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Mattheo and the Ranking Kisses Trend
Mattheo Riddle, who picks you up from your closing shift at the little bookstore in hogsmeade, with two cups of hot chocolate.
Mattheo Riddle, who makes you stand there whilst he bundles a scarf around your neck, not wanting you to get ill as you walk back in the snow.
Mattheo Riddle, who listens to you ramble about your day, gazing at you like an absolutely lovestruck fool.
Mattheo Riddle, who can’t say no when you flop down on his bed next to him and ask him to film the trend where you rank the kisses generated by the filter.
Mattheo Riddle, who holds his phone up as this song begins playing in the background. He grins when the first kiss, a forehead kiss, pops up and you shuffle over to press a sweet kiss to his forehead.
Mattheo Riddle, who ranks it second best because it reminds him of all the times he’s fallen asleep next to you, finally feeling safe as you press a gentle kiss to his forehead.
Mattheo Riddle, who’s a little too excited when a neck kiss comes up and you press a slightly too long kiss to the underside of his jaw. (You’re going to pick up from where you finished off the second you stop recording.)
Mattheo Riddle, who can’t help but grin with delight when french kiss is the last one. He’s got lipstick kisses on his cheek, nose, forehead and neck.
Mattheo Riddle, who all but pulls you into his lap. His phone drops onto the bed sheets, still recording. You squeal his name with a giggle as he drags you over, and his laugh echoes throughout the room as he pulls you in for the sweetest kiss.
Mattheo Riddle, who’s bruised-knuckled hands tenderly cup your head as he kisses you. It’s all love and little laughs slipping into the kiss, Mattheo holding onto you like he can’t get enough.
Mattheo Riddle, who’s found his forever person.
#in my heart of hearts this man is a softie#gosh i���m so fucking lonely#this trend makes me physically sick everytime i see it#is this too hard to ask for?#slytherin#slytherin boys#tom riddle#harry potter#theodore nott#draco malfoy#lorenzo berkshire#slytherin boys fic#blaise zabini#pansy parkinson#mattheo riddle drabble#Spotify
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its so weird to me how eyebags and looking tired/""dead"" is considered trendy and hot now. like I have genetic eyebags that are made worse by me having a condition that makes it hard for me to sleep consistently, and I always hated that part of myself. I even remember being made fun of for it when I was younger. and now its just cool? I feel like a lot of trends function similarly, but on varying scales of extremeness. facial features/traits people were once made fun of for having are trendy and suddenly everybody wants those traits. I know that my example with eye bags is a very small example and that this is a much bigger problem for poc, who were bullied relentlessly and socially conditioned to hate their ethnic features, only to then see them celebrated on the face of a white celebrity, but it's just such a strange phenomenon to me. physical traits are apart of trend cycles. facial structure is apart of trend cycles. body proportions/weight is apart of trend cycles. and it shouldn't be. people should've be scrambling to change the entire way they look to fit the current standard of attractiveness, especially if that standard is going to fade away in less than ten years time. AND people, especially woc, shouldn't be made to hate their appearances until they suddenly become trendy and acceptable. thats insane. trends should focus on clothing (the lifespan of trend cycles and fast fashion is a discussion for another post) or hair or makeup looks not your body/face. people arent made of clay. you can't remold them everytime a new desired bodytype/facial feature hits instagram. idk man im venting here and im in a weird headspace atm so maybe this doesn't make much sense, but the treatment of people's faces and bodies and traits as if they're fads that can go in and out of style is disgusting to me. shit just makes me sick.
#in the car abt to go to work n feel sick to my stomsch god bless me#okay to rb#if you relate to it ig lmao#sorry if its incoherent like i said im sort of out of it lately#levis greatest hits
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can’t see in the stormy weather | shawn mendes
university au, shawn x goth gf
NOTE: this is NOT the new series. this is a one shot that takes place during the early stages of their relationship... you’ll find it in the Season 1 section of the masterlist :)
goth gf playlist | masterlist
When Shawn asked me to make a playlist describing who I am, I almost threw myself back to California. I don't know what it is about people wanting to know things about me, but it's annoying. I detest it.
It's not like he made me a playlist full of sappy love songs. He just wanted to hear songs I identify with. That was borderline terrifying because Shawn is a musician. He lives and breathes music and analyzing lyrics and melodies. What's he going to think if he finds Halsey's "Without Me" or 5SOS's "Invisible?"
Oh yeah. I deeply project whatever bits of me I discover onto songs. Then I stick to those songs and keep them on repeat and I make sure no one knows about them because then people would know things about me. It's irrational and unrealistic but that's how my stupid brain works. Anyone who's ever known me needs to disappear! They can't have the luxury of knowing me and all my secrets! What the fuck would I do if Shawn and I broke up? I'd have to kill him, that's what.
"What, are you gonna kill me too if we stop being friends?" Stella asked. "Seriously, it's just a playlist. It doesn't have to be that deep."
"I told you what the prompt was, right?" I replied.
"Yeah. And that is because Shawn knows you don't verbally express yourself about… anything. So he gave you a different outlet."
Fuck, I thought I was the psychology major here.
Yes, it was easier to let Shawn in through ways where I didn't have to say things out loud and explicitly. I had to admit that. But he was still going to find out things I had yet to tell him. Important things apart from the anxiety and semi-regular therapy sessions.
"Why don't you just pick generic songs you like, and not the ones that reveal too much?" Stella suggested.
I scoffed. "I'm closed off, I'm not a liar."
"It's not lying. Everyone's favorite song means something. I was listening to Big Time Rush when I touched down on Toronto for the first time. Everytime I hear Boyfriend I think about how I successfully made it out of my parents' house."
As nice as that sentiment was, I couldn't bring myself to find ways around the prompt. I had to do what Shawn said: compile a bunch of songs that I feel represent who I am. Besides, making playlists is… really fucking fun.
~
It took an hour of adding, removing, and very specific placements, but I was happy about my playlist to the point where I was nervous. I sent the link to Shawn the next morning when I knew he was on the way to the gym. Figured he’d listen to it during his morning workout and get it overwith. But no.
No.
Basically, I’m a fool who forgets she’s dating a musician.
So here I was, thinking that Shawn would make of what he will about the songs I chose and we would never talk about it. Wow, was I fucking wrong. How did I not expect Shawn to want to know the why?
He was a little sneaky about it too. Shawn invited me over to his place after my classes, and why the fuck would I say no to that? Of course I went over, internally cursing myself for not shaving my legs the night before. He usually had the TV on and a steaming mug of chamomile ready for me whenever I came over no matter the circumstance. Today there was only tea, and a stupidly excited Shawn.
“We have music to listen to you today!” he said when he had me on his couch.
He knew I wouldn’t play dumb either. And because of the fact that I was looking at his stupid beautiful face, I couldn’t move away from this topic.
“Cool…” I said stiffly.
Jet Black Heart - Live
He pulled up the playlist, which I had titled with the black heart emoji, and hit shuffle. Completely going against the very intricate order I put each song in. He was surprised to hear an audience screaming at the first song, but he recognized the tune that came shortly after.
“Why’d you pick this one?” he asked, his arm going around the back of the couch, watching me with his stupid pretty eyes.
I chuckled. “It’s a goth joke! Everything about me is dark, even my heart!”
“And there’s a hurricane underneath it?” Shawn guessed. He really was going to pick apart the lyrics and apply them to me, huh? “Any reason why it’s the live version?”
The answer wasn’t anything too telling or cheesy. It was still hard to maintain eye contact as I explained. “Stella introduced me to this band. She dragged me to a 5SOS concert and now it’s our tradition to see them whenever they tour.”
“Is this your favorite song?”
“Live, yeah. It just reminds me of feeling so alive. Concerts are the only times I feel that way.”
Shawn grinned at the sentiment. He seemed happy with that answer and sang along to the rest of the song.
“And there’s your deep shit of the day,” I said when it ended.
“I want more.”
What I’m Made Of…
I felt a tiny pit in my stomach. I knew this song, and I knew that Shawn did not know this song. He was looking down at the album cover on his phone, thinking to himself. Then, he turned to me expectantly.
“So…?”
“Just enjoy the lyrics and the sick guitar solo.”
He was quiet for a minute. “Well, I do get your vibes from it. But you’re also reluctant to show me what you’re made of.”
I hesitated. “It’s uh, a battle song. I’ll fight someone for trying to forcibly take anything from me.”
“Like if somebody jumped you?”
“Physically, mentally, emotionally. Yeah.”
Again, silence. “You gonna fight me?”
I knew he was joking, and I cracked a grin. “Jury’s out.”
“Any reasoning behind this soundtrack?” He showed me the cover, and I internally tried not to panic.
I had plucked the song off the wrong album, and now Shawn knew I was a fan of a certain speedy blue creature.
So much for being cool and mysterious. I’m just a fucking nerd now.
“Nah, not at all,” I casually replied.
Honestly, I enjoyed this song. I love this song. Why else would it be on this playlist? But just this once, I wanted to skip to the next one.
And when the next one came, I wanted to skip again.
I Am… All of Me
“Do, do you kin a certain hedgehog?” Shawn asked, once again amused by the album cover.
“No…” I resisted rolling my eyes.
“This song definitely sounds like you. Tell me, am I dating a hedgehog?”
Suddenly, this felt less nerve wracking and more annoying. I sighed heavily.
“I thought you wanted to know more about me.”
He chuckled. “Hey, I’m trying. I’m interpreting all these songs in whatever way I can because you won’t explain them to me. Plus, this song is from a video game.”
“Did it occur to you that maybe I like the game this song came from? Maybe I casually like this whole franchise because-” I stopped myself upon seeing Shawn’s face light up, like he wanted me to go on.
But no, he made fun of me. This song is now void, and he will not get an answer.
“Because?” he coaxed.
“Because nothing.” I grabbed his phone out of his hand and skipped to the next song.
Without Me
“Oh, who hurt you?”
“You already know that story. Next!”
Wilson (Expensive Mistakes)
I’ll stop wearing black when they make a darker color.
Shawn looked at me for a moment, still trying to analyze the fuck out of my song choice. “I gotta say, I was expecting more goth music. You listen to a lot of mainstream artists.”
“There’s no rule saying I can’t. Mainstream artists are popular for a reason.”
“Touche. So why this song?”
“It’s what people think I am. Grumpy, bitter, always in black.”
"But that's not all you are." Shawn held his hand out to me, and I took it. He looked down at my chipped polish, running his fingers over my nails. "I mean, you are grumpy. Bitter? No, I'd say realistic. Always in black? Yeah, and you look beautiful all the time because you feel good in it."
That last part struck me. At least I didn't look odd to him. He didn't fall for the tough exterior I've built for myself. That little fact was both touching and terrifying.
"I know there's more to you than the way you dress yourself. It's why I like you so much." He grinned.
Cry With a Smile
"There's the goth metal you were looking for!" I exclaimed.
"Mm, your sense of belonging, as you put it. I know all about this already."
And he skipped to the next song.
A Little Too Much
Shawn perked up a little bit, a smile growing on his face. Then he looked at me, the corners of his eyes crinkling. "Is that me?"
Now my cheeks burned. "Yeah. This song feels like a callout."
"Babe…" He was still smiling as he leaned in to cup my face and kiss my forehead.
"Yeah, can you believe? I get tired of being a hardass sometimes." I was only half joking.
Not a lot of people knew my deal with anxiety and depression, much less why they intensified over the last couple of years. The urge to tell Shawn everything was beginning to form in my throat but I kept pushing it down. He looked too happy, and I didn't want to bring that down.
"You don't have to be a hardass around me," he said sweetly. "Actually, please don't be a hardass around me, okay? Everyone has their limits."
Then, he skipped to the next song, because he was sick of his own voice.
Fist Bump
Shawn looked at me once again, a grin on his face. Here we go again.
“I’m noticing a trend here.”
“I like this franchise, okay?”
“Okay, kinnie.”
I rolled my eyes and sat back, scrolling on my phone to diffuse the frustration. What was the point if he was just going to make fun of me?
“Hey.” Shawn gently placed his hand over my phone, getting me to put it down. “I’m only kidding. You can laugh.”
My eyes narrowed.
“I’m serious! Look, maybe if you just tell me what these songs mean to you, I’ll understand better. Just give me a chance.”
His eyes didn’t show any bit of deceit… But that’s how they all are. And everytime, I’m always a fool. So I sighed and tried not to cringe at my own words.
“It’s lame… and stupid… and really stupid. But all those silly little video game songs? They…” I exhaled, and chipped at my nails. “You know I deal with… anxiety and everlasting sadness…”
“You mean depression?” Shawn corrected.
“Yeah, whatever,” I went on. “The world is full of some real shit, and, and the songs and the games…” I made a face and looked down. “They’re comforting.”
It was silent for a minute before a hand went and cupped my chin. I was met with Shawn’s eyes and glowing smile. But then he opened his mouth and the most baby baby voice came out.
“Does Sonic make yew feew bettew?”
I smacked his hand away. “I swear to-”
But I didn’t finish that statement because he tackled me in a hug.
“Kidding, kidding! I’m sorry, baby, that was the last one, I promise!” He kissed the side of my head before leaning back to look at me. “I think it’s really cute you like this series.”
“It’s not cute, it’s self care,” I mumbled.
Head Above Water
“Finally, a song I know!” Shawn exclaimed, and he dove into singing along.
I forgot I put that one on the playlist. I meant to take it off. It only made me more nervous that Shawn already knew this song. He was one step closer to unlocking the big one.
He sounded beautiful as he sang, lost in the melancholy melody. I watched him, trying not to give anything away through my face alone. It was getting harder to keep it together, just from the little things I had already told Shawn.
And so came the inevitable expectant look. “So? Depression? Religion?”
Part of me wanted to let him think that. Depression is common, it’s easier to explain than the real reason. Besides, it’s not a lie. I do have my dark days, and even darker periods. But depression isn’t the reason for this song.
“Nope,” I replied.
“You know, Avril Lavigne wrote this when she was really sick.”
Dammit, he does know what this song is about.
I sighed heavily. “How do I put this in a way that doesn’t sound scary or pathetic?”
“You’re sick,” Shawn guessed with a chuckle. But the look on my face changed the mood, and he went serious. “How bad are we talking?”
“I get sick… every so often,” I explained. “It’s nothing scary, it’s just… chronic IBS. I can manage it, I just have to be careful with what I eat.”
He nodded as he listened. “So it’s not that bad, but it’s enough for you to have a whole song about being sick?”
I hesitated. “There’s another song, actually.”
“Two?” Shawn shifted in his seat. “So that must mean it’s a bigger deal to you than you’re making it out to be.”
And he thinks he doesn’t know me well enough.
I didn’t like talking about my health problems, unless it was with my doctor. I didn’t talk about how annoying all this shit was outside my therapist’s office. Anytime I felt frustrated about food, I talked myself down because it could literally be worse. Why would I whine about something so mundane?
“You know you don’t have to tone it down for me,” Shawn added when I stayed quiet for too long. “And, if it helps… now I understand why you read restaurant menus so carefully.”
“Like I said, I have to be careful.” My voice went thick for a moment, so I coughed. “I eat the wrong thing, and I end up sleeping in the bathroom til the wrong thing is out.”
“So it’s frustrating to deal with this all the time?”
“Yeah… and I spent two and a half years not knowing what was wrong with me, two and a half years going to the doctor more times than a young adult should for their age… two and a half years thinking I might die…”
Shawn’s eyes widened. “Years?”
“We went to a doctor in Mexico, and he finally diagnosed me with IBS,” I explained. “But that was after the words ‘lymphoma’ and ‘tumor’ were thrown into the mix. It’s not really something you forget. Oh, and I hate vomiting. I hate it so much that I can’t be in the same room as someone who might be queasy. So that’s annoying.”
“Wow…”
I suddenly felt a little self conscious. “I know it’s stu-”
“If you say stupid one more time,” Shawn cut me off. “This is the least stupid thing you could be talking about right now.”
“My anxiety links back to food, too. Think that’s important to mention.”
“Is that why you always want to go back to your dorm after a dinner date?”
Oof, so he noticed. I stayed quiet, so Shawn continued.
“I can take care-”
“No,” I said immediately. The last thing I needed was my boyfriend seeing me have a meltdown because I ate something spicy. The last thing I needed was for anyone to see me have an anxiety attack after vomiting. “It’s not your job.”
Shawn reached over to cup my cheek. Only then did I realize I had been tearing up, and he was wiping it away.
I turned my head away, dabbing at my eyes with my sweater sleeves. I didn’t want to look pathetic and I failed.
“I have to ask,” he said after a moment, “have you gotten sick at all since we started dating?”
“It is a chronic illness that I have.”
“And you just… you just took care of yourself? While you were sleeping in the bathroom?”
“Like I’ve always done since I left home.”
“Impressive. I always call my mom when I feel sick, and she comes over every time.”
I was honestly surprised. I was expecting him to be upset because I never called him in my time of need. And that alone, made more tears well up in my eyes.
“Hey,” he said, scooting closer to me. “It’s okay. You probably went through a lot before you got diagnosed. It’s frustrating, I can see it weighing on your shoulders. Just tell me if there’s anything I can do for you.”
I could feel him looming over me, waiting for me to fall back in his arms. The song had long since ended, and it wasn’t about the playlist anymore. Shawn was just waiting for me to do something. I couldn’t bear to look at him, because his kindness and understanding would make me break even more. He really was too kind, far more than I expected.
Even when I said nothing, and he took out his phone. I thought he got bored, but his next prompt made me look up at him.
“Okay, so that barbeque restaurant we went to the other night, we had spicy buffalo wings for an appetizer, so we won’t have those again. Any other food that might make you sick?”
I stared for a moment before I caught another tear with my sleeve. “Um… can we skip that whole restaurant? Barbeque and my stomach don’t mix.”
Shawn typed, and the only sound in the room was his clicking keyboard. “Got it. No more barbeque. Any other place or food to avoid?”
“It’s a long list…”
“That’s why I’m writing it down.”
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#shawn mendes#shawn mendes fanfic#shawn mendes imagine#shawn mendes blurb#shawn mendes smut#shawn x oc#shawn x goth gf#damn look at dis shit#xmas came a little late lmao#im a lil soft for shawn rn so yea
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I really didn’t want to address this but...
I’ve seen a lot of people mis-speculate the Artist of the Year speech by BTS and make theories about them disbanding that’s why BH is introducing new group.
I know for a fact that BTS aren’t disbanding anytime soon because let me remind you that, they decided to renew their contract with BH a year before it was to be expired and they did it recently and Jin told that they thought about disbanding in the early days of 2018.
So BTS aren’t going anywhere and stop spreading rumors and making theory about it. Not every thing BTS does or say is a mean for a hint to something. Sometimes you need to take words as it is.
Another thing I wanted to tell;
Do you ever imagine how hard it must be for BTS right now, when so many people expect only the best from the biggest boy band on the earth? Do you realise what they must be going through, being in the spotlight 24/7?
Do you realise how many times they have thought of giving up and disbanding, either as a group or individually? Because it’s too much on them mentally and physically?
Do you hear the groans of pain at the end of the day? Or little cries due to any reason? Or how they drag themselves to their home? How they have many schedules in a day? How upsetting it is for them to get sick?
No, you don’t...we don’t because they don’t show it to us, they don’t tell us for our own betterment.
Now do you think you guys would have trended #ThankYouBTS after the awards if Jin wouldn’t have opened up genuinely? Do you think you would have been ready to fight if they wouldn’t have cried? Do you think you would have been all talks if Jin didn’t tell about the disbandment part?
The truth is, you wouldn’t. Because you wouldn’t even come to know. We all wait for them to let their groans of pain out to help them. We all wait for them to talk about their hardships before we go on twitter creating trends. When have we ever done this before they could talk about their hardship? Never.
It’s not our problem, don’t worry. We wouldn’t be knowing because they don’t tell us...but do you really think they have to tell us everything before we take actions for them? As a human, don’t you think we ought to understand that every coin has two side?
And this is not for BTS but for every idol out there and their fans. Not every idol is supposed to talk about their hardship to their fans because some companies don’t allow it. BTS are privileged to let their vulnerable side known to us. And we are glad that we know both sides of the coin. But what about other artists who don’t get to speak? When will we speak for them? When will we look after them? When they disband? When they do something drastic with their life? You’ll realise then how hard it is to be on top with everyone’s expectations?
Just stop for a second and think, take your time and let your artist/ idol know to rest, have plenty of rest before they need to come back, let them know that they don’t have to be best all the time, that their mistakes will be a memory to you, that they don’t have to worry about others when their fans will protect them.
2019 would have been 2018 repeat for BTS if Seokjin wouldn’t have talked about their disbandment and how the fame and spotlight was weighing on them. If he wouldnt have opened up, things would be continuing as it is. Pushing BTS to the brink of giving up finally.
Don’t wait for your idols to open up to take actions.
And we as an ARMY hold a lot of power collectively that so many fans are unaware of. We could be so much better for BTS if you just open your eyes and see the pain that they hold, instead of wishing things from them. They are not our slaves, don’t treat them like one, demanding stuffs from them. They are not robots, they are humans after all and they get tired too.
Please be understanding of their pain and encourage them to eat well, to rest and to not worry about anything unnecessary.
Leave good comments under their post, they might not see it, but even scrolling through thousand, if they stop by one that says “Rest well and be warm”, it will make their day. Artists know that their fans love them, you don’t have to say it everytime.
And to all haters, who are adamant on leaving shit on someone’s post, have a little bit of humanity in the hollow part of your body where your heart is supposed to reside. And to others, as a human, try to block these haters instead of clowning them, send only good message to your artists so that these haters can be blocked.
Again, it’s not only for BTS and ARMYs but to others fandoms and idols as well.
(There are so many artist I’m forgetting to tag but if you reblog this, don’t forget to tag your fav artist/ idol.)
#i feel a weight lifted off of me#it had been boing within me and i had to let it out#bts#jimin#yoongi#namjoon#taehyung#jungkook#hoseok#seokjin#bangtan#v#jhope#suga#rm#jin#seventeen#got7#twice#ikon#wanna one#mamamoo#exo#blackpink
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This guy is just AUGH
Mattheo and the Ranking Kisses Trend
Mattheo Riddle, who picks you up from your closing shift at the little bookstore in hogsmeade, with two cups of hot chocolate.
Mattheo Riddle, who makes you stand there whilst he bundles a scarf around your neck, not wanting you to get ill as you walk back in the snow.
Mattheo Riddle, who listens to you ramble about your day, gazing at you like an absolutely lovestruck fool.
Mattheo Riddle, who can’t say no when you flop down on his bed next to him and ask him to film the trend where you rank the kisses generated by the filter.
Mattheo Riddle, who holds his phone up as this song begins playing in the background. He grins when the first kiss, a forehead kiss, pops up and you shuffle over to press a sweet kiss to his forehead.
Mattheo Riddle, who ranks it second best because it reminds him of all the times he’s fallen asleep next to you, finally feeling safe as you press a gentle kiss to his forehead.
Mattheo Riddle, who’s a little too excited when a neck kiss comes up and you press a slightly too long kiss to the underside of his jaw. (You’re going to pick up from where you finished off the second you stop recording.)
Mattheo Riddle, who can’t help but grin with delight when french kiss is the last one. He’s got lipstick kisses on his cheek, nose, forehead and neck.
Mattheo Riddle, who all but pulls you into his lap. His phone drops onto the bed sheets, still recording. You squeal his name with a giggle as he drags you over, and his laugh echoes throughout the room as he pulls you in for the sweetest kiss.
Mattheo Riddle, who’s bruised-knuckled hands tenderly cup your head as he kisses you. It’s all love and little laughs slipping into the kiss, Mattheo holding onto you like he can’t get enough.
Mattheo Riddle, who’s found his forever person.
#in my heart of hearts this man is a softie#gosh i’m so fucking lonely#this trend makes me physically sick everytime i see it#is this too hard to ask for?#slytherin#slytherin boys
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