#this was honestly just a rollercoaster of disappointment

[vagalumess]

A friend of mine is graduating, but she knows i won't be able to be there cause I'm flooded with exams until january and she just

messaged me saying she's gonna print a picture of me and take it so i can be there with her i???? the honor?? 😭

[statementlou]

ZAYN'S FIRST TOUR I can’t believe it’s over guys… like not only my shows, but also the WHOLE TOUR, it’s like a double punch, that was so fucking fun!! But also it’s just the fucking start, by the end he was having so much FUN, we’ve really got him hooked and cleansed of his demons now yall, it is ON and I’m so excited. It was weird having tickets first to the opening show of the whole tour, and then it got changed to somewhere in the middle, and then it got changed again to the LAST two shows of tour, a whole rollercoaster, and not getting the opening show after all was disappointing but in the end I loved getting to go to the end of it. I loved watching the lives- starting out saying, oh I’ll just watch the first one probably, but then it was so good and he ended up being so much fun that I just didn’t want to miss a thing, and the change from start to finish… honestly mind blowing. I went on the first SF night with fellow livestream gang girlie @justanothershadeofblue but also with @uhoh-but-yeah-alright and @homosociallyyours who had not been watching the lives or videos at all, didn’t know the setlist, etc, and seeing him up there just ON FIRE, yelling and bouncing and chatting, so outgoing and excited and comfortable laughing and teasing and playing off the crowd and hitting every mark… I could say to them, wow at the beginning he was so nervous and awkward and mumbly and would mess up and have to be like oh uh can we restart that song all the time and didn't interact with the crowd at all, this is really different, but how can anyone really believe that when he’s just owning the space and yelling FUUUUCK YEAH!! every couple minutes at the top of his lungs?? Incredible!! The BLOSSOMING we've witnessed these last few months has been a fucking gift, for real, I'm so proud and happy for him.

Anyway more specific show thoughts: I danced and waved my arms around like an absolute idiot the whole time it was great, he was SO FUNNY and fun, the energy feedback loop of him getting so excited by us being hype and it feeling so good to make him so happy and getting even more hype, SO FUN, I loved that he seemed to be genuinely excited by the idea of San Francisco for whatever reason even if he did call it San Fran about 8000 times like a giant nerd, like I’m very lucky to live somewhere where I get to see them at all but after how Harry and Louis for example play out in the outlying areas and plus treat Bay Area shows as an afterthought to deal with on their way to LA it felt really nice, and I also felt super blessed to get to go to the end of the zour because although throughout he had struggled some with learning to sing SO MUCH AT A TIME without losing his voice (Zayn HIRE HELENE) and had to be conscious of that, on that final night he didn’t have to worry and just went for it and it was EVERYTHING, and! Most important of all! Even though at least for me I think night one was superior on night two the most important thing of all happened, something I will treasure forever even though I didn’t get it on video and didn’t even realize what I was experiencing until right after it happened: I, bander, was in the room when Zayn Malik said my favorite Zayn Malikism of all time right there in front of my salad, I experienced the beloved WHOOPSEH DAISEH with my own two ears!! So grateful, so zlessed, life is good! He also said vas happening but idk what to tell you, I’m a whooseh daiseh girlie forever I loved every minute of this tour, and can’t wait for the shows coming up, and also the circumstances were so shit and it doesn’t make Liam’s death any less tragic nor have I forgotten: but I am really glad that as a fandom we got something nice and fun and happy during this time, we really needed that. Was thinking last night though about how when we got the tickets for this Megan and I were like holy shit we never thought Zayn would tour, now we really will get to see 5/5 playing solo shows together, we’ll just need to go see Liam sometime after this…. it’ll be 4/5 forever now. But not the 4 you would have guessed a year ago, and I am truly happy for Zayn that he's been able to feel the joy of performing again, and in a lot of ways probably for the first time it's been like this.

[artheresy]

Really hope 3.3 doesn't disappoint me because as of now, any lingering interest I had in Amphoreus' story kinda died in 3.2 with Anaxa

Excited for Dan Heng! I love Dan Heng! But Im on the fence about his parts because his writing has certainly been interesting this time around. And as for the rest of the Heirs, I like all of them to varying degrees but genuinely I'm not emotionally invested in any of their stories or outcomes. The extra time just,, wasn't enough to get me to really connect

And I hope 3.3 starts leaving some answers for us instead of purely more questions, bc I have a fuck ton of questions left about a lot of stuff but especially Anaxa and now Im just living with the question of if anything is even gonna end up being answered?

Like why tf does Flame Reaver act so strangely around Anaxa specifically? We see him in the trailer going HAM on the rest of the chrysos heirs easily taking them out, but he only gave two tiny tugs when Anaxa was snatching Oronyx's coreflame? On top of the fact that when he stabbed Anaxa, the HSR animations distinctly added the detail that Flame Reaver wasn't looking at Anaxa when he did it??

During the rest of that fight scene in 3.2, he was all for attacking without mercy the rest of them, but wouldn't even send a clone Anaxa's way on the sidelines despite him holding onto two coreflames? On top of his weirdly hesitant behavior at the Grove where hes just staring at him, and the info we get from the lil world quest about when he even arrived at the Grove but I doubt we'll get answers to that yknow since Anaxa's dead and it seems theyre speed running getting us to the next cycle with how many heirs are going bye bye this patch

I just feel plain confused honestly, unpredictability isn't awful but I have no idea where Amphoreus is going and instead of being fun to anticipate, it feels like I'm on a rollercoaster blindfolded and about to puke my guts out

I dunno, I dunno how I feel about this place and about this story overall, I like certain aspects even love some but it drains me as well, it really does

[just-b-wilde]

When my emotions had finally settled over the course of the day, I started thinking that the final scene can actually be interpreted in more than one way.

Sure, at first glance it might look like Nick is ashamed and guilty and wanted to hide everything from June (but who says he wouldn’t explain it all to her later?), and that June is disappointed because he “betrayed” her… but what if it’s not that simple?

Nick could be thinking something like, “I’m sorry, there was no other way, I didn’t want you to find out like this…”

And maybe June’s expression hints that she finally realizes her own share of the blame? Because who else but her knows everything she dragged him into?

God, I hope this is just a narrative trick meant to get the audience talking and second-guessing for another week… because if they make June out to be a b!tch again (sorry not sorry), I honestly don’t know how many fans she’ll have left—if she has any at all…

Honestly, if she ends up being cruel to Nick, then she truly doesn’t deserve him, and I’ll stop believing in her love, because no one should understand him more than she does… after all, her decisions haven’t exactly been pure as snow either.

Plus… she was right there when Nick was surprised that her father-in-law was home… so please… please let the writers have enough sense left to allow June to put two and two together...

But yeah, the song choice at the end, “The Blackest Day”, doesn’t exactly support my theory… so all that’s left is to take a deep breath and wait another week for the next emotional rollercoaster...

P.S.: And can I just say that I really hate how insanely dark the picture is in this show most of the time, ugh…

[911lonestar911imagines]

The Captain and his 'Captain' - Owen Strand x Reader

Summary: After icing you out, captain Strand decides to have a rather intimidating conversation with you in the kitchen

Warnings: Implications of future smut, making out, Owen being hot asf

You and Owen had been roommates for awhile, after a fight with your brother, Judd, you moved out, quickly finding your way to Fire captain Owen Strand, and you guys definitely hit it off as friends.

You had lived with him for about three months before he started avoiding you, harshly. As soon as you'd leave your bedroom you'd hear him rush out of the house quicker than he would during a fire. It hurt, but you didn't feel a need to say anything, it wasn't like he was your boyfriend or anything.

"Y/nnnn, So what's going on with mystery man?" Carlos asked, you two hadn't really been close but after he arrested you one time for being way too drunk, you guys started talking whenever Tk was busy working. "He's been giving me the cold shoulder for weeks! It's not what I was expecting after I cook the man a full breakfast" You huffed crossing your arms huffing. "Mmm" Carlos hummed smirking "Could this man..possibly..have a name that rhymes with Bowen Krand?" He asked raising an eyebrow "Don't judge me, Carlos! He's four years older than me! and you have a thing for a Strand so you understand" You huffed looking him up and down judgmentally.

"Captain Strand, if you like the girl why don't you just tell her?" Tommy asked raising an eyebrow towards the fire captain as they walked back to their rigs "It's not that simple, I wanna marry her, Tommy, but every marriage I have just goes down the drain" He groaned as he put the axes back into the compartments "Owen" She said in the same tone she'd give her girls as if they were lying. "Tommy she made my favorite breakfast, my golden milk, and got my running gear out before I ever woke up!" He yelled in shock "Oh you must be so smitten" She joked before stopping "Owen. Honestly, my advice is, if you like her...make her a nice meal, and tell her how you feel, you're Owen Strand, has anybody ever rejected you?" She joked, Owen smirked at her "Actually yea" He said crossing his arms "You're not gonna do anything I said are you?" She asked mocking his stance "Yeah" He smiled innocently, walking towards his office after finally getting the rig restocked.

You laid in bed, Carlos long gone, you were bored. Normally you'd be joking around and drinking with Owen and yet, not a sound in the house. Groaning as you got up, you decided to grab a snack before you got into the shower, as you approached the kitchen though, there stood your roommate. Shirtless and in sweatpants, attempting to make something on the stove. "Owen?.." You whispered careful not to scare him, he quickly turned around offering you a quick but soft smile. "Hey hun, how was your day?" He asked turning his back to you as he focused back on the stove "Boring..I guess..Owen, I don't understand why were you icing me out then all of a sudden you're happy to see me..." You asked walking around sitting on the counter, you weren't going to lie, being that close to a shirtless Owen made you nervous, very very nervous, but you needed to act cool.

"I promise I will explain all once dinner is ready" He smiled offering in response, you were a little disappointed at his answer but you tried to shrug it off "Did I do something wrong?.." You whispered nervously "What? No" He almost shouted grabbing your shoulders "Trust me if you did something wrong I'd tell you" He explained looking into your eyes, your stomach felt like you were doing a loop on a rollercoaster. "I'm-" He cut you off by the dinging of his timer "Dinners ready!" He smiled excitedly as he pulled dinner out of the oven. You stayed on the counter watching him cut and plate the food, watching every muscle of his flex and tense as he moved. Owen turned around ready to tell you to sit down, but stopped whenever he caught you staring, not even stopping whenever he caught you. That's whenever he got not only a boost of confidence but also a boost of cockiness to him, just by your stare.

"Ya know Y/n..It's rude to stare at man whenever he's making you a meal" He sassed leaning back against the counter, using the edge to purposely grab and flex his biceps while eyeing you down, trying to use any intimidation tactic came to mind. You froze feeling your body go hot in embarrassment, and that feeling was back in your stomach "S-Sorry I was in my hea-" he cut you off again by taking a few steps towards you "Don't lie, Y/n you're one of the worst liars I've met, and I caught you staring an extra minute after I caught you" He stated sternly, maybe you had pissed him off? or maybe just maybe..he had a thing for you too?

"I'm sorry I-if I made you upset" You started but he shook his head "Don't apologize" He said, his tone lowering, you took in a shaky breath watching him walk closer towards you. "Owen..." You said softly watching him closely as he got into arms length of you, resting his arms on the counter tops next to you "I won't hurt you" He whispered, stepping between your legs looking into your eyes. Holy shit. You were turned on, more than you had ever been before, he looked so damn hot, and you were trying your best to hide it, but the way he was looking into your eyes made you feel like he knew every thought you were thinking.

You felt his breath against your lips as he leaned closer "This is okay, right?" He asked calmly, almost like he wasn't making you a melting mess on his kitchen counter tops. You took a soft sigh nodding as you felt his lips brush against yours before feeling his hands sneak up around your waist. Owen had his own anxieties, especially with Mateo accidentally walking in on you two having a stare down one night and ruining the tension.

You yelped as you were suddenly in the arm, wrapping your arms around Owen's shoulders tightly almost like you were a cat about to be put in a bathtub. "Don't drop me, you crazy ass!" You gasped wrapping your legs around him tightly watching and feeling him jerk down a little bit. You looked at him, eyes wide as you felt a certain bulge in his sweats, now understanding his movements a moment ago. "I won't let you get hurt" He grunted holding you closer to his bare chest as he dropped you a few feet above his bed watching you bounce on the mattress.

"Don't want, Mateo walking in" He whispered before kissing you deeply, you could feel his hands next to your head, holding himself above you. You let your hand roam in his hair, which was unsurprisingly soft, while he pulled away from your lips leaving a small hickey on your jawline. You gasped starting to laugh smacking his chest "I have to watch Charlie tomorrow! If Judd sees that he's gonna know I was doing something with you" You laughed, watching him pull away to smile at you "You're so beautiful" He whispered, caressing your cheek gently "Owen..You never explained why you were icing me out" You said softly, playing with his hair, wrapping it around your finger "I...well..I realized I liked you..and I took in account my past..marriages that didn't end well, so I didn't want to risk it" He explained almost like a kid getting in trouble and having to explain what they did wrong.

You smiled rolling your eyes as your heard the front door shut "I'm home, Cap! Just getting some clothes to go to Nancy's!" You heard him call out, Owen looked at you in shock and fear, almost like he was worried what Judd would actually think. "Just shut up and kiss me, captain" You joked pulling him back down to your lips by the back of his neck, he laughed against your lips, rolling over on his bed to where you were straddling him "Better for my...uh..for my..back" He said, trying to find an excuse "Mhmmmm sure, Strand" You laughed kissing down his jawline trying to keep your smile hidden.

[watchinglikeafangirl]

I can be exactly what you want

I am currently rewatching Heart Killers because I already miss it. The writing is just so good, the actors deliver every scene and the pacing is great. I think episode 6 really stands out, there is a lot of stuff happening. The couples go on epic dates, Bison and Fadel try to kill Ruerat, they go back to their boyfriends and find out they are the snitches. It's brutal and such an emotional rollercoaster.

The last 2 scenes break hearts, it's everything. The way Bison and Fadel find out is STILL very in character. Bison finds out by following Kant because Kant will never share his intentions, he will always hide it and Bison is someone who falls hard, so he had to find out this way, so he wouldn't be able to justify it. He has to see the whole truth because he believes so much in Kant's pure heart (or whatever), he won't acknowledge Kant as the enemy (in that matter).

And Fadel finds out in the middle of his date and immediately goes back inside to Style. Because he is very good at controling his emotions, he never expresses many of his thoughts in front of other people and he keeps to himself. On the inside, there's a lot of things going on but Style cannot tell because Fadel is so much in control, letting those feelings disappear (on the outside) to keep a straight face. It's what makes this scene even sadder. He only ever cries when Style cannot see his face, when they slow dance.

I think it's very messed up how fast Fadel goes back inside, like he didn't even blink. Anyways, him turning on the music and chasing an honest and romantic moment with Style is true desperation. I think he wants Style to tell him himself, he's hoping this is going to be the moment of truth and at the same time, he just wants to forget about it, he desperately holds on to what they have.

He starts confessing everything, knowing it's over. Fadel fell so hard, he cannot bring himself to hate Style in that moment. He is angry, disappointed, frustrated, humiliated and sad but he doesn't hate Style at all. And that is his big problem. I think he tries to say all of his feelings in order to get over Style after. He hopes he will be able to forget about it later but then, Style does something he didn't plan, he listens and worships his words. He gives the love right back and that's what breaks Fadel entirely.

Fadel has two imporant lines and I think those tell us everything.

"I've missed you."

The way he delivers this line, my heart already ached. It's so deeply honest and I think it expresses how much Fadel wants to tell Style about himself. Fadel hides his true identity and it makes him lonely. So, saying he missed Style is not only said because they've been apart for a day, no it's because Fadel went doing his job and cannot tell Style about it. He feels lonely, he hides so much, it makes him miss Style. At the same time, Style takes him for who he is as a person, no matter where Fadel went. Style is not judging or afraid and Fadel feels kinda relieved being around him. He can be himself no matter who that is and when he's out there doing his thing, he feels too much responsibility. I feel like he meant that line in so many ways because he's so blatenly honest this entire scene.

"But I can be exactly what you want."

Honestly, that line, it hit me. It's meant on different levels because Fadel has some complexe emotions going on inside him. It's like he wants to say "okay, use me if you need to, I don't care" while also saying "I can be your enemy if you want". He wants to stay, everything in him wants to stay but he can't. He admits right there, he's very vulnerable and struggles to find the right motivation to move past this. He can pretend but he can't. He wants so stay, but he shouldn't. This line also clearly shows how much Fadel tends to put others above him. He's not showing a single emotion, it's still about what Style wants, what Style should be for him but Fadel doesn't show himself. He doesn't cry, he doesn't laugh, he's just a blank page, but his words say otherwise. It's very hard to read between the lines but by saying "I can be exactly what you want", he tells Style he knows. It's very twisted but this line is the moment Fadel decides to live in this moment while the truth is out and a part of them now.

And of course, we have the "I think I'm in love with you" to which Style just answers by showing the exact same intense feelings. Like I said, Style is not scared of Fadel and he really feels strongly about him. Soo, I believe a part of Fadel hoped their relationship is not ready for love confessions and he would freak Style out but no, Style makes everything about Fadel. Fadel makes everything about Style, what Style does for him and what Style can be while Style makes everything about Fadel and what he sees in him. A true match. So of course, Fadel can't look him in the eyes. Of course, Fadel hides his face. Of course, Fadel cries. Because why is Style so sweet when he just found out something so disturbing?

Needless to say, I started watching because of Bison and Kant and stayed for Fadel and Style.

[momo-de-avis]

.........

These past two days have been a fucking whirlwind but I cannot fully express the absolute rollercoaster that was that funeral. There was more joy than anything however. I was reunited with my northern family after twenty years and to these people it's like only a day passed. They were warm and welcoming and joyful and I felt like a part of myself was mended. I have their contacts now and I know we will see each other more. I miss Minho so damn much. The entire time I didn't feel I belonged there because I didn't know any of those people. During the wake, I was introduced not as my father's daughter but as my brother's sister. Some people didn't even know he had a daughter, but it was different at the funeral. People who worked with him his entire life told me my father talked about me, and they knew very specific things (my going to Coimbra, buying a house, graduating, health issues) which was very surprising. They just hadn't met me. The most bizarre thing was having the ministry of health greeting me and at one point, my brother slaps me on the shoulder with a glint of "don't fuck this up" in the eye and the fucking prime minister is there to give me his condolences. Those of you who have figured out who my father was, i suppose you guys understand now why I was always the black sheep of this small part of the family, why my brother tailored himself to be the perfect right wing conservative (our father was basically his hero) and labelled me as this rebellious leftist, why we butted heads so much. Politics talk was always very finicky and avoided. And why I tried my best to keep in the shadows. Idk what he thought I was going to do im that moment for him to look so panicked cause prime minister or not, the man was polite and respectful and it's a fucking funeral anyway. Next thing I know, I'm being told I need to read some fucking prayer at the podium in front of hundreds of people and being invited to parliament for a vote of "grief" by the government. I told them absolutely will not do either. But this is the kind of shit that I am so used to being scolded and villainised for I was terrified of saying no. But these people told me it's up to me, that it does not mean I care less, they understand. Nobody pressured me. It was a whiplash to be treated like a human when I said I don't feel comfortable being in the spotlight. Tomorrow at noon you will not see me in parliament.

My biggest gripe was my father's partner. Up until the funeral, all I felt was rage, rage for having hid his new child from me and for never introducing me properly to his partner. I was sure she hated me for some reason. But then she said "I need to speak to you" and what she told me honestly just ripped me apart. I think at that moment, when she held my hands and spoke in a way that made me realise that she understood things a lot better, and we both just cried in each others arms, I started to let go. It just didn't matter anyway. What's done is done. Then she said her daughter saw a picture of my brother and I and asked who I was, and she said "that's your sister" and the girl went "I have a sister?" And apparently is extremely excited about meeting me. It just pulled me back to my tween years when my lonely, depressed ass used to dream of having a big sister that could take care of me.

It was such a wild day. There's a part of me that healed just for being reconnected with my family. I miss Minho so much. I miss this family whose love language is being a fucking brute and cursing like a mf. I missed this sense of belonging I always felt with them. Twenty years since I last saw them and it was like only a day had passed.

I don't know what to take away from this. It's sad that it takes one dying to start healing from a lifetime of neglect and abandonment and disappointment but it is what it is. I feel I regained my family back. I feel I have my northern rib back in me. I never laughed and cried so much at a funeral. I don't know if the anger I was feeling up to this moment is gone, but it's fading and I have these wonderful people I was always so proud to call a family to thank for. I can now say again that I have so many cousins and so many aunts and I love them all.

Apparently I did not evade all the cameras but it was a regional news website so whatever at least it wasn't national news.

[katurdayss]

Caught up with the 9-1-1 finale after watching some live-blogging on tumblr and I feel like some things should be addressed.

I saw some comments about how having Latinos being Cartel members was racist because it reinforces stereotypes. 9-1-1 also has Eddie and his family, who have been main/side characters for multiple seasons, who are positive complex characters, whereas the Cartel was like 1.5 episodes. Complex, wide ranging representation is important and in this instance I think the 6 seasons of Eddie and family far outweighs the 30-60 min of Cartel.

"Gerrard was like the father I had" "I wasn't close to my father" are SUPER IMPORTANT LINES FOR TOMMY. It shows that he grew up in a household that wouldn't/doesn't accept his sexuality, that his past behavior is predicated on existing in various forms of Gerrard's toxic environment his whole life. That is until the Winds of Change in the form of Chimney and Hen started to blow in.

Imho, Tommy wasn't nullifying Buck's trauma by making the daddy joke. Putting aside the argument that Queer people shouldn't have to be sanitized to be represented on TV, Tommy could have just read the room and thought Evan needed a little break from the EMOTIONAL DAMAGE his whole day had been consisting of. I mean if I went on the emotional rollercoaster that Buck did in one day, you better bet I would appreciate my super hot pilot boyfriend making some jokes and giving me some space to just breath.

Honestly, the whole live blogging experience on Tumblr was really disappointing. I won't be doing that again. Instead I'll just watch the show by myself, analyze it by my nerdy-self and then come here to post and hope some fellow nerds like it. Somehow I spent 30+ years of my life in positive fan culture land and I really wish I never ventured out of it.

[apollyonics]

Thoughts on Rain World's Watcher DLC. Below the cut for spoilers!

My feeling on the Watcher DLC ended up being something of a rollercoaster.

The prologue gripped me immediately. I found it deeply unsettling - not only was much of the world barred from me by purple rot, which was exceptionally rare in MSC, but our familiar cast of echos were replaced with a single, reoccurring, extremely strange individual, who spoke with a jagged and alien cadence and appeared to take a particular interest in our Watcher. I was so unsettled, in fact, that I refused to speak to it without the dubious protection of a Karma Flower. This much atmosphere so quickly was incredible. Which, I suspect, is why my enjoyment kind of fell off a cliff once the prologue ended.

I am, by this point, fairly good at the game - I've spent a lot of time playing it and I've enjoyed trying to master as many movement options as possible. As such, I was able to conserve my karma flowers and move through regions pretty unhindered. A lot of reviewers talk about rediscovering that feeling of being lost from their first Survivor playthrough, but honestly the areas didn't feel... complicated enough for that? Because so many of them were fairly linear compared to, like, Chimney or Industrial, there was pretty much always one ideal route between portals, and you could run a straight shot between each of them. I never felt hindered enough by my environment to feel lost; moving through somewhere like Verdant Waterways was more a matter of getting from A to B than anything else.

I also suffered from not knowing that after like... Echo 3? You could make your own portals. I don't know if there was an instruction I missed or what, but for the longest time I was just running through regions entirely using the existing portals. As a result, I never saw any of the cool stuff I cared about from the prologue - I was moving through a lot of disconnected regions very occasionally finding the echo, and wondering why I was bothering moving through all these meaningless places.

That's another thing I missed from the base game - the meaning. I really disliked the portals. In base Rain World, there was a certain amount of blending between regions that made them feel like real places that were connected to each other. There's nothing in the Watcher that gives you the same feeling of progressive discovery as going through Shaded > Memory Crypts > The Leg > Underhang > 5P. That was a real disappointment in a game that I primarily love for its mostly environmental storytelling. I feel like even just like... grouping similar areas into larger regions could've helped this. Make all the desert areas one interconnected region, make all the stormy areas one region, etc. etc. Then we could have had some of that environmental narrative and changing landscape without sacrificing the portal thing.

After slogging my way through that middle portion of the DLC, my enjoyment shot up again once I got to the portal in Badlands and was dropped in Unfortunate Evolution. Suddenly, after hours without a hint of that cool ominous tone from the prologue, things were going crazy again. I was so intimidated by the infected Void Worm(?) that I refused to go over gaps without Watcher's ability active, because I did not want to find out what would happen if it saw me. I was fully engaged with the game again after hours of not really caring where I was going. Unfortunate Evolution also necessarily dumps you in Outer Rim, which was even better; I went left out of contrarian sentiment upon arriving, and immediately found not only the most interesting and deliberate-feeling environmental design I'd seen thus far, but whatever the hell was going on with the karma sign-backed climb to an empty room with a giant rot bulb. What the hell! Exciting. This also had the side benefit of fully trapping me enough to force me to go online and find out about the portal opening ability, which I otherwise never would've found.

Thus began the second half of my experience, where (after missing a key feature for ages) I finally caved and started using online resources like a map for echo and karma flower locations. This didn't really increase my engagement with the regions, but it did mean I found it less annoying. I found myself becoming fond/protective of Spinning Top, although I still missed the bonkers manner of speech they had at the beginning, and brought them all the way through to proper ascension. I enjoyed the final speech, though I found Ancient Urban kind of underwhelming. It was nice getting my Ripple to the point where I could either access Ripplespace or have the best version of camo, also. Overall it didn't super grab me, but I liked what it felt like they were trying to say.

By this point I knew I could get somewhere by repeatedly returning to Outer Rim, though, so I went and did that, and oh my god! The Prince! I loved them. The sense of something dark ascending the first few times you make the climb contrasted with the affectionate, adoring being you eventually get was such a clever move; it was fascinated to be so beloved by the creature eating the world. I really think you need to do both endings, because you really understand more about the themes of trauma and isolation, of bitterness and forgiveness, far more if you meet both the main characters; the careless and generous Spinning Top, who eventually chooses to grow beyond and to move on, and the Prince, who loves everything so much they cannot let anything escape their grasp, even unto the end of the world, and the end of you, their most precious.

I don't know if I just got lucky with my portalling or what, but the last part where I was acting as harbinger for the Rot felt like it went way quicker than the rest. Maybe it's because it made the game more difficult again, so I had to be more careful about when I got into combat and the like. It felt like I had momentum, though, and I moved through it quite quickly. I definitely felt like I was ending the DLC on a high note.

I'll be real, I don't know what the second ending was about yet - something about how clinging with both hands instead of moving on doesn't actually save you from loss, maybe? - but as I understand there's more Watcher content to come, so perhaps I'll have more thoughts later.

Overall I like it less than the vanilla campaigns, and I like the story a bit more and the gameplay a bit less than MSC. Comparatively that means I still enjoy it a ton more than most games I've played, though, especially since they're tweaking things like putting the portals on the maps, so in general a positive experience as long as you temper your expectations a little.

[pommunist]

Honestly, I've been very scared to keep posting about the situation, since I don't want people who follow me to think I'm ''too negative'' or judge me when I'm not remaining as positive as before, or to bring negative posts to dashes of people that I know are very stressed about this. And I appreciated before how you are a safe place for neg thoughts, so I'm here to vent a little bit if that's okay.

My experience since the reveal can be described as a rollercoaster that only has been going down.

I was incredibly stressed when Lèa revealed everything, but remained hopeful that things could change for the better. I had trust.

At first, the next few days after that, I thought the leaks of the changes made were odd since they looked like they lacked context, and the lack of context could lead to fandom outrage, which I was worried about at the time. Why was I worried? Well, I still had trust right things were in progress to be done. Looking back into that, while we got the context later on and it reassured me then, not jumping into immediate conclusions and waiting for more points of views was more my way of protecting my mind from spiraling further into distress, all while knowing full well that Lèa has only acted with the best intentions and none of this was in bad faith.

Then we get hit with this: Admin after admin are leaving, and it gets to the point that Lumi and Shade leave, because the communication never existed in that workplace and priorities were proved to be incredibly out of place. My trust was B R O K E N. And like I promised an anon back then, I finally allowed disappointment to sink in.

And why was my trust broken? Fun fact: When it matters to me, I have good memory, and I remember Q's statements. The words and the actions are not matching.

- He said that he was going to collect testimonies and investigate. Ah yes, the investigation tactic of not contacting anyone in the workplace and actually gathering their testimonies, I heard it's a good source of information to make important changing decisions /srcsm.

- He said the CCs were being updated about the changes. Then we see CCs saying they actually don't know shit going on bts except for a couple of general announcements.

And there may be other stuff that does not match, but those two are the most relevant to me right now.

Like, genuinely I didn't even care about whatever the fuck Q said after Lumi and Shade's statements, and any other post that tries to reassure the fanbase just feels like very hopeful thinking, that I used to have, but I DON'T anymore. It feels like false promises and looking for things that make sense, when, really, that shouldn't be our job. At this point I need tangible proof of improvement, not just words because these fucking words have proved to not be enough for me to believe whatever the fuck Q says it's being done.

I can't even trust fully that the merch money will actually go to payment for the remaining admins and compensation for the ones who left. That would be the best case scenario, but can I even TRUST this scenario to occur? Right now, no, I don't think so, I have not been given proof to trust this. And seeing any merch with Pomme, Dapper or Ramon in the Qsmp Awards just felt extremely wrong and I hated it.

When you are a Huevito, this has been wild: First, Artea leaves, and then, Shade reveals to us that Ramon's OG admin was fired around the time Artea took the role, while this entire time most of the Huevitos thought the OG admin was back around the last days of february. It feels worse when you can connect the dots about what happened with Ramon's OG admin, when we know that he was extremely busy with school last time we saw him, and we consider Lèa saying how management would fire you if you were not active enough...

Must clarify, all the love to BOTH Ramon's OG admin and Artea, they both killed it with the role, they are both wonderful people and I wish the best to them and the new Ramon admin that was with us at the beginning of march aswell. Also all the love to them. Must be hard to play a character that was played and developed by two different people before, and the effort is deeply appreciated.

I also feared to say the above since I was scared to spread misinformation somehow. But honestly, I'm trusting Shade's words, you know, the one who's best friend irl with Ramon's OG admin should know full well what they are talking about and the status of employment of said best friend.

And when you have been a ghostie for months since basically the beginning: This shit SUCKS and people are SO EXTREMELY VALID for being upset and grieving.

I think no company should ghost their employees even when they are ACTIVELY TRYING TO REACH OUT. Fucking paranoia of leaks ain't cutting it for me as an excuse for this mistreatment and I don't blame Lumi and Shade at all for taking the decision that was healthier for themselves after that. Just a ''we can't say much right now due to legal reasons, but we are still slowly working on it'', LITERALLY JUST THAT HAD TO BE SAID, WDYM NOT EVEN THAT.

The french community have every right to be angry after this. The CCs stated they were leaving if Lumi left, and that's an entire language going away from the server. Yeah, no shit they are upset.

And I want to just grab Bad by the shoulders and say YOU DO NOT HAVE TO PLAY ON THE SERVER IF YOU DON'T WANT TO, YOU ARE CLEARLY DISTRESSED, DO WHAT'S BEST FOR YOUR MENTAL HEALTH AND WELL BEING, WE UNDERSTAND.

Of course I want this to turn out for the best, like everyone. I believe the basis of this project was a wonderful idea, and I'm grateful for the positive things it had brought. But this shit is not being resolved the right way, as we could see. And with Q seemingly no understanding the underlying issue, then why would I remain as hopeful as before.

Another fun fact: When you break my trust, it's really fucking hard to gain it back or for that to happen in the first place, so.

I have stated that my hyperfixation to Qsmp has died out, since I decided to keep my distance in order to collect my thoughts, reflect, breathe and do what's best for myself. Nowadays I only would watch two specific CCs play, but if at some point they decide to leave, which I would not blame them if it reached that point, then that would be it for me. I would be done with it. I don't blame the people who also feel this way or the ones who think it is already over.

If I'm only staying here it's purely for love for this community. In the anniversary, I could not bring myself to say happy birthday to the Qsmp, I said happy birthday to Qsmpblr instead. I love the people I have met and interacted with here dearly. Even if our opinions don't match, because hope and trust have left me, the love is still there, you know?

That would be everything I wanted to get out of my chest, sorry for the big text and angry rambling. I would prefer to stay anonymous for this one. Take care, Pommunist.

Hey anon ! I don’t really know what to say in response to all this, just that I agree with most of what you just said here.

The feeling of being afraid that you’re being too negative too often ahah big same here ! I didn’t think my blog would turn into what it is when i made it, and I felt many time like I was bothering people with my frequent posts on the situation (I also know I’m not the best at tagging stuff I promise I try my best though !).

We have to remember that we aren’t being negative for fun or drama, we are just talking about a situation that is negative so of course this isn’t going to be fun and rainbows. And personally I’d rather do that than « faire l’autruche » as we say in french (Translation would be : to do the ostrich aka to put your head in the ground so you can ignore your problems), as it is too serious of an issue .

Also using your post to express my admiration and gratitude to Ramon’s OG admin and Artea because they both did an amazing job playing him and shaping him into the character we love so much (Our beautiful baby boy).

And yes, the community is great ! Even if you don’t feel like watching the server or at least less than before, we should still interact with the wonderful people thanks to it ! Also, keep sharing fanarts, fanfics, anything ! the artists are blessing us with wonderful art and stories they still deserve our support ! I understand people who do but we don’t have to stop talking about something we love altogether if we don’t want to, the things that made us like it are still here, at the end of the day we can keep that love at least.

My thoughts are so disjointed here anon I’m sorry but lots of love to you ! As someone who was hyper fixated on it too, the fall from grace was particularly painful, can relate 😣

I’ll reiterate that I don’t mind anons at all, you don’t have to justify yourself ! It just makes a bit sad the number of people who told me they didn’t feel like they could express their thoughts publicly.

Take care too ! ♥️

[bibibbon]

Yo! I see you rant about JJK on occasion which is cool I'm a fan of that series.

Just not the recent leaks.

Are you caught up on spoilers? Because Bibi... I have things to say about JJK's creative choices, especially what Gege has done recently.

I'm not happy.

Hi anon 👋

Sadly, Iam caught up with canon and the horrendous rollercoaster that is gege akutami's creative writing choices. I know I don't rant much about jjk but I honestly plan to start doing that, I am just busy at the moment and I am making character analysis and all before ranting about leaks like I do with MHA.

In all honesty I have always had problems with gege's writing here and there but they have never been big enough until we reached the culling games and the nonsense that happens after it.

The 261 leaks are disastrous and a huge disappointment. Look I really don't mind if Gojo came back or died but I truly despise the way he chose to make yuta hella overpowered. I did like the fact that we got an acknowledgement of how society has dehumanised Gojo by making him the strongest but you would think that a story about the younger generation breaking cycles they wouldnt choose another hierarchy type system but in the end they do? Yuta coming back in gojos body was what I hated most really like I liked yuta acknowledging gojos feelings and all but Dam I don't know what gege was thinking here.

Iam afraid that gege has forgotten about megumi and nobara. Like Iam pretty sure megumi has taken a lot of damage so him coming out miraculously unscathed would just be bs plot armour and all. On the other hand, the way you're telling me after like 100+ chapters of no mention of Todo he comes back? And then we just forget completely about nobara?!?!?! It's infuriating.

Also my final mention is what gege truly plans with yuji itadori. Look I get that geges writing of his MC doesn't follow the traditional shonen MC formula which is something I really like but I genuinely expected for yuji to be the one to fight from right on here and we get more of megumi (heck even insert nobara) instead we get yuji sidelined and we get yuta in gojos body. At least if it was nobara coming into the battle of would at least work because she is close to yuji and it's basically the trio reuniting with eachother in a cruel way.

I have more to say but I will keep it short as this is getting too long

[delectablyhumongousstarfis--blog]

Well… that was quite the emotional rollercoaster. I have a lot of thoughts.

Firstly, I am over the moon about the callowmoore shenanigans! I love me a slow burn (pun absolutely intended). Pure fucking awkward chaos - nom nom nom! I don’t think the events with the shard spell the end of anything. We’ve seen romances weather worse storms. Remember that one time that Yasha nearly killed Beau? I love their whole dynamic and I’m excited to see it hopefully blossom into something more, and how they deal with all of this.

I’m disappointed that Ashton took the shard, but honestly that’s mostly because I think the narrative is going to be worse/less compelling for it. Seeing Fearne and Ashton learn how to navigate such a connection to another person is infinitely more interesting to me personally than Ashton adding to their already complex stack of abilities. Not saying it’s bad, or uninteresting, just less so than what could have been.

While watching Ashton nearly get shattered (again!!) was incredibly stressful, it was also the kinda high-stakes drama I enjoy. I’m really looking forward to the conversations that’ll come from this in the next episode.

After 4SD, I’m of the opinion that Fearne was scared of the power the shard holds and the potential of being corrupted by it. I also think part of it might have been not wanting to steal Ashton/Tal’s thunder. For Ashton, I reckon it was a combination of things. From their perspective, they’ve been a nobody their whole life, they finally have an opportunity to be a somebody. They want to take hits so others don’t have to. They want to be a hero. I think I get why we ended up here.

Am I a little mad at the characters for being kinda stupid? yes. Am I glad the cast RP their characters making stupid decisions? Also yes. As dumb and avoidable as this all might have been, it was a great piece of entertainment.

I’m surprised that I’ve yet to see anyone talk about Imogen and Laudna being so ready to abandon Ashton when they thought they were going to die… especially considering Ashton’s history. Even more so when looking at Ashton’s own reaction to other party members being close to death. I really hope that gets discussed at the table at some point. Could get some juicy RP moments.

I think I’ve rambled enough for one evening. Really looking forward to next week’s episode, let the drama begin!!

[ishikawayukis]

prev anon back again to say i fully get it from a writers perspective. like, booktok gets a Lot of flack that it doesnt deserve and i'll admit it (people SHOULD be allowed to enjoy whatever they want to read), but theres way too many people willing to jump on legit criticism because "how dare you insult this book that i like and therefore are insulting me" (or the writer, to which some people white knight HARD for) when i think all books are allowed to be fairly critiqued, especially if they're presenting themselves AS serious and emotional media by the writer/the marketing. i said it to a friend the other day but i'm not going to judge silly satire that presents itself as such the same way as i would a book that the author is selling me as a serious, emotional rollercoaster of a romance when i open it up and it's just 99% smut and 1% bad characterization. there's literally nothing wrong with smut, but that's clearly not what i was being sold and i should be allowed to say that, y'know?

and i feel like the same can and should happen for other forms of art. you said in your tags that personality isn't the correct word but honestly, i think it fits pretty well? some groups (and singers in general) really have been losing their unique voices in order to sound like everything else on the radio because its what gets the most attention. some artists outright acknowledge it sometimes when they've had enough and want to make music that They enjoy again (im p sure lady gaga was worried about returning to her old sound with abracadabra for this exact reason? but i'd have to look it up to know for sure). some people just take any criticism on things that they like as an attack on them, and its just kinda depressing because plenty of people DO have the mindset of "if you enjoy this, great! feel free to tell me why! but i wanna talk about why i dislike it as well just because i deserve to be able to have my opinion publicly" rather than "this is bad and if you like it then you're also bad/dumb/etc for thinking its good." obvs the latter exists, but plenty of people do just want to have a discussion

also idk maybe this is just me thinking as a writer, but i wish people would step away from this mindset that i think has been a much more recent development that art is something that should just be enjoyed and nothing else. it feels like we've swung away from "art is useless, who uses art?" to "why should i think deeper about any of the things that i consume? i just want to have fun" when analysis CAN be fun! people post fun metas about literally anything they're passionate about all the time! video essays celebrating media has been a thing for a while now! being able to say "i like this song because the backing track is fun and poppy and the lyrics make me feel something" IS thinking deeper about things just as much as "the lyrics are too repetitive and the choreography feels it was made for tiktok in a really jarring way" is.

sorry for ranting a lot in your asks haha i just have a lot of strong feelings and thoughts aaaaand im not even going to touch on the fact i found out after i sent that ask that they're releasing a song thats less than two minutes with a feature... because the disappointment and annoyance i felt... its. its a lot. literally i have so much love in my heart for these two, they were two of the three that i really started stanning svt for (vernon was the other lmao). im just sad :(

first don't apologize for ranting i truly love it when people do that because like you said! i wanna have discussions about things as well without them being immediately brushed aside because it's fun! that's the whole point of creating a community with people that are into the same stuff as you, because the other option is everyone mindlessly liking and repeating the same things without any thought behind it and that's just a scary thought.

there's this black or white mentality when it comes to art and enjoying lately that if you like it you have to back it up 100% and if you don't like it you're a hater that deserves all the death threats because how dare you insult this author that i like that was selling you something that wasn't (also what you said it's the main reason why i'm into into romantasy because it feels like a barely there plot that was built around the smut scenes and hard pass lmao)

and yes exactly, i'm 100% down for artists of any kind to be able to explore their art because what's the point otherwise if i can't be constantly branching out and discovering new things and techniques and trying new trends and what not, but at the same time fans should be allowed to walk away if it's not for them anymore and have open and respectful opinions about why it isn't for them anymore and also being allowed to comeback basically to be a fan whenever they want to, it's not a contract it's not a job and like you said analysis and sharing opinions can and it is fun! obviously while keeping everything respectful which can be done. and dude i am such a hater of the concept of "consuming content" because it feels so mindless, and it ties with what you said as well. i get wanting to turn your brain off sometimes because everything is A Lot all the time but it also should be encouraged to put the thought behind on why you like or dislike something

and yeah a song, especially a feature being under 2 minutes it's just...... for me it feels like what's the point of it then because it feels like there's no exploration for it if it makes sense, there's no room for the song to grow and to lead you somewhere it begins and it ends just so that it can prob fit into a video and make it easier to fit into a trend

[puppetshcw]

⸻ STUPID CUPID'S TOMIE SPOTTED CELEBRATING BEST FRIEND'S BIRTHDAY AMID BREAK ANNOUNCEMENT: FANS EXPRESS MIXED REACTIONS ❞

in an unexpected turn of events, STUPID CUPID's TOMIE has found herself at the centre of controversy after being spotted at her best friend's birthday party, just days after the group announced a hiatus. the revelation has left fans puzzled, stirring a whirlwind of speculation and mixed reactions within the k-pop community.

TOMIE, who recently took a break citing exhaustion, was photographed enjoying the birthday festivities, seemingly at odds with the narrative of prioritizing rest and recuperation. fans, initially supportive of TOMIE's decision to focus on her well-being, now find themselves questioning the sincerity of the hiatus amidst this surprising turn of events.

the controversy has sparked discussions on social media platforms, with fans expressing a range of emotions from disappointment to frustration. some argue that TOMIE's presence at the celebration undermines the legitimacy of the announced hiatus, while others extend understanding, acknowledging that artists also need moments of joy and connection.

STUPID CUPID's agency, MIGHTY DEVIL RECORDS, has yet to comment on the situation, leaving fans in suspense about the group's future plans and how TOMIE's recent actions may impact their comeback timeline. the incident has injected a sense of uncertainty into an already challenging period for the popular k-pop group.

as the controversy unfolds, fans are left eagerly awaiting clarification from both TOMIE and the agency, hoping for transparency and insights into the circumstances surrounding the unexpected birthday appearance. the incident has added a dramatic twist to STUPID CUPID's hiatus narrative, leaving fans on the edge of their seats as they navigate this rollercoaster of emotions.

TELL US WHAT YOU THINK ABOUT THIS ARTICLE

⸻ NETIZENS' REACTION:

⠀⠀⠀ [ +713, -314 ] wow... and she goes partying after making such a big deal about taking a break... i see how it is. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⤷ [ +812, -194 ] so now she can't even celebrate her best friend's birthday?? what kind of thinking is that?

⠀⠀⠀ [ +389, -324 ] when it comes to everything else, mighty devil rushes to say something but for this they stay quiet. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⤷ [ +381, -109 ] i'm sorry, but what is there to say? "oh, we're sorry tomie has a life and you don't"??

⠀⠀⠀ [ +492, -158 ] some of you guys are reaching.. she didn't go on a break because she has sickness, but because she's tired from being overworked. she'll literally go back to getting rest after just one day of partying.

⠀⠀⠀ [ +150, -47 ] so did everyone seem to forget her birthday was literally yesterday?? you guys are focusing on wrong things.

⠀⠀⠀ [ +294, -127 ] honestly i don't care, it's not like she's outside getting everyone sick. i just want their next album to drop out soon!

⠀⠀⠀ [ +442, -158 ] oh wow. allkpop is not kidding about delivering the news fast. the photos dropped out not even an hour ago

[the-kr8tor]

KATYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!

I JUST READ CHAPTER 15 (SPOILER ALERT, SPOILER ALERT, SPOILER ALERT)

AAKSHYAHDINDUDHD THAT WAS A ROLLERCOASTER OF A RIDE. MY FRICKING HAPPY ENDING, AKANSHAJHSJD I LOVE YOU SO MUCH (RESPECTFULLY)

OMG OMG OMG I CRIED. I CRIED REAL TEARS. I CRIED REAL TEARS AND MY EYES ARE WET.

BUT THE ENDING AKAJAHVSISMKDKDJRJ I'M SOBBING WITH JOY AND SADNESS IT'S SO BITTERSWEET

THIS IS MY NEW ADDICTION. WHEN I SAW THE NOTIF I LITERALLY SCREAMED AND MY SISTER TOLD ME TO SHUT UP

AJWJAJJSJDJ GHOSTFLOWER/GWILES MADE ME SOB. AND HOBIE OMG I CAN'T ANYMORE I FEARED FOR HIS LIFE. And MIGUEL OMG I KNEW I COULDN'T HATE HIM THAT MUCH. Lyla my bae AND YURI UGHHHH I LOWKEY ADORE HER. I can't stop squealing and giggling and kicking my feet OMG omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg I'm gonna kms

STOPPPPPP CAPTAIN STACY????? GWEN'S FATHER???? THERE FOR HIS LITTLE GIRL??? I'M GONNA CRY I HOPE SHE RECOVERS. AND MILES' FRICKING REACTION I'M LITERALLY DYING OVER HERE

HOBIE ALMOST GETTING EXECUTED GOD SAVE ME I WANTED TO MURDER SOMEONE. OF COURSE HE'S GOING DOWN WITH SOME SNARKY LITTLE COMMENT LIKE THAT

And I wanted Mathias to be killed in the harshest, painfullest, bloodiest way possible omg you did not disappoint

That queen istg I hated HER GUTS

I am never getting over this fic. Y'know when u read a really really REALLY good book and you get book hangover and you google everything related to it and make Pinterest boards for it (i totally don't already have a board dedicated to ur fics)?? Yeah. That's what I'm gonna do. Literally drunk on this fic. I'm gonna end up writing unpublished fanfic about this fanfic. That's how obsessed I am. Like I need all sorts of stuff I need to see R and Hobie grow old and experience the world together I need to see the twins in the BDAS universe- OMG I NEED TO SEE BILLIE AND RAMONA AS PIRATES OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

Honestly worth the wait, my heart is satisfied ❤😭

I think that just about covers it, if you've read this review all the way through I'm actually so happy 🥺😊

Literally crying real tears rn I can't believe it's over 🥹

Sending loads of love ❤🌾

BDAS SPOILER ⚠️

THANK YOU SO MUCH, ANGEL!!!!

HAHAHHAHA I got u all with the miguel fake out 😂 Yuri is wifey material ngl

Yeeesss captain stacy did a magician move and appeared from nowhere 😂 now they've got an actual adult on the ship

I always knew mathias needed a very painful death! I was debating whether he accidentally gets hanged ala tarzan villain or drowned in shallow waters but I'm still glad I went through with what I wrote bc r gave him a beating lol

ONG YOU HAVE A BOARD FOR THEM?! THANK YOU THAT'S SO CUTE 🥺

They deserve so much happiness 🥺 can you imagine the babies in bdas?!!! Oh Hobie would have his hands full with them onboard

Thank you!!! I cannot express how much I appreciate your love and your thoughts ILY ❤️❤️❤️

Lots of love to you, my love!!!!! (⁠｡⁠♡⁠‿⁠♡⁠｡⁠)

[creativenicocorner]

2023 Writing Retrospective

That time of, hehe, New Year again folks, to contemplate over the rollercoaster event that was my writing journey of 2023!

I'm surprised by how much I did end up writing more than anything! And how some projects bloomed larger than I would have previously imagined. I'd like to think I've improved as well, which is inevitable made by practicing of course. I'm happier with how I write, despite knowing it isn't perfect (then again nothing is lol)

Trying the NaNoWriMo for the first time really changed things up in my approach I think, I'd like to try giving myself more of a disciplined approach to writing a little every day, even if it's one word...but I also realized just how tired I felt after November...so a soft middle ground will probably have to be found. I might try to use the website for other projects and set the deadline for far longer than just a month...we'll see!

I am happy that I'm not as disappointed with my own writing as I was with it last year...perhaps that too is a part of my growth as a writer. Could I have written more? Sure, but I've been far more wary of pushing myself and getting burned out last year. I need to remember to pace myself, to be kind, and that sometimes writing is just loafing about and doing other things and projects - and then the next thing you know WHAM 200 words pop in your head!

Anyways let's look at those cold hard numbers!!

2023 Total number of..

User Subscriptions: 17 Kudos: 341 Comment Threads: 61 Bookmarks: 81 Subscriptions: 70 Word Count: 107,804 Hits: 5,054

Top five hits/fics of 2023:

Glow Worms or rather: In the Depths of the Safflower Hills

Cold Green Tea and Colder Feet

Refrigerator Problem

Hand Rolled

Chapped Lips

2024 Goals

Honestly? To keep trying to make each new chapter / fic seem a little better than the last. Keep the progress going, while still remembering to be patient with myself (I'm not very patient with myself ^^;; )

I know I mention this often, but I'd like to attempt writing a multi-chaptered fic in its entirety before posting chapters...just once! Just to see what it is like. We'll see, we'll see... I'm not like in a hurry haha

I'd like to try and finish some of my Discworld Multi-chaptered fics...perhaps I'll use one of them in this theory, just to test it out. I'd love to get a new The Runaway's Gamble chapter out (or finish the fic this year, but I'm being soft with my goals this year) as well as get another Trial Runs and Errors chapter out (perhaps even finish the fic to start working on the next one in the Maurice and Lipwig series of shenanigans and adventures)

We'll see where my attention and heart takes me, cause it'd also be nice to get Glow Worms and Refrigerator Problem done

And yet I have so many other projects I'd like to jump into, like a Serizawa-centric serirei fic, or to finish Chapped Lips

I mean I know there's no rule in having to finish something before starting something else...technically I AM kind of working on them despite not posting anything...perhaps this is a way I could give that "finish the whole fic before posting it" a shot, or at least an attempt haha

I hope my quality continues to improve - but most of all I hope things become a little better.

If 2023 has taught me one thing, it's: let myself be surprised. And you know? I'd like to keep that energy moving forward into 2024

Thank you for reading this far!

I hope 2024 is kinder to us all than the last year, and we all grow and getting a little closer to our goals and dreams and happiness. Who knows where we'll be this time next year, hopefully it'll be a little better than today.

Anywho, stay awesome out there - don't forget to be kind to yourself and others.

And be safe

Best wishes!