#this thing fought me the wholeee way

[spyderrrman]

art block got me in SHACKLES and this is the closest this’ll get to finished

deserted island core!!!! 🏝️🏝️🏝️🏝️🏝️

[aaronhart93-archive]

discord II text Roman & Aaron

Discord thread featuring: Aaron and @romanbeckett

Mentions: @wtf-eden @davieslandon​ @jayceelynd​

Where: Aaron in Paris (with Eden) and Roman is in NYC

When: June 12th in New York, June 13th in Paris 

Description: After Landon texts Aaron that Roman is upset upon seeing Eden’s IG post, Aaron reaches out to Roman to check on him

Trigger Warnings: pain, brief sexting

Aaron.

are you okay

Roman.

why?

Aaron.

I just...

am making sure

Roman.

I'm ok

Aaron.

I don’t believe you

Roman.

lol it doesn't matter

Aaron.

it does to me

Roman.

I'm just trying to let you go like you told me I needed to.

Aaron.

I can’t do anything right

im trying not to hurt you

but I���m also trying not to hurt Landon Jaycee and Eden at the same time

Roman.

I understand

I’m not mad

you don’t have to worry about me

Aaron.

I think about you all the time

so I can’t not worry

Roman.

I think about you too.

all the time.

Aaron.

what are we doing

Roman.

if you find out, let me know.

Aaron.

what do you want from this

like for us

Roman.

does it matter?

Eden’s post made it seem like you all were having the time of your lives

I don’t want to ruin that.

Aaron.

im not

it does matter

Ro id drop everything for you

Roman.

You would?

Aaron.

yes

Roman.

Aaron, are you sure? I need you to promise me that you’re sure.

Aaron.

I love you

Roman.

I love you, too. I’m taking Jaycee to Naples for a breather. I’m going to have a talk with her.

which I was gonna do regardless.

I don’t want to hurt anyone, but I’m starting to realize that I don’t know who I am anymore without you.

Aaron.

Roman

fuck I love you

Roman.

I was trying so hard to be okay with you and eden I swear lol but when she posted that picture from Paris I LOST IT

I’m dramatic as shit lol

Aaron.

lol yes you are and that’s one of the many things I love about you.

im sorry it upset you

Roman.

it’s okay, I’m just a jealous bitch lol

Aaron.

lol

is it bad I’m kinda happy you get jealous when it comes to me?

Roman.

No, I’m not surprised. You’re an asshole

Aaron.

an asshole that you’re in love with

Roman.

You’re correct.

I miss your chin dimple

Aaron.

I miss your dimples too

and your fckn hair

Roman.

Aaron.

there they are

Roman.

FUCK

Marry me right fucking now lol

Aaron.

*side eye emoji*

Roman.

you’re so bloody FIT

Aaron.

”bloody fit”

I love being complimented in British

Roman.

*annoyed emoji*

Aaron.

its a good thing!

Roman.

Give me more pictures dammit lol

OH did you see the new rocketman photos?

Aaron.

show me!!!

Roman.

FUCK GOD DAMMIT SHIT DAMN HELL!!!

Jesus CHRIST on a fucking CRACKER

AaronBOTYesterday at 8:43 PM

current Paris status

Roman.

AARON

Aaron.

*pleading face emoji*

Roman.

I’m so pissed that I’m not there lol

taking off that robe

Aaron.

im sorry

ooo

me too

Roman.

You’re so damn hot.

feathers galore

Aaron.

omg

YOU’RE so damn hot

I can’t wait to see you preform

Roman.

I’m nervous, but really fucking excited.

Aaron.

you’re gonna be so amazing

Roman.

I hope so. I’ve busted my arse lol!

Aaron.

yeah and I love that arse of yours

Roman.

what if...it was all yours?

Aaron.

do you think that’s possible?

Roman.

anything is possible.

Aaron.

#corny

Roman.

Aaron.

taking it back to my childhood

Roman.

THOUGH HOPE IS FRAIL, IT’S HARD TO KILLLLLLLL

WHO KNOWS WHAT MIRACLES YOU CAN ACHIEVE, WHEN YOU BELIIIIIEVE, SOMEHOW YOU WILLLLLLL - YOU WILL WHEN YOUUU BELIEEEEVE

Aaron.

ahahaha

its a bop

Roman.

have I convinced you yet?

Aaron.

you may have to send more memes

Roman.

I’ll let you get some sleep

Aaron.

its really late here

but I stayed up to talk to you

Roman.

:(

Aaron.

but I SHOULD sleep

I’d just rather talk to you

Roman.

I’d rather talk to you than do a lot of things.

Aaron.

same

Roman.

I miss kissing you

feels like it’s been so damn long

Aaron.

Its been ages

well like a week

but it’s felt like ages

Roman.

it’s been more than that

maybe like...two

Aaron.

lets be honest I want to kiss you like 24/7

damn that night was two weeks ago now?

Roman.

Yep

Aaron.

I think about it all the time

I wish I made some different decisions that might

Roman.

What would you have done

Aaron.

well I wouldn’t have solidified things with Eden

wouldn’t have fought with Harry

but I would’ve still told you I loved you

that I wouldn’t change

Roman.

you asked me before what I wanted from this. What do YOU want?

Aaron.

I’ve wanted to be with you since I spilled coffee on your shoes but I just realized that at the pride party. Ali suggested I be alone for a little bit which might be something I need but I want to be your fucking boyfriend Ro

Roman.

Oh babe...

Aaron.

and wake up next to you every damn day

I know...it probs won’t happen I’m sorry

Roman.

I want that, too.

Aaron.

and I know don’t like monogamy

ooo???

really??

Roman.

it’s not that I don’t like monogamy. I just...after Landon, I was scared to get hurt again. And I guess I’ve been fooling myself into thinking I couldn’t be with just one person again, and risk getting hurt like that.

Aaron.

I get that

I can’t promise I won’t hurt you....I never want to hurt you but I’ve been breaking a lot of promises lately

Roman.

neither one of us can make those promises. But choosing to be together means you’re willing to take those risks.

Aaron.

landon would also kill me if I hurt you which is another reason I don’t want to do that lol

Roman.

if I were him, I’d want you to hurt me lol

fell in love with his best friend.

Aaron.

I know

im afraid my friendship with him will never be the same

Roman.

I don’t want to come between that

Aaron.

I know but I want to be with you so bad...part of me doesn’t care anymore. I know that’s an awful thing to say....And I know he will eventually be okay with it...eventually

Roman.

I feel the same way.

Aaron.

really?

Roman.

yes. Really. I’m fucking miserable without you, and I don’t care if we have to keep it under wraps for awhile until the smoke clears, it’s worth it. I want you. I don’t like thinking about you being with anyone else.

Aaron.

shit

me too

like I said I’d do anything for you

Roman.

we can say we just want to be a single for a bit

but

I just want to be with you

Aaron.

me too

Roman.

:)

Aaron.

I wasn’t expecting this

but I’m happy

Roman.

I was t expecting this either lol

wasn’t**

Aaron.

I need to sleep but I can’t

Roman.

I wish you were holding me.

Aaron.

I wanna kiss you so bad

Roman.

just kiss hm??

Aaron.

oh okay I see where this is going

I wish your wholeee dick was in my mouth

better?

Roman.

damn. Yeah, actually

Aaron.

hehe you’re welcome

im still so tired

I haven’t slept and the birds are chirping

Roman.

shit. go to bed babe

Aaron.

okay babe

I love you

Roman.

I love you.