#this took hourssss to write

[foreverdolly]

dearest dolly, I’m seriously making it my mission to get caught up on all you’ve written since I haven’t already since i come and go from here but I already know i’m going to love every. single. piece. you’re a little genius and i’m so happy you’re doing so well and that you’ve come back, it’s been a lonely day not having anyone to spill to about the likes of our favourite man and all of his glory, (including his abs in dune hello?!) 🤍

hello my sweet angel!

goodness, it'll probably take you a hot minute to get through all of my fics. i was shocked to see how much i've written over the two years that my blog has been active (editing my masterlist took hourssss)! for a while there i was an absolute machine! honestly i'm terrified to read back through some of the fics in fear that they are just absolutely horribly edited. ah well, what can ya do?

i got off of work early today so I've been writing the finale for "i just ride". . . and also started a feyd fic.

I MUST BE STOPPED! his abs in the movie are just off the charts. and why does he look so good in a bald cap? IT'S CRIMINAL I TELL YOU!

anywho- breeding kink feyd is fast a'comin. rest assured there will be dune content on my page soon! i've also been thinking about writing some paul atreides fics as well. i'm dune obsessed right now.

[ro-botany]

Can I ask what you used to make your marlear piece? It looks so much like the intake cutscenes its actually insane!

Aw shucks, thank you!! I tried SO hard to get them as close as possible to the game's look, and I'm super pleased with how it all came together. :]

There was a whole saga involved in making those, hoo boy. The short version is:

I ripped the character models, rigs, & textures direct from the game

Imported the models into Blender

Used Blender to put the models back together...

...and to recreate the game's shaders myself (it tooks HOURSSSS of work anon it was so many hours it's so hard to do)...

...and to pose and render the two lovebirds - I used some face animations from the game to get me started on their expressions, but it was 90% customized by the end anyway.

Then I used Clip Studio Paint to touch up a few things, and to fake the emblem particle effects, since I couldn't figure out how to do the particles in blender in a way that wouldn't light my poor old laptop on fire. Though you could reasonably do that step in any art program lol.

I should stress again how fucking difficult it was to make my Engage shaders in blender. I almost can't stress ENOUGH how hard that was to do. Like I'm stoked about the results and all but holy mcfuck. It's not an endeavour for the impatient, I'll tell you that.

And that's even before you get into the fact that the character rigs look like THIS

And if you want to use ripped animations to help with posing, you can't really edit the rigs at all. I just separate things into bone collections so I can see what I'm doing and then rotate each and every bone manually without the help of auto IK (which doesn't work on these rigs) like the fool I am lol.

I should really write a guide to Engage model ripping one day... Maybe clean up my shaders a bit and make em available for download somewhere.... Idk, projects for future Robot.

[dbdonryo]

maggie’s apartment walkthrough!

hello!

so, a new game by anatola howard came out on steam today - maggie’s apartment! i’ve been really excited for this game ever since it was first announced, so naturally i leapt on it within, oh, 30 seconds of its unlocking on steam. ha.

anyway, it took me a while to figure out some of the puzzles, but i got through my first playthrough a few hours ago. i figured i’d write a guide with the creator’s permission. that being said, i’m still going to see if there might be multiple endings or any secrets i might have missed. if i’ve missed anything, or if you have any questions, feel free to message me!

walkthrough under the cut <3

okay! i’ll try to make this as quick and concise as i can - i’ve never written a guide before lol. i’ll also try to keep it as spoiler-free as possible.

wait for the opening cutscene to play out - randy leaves and you’re suddenly informed that the apartment building is on lockdown! weird... there’s a lot to do, though, so at least maggie won’t be bored. there are plenty of things for maggie to talk about/to. there’s the depressed cactus hiding in the closet, the tv, the couch... feel free to explore the room to your heart’s content! be sure to take a quick look at the tv guide next to the television, click on the drawer beneath the radio (which is used for saving, loading, changing around game options and returning to the menu!) examine the fanclub id and speak to the cactus hiding inside the closet before moving on.

once you’re ready, go ahead and stick your head out of the northern window. there are quite a few things that maggie can look at and comment on, but the most important item is the jay walker shirt in the foreground. if you click on it, maggie will note two things: the album represented by the shirt is called “jay walkin’ away from the law” and the featured single is titled “edge”. observe whatever else you’d like, then click on the window to re-enter the apartment. 

a quick commercial will play on the radio. after it ends, go ahead and click on the western (left) wall. you’ll meet a boy named shrimp sitting on his computer. the order you click on the dialogue options in doesn’t seem to matter, but this is what i did:

>how are you? >why is the apartment locked down? >music? i love music! >i know who jay walker is! >i like how smart he is! the options you pick here do matter: >”jay walkin’ away from the law.” >”edge.” the rest of the options don’t seem to matter (still figuring it out!) but if you want to run through the rest of the conversation, you can. either way, you should have taken away two things. one; shrimp’s computer uses the power that the other next-door couple needs for their, ahem, love butler. two; shrimp illegally pirates music. for shame!

clicking on the eastern (right) wall will allow you to tune into a shouting match between the aforementioned couple after their love butler shut down. for now, there isn’t anything we can do.

click on the lower left corner of the purple rug. maggie will pull it up and discover an old candy bar. when she tosses it aside, you’ll notice that it was covering a hole in the floor! go ahead and click on it.

oh my! it seems like you can look straight into the apartment below! try talking to the police officer reclining down below. again, most of the dialogue options don’t seem to matter, but this is the order i used:

>i wasn’t planning on leaving my room, officer. >it’s true! i love my boyfriend! >do you know who randy rosebud is? >why’s the apartment on lockdown?

ask the officer the last question over and over for a series of amusing excuses (and a bit of clever foreshadowing, now that i’m replaying this lol). eventually, you’ll have the opportunity to ask,

>are you sure that’s really the reason? >some kinda watson YOU’D be, officer! >you’ve got nice legs, officer. >you sure do work hard, officer.

before asking the officer to make any arrests, he wants to get drunk. o...kay. no problem! tell him goodbye and stick your head back into your own apartment. so open the minifridge to the right of the couch and... casually remove that totally normal tank of carbon monoxide. open the minifridge again and click and drag a bottle of randy’s beer over to the hole in the floor. the police officer will chug it and tell you he’s still thirsty. okay... randy won’t miss two beers... well, long story short, you’ll need to empty the fridge and give the officer each drink, one by one. after he uses his gun to shoot the last beer open, he’ll finally be drunk enough to tell you what you need to hear. he tells you that the building is on lockdown until he finds the source of a mysterious carbon monoxide scent (whoops!). you can also ask him to arrest shrimp for pirating jay walker’s music. oh, and you’ve got his name now - officer rascal! tell him the following:

>i’ve got someone for you to arrest. >a kid called shrimp, next door. >do you know who jay walker is? >um, there’s this old singer named jay walker.

after shrimp is arrested (it’s pretty hard not to feel bad for the poor kid, even though he insulted your boyfriend), rosemary and guy can use their love butler again and they’ve stopped arguing altogether! now you can finally talk to th- oh, never mind. they blew up your tv.

at any rate, there are plenty of new things to do! it’s hard to pick a direction, so i’ll just do what i think made the most sense...?

the first thing i did was stick my head back down into the hole. you’ll see the officer’s unloaded gun, which is way too far out of reach. the newly-detached tv antennae could reach it, but there’s still no way to grab it... ah, but there is that old sticky candy! attach the tv antennae to the sticky sportsbrick by dragging the antennae on top of the candy. now the gun will stick to the antennae! however, the hole in the ceiling/floor is far too small for the gun to fit through. darn! just leave it alone for now.

click on the ceiling to the left of the ceiling fan to meet a new character: a very creepy writer named hector cheese. again, the order doesn’t matter for the most part - but this is the order i spoke to him in:

>sugar? >do i know you? >your work? >couples >you’re obsessed! >show me the song! >so, you want gossip about break-ups? okay.

now, you might have noticed that a window that was previously hidden behind your bookshelf was revealed after the explosion. click on the east-facing window (it’s to the left of the isaac newton bust). we’ve met a new character - maggie’s best friend, beauty the radish. go ahead and speak with beauty. as always, there’s no particular order regarding dialogue options, but this is what i said:

>what do you do out here all day? (this ends the conversation so click on beauty again) >the apartment’s locked down! >randy rosebud >it’s okay if you feel that way. (again, this ends the conversation so give beauty another click) >cactus in the closet >rascal’s gun

talking to beauty has given us two great hints. first, she says we need to trick dunc (the cactus) into thinking he’s grown a flower in order to coax him out of the closet. second, she mentions that rascal’s gun could easily fit through the open window. we’re going to solve the cactus puzzle first.

click on the bush to the right of maggie’s head. maggie now has two pretty flowers! go back into your apartment by clicking on the left side of the screen. sit patiently through the radio show’s break, then click on the closet door.

>”selenicereus grandiflorus”

yay! the closet door’s finally open! and look how cute dunc is! now, you’re going to want to click on the two photos taped to the inside of the closet to knock them to the ground. then, drag the flowers on top of the handsome headshot (the one that isn’t a photo of randy and maggie). drag the remaining flower over to dunc to drop it onto his... arm? finally, click on dunc.

>your flower looks beautiful!

hmm... he still wants us to prove his beauty to him. that’s no problem! open the closet door again - and this time, drag the handsome headshot on top of dunc. telling a little white lie was worth making him this happy, right? anyway, now that he’s gone out to the patio with beauty, maggie picks up a... mysterious traffic cone? a little bit ominous. for now we’ll have to leave it, as it has now become part of the scenery.

now, before we move on to the gun puzzle, we should look at the other photograph that fell from the closet door - the autographed photo! clicking on it tells a very cute little story, but more importantly, dragging it on top of the autographed poster causes maggie to realize something very fishy... and it also catches the attention of a new voice on the other side of the wall! go ahead and speak to mrs. marinara, shrimp’s mother:

>what’s your favorite song? >how did you get started being a randy rose? >autograph (mrs. marinara brings something up that seems to raise red flags for everyone but maggie) >basefoot bowl >traffic cones >love gossip >break-ups

all right! that last one is exactly what we needed! click on the ceiling to speak to hector again.

>i’ve got some hot gossip for you, cheesey. >mrs. marinara’s divorce

okay. so, hector wants a cigarette? that can wait for just a second! first, let’s finish getting that gun. drag the sportsbrick-on-a-stick to the eastern window for miss beauty to hang onto. pause for another cigarette ad on the radio, then take the remaining tv antennae to the hole in the floor. beauty will toss rascal’s gun to maggie. nice!! we finally have rascal’s service firearm, although it isn’t loaded.

next, we’ll give hector, well... something. drag the heavy isaac newton bust over to the east-facing window, then follow it out onto the patio. click on beauty. i kind of forgot to mention the fanclub option up to this point, but asking beauty about it is a vital step in solving the cigarette puzzle. go ahead and pick that option now. it’ll still work if you pick this option sooner.

>fanclub

both women seem to have gotten pretty upset. that won’t do at all! click on the white patch on beauty’s back. it reappears on the floor next to the grill - dragging it on to the grill will cause smoke to billow up to hector’s floor. and look at that! a bucket is dangling beside maggie. drag isaac newton into the bucket. ah, i’m... sure he’ll be fine.

hector cheese drops a very, very troubling note. read it, then head back into your apartment.

heeeere’s where things begin to go a little bit haywire. it’ll also be a bit harder to avoid spoilers, but i’ll do the best i can.

poor maggie! poor randy! poor small children and poor senior citizens!

so, the first thing i did was click on beauty. i asked her questions in the following order:

>where can i find a phone? >from your view, what could you see of the basefoot bowl? >i feel sick...

end the conversation, and click on the western wall (right), now labelled “love butler”. he’ll dial the phone number on the side of that traffic cone from earlier, and you’ll finally learn the truth.

we’ll briefly take on the role of beauty. it took me much longer than i’d care to admit to figure this bit out, so i’ll list each item and its dialogue options in the correct order below!

click on the fanclub id card.

>it’s not about letting other people down. you can’t be so hard on yourself.

click on randy’s autograph.

>ham was able to take down the wig and the fanclub with it for his own benefit.

click on the carbon monoxide tank.

>ham has been making you buy these tanks with his manipulative charm. >never mind.

click on the song lyrics.

>we know he wrote the note because of its mention of carbon monoxide.

click on the carbon monoxide again.

>he was going to blow you up.

click on the tv guide.

>the apartment is on lockdown. nobody can leave. >the blimp. >he was going to sing the song he wrote for you after killing randy.

okay! now we can arrange the items as follows:

the fanclub id card belongs on the rectangle labelled “1″. the autograph belongs on the rectangle labelled “2″. the tv guide belongs on the rectangle labelled “3″. the carbon monoxide belongs on the rectangle labelled “4″. the song lyrics belong on the rectangle labelled “5″.

once everything is properly arranged, you can click on each one to go through the plan, if you’d like to. whether you do so or not, click on beauty for a decidedly uncheerful cutscene. i picked the following options when talking to beauty, although, again, i don’t think the order matters:

>why does ham want to kill me? >why can’t we just run away? >i don’t want to. >i’ll eat you.

okay! all sorts of people need to be avenged in our last stand against randy. talking to dunc will give you hints, but here’s what you’ll need to do. 

(NOTE: i tried waiting it out to see if ham would get me, but aside from being startled a few times by dunc’s warnings, nothing happened. i don’t think there’s a time limit. don’t panic!)

first, click on the coat rack to knock it over. it isn’t quite secure enough - we still need something to hold it in place. click on that tie to the left of the front door, and drag it on top of dunc. maggie physically can’t wink, which will make it hard for her to aim her gun. drag beauty’s eyepatch onto maggie’s head, and that takes care of that issue!

the last thing we need to do is load officer rascal’s gun. trying to drag beauty’s tooth (it’s located on the floor, sort of above and to the left of the barrel of the gun) onto the gun won’t work - it doesn’t fit. instead, drag the tooth on top of dunc. he’ll give us the bullet we need. after that, well... enjoy the ending!

thank you so much for reading, and to anatola howard, thank you so much for making such a wonderful game!! 

if i learn about any secrets, i’ll be sure to edit this post and add them as they’re discovered.

[blackberryjam]

hiii i took your quiz hourssss ago and literally have not stopped thinking about it since... i even retook it to answer a few questions a little differently and switch between going with my gut vs my brain vs my heart because i wanted to see what a difference it made.. the first time i got 'you escaped' and the second time i got 'you became a ghost', i think what changed was how i felt about the house initially, when i first took the quiz i focused on the more fearful/upset/urgent feelings and just wanted out and the second time i took it i focused on how oddly attached to the house you can be and wanting to cling onto that happiness it gave me while also seeing myself as an integral part of it. anyways i know that wasnt the point of it to take it twice but i really enjoyed both times and their results :) i just love how you write and make the concepts/situations really come to life i was visualizing everything as i went along and it was such a fun experience :) you really nailed a lot of things i personally love about horror/haunted houses and im really glad your quiz popped up on my dash and that we became mutuals you seem so so cool ^_^

AHH THIS IS SO NICE THANK U !!!! 💘❣️💓💐 we should be besties fr omg tysm <3

[mcgonneville]

Hi guyssss! Just sharing something that’s been bothering me for a while now.

Firstly, I really do appreciate the excitement and love you all have for my story. It really means a lot to me that you guys have stuck around for so long 💕 But, please also remember that I am also a person, and have other things in life as well. While MOSTTTTT of you have been super nice, supportive and encouraging, there are a few who almost get offended when I don’t post as per their desired schedule, and I get spammed on fanfic/Instagram for an update. I understand it comes from a place of love and excitement, but please remember to be kind and understanding ❤️ I update whenever I can, but I also have a full time job, a life to live and as everyone else the past two years have been very testing. I have recently had a few surgeries and have another one tomorrow, and I’m not saying this to get pity or anything, I am perfectly fine, but the point is, there are always other things happening in one’s life. Writing fanfictions isn’t my full time job. And again, most of you have been so supportive and really understanding when I take breaks, I need it to write creatively and in peace, as well as to manage my schedule. I posted 11k YESTERDAY. That is 10 times the length of a normal fanfic chapter. It took me a week to write it, in bits and pieces because I had my schedule piled up. But I managed it and posted because I know how much you all look forward to it and I never everrrr want to disappoint the readers. I am very grateful to you ALL 💗 But when I do post, remember I have put in HOURSSSS AND DAYSSS of effort, so I look forward to your feedback and reviews - that is what keeps me, of any other writer going. It truly does! Such reviews are coming from a place of love, I know, but they aren’t the most helpful or motivating (and I’m not sharing here the ones that are harsher in tone). Please understand that we writers try our best, and post as often as possible, so please be understanding of our schedule and refrain from demanding chapters, as it’s not the only thing we do. After 11k words, I expect SOMETHING other than “post more”, you know? I get happy, and excited writing the scenes, and I hope you do too. So if you do, PLEASE TELL ME. Otherwise, how else am I supposed to improve or stay motivated? I hope nobody takes it in the wrong way. I love you all, and am SOOOO grateful for your love and support. I just wanted to share this with you all on behalf of many fanfic writers ❤️ Love ❤️

[jaeminzie]

best friend!yoongi.

→ min yoongi x gender neutral!reader

genre: idk fluff lmao

word count: 707

synopsis: how i think min yoongi would be like if he was your best friend !!

bruh i literally think abt bestfriend!yoongi way too much

i deadass daydream abt him being my best friend :(

n e ways

yoongi would be that type of friend who SUCKS with words so he would just subtly say nice things

like a

“u look appealing today”

or just give u gifts and food randomly

and you’re like ???? “thank you?”

to which he’ll probably reply with “yeah whatever, you need to eat anyways”

he’d be hella clingy tbh

if he hasn’t received a text from you then he’ll throw a fit but he will NEVER show that he’s bothered by it

instead, he’ll probably just call or text you asking what you’re doing

then you reply and he’s being all dry then you ask whats wrong then he just replies with “come over”

so you do

your hangouts would be so chill

if you’re also musically inclined, then y’all would have LOTS of jam sessions late at night

writing together

making beats together

or just do your own stuff while staying in the same room and asking for help when you need an opinion on a line or beat

also expect to get random texts from him saying to get ready at midnight

no questions asked, you get ready

he picks u up with his music blasting

then the car ride is just y’all bopping to music but not talking to each other

you guys get some drive through

he pays for the meal bc he’s nice like that

then he just parks the car in an empty parking lot

and y’all just start talking

usually when he does this, something or someone is bothering him

so the talk would mostly consist of him venting and you just listening to make him feel better

and he does feel much better

he thanks you for always doing this

then right after, he drive you back home feeling bad bc he took your couple hours of sleep away

yoongi would also feel so mf flustered when you initiate some kind of skinship

even if it’s a nudge, he’ll just smile slightly ugh

lowkey loves to hold hands

but he’ll never say it str8 up

he’d make an excuse to hold your hand for warmth

he’d TEASE THE HELL OUTTA YOU

man you can’t be sensitive if you’re gonna be his best friend

but he’d take care of you so well if you’re feeling down or sick

like

he’d bring food to your house and just chill with you

sometimes play video games with him but he sucks at them,, it’s enjoyable to watch him

he always whines when you suggest it tho bc he knows he’ll lose lmao

he’d be the type of friend who you’d hangout with casually

every. single. day.

like just staying at one of y’all’s houses after school or a hangout spot you guys usually go to

your hangout spot would be somewhere private and chill

like if you live near a beach then y’all would go there to watch the sunset almost everyday if you have the chance

or on top of a hill to watch the sunset

anywhere quiet and peaceful tbh

okay but his mom would love you

like

she’d treat you like you’re her own child

and yoongi would always tease her abt it

okay but y’all would just be doing simple tasks together like doing hw in his/your room in silence

you guys can stay in the same room but not talk for hourssss

it’s just that you both enjoy each other’s company even if you aren’t communicating

okay but your tea sessions would be SO spicy

you guys would have a weekly gossip talk

he always has the best gossip bc he loves to eavesdrop during school

he’s the perfect person to share secrets with bc he’s so loyal and would never spread them to anyone else

and same goes for you of course

sigh yoongi would be so supportive of you

if you’re in any sports or dance or theater or whatever

he’ll be there at every show/game

and he’d shyly compliment you after the event

man he’d be the bestest friend bro :(

omg i love him so much

okay okay i hope that was cute

[sargentsnowy-blog]

its like...june 5th and im starting this at 2:44 in the morning. you cant stop me even if you tried. yo they were just 14 when pikeman buILT A VERY STRANGE MACHINE...i need sleep. Im making Danny Phantom refs. And if you didn't get the memo, they are 14.

...

It was awfully quiet at camp today. No loud noises to startle anyone or random barking at each other. It was peaceful. Too peaceful.

"What the fuck is going on today?" Max mutters to himself, poking at his mash potatoes. "Its so quiet in here. Even David is shut up."

"You're right. But I'm not against it," Neil replies softly, pushing away his tray. "But it is kind of weird... it's usually rowdy and dangerous."

"Yeah that's the problem." Max stands up in his bench chair and shouts, "why the hell is everyone so quiet today?!"

"Well, its probably because David isn't talking," Harrison points out from the table across the room.

"Actually, I'm as surprised as Max is on this one." David rubs his arm. "Kind of uncomfortable if you think about it. Its usually loud and vicious."

"Maybe its because Nikki isn't here," Nerris says while eating a spoon of potatoes only to spit them out by everyone's startled gasps.

"Yeah where is Nikki actually?" Neil turns to Max as if he knew the answer, earning him a shrug. "She would be here by now. Its late afternoon..."

"As anyone even seen Nikki today?" Gwen asks, standing up from her chair. Everyone shakes there heads at her, making a shiver go down her spine at the thought of another lost or dead camper. "That's not good..."

"Where could she have gone?!" Neil was still looking at Max like he had the answer but Max was just looking worried, more than he'd like to admit. "Why would anyone take her?"

"I don't know," Max says, brushing it off likr he wasn't worried. He wasn't hiding it well at all. "Maybe she overslept."

"She never oversleeps and you know that."

"I already said I. Don't. Know."

The mess hall door opens and everyone leans forward in their seats only to groan softly when the Quartermaster walks in. "We've got mail," he says inbetween the hairs of his mustache.

"Mail?" Gwen walks over and takes it. She instantly had an annoyed look on her face when she says, "it's from the Woodscouts."

Max stands up instantly and walks over and snatches the envelope out her hands, ignoring Gwen's comment about being rude. He rips the letter open and pulls out a piece of paper, reading it aloud:

"Hello Camp Campbell campers. I'm not very good at writing letters because I'm awkward so bear with me. But just send fellow Maxwell alone to our camp. We've got his weakness and we'll do anything to her if it means getting what we want."

He takes another look at the paper and says in a soft, pissed off voice, "they've got Nikki."

"Why would they want to take h—" Neil is instantly cut off by Max's voice.

"What do they always want?! The fucking camp. They took Nikki cause they know I'd come for her."

"You could just leave her there," Nurf comments but told to shut up by Max's even more enraged voice, leaving a bead of sweat on everyone's face.

"Well, you aren't going alone," David tells him, trotting up to him and placing a hand on his shoulder. Max flicks it off.

"They are the Woodscouts. Send anyone else with me, and Nikki gets it." He turns around without another word and exits the mess hall, Gwen's choked up "wait—" not stopping him.

...

The Woodscout camp was dark as always, clouds overhead killing Nikki's happy vibe as she sat against a gray wall. Her eyes were adverted up to glaring at Pikeman and his henchman, twitching.

She wasn't tied up because apparently, they said didn't need Max going insane over it. So, she was free to attack Snake and Petrol if she wanted, but she had learned from Max that sometimes you just have to go along with it. So she beared with it until he got there.

...

A few hours had passed and Nikki was getting tired. She was hungry too, even asked for some food but was rejected because he was coming sooner or later.

Snake and Petrol weren't socializers, so each time she tried to spark a conversation, she was met with complete silence and a usual inaudible grumble from Snake.

"Can I get some fooood?" Nikki asked again, getting annoyed by the silence. "We've been here for hourssss. You guys must be hungry too."

As if he was taunting her, Snake pulls out a granola bar, opens it, and bites it.

"I hate you."

...

Max marches up to the Woodscout camp, hood on his head so his floofy hair didn't get too wet from the pattering rain. Before he left the camp, he had stolen a bag of chips from the counselors' office because he knew Nikki would be hungry.

And he knew that since it was a military camp, they might not be feeding her.

He walks through the entrance of the camp, getting looks of disgust and mischief from the campers. Ignoring them, he walks right up to the big tent in the middle of the place.

When he was kidnapped by them, he was dragged to this tent. So she had to be in there.

Max walks into the tent and looks around, instantly spotting Nikki on the far wall. She looked tired and hungry as expected. And even from away, he could see the dead look in her eyes.

But then she looks up and her eyes light up when she sees him and a smile brightens her face. Nikki jumps up and takes a step forward, letting out a squeak when Petrol puts an arm in front of her.

Relieved to see her, he smiles slightly and gets ready to run toward her only for an arm to block his path.

"Not yet, Maxwell." Pikeman's face, no longer with pimples, peaks out of the shadows. Max narrows his eyes at him. "You must first vow that you'll do what we ask."

Max shoves his hands into his pocket and crosses his fingers. "Yeah yeah. Just move." Pikeman smiles and moves his arm, watching as Petrol moves his arm from in front of Nikki.

At the same time, they dart toward each other and stop in the middle of the tent, Max grasping her shoulders and then hugging her tightly, burying his face into her shoulder.

"Uh... Ma—" Nikki is cut off by his concerned voice.

"Did they hurt you?!" He asks rapidly, muffled by her shirt.

"No."

"Say anything to you?!"

"Besides Pikeman telling me his 'evil plan' to take over the camp using me, no."

"Feed you?!"

"Nope."

"Tie you up?"

"Surprisingly, no."

He sighs, not letting her go besides lessening his grip.

"What an adorable reunion," Pikeman says from across the tent, making Max let her go. "But Max you have something we wa— are you listening?!"

Max was currently giving her the bag of chips out his jacket pocket and watching her eat them happily. Neither of them were paying attention.

"HEY. YOU'RE HERE FOR A REASON." Pikeman shouts, smiling when Max and Nikki look at him, even if they are annoyed. "Max, you're here to—"

"To take back my weakness and leave right?" Max points with his thumb to the door. "Because I promised you nothing PizzaFace." Nikki snickers softly.

"Yes you did! You vowed! And I don't have pimples anymore stop calling me that!"

"Actually," Max pulls his hand out his pocket, revealing a pair of crossed fingers. "I vowed nothing to you, ShitFace." Nikki burst out into laughter covering her mouth.

"Wha— you can't think I'll let you leave so easily! You're little friend is tired!" Pikeman snaps and Snake and Petrol run toward him. "And we won't let you escape."

"Try me bitch." Max grabs Nikki, making her squeal softly and and carries her sloppily, running out the tent.

"DON'T JUST STAND THERE GET THEM!" Pikeman shouts to his two henchmen who were watching the pair in awe.

...

"Max thank you for coming to get me," Nikki says happily, sneezing as waterdroplets hit her head. "You could've just let me stay but you came haha."

"You're going to catch a cold," Max comments, rolling his eyes at her.

"Yeah but unlike you, I don't have a soft blue hoodie."

"I actually brought an extra because I know what they'd probably do so here." He grabs that hoodie he threw away a while ago and hands it to her.

She blinks and takes it, putting it on. "Have you worn this?"

"Yeah? Why?"

"Smells nice." She looks forward silently and grins where he wouldn't see it.

Goddammit, Max thinks while doing the same, leading her toward camp. She is my weakness.

...

ITS ALMOST 4:00 AND I'M WRITING A FANFIC SKAJSHFHF.

But is it just me or do you guys imagine this in anime style too?

Maybe it's because I am a weeeeeeeaboo.

after proof reading: its 4 am rip.

[bambi-1a-blog]

10 bias tag

I wasnt expecting to be tagged for this but thankyou @peachylobotomyy !!! Ily bby 💙

Anyway..

1. Jinyoung from GOT7

The precious peach is my ult bias. He's beautiful on the inside and out. Hes sexy and so so talented, fuck that voice is beautiful and smooth. I could listen to him reading all day long. I have never been so sure about whos my bias. I love this man probably too much lmao.

2. Hoshi from SEVENTEEN !

Do i really need to say anything here? Hes A CUTE SQUISHY LITTLE SOFT CHILD THAT I LOVE. Hes probably the softest man i stan? For an intense hard stan, hoshi has me choking softly and a mess for his fluffy self. He is a cute little meme and all i can think about is "nega hoSHH" all day. His rapping is SLEPT UPON, dont believe me? Change Up will have you gagging. Plus them vocal chords are sent by angels and DAMN BOI DANCE KING, he has hobi running for his money. As leader of the performance unit, he is naturally a talented blessed boi and we should all love him more. This boi's visuals are severly slept upon ugh.

3. Jin from BTS

Wow, worldwide handsome is my bias? Yo, of course. We all need some of his beauty in our lives, those flying kisses is what gets me through the day. Not just his mindblowing visuals are all i love about him, but his idiocy. Bless him, Jin is a special kind of person. /an idiot/. His loudness and short temper is goddamn hilarious and those dad jokes - idk whether to eye roll and cringe to death or laugh by how cute he is. Those shoulders too, oof. This oldie is probably one of the first bias' i ever had? I've stuck loyally to him (i dont hop around biases very much) and man i've watched him go through every hair colour, liVING FOR IT. He is our pink queen, and i love it. His vocals also - stop sleeping on epiphany it was amazing yall. Gosh.

4. Jinho from PENTAGON

We all love a short lil bean. But wow. Jinho is a soft small child, but also the eldest. Hes so damn cute i could fit him in my pocket- he knows this. And uses it to his power the snake. He has the vocals of a legend and oh boi his english covers are so damn good. *cue havana and finesse covers* he is a lil sneak and gets away with everything just cus hes the eldest- but everyone loves him so its cool.

(Kay lmao ima keep the rest short gosh my mind is dying tonight)

5. Doyoung from NCT

A beautiful man - born blessed looking like a literal angel on earth. He has such a soft and sweet spoken voice, but oh boy has some powerful vocals. I could listen to his lines in "yestoday" all day long. Oh boy oh boy is this man blessed. Hes a v good dancer, so damn polite it hurts, amazing singer aaaand beautiful. He should be an abercrombe and fitch model, the grunge aesthetic has never been his thing. (Beaut squeaky clean boi next door)

6. Wonpil from DAY6 (daysicc)

Well.. what can i even say aabout this fake maknae. Hes a fucking idiot. But oh boy do i love him with all my soul. wonpil is the biggest cutie, even jae accepts it these days. His aegyo is utterly cringe worthy but bless him that laugh has me fainting. His vocals are blessed, oh man is he talented. Not to forget how talented those fingers of his are.. on the piano. I could listen to him play all day, he has such a soothing and calm aura to him when hes absorbed and focused on playing the piano, voice resonating perfectly with it. Oh man i just love him a lot (also dopil has me hardcore crying its so cute)

7. Ravi from VIXX

Okay so damn-(ra) we have reached ultimate hard stan material. This man. Oh boy. People already sleep on vixx enough as it is (see; shangri la, scentist and stan) but daaaaamn this man, has a talent for writing, producing, rapping and even dancing. He is the jack of all trades. Pefectly harmonises cute and soft with sexy and "fuck im gonna pass out hes too much" kinda hot. Also lets not forget the tattoos oof. Hes like the perfect "badboy" with a soft side too. I live for all his mixtapes and solo shit as well as vixx as a whole. Hes also sugar daddy material he a RICH BOI - he gets all them royalties. Just.. wow. Ravi is a beautiful man pls stop sleeping on him and vixx. He is also a part of the tall boi crew as are the rest of vixx, damn they all big! (He is literally daddy)

8. Hyungwon from MONSTA X

A meme with thick lips and a beautiful voice.. he could also be model damnnn. I remember watching no mercy and literally dying when hyungwon (a frog) suddenly starts picking on another member of his group, swearing and all. Idk if it was hot or scary. Tbh my first reaction was like, daddy spank me. Lmao. (It was a prank on the maknae of that group dw the frog isnt that mean.) He really has been blessed with visuals and oh boi those lips are PERF. But yeah i could listen to him sing or talk for hourssss. Naturally because im a meme i love him- memes unite. (I swear everyone knows hyungwon just for that goddaamn sip from the starbucks cup)

LMAO SINCE THIS IS ALREADY UP IMA JUST WING IT

9. Xiumin from EXO

Beautiful smol boy, v talented oof that vocal range of his is insane..(also an oldie cryy. "marshmallow" alsoo hipthrusts and his dancing... wow we love a short king

10. GD from BIGBANG

A weirdo with colourful and beautiful hair (and face). A legendary boy that can rap the house down. Oh boy i love jiyong. Bless

Ugh this took too long..

I tag @kimtaelm, @got7kingsoflove and @blazechu to do this! 💙

Have fun~

[princess-pill-enjoyer]

Misc: My profile theme, music, and my identity (+ about 1000 other things..)

Definitely wouldn't be offended if this an easy skip for most. It is.. a hot mess, long and not particularly interesting. If you ain't supremely bored, you probably'd be better off not being curious on this one T^T

But hey I did enjoy writing it and I'm sure someday I at the very least will enjoy reading this so for me that's enuff boxes checked off to post 🤷‍♀️

This is another long post ngl. I've been on and off (mostly on 😭) writing since I woke up at like 11 am and its now 11pm. I wrote a few diff things so this one aint 12 full hours of writing or anything but I will admit it has been a long ass time on this one. Sorry in advance. i always seem to write a lot a lot when shit gets bumpy with R. Not even between us necessarily and the junk I be writing about don't be about her at all half the time I just be overexplaining and randomly going from topic wayyyyy worse than normal for some reason. I genuinely do not know why I'm like this bruh I used to write a little whiny vent note here and there pre R but now if i don't have one strict topic I'm talking/explaining I will write about any and everything that comes to mind as I'm going.

Oh god.. Me bringing this up reminds me of when she first said we had to talk less and I went nuts. That shit was so ghetto I deadass got fucked up on dxm so I'd stop freaking out over her dipping then DURINGGG the high I realized I was in love. I think after prolly.. 4ish hours of being like uh.. yeah there's no reason for me to be that damn tore up over us simply not talking as often... or her going through a breakup...... literally figured it out at the worst possibly time. THEN I was worried I just felt that way cause of the high so I just started writing everything out figuring like it'd wear off at some point when I was writing so I could see how I talked about it all throughout.

...which led me to write for damn near 24 hours straight....

I literally didn't sleep, eat, or do literally anything else for at least a good 16ish hours then took a small break cause I had to put away groceries and i got a single thing of pita bread, ate that shit plain, then got back to it. Lord looking back on that is so weird. I don't know what possessed me bruh I think I took another break around the 24 hour mark, either ate or sat there thinking for prolly.. an hour? 30 mins? Then did ANOTHER 12 hours of babbling. I had been using that notes app for literal years with no issue. But ofc.. all that time of writing straight had it crash on me a few times with one time wiping hourssss of writing. I wasn't saving all too often not thinking nothing of it but that shit crashed and I lost like 36k chars worth of junk and that changed ASAP. Plus.. I learned the shit had an 100k limit... so that was fun.

See? Overexplaining and RAMBLING. Deadass went from writing a quick head's up on the length of this post to talking about my weird ass drug induced love note shit. Why am i like this. ;-;

Anyway. Past this point is past me. Sorry for getting carried away in the warning

I wrote about this in a previous post but essentially, some random got the wrong idea and thought I was using Juice as my pfp as some sort of mockery? joke? i dunno

shits totally understandable and I'm sure anyone would figure out that ain't my intention after looking at my page for about .2 seconds. i mean.. if I were using him as the butt of some sort of joke you'd figure I'd mention it or something lol. Maybe that's only obvious to me though..

Anyway, I may change it to something new. I usually change my pfps for stuff fairly frequently if I'm on it a lot. When me and R were on the phone 24/7 I used to change my disc pfp at least 2-3 times within a 2 week period 😭

I dunno though I mean.. on one hand I don't really want this page to have all too many of my interests on it as for one I'm trying to stay at least semi anonymous but also I feel like it'd kinda be odd.. The Juice profile pic is one thing, as I listen to him all the damn time and I relate to a lot of his work. But I dunno.. wouldn't it be weird if I suddenly just changed my profile picture to a character that I like just cause they're cool? Wouldn't my page be more memorable if I have like. MY pfp MY username MY bio. Sorry it's hard to explain..

Like.. youtubers. They usually have a pfp and they keep it as that same one and people remember and recognize them off it. Or a few other types of influencers honestly. I feel like it's one thing when it's a personal acc where you really don't need people to recognize you off your pfp or user cause they'd just know you but my acc is kinda a grey area. I know damn well I ain't an influencer but I ain't exactly someone you'd just remember.

Maybe I'll compromise and only use Juice pictures.. I dunno

Speaking of Juice, I feel like now that I've been getting worse and worse his music became so much more relatable. I can't tell you how many times I've cried with my earbuds blaring 27 club. I wish I could share it all. I've never been a huge stickler for lyrics but growing up and going from understanding the story of a song to relating and living though the situations described has hit me so hard. I'm sure it ain't exactly a unique experience but still. It'd be cool to share my music and be able to talk about how I use each playlist and what it makes me think/feel

I would just link my spotify and keep it moving but ya know. More puzzle pieces of my identity

I think if I ever permanently kick the habit I might reveal myself but thats honestly a strooong maybe. I dunno like it aint so much of being ashamed/embarrassed of my addiction. Although, I won't exactly go around telling any and everyone I'm addicted to fucking otc allergy meds. i think R is the only one that knows specifically that I take dph. Everyone else I either never mention getting high or if I have I've only talked about weed highs. It just feels embarrassing given it's horrible hallucinatory effects on most people. While I don't get those, how th would they know that you know? 9 times out of 10 they're gonna google that shit, see mfs talking about having ghost conversations and the gosh dang hatman, then gon look at me crazy for continuing to take it over and over again. So yeah definitely a big factor, but I am honestly more worried about some concerned stranger finding my social media and telling my family/friends about this page or about my problem. That is my worst fear.

For one, this page is basically a diary. I go into specifics on shit that I would never tell anyone. Not that I'm particularly tooo ashamed of the shit I say about my personal life but

-A lot of it is not meant to be shit that just anyone knows. It's one thing when I'm just writing to the abyss/random strangers that wouldn't know who I'm talking about but if my family/friends were able to access this I'd have to be so much more guarded and careful about what I say on here cause they could more than likely guess or already know who I'm talking about

-Some of it is shit that I never want to discuss. I don't think I went too in detail on family dynamics but I don't even wanna bother opening that can of worms I'd rather pretend with everyone else that there is no issue and just do me once I leave

-Plus a lot of it is hypercritical shit I shouldn't even be thinking, let alone talking about. Just imagine finding out that one of your friends was out here telling everybody and they grandma that your boyfriend fucking sucks and you are clearly being blinded by their love for them? Or talking about how you know they won't last? Just like.. okay for one, even if they were right, you're not going to see it that way. You're gonna be questioning why they were doubting your relationship first and foremost but then I mean.. who wants to hear that? They're probably gonna tell you less about it and it'll strain yalls relationship, if not end it right then and there. Then by the time you can see it for what it is, it's 3 years later and it'd be awkward to become friends again

It does suck though. It would be real cool to make friends with someone cause of all my word vomit filled posts. I would love to show everyone all the shit I like to do in my freetime and beg everyone them cat/dog/literally pet pictures. Plus like, I dunno ever since R's been in my life I've learned to love any and all types of friendship

I used to be so offended when I'd have friendships that I only can get so close with. I'm so used to putting my all into all friendships and making sure to do whatever I can for them as long as it ain't hella inconvenient cause I always assumed that because I do, they'd do the same. But after seeing friendship after friendship fading as soon as I wasn't doing all that I used to be so mad. I felt like an outcast. But I think going through that time where my bsf and I were constantly texting or otp it made me a lot less available as far as doing all that extra to maintain friendships. I would be so focused on her I would damn near forget about talking with anyone. But even once we had to distance from each other some, I was still used to how I treated my other friends

I tried to cling to my less close friends trying to create that 100% on both sides thing but it kinda got.. hard. Ofc, the inevitable mental comparisons were nonstop. Literally couldn't breathe without thinking oh but if me and R were doing this I'd be comfy doing this or oh my god this game is borin if R were here we would prolly be doing our own thing by now and just talk instead or bruh I am literally on hour 459 of bubbly me if R was here I could probably get away with listening to whatever was going on in the background that day 💀💀💀

After I started doing that and started understanding my feelings, I kinda saw that I didn't even really want that sort of comfort with anyone else cause I didn't want them to expect all that and put me in a position where if me and my bsf started to talk more I'd be putting them on the backburner out of nowhere. I didn't think it would be fair of me you know? i don't want them to feel abandoned and unless Im in a place where I feel comfortable to not have to be one specific way with you I would prefer being alone anyway.

But feeling that way now made me see that it didn't really have to be one or the other. I've seen that no one really minded when I responded a bit late cause I was busy with R. And I would run to her with all my emotion stuff so I wasn't all too bothered if they never inquired about mine. And thennnnn I randomly got this dm from this girl I talked to when I was still at my dorm and that's when I really learned the joy of that shit

Hm ig you wouldn't really need to know specifics on that for the point I was tryna make. Maybe I'll talk about her someday. But yeah it was just so nice like. Hey I don't need you to be savior mode, human notepad mode, or hehe haha everything funny mode 24/7. We aren't close and you and I both know that. We can just have our fun when we happen to remember each other's existence and come back 8 mo later like nothing ever happened

Don't get me wrong, I love R so much and I love that we go out the way to talk to each other every day no matter what. It makes me feel really good to know that even with us not being able to be as close with each other now she still makes sure we don't lose contact with each other. Things are really different now and ofc I still miss how it was before but knowing that we can both acknowledge that our friendship had to change but still caring enough for each other to put in the effort to evolve into something else rather than letting it all go because it aint the same is something that is so precious. I wouldn't trade that for the world. But at the same point I've grown to love casual friends sm.

It's nice to not always worry about how they're gonna think if i do xyz or I don't reach out every so and so many days. I don't always need to hide or do the absolute most to maintain the friendship we can just enjoy each others company for a bit then go back on our separate ways til we reach out again. No hard feelings if we ignore a text or answer late cause we genuinely have no idea what we do on the day to day. And the pressure of only being one specific way with them gets lesser and lesser the longer yall stay apart inbetween. I think the biiggest example of that is this one long term but shallow friendship with this one girl I met in 9th grade that one year I lived in arizona.

I used hate that since I just got there she had all these older friends that she would talk diff to and generally be more close with. I thought once I moved back to Michigan we'd stop talking after a year or two and we weren't all tooo close so I didn't think nothing of it. But then I think like.. prolly 8ish months after that we started talking talking then we stopped. Then prolly another 6 mo later we did it again. And we just kept on doing that again and again and again. It used annoy me cause it felt like she only would remember my existence to tell me about her breaking up with one dude and getting with another or house drama or all that junk. It didn't help that she joked about my life being dry allllll the damn time too so I felt like she only talked to me to judge me and tell me all this shit as if I was supposed to gawk at all of it cause I didn't do anything intresting in her opinion. It didn't help that I never really felt comfortable telling her about any fr fr struggles i was having cause of how I thought she perceived me

It all came to a head when she got mad at me for pointing out that cycle one of these days. I think she texted me soon soon after all that shit with R was going down so I was salty already offrip. She usually starts texting first talking about some bruhhh YOU NEVER TEXT MEEE which this time was a lie. When we got back cool cool a few months back we started to taper off again. This time tho I made sure to text more often during that thinking things would ramp back up if I put more effort into showing I didn't forget her. It didnt really help as she was being dry 95% of the time so I stopped after like a month. I said that and kinda passive aggressively said that we do this all the time lets just get to the catching up part. Which was true but at the same point, so rude. I was still under that impression that she was gonna judge me and I felt like I had so much to look down on so I just was overly defensive and hostile for no damn reason

We skipped talking that time around which was honestly fair. I thought we'd never talk again after that and I forgot it even happened ngl. But then like 2 mo later she reached out again and with my new perspective on friendships I really saw it for what it was. I mean sure, she can be kind of a dick sometimes and she is kinda a magnet for drama at times cause she is pretty impulsive at times which leads her to speak before she thinks on shit but like.. she never means any harm you know? And plus, she is so caring bruh. Literally would do whatever she needs to for her friends. I genuinely forgot this happened but when my old job fired me for not attending this mandatory meeting on my day off (a blessing in disguise tbh I was thinking about quitting anyway) she was SWIFTTT to do a fake review on they shit. I'm sitting there like bruh chill it aint even that deep and by the time I got that out she already wrote a damn review saying they had shitty customer service (which was actually true lmao), racist ass manager (lowkey true as well 💀💀💀) and they ice cream be tasting like CARBOARD (now that I couldn't even support they shit be good good T^T)

Getting close with R and slowing down to where we are now showed me there's alot more to friendship's than opening up about each and every secret you've ever had you know? I still consider R my best friend, even with us not talking as much, both us not being as open, or us not hanging out as much. That all sounds like we don't even like each other more damn wth. LOOKKKK. Sure, there are times where I'm jealous and salty about how things are. And ofc I'm still mad that I KNOW she will get butthurt if I watch aggretsuko with someone else even though I have literally been pestering her about that shit for HALF THE DAMN YEAR. And at times she's overly territorial over me and I be sliiightly tempted to do shit just to watch her show out and other times she'll say the dumbest shit about herself that makes me wish I could teleport to her with a rolled up newspaper in tow.. But like, at the end of the day she knows me better than anyone ever has and I know her in a lot of ways that people don't understand. We're super similar and relieving to know that you know? At the end of the day I know that no matter what she'll be there for me and she trusts me to do the same for her which hasn't changed, even with how shit is now, her effort trumps everything.

Which is something I've grown to appreciate a lot more in general. Ofc including on and off friends like the girl from AZ. It grew to make a lot of the small annoying habits of hers feel a lot diff. I noticed how we really never had an awkward easing back in stage.

Every time, without fail we start with

damn you DONT TEXT MEEE!! DO YOU NOT LIKE ME ???

>:U

*insert defense junk*

yeah yeah I dont wanna HEAR IT 🙄

Then boom we get to catching up. Plus 99% of the time she got a game she wanna play. We usually just go to that then continue on talking and junk for a few days. At max a week and a half. I'll send a message here and there and she be DRY so I stop and then we dip for another few months.

It's so weird to think about honestly. We've been friends for 5ish years now. I only have one other long term friend as my years of moving back and forth led most to forget I existed and I met him in 7th. I dunno to me her and him were completely different in my mind cause of the frequency and nature of our convos. But it's just like.. nowadays I tear up thinking about them sometimes. Sure they got they own pros and cons but at the end of the day, they're consistent. We've all changed a lot throughout the years and I know they've met soooo many people that'll probably not die off the face of the earth every two seconds and I'm sure they both have friends they're a lot closer with but they still bothered to keep in touch even when it woulda been hella easy to just move on

Bruh thinking about it now got me tearing up (...as you can see I've been drinking water today 🙃) They may not be the first people I think to go to when shit gets rough but they've made it clear that they care about me for more than what I can do for them and that is mooooore than enough for me. I hope I keep them around forever. I try to be a lot better on checking in on em nowadays. I'm not amazing with that shit still and I still'll go weeks without speaking but uh. We getting there T^T

Though AZ girl is the reason I say bruh so much.. I hate her for that TO THIS DAY. she used to say breh and bruh after every sentence and it would make the shit she be saying 20000x funnier. I tried to steal it for jokes too but then it just start slipping out and now I prolly say it more than she ever did ANDD she don't even say it like that no more 😭

...

I went on so hard of a tangent I literally forgot what I brought this shit up for.. I had to go back up and reread it's been like 6 hours since I said that junk 💀💀💀

SEE like talking with me is fun on one hand cause as long as we aint sitting there making small talk we gon go through about 70 billion topics within 5 mins but then on the other if you had something to say about a topic we already went past??

gl.

T_T

All that was all to say that I've grown to really appreciate distant but consistent friendship. To me, it at times shows a lot more care and appreciation than having someone listen to you rant about xyz. Cause I mean, it's kinda easy to not be a dick and listen but it takes effort to keep coming back no matter what we talked about.

Damn do you think I should give the girl from AZ a name?

Nah I kinda like that long ass name for her lmao

But look at her. I barely spoke to her for months and I basically swatted her away when she was just tryna catch up and look at us. Well. We in an off period rn..

OO actually she said she loved me the last time we were on the phone and I said it back thinking that she possibly was talking to someone else but just incase you know. BUT SHE GOT SO HAPPY BRUH OMGG

Shit was so sweet. I would say it more often if it didn't wear off the novelty so quick

But yeah like look at that. I've barely told her about any of my struggles and 5 years later we're still just as close. I can't even count how many people I've heard detailed and long rants from that just dipped from my life once they were doing better off and by the time they got back in that mindset they've already either forgot about me or think it'd be too awkward to get back in touch. Not to say it's easy to talk about that stuff, cause it aint. But venting to a complete random is not exactly risky either. I feel like it honestly has lost it's effect on me nowadays. I would rather have 400 distant and shallow friendships that last for years and years and years than the 400 deep and super relatable friends that just disappear once they find greener pastures.

I hope that someday I'll feel comfortable revealing my identity on here. I didn't mean to imply that any possible friendships from this are gonna be shallow by default ofc. More so was saying I'm a lot more open minded about a lot of different sorts of relationships you know? I wanna explore more types like.. as soon as humanly possible atp T-T

Anywho uh. I think that's enough vaguely pointed rambling for one post. Very sorry to future me reading this. I know you prolly gon wanna stomp me out for always leaving you so damn much to read..

me is withdrawing atp soooo I'm either gon try and sleep the shit off or get to solving that 💀

gn/gm depending on when youre reading this. I hope youre doing okay

[clouds-rambles]

I'm doneee in just under four hourssss

And now I am sleeping because I am really tired and delirious. It took all my strength and willpower to not get overly sarcastic in my essay and I did almost put 'Kant is being real quiet right now' after I evaluated and criticised his point.

I will do that one day, but with the other prof because he's cooler and he's retiring soon

Congrats!!

Have a good sleep!!

omg I get so snarky in essays because I end up getting bored when i write lmao-