#this update better be better than the last anniv update

[wikihowhowtoexist]

The amount of ship fuel we get from this titlescreen alone is insane imo

Like DUDE LOOK!!

There's actually quite a few more ships popular ships there. I just couldn't add them because of the photo limit JDJS for example. I've already shown the croisstring one enough times so I'm not gonna send it again for now HSJSJ!!

[fountainpenguin]

tl;dr For 'Fic Followers:

In the upcoming weeks / months, I'm going to be posting for maybe 3 to 4 fandoms at a time.

If you are subscribed to me on AO3 and would like to avoid emails for fandoms you don't care about, I have a post HERE that tells you exactly which series you can follow to get all the updates for the fandom of your choice :)

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Updates

I recently discovered you're allowed to put essays/meta on AO3, so I think I'm going to copy the five big species overviews from @riddledeep over to an AO3 document sometime soon.

iirc, they're like 20k words apiece, which isn't allowed with the current Tumblr editor, and I've had those posts flagged a couple times for having my body reference images in them (even though they're blobby bodies that don't depict anything), so I do get nervous about losing them and in the past, I wasn't able to edit without them getting flagged, so it would be nice to have a back-up place for them in case they ever get shut down.

I'll probably make another piece for "7 Billion Years in 15,000 words" just because I feel that also qualifies as essay form and it's a piece I really like, and I could probably add Fae Magic as an essay as well.

I think everything else will stay on the sideblog - The sideblog is mostly character profiles, family trees, maps, and the episode timeline and would not qualify as AO3 legality in my mind - but I think these things would be okay and now you know 👍

These posts will still be on the sideblog, just copied

Right now I'm wrapping up One and a Half Birds- 12 of 15 chapters up, draft complete and they post every Friday. My plan is to post the last 2 chapters of Criminal Experience on Fridays after this (They're fully outlined but not finished yet) since Friday was always its update day.

After that, I think I'll post these FOP essays as a cue to my AO3 followers that Friday is being phased out as an MCYT 'fic day in favor of FOP stuff (with Sunday as the new secondary MCYT 'fic day).

For years, I've balanced on that razor edge of knowing my writing has improved a lot lately and that I'd love to tidy up Origin and Knots so they present the lore better and fit my current writing style (which I think is cleaner), but that's a dangerous road to go down, so I've kept moving forward instead.

That's also why I've tried not to get sucked back into the sideblog, as I just really want to wrap Origin and Knots up. Bit of a wake-up call for me when I realized I think when Dog's Life goes on hiatus in a few weeks, it will have outpaced the wordcount of Knots which I started in 2017, wheeze...

I look at Origin and Knots and see them as things we're only 3/5 or halfway done with and it's scary to me considering how much very important stuff I'm balancing (i.e. upcoming Anti-Cosmo and Anti-Wanda relationship pay-off after a very long slow burn; I wrote their first romantic scenes back in 2016) and I hope I do a good job conveying everything right.

Definitely have to grit my teeth and remind myself that "done is better than perfect," though, as I just am never satisfied with it- I had to scrap a lot of things I was excited for because of new story directions, but I think I've pulled everything back together, and I'll be excited to share what I have coming up.

tl;dr - I do love this lore, and as far as I can tell, these long posts would qualify as meta essays and be legal, and that definitely makes me feel safer considering how many times my 20k-word Anti-Fairy culture post got flagged despite the bodies being blue and green, wheeze...

And I've always wanted to write an essay about Lexiconian vs. Hexagonian culture, so I might do that as well, and I'm almost done with my 60k+-word piece about the lore in my MCYT 'fics, so I'm very excited to share :)

Lastly, while this is not lore or an essay, I'd like to copy some or all of my Total Drama 'fics from FFN to AO3, as I discussed in the beginning of the year. I'm thinking I might start moving them in June for Life of a Loser's 11th anniversary.

This 'fic had shorter chapters than what I have now and will probably be updated every few days (Maybe a Mon-Wed-Fri schedule?), which can lead to many emails. So, if you want to limit emails, check THIS post to find out which series to follow for the content you want :)

Closing Note - I have maybe 2 'fics that already have "Here are the series you can follow if you only want updates for this fandom's content" notes in the end notes.

I think I'm going to do a big sweep of all my stuff and make consistent end notes for all pieces. We shall see!

Anyway, thank you!

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FGO app icon updated for the anniversary, which is the first time the icon's ever done that in my memory. this had better be a lot better than the last two annivs if they're pulling that.

[bbnibini]

He's holding his bunny UR hostage so you would publish the Barbatos update lmao

You mean the other half? Unfortunately, I felt really sick after getting back from the doctor so I took a rest instead. I am working on the rest of OE A though. Hopefully I'll get better over the weekend! (There's still a lot of content to go over for this bulk. OE B seems so far away...)

Also, I kinda gave up on the bunny UR ranking hahaha. I did one last top-up for Simeon UR skill up but still nothing. I want to get a Lust UR that's more than Skill 1 (I want the final Lust card to be initial Mon once he's more than Skill 1), but I already raised my TSL Beel and I'm kinda lazy to raise the Anniv 3 Beel I got, so I was hoping I'd get Simeon Skill 2 xD welp no more topping up ig. I'm so unlucky with the roulettes looool (Already around almost 160k and still on the second box. PAIN PEKO.)

[sevdrag]

dreamwidth update: Mobile Game Monday

here we are - another Monday morning, another bar of stamina, another extended lunch break where Sev writes on DW...

FFRK As it turns out, I have until the end of JUNE to finish Torment CMs, which was quite the relief - although I made it all the way up to FFIX Torment in record time. (If anyone needs tips on Torments, I'm happy to help!) I had to rush through the FFVI event, but I managed to clear the realms, the Jump Start, and half of the Multiplayer (by myself) before the event ended, so that suits me just fine.

In terms of deadlines there's a challenge dungeon leaving first, then 3rd Anniv dungeon, then FFXV event, then Crystal Tower. However, I'll probably tackle Crystal Tower earlier, to get the motes. In between that I still have 7-8 Torments left, and I need to grind my 3* Magicite dungeons, to make tackling the 4* ones easier.

I've made some good progress though: I fully legend-dove Orlandeau (I have his USB and it makes him a powerhouse), Yuffie (have her Glint and ASB, plus diving ninjas with double-cast is always a great idea), and Mog (IDGAF, he has been CLUTCH MVP for me in so many fights; plus, his LD2 is chance of medica after dance, which is awesome; PLUS IT IS ADORABLE). Most of those 5* motes came from the Torments I completed. I also honed the water ninja skill to R3 (6 uses), which is only significant because fuck dark and ice orbs - I want to get all the top ninja skills to R3, at least, but then I have to work on knight skills and heavy abilities, not to mention I should make some decisions about a Dark Team and finally work on them.

I am ALSO sitting on like 300 mythril, because I haven't really been tempted by any banners lately AND we have been getting a metric fuckload of myth from various things in the last month. I'm pretty sure there's a fest coming up at the end of June, so I'm trying to save it rather than, say, going in again on the XV banner for realm coverage, because........ reasons?

FFBE I was hoping to make this post saying "I beat the giant rat", but I didn't beat the giant rat, although I did get it down to 15% health. My team was Ayaka (heals & esunagas), Roy (breaks & buffs), Cagnazzo (provoke tank), WoL (cover tank, also breaks), and my Fryevia + a friend Fryevia. My Frye is still pretty undergeared, resting at around 500/500 ATK/MAG, but I do have FFB +1 and thought hey fuck it why not. so chaining FFB Frye does a tonnnnnn of damage, it was pretty cool.

I just lost the fight when damage and paralyze just became a bit overwhelming - Ayaka had to spend turns removing paralyze, and when it hit Cag or Roy it worked like a cancel of whatever they were doing, so things started falling apart. I need to look up items for paralyze resist and, possibly, gear to make an evading WoL. I'll try again when I have a chance for a break this afternoon - it could just be RNG. I also have Mystea I could sub in for someone; i think she has some kind of status effect skill.

I'm "finished" grinding the Raid (meaning I got that last 4* ticket) but I'll still run raid orbs when bored to get materials -- I could probably use a couple of those EXP boosting hats for fun or expeditions. When that's done I'll probably go back to story - I want to clear Mysidia finally and keep working for that 100% moogle! - as well as TM farming, and farming Wilhelm's dumb limit break before I awaken him to 6*. Oh, and farming crysts to better awaken Frye -- so much grind!!

Love Nikki I was sort of phoning it in on LN last week; after Memorial Day weekend with nieces and party and family and stepfamily and aaaaaaa well my brain was pretty easily exhausted. This week, I picked some suits to work towards, which means I have to grind through some story so that I can open up some of the levels I need to grind. Ha.

I'd like to have a completely automatic (Finish ASAP button) Stylist's Arena, because I am a lazy ass, so I'm going in to each theme and upping my entry in the hopes of getting them all above about 55K points. That way I can watch my opponent, reset until I'm higher, and the only way I'll lose is if momo lies (MOMO LIES, THO).

otherwise, just plugging along. I have my share of wedding stuff so I'm honestly picking up the background/foreground stuff mostly, haha.

What about you and your Monday? and your Games?

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[thefoolthatrushesin-blog]

This will be the last I promise.

“Ang bilis” yun talaga yung naiisip ko sa atin non. Too good to be true yung experience kaya minsan na papatanong ako if yun na ba talaga yung love. Haha Di kasi maganda yung experience ko nung una about dun, and since that naging very ideal na yung view ko about it. Di ko nashare sayo dati pero mahilig talaga ako sa mga romcom movies and series na isa din sa mga nag impluwensya sa pagiging hopeless romantic ko.

TOTOO nung time ng midyear I had this special feeling na tinry ko ishow sayo, which I think nagkaroon naman ng positive response from you. Pero along the way di maiwasang nagooccur talga sakin yung DOUBT, kung yun na ba talaga yung true love na hinihintay ko na ng matagal. “walang challenge lord” haha sabi ko haha Para akong sira no, gusto ko pa yung nahihirapan. haha pero ayun nga, nacoconfuse talaga ako kung love or infatuation lang. Siguro na miss ko lang din yung feeling, siguro ang saya kasi parang reciprocated eh. Pero dahil nga ang bilis ng mga bagay, nag pakain ako dun sa doubt, and I realized na dapat ko ng iistop. Aware ako na masasaktan kita pero tulad nga ng sinasabi ko sa mga kino “consultan” ko that time, better na yon kesa naman tumagal tapos marealize ko na hindi pala yun yung love. And so I did, una nga nung end nung midyear. Hindi talaga ako sanay na nakakahurt ng girls, first time yon, kaya up until nung magkita tayo the next sem dala dala ko yung guilt lalo nat orgmates pa tayo. You seem fine with it naman and friends pa din naman tayo pagbalik natin from vacation. Napapatanong tuloy ako what if kung natuloy. I still had this love like feeling sayo non, pero iniisip ko na maybe dahil lang sa memories yon nung midyear. Tinry ko pigilan yung sarili ko talaga, kasi feeling ko love na din yung nararamdaman ko. Pero kinoconsider ko na 1 year na lang graduating na ako and I believe na kung maging tayo man that time, hindi ganon ka strong yung foundation natin to be apart. I was afraid. Huehuehue pero dahil nga ang hirap labanan ng feelings, nangyare tuloy yung after ng practice nyo for presentation ng anniv. Sobrang naging game changer yon,  dapat ko nang ituloy to naisip ko. Sabi ko liligawan kita nung nagusap tayo sa anniv. Pero as day goes by naiisip ko nanaman yung hala , “bakit parang ang bilis nanaman ng phasing namin.” Naghalohalo na yung doubt kung love kasi ang bilis at yung fact na graduating ako chuchu.  Kaya yung mga times na nagtetext ka sakin about itigil yung kung ano mang meron satin, umookay na lang ako kasi yun nga, kahit ako sa sarili ko hindi ko maconfirm. Dont get me wrong, I love you (dejoke di talga ko sure) pero is it the love that would last forever?

Hindi ko na din masyadong inisip that time kasi busy din sa thesis as well as ayun nga, things went easy kaya hindi ko  ganong nafifeel yung loss effect tsaka lagi din kitang nakikita sa orghouse so andyan yung feeling na hindi ako na tethreaten na mawala ka.

Pagtinatanong nila ako kung kamusta na daw ba tayo lagi ko lang sinasabi na “di ko alam eh, di ko magawang mag effort or what, siguro wala tlaga”.  Yun kasi yung pinaniniwalaan ko na pag na inlove ako sa isang tao ginagawa ko talaga lahat ng effort na alam ko. haha eh nung time natin parang wala yung urge na mag paka romantic ganyan hahaha siguro kasi nga ang dali haha tapos ayun nga alam mo din na may dati akong chenenen, na more than one year na (that time nung midyear) since wala pero di pa din ako ganung moved on sa kanya totally haha tapos iniisip ko kung love na ba yung nafefeel ko for you bakit hindi pa rin totally na wawash away yung konting feeling ko sa kanya. hueuheuhe

Until ayun nga, siguro napagod ka na. Hindi mo na ako pinapansin or kinakausap. Nung una parang okay lang, alam ko naman na ako naman yung nagdala sa sarili ko dun sa ganong sitwasyon. Pero habang tumtagal na fefeel ko yung namimiss na talaga kita at pagkalungkot dahil parang hangin na yung tingin mo sakin. Tapos ayun tuloy tuloy na nga na ganon yung treatment mo sakin. Nalungkot ako ng sobra, feeling ko parang may kulang. Tinry ko mareach ka ulit pero hindi mo pa din talaga ako pinapansin. 

Siguro yun nga yung nagging kulang, yung concept of not having you around bago ko totally ma feel yung love na hinahanap ko.

Then December 8 happened. Nandun tayo sa orghouse non, gagawin ko kasi dapat yung accesory ko for our christmas party. Maya maya napansin ko may ka video chat ka online. Niyaya ko si Chen lumbas para kumain pero ng purpose ko talaga ay itanong kung sino yun. Then nalaman ko nga na more than 2 weeks na daw pala kayo naguusap. Sobrang nalungkot ako non. Kaya nga nung nagyayaya silang uminom g na g na lang ako gusto ko pa manlibre. haha tapos nung nangyare nung lasing ako di ko talga ginusto yon. Alam ko lng iyak ako ng iyak sobrang broken. Natrigger yung pagiging insecure ko na ewan hanggang ngayon nga activated pa din eh. Iniisip ko nun sino ba ako para mag tapon ng love ng iba, na yung nga minsan lang dumating tapos sinayang ko pa tapos ngayong nawala na tsaka ko hahabulin.

Tinry ko pa din na ipaglaban, ano pa bang mas sasakit sa nararamdaman ko kung hindi yun dahil sa love, and love is something na worth fighting for! Tsaka iniisip ko kasi kahit papano may pinanghahawakan ako, kahit maikli I believe na somehow minahal mo ako.

Gumawa na ako ng mga kung ano anong bagay hahaha Since malayo nman ako sayo, through internet lang yung kaya. Sobrang dami ko ng parang online surprises na gustong gawin non hahah gusto ko talga ipakita kung gano kita kamahal. Ang weird dahil dun sa kawalang pag asa patalaga ako nakakuha ng hope, minsan mahiwaga talaga ang pagibig. Haha Kaya ako  nag arrive dun sa poster at yung video nga. haha somehow kahit depress and sad may pinanghahawakan pa din ako na hope, na mahal kita. Tapos narealize ko na yun na yung pag effort na feeling ko wala dati hahaha na nasa mode na ako na deeply inlove ako sayo.

Nung sinabi mo sakin through chat na hindi naman pala sure kung love yung nafeel mo sakin bigla na lang ako natigilan. Lahat nung pinaplano kong gawin parang bigla na lang mabigat na bumagsak  sa ulo ko. Pinagiisipan ko kung ano na gagawin ko, mag momoveon na lang ba, sumuko? Panuoring unti unti syang mawala lalo at makuha ng iba? Tapos tama ba yon? Kasi di pala ako minahal non dapat di ko na din mahalin?

Yun siguro yung pinakamalungkot na christmas/newyear break na naranasan ko. Para akong sira, nag wiwish ng time machine as gift. Sana makabalik ako sa time na nasa bus tayo pauwi, sana nasabi ko sayo kung gaano ka kaimportante sakin kung gano ka kahalaga lalo nat alam ko na yung feeling kapag wala ka sa buhay ko. Pero imposible naman yun, kung lahat ng taong nagkamali at nagsisi humiling ng time machine at pinagbigyan e di napakagulo ng timeline ng earth.

 Hindi na kita pwedeng kausapin or ichat kasi hindi ka naman din mag rerespond, lalong hindi na din ako pwedeng magpost ng kung ano ano, lalo ka lang magagalit. Sobrang helpless ko na nung mga panahong yon. Parang wala ng bukas na nag hihintay. Pero ayokong magmove on, lalo nat alam ko ng eto na yun, eto na talaga yung love, ngayon ko pa ba isusuko.

 Buong bakasyon, naka unfollow ako sayo sa twitter at fb. Sabi ko kasi, hindi ako susuko kahit anong mangyare, iispend ko na lang yung natitirang araw ng bakasyon para ayusin yung sarili ko. Pag nakakakita kasi ako ng post or twits mo about sa kanya sobra akong na dedemotivate, nalulungkot, narerefresh yung regrets at inggit, selos and insecurities haha sa tuwing nangyayare yun hindi ako nakakatulog. For sometime pinilit ko yung sarili kong huwag munang mag habol, pero ginawa ko talaga yung best ko na hindi makalimutan yung feelings na meron ako sayo nung mga panahong hindi kita nakikita. Pinagdadasal ko na lang na pagdating ng 2nd sem nasa sana magkamilagro at bigyan mo ako ng pagkakataong makausap ka.

Sana basahin mo yung pinaka una kong entry sa blog after nito.

Naalala ko yung sinabi mo sakin non na sana mas humaba pa yung bakasyon para hindi mo na ako makita. Habang nasa LB paulit ulit na ko iyong naiisip. Hindi ko alam kung kailan ka babalik sa LB kaya as much as possible hindi muna ako nagoovernight sa orghouse, alam ko kasing hilig mo talga matulog don. Gusto ko kung magkita man tayo ay yung time na okay lang talaga sayo. Siguro iniisip ng mga tao na bitter lang ako kaya ayaw ko muna mag pakita. Pero yun talaga yung dahilan, natatakot ako na magkita tayo ng pareho tayong di ready. Sobra din kasi talaga ako masaktan, natatakot ako na pag nakita kita baka sobrang bigat na sadness nanaman yung mafeel ko.

Yung mga nangyare siguro simula nung January, nung unang mga araw nakita kita detailed ko namang nasulat yung iba sa blog blogan ko.  Yung mga bagay na hindi ko masabi sayo pag nagkikita tayo dito ko na lang nilalagay.

3 months na since nung December 8, di ko din alam kung may sense ba kung bakit yun yung reference time ko. For more than 3 months, walang araw na hindi kita naisip, kada oras at minuto kahit sa mga pinakabusy na oras ng buhay ko. Every night bago matulog pinagdadasal ko talaga na sana masabi ko someday na worth it lahat ng hirap at sakit na nararamdaman ko. Na kahit mukang tanga at kawawa na ako sa mga orgmates natin dahil sa alam nilang sobrang pointless na, tinitiis ko na lang. Yung sakit na nararamdaman ko sa  mga panahong nandyan ka lang pero hindi kita magawang makausap o malapitan. Yung mga oras na muka akong ewan sa net shop dahil naluluha ako pag nakakakita ako ng twits mo or may nalaman akong update sa bago mong lovelife. Yung sobrang sama ko na lang sama sa loob ko dahil tinetake na lang ako na malaking pagkakamali ng pinakamamahal kong tao samundo. at pinakamasakit yung masaksihan kang unti unting mafall at mainlove sa iba, habang ako, walang magawa.

Walang umaga sa pagising ko na hindi ako nag sisi. Hinihiling na sana nagtugma yung oras ng sobrang pagkahopeless romantic ko tulad ngayon sa panahong kahit papano ay mag pagtingin ka pa sakin.

Gusto kita makausap gusto din kita makachat oras oras araw araw gusto kita makasama kumain agro sa umaga at magdinner sa grove sa gabi. Gusto kita makasama ulit mag overnight, gusto ko magpainting ulit tayo manuod ng GOT lalo nat malapit na yung season 7. Gusto ko magtake ulit ng biochem kahit ilang beses pa basta ikaw yung nagtuturo sakin. Gusto kong sabay tayo ulit umuwi. Gusto ko pag graduate ko, babalik ako ng babalik sa lb dahil alam kong nandito ka. Gusto ko na pag nagtrabaho tayo babalik tayo sa grange tuwing recruitment at sabay na mag papagtk. Gusto kitang isayaw ulit. Gusto kong mahawakan ulit yung kamay mo at matitigan ulit yung mga mata mo. Gustong gusto kitang mahalin, Gusto ko pa mag hold on sa feelings, gusto ko pa ding ilaban. Pero na rerealize ko na mas magiging masaya ka na kung isusuko ko na lang. Siguro kahit papano nalulungkot ka din para sakin dahil umaasa pa ako. Ayoko din naman na ganung “feeling sorry” na lang yung nararamdaman mo sakin. Kaya siguro time na talaga to pick up and put back the powdered pieces of my heart and look for my own happiness just like what you did. Tsaka lahat na nakamove on, ako na lang yung hindi. Alam ko sa sarili ko na matagal pa bago ko to makaklimutan. Ako talaga yung tipo ng taong matagal bago makabitaw sa past. Kahit na natatakot na din talaga ako sa dami ng lungkot  na paparating at mararanasan ko along my moving on process.

I love you Marlen, sobra sobra kung alam mo lang. I cant help but to fall inlove with you every single day, kahit hindi na kita nakakausap. Minsan iniisip ko kung nagbago ka na talaga or maybe sobrang ikli lang din talga ng get to know time natin non para makilala talaga kita or siguro lately puro mean attitude mo  na lang talaga yung naeexperience ko  haha Pero sana hindi pa din mawala yung sweet simple Marlen na nakilala ko non. Alam ko sawang sawa ka na dito pero sorry talaga kung nasaktan man kita dati, sa  mga bagay na nagawa ko at sa mga bagay na hindi ko nagawa. Sana hindi na ulit mangyare sayo yon.  Somehow thankful na din talaga ako sa nangyare kasi nagawa ko yung  ilan sa mga bagay na iniisip ko sana nagawa ko dati at di na ako ganung ka affected pag naririnig ko yung “when I was your man” lol. Masaya naman na ako para sayo, I will always be a fan of you artworks and achievements. Pati na din yung mga posts mo and selfies haha You are a special girl and you deserve a special kind of love.

To him or to them? Ewan haha sana talaga  ay willing siya and able . Sana hindi lang puro sa chat. Sana hindi niya gawin yung pagkakamali na ginawa ko at sana hindi ka nya saktan. Sana mahalin ka nya rin ng sobra sobra.

At ako naman, magmomoveon na  ako haha I accept na hindi ako ang iyong leading man at isa lang akong hamak na extra na for a while ay nagkaroon ng role sa buhay mo. Ngayon narealize ko na na love comes in many forms. May mga love talaga  na pinag hihirapan, may mga love  na talaga namang spontaneous lang na dumadating sa buhay ng tao at may mga love na dapat sukuan. Kung mangayare man ulit sakin yung pangalawa, sisiguraduhin kong ready na ako at wala na talagang maghohold back sakin.  

Okay na. I love you, goodbye.