#this was fun ty imani!!!!

[1kook]

85 questions

rules: answer 85 questions about myself then tag 20 people

i was tagged by @teapical aka the sweetest blog i follow, thank you!!

last

1. drink - water

2. phone call - my friend bc i missed him!

3. text message - my best friend!!

4. song you listened to - nonstop by drake

5. time you cried - uhhh like 2 years ago lol whew...the pent up emotions😷

ever

6. dated someone twice? - nay sir

7. kissed someone and regretted it - my first kiss yes

8. been cheated on - no, bless

9. lost someone special - yes

10. been depressed - tbh no 

11. gotten drunk and thrown up - sadly 😔

fave colours

12. yellow!! all of the shades!!

13. soft pink like beige pink (??)

14. black

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends - yes ma'am!

16. fallen out of love - I've never even been in love I'm like 3 years old

17. laughed until you cried - probably

18. found out someone was talking about you - yeah 

19. met someone who changed you - nah

20. found out who your friends are - nah

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list - nope

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl - like 85% of them

23. do you have any pets - nah I'm not a fan of pets lol sorry 

24. do you want to change your name - no! i love my name its pretty 

25. what did you do for your last birthday - i was sick :(

26. what time did you wake up today - 5:15 AM bc it was my first day back to school yikes

27. what were you doing at midnight last night - trying to fuckin sleep and fix my sleeping schedule! 

28. what is something you can’t wait for - graduation!!!

30. what are you listening to right now - the A/C lol

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom - no surprisingly? 

32. something that gets on your nerves - y'all gone be like wtf but its annoying when someone acts ‘too tumblr’ irl if you know what i mean lol

33. most visited website - thesimsresource LMAO

34. hair color - brown 

35. long or short hair - LOOOONG it reaches my buttcrack, thats like 2.5 feet lol

36. do you have a crush on someone - pcy 😔

37. what do you like about yourself - my smile!! i had braces for four years i woulda sued them if i didn't like it 

38. want any piercings? - i want an industrial in my right ear but i go to catholic school and whew....the dress code sis

39. blood type - tbh i can't remember lol

40. nicknames - yambo, yam

41. relationship status - single

42. zodiac - im a virgo and I'm gonna be honest i really don't understand any other astrology stuff lol help 

43. pronouns - she/her

44. fave tv shows - adventure time! la reyna del sur if u know that show girl....🤧

45. tattoos - tbh i never thought about getting one but maybe in the future??

46. right or left handed - I'm ambidextrous actually!

47. ever had surgery - nay

48. piercings - i have the simplest ones aka one on each ear 

49. sport - i run track & field (i do the same events as the person who tagged me!) and play soccer 

50. vacation -  i wanna go to mexico sooooo bad lol

51. trainers - i wear a lot of vans tbh they're just so comfortable 

more general

52. eating - chicken! big fan 

53. drinking - water sometimes lemonade 

54. i’m about to watch - another pcy comp probably lmao 

55. waiting for - nct china !!!!!

56. want - girl idek what i want to eat rn so

57. get married - preferably 

58. career - undecided but i wanna study kinesiology !

which is better

59. hugs or kisses - both bye 

60. lips or eyes - lips 

61. shorter or taller - taller

62. older or younger - older

63. nice arms or stomach - mm idk both i guess??

64. hookup or relationship - relationship duh

65. troublemaker or hesitant - I've dated both and i hate both bye but if i must then i guess troublemaker 

have you ever

66. kissed a stranger - hell nah

67. drank hard liquor - yeah

68. lost glasses - they're literally lost right now 

69. turned someone down - yeah.... yikes

70. sex on first date - no thanks

71. broken someone’s heart - yeah lmao 

72. had your heart broken - nah

73. been arrested - nah

74. cried when someone died - yeah

75. fallen for a friend - ......yes 

do you believe in

76. yourself - I'm my biggest fan 

77. miracles - i believe in miracles where its a result of hardwork lol

78. love at first sight - nah 

79. santa claus - nah

80. kiss on a first date - mm maybe

81. angels - sometimes

other

82. best friend’s name - id rather not lol

83. eye color - brown but super dark 

84. fave movie - UGH ..... COCO 

85. fave actor - tbh i don't really follow actors/actresses like that so ill just say michael b jordan cuz he was in the last movie i saw lol (it was fruitvale station)

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idk many people so I'm just gonna tag blogs i like/remember a lot lol, sorry if you’ve already been tagged by someone else/have already one this!!

@seokbyuns @glossyjongin @automqtic @88swife @byunberries

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when u get this u have to put 5 songs 🎵 u actually listen to, publicly. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (non-negotiable, positivity is cool) ✨

oooooh fun and ty for sending babe!! 🥰 i could obv put 5 tracks from jack in the box alone,, but let's assume this is *in addition* to that entire album front to back lmao

🎵 ring the alarm - KARD 🎵 city lights - TVXQ ft. taeyong 🎵 cinema - CIX 🎵 fuck alone - imani williams 🎵 in my room - frank ocean

[transmasc-wizard]

Rose quartz, sapphire, carnelian, and ruby for Moonlit Blood?

ty for the ask!!

rose quartz: were there any characters cut from the WIP?

oooohhhh boy. haha. I am exposed. Very exposed. So, I kinda sorta used to go really overboard with how large my casts are, and. Here's a list please don't judge me

Akilina

Hana

Saoirse

Jade (she's actually in a different WIP now)

Elliott

Dimitri

Teacup (I may bring him back tho)

Dorothy

Belladonna (she's in later books but not MB anymore)

Naia (see above)

Annette

Foxglove

Myst

Marisol's brother, who I never named

Angel's brother, who I also never named

Imani/Rhian (had 2 names i bounced between)

Raven

Stilt

Mira

Quinn (i ended up making her a short story character)

Thomas (see above)

There's more but you get the idea, right?

Some of these were removed YEARS ago (Mira, Thomas, Quinn, Saoirse, Elliot, Angel's brother), some keep bouncing between being in the WIP and not (Imani), and some were removed, like, within 2 months ago (Stilt, Dorothy, Dimitri, Hana).

sapphire: The most upbeat dialog or overall scene in your wip

uhhhh there's a lot of little banter that I'm not going to dig through right now, but I'll give you this:

They met back up with Oliver on the south patio, where he lounged idly on a beach chair, wearing a fluffy robe and gold sunglasses, pink-toned drink in hand.

“I’m quitting,” he announced as they walked up. “Saving the world is noble and all, but I just had a proper bath for the first time in a month and I’ve never worn anything more comfortable.”

“Unfortunately, it’s mandatory,” said Corey, before sitting beside him. “Move over, will you?”

Oliver complied, and said, “I’ve skipped a lot of ‘mandatory’ things before.”

"This isn’t one you’ll manage.”

“Shame.” Oliver waved the pink cup at him. “By the way, this is amazing.”

“It looks like bubblegum.”

“Yeah, but it tastes like…” Oliver screwed up his face. “I dunno, good. Try some.”

Corey took it. It was definitely much better than it looked—something fruity and almost sour, with the texture of crushed ice.

“Divinities help me,” said Bea with a sigh. “Sharing drinks is disgusting.”

“Ah, well,” said Corey. Looking to Oliver, he said, “Not that bad. What is it?”

“Grapefruit, I think, and pineapple.”

“Hold on.” Corey took another sip, then said, “Yeah, definitely.”

carnelian: does the story have a lesson to learn? what is it?

yes! multiple lessons! wise lessons. You are always worth loving and there will always be someone out there to care for you. Kindness is vital to human existence; selfishness and self-reliance can only get you so far. You are allowed to be happy.

Haha I don't know what that was! the real lessons are don't sign contracts for fun, if you're going to blackmail people make sure they can't blackmail you back, and when in doubt always go with "dragons".

ruby: is there any symbolism used in your WIP?

It's a cinderella retelling, so there's lots of events that "symbolize" events in Cinderella. Uhh, there's a lot of use of shadows to mean safety in the familiar but refusal to change, vs light for fear of being laid bare and shown all your weaknesses--but also your good sides. There's also. hm. other things! With snakes and birds and cats and stuff. but i am tired and this post is long so we will leave it at that.

[calypsoff2]

Twelve

It took me a day to digest what Captain was trying to say to me and I think I get it, it’s a lot to hear when you feel you want something. I very much want to glue my family together; I want that but it’s not the right time and I get it now. Chris and I have spoken on things and he’s happy to let god guide us, I need to stop dwelling on what I haven’t got yet and just spend time with what I have got, my girls. But I am going to be home so much more and knowing what is next for me, I am excited to be going on this journey with Chris and whatever is to come but today is my anniversary so it’s about us and I am so excited to just have fun, I can’t believe I am married for nine years, going on ten next, I can’t believe it. I never imagined myself being married this long, or even getting married so young. I have achieved so much and that is thanks to my husband, he’s been my everything at this point. I can’t thank him enough for the love and support he gives me, I couldn’t have done this without him, and I hope he knows this “Chris” touching the back of his head, someone is knocking on the hotel room door. We kicked the butler out so who can it be, he’s knocked out asleep so he won’t be getting up to find out so I will have to do this myself. Tying the robe tightly around my body as I made my way to the door; I wanted him to go but he won’t get up of course. Dragging the door open and the first thing I see is flower “good morning Mrs Fenty-Brown, we come with gifts. Sorry, did we wake you?” Shaking my head stepping to the side, they both walked in with flowers, a whole bouquet of them actually “please put them on the table” letting the door close “most certainly” following behind then “Happy Anniversary and a Happy New Year to you both” I cooed out “thank you” that’s so sweet of them, I’m excited for today. I feel like we are going to have a good time being able to celebrate us, our marriage and just have a blast, sex of course but I need to wake Chris up.

Chris is dragging his feet, I want to open the card. It must be from Chris anyways, picking the card up and ripping the envelope open, he’s so sweet that husband of mine. Sending flowers in the morning, so thoughtful because flowers will always get you in a good mood, hopefully some diamonds “oh” I said seeing the front of the card, this is not what I expected, and a USB fell out of the card and onto the floor “what is it? I didn’t send these by the way” Chris admitted which made me confused, who the hell would send it if Chris didn’t “right?” Looking at Chris and he just shrugged and then leaned down to look at the card on the flowers “it’s from Rylee, Tianna and Imani” letting out an oh “and them?” I pointed, leaning down and picking the USB drive from the floor “Monica, Rorrey, Rajad happy anniversary” oh I didn’t know that “so just to confirm you haven’t sent me no flowers?” I pointed; Chris chuckled “no?” Pulling a face at him opening the card “happy anniversary Mommy and Daddy” I cooed out “my babies, they sent us this. Oh gosh. They sent a USB drive though” holding it up to Chris “we can use that on the MacBook” he took it from me “shall we watch it now” following behind him “I thought you sent this to me with a gift, so you got me nothing?” I need to ask again “just me babe, you should be blessed that you got me. I thought we wasn’t giving gifts?” Slapping his butt with the back of my hand, I couldn’t help it. It looked so juicy in the boxers as we reached the bedroom “but still” I mumbled, I mean he could have surprised me, he knows I love surprises and he didn’t even get me anything “before you cry, I’m not you. I got you something, I couldn’t do my wife like that now” I shrieked out jumping on the bed and hugging him “see what I mean about you, but I did now let’s see what this is” I am spoilt, and I love it.

I can’t stop touching Chris’ legs, my husband does spoil me, and I love that for me “you done yet?” He’s taking forever to do it, he ain’t good with computers and neither am I but he’s worse than me “I’m trying, oh wait it’s coming up” looking at the MacBook screen as it loaded, resting my head on Chris’ shoulder “you think my mother made them?” I have a feeling “momo Imani is taking over!” Tianna spat; oh my god it’s my babies “look at the girls” now I feel emotional “Imani, come on now” my mother picked her up and bought her back to the couch “now girls, come” my mother walked away from the camera “happy anniversary Rihanna and Chris” I gasped, they both giggled being ever so cheeky my daughters “stop it now, tell them how you miss them” Rylee waved at the camera “happy anniversary mommy and daddy you are old now, I miss you so much!!” I’m getting emotional, what is wrong with me “lots and lots we love you lots and we want you home so we can play games and we go with you” Tianna is looking at my mom “what is the best thing you love about dad and mom, come on girls” my mother said “one thing about dad first, Rylee you start” they are acting out these girls “he always gives me time” looking at Chris “he tells me I’m beautiful” Tianna added “where daddy?!” Imani would be the odd one “I love you daddy” Chris chuckled “let’s start with mom then girls “she is the prettiest ever!” Tianna shouted “oh na na” Imani started singing “she tells me that I can be what I want, and she was sad that time too” Rylee said, “mom and dad are the best” our kids are the best, bless their souls for this video “say bye now” my mother said “bye!!” the girls shouted, Imani quickly got up from the couch “I want daddy” she ran to the camera “hey” the video cut off “oh my god, our babies” I poked my lips out and rested my head on his shoulder “that got me choked up” Chris looked at me all teary eyed “we are so blessed, Captain is right. We are blessed” I am so lucky to have them.

Chris and I of course had to skype girls, after that video we had too “are you there yet mom? You know we can see up your nose” my mother and technology “don’t be silly, let me just see. I think they are here, Mel” oh Mel is there, I didn’t know that “Melissa, call the girls. Imani come here” the girls are running riot clearly “look who is here, my Imani. My baby” my mother sat down “can you see under my mother’ nose” I said to Chris, he just laughed “stop, that is the mother in law now” I chuckled “hi daddy, hi mommy” Imani waved “awww look at you, did momo change your hair?” she looks so sad “mother, did you do her braids again, she is in pain” my mother rolled her eyes “she needed, you are ok aren’t you?” Imani stuck her tongue out at Chris “I miss you mamacita, I love your hair” I can hear the other one “where are they?” Tianna said as she jumped on my mother “we called to let you know we saw the video, and I love it so much. Thank you so so much!” I chimed “you old now mom” rolling my eyes “girl please, you wish” they want me to be old “when are you coming home? Rylee is having a bath; she fell in dirt. We went on a walk” letting out an oh “is she ok?” I asked, I hope she isn’t sad “I think so, I will tell her you said hi, oh she did say love you” I cooed out “Chris looks tired, hope no more babies are being made” I snorted laughing “mother, please” what is she like, she needs to keep her thoughts to herself right now.

I thought I would look extra cute for my man today, he said he got me a gift but I don’t see shit being shown to me with that nigga of mine “oh my god” I said checking my husband out “you showing chest too?” Chris is wearing a black shirt with his top buttons open “my gold chain, I love this chain” Chris looks so handsome “you speak on my chest but ma’am your boobs are showing too and I don’t mind it, they all mine though” I grinned, Chris placed his arm around me “see, I told you Chris. I am yours, all of this is yours” Chris licked his lips, he is impressed “I can’t believe we been married this long, it’s just a blessing to be married to you” moving my head back “peck my lips lightly, do not wipe my lips from the lip gloss” Chris rolled his eyes and moved back “let’s take a picture” waving him over, I want the latest picture of and so that I can post us “god I can’t wait to get you naked Chris, I love when you have a tan too. The way it turns me on” Chris looks so good, he doesn’t understand how fucking handsome looks “wow, I am really getting my ass ate tonight” he is so annoying “in your dream’s nigga” he thinks I will do that with him “you mean you will eat my ass, don’t give me that shit” unlocking my phone, let me take this picture.

I clapped my hands together, then Chris handed me over a card. Staring at the card and then Chris “stop being ungrateful Robyn” he said a gift “this better be something cute” taking the card, Chris keeps looking at my boobs, I have caught him so many times which is making me laugh. This man is going to devour me, and I just can’t wait “are you done?” I said covering my boobs laughing “I am just admiring my wife but open it” pulling the card out of the envelope “I am joking with you, about the gift” I am saying that, but I would have liked a gift “I know you but read it, I have a little something. Read it out loud too” I sighed out, luckily this meal is private, so we got the beach to ourselves and just the sunset. Opening the card “oh wow, you wrote a lot Chris” I am impressed “let me be real with you Robyn, I didn’t get you anything because we said we would leave it for the ten year, so this card was last minute and I realised what we need, what is important to us and what you need. I feel like when you are home we should appreciate it, your birthday is around the corner too, so I wanted to write this thing for you” now I better get the napkins ready “you rushed this, the handwriting” Chris rolled his eyes at me “sorry, right. My twin, I have written a lot of cards for you and you probably sick of hearing the same thing, but being with Captain it’s made me open my eyes with a lot, at times I can be scared to admit things with you but the day with him and admitting what I did, it made me realise that you aren’t scary at all, you just care for me. To look in your eyes and just see the concern and care, nobody has ever cared for me like that. I see what is important to us, married for nine years, we should have been married for longer, life got in the way. Nine years, five kids” I choked out, putting the card down. I knew it with him, let me gather myself. Looking back down at the card “nine years, five kids. Birthed three and two in heaven, five kids for us is tame, we have to do more” I laughed out “I am so blessed to be a girl dad, I wasn’t appreciating what I have and Captain made me realise that, the gift I am giving is not just anything. The gift is that when you go overseas, me and the girls will be with you” my voice broke “I have been stubborn in wanting stability for them to be at home, what is home without mom” putting the card down “I promise you, we will move with you” that is it, he has set me of crying.

He is so annoying, now I am a mess “sorry” Chris chuckled “I didn’t mean to do that to you, sorry” he apologised again “don’t, like” I paused trying to compose myself “I always wanted to say this to you and I have always wanted my kids close, I have suggested things but I left it, I didn’t want to make it seem like I was putting you down, like I was not allowing you to be the man of the house so I just left it you know, I didn’t want to upset you, like you would say it’s always your way, you have to go, you’re leaving to pose half naked, like the arguments wasn’t worth it. Like you assume that I was ok with it, I didn’t miss my three kids, I did but I just didn’t want you to feel like it’s always my way. And this, it means the world to me, it’s the best gift you could have give me. Thank you” Chris chuckled “I am pretty stubborn, like nobody knows and sees that but I am very stubborn, nobody knows that. They think I am too soft on you and that I allow you to be away for so long, but they don’t know I am strict on you, hearing Captain saying what he said, he is right. We aren’t ready for a son, we aren’t appreciating what we got now and it’s wrong, I want us to work better instead of you being away from us, I can’t be without you for that long, fuck that anyways” I smiled so wide, he doesn’t understand what he has done, I am so happy “I don’t mean like if you going New York for a few days but if you are overseas like he said you are, I think it’s best if we just come with you, work through it as a family without being apart, makes you weaker, makes us weaker” this is amazing for me, I just hated being apart from them.

[rainbowglittr]

Love and Marriage - Chapter 13 (Mature, Minors DNI)

Description:

After a loss in the family uncovers a family secret, Jaleia and her husband Jesse are forced to balance one family crisis after another along with their budding careers and their plans to expand their family. Will the pressure to keep everyone else together ruin their own relationship? Can ruined relationships be fixed before it’s too late?

tw: implied smut

Chapter 13:

Jaleia's POV

I waited at the baggage claim for Jesse and Diana. Their flight was due any minute now and I couldn't wait to see them. I was actually sick of myself.

Jesse had told me last night that Imani and him had some sort of "encounter." We were definitely going to have to talk about it but for now, I put it out of my mind because I missed him and I just wanted to enjoy the moment. I also didn't buy five new lace lingerie outfits to not wear.

I walked around the area a couple times until I saw a crowd of people coming out the doors. Diana ran over to me, the brightest smile stretched across her face. I wrapped my arms around her.

"How was the trip? How was the flight?" I said.

"It was so much fun! I can't wait to tell you everything!" She said as she bounced up and down. She turned around and pointed to the conveyor belt.

"That's my bag!" She said before running off.

Jesse appeared a few seconds later. We looked a little uneasy. But seeing him in that black v-neck had me feeling some kind of way. Three weeks is a long time, okay?

I ran over to him, practically jumping onto him, but he moved quick to hold me.

"Hey J-" he started to say but I kissed him, pulling him even closer. We paused to take a breath and then let our mouths explore each other as his hands slid lower and lower on my body.

"Ewwww, Jesse! People are starting to stare." Diana said. She wheeled her bag over to where we were.

"Let them stare." He said. He kissed me three more short times before we decided to break apart.

"I got your bags, Jess." She said.

"Aww thanks, little sis." He said, taking the bags from her. She put earbuds in her ear.

"Well we have officially lost her." Jesse said, holding my hand.

"I'm afraid so. So besides the giant hoe shaped elephant in the room which we will be talking about later, how was your trip?" I said as we made our way through the airport to the car.

"That's one way to put it. It was great I missed L.A. You gotta come with me sometime. "

"You keep saying that yet I never get to go. Anyway I missed you sooo much that I bought something a little special something for we to wear and you to take off."

"Oh yeah?"

"Wait until we get home. I want you and me to go into that bedroom and not come out until the next morning. I want to be screaming, not just pleasured, not just content, not just really good, I want to be screaming your name. Can you do that?" I said in his ear.

"Damn Jay, I leave for three weeks and your turn into a freak? Hell yeah I can do that."

"Good." I said. Jesse reached over and tapped Di on the shoulder. She looked up and took out an earbud.

"I'm just saying I suggest you watch a movie in the basement or play some really loud music when we get home." He said.

"Why? She said, her eyebrows scrunched in confusion.

"Oh no reason, just might be nice for tonight." He said.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

"What the fuck did you just say?"

"I am so sorry Jay. I didn't mean it, I swear it just slipped out."

"You are about to slip off this earth! I can't believe you would say her name!"

We and Jesse were having a great night. We were on round two of the evening when Jesse called out Imani's name while we were doing it. I have never slapped anyone that fast before.

"I didn't mean to! I don't even know why I said it!"

"Are you trying to tell me something Jesse? What the hell was that? What the HELL was that?" I yelled at him. We were standing on the opposite sides of the bed and everytime he tried to get near me I picked something up to throw at him.

"I swear to God, Jaleia it was a mistake. It didn't mean it. I don't even know how it slipped out!"

"Damn right it was a mistake! Were you thinking of her while we having sex?"

"No, God no. Not at all I have no idea where that came from."

"I am so done with you I can't even look at you." I said.

"Come on, You love looking at this." He said, narrowly dodging the shoe I launched at his head.

"Okay not the time I get it." He said.

"You fucking Bastard."

"Okay, enough with name calling."

"All I wanted was to enjoy one night with my stupid husband and he calls me by his ex hoes name? You got me SO fucked up. Since it's clear neither of us will be having anymore sex tonight, let's talk about Imani. Let's talk about that." I said, grabbing my robe and tying it around my waist.

"Maybe we should wait until we're both a little more calm-"

"The calm ship sailed when your ship sailed into my harbor and called me by the wrong name. Let me tell you something Jesse. I am a doctor and I could kill you and make it look like accident. Sit down and Start talking." I said, sitting down facing him. He reached his arm out to me.

"Touch me and you will lose that arm. What happened between you and Imani?" He quickly moved his arm away from me and sat down.

"We were at the studio. We just finished and I stayed behind to work on another song. It was just Dre and me and Imani. Dre went to the bathroom. And then Imani-"

"Why didn't you leave? I told you not to be alone with her! Obviously I was right."

"Dre went to the bathroom, it was only supposed to be for a minute."

"But it wasn't, was it?"

"She pounced fast okay? She started dancing and kept trying get me to do stuff and then I walked away and sat on the couch. That's when she climbed into my lap. Eventually I got her off me and left. But that's all that happened."

"I still can't believe you would say her name!"

"Are you mad?"

"I'm not mad at you for what someone else did to you. If you didn't tell me I would've been pissed. Her, on the other hand, better not ever come near me or you again."

"I love you."

"Did you want to? Sleep with her." I looked him dead in the face. He squirmed a little and then looked up, not meeting my eyes

"Not really."

"What the hell does 'not really' mean?"

"To be honest, She's not ugly and I was sex deprived. But that's the only reason."

"You being horny? No other reason or feelings?"

"No. I have no feelings for her. Please don't be mad at me."

"I told you I'm not mad at you for something you didn't do. I pissed at what you just did."

Jesse put his arm on my shoulder. I slapped it off.

"Don't touch me. I'm still mad at you!"

"It was an accident!"

"I hope the couch is comfortable tonight."

>>>>>>>>>>>>

I flipped another perfect pancake. Sunday mornings were so peaceful. Both Jesse and Diana were asleep so I quietly came downstairs to start breakfast without waking them up. I flipped the bacon the hickory smoke smell filled the kitchen. I went to the refrigerator and grabbed a carton of strawberries and started to cut them.

I felt a pair of arms wrap themselves around my waist.

"Get off." I said.

"Are you seriously still mad, Jay?"

"Yes, how would you like it if we making love and I called you another man's name?"

"I see how that could be problematic. Can you pass me a strawberry?" He said.

I purposefully threw it across the room.

"Can you please tell me what's really bothering you?" He said. He cut the stove burners off and used my waist to turn me around to face him. I looked at the floor.

"Do you have any idea how that made me feel? You calling her name. I mean I know I'm the one to zone out. But I wouldn't call someone else's name. Makes me wonder if you're actually in the moment with me-and you know that's hard enough for me, or if you're think about other people. Especially her? Do you regret not sleeping with her?"

Jesse got on his knees looking up at me from my waist.

"I'm so sorry. Trust me it will never happen again. It was an honest random fuck up, it has nothing to do with how I feel about you. You know that. I'm done with Imani, I don't want her, she's done, she's history, in the past and sealed up. I love you and only you."

"Are you sure? Because if you ever do that again I swear I will-"

Jesse quickly attached his lips to mine.

"I will never do that again. Never. I love you."

"Love your stupid ass too. I hop you didn't max out your card in Cali, cause this is soooooooo going to cost you."

"Oh God. What is this going to cost me?"

"My bracelet could use some matching friends. "

"Do you know how expensive that bracelet was?"

"I know how expensive it's friends are going to be."

"So if I do that, will you stop being mad at me?"

"I might even have sex with you." I said, standing on my toes to kiss the tip of his nose. He kissed the side of my neck.

"I don't get a second chance?"

"Oh, you will. Try not to moan another girl's name though, total mood killer."

"You know what?" Jesse said, picking me up and slinging me over his shoulder.

"Put me down!" I laughed. He started tickling my sides, and spinning me around, causing me to scream and laugh. Eventually he brought me to the living room and threw me down on the couch. He straddled me, his hands still attacking my sides. I tried to push his hands off but he grabbed them and held them down above my head with one hand.

"I'm not going to lie, that was extremely sexy. But if you don't stop, I'm going to piss myself. " I said.

"Oh, really?" He said smirking. "I'll let you go, for a price."

"What's that?" I said looking at him, trying to catch my breath.

"Should I leave the room?" Diana said, walking down the stairs. We both looked toward the stairs. Jesse kissed me and helped me up.

"No, we're not going to have sex since you're here now." He teased. She was quiet for a second and then said,

"Have you done it on the couch?"

"Who wants breakfast?" I said as I walked back to the kitchen. What she didn't know wouldn't hurt her.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

I looked in the fridge for something to eat. I found some chicken pasta that I had ordered a couple of days ago.

Jesse walked by me and said "I wouldn't eat that if I were you."

"I have a stomach of steel."

I did not have a stomach of steel. I threw up about two hours after eating that pasta. I was sitting on the floor of the bathroom after the second wave of vomit. I was trying to be quiet so Jesse wouldn't hear me and so that I didn't have to admit that he was right. At first he walked by the bathroom and then he backed up.

"I told you. I told you not to do it!" He said laughing.

"Shut up!" I tried to cross my arms but my stomach was killing me. Jesse walked in and started massaging my lower back.

"I'm sorry you didn't listen to me." He said.

"Shut up!" He laughed.

"Do you want something to drink?" He asked.

"Maybe some ginger ale and water please.' I said. Jesse got up, kissed the top of my head and started walking out the room when the doorbell rang.

"Jay I'll be right back." He said walking to the door.

"My baby!" I heard Aiesha say. Oh great, another random visit from Aiesha.

"Hey mom, HEY DIANA, come down. How ya doing mom?"

"I missed you guys so much. I have so much to tell you, Jesse."

"Okay you wanna sit in the living room, I'll be right back."

He came back to me with the soda and water.

"We have a visitor. " he said.

"I heard. If you wanna close the door so that it doesn't smell like vomit go ahead."

"Nah, it's fine. Let me know if you need anything, I'll check on you."

"Go ahead." Another wave hit me and I hurled myself over the toilet.

"We can go to the hospital."

"No, I'm fine. It'll pass. My fault for being stupid, hungry, and lazy."

"Okay, but if you don't feel better you're going." He said, kissing my forehead.

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"So there's an offical date set for the start of your dad's trial. They will start in about three months. The prosecution wants him on as many charges as they can and want to put him away for as long as possible." Aiesha said.

I had finished, for now, my temporary bout of mild food poisoning, and I was sitting on the floor in between Jesse's legs, sitting literally anywhere else made me nauseous. Jesse was sitting on the couch, apparently his mom had a ton of news for him, that she waited until he was back for Cali to tell him. After her usual twenty insults she finally started talking.

"Also, I could be closing on the house in the next few weeks, there is a couple that is really interested in it and they are considering putting in an offer. So if that goes through, then I'll be able to really take time and find the house I want."

"Congrats, mom! I hope it goes through. But once it gets sold where are you going to stay?" Jesse said.

"Well, Mel's sister lives in the same neighborhood and Mel was coming up for a visit, so I'll be with them. But it shouldn't be for long because I put in an offer on a house and guess what?"

"Really that's great! What?" Jesse said.

"It's right around the corner from here!" She said with a huge smile on her face. I turned and faced Jesse with the fakest smile I could muster.

"Can you believe that Jess? She found the perfect house just around the corner from us. She'd only be five minutes away." I said, trying to keep my face pleasant.

"I know I heard, that's so great mom! Just around the corner, wow! Great!" He said. I could tell he wasn't that happy about it by the look he gave me.

"And Di wouldn't have to change schools because our towns share a school district. I can come over ALL the time. I might even have time to teach Jaleia some class." She said. I let that insult fly over my head.

"Oh my Gosh, she'll be here all the time Jess, isn't that going to be great?" I said, squeezing Jesse's hand.

"Super." He said.

"Don't get too excited. I still need them to accept my offer."

"Oh we would hate to Jinx it."

"Why do you have so many damn post its everwhere? Your house looks like a damn clown house."

"It's how I remember some of the stuff I have to do. Or how Jesse reminds me."

"I forgot you were one of those scattered brained people." She said her face turning up into an unpleasant expression. She was the type of person to say that ADHD wasn't a real thing or was a "white people" thing just because she didn't like me. But for anyone else it was a legitimate problem.

"Mom. You know-" Jesse started but I interrupted him. I wasn't going to have this conversation with her again, she knew what she was doing and I refused to waste time entertaining it. I had enough of a hard time dealing with having it, and an even harder time with people dealing with it. It wasn't something that most people knew about me. And I intentionally did that. And she knows that's a sore spot with me which is why I won't give her the satisfaction of upsetting me.

"Jesse your mom already knows and we've already had the discussion about her lack of sensitivity. So I won't discuss it again."

I felt my stomach bubble and decided to take my leave now before it got too much. I tapped Jesse's leg before I went to the upstairs bathroom this time. After emptying my digestive tract again and brushing my teeth I started to come downstairs. I stopped when I heard Jesse's voice sounding slightly angry.

"I told you mom, you have to stop. Nobody wants to deal with you criticizing them all the time."

"Well you know how I feel about her, I'm telling you, you settled with her. She is such a downgrade. And she's crazy, I mean she calls it ADHD, but come on? The girl is not wrapped tight. "

"I try to be patient with you, but you're not going to keep talking about her like that. Enough is enough. Stop it. I'm so sick of it."

"Fine, I'll try to keep my opinions to myself. I'm sorry to upset you but I'm your mother. It's my job to tell you the truth. You don't have to like it."

"Look when she comes down you need to apologize. She doesn't deserve that. "

I heard her sigh. "Whatever."

I continued my walk downstairs. Jesse had this crazy idea after the first time I met his mom that eventually she would grow to like me. But in actuality, she just hated me more with every day. He tried to keep the peace, and he always tried to get us to get along but as I've told him, it is never going to work.

"Mom." Jesse said. Aiesha sighed and gave me the most indifferent expression on her face and said.

"I apologize."

"Okay." I said. Jesse gave me a look to which I non verbally responded "What?"

His mom got up and went downstairs to the basement to talk to Diana.

"Jay." Jesse said.

"What?" I said.

"At least she apologized."

"If that's what you want to call it. I should not have eaten that pasta." I said as my stomach suddenly started bubbling again.

"I told you! You have to throw up again?" He said laughing.

"Worse, other end." I said running to the bathroom.

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I sat on the toliet seat and put the timer on my phone. I tried not to obsess too much about getting pregnant and I tried to wait a little longer before taking the test but it was three days since I missed my period and I couldn't wait any longer.

My timer went off. I grabbed the stick and took a deep breath, and looked.

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I Wish (7)

Pairing: JungkookxOC

Word Count: 3.4k

Summary: Zoya and Jungkook had lost touch years ago. When a situation brings them back into each other lives, they try to go back to how things were as best friends once again. But a lot can change in 8 years. People. Feelings.

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The next morning, Zoya woke to noise coming from the kitchen. She reached over to her right for her phone and squinted at the screen as it read ‘9:00am’. With a sigh, Zoya flopped back down on the bed hoping to sleep in a little more, so she cocooned herself in the blankets and closed her eyes. Zoya tried to block out the clanking of spoons on bowls, the laughs of her brother and sister, and the chatter of the TV until she jumped out of bed in annoyance. Realising there was no way she was getting back to sleep; her feet slipped into her slippers and made their way into the bathroom.

Zoya got dressed and, wrapping her wet hair in a towel, quietly made her way into the kitchen. She walked by her brother and sister, who were sat in the living room watching the TV with such concentration that they didn’t realise their older sister pass by. “Morning.” She greeted her mother.

“Morning. You’re up early for once.” Sara stated.

“I wake up at 6 am every morning during uni mum. I think I can afford to sleep in for the holidays.” She says, as she grabs a bowl from the cupboard. “What are you doing?” She sits down on the kitchen island across from her mum, who’s eyes were on her laptop. When she doesn’t respond Zoya tries again, “Mum?”

“Oh right, sorry. I’m just browsing places to go in Seoul. We’re going to go sightseeing today, and it’s changed quite a bit, so it’ll be exciting for us as well as Imani.” Sara explains excitedly as Zoya listens as she munches on her cereal.

“Cool, sounds fun.” Zoya comments as she chews.

Sara grimaces, “Zoya! Don’t talk with your mouth fall.” She chastises with a grimace.

“Sorry.” She says sheepishly. “Where we off to first then?”

Sara looks at her daughter in surprise, “You’re coming today?”

“Yeah, of course. Why wouldn’t I?” Zoya asks, confused at her mother’s surprised tone?

“Oh nothing, I just assumed you’d spend time with Jungkook.”

“I‘ve spent time with him the past few days we’ve been here. I’m sure one day without me won’t kill him.” Zoya jokes. In reality, Zoya wanted to delay the inevitability of facing Jungkook just a little while longer. Of course, she wanted to spend time with her family, but the former was the stronger motivation.

“Mhmm.” Sara smiles at Zoya.

“What?” Zoya sighs out, as she turns her back, places the bowl in the sink as she rolls her eyes.

“I don’t know, you two are awfully close these days. Then again, distance does make the heart grow fonder...”

“Okay one, it’s ‘absence makes the heart grow fonder’ and two, we’re just friends mum. Stop being weird.” Zoya complained.

“Fine” Sara held her hands up in defeat, “I’m just saying.” She sings.

“Well, can you stop saying, please.” Zoya huffs. “I’m going to finish getting ready, I’ll be down in a couple of minutes and I’ll be ready to go.” She says before running up to her room.

Not a minute was wasted due to Sara’s intensive planning for the day: from enjoying the bustling of Hongdae to visiting the scenic tourist spaces, they did all they could until they were exhausted from their eventful day.

“Guess we’ll get to Han River tomorrow. But we did a lot today.” Sara states.

“I’m tired mummy.” Imani mumbles sleepily as she holds onto her mother’s hand and slowly follows along and starts to sway side to side in a sleepy haze. Seeing as they weren’t too far away from their place, Zoya decides to pick her sister up before she fell asleep standing.

Zoya grunted as she picked up her sister, “I haven’t picked you up since you were like 4 and you’ve grown well.” Zoya says slightly straining, as she notices her mistake in thinking her 10-year-old sister weighed like a toddler. As she slowly walks towards the house, it comes into view, but so does a figure that was stood near the entrance. Zoya slowed down in alarm, but her defensive state relaxes when she hears her name fall from the stranger’s mouth in a familiar voice, “Jungkook.” She breathes out and starts walking towards him.

“Jungkook? What are you doing here? Is everything okay dear?” Sara asked in worry.

“Oh yes. Everything is fine,” he says scratching the back of his neck, a nervous habit of his, “I actually came to talk to Zoya about something.”

“Oh okay, that’s fine. Well why don’t you come in.” Sara invites him in, and he notices Zoya struggling with her sleeping sister.

“You want help? I’ll carry her.” Jungkook offers.

Before Zoya could speak, Sara accepted his offer knowing her eldest’s stubborn streak. Jungkook sweeps Imani into his hold from Zoya as if she weighed like a feather and waited for further instructions.

Adam brushed past everyone, “I’m going to bed. You guys are taking too long.” He opened the door making his way to his room, and everyone else followed him into the house.

“Erm, follow me. I’ll show you to her room.” Zoya mumbles quietly and walks ahead to her sister’s room as Jungkook followed closely behind. The silence was filled with loud thoughts of the two, both wondering what their conversation was going to bring. Zoya sighed and went through the doorway to Imani’s room and gestured Jungkook to place her on her bed. Zoya slipped off Imani’s shoes and decided that she wasn’t going to manage to get her into her pyjamas, so she laid her duvet over her sleeping form. Zoya swept her sister’s hair from her face and with one last look, she turned the bedroom light off and followed Jungkook out of the room, softly closing the door behind her.

“I was wondering if we could go talk, maybe by Han River.” Jungkook suggested, looking unsure as if he thought she was going to reject his offer. Zoya looked at him once they made their way outside after ensuring Sara that Zoya will be back later.

“Sure, I’d like that.” Zoya agreed softly and noticed Jungkook’s tense form relax a little and they made their way silently into his car to get to the riverside.

“We didn’t get to visit the riverside today; we were going to go tomorrow morning.” Zoya breaks the silence in the car.

“I’d say the view and atmosphere is best during late night. It’s calming.” Jungkook comments whilst staring straight ahead, focused on driving. Although, Zoya felt it was maybe a bit more than just being fully focused on his driving. Zoya hums at Jungkook’s mention of his preference for the sight at night.

It wasn’t long before the car came to a stop and the both made their way to walk by the river.  Zoya shivered slightly, feeling the cool breeze despite being in a thick jumper and crossed her arms over to reserve some heat. Jungkook didn’t fare any better in much thinner attire and his hand were stuffed in his hoodie’s pockets and donned his black cap and face mask, as there were still a few people enjoying the night-time sight of the river. They walked in silence, neither of them knowing how to start. Zoya decided to bite the bullet, “So…you wanted to talk. I’m guessing about last night.” Her voice coming out soft and calm, unlike the beating of her heart at her blunt statement.

“Yeah.. erm..” Jungkook started awkwardly, slightly startled with Zoya’s calm mention of yesterday. “About that… I think it’s best not to think of that as anything. It was just a weird moment.”

Zoya was taken aback by what he was saying, and it hurt a lot more than she anticipated. “Oh yeah…you’re right.” Zoya said tying to brush of the sting of his words. Zoya felt her fake smile wavering and Jungkook started to look concerned. Jungkook stepped towards Zoya to ask her if she was okay.

“Jungkook?” A girl questioned. Jungkook’s body tensed momentarily and then he noticeably created a big distance between himself and Zoya.

He turned to the voice with a smile, “Jihye, what are you doing here?”

“Oh nothing, I was on my way back to the dorms. I should ask you what you’re doing here?” Jihye says stepping closer.

“I just came out on a walk by myself, just needed some fresh air.” Zoya walks further back from Jungkook. The last thing they both needed is to cause any trouble with Zoya being seen with Jungkook right now.

“Mind if I join you for a bit?” Jihye asks as she stands closer to Jungkook and caresses his arm. “I could keep you company.”

Jungkook nervously laughs and peeks behind himself to where Zoya should have been. Jungkook looked around not seeing her anywhere. Jungkook starts to panic. “Erm sorry Jihye, I should be getting back to be honest, it’s getting late. Get home safe.” He hastily bids farewell to the girl and is off to look for Zoya. He whips his phone out and immediately calls her.

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Zoya’s sniffling was interrupted when phone vibrates in her pocket and she takes it out to see ‘JK ’. She rolls her eyes and declines the call. Zoya decides to stop walking, assuming she’s far away enough from the pair, and sits on a bench ahead of her. She couldn’t watch Jihye flirt with Jungkook for a moment longer. Especially right after he practically said that the ‘almost kiss’ they had was a ‘weird moment’ that should have never happened. She felt as if her heart was physically in pain and fresh tears fell as she let the hurt and humiliation wash over her. Jeon Jungkook is an idol surrounded by girl like Jihye all the time. Why would he even look twice at Zoya like that. “I’m so stupid.” She whimpered to herself, her face hidden in her hands.

“Now that’s a little harsh.” A voice pipes in, causing Zoya to snap her head up at the uninvited speaker.

“Yoongi…” Zoya hastily wipes her eyes “I didn’t- wha-“ Zoya couldn’t form a proper sentence suddenly, but she took a calming breath to  and asked “What are you doing here?”

Yoongi took a seat beside Zoya and merely shrugged, “I come occasionally just to clear my head. It’s gets a little suffocating, you know?” If he saw her crying, quite obviously, he didn’t mention it.

“I guess? When it keeps piling on until you feel like you can’t breathe from the pressure.” Zoya feels unsure when Yoongi doesn’t reply. Before she realises what she’s doing, Zoya turns to him and suddenly says, “Mindfulness.” Yoongi looks at the girl confused. Zoya laughs, “Sorry, I meant to say you should try mindfulness, as a psychology student I totally recommend it. I use it when everything becomes too much.”

Yoongi hums and nods, as if taking in the advice. “So what? You just become mindful of everything?” Yoongi says, scrutinising the method. “Hardly sounds helpful. Sounds more stressful to me.”

Zoya smiles and shakes her head. “It’s not as stressful as it sounds. Here, try it.” Zoya straightens her posture and closes her eyes and gestures for him to follow suit. When met by silence, she opens her eyes and sees Yoongi’s reluctance to follow her instructions. Zoya tries to persuade him, “Come on. Please? Just at least try it and if you still think it’s stupid then I’ll respect your wrong opinion.” Yoongi raised an amused eyebrow at her the latter part of her speech, but finally conceded by closing his eyes and mirroring Zoya’s pose.

All that could be heard was the quiet chatter off the few people still around, the wind and the flowing of the river. “Allow your body to relax, let your arms rest…” Zoya peaked through one open eye and saw Yoongi visibly relax and she smiled and carried on speaking with a clam, soothing tone. “Listen to the wind...the water…let yourself be present in this moment. Be aware of the breathing. You take a breath in…and releasing it fully. Follow the breath as it goes in and out.” Zoya pauses and hears Yoongi’s calming breathing. “Okay! So that’s kind of the gist of mindfulness.” Zoya claps her hands together. “So how was it?”

Yoongi’s eyes open in alarm at the sudden end to the relaxing moment. Zoya smiles at him knowingly, to which he rolls his eyes at but gives her the satisfaction of being proven right. “Fine, that was…actually helpful and relaxing. I would like it if you told me more about this mindfulness.”

Zoya’s smile widens and eagerly agrees. “Of course. What are friends for? We are friends, right?”

“Yeah, of course we’re friends. You can’t get rid of me that easily anymore, you’re stuck with me now.” Yoongi nudges Zoya playfully and she giggles in return.

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Jungkook spotted Zoya on a bench and ran towards it only to stop a few feet away when he noticed she had company. Watching them from afar, he felt a jealous pang in his heart. Jungkook decided to call Zoya again and saw her look at her phone and immediately her smile fell. She declined the call and Jungkook’s eyebrows furrowed in confusion. He tried again and she sighed before declining again.

In addition to confusion, hurt marred his face. He couldn’t help but think of what Zoya could be talking about to the stranger, but his heart dropped when the man turned towards Zoya to reveal Yoongi. They seemed happy in each other’s company, as they laughed and Yoongi nudged her with a smile of his own to match Zoya’s.

Jungkook’s fist clenched and then unclenched, revealing crescent indents on his palms.

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“Someone looking for you?” Yoongi says with a cocked eyebrow once Zoya declined another call.

“I don’t feel like being found right now...” Zoya mumbles as she fiddles with her fingers.

“If you don’t want to talk about it, you don’t have to.” Yoongi reassured.

“It’s not that. It’s because it’s about someone- “

“It’s about Jungkook.” Yoongi states, cutting Zoya off.  Zoya’s face further confirmed what Yoongi already knew. “It was obvious” he shrugs, “to me at least.” He adds after seeing the panic on her face.

Zoya nervously giggles as she searches for a reply. “If I say something will you tell Jungkook?” She asks. Zoya knows that Yoongi’s loyalty lies with Jungkook as he was friends with Jungkook first and foremost.  This led to her surprise when Yoongi responded with an answer she didn’t anticipate.

“No. Within reason of course.” Yoongi says simply.

Zoya mulled over his answer for a few second and proceeded. “I like him.” Yoongi looks at Zoya as if to say ‘and?’ “I like him like him.” Yoongi remained unfazed. “More than a friend.” Zoya added. Still, Yoongi’s demeanour remained calm and was clear of any look of surprise. Zoya huffed at the lack of response from the man.

Before Zoya could say anything Yoongi spoke up. “Am I supposed to be surprised?” He says with a raised brow.

“I mean…yeah?” Zoya said unsurely, confused by the unforeseen reaction.

“Zoya…” Yoongi laughed and Zoya’s brows furrowed in confusion and annoyance at Yoongi’s actions.

“Look, I wouldn’t have told you if I knew you’d find my feelings for Jungkook humorous.” Zoya felt anger and hurt run through her. She was quick to stand from her seat and walk away, but Yoongi was quick to follow her.

“Wait. Wait Zoya.” Yoongi begged, as he caught up and matched Zoya’s strides. “I didn’t mean it like that. At all.” Zoya’s footsteps only grew quicker, refusing to listen anymore. “Zoya. Listen to me.” Yoongi’s tone had suddenly changed and Zoya faltered, and she doesn’t what it was in his voice that made her stop, but she did. However, she made no move to face the man, but Yoongi took that as green light. He walked in front of her in order to face her. “Look, I wasn’t laughing at you. I was laughing at the situation.”

“Is that supposed to make me feel better?” Zoya glared at him and crossed her arms.

Yoongi sighed but continued to explain. “Zoya, anyone with eyes could tell that the two of you like each other, It seems the only blind ones are the two of you.”

“I don’t think you calling me blind is-” Zoya’s words were cut off as she directed her attention to Jungkook who was suddenly in front of them. He looked, almost as if he was angry.

“What are you doing here?” Jungkook asked bluntly, his question directed at the man in front of Zoya. His voice, expression, and tone were so foreign to see on Jungkook. The happy, cute, silly Jungkook was nowhere to be seen. Instead a stiff, jaw clenched man stood in his place.

“I took a walk to clear my head.” Yoongi replied, seemingly unfazed by Jungkook’s hostile attitude. “What are you doing here?” Yoongi threw Jungkook’s question back at him.

Jungkook eyes flickered to Zoya for a split second before he answered. “I came out for a walk. I was on my way back to the dorms, but then I saw you two.” Jungkook ignored the burning stare of Zoya’s eyes on him, questioning his response. “Does Maya, your girlfriend, know you’re out so late with a girl?” Jungkook emphasised on “girlfriend’ as if to make a point.

Yoongi’s eyes narrowed as stepped towards the boy. “What are you insinuating?”

Jungkook shrugged, not intimidated by the older member “I’m just saying. I wouldn’t be okay in Maya’s shoes.”

Yoongi’s posture went stiff as the younger boy kept speaking. It was then that Zoya realised something: Jungkook knew Yoongi’s buttons and he was purposely pushing every single one. What she couldn’t figure out was why. “My girlfriend is a grown woman who knows I have female friends and Zoya is just that. A friend.” Yoongi steps a little closer to Jungkook and adds “I’d suggest you stop before you really say something you don’t mean.” It was a murmur loud enough for only Jungkook to hear. Yoongi had caught onto exactly what Jungkook was doing. He’d known him since he was a teenager, so Yoongi recognises when Jungkook is jealous.

Jungkook scoffs, ignoring Yoongi’s warning. “Oh, so you’re so close now? I didn’t realise. Fine you can drop her off back to her place then. I’m done with her.” He storms off leaving Zoya and Yoongi speechless.

Yoongi shook his head at Jungkook’s behaviour. Zoya had remained quiet for the entirety of the conversation between to two men and now wished she had said something. Zoya had not done anything to be treated like she was by Jungkook. The more she thought about it the more her anger replaced her sadness.

“Do you mind dropping me off?” Zoya asked, not bothering to hide her emotions. Her voice weak and she blinked rapidly trying to hold back the tears. Despite wanting to be angry at the way she was treated, it didn’t make Jungkook’s behaviour and words towards her hurt any less. Feelings aside, friends don’t treat each other like that, and it only finally hit her that she didn’t know Jungkook. Not this Jungkook. She was blindly clinging on to a memory of her past.

Yoongi decided it was best not to say anything and merely nodded to her request. The sad tone of the silence was deafening on the drive back and before Zoya got out of the car Yoongi spoke. “You know Jungkook only-“

Zoya stopped him before he could say anymore. “You don’t have to make excuses for him Yoongi. He said what he said. It’s fine, I’ll be fine. Goodnight.” She gave him a small smile and wave before heading inside the house.

As Zoya entered her mother popped out from the living room. “Oh, you’re home finally.” She noted.

“Yeah sorry, I didn’t mean to be so late.” Zoya, for the first time since leaving with Jungkook, checked the time: ‘2:00AM’. She’d been gone for nearly 3 hours. “I am really sorry.” Zoya said tiredly, drained from the events of the night.

Sara left the berating for another day, as she noticed her daughter’s mood. “Are you okay sweetie?” Zoya’s mom voice her concerns to which Zoya smiled weakly back.

“I’m fine. Just tired. I think I’m going to head straight to bed now. Goodnight.” Dismissing her mum’s concerns, she left for bed and proceeded to cry herself to sleep.

A/N Wow, look at me uploading again. This is to make up for going AWOL and not updating. Don’t expect me to update twice a week. I am trying to figure out a schedule that I can keep up with, so bare with me. But yeah, this was a packed chapter. Let me know your thoughts, I’d love to hear from you guys :)

-A

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