no, thrice) as charming!
...and he was shouting his plans to build a waterpark on Atlantis Lake. And, sure, people didn't seem to love the idea quite yet, but...?
At least they were staring. And they'd eventually learn to love him.
*Dramaturgy (English cover) - Will Stetson Hans WestergĆ„rdĀ 
All alone now no oneā€™s looking, act out in greed deceiving all their eyes But thereā€™s no real me that Youā€™ll find if you believe and I canā€™t find a single role that showed whatā€™s really there to see
He caught the eyes of his reflection by accident.
Hans had tilted his head and his eyes had almost immediately found his own reflection against the showcases, making him forget about his date (what was her name again? He couldn't, for the life of him, remember that but he certainly did remember how much her net-worth was and which medicines she needed to take at what hours of the day, just like her previous beau had needed to do before the "accident" had happened) and focus instead on his own eyes.
The thing is...he couldn't find anything in there; The baby blue went on and on but there was nothing beyond- behind it-
-when he moved his gaze, however, he found that he was smiling even if he didn't felt like it. And that his carefully selected clothes looked as they had been designed just for him to wear (and they had), and that his globed hands were still holding his date's recent purchases inside the yellow bag even if he found every item utterly tacky and a ridiculous expense.
He was smiling and looking good and doing perfectly. So why did finding his own gaze him the same effect as placing a mirror in front of another, creating a ever going loop of emptiness?
Was he not playing his part correctly? What could possibly fill that void?
*My Neighbor Totoro/Azumi Inoue Music Box ver - R3 Music Box Totoro SeishinĀ 
Totoro decided to take a nap under the sun while Chu and Chibi were busy playing with some squirrels. It was a sunny day and there was no place he'd rather be but outside, basking and feeling the grass under him.
At one point, however, he felt some extra weight on him. He didn't feel like moving or particularly offended by something deciding to lay on him, it was just amusing.
He couldn't be bothered to open both eyes, so he only opened one, finding a sleeping girl against his chest as if that was the most normal thing to do.
He smiled, closed his eye and decided that was quite fine by him.
*Delusion Girl - Oktavia Cover (TW Suicide and Mental Illness) Bernard Newhart
Every hero knows when theyā€™re needed, so, thatā€™s just what heā€™s born to be A man who manages throwing out his hand, Who doesnā€™t care if his own life is spared Such a feat like that, itā€™s a selfless act only completed in dreams And it stays like that for me With a crash Iā€™m trapped back in reality
Bernard wanted to help, he really did. He just...didn't always know how. Nor did he know if it really matter.
His partner always seemed to be five steps ahead and the Australian she'd taken a fancy to was just like her, if not a couple of steps ahead of even her. And it made Bernard feel like a third wheel, to question if he was really doing something worthy, if he had done something, anything sufficiently good ever and-
-he caught the girl's cellphone before she ever noticed it had slid out of her hands. And soon enough he was getting hugged and receiving many 'thank you's and- and maybe that was enough?
*The Lost One's Weeping (English Cover) - Will Stetson (TW Ā  Depression) Martin Ambrosius (Merlin)
And no matter how much time passes us by, Weā€™re drunk on sweet and hypnotic lies. With all our sources of hardened pride We try to erase and hide now
Martin would always act indignant at the question, and would always reply with a 'I am under no obligation to use my magic to explain or prove anything to the likes of you'.
He was Merlin's blood, for fuck's sake! He didn't have anyone to prove anything to save for maybe the Once and Future King himself!
Oh how he hoped, deep, deep inside, that he would never wake, that he would never ask any questions, that he would never do anything but keep dreaming his mythical dream and let him live his unmagic life.
He was a showman, he loved smoke and light and mirrors, he could fool anyone, anytime -but he knew that wouldn't be enough if (when) the time came, that the Once and Future King would need an actual advisor, an actual wizard.
He prayed that day never came to pass.
*When you're evil - Aurelio Voltaire Dr. Heinz Doofenshmirtz
It gets so lonely being evil What I'd do to see a smile Even for a little while And no one loves you when you're evil I'm lying through my teeth! Your tears are all the company I need
"Ah, Perry the Platypus! Don't shake too much or you'll make the laser sharks angry and- no, hey! the insurance doesn't cover laser damage to the roo- yeah, that's better thank you. You might be wondering what this is all about- you see, noone has decided to play ME so far so- BEHOLD, THE HEINZ DOOFEN-INATOR! (patent pending) WITH THIS DEVICE I SHALL HIJACK ONE UNLUCKY ROLEPLAYER'S DRAFTS AND SLOWLY BUT SURELY CONSUME THE WHOLE THING THEN THE OTHER POSTS ON THE DASH, THEN THE WHOLE BEING DISNEY PAGE, THEN- HEY! HEY, DON'T DO THA- I'M NOT DONE WITH MY EVIL MONOLOGUE!"
*DEAD HAND - anakin ft. IA English (Ferry Cover) Ā (TW Ā Nuclear Warfare mention) Major Francis Monogram
Oh this is overwhelming, time for the iron curtain call The panic is seeping through the fractured border wall My livid heart powers this reactor core ā€œOh this is all wrongā€ but I donā€™t mind at all Turn up the volume, execute the protocol You know itā€™s M.A.D. and itā€™s all about to blow What an unfortunate way to end this show I shed a tear as you vanish in the snow
Francis had zero interest in dealing with anyone's shit (save for his own or his son's, that is) ever again; He'd done his time and the whole thing during the fucking Cold War had done a number on his nerves.
He still could remember how all seemed lost, an adequately mad situation (of Mutually Assured Destruction, that is) had come to pass and everyone in the HQ was losing his mind and running around like a bunch of headless chickens-
-until he very calmly pressed a couple of buttons and the thing was ok once more. Some people cried, some people laughed, some people shouted.
(Dramatic bitches, all of them. They didn't have to cause a scene just because of the fucking coffee machine)
That was one of many situations that made him love his retirement and not want to let go of it.
*Gasoline - Halsey (Captain) John Silver
You're part of a machine, you are not a human being With your face all made up, living on a screen Low on self esteem, so you run on gasoline
'Phantom limb pain' sounded way cooler than it actually was. Silver would rather call it 'a pain in the ass' any day, but that'd be a misnomer since what hurt was his stupid (lack of) arm and not his ass and he was not risking some smartass trying to make a joke about his butt, thank you very fucking much.
Like, fuck, 'phantom pain' could be a sick name for a metal (heh) band. And hiding things inside his prosthetic was one of the few perks the whole thing offered, just like the fact that he could smack people with the thing without having to bother about hurting himself or dealing with that pain.
However, during that cold night he couldn't think of any possitives about the damned thing and cursed his rotten luck, his (lack of) arm and the thoughts that came along with them.
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buttercreamfrostedmurdercake Ā· 5 years ago
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SLS UPDATE!!!
Thatā€™s right! I ended up getting a series of ketamine infusions to pull me out of the nosedive my mood went through (like, just SO bad and getting worse for months and months). It did ~AMAZING~ things for my depression. Iā€™m still struggling with my anxiety but Iā€™ve gotten some of my meds back that were helping me so much (and was basically what helped me focus enough to write SLS in the first place) and things are looking up for the first time in more than 6 months.
So not a particularly inspiring or happy update, but it does mean Iā€™ve been able to write more SLS. I skipped ahead to the end in order to try and motivate myself (Claire and Lexā€™s fight is still challenging the extent of my dialog skills, and conflict-triggered anxiety, but Iā€™ve been practicing every day on my personal WIPs) and Iā€™ve now got a rough draft of the epilogue!
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Whoo! Progress! My epilogue is some 5.5K, just in case anyone was concerned that I had found some brevity or learned to distill my thoughts in my absence. NOPE. Itā€™s pretty much one big spoiler about how I plan to end things so I could post it if anyone is interested, but Iā€™m not going to spoil things for people who are just hoping I havenā€™t abandoned it. My plan right now is to dig out my old outlines and character studies to immerse myself back in the world. My themes and major beats are still intact, but Iā€˜ve lost sight of how I planned the major events of the third chapter.
So if youā€™re concerned about SLS, never fear, I might have an update soon. Like maybe this year. Perhaps even before the one-year anniversary of the first chapter. (ā€˜-ā€™*)
Oh man, Iā€™m so sorry to the people who read 20K only to hit a major cliffhanger and will probably not want to delve back in an re-read 20K just to understand the (planned) 40K second chapter (which will end on another cliffhanger). I love you subscribers. I promise, I wonā€™t give up. Iā€™ve read hundred of hours of Smallville fic and I owe it to the giants that came before me to add to the fandom (no matter how dead it is *cries*).
Me: Adding a few thousand words here and there on personal WIPs not meant to be shared while studiously ignoring my languishing published project. Also me in the sudden absence of major, unmanageable depression:
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quandongcrumble Ā· 6 years ago
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Writer meme thingy
tagged by @starlanellwrites
What is your total posted word count on AO3? (Go to your Works, then click Statistics.)
63,403 -- however Iā€™d have probably near 100k of abandoned or unfinished fic sitting on my Evernote, iphone notes, & google docs.
How often do you write?
Very sporadically. Sometimes I get a good streak up and Iā€™ll write daily for a while, and then I wonā€™t even look at my writing for 6 months.
Do you have a routine for writing?
Nope. I should, because Iā€™ve seen how productive people with routines are, but Iā€™m terrified that Iā€™ll just sit and stare at a blank page and then my anxiety will get the better of me, and writing wonā€™t be fun because Iā€™ll be all panicky about it and then... yeah... despite some brilliant antidepressants / anti anxiety meds I still have issues about putting pressure on myself.
Whatā€™s your favorite kinks/tropes/pairing?
Wow... thatā€™s difficult.
Iā€™m a multishipper and adore all sorts of pairings, however my favourites are Rhodey/Tony and Fenders. My thing is Iā€™ll fixate on a character more than a ship, and then Iā€™ll read every ship with that character involved. Current fixations are Tony Stark (Marvel) & Anders (Dragon Age). I also fixate on original characters within a fandom universe, but @s-hylor and my fiance are pretty much the only people who gets to read those.
Kinks -- Iā€™m a major sucker for BDSM, especially the masochism and submission parts. I live vicariously through fic because Iā€™m kinky as all get out, but my fiance is about as vanilla as it gets. I guess that was TMI but really, the question was about kinks :P
Tropes -- Oh gawd, all of them. Fake relationship with mutual pining is a huge favourite. Enemies to friends to lovers. Fuck-buddies to lovers. Found family. But then I also love the friends to lovers trope where theyā€™re just so in love with each other and everyone knows it, but it takes them a while to realise.
Do you have a favorite fic of yours?
I like almost everything Iā€™ve posted, but thereā€™s three that I am excessively proud of.
Promises [x] -- Rhodey/Tony gentle established relationship smutfic I wrote for the glorious @notfknapplicable after weā€™d known each other on here for a while. Due to our long tumblr relationship and my obsession with her fics, I managed to hit just about every one of her kinks for that relationship with it... pretty proud of that.
It goes like this (just like heroin) [x] -- on again off again Rhodey/Tony that explores Tonyā€™s trouble with addiction through Rhodeyā€™s eyes from the early years through to the end of Iron Man 2. I fucking love this fic. Itā€™s the only one I have insisted on sharing with people outside of fandom. I just... itā€™s in an experimental style and I actually wrote it all in one glorious evening, in probably just a couple of hours. Itā€™s probably the one I re-read the most.
Beyond Recourse [x] -- Greg/Tony omgdirtybadwrong twincest fic. Is it weird to be proud of a twincest fic? Doesnā€™t matter, I am. I feel like I captured a heck of a lot of feelings in this one, as well as some hot love/hate sex.
Your fic with the most kudos?
Promises (linked above) has the most. Coming in second is Lazy Light of Morning [x] which is a morning sex smut fic I wrote for @s-hylor.
I donā€™t have that many smut fics in comparison to non-smut, but the smut seems to be popular.
Anything you donā€™t like about your writing?
My fickle muse? I donā€™t know. I think I go mildly out of character a lot, but that doesnā€™t bother me as much as it should. I feel like a lot of my stuff is a bit same-y, like I canā€™t get an individual voice for characters that other people manage to do... I donā€™t know. I think I probably put too much of myself into the character I identify most with.
Now something you do like?
When things are flowing, I can get some serious writing done. Iā€™ve knocked out 10k words in a couple of days before (unfortunately, muse for that fic died so itā€™s a 10k beginning languishing in my drafts). I feel like I have a poetic way with words that can evoke a lot of imagery. I like when I succeed at hinting what the non-POV character is feeling without the POV character explicitly noticing or accepting it.
Tagging.... @dovabunny, @s-hylor, ummmmm @bonzai-bunny, & @phoenixfalls and anyone else who wants to do it. Please tag me so I can read your answers :)
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shepgarrus Ā· 6 years ago
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A Tag Meme
tagged by @onelassieandherfandomsā€‹ , thank friend :D
Rules: tag 15 but haha, no.
letā€™s go with some activity page people again <3Ā @misseffect @wiktoriagore @wntersoldicrsĀ @evilweasel24 @v27 @zaeedmassanis @thealexmachina @femvulcan there i did half of 15 thatā€™s solid, feel free to take a slot from the remaining 7 if you want to do this but didnā€™t get tagged!
Relationship status: single eyyyy
Favorite Colours: purple and deep bright reds AND I FOUND THE PICTURE WITH THE GREENISH COLOR I LIKE (the greens on the handle)
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Lipstick or Chapstick: chapstick and oh man last week my mom f i n a l l y ordered more of the type i like after weā€™ve been out for like half a year because we canā€™t get it in stores and iā€™ve been waiting since the winter and i canā€™t wait to not have constantly peeling lips (vaseline does n o t h i n g when your lips are already fucked psa and coconut oil isnā€™t enough to save me)
3 favorite foods: haha oh boy umm. well the pork rib chop i had today was super fatty and it was absolute hEAVEN so can i just say pork fat in general or pork with an asterisk that it be a good fatty cut. then i recently found out that boiled potatoes are god tier food for me. AND UMMMMMMMMMM god this is hard. idk what my legit third one is rn but lately veggies stirfries cooked with coconut oil and bacon fat and half-drowned in butter have hit the spot so good
Song stuck in my head: newest song my favorite singer blessed us withĀ (there are english subs) (and a dance choreo video if thatā€™s more your speed) but itā€™s notĀ ā€˜stuckā€™ in my head in the normal sense i just keep saying lines from it
Last song I listened to: wELL when i saw this on my tablet it had been this songĀ (it also has captions) but then when i got on my computer i put this on having forgotten about this question so iā€™m just outing myself more now lmao
Last movie I watched: haha fuck uhhhhhhhhh. i have no clue so iā€™m going to gUESS one of the hobbit movies but i honestly canā€™t remember and the only reason iā€™m pretty sure it wasnā€™t a potc movie is that i still have a potc au post languishing in my drafts waiting for me to rewatch them
Top 3 TV shows: merlin, RTD-era doctor who, first two seasons of orphan black
Book Iā€™m currently reading:Ā iā€™m not reading anything and i. canā€™t remember the last book i read for sure, thereā€™s like three possibilities lmao. fic-wise iā€™ve been too depressed to do my normal amount of shakarian reading but i have Gaps and Place Holders open to reread now thatā€™s itā€™s complete to see if i want to add it to my fic rec spreadsheet
Last thing I googled: ā€˜ao3 well. fuck shakarianā€™ because it was relevant to a conversation i was having with @misseffect (lmao and thenĀ ā€˜of gaps and placeholders ao3 mass effectā€™ just now to try and find the link but i ended up having to get it off my tablet)
Time: 10:01pm when i first answered this question but now 11:19 as iā€™m about to post it
How many blankets do you sleep in: 1-3 depending on how fucked and extreme the temperature is
Dream trip: dude the best i have is stillĀ ā€˜mountainsā€™ and as of last night watching some netflix absolutely nothing on the islands that have komodo dragons
Anything you really want: iā€™d love my cognitive functions/ability to write back and maybe some kind of life goal so i can actually fucking do something. but for realistic things look at what i found last night SEA PANCAKE EARRINGS but as per usual they follow the rule of thumb for canada and online shopping: The Shipping Costs As Much As The Thing, Because The Shit Conversion Rate Just Isnā€™t Enough Reason To Never Buy Anything Ever
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junker-town Ā· 3 years ago
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Lauri Markkanen is stuck in NBA free agency limbo
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Does anyone want the Bullsā€™ 7-foot sharpshooter?
Lauri Markkanen looked like he was heading for a max contract only a few years ago. Now, the Chicago Bulls forward and former No. 7 overall pick in the 2017 NBA Draft remains one of the few unsigned veterans in the league more than a week into free agency.
Markkanen has been considered a tantalizing talent because of his three-point shooting ability as a 7-footer. While that sounds like a useful NBA player in theory, Markkanenā€™s game never fully materialized during his first four years in Chicago. As the Bulls have replaced the front office that drafted him while making bold moves to reshape the roster this summer, Markkanen is suddenly in a difficult spot: heā€™s one of the few premier free agents remaining on a market with hardly any available salary cap space left around the league.
Markkanen has said publicly that heā€™s ready to leave Chicago. He doesnā€™t appear to be in the Bullsā€™ long-term plans, but the team also has all the leverage because heā€™s a restricted free agent. With the Bulls reportedly demanding a first round pick in any sign-and-trade deal, Markkanen is suddenly languishing on the open market with no immediate end in sight.
How Lauri Markkanen fell out of favor in Chicago
The Bulls acquired the rights to Markkanen when its former front office, led by John Paxson and Gar Forman, traded star guard Jimmy Butler to the Minnesota Timberwolves with two seasons remaining on his contract during the 2017 draft. Butlerā€™s former coach in Chicago, Tom Thibodeau, completed a trade that sent out the No. 7 pick, Zach LaVine, and Kris Dunn for Butler and the No. 16 pick.
Markkanenā€™s first season with the Bulls was promising. He averaged 15.2 points per game on 36.2 percent shooting from three-point range. The Bulls were terrible, finishing the season 27-55 as LaVine spent the first half of the year recovering from knee surgery, but Markkanen legitimately looked like a cornerstone piece.
The problem was that over the next three years, Markkanen didnā€™t really get much better. Neither did the Bulls.
Markkanen rarely showed the ability to create his own offensive looks, a problem that became even more exasperated on a Bulls team without a reliable point guard. The percentage of Markkanenā€™s baskets that came off assists climbed from 68 percent to 73 percent to 85 percent. On a team that lacked a gifted facilitator to get him easy shots, Markkanen often felt like a one-dimensional shooter who wasnā€™t that good at shooting.
The rest of Markannenā€™s game continued to leave a lot to be desired. He averaged under two assists, under one steal, and under one block per-36 minutes. For his first four years in Chicago, he had 301 turnovers to 273 assists.
Whatever scoring gravity Markkanen possessed wasnā€™t being used to make his teammates any better. Defensively, he didnā€™t offer enough rim protection to play center, and he wasnā€™t quick enough to stick with new-age fours on the perimeter. His rebounding numbers were decent, but largely uninspiring.
During Markkanenā€™s first four seasons in Chicago, the Bulls posted the worst record in the NBA.
The Bulls would revamp the front office heading into the final year of Markkanenā€™s rookie year. The new front office, led by Arturas Karnisovas and Marc Eversley, reportedly offered Markkanen an extension believed to be around $15 million annually before the start of the season. The two sides were believed to be about $4 million apart per season.
Markkanen would go on to post some of the best numbers of his career in his fourth season ā€” finally hitting more than 40 percent of his threes for the first time ā€” but it was clear Bulls management wasnā€™t going to wait around on a new deal before reshaping the roster.
How the free agent market dried up on Markkanen
The Bulls embarked on a busy offseason the minute free agency opened despite being over the salary cap. Chicago worked out a sign-and-trade with the Pelicans for Lonzo Ball (and gave him a four-year, $85 million deal), signed Alex Caruso to the mid-level exception, and completed another sign-and-trade with the Spurs for DeMar DeRozan upon agreeing to a three-year, $85 million deal.
There was a report that San Antonio was interested in taking back Markkanen in the DeRozan sign-and-trade, but according to ESPNā€™s Brian Windhorst, the Spurs werenā€™t willing to give Markkanen the contract he was looking for. The Bulls sent out Thad Young and a protected 2025 first round pick instead.
This tracked with a report from Kristian Winfield that Markkanen was looking for more money than teams were willing to give out.
Lauri Markkanen and Kelly Oubre Jr asked for too much money in free agency without the resume to back it up, a league source just told me. The market has cooled significantly on both with most teams out of money. Mavs ($15M) & Hornets ($14.5M) among teams w cap space.
ā€” Kristian Winfield (@Krisplashed) August 4, 2021
The Hornets would go on to sign Kelly Oubre with their remaining cap space instead of Markkanen. At this point, if Markkanen wants to get to a new team, itā€™s going to take cooperation from multiple teams to get it done.
What does Markkanenā€™s free agent market look like now?
Markkanen gave an interview with a Finnish journalist last week and said he was ready to leave Chicago.
ā€œWe have offers from several different teams. I want a fresh start to my NBA career somewhere else. Hopefully things will be sorted out quickly with the Bulls.ā€
Despite Markkanenā€™s desires, there are a number of reasons why thatā€™s going to be complicated. For one, thereā€™s a lack of cap space around the league. He also doesnā€™t yet appear to have any serious suitors. The Bulls still control his rights as a restricted free agent, too, with the ability to match any offer. According to insider Jake Fischer of Bleacher Report, the Bulls want to acquire a first round pick in any sign-and-trade deal with Markkanen to another deal, and Chicago is urging potential suitors to find a third team in the deal so they wonā€™t have to take any salary back.
In a perfect world, the Bulls would work out a three-team trade that sent Markkanen to a new team while getting back a first rounder to replenish the three first round picks the team lost in acquiring Nikola Vucevic and DeMar DeRozan. Markkanen would get the fresh start and new contract heā€™s looking for. The Pelicans, Mavericks, Timberwolves, and Hornets could all be possible destinations in a sign-and-trade.
Thereā€™s also a possibility Markkanen returns to Chicago on the one-year qualifying offer. This would give Markkanen the ability to become an unrestricted free agent next summer, while the Bulls could keep him as a bench piece for a team that is trying to win this season. While Markannenā€™s shaky defense makes him a poor fit in lineups as a power forward next to Vucevic or as a center next to DeRozan, the Bulls probably wouldnā€™t mind having another front court shooter in the rotation.
The Markkanen situation will get resolved eventually, but it could continue to drag out as the league now shifts its attention to the trade market. Still only 24 years old, Markkanen certainly still has a chance to carve out a long and lucrative NBA career, particularly if he gets to a team with a high-level playmaker.
A fresh start is the best thing for both sides. Weā€™ll see what it takes to get there.
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amillionsmiles Ā· 7 years ago
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end of year fic meme
tagged by @hailkuvira ; thanks so much, this was fun! (and inspired me to bust out the excel spreadsheets, LOL)
tagging @spacetravels ,Ā @sp4c3-0ddityĀ , @anakkinĀ , @leejinkihĀ  + anyone else who would like to have fun w. this
STATS:
Fics posted:
Tumblr exclusives: just going to direct to my masterlistsĀ tag, tbh
FF.Net: like weā€™re made of starlightĀ (TATBILB, 2148 words) are you having fun yet? (iā€™ll send you the sunset)Ā  (Big Hero 6, 9302 words)
Archive of Our Own: just the lonely talkingĀ (The Last Jedi, 1521 words) dj got us falling in love againĀ (Voltron, 5342 words) want your bad romanceĀ (Voltron, 2010 words) your hair was long when we first metĀ (Voltron, 7339 words) quantum mechanics, smirks, and other complications of the universeĀ (Voltron, 2501 words) is that a hermit crab in your pocket or are you just happy to see me?Ā (Voltron, 1840 words) youā€™re deriving me crazyĀ (Voltron, 6928 words) in the nook of a cousin universeĀ (Voltron, 13441 words) head in the gameĀ (Voltron, 7804 words) The Futureā€™s Open WideĀ (Voltron, 14500 words) you only live forever in the lights you makeĀ (Voltron, 1485 words) come out your wayĀ (Scarlet Heart Ryeo, 3446 words)
Total number:Ā 14, plus tumblr Total word count:Ā 89,174Ā 
Ship/Character breakdown: Ship breakdown:Ā for Voltron, 14 Plance, 6 Sheith, 1 Hance. Big Hero 6 was my usual Tomadashi, TATBILB was Covinsky, The Last Jedi was just Tico sisters feelings, so Gen. Character breakdown:Ā Lots of Pidge, Keith, Lance, and Shiro POVs
Characters that had the main focus:Ā My faveĀ Pidge got a lot of spotlight this year, and I wrote more Lance POV than I thought I would, which was fun!Ā  Besides that, Keith gets the narrator role for most of my Sheith fics, per usual.
Specifics:
Best/worst title? Best title:Ā Iā€™m not even ashamed to admit it because I have the humor of a teenage boy, butĀ is that a hermit crab in your pocket or are you just happy to see me?Ā was definitely my favorite, though it loses some points for being a mouthful, I guess. 2nd place would go toĀ youā€™re deriving me crazyĀ for the three-way pun. Worst title:Ā come out your wayĀ is kind of nebulous I guess
Best/worst first line? Best: i am become blade Ā  Ā  ā€œA knife is a close-range weapon.Ā  This is the first thing Keith learns, before the Garrison, before Voltron, before the Blade.ā€
Worst: welp, this is making me realize that almost all my fics start with just a single line of dialogue. I guessĀ are you having fun yet? (iā€™ll send you the sunset)Ā which just begins with:Ā ā€œIā€™m here! Iā€™m here!ā€ Best/worst last line? Best: you only live forever in the lights you make
ā€œSorry,ā€ murmurs Shiro, but thereā€™s little remorse in it, just a smile pressed against Keithā€™s temple, a buzzer going off in Keithā€™s head.Ā  A knee between his legs, their bodies aligning, and Keith thinks of that moment of grace when he releases the ball from his hands, watching it arc away from him with a held breathā€”and when Shiro finally, finally kisses him, itā€™s bleachers full of people rising to their feet, the thunderous roar of a crowd, the sweetest of sighs as the ball tumbles, headlong, through the net.Ā 
In case anyone hasnā€™t picked up on it yet, my heart will always beat for basketball and I think this paragraph really captures the feeling it gives, plus the Sheith kiss doesnā€™t hurt :ā€™)Ā 
Worst: come out your way Ā  Ā  Ā  ā€œAnd she smiles back.ā€ I mean, it works for the two characters and where they are at this specific moment, but itā€™s not particularly insightful or creative, so I do wish I could have done a little more.
General questions:
Looking back, did you write more fics than you thought you would this year, less than you thought, or about what you predicted? I think more! I thought it would be much more slow-going because of college, but going through this reflection has made me realize that I still managed to squeeze stuff in when I got bitten by the writing bug.Ā 
What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted last year? God, this was the year of the Plance Plance Revolution. I remember @flusteredkeith texting me about Plance in like May or something of this year and at the time I was still likeĀ ā€œoh that sounds cuteā€ but probs wouldnā€™t actively ship it myself but now.... here we are....Ā  oh worm Whatā€™s your favorite story this year? Not the most popular, but the one that makes you the happiest. My entire ballā€™s in your court verse, tbh, particularly the Pidge and Lance segments. More to come! :)Ā 
Okay, NOW your most popular story. On tumblr, hold it against meĀ got the most notes. On Ao3, in the nook of a cousin universe has the most hits and bookmarks, while hermit crab has the most kudos.
Story most underappreciated by the universe? My Hunk/Lance Sky High AU, tbh. I had so much fun writing it and was a little sad to see it sent off into the void, but Hance is a rarepair to begin with so I guess that was to be expected.
Story that could have been better? just the lonely talking; I really want to do more with the Tico sisters and their backstories but tbh Iā€™m still not as informed about the Star Wars-verse as Iā€™d like to be so a lot of the fic was just *waves hands*Ā  Maybe another time Iā€™ll take a different stab at it.
Sexiest story? Iā€™m vanilla af but I guess things get semi-steamy at the end of hermit crab, if you ignore the fact that the entire fic reads like a shitpostĀ  Saddest story? in the nook of a cousin universe. I mean, itā€™s a Kimi no na Wa AU, so that was kind of a given ;) Most fun? want your bad romance far and away. spin classes are something else, yā€™all Story with single sweetest moment? youā€™re deriving me crazy wins hands-down for best snuggles and cuddles all around.Ā 
Raising an eyebrow, Lance smirks, moving to the edge of her bed. Ā Feet planted on the carpet, he pats his knee.
ā€œCā€™mere.ā€
ā€œWhat are you trying to do?ā€ Pidge asks suspiciously, but she goes anyways.
ā€œNothing.ā€ Feigning innocence, Lance hooks her by the belt loops, pulling her closer into the cradle of his hips. Ā His legs bracket her on either side, and she laces her fingers behind his neck, waiting. Ā Itā€™s an old game between them, this process of making him come to her; Lance tilts his head back, smiling, and Pidge rolls her eyes, bending a little to meet himā€”
ā€”only for him to snake an arm around her waist and tip her sideways onto the bed.
ā€œLance!ā€ yelps Pidge, her bedsprings squeaking under their weight as they fall onto the mattress. Ā She means to say moreā€”something about how heā€™s a dirty sneak, but that gets swallowed by laughter when he starts tickling her, going straight for her neck.
ā€œIā€”hateā€”you,ā€ she gasps, squirming as she tries to bat his hands away. Ā Eventually, she manages to get a leg around his middle and rolls them over, though Pidge suspects it only happens so easily because Lance is happy to yield. Ā She ends up sitting on his waist, his chest rising and falling gently under her hands.
Hardest story to write? in the nook of a cousin universe, bc plotting was hell, and then also by virtue of it being a commission I felt doubly self-conscious about everything. But it was worth it in the end :)
Easiest/most fun story to write? want your bad romance because half of it happened to me in real life
Did any stories shift your perceptions of the characters? My Hunk/Lance Sky High AU actually got me to see how the Hunk/Keith dynamic could play out, surprisingly, which was a fun revelation to have. And then writing Pidge/Lance has made me fall back in love with Lance as a character, just realizing how genuinely good and fun and sweetĀ he is.Ā Ā 
Most overdue story? are you having fun yet? (iā€™ll send you the sunset)Ā  This fic had literally been languishing in my drafts for over a year and a half, and thatā€™s not counting the first seeds of inspiration for it, which had been around way before that. It felt really good to finally get it done. :)
Did you take any writing risks this year? What did you learn from them? This summer was the first time I opened myself up to commissions, and I was pleasantly surprised and honored by the response, so maybe Iā€™ll make it an every summer thing.Ā  I think taking commissions definitely taught me to approach writing with more discipline, which was nice.Ā  I also branched more intoĀ ā€œcrackā€ fic and found it extremely enjoyable, so hereā€™s to more of those.
What are your fic writing goals for next year?
Take more writing prompts, and train myself to treat them as promptsĀ instead of feeling the need to develop a whole full-length fic around it.
Finish your hair was long when we first met
Write more rarepairs for Voltron (heith and kidgeĀ are next on my list)
Start my Hogwarts seriesĀ 
Basketball-verse Plance Part 3 B)
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