#this was a breaking out of artblock hell piece but

[clodcakes]

An early halloween with my partners priest :)

[cottoncandyjester]

Your blog is an absolute delight to browse through <33333

I adore your OCs. They all have their individual quirks and seeing you write them is a treat.

If you are accepting requests, I was wondering if you could do some reverse comfort for your OCs? Where they're not having a good day and their s/o comforts them.

I love yandere content but I am still a sucker for that good wholesome stuff :).

I absolutely love this

Also Was unsure if I should add salem in this cause a lot of people sent hate about him since i Introduced him cause he's disgusting but i did add him cause I love him and he needs love and support

Story contains: some angst, talk of self harm, fluffy fluff, soft boys

Theodore

You've never seen theo angry ever since you two got together but today he seemed to be stressed out, he was studying for a test and from the sounds of it he was going crazy. You walked towards the room only to hear a loud crash which made you jump and you rushed in

Theo had thrown his glasses across the room now sitting in the chair with his head in his hands a shaky sigh escaping him.

"im never going to get it, damn it.."

You looked at the papers scattered about and it looked like some intense stuff, you walked towards theo and hugged him from behind.

"take a break.."

Theo chuckled lightly before he leaned back looking in your eyes, it was clear he hasn't slept in a while.

"you know i can't do that angel, you get to bed though it's late"

You moved onto theo's lap which he allowed, he shivered lightly at the stern look in your eyes since he never seen you look this serious. He tried to settle your worries by giving you soft kisses on your neck but it seems you weren't easy to sway.

"theodore, I want you to get into bed with me and sleep right now."

The male sighed and looked at the clock on the study desk seeing it was about 2am, he did want sleep but he was far too worried about not passing to even think about it.

"sweetie, I have to study. How will I be a good husband if I don't finish college?"

"who says you arent already a good husband?"

Your words shocked him and he stared at you with a confused look before you lovingly wrap your arms around his neck and planting a soft kiss onto his lips.

"you're perfect theo, you don't have to constantly prove it okay? Don't ever doubt that."

Theodore was silent after that and he buried his face in your neck with a low hum, he truly didn't deserve you.

"you think I'm perfect?"

"of course I do, I love you so come and get some rest"

Theo decided to give in and lay down with you and for some reason when he did all those worries drifted away.

Hikaru

Hikaru didnt have time feeling sad, he was a model not to mention a public figure. He never lets you see that side of him unless it's to lash out at you but he onky does that in anger. Today was different, he was quiet today which Definitely wasn't like him

"hey, [y/n]?"

You looked up from your phone to look at the male who just got out the shower his hair still damp and he only wore sweatpants

"what's wrong? Want me to dry your hair again? You should put on a shirt before you get sick"

Hikaru said nothing and simply walked towards you and hugged you close making you both fall back on the bed, the shocked you and you started to pat hikaru on the back trying to get him off.

"h-hey! Are you okay? Are you sick?! Hikaru?!"

"I'm..sorry I'm really sorry, [y/n] dont leave cause I'm really sorry"

He was making zero sense and it only concerned you more but you heard sniffling which made you now freaked out so you softly pulled him back seeing tears rolling down his face.

"hey, why are you crying? What's wrong hikaru?"

The male sat up now sittinf on his knees and he kept his head down letting his hair cover his face as he tried to stop crying.

"I know you dont really love me, I'm mean and cold and awful. You want to leave don't you? But- but I don't want you to go! Im sorry I don't know how to love you i just don't know!"

Hikaru sounded an absolute mess and you didn't know where this was coming from but he simply out the male close into a hug letting him nuzzle his face into your chest as you played with his slightly damp hair.

"yeah, you are mean and cold..but I love you. You can be so sweet and really fun to be with, hikaru Im not going to leave no matter what"

"r-really? No matter what?"

"of course! After all without you my sense of style would be a mess!"

You heard a muffled chuckle escaping him as he hugged you tightly now resting his head on your chest

"you're an idiot."

With a cocky grin you poked his cheek earning a hushed whine of discomfort from you which you found adorable

"but I'm your idiot, so you're stuck with me!"

Axis

Axis is the type where he will tell you when he's sad, he's a crybaby so he will absolutely let you know when he needs comfort. So when the male popped up while you were thinking about what to do for dinner you figured he was feeling down

"what's wrong ax?"

"artblock..I have to come up with a new piece but i have nothing"

You gave a small hum before stopping and turned around wrapping your arms around him.

"well, how about we go on a date tonight we can go out to eat and do a bunch of fun stuff.."

"like fireworks?!"

You sighed loudly at your boyfriend's obsession with fireworks and decided to please him and his wishes

"we can get sparklers and small stuff okay?"

Axis smiled brightly and kissed your cheek over and over.

"date night date night!"

He started chanting like a child and you couldn't help but laugh at his antics but you were glad he wasn't sad anymore.

Prince

Prince hides his insecurities very well with flirting and smooth words, he likes you to think that he's all okay. you noticed he was far more clumsy today with things, it went from simply dropping things to full on tripping and falling.

Prince winced as he tripped and fell ontop of you earning an annoyed huff from you as you glared up at him for of his weird behavior that he brushes aside like its nothing

"prince what the hell is going on? You're being weird today"

Prince looked down at you before letting out a loud groan before nuzzling his face into your neck feeling quite embarrassed

"I'm scared..of our future"

"why would that scare you?"

Prince picked his head up and had a slight pout before he glanced away being unsure of how to put his words together.

"you're my first real serious relationship..what if I screw up?"

"oh princey.."

Your soft cooing made him even more embarrassed and he groaned while laying his face in your chest.

"you're amazing and great and I'm just..me!"

You simply messed with his hair finding his remark to be pretty dumb but you excused it cause he looked far too cute when pouty.

"prince, I love you forever and ever you aren't going to screw it up"

After a few minutes of silence he popped up and hopped to his feet with newfound energy

"you're right! I mean I'm pretty great! I bet you wanna marry me cause I'm so handsome!"

Well he was definitely back to normal

Yuki

It honestly took you weeks to figure out yuki was upset cause he is the master of hiding his emotions. He never shows many emotions besides a smile when around you or a glare when around strangers.

of course he doesn't talk about his feelings at all either so you are blissfully unaware of how he feels, until he slipped up and finally broke.

You had come home from shopping when you noticed how quiet the house was which was normal but it had an eerie feeling to it.

"is he taking a nap? Hmm.."

You went to the room and opened the door to see yuki curled up in the bed, the light were off and he was pretty quiet so you assumed he was sleeping but as you started to get ready for a shower when a muffled sniffle made you turn back to yuki and you walked to him before softly moving the blankets only to get a slight sight of tears before he buried himself deeper into the pillow to hide.

"y-yuki?"

"go."

You sat on the bed now fully invested in helping him but you had a feeling you knew what was wrong, you softly rubbed his back seeing that he was sweaty and slightly shaking.

"you have a nightmare?"

There was silence before he nodded and you simply laid next to him facing his back and softly touching his back your gentle touch being enough to cheer him up.

When he turned to face you his eyes were puffy yet had bags under them, his hair was a mess and he was breathing harshly from fear.

"wanna talk about i-"

"no."

You gave a sigh and simply cuddled against him and closed your eyes, his body stiffened but quickly relaxed before he held you close and closed his eyes

"just rest then. I'm here now okay?"

"mhm.."

Yuki smiled as he buried his face in your hair taking in your scent and feeling his body settle against yours. He didn't need words of comfort or huge signs of affection this was all he needed..you being here helped him far more than any words can.

Salem

When salem breaks down it's heartbreaking and intense, he gets into these PTSD triggered panic attacks to the point where he just loses it.

You had left the house and left him alone, it was only for a few hours but when you came back the bedroom was trashed and salem was freaking out curled up in the corner.

"b-bad boy, very bad super bad..I've been so bad I'm so sorry sorry sorry sorry"

"salem!"

You rushed to him and sat on your knees infront of him seeing fresh bruises and marks on his face, he probably hurt himself again.

"salem, baby look at me"

"b-bad boy..bad boys deserve death"

He was definitely not listening and you totally needed to snap him out of it so you did the one thing you could think of...you slapped him.

It wasn't too hard but he definitely looked up at you in shock now focused on what you had to say.

"you're not in that dark place anymore salem, you're here with me and no one is dying okay?"

"b-but I'm a sinner, I'm disgusting, revolting, i-"

You cut him off by selling your lips against his roughly kissing him and settling him down.

When you pulled back you gave him a stern gaze not letting him spill anymore degrading words out.

"listen to me salem. I love you and all your weird quirks! I don't care what anyone else says you're my boyfriend and I love you more than anything okay?"

"y-your lips t-taste like sugar.."

With that he leaned forward trailing his tongue over your lips with a shaky laugh

"thank you, [y/n]"

[arollingriver]

My 2020 Summary of Art!

I was the most inspired in April and May, and got started with my new work rythm around October. 2020 was a terrible year overall, even for me, and yet an amazing year for my art... And I’ll write my own contemplations under the cut!~

cw: mental health themes, mention of suicide

I dropped my artschool in February. ♥

I’d started going to this new, expensive school in September 2019. The first few lessons were extremely useful, and taught me better ways to approach drawing, but it quickly went downhill. My health was at its worst, I couldn’t stand it anymore-- I didn’t even realize that I was starting to have suicidal thoughts again, when they’d had completely stopped since I’d started seeing my therapist. I was struggling, and the school’s administration was no help. If anything, they only made matters worse. I kept forcing myself though, as myself and my family had paid a lot of money for me to go to this school... But I simultaneously started to realize the teachers were straight-up bad. They were all artists, but almost none of them were actual teachers. They treated their adult students like kids while simultaneously yelling at them for not being more mature, and most of their lessons had no actual value other than to make us practice in a rush.

Not too long after I stopped going, and when I was done going through the immense guilt of having wasted everyone’s money, I realized I didn’t necessarily want to die. So that was my introduction to this year.

I participated in two Danganronpa-styled RPs around February/March that weren’t all that, but inspired me to create a season 2 for my own RP. Despite my difficulties with the french Danganronpa RP community, I managed to find and build a group of understanding, and interested people who participated in my RP and were, a large majority of them at least, very kind to me. Thanks to that, I was able to create a space to explore my main story (WIP! I would like to publish it eventually!) and some OCs, old and new. This inspired me to draw them... more and more... oh, and Thus Spoke Kishibe Rohan: The Run came out, making me realize that muscular bodies cool look great AND were extremely fun to draw.

As my OCs were a team of highly-trained secret agents, this was the perfect opportunity, and I was inspired to draw more and more. From that point on, I realized I was having fun drawing, and most importantly, that I was satisfied with what I drew, and I continued to draw both my OCs, and any and all fanart I was inspired to create.

I felt a little bit of an artblock by the middle of the year, but in retrospect, it made a lot of sense. I’d suddenly drawn so much the few months before, of course I would eventually burn out. It still felt important to me to continue going forward with my art though, so... I focused on what I needed, explored different methods, and still drew a few good pieces. 2020 is the first year ever in which my Summary of art isn’t missing a month.

Around October, I started to take my new work rythm seriously. One day I’ll write for my current main project, @murderfabrication, and the next I will either draw or rest. Because of that, I found myself drawing almost every two days. Between October and December, I was even able to draw Danganronpa sprites and a Danganronpa-styled illustration for pleasure (and Murder Fabrication ofc) again, when that had become a chore in 2019.

This year is the year I enjoyed drawing. Something always felt off before, because I had no idea what I was doing, but that’s over. I’m still not great, but... some of my art is good. It just is. Hell, I even drew a few profiles this year-- that’s how confident I am. I started drawing in a sketched style because I realized that was what I enjoyed the most and, oddly, that allowed me to get better at sketching to the point that when I do lineart now I actually... don’t... need to do lineart. My sketches are now so confident and solid now that I barely ever need to edit them for the final result... when I’d been known for my terribly messy sketches for years.

Yeah...

I don’t expect anything out of 2021. I always hope for the worst, so I’ll either turn out to be right, or pleasantly surprised. But I’ll continue to work the way I’ve been working these last few months (this very week doesn’t count - I’m on break!), and I hope to be able to draw more things I like.

If you like my artstyle in any capacity... Please look through my art this year on this blog. I’m really proud of it.

[artofalassa]

CREATOR 2017 TAG MEME

Rules: It’s time to love yourselves! Choose your 5 favorite works you’ve created this year (fics, art, edits, etc!) and link them below to reflect on the amazing things you’ve brought into the world in 2017. Tag as many writers/artists/etc as you want (fan or original!) so we can spread the love and link each other to awesome works. <3

I was tagged by the lovelyyy @bitter-stella - thank you so much, honnn! <3 Tbh I needed to figure this out. I needed a break and think a bit differently, not just nag about how unproductive I was this year.

1.     Hurry!

Ady and Graham. This one would be the first one. It was something that started as .. nothing but a sketch I prolly wouldn’t finish and there I was lining it and colouring and heyyy, atmooosphere. <3 And these two (siblings!) are just my life.

2.     Not So Alone

Katsy and Jim are… the other two siblings from my stories. I drew this one after struggling with a terrible artblock before Christmas. So wanted to draw something winter-y, but nothing was enough, nothing felt good, I felt like a shit. So I realized – Katsy is a person who tends to feel like a shit deep inside. So … why not help myself helping him? Finally painted a proper background I’d like. <3

3.     Rafe’s aging meme and Rafe in general

My week of rewards for working on commissions and stuff. This boy became quite popular around people. However, friends complained they want to draw him, and have no refs, because ‚he’s too difficult to draw‘??? :‘D + there were questions what he was like when he was younger, which tattoos came first and so. My sweet baby, who started as that dummy muscle-type kinda guy, who’s just there as the bear sidekick to Valeria. Then I gave him Ady’s necklace and… shit got real. He’s made such progress during the year and I am so proud to say, that he’s one of my characters, who feels really alive to me. And there, years ago, I said I’d never want to see Jim and Ady’s children. Hah. Lolz.

4.     I Fell Asleep Amid the Flowers

A birthday gift I painted for my darling Mort. Vlad and Valeria enjoying the moment, when Vlad isn’t a complete a-hole. I’ve had these deserts of Utah in my inspir folder for ages and wanted to draw something with them and.. yeah. This just somehow happened. <3 I remember I finished the picture two minutes before Mort came home after few days. :‘D

5.     The Boy And the Sea

Meet Aidan an Sylvia. I thought I’d manage to draw this comic till the end of the year, but life went so busy and upside down, I lost my will halfway through it. Glad I managed to do more pages than the Words In Pictures has as a complete piece. But I had to take a break from it in June and … didn’t manage to return to it until I had no time to really work on it. But I am not throwing this project away! I have half of the pages finished and these days I am pumped to work on it. I just don’t have time fore it. :D However, it is something I am really proud of. <3 (Hehehe, first time actually showing a whole preview page somewhere!)

I could add some other things – like participating in Inktober and keeping up for more than fie days! (and loving the results) OR succesfully joining the artists alley at Animefest Brno in May! <3 OR finally giving Book of Lillies and Book of Stones an element to connect them and make them interesting for somebody else than just myself. Even though it is just a start of the journey, it is the first step! I finally know, what I am writing about. Time to research, explore and see what the characters will do with what the fate throws at them. ‘=) Some of the projects which motivate me to go for it, have been in making for YEARS and those are still not done. I hope I am stubborn enough and that I get time to sit my ass this year and really work on it. Even though I haven’t drawn much that can be seen last year – I have to admit I am really content. Because I crossed those first lines that have been keeping me from doing it. The first being the decision – Hell yes, I am doing it. It’s going to be difficult, but I AM doing it. The second – I found what I want to write about. <3

Last year was… not as good as the one before. But… it was a difficult one, which we managed to get through and I can pat my own shoulder, and tell myself – we really managed. I sorted some things, moved forward and even though I’ve been struggling with tons of shit and artblocks last weeks, I think of all the things I learned last year and I am very grateful.

May the 2018 be kinder and better!

Tagging @lesoldatmort @teryster @le-aki @chenria

[chikuto]

May I ask what you're doing to try and work through your art block? I've been working on my mental health stuff, but I'm still kind of lost on how to ease back into enjoying drawing again. What kinds of things have you found helpful?

I’m still struggling to find an answer to that question - “how to overcome artblock”, because it’s been like ... two years LMAO.

My last huge art surge was when I was into Gravity Falls, but I dipped from the fandom after a bunch of harassment/etc. But while I was doing that fanart, I tried a lot of different things with my art, and almost every piece I did, I was excited to test out something NEW. To try all these COOL NEW little things I taught myself, or picked up from watching the show, or whatever. I was just excited to add things to my arsenal of art knowledge.

My art block came from burning out on Clockwork - which must maintain a similar format, so there’s little room for “WOW NEW THING TO TRY”. I overworked myself, and I was afraid to stop. I was afraid the comic would die if I stopped working, that no one would read it, that everything I did up until now would be for nothing. It was a very unhealthy mindset that in turn made me very ill. I stopped learning new things because I was afraid I didn’t have time to. And then my brain just blue-screened and the art stopped.

Having a project like a webcomic is like having a kid. You love it and want to see it grow, but you also get frustrated when it wakes up screaming, or throws things. Sometimes you need a break - it doesn’t mean you stop loving it. I had to come around to that.

I still don’t really have an answer. I’m still in the process of sorting out my thoughts, and how to move forward with my art. I need to be more open with myself and stop letting myself get hung up on everything. I recently played through Persona 5, which is now probably my favourite game, and it’s stirring some of those feelings of “draw all the things”. I think it’s about allowing yourself to take breaks, to make changes, and to not chain yourself to something.

I know that wasn’t a real answer, but I hope you find your way out of artblock hell too