#this was fun sdfkgj

[littleoblivions]

50 questions you’ve never been asked - tagged by @sacrednewbeginnings​

what is the color of your hairbrush? blue & black!

a food you never eat? sour cream 🤢🤢🤢

are you typically too warm or too cold? i’m usually too warm. i sweat a lot lmao

what were you doing 45 minutes ago? on a work call with some colleagues

what is your favorite candy bar? reese’s!

have you ever been to a professional sports event? yes

what is the last thing you said out loud? "talk to you later, bye”

what is your favorite ice cream? cookies & cream or any kind of reese’s ice cream

what was the last thing you had to drink? iced coffeeeee

do you like your wallet? not really lol i need a new one but i also hate carrying a wallet

what was the last thing you ate? a wild berry pop tart

did you buy any new clothes last weekend? no lmao

the last sporting event you watched? i think it was the superbowl

what is your favorite flavor of popcorn? BUTTER THAT BABY UP

who is the last person you sent a text message to? my friend gabby

ever go camping? i have never been camping

do you take vitamins? it’s something i’ve been working on

do you go to church every sunday? no

do you have a tan? i’m a pale bitch

do you prefer chinese food or pizza? pizza but i fiercely love both

do you drink your soda with a straw? if it’s from a fountain ya

what color socks do you usually wear? i have lots of different socks of lots of different colors and designs

do you ever drive above the speed limit? lol sweetie.... yes

what terrifies you? .....snakes

look to your left, what do you see? my tv

what chore do you hate? folding / putting up laundry

what do you think of when you hear an australian accent? my two friends who constantly talk in australian accents

what’s your favorite soda? coca cola babey

do you go in a fast food place or just hit the drive thru? drive thru

who’s the last person you talked to? my roommate

favorite cut of beef? idk how to answer this lmao

last song you listened to? alewife by clairo currently

last book you read? hell if i remember

favorite day of the week? friday i think

can you say the alphabet backwards? absolutely not

how do you like your coffee? iced vanilla latte pls

favorite pair of shoes? my doc martens

at what time do you normally go to bed? currently it’s around 4 am lmao but when i had a full-time job about midnight

at what time do you normally get up? now? like noon lol

what do you prefer, sunrise or sunsets? sunsets

how many blankets are on your bed? one comforter 

describe your kitchen plates. the main ones we have are white/cream colored with a blue design around them 

do you have a favorite alcoholic beverage? cider or tequila sour

do you play cards? yes i love playing cards

what color is your car? dark purple

can you change a tire? absolutely not

what is your favorite province? ?????????????

favorite job you’ve ever had? in college, i worked for the student events organization and i ran the concert / live performances division so i got to bring cool bands to campus and i miss it so much

how did you get your biggest scar? burned myself on the oven

what did you do today that made someone else happy? idk honestly!!!!!!

i’m gonna tag @stillwritingpages @bllakelively @wlwafterglow @dazzlignhaze @ofallthebricks @knewourlives!!!!!

[candyredterezii]

tw; self harm mention later in here.

I hate how I’m right.

Like I don’t wanna be like.

Oh you were expecting it so it happened cus of that mindset.

No I just. Know the routine.

My parents fought all afternoon and yellin in each others faces.

My stress is BACK

My wrists are ITCHING.

And I just wanna go back to bed.

Honestly I think my fucking. lack of hunger is also coming back so that’s cool.

It was a fun and nice little break, though.

Well.

At the end of this week i’m supposed to be going on a vacation with my mother and aunt and my one. cousin.

to be quite honest who I can’t stand but whatever.

They’re all excited so. Like.

Better muster up what little energy I have for that.

I don’t know if I’ll see a counselor tomorrow.

I should. But I’m also like. Why?

I’m also afraid I’m gonna raise red flags and they’re gonna get my parents involved and just fuck everything up for me.

I can’t feel exactly I can bring up lke

Oh! Also I have very bad self mutilation thoughts and sometimes get worried being around blades in my room on dark days least I end up self harming again.

Without it being like. Red flag! Better get the parents involved!

Ugh.

If the one thing that’s stopping me it’s STUBBORNNESS.

It’s gonna be near a year since I last did it. And it was ONLY BECAUSE MY SHITTY ACTING PARTNER MARISSA. 

Who openly kept. Using me as he personal diary and openly talking of her self harm and texting me like; hey i did it ahah im a fucking mess

and im like

YELLS. 

and she triggered and made me fucking relapse god.

I think it was near a year then, too.

Well. Fuck you Marissa I’m not fucking doing it again!!

Ugh.

I dunno.

Shit is a little fucky and I feel very close to the end of my rope and I keep suffocating but hey man just

Keep trying to find a laugh and push through the day regardless!

Gotta be strong and there for. Everyone else. sdfkgj