#this song is so fuuta i dont even know.

[amugoffandoms]

"It's all for making something-Toks to sell your name. (Just for all your vanity, it's the worst, good night.)"

"No way I'm okay with ending it like this! I'm sure what we truly want isn't the money."

Cyberpunk Dead Boy Fuuta!! The second I heard the song, I was like I need to draw him in it right now. Here are the original shots!

Here are some banger versions of the song I listened to!:

English Cover by ami!

The PJSK Cover that I took the shots from!

The Original Song!

Under the cut is the original screenshots!

[elegyofthemoon]

4 and 12!!!

HI WENDY!!!!

4.

OH THIS WAS A SONG I WAS HELLA SPACED OUT TOO LMAOOOO I think at some point while listening to it on loop I didn't realize how much time passed and welp! it landed as 4th

tbh I don't even remember if there was like One specific thing I was daydreaming about for this song, but it sure was that song! Or maybe it was just an insomnia song alkshf But I think it was just a song that fit any mood for me haha

12.

oh you mean my little queen bee moment ALKSDDJFASLKDJF ill never forget how when the pv came out me and rose were like "the bees......"

now I just listen to this song when I am feeling very Particularly annoying or I need a little jump in mood (read: someone being a little too confident/cocky :))

[clownsalot]

im very normal about fuuta in general but i dont think im ever going to emotionally recover from his fire motif and what it represents for his character and how he reflects the greater theme of justice so that means i must rant about it

(more under the cut because this got longer than i expected whoopsies)

so anyway fire is pretty obviously supposed to be symbolic of his passion for justice right? that fire is all over the place in bring it on. he's wielding it to take down enemies, his signature weapon is a flaming sword. it's what he uses to lead the campaign against the people he's after, the people he's deemed in the wrong.

it's a fucking flaming sword, it's badass as hell!!!! it's what a hero of justice, a knight, would use!!!! it's cool as shit, it's his symbol of justice.

that's how he sees his justice in trial 1.

he's righteous, he wants so badly to believe he was a hero, he was doing it all for a good cause, for justice. his passion for justice was a tool he used to meet those ends, to be a hero, to wave it valiantly in the face of enemies.

the fire, however, is conspicuously absent once he's noticed the blood on his hands

interestingly, despite backdraft as a song title being much more related to his fire motif than bring it on, fire is actually surprisingly absent from the mv's visuals. fire, as in actual orange burning fire, doesn't show up much at all in backdraft except for when both fuuta and his victim begin turning to ashes, and a short bit near the end right after the last chorus when the spraycan explodes in fuuta's face. you know what the mv does show a lot of though?

smoke. and ash. the byproducts of a fire, the byproducts of fuuta's passion for justice.

bringing it back to firefighting for a moment: as many people have already pointed out, backdraft as a firefighting term refers to when a fire that has consumed all available oxygen suddenly explodes when more oxygen is made available, such as when a window or door breaks. the thing about fire hazards, though, is if the fire and the heat don't do someone in, usually it's the smoke. the smoke inhalation causes breathing difficulties and suffocation, making it even more difficult for a person to escape the fire.

in backdraft, instead of fire itself, what we're shown is these byproducts of a fire. the smoke is damaging to human health, and the ash shows that the fire has burned things up and caused destruction, in this case killing someone. all we're shown is the negative results of a fire, in sharp contrast to its badass, positive portrayal in bring it on.

hell, even fuuta himself starts turning to ashes and the spraycan explodes in his face, showing how even he is experiencing the negative results of a fire that has gotten out of his control, how even he has gotten burned by his passion for justice. or, is it es' desire for justice?

translation of fuuta's t2 vd by onigiriico

Me, too! I was like that, too! I also didn't think it'd turn out that way!

You and I are exactly the same breed! The only difference between us is the clothes we're wearing.

fuuta's justice and es' justice, it's all the same in his head now, he directly tells es that they're the same, that we're the same. it's all the same hunger for justice that ends up causing harm even if that wasn't the intention.

you know that saying that fire is a good servant but a bad master? i think that's pretty applicable to fuuta's situation. his passion for the pursuit of justice was great when it was still a tool, a sword he could wield, after all he did manage to shed light on some people's wrongs and bring them to justice. but once it exploded, when it became a backdraft that even he could no longer control, it did more damage than he intended.

it burned even him, it killed a middle schooler. and he recognizes that in backdraft. he only shows us the ways fire that becomes a hazard can go wrong.

translation of fuuta's t2 vd by onigiriico

What did I do? All I did was say that what's wrong is wrong! I was just going off at a bad person online!

I didn't think they would die! I just thought that wrong things are wrong, and that a crime is a crime! You get that, don't you? See? Aren't we the same?

it's just. fire is such a good metaphor for the message of fuuta's character and his arc. it's an amazing illustration of how dangerous it is when you feed a desire for justice too much, when you forget to put a boundary on how you handle that fire. eventually the fire spreads just like how passion for justice becomes zealotry, until more and more things fall under what you consider to be 'punishable' by your standards and goes out of control to hurt people that probably didn't deserve it. it's a warning to set proper boundaries on our own definition and desire for justice and what's 'right' so the good intentions doesn't spiral into harm. it's a reflection of our attitudes towards milgram as the audience responsible for their justice and forgiveness. it's amazing i love it i love fuuta's fire symbolism i love fuuta's character arc and i love milgram's writing so so so much

[prisoner-000]

Here's my Trial 3 MILGRAM Cover predictions! The MILGRAM cover songs are usually picked from DECO*27's popular lineup, so I tried to limit my picks to songs from his catalogue that are a little more well-known! They also tend to me more from his modern era (post-2016) so forgive me :(

Haruka: Honestly: I have no idea. Haruka's been pretty random with his covers. Just to have guessed something, maybe 118 due to its instrumental. If you've got any better guesses feel free to add onto my post!

Yuno: I feel like Yuno will likely cover more love songs/songs about relationships - My guess right now is Love Words III (any of the Love Words songs could do tbh, but this is the one I think might fit her the most) Rabbit Hole (for the more sexual relationship theme) or Heart a la mode (just because).

Fuuta: Fuuta's covers tend to be kind of random tbh aside from them all being hugely popular deco songs LOL. My current guesses go to Chimera (for the like-share thing. social media.. yknow...) and considering its popularity, maybe even Dilemma. doubt it tho so dont take my word for it

Muu: Muu's cover theme is kind of hard to pin down, so I just went with a song I think might fit her voice. Theory of Negativity would fit her vibe tbh. It's kind of self-depreciative, kind of very much not self-depreciative.

Shidou: Okay, here's a super basic pick: Ghost Rule. A lot of characters get assigned GR as a future cover because it's probably the most well-known deco song that hasn't been covered yet. I think Shidou's covers would fit its theme of lying and the energy that he brought to Liar Dance and Delusion Tax.

Mahiru: Wouldn't you know it, her cover songs are all based around unhealthy relationships... My current guess goes to Zombies. I personally think Mahiru's VA and a more sickly sweet synthpoppy sound could really fit this song!! Another option would be Pseudo-Hope Syndrome which is a little less upbeat than Zombies and more mellow, but who knows what T3 Mahiru might look like. TONS of DECO songs are about unhealthy relationships, it could really be anything.

Kazui: I know a lot of people would like him to cover songs about the topic of lies but that's already Shidou's thing... Neo-Neon and Coward Montblanc are both breakup songs, so it's either another breakup song for him like Fakery Tale or maybe a song about failed relationships like Relationship Scramble (which i feel fits him very well)!

Amane: Another character I find extremely hard to have a guess at. If we're going with the more innocent theme, I can imagine Yume Yume... is it because of the MV? Yes. I feel like however Amane develops will really influence her covers like we saw with her covering Animal in T2.

Mikoto: Kind of also at a loss here, so here's a shot in the dark: (Not A) Devil with Mikoto's duality motif seems fitting. I'd love to hear his voice on this track!

Kotoko: Since Kotoko's second trial song hasn't been announced yet, I have no clear lineup to go off of :-(. Probably something more energetic like HIBANA. I think it'd be super cool if she covered Undercover, actually! Though that's probably not happening.. one can dream

hope u enjoyed heart emoji if you have any alternate guesses feel free to share them! would love to discuss :-)

[whats-it-mean]

I loveee your writing <33 Could I req fuuta with a reader who somehow convinced es to get them a bass and they just. Randomly play and it's loud and he always tells them to stop but they never do??

Fuuta's bass player blues ☆

Fuuta Kajiyama x Reader

A/N - TYSM!!! this prompt is soo silly!! i feel like he would like guitar-bass type songs considering his songs… that epic guitar solo in salamander?? hello?? also so fun fact i dont know shit about music or instruments btw and asked my friend so if this is innacurate uhhhh,,,,,,,,,,,, no it isnt

C/W -  None !!

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

For some reason, despite how unreasonable and problematic it most likely was, Es was unable to find a written rule stopping you from requesting an instrument, and Jacklope had been too busy eating when they asked him about it to really care- and so now, in prison, you had your hands on a fender bass guitar, along with the included amp and cords you had begged Es for. 

The moment they reluctantly gave you all the required equipment, you were practically bouncing off the walls with excitement, sprinting to the cafeteria area at full speed.

By the time you arrived, unfortunately not as fast as you’d originally hoped from the weight of the amp, you could see Yuno and Mahiru chatting away near one of the vending machines. Through one of the windows, you could see Shidou and Kazui taking a smoke in the spot Es had set aside for them to use, and most importantly, right by the entrance, Fuuta sat, silently chewing away at a grilled cheese at one of the tables. This was it. Your chance.

You zipped around the cafeteria for a moment before finding a plug. swiftly shoving the amp’s cord inside before turning the volume up all the way. Whilst you fumbled with the cords for a moment, Yuno glanced up at you- meeting your eyes for a moment before a devious grin spread across her face, and suddenly both her and Mahiru were off distracting a certain redhead as you connected the amp to the bass.

The moment you had everything set up, you tugged the guitar strap over your shoulder, spared one glance over the volume gauge to make sure it was as loud as could be- and then raised your hand into the air, pic grasped between your fingers.

“Fuuta! Check this out!!”

Said boy snapped his head in you direction, confused until he spotted you standing triumphantly on a table with a sick little grin, and he deadpanned immediately. Yuno was already struggling to hold in her laughter and you brought your hand down, strumming at the bass with unreasonable speed as the volume blasted throughout the prison. You could barely hear his protests and complaints with how loud everything was turned up, but kept playing nonetheless, most likely to Es’s dismay. They would probably get a pay cut. Do they even… get paid..?

You blinked, and suddenly the redhead was walking towards you, face contorted in annoyance as he huffed something about how pathetic this was, barely audible. You simply grinned, jumping off the table you’d been using as your own little stage and walking right up to him, guitar pic still in hand as you played. 

He scowled at you, crossed his arms, and went to pull down his mask. “Give it a rest, will ya? I’m tryna eat here-”

You smirked. “Can’t hear you!!!”

And by tomorrow you were doing the same thing in the same spot- probably for many days to come until Es found an excuse to rip it away from you. But that would be a while yet, and Fuuta was to easy to annoy to pass up such an opportunity.

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ─── End

[tokyogruel]

22 - your favorite part of canon that everyone else ignores 👀

from this ask game!

OKAY SO... i know i KNOW yamanaka has said the cover songs have nothing to do with the character's murders... BUT IDGAF ABOUT THEIR MURDERS I CARE ABOUT THE CHARACTERS!!!

the cover songs are SO UNBELIEVABLY UNDERRATED in terms of character analysis and their personalities! the instruments used, the tones of the songs, the lyrics telling us how the character feels... i fully believe the cover songs are extracted from their hearts!! which is why some of them are SO DIFFERENT FROM THEIR MAIN SONGS!

i could go on about all of the character's cover songs.... so i will LOL

HARUKA

two breaths walking: “This is Page 1 of the process of my evolution.” harukas second voice drama is titled "Metamorphosis of the Weak"

"Because I want to hold you, I walk with my two legs. Because it’s lonely on my own, I breathe with you"

"Have you learned the words yet?"

"Hey, suck in my breath again now. I try to say “I love you,” but Instead I’m living my whole life as a sort of oxygen tank. Suck in the words I've spit out and breathe no more"

android girl:

By now I’d rather we build our own “Togetherland”. We’ll click together, so climb aboard. “Pay more attention to me, it’s not enough!”

“Oh, you’re so cute. What’s to be done about you?” I’m tired by now of the way. You resizing compliments makes my heart flutter.

I know I’m yours and yours alone, but do you even like “me”?

All my kisses with you hurt so much when they closed up my throat."

notes: harukas cover songs both focus on poor relationships, choking/the inability to breathe/etc. android girl also has elements of trap music, which is not present in two breaths walking, and as ive said before: trap music is primarily muu's motif

YUNO

sticky bug: "Say that you love me, say that you love me, Since there’s nothing else I need"

"So to put it simply, let’s start recording"

"Your smiling face, your embarrassed face as well. I want to catch every single one of your expressions! So not leaving out a single moment I’ll commit everything to memory."

"As for my dream, it’s to be that stickybug right by your side" "I say “goodnight” only so that I can say “good morning” tomorrow"

"Say that you love me, for if I’m lucky, then at any rate, I really want every single part of you…"

i dont have a lot of comments on this since i dont know yuno that well comparatively, but i do have a theory that yuno's "true murder" is actually tying up a man in her basement and torturing him for pleasure, so... haha which "stickybug" gives a lot of "im obsessed with you" vibes, and...

vampire: "“I can’t take it anymore” you're such a bad boy"

"I want to try it, I want to spit it all out, I can definitely go more"

"It’s Fxxx, it’s sxx, it’s pAxxxUx* Until I eat all of you, screeeeam!"

*

"Longing for someone and then letting that feeling wither is such a turn off. After crying and forgetting about it, it's back to “Hi, nice to meet you.”

"When I spit out everything I was hiding, they were all things that were like "That's so true!" "I reply with no after no, since selfishness is free, I get greedy and miss my chance again"

"It's addicting, right up to the part where I drown in it, screeeeeeeeeeam!!!" "“I can’t take it anymore” I want you to make me say it too"

notes: i really struggle with yunos character, she is surprisingly deceptive. i want to take the "mahiru is a stalker" theory and slap it on yuno, ok? her instrumentals are also very "yuno" and i have not noticed any motifs that connect her to another character

FUUTA

his songs do really feed into the "fuuta is a queer man" theory that i love

mozaik role: "A word bit into you, And I just described the liquid leaked from the wound as "love"

"Just like you and me who have fatal ties."Even so, I love you..." How's that?"

"What's wrong with loving you... I'll tie you, not let anyone to touch you. This must be fate, right?"

"As I don't even know whether it's love or lust, what should I do with giving out?"

"What's wrong with killing myself, if you hate me?" "Disappearing, disappearing, a world of love"

salamander: "Hey, Salamander! Hot is good, don’t you think so? Is it a big deal?" "It’s heating up inside my head" "If you know, I would like you to tell me first, ok?"

"I surrender, I’m already hooked, I can’t function without you anymore" "

"I can’t stop, I don’t want to stop! Make sure to cool it down so you don’t get burned" (*note: the vocaloidwiki says that the line is more along the lines of "make sure to blow on it, cool it down so you dont get burned" and uses "fuu~" (haha fuu~ta), the onomatopoeia for blowing air)

"As many times as possible, I want to be on fire when I reach the climax"

"I want to escape, but I’m not able to"

notes: salamander has a few focuses on guitar, remniscent of haruka's guitar motif. it also has a jazz solo, which, yknow- thats kazui's motif

MUU

mm,y favorit e lesabiam,,,

otome(maiden) dissection: "Let's play Maiden Dissection!"

"I've wanted to feel shame, ever since that night when I realized"

"Good evening, is now a good time?"

"Without you, none of that matters" "Both of us with our masks on, we flirted"

"Yeah, there's a kid there, lost in anything and everything, Shedding tears, meowing "SOS" with their eyes only halfway open"

"This disease, the whole package, I'll send it to you as an attachment. I don't wanna go so far as to share all the things that cause me pain. I just wanna run away from this love..."

"Calling each other by our real names "I don't wanna live" was what I should've said. Will I ever find peace?"

"Sorry for calling you so early. I must've woken you up, huh? Are you up to chat right now?"

"I had a dream where you fell in love with somebody else. Please tell me it's not true. C'mon, love me please?"

"Listen, you've been pretty cold lately"

"Pulling burning passion out of each other. I can't stand you telling me "no!" Will we ever clear up this misunderstanding?"

"Smearing drool on top of the "baguette" (haha get it bc muu is french? do you get it? are you listening to m

"I wanna feel shame, just like I did on that night when I realized"

"it's good as long as it hurts"

MKDR: "I went and said it, I want to be with you just one more time. No, no, to drag things out would be annoying. I’m sorry, come back Carbon dioxide, your atmospheric concentration"

"I want to soak in a dream of a swamp" (夢 muu's name, dream)

"Even if you tell me I’m selfish, I’ll just lap it up. It’s not uncertain, there’s no future. I want to be reborn with your face" (im struggling to find sources for this, but ive heard a few times that there is folklore that when you die, you are reborn with the face of your past life's lover.)

"I went and found out, Even if you flip over the words “I hate you” There’s no “I love you” hidden there"

"I’m mad with idealism, imagining a smile. My bloodshot wish will soon be relieved" "But there’s no love anywhere that’s “just fine”

"A melody of fools with nowhere to go. Retrying – rebirth – teleportation. The number of tries keeps accumulating at the mercy of an endless love"

"I detest love"

"Are you angry? … I’m not angry. We’re perfectly in sync and yet off the beat"

"If this were a movie or a TV show. Though I’d endure it until the credits. I wouldn’t want to watch it again. It’s all too cruel, from beginning to middle to end"

"But I still end up believing in a love that’s “just fine”

"The topography I protected by hating love is beginning to warp properly" (this part im not sure how well it actually translates into english..??? because "typography"... likely means "this person, this character, this ideal" since.. kanji/typography is super super important in jpn language)

"We’ll hurt each other over and over" "But I end up remembering the lie of “I’m just fine”

"I detest love"

notes: both of muu's songs use a lot of "soft trap" music, shes very mellow, and both songs focus very strongly on "painful love", unrequited love, love that hurts her. its likely both of these songs are about how she feels about rei. the music in MKDR also "dances" between your left and right headphones. ive yet to find motifs that connect her to another prisoner. there is a bit of piano in mkdr. there is bass and guitar in otome dissection that isnt in mkdr

SHIDOU

i hat e yo u i hate yuo. ohate you. triage link

liar dance: ""Stolen? Just whatever do you mean?""

"Having made a vow, to you and you alone. Declaring this loveless love of mine in front of you"

"Committing myself to this performance, set lines and all. Those memories we've desperately created and clung to, they blend together and feelings between us intensify"

"Blabbering on about stuff, could you shut up for a bit? Because everything is starting to look like a lie" "Yes, I've realized that we're both guilty here"

"Dance away, liar. This love has swelled up like a balloon, let's turn it into a lie with the prick of a needle. On the count of "I-love-you"

"Having hidden it away so that no one can touch it. A thirsty dance, carving that carbonated melody"

"Damn it! You figured it...wait, whatever are you talking about?" Screwing up time and again is no reason to drop the act. Having fallen into this bottomless swamp, will you even realize you're drowning?"

"Everyone and their brother is laughing at you. Even I've become unable to see you as anything but a lie. But somehow I still have these feelings for you"

"We're already partners in this crime called "love" "Turn me inside-out and I look just like you" "It's nice to meet you, "Crime" and Punishment"

"It's a bit scary, But the moon looks so beautiful, doesn't it?"

delusion tax: "Hey, that girl is pretty great... Her too!" Looks like you’re thinking some pretty nice thoughts over there... Are you really satisfied with just that?"

“That girl is alright… That one works too, I guess”

"Let’s pay the Delusion Tax. For the sake of making everyone’s life oh so wonderful…" "Turning wishes into reality, Right now, buy back your future!"

"That’s right, for all these dirty delusions, let’s settle the bill with this dirty money"

"Existing for your sake alone, mandatory affections and obligated kindness "NO!" to Though you should be satisfied, a voice from within shouts “NO!” We have an idiot on our hands, it seems..."

"Look, just up and borrow the "desired amount" Reality is a bitter-sweet pill to swallow"

"That which you wish for, the person you think of, The past which you hate as well, they’ll all be as you like."

"But those wishes won't really come true, even if you pay. For it’s all a lie, a great big farce. Thanks for all that, that's plenty. These scraps of paper belongs to me now"

notes: shidous cover songs are all over the place. "Liar Dance" has a lot of references to the other prisoners, the instrumentals are??? electronica? guitar? and a soft melody of piano, if you listen close enough. delusion tax goes strong with an instrument i can not place! it sounds, wooden in structure? but i dont know it off the top of my head. delusion tax has car alarms playing at certain points, it also features a piano melody. liar dance has a very small amount of jazz. theres a police scanner in liar dance and i cannot make out the words

ALSO THIS IS GETTING REALLY LONG... ill have to add the other 5 in a reblog,, oh god im so tired. my back hurts

[kani-miso]

thanks for tagging me @adipostsstuff

theres alot to talk about uhm so i will make this very very short (its literally almost 3 am im tired lmao,,, so much to talk about,,,, so little time,,,,)

their similarities

es and mikoto (and his system) share a very similiar lifestyle, for example

overworking themselves (also getting stressed over work) (mikoto's is proved in both of his songs and the undercover scene) (es' is proved in minigram 41 iirc (because its a minigram, it will be made into a more comedy like scene) and proved with this line from fuuta's t2 vd iirc "Yet I've been dealing with it this whole time! I've been desperately thinking about all of the prisoners, including you! So I don't think I was ever wrong. No matter what hell I make this place to be, I will not run away! I won't make someone else deal with it!")

obeying those who are above them (mikoto is most obviously his boss (although john hates them)) (es is milgram and most likely the milgram administrators (shown in the novel))

amnesia (mikoto's amnesia is maybe forced amnesia or dissociative amnesia) (es' amnesia is caused by the memory wipe that might be electroconvulsive therapy (ECT) that is done by milgram)

appearance (mikoto is described as an average guy who doesn't look that bad and doesn't look that good either) (es is made to look "normal" (natural hair, natural eyes ect) so they can be seen as an average person (+they made them even more neutral by making them look gender neutral)

violent behaviour (this isn't for mikoto, but more for john. john tends to act really violent towards others he find annoying or stressful for mikoto. he does that in order to protect mikoto) (es acts violent as a defense mechanism to those who annoys or creeps them out. they do this in order to protect their fragile ego)

low empathy (well, i can just say that john has low empathy since he only cares about what mikoto feels and he would never understand how others do) (es' is proven with this line (i dont remember which vd but prob mahiru) "I don’t completely understand what you’re saying, but… Being in love and loving someone—are they really that important?")

being seen as emotionless (mido time yippe. in meme, mido can only be seen with a deadpan face. so uh, i guess he either doesn't know how to express himself well or dgaf) (es is well, proven alot in muu's vd (t1 and t2) and amane's vd (t2))

NEOPLASM AUGRHRHFHDHFHFHHFHFH

in neoplasm, es for the first time refers to themselves with a different 1st person pronoun, uchi (うち). uchi is usually used by people when talking to their family members or someone close to them. and the fact they're only using it when talking tl john instead of mikoto makes me ill because es knows john's struggles and how its similiar to theirs, making it even more easier to sympathize with him.

es is the first person to canonically accept mikoto's system without being ableist about it. they treated john like an actual person, not some sort of insane psychotic monster. even though john beat them up in t1, they seemed to easily move on from that incident and accept that it is what it is. this made john slightly shocked which is sad because he never received any sort of respect like this. its also kinda cute how john says he accepts (thinks it's okay) the name that es gave to him.

also not exactly neoplasm, but i want to compare john's behavior to es'. they both don't realize that they're actually a person who is kind(or respected) (john's is proved in neoplasm obviously) (es' is proven in YONAH "I'm... a kind person?.."

ALSO, i want to talk about john and es being sensitive when questioned their authority (and how they answer). i don't remember how it exactly went, but ig es asked or said something about him that made him say like uh "im a university graduate after all" which is a funny and childish response. when es gets questioned their authority, they always say "im the warden here! you're the prisoner." which is also an equaly childish response.

ALSO, i think its so nice but more bittersweet that es is just kinda hiding the existence of john and the others to mikoto just so he doesn't get more stressed than how he already is.

mikoto's little sister

might be a stretch but hear me out. mikoto said that his sister is a highschooler (es can be either a 3rd year in middle school or 1st year in high school). he said that his sister is hard-working like he is (the first point i made on this post). also uhh they look very similiar together (considering that mikoto's blond ends are very much likely dyed).

john and es arguing like siblings in this vd makes me happy in unexplainable ways.

similiar trauma

it is very very much implied that mikoto was abused by his father who ended up leaving them because of "work", this traumatic experience made him develop did. it's also implied that he went through sa from a gang member or coworker (the "fanservice" in meme is angled in a way to make it look like a camera, the start of meme also looks like mikoto capturing a camera (the screen effects)).

es most likely shares a similiar experience with mikoto. it's very much possible that the reason they always choose violence as a defense mechanism is because of their household. they could also be a csa survivor. in kazui's t2 vd, es states how they have a PERSONAL dislike for those who act on sexual urges. they're also visibly disgusted by kazui scrutinizing them, thinking that he's a creep. the reason they think kazui's a creep is not only because of him looking at them in a "weird way", its also because of their first interaction in t1. in the t1 kazui vd, they were welcomed with a large man restraining them randomly. it was also scary for them because the milgram protection barrier didn't work for a bit (until it did), making them still able to feel that kazui almost restrained them. there's also more proof to the ca and csa theory, which is how es dislikes getting touched or feeling skin to skin contact.

anyways 0009 siblings i love

what interests people about es + kayanosys friendship

[favoringeyes]

Lena. The new milgram voice lines and art. What do U think …I’m extremely tired and I saw it and I was like 😧

HI VINCENT. AHHH ITS SO MUCH. i'll start out w/ the stuff i dont like first uhm i really hate tht they r going the DID mikoto route.. it was expected but it still sucks to see them basically outright confirming it. its really terrible to ppl w/ dissociative disorders n just makes me mad. also feels like a cheap way to envoke mystery out of a character. i also dont like the direction they took kotoko. it seemed out out of character? especially for her to attack amane, it just feels random. but i really do like fuuta's reaction, he seems like he's still trying to hang on to his warped perception of his actions but his facade is quickly cracking. i also think yuno is interesting since her attitude has barely changed, it seems she doesnt care abt the judgement set upon her all tht much. uhmm haruka and muu. their friendship seems sweet but also im worried abt them both.. it just leaves a bitter taste in my mouth ig. especially since haruka's murder is a lot more up to interpretation and how muu seems to be a huge influence on haruka's thoughts n actions BUT WHO KNOWS. i like the changes in shidou a lot. he seems to have slightly changed his attitude n now hopes to be able to stay unpunished or at least alive, in order to save the other prisoners. i dont have much to say abt kazui im sorry he seems to have almost stayed the same sob. mahiru is interesting in the way her foundation of love is giving away right under her n she seems to just be accepting it. and finally amane. i think a lot of ppl expected her to start to question n maybe even start to let go of the beliefs her cult instilled in her n so voted her guilty but its really not tht simple. she's just a kid, a kid raised in such a way tht she was abused and made to believe her cult's ways r the best way to live, and they r everything she needs. so when others disagree, she will react in the same way she was taught, like wanting to punish shidou for healing the others. im really worried for her honestly. im excited to see fuuta's mv the most probably as well as haruka's. and to see what deco songs they'll sing. uhmm yeah i think thts it. sorry this is so long im crazy

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G senjou ni Y chapter 4 english translate

Location: Fuujin Rizing Sharehouse

(sound of footsteps)

*Click*

Fuuta: Aoi, It's already completed

Aoi: already completed you mean, what?

Fuuta: This song arrange!!

Aoi: No, it's really too early!?

Fuuta: I was helped by Misaki and Yamato, I want to move on to the beat

Fuuta: Anyway, I want you'll come to the studio now

Aoi: hah!? Now!? I mean, did you let them hear that song??

Kouhei: Well, let's go to studio for listen it now

Aoi: I understand about that....

Location: studio

*Music play stop*

Fuuta: How about that, Aoi?

Aoi: That song? It's still there in some parts, but it's barely in its original form!

Fuuta: aa ahahaha, Are you think so? But I'll make sure to keep the important parts!

Aoi: something important?

Kouhei: Hey, I've been wondering about something, what are these notes scattered on the floor?

Fuuta: It's "nostalgia" stuff that is the most important part of the song!

Kouhei: "Nostalgia" ?

Yamato: We asked Fuuta to tell us what he thought was "nostalgic" stuff and then we wrote it down on this song.

Misaki: And So, I help imagined the sounds from the notes and added them to the song.

Misaki: I never heard of those unique arrangement

Fuuta: Really good! successful with nicely

Kouhei: "'Distress in the park'" "kneeling" "Playing with Sakutaro" ..... Yeah. I don't know how you could have made the songs you with from these notes.

Kouhei: what the purpose of "Arya" one?

Fuuta: This is a classical song that Aoi used to play for me when I was little! He used to play it in front of me and.... someone!

Kouhei: "Aria" huh? (1)

Aoi: Hey, Fuuta. Why you writting something of "nostalgic" this one?

Fuuta: I feel nostalgic from beginning when I heard this song

Aoi: Huh?

Fuuta: But I thought it was important to have that feeling to make this song even better.

Fuuta: and then memories of when I was little started to come up. Hey Aoi! You sure remember for this, right?

Fuuta: The moment first time I spoke to you, or the first time I've came to visit you for playing together

Aoi: about that, uhmm well...

Fuuta: I'd like to fill this song with the feelings of happiness and sadness I felt at that time.

Aoi: !!!

Kouhei: Pfttt, hahahaha

Aoi: hey Kounii dont laugh!!

Fuuta: Why Kounii-chan laugh?

Kouhei: Haha, no oh, I just thought Aoi and Fuuta were similiar

Aoi: We're not!!

Kouhei: then, how? Aoi

Aoi: eh?

Kouhei: Are you satisfied with the music arranged by Fuuta and the others?

Aoi: about that...

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G senjou ni Y english translation: Chapter 3

Location: Fuujin Rizing's Sharehouse

Fuuta: ( This will be a good song for sure, I know what I'm talking about.)

Fuuta: ( That's a mistake, but it's not a bad one. )

Fuuta: The arrange mean, what I wondering should I do?

Fuuta: that Aoi... he's always working on our song without problem, he's a genius isn't he?

Fuuta: I don't know what to do! I stuck!!

Misaki: looks like you're in the problem, Fuuta?

Yamato: I'm here to help you

Fuuta: Misaki!? And Yamato here too?

Misaki: You know, I heard you're arranging a song!

Misaki: I'm sure Fuuta is in trouble right now, so help you out, I've been told by Kounii to come and help you!

Yamato: So, I'm here because they was told that if it's just Misaki and Fuuta, both of them get out of control and I should follow them.

Misaki: Seriously, these thing will be resolved quickly if I'm here

Fuuta: you guys!!

Fuuta: Okayyy!! Three odd of Something that unknow, we've got it! Now the arrangement is as good complete as possible!!

.......

Fuuta: I can't

Yamato: First of all, How do I get started with arranging?

Misaki: There's no way out of this! Let's rethink this from the beginning!

Fuuta: So true..

Yamato: How do you want something in this song, Fuuta? Do you have any image in your mind?

Fuuta: Something like....

Fuuta: when I heard this song, I thought it was about nostalgic, even though I didn't understand it.

Yamato: nostalgic thing? You mean you've heard this song before?

Fuuta: Uhh, I dont know

Misaki: Dont know you say? Then explain all about this

Fuuta: I just thought, its won't help me if I think about it at home! I'll just go into the studio and play with.

Yamato: that's the solution

Misaki: Yeah, that might be a quicker way to go.

Fuuta: okay, now let's going

Location: Studio

Misaki: How does it feel to be doing this right now, Fuuta?

Fuuta: I don't get it, it's just not right. It's like I can't get the best out of the song Aoi wrote.

Fuuta: I don't think we've reached a point where Aoi is satisfied yet.

Misaki: Can't help with music? Then what am I supposed to do?

Yamato: What kind of arrangement do you think that would satisfy Aoi? You're the one who understands that best, right?

Fuuta: that, we've known each other since childhood, so we know each other's preferences but

Fuuta: It's good to think about what kind of arrangement, I dont know!

Yamato: But, Fuuta and Aoi are really old friends. So what were you two like when both of you were little?

Fuuta: So true, he always been very angry and a crybaby, It's very Nostalgic moment Hmm? Nostalgic? Ohh, ohh hmm?

Misaki: This is no time to talk about the past.

Fuuta: Yes that one!!

Yamato: what wrong?

Fuuta: This song! I'm going to more and more "nostalgia" into this song

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wow my first time being tagged :) what a nice thing to wake up to!! thank u @good-beans

Last Song: Overdose by natori ! i love his songs, i listen to all of them!!

Favorite Color: black

Last Movie/TV Show: 'BanG Dream! It's MYGO!!!!!' im sorry to come out like this. yes im a bandori player (since oct. 2020). i really liked this but i cannot recommend it to people who aren't familiar with bushiroads work 💀 it's an… acquired taste

Sweet/Spicy/Savory: sweet…. i think i eat something with chocolate in it at least once a day

Relationship Status: single

Last Thing I Googled: "is ao3 down" 😭😭 and then before that was "kayano mikoto" i SWEAR i have a personality

Current Obsession(s): MILGRAM ❤️! but i love a ton of other series too like haikyuu, orv, bsd, link click, i7, madoka magica, and so many more. im also knees deep in seiyuu hell and will watch entire low-to-mid-tier shows just to hear a voice actor i like :')

i dont even know nine people to tag who havent already been tagged lol... but to make up for it, since ive never done anything like a self intro i'll put some bonus stuff instead. sorry for breaking format! please forgive me!

extra stuff:

Age: 19

Height: 5'3" (one inch shorter than fuuta!!!! the biggest bane of my existence)

Animal?: i love cats!! i have two that i love dearly. i also have two dogs.

Songs I Like?: music is a huge part of my life, im almost always listening to stuff constantly lol. some current favorite artists include: natori, eve, syudou (self-covers), sumire uesaka, meychan, kankan, (and ofc MILGRAM songs). there's so many more i can't list or it would end up being half the post. highly recommend all of them if you love japanese music as much as i do.

[link to my personal playlist of over 1600+ jp songs that i like!]

any artist recs... im all ears

and that's all i can think of haha, thank you once again for the tag!! it was really fun (and sorry for the accidental tag earlier if that came through… im never posting through mobile tumblr again). it's been fun reading through everyone's posts and learning more abt mutuals :) :)

@candckirby tagged me!

Last song: Gladiator by Jann

Favorite color: Blue!

Last movie/TV show: Tokyo revengers

Sweet/spicy/savory?: savory

Relationship status: In a relationship!

Last thing I googled: section 14c of the flsa

Current obsession: Milgram and Tokyo Revengers.

Tag Nine People: @reloaderror @crimeb0ys @mighty-cute-dragon @dragonsrainbows @anartificialsatellite @mitsutanan @boxx-sama @good-beansdraws @somokoto