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[lovebvni]

Hey! I don’t know if you do readings for free or not, feel free to ignore this if you don’t, but I’m wondering if I could get a reading on manifesting/shifting?

I know I have the ability to do anything and I truly believe that, and yet every night when I go to sleep with the intention to shift, I still wake up aware of my Cr instead. I feel like I’m stuck, because I know nothing but me is holding me back but I don’t know how to make it so I’m not.

Also, I saw one of your other reading things, what do you need to know about me? I’ll put some basic personality stuff though.

very creative, like to sing/draw/write ,believe anything is possible, kinda hate myself, love all people and have a large amount of caring for my fellow beings. <3

Thank you for taking the time to read!

-Parrot

hellooo parrot! such a cool name btw!! i used to want a bird before i realized i was scared of them.

i saw u sent another ask but i literally cannot find it!? augh :( IM SOO SORRY!!

i’m rlly creative too! i’m a theater kid, so yeah!! art, singing. dancing, acting, you name it i’ll try it! other than tap. i hate tap w a passion. it hurts my ankles !! i love people too! and i do have issues w self love as well. i sometimes js random laugh at something i thought and say i hate myself :( it’s a bad habit o need to get out of!

AND LOVE URSELF! U HAVE A COOL ASS NAME THAT BRINGS SO MUCH COLOUR TO UR LIFE! BE COLOURFUL, BOLD AND BRIGHT TO URSELF TOO!! UR SUPER WORTH IT!!!!!

so i’m gonna take ur question as a general shifting/manifesting advice. if i got it wrong, i can n will redo this for u!

first off i wanna say, you’re soft. like i heard “soft heart, soft voice, soft soul” from spirit. i don’t particularly know why but maybe it will come up

and when reading “I know I have the ability to do anything and I truly believe that, and yet every night when I go to sleep with the intention to shift, I still wake up aware of my Cr instead. I feel like I’m stuck, because I know nothing but me is holding me back but I don’t know how to make it so I’m not.” i instantly heard “no you don’t” from spirit.

you believe this because you’re trying to force yourself to, not because you actually believe it. you think you’re too weak and unworthy to shift — to gain any happiness in life, and that’s why you’re so giving and loving to others. you want that, and this is what you do so you can say you deserve it (5:55 rn)

u don’t need to “deserve “ anything to get it. you js need to want it, and have that fire under ur ass to grab it.

you’re not someone who gives up, i’ll tell you that, but you’re like clay. you always have a solid form, but you haven’t gone through the fire yet to be sturdy.

do you want to? yeah! but u keep letting little things get to you and mess up your design, your pattern.

you need to stop letting words or, what you see as, “consequences” get in the way of being happy.

waking up in what you think is ur cr is truly just a parallel reality in which you are closer to shifting. trust me. ive shifted to a different reality.

she bangs like a fairy on acid is a very interesting song to come on. at first i was like “maybe i’m not tapped into the right energy” but no — i definitely am.

it can be seen as falling back into an addiction that isn’t helping you get better or gain life.

“but listen to the fairy in the forest. she tells me that she wants it…” it’s giving into those old habits that you don’t particularly want, but you’re sacrificing yourself for.

get out of this energy. it’s not selfish to want to do better. isolate yourself.

and i don’t know if you’re doing anything or not, but try to cut back if you are.

i love u parrot!!! i hope all goes well :D

[princessofxianle]

Do you mind if I ask your top 10 favorite characters (can be male or female) from all of the media that you loved (can be anime/manga, books, movies or tv series)? And why do you love them? Sorry if you've answered this question before.....Thanks...

well THANK YOU for asking, you are the first to!

tbh ive been meaning to do this on my main blog bc I take these wayyy too seriously lol but ANYWAY heres my top 10 faves (in no particular order) that I can think of (tbh theres prob more i forgot about, or i wanted to keep only 1 per fandom... except tgcf)

Huge Spoiler Warning: for ALL of tgcf, 2ha, aot, AND JJK MANGA!!!

1. Feng Xin (tgcf)

do i even need to explain this one? loyal to a fault, just a cute lil puppy, one hell of a sculpted archers back, and he's head over heels in love with Xie Lian (but tbh same) i have a lot of thoughts about him on a daily basis on this blog (and also theres the #fx backstory au tag)

2. Noé Archiviste (the Case Study of Vanitas)

MY BABY

the absolute bestest boy of EVER... with a LOAD of unprocessed trauma (yknow the typical stuff like seeing your childhood bff get decapitated in front of you) and a lot more to come once we find out how he kills his boyfriend best friend, Vanitas...

i ALSO think about him a lot but over on @noes-pillow

3. Sejanus Plinth (The Hunger Games: tbosas)

hated reading as a child... HATED it... picked up the og trilogy when i was 12 and i was a goner. The funny thing is i still hated reading for YEARS up until i picked up the prequel novel then in 2020, and now ive read all of tgcf, 2ha, and more fanfic than i could ever imagine... all because this stupid boy (i love him) chose to trust the WORST person as his friend, rip sejanus my baby

the movie is v good btw, if you havent seen it you should

4. Xie Lian (tgcf)

*Taizi Dianxia Fang Xin Guoshi General Hua Xie Lian*

how this man survived 800 years of being physically unable to die and never went insane is a mystery i will never be able to fully comprehend (aaand im in love with him... hmm i wonder why...)

5. Mihael "Mello" Keehl (Death Note)

the chocolate-addicted blonde boi that was my first anime crush... by proxy I must also add Mail "Matt" Jeevas because they are a package deal

these two are also the reason i started writing fanfic so they will ALWAYS hold a special place in my heart

6. Xue Meng - (2ha)

*sigh* he's just everyone's fav peacock (yes technically the image is XM 0.5 but he had a cool ass bird so im using this photo bc its COOL anyway...) mengmeng is another one of my trauma bois who has lost next to everything and yet is STILL kicking ass and taking names #thatsmyfuckingsectleader so proud of you my son

also this might get me into hot water here but imma go ahead and say it...

this is what i wanted Jiang Cheng to be... (i LOVE my angy grape but...) through thick and thin, despite EVERYTHING, and even mo ran fucking abandoning him he will still call mo ran his "ge"...

fgjhdfhfdg THEYRE BROTHERS, OKAY???

7. Howl Pendragon (Howl's Moving Castle)

ok this one i just simply do not need to explain... if you think i do, go watch this whole movie and then there ya go thats your answer...

GENDER

8. River Song (Doctor Who)

aside from being the character that unlocked my unhealthy obsession with :) Main Character Death :) at the ripe ol' age of 8 YEARS (although Will Turner from POTC also helped on that front... Orlando Bloom my beloved) River's story was a stroke of absolute GENIUS from start to finish and i simply love how Alex Kingston played her...

"You don't expect a sunset to admire you back."

I just love the doomed ones, okay...

9. Satoru Gojo (Jujutsu Kaisen)

look... theres *gojo girlies* uwu and then theres GOJO GIRLIES... i couldn't give 2 shits about how he's fan-serviced (tho im not complaining) but have you SEEN the amount of grief pumped into that man? he could explode in a fit of fucking insanity at literally any moment and take the whole goddamn world down with him bc what happened with suguru WASNT FAIR to him and satoru has more than enough power to go apeshit... but he DOESN'T... even after losing so many of his co-sorcerers... he still puts on a brave face to the end in order to protect the childhood of his students even tho his own youth was stolen from him during hidden inventory...

SEE? The DOOMED ones!

10. Levi Ackerman (Attack on Titan)

i read the manga during my last year of uni and when i tell you i SOBBED at the end... yes ofc for obvious reasons, but mostly bc my little Levi loses EVERYTHING. He is the SOLE survivor of the veteran scouts. He's missing multiple fingers, an eye, and the ability to walk. He was the strongest (yowaimo) but wasn't even granted the mercy to die at the end of his narrative! Broke my fucking heart.

BONUS: Morph (Treasure Planet)

he's a morph!!! nuff said <3

fin

[uraniumglassgirl]

kisss me kiss me with your eyes closeddd whisper that your heart showwssss all i want is youuu yea youu hold mee. hold me im your bunnyyyy tell me im not funnyyy tell me im legitttttttttttt cause i feel weakkkk in your handsssss

[baekhvuns]

I hope SM and Hybe get that gummi dickhead, because honestly what the fuck is going on. And not stans caring more about the dating rumours statement, just stfu. Btw another Taehyung dream... why

Omg if you start TVD let me know, I used to be so so involved. I was a Delena (Damon x Elena) girl but tbh fuck Damon, unless I headcanon him as Hwa. Though I loved a guy named Klaus who was VERY questionable, so maybe I shouldn't talk. TVD, Gossip Girl, PLL, Teen Wolf, Glee used to be my trash

People say Fireworks was boring but HOW? And it sounded very Ateez to me, those who didn't like Inception got their noise and it was soft at times. Yeah DV might sound underwhelming, but idc I love it and it's good and cunty

Hotteoks, Yunhopowers I'm confused tbh, the names are all over the place, not to mention the guys pushing weird ass names (Ddeongwives.... no). Anyway your struggles with that Yunho fic akuriaidkansjskzkhehs miss Baek fighting her inner demons

I think the frosty colour faded which happens, but Hwa's roots look better I think. I hope he goes icy again, but white shades are really hard to maintain ;/

THAT CHERRY PHOTO MURDERED ME, LOOK AT THIS ART. Is it safe to say I'll surely be getting that photocard, but pretend you didn't see it

Girl, the denial is real, our pathetic man is not getting the girl, but he'll get all the other bitches (us) so it's fine 🥰 I just need him to br quiet

A birthday party for moi in a castle you say?! In king's castle?!

That's right the SM-fication of miss Lightiny :( she bald and too basic

Ngl I had high hopes for miss Seulgi but the song and MV was a bit mid, I'll have to listen to the whole album though. She still looked and sounded great, I loved the dark vibe, but maybe expected the song to take a different route. And "I kiss your brother"??? Don't have one but I'm right here

Who would I choose fuck off ha ha ha. I'm in my Jae Young era, but then Soo Hyuk's voice, and In Youp is so cute </333 it all depends, they'd have to appeal to me with their charms. You? 👀

First few slides summer camp vibes just saying also have you seen the movie No Reservations? Chef Park Seonghwa...

Been minding my own business in Seonghwa's tag here on tumblr dot com, saw Bodyguard Hwa while scrolling and it got me like 🥰 gonna re-read it soon! Next however I came across my enemy number 1 aka Khr*n*s, traumatic experience, got 20 war flashbacks, my family has died, I did NOT have to remember about that fic!!!

Baby boy baby vs Evil (gonna slap his forehead 🤬)

His inspo, his mind... the guy looks good too, now grow your hair out Park Seonghwa. No but the way he draws inspiration from things is so cool and admirable... 😭 - DV 💖

hello hihi!!

I hope SM and Hybe get that gummi dickhead, because honestly what the fuck is going on. And not stans caring more about the dating rumours statement, just stfu. Btw another Taehyung dream... why

I JUST SAW YGS CALLING PEOPLE WHO REMOTELY EVEN MENTIONED V AND JEN TOGETHER 😭😭 hello???? whOSE DREAM??? PPT FORMAT RIGHT NOW RIGHT NOW 🔫

Omg if you start TVD let me know, I used to be so so involved. I was a Delena (Damon x Elena) girl but tbh fuck Damon, unless I headcanon him as Hwa. Though I loved a guy named Klaus who was VERY questionable, so maybe I shouldn't talk. TVD, Gossip Girl, PLL, Teen Wolf, Glee used to be my trash

iM STARTING IT I HAVE BEEN SEEING WAY TO MANY EDITS WITH MR DAMON 😭😭😭 wait fuck damon why 👁👁👄👁👁 head canoning him as hwa right now what tHE fUCK,,, omg glee was seriously so addictive I NEVER UNDERSTOOD PPL 😭😭 I PLAYED THEIR EPISODE GAME TOO I NEVER UNDERSTOOD IT FBFBFB omg but do u rmr shadow hunters 🧍🏻‍♀️

People say Fireworks was boring but HOW? And it sounded very Ateez to me, those who didn't like Inception got their noise and it was soft at times. Yeah DV might sound underwhelming, but idc I love it and it's good and cunty

fireworks ERA TO DV WAS CUNT FULLY ON CUNT,,, it really hurts seeing people have no taste <//3 inception is so elegant??? the slow and reverb version especially,,, silver seonghwa dancing to it would be my 13th reason

Hotteoks, Yunhopowers I'm confused tbh, the names are all over the place, not to mention the guys pushing weird ass names (Ddeongwives.... no). Anyway your struggles with that Yunho fic akuriaidkansjskzkhehs miss Baek fighting her inner demons

LMFAOOOO NO WHAT THE FUCK IS DDEONGWIVES???? SIR???? AND THEN EVERYONE SAYS DONT BE A DELULU?? THIS MAN FEEDING INTO OUR DELULU HE’S- WE MARRIED TO HIM, THIS IS A POLY RELATIONSHIP APPARENTLY,,, i swear this fic pisses me of so much i changed the plot three times, the mood board and all im fighting my demons to write that hwa series 😭😭😭

I think the frosty colour faded which happens, but Hwa's roots look better I think. I hope he goes icy again, but white shades are really hard to maintain ;/

he momentarily gave gd’s hair at mama fbdndhdj yEHA I HOPE HE DOES GO BACK and with these selca’s he’s dropping 😵‍💫😵‍💫 im going to devour him whole

THAT CHERRY PHOTO MURDERED ME, LOOK AT THIS ART. Is it safe to say I'll surely be getting that photocard, but pretend you didn't see it

NO LITERALLY HOW DARE HE??? I SAW IT IN A VERY PUBLIC SETTING AND THE CHILLS I FOT THE URGE TO SCREAM IN A TRAINFQJFHWKDHWKHDWKDBWK IT IS SAFE??? WE ARE PRAYING FOR U TO GET THIS CARD AND IM ON MY WAY SECURE THEM CARDS RIGHT NOW 🔫🔫🔫 RIGHT NOW

ClICK ON THE PHOTO U WONT REGRET IT

Girl, the denial is real, our pathetic man is not getting the girl, but he'll get all the other bitches (us) so it's fine 🥰 I just need him to br quiet

LMFAOOOO 😭😭😭 the denial so real i stopped watching it fbfbfbfb HE’LL GET US THATS WHAT MATTERS but i rly be rooting he gets the girlie as in the director has a change of heart <33

A birthday party for moi in a castle you say?! In king's castle?!

ABSOLUTELY THE MAN IS WAITING FOR SOME INTERACTION AND U WILL SEE IT MID NOVEMBER TO END

That's right the SM-fication of miss Lightiny :( she bald and too basic

kq following sm in this but wHERE IS THE KAI X SEONGHWA CRUMBS KQ THEY MET EVERY SM GROUP WHERE IS EXO FHWKHDKW IM GONNA THROW THE GLOBE AT KQ

Ngl I had high hopes for miss Seulgi but the song and MV was a bit mid, I'll have to listen to the whole album though. She still looked and sounded great, I loved the dark vibe, but maybe expected the song to take a different route. And "I kiss your brother"??? Don't have one but I'm right here

i ngl i did too, i was like maybe we’ll get something like invu or idea,,, some scenes (the black and white one) they had the budget they could’ve had the oomph factor bc it looked (is) green screen 😭😭😭 lOVED THE DARK VIBE I WISHED THEY WENT INTO IT MORE,,, seulgi could’ve easily finessed criminal type of music,,, FBWKFJKWH KISSED UR BROTHER MY FIRST THOUGHT WAS SWEET HOME ALABAMA 😭😭

Who would I choose fuck off ha ha ha. I'm in my Jae Young era, but then Soo Hyuk's voice, and In Youp is so cute </333 it all depends, they'd have to appeal to me with their charms. You? 👀

LMFAOOOO BRMWHDKW CHOSE ONE 🔫🔫 I THO WILL CHOSE SOOHYUK BC OF HIS VOICE THE WAY I CURL INTO A BALL WHEN I HEAR THE “m a n N e r” BFNWBDSJ

First few slides summer camp vibes just saying also have you seen the movie No Reservations? Chef Park Seonghwa...

chef park seonghwa….haha. also have a sweet reminder l

Been minding my own business in Seonghwa's tag here on tumblr dot com, saw Bodyguard Hwa while scrolling and it got me like 🥰 gonna re-read it soon! Next however I came across my enemy number 1 aka Khr*n*s, traumatic experience, got 20 war flashbacks, my family has died, I did NOT have to remember about that fic!!!

Baby boy baby vs Evil (gonna slap his forehead 🤬)

FBQMBDMQDJKW NAURRR I SEE IT SOMETIMES TOO AND THE WAY I HURRIEDLY SCROLL PAST IT 😭😭😭 hopefully the new one drops soon so u don’t have to reread fics dbwmdbwm RHWKHDWK DONT BE SHY READ IT <3 READ KHRONUS <333 BFWKHDSK IDK HOW U WILL RESPOND TO THE NEW SERIES THEN FBFB

DAILY REMINDER

His inspo, his mind... the guy looks good too, now grow your hair out Park Seonghwa. No but the way he draws inspiration from things is so cool and admirable... 😭 - DV 💖

NO BC I THOUGHT OF U WHEN WOO MENTIONED THOSE ESP THAT LONG HAIR AND THAT SHARPASS NOSE THATS GOOD FOR ALOT OF THINGS

and,,

WHO IS THIS GUY

[billnsteve]

tagged by @indurus <3 (i adore you btw)

only rule if you do it, tag a few people/blogs you adore~ 

what’s your favourite song(s) to sing/hum? i used to sing a lot of songs by the smiths and joy division to my baby sister when she would cry at night, she was born addicted to whatever the hell my whack ass mother was on and could never sleep unless i rocked her to bed. so i sang like, sing me to sleep, please, please, please, let me get what i want,there is a light that never goes out (all by the smiths) and then disorder by joy division, i also used to sing im on fire by bruce springsteen and i’ll be your mirror by the velvet underground, those ones usually worked, but you had to sing really quiet in a dark room after giving her like a warm bath. she is all better now and is turning two in 15 days. she’s in foster care now with my aunt. 

what are your favourite flower/tree/plant (all 3 or whatever you have an answer to) i like those pink flower blossom tree things, i like roses andddd i guess like strawberry plants are cute? 

favourite colour(s)? blue and like a sun-setty orange. 

what do you always doodle (if you ever do)? i suck at doodling or drawing or anything that requires talent, but usually i draw little hearts and signature my name on everything like i’m fucking famous or something idk

how do you take your coffee/tea? If you don’t like those what’s your fav warm drink? never actually drank coffee although i do use some coffee scrub mask and it smells kinda good i guess. i drink yorkshire tea and tazo tea or something? i usually put like a teeny bit of honey and a spoon of sugar. also love hot cocoa & warm apple cider but usually only during the fall looool. 

favourite candle scent? lemon pound cake orrrrr target had a candle called grey flannel and it smelled like sex, for real. beautiful.

sunrise or sunset? both (as well) :)

what perfume do you wear if any? faberge has a rub on thing that i use, called brut 33 with a lil degrees sign next to it. my grandpa used to use it and i just love it, it’s awesome. 

what’s your go-to dance move when you’re alone? air guitar or a lot of hip swinging lmao ?

favourite quote?

favourite self care thing(s) or routine(s)? steaming hot bubble bath, netflix and a bundle of blankets and pillows, my dogs and my bed. 

fuzzy socks or house slippers? fuzzy socks. haven’t had slippers since i was like 7 

what colour are your eyes? blue

what’s your favourite eye colour on others? don’t really have one i guess ? like super cringe but if i love a person, i like fall in love with their eyes too i guess ? because eyes are just nice in general

favourite season? why? halloween, i love halloween parties and haunted attractions and stuff. but yeah, family holidays are cool as well. 

cheek, neck or nose kisses cheek is cute and simple. nose is fucking precious. neck sometimes is kinda hot i guess. maybe a lil biting ;)

what does your happy place look like? just literally like a warm ball of sunshine. just warmth. bright light. chill lil nap. maybe on warm sand at the beach? or next to a bright window with a pretty view.

favourite breed of dog? “any doggie. my love knows no bounds.” quoting @indurus on this one 

do you ever want to be married? If so what colours would you pick for your wedding theme? depends i guess. i don’t really care for it but if i loved someone and that’s what they wanted, i guess i could do a lil something. as far as colours, i have no preference really. i would never want like a huge wedding. maybe just like a small thing.

silk or lace? lace to feel like hot as shit but silk to feel cute and sleepy ?

favourite weather? JUST NOT TOO HOT BUT NOT COLD, LIKE WARM. WARM NAPPY WEATHER. I just love naps, tbh.

tagging: @harringrove-heaven @switch625s @digitaldevilqueen @1985baybee

[strmgrl-blog]

my name’s saturn & this is my meme shop ! aaaaah no, really though bonjour angels ! for a lil introduction for myself let me just get this out of the way GIFJDKL uhhh i love aoa, day6 & sm artists ( like .. all of them Help ). a traumatized bitch who loves suffering so i project onto my muses to Cope ! GIAUDFJKL god gdfroijmkl sorry ummm i love star wars & video games ? catch me throwing an ow comp match & feeding in fortnite ! i love the moon, she’s the only thing that keeps me alive. i don’t have a mitochondria, i have lunar force. i have one (1) indoor cat who i birthed & LITERALLY 4 STRAY CATS who appeared from the mist. i run a ratchet vet service from my front porch & it’s free, i should be named human of the year honestly, truly. more on this mess of a muse, hyeon, who ( btw ) is literally my everything ? i’ve had her for quite a long time & lost motivation to write her so i’m changing some shit up to see how it goes & this is the product ! i hope you all enjoy reading this EXTREMELY long intro ( bc it will be very long im so sorry ) & befriend both myself as well as hyeon. & if you’re feelin’ a little extra, like this to plot ! i have a few ideas in mind but they’re all worth brainstorming over bc they’re SHIT. anyway, i love u all so much already ? genuinely a kind community i’m nut & WITHOUT FURTHER ADIEU, here’s hyeon ~  ♥（ﾉ´∀`）

warning ! trigger warnings ahead possibly including ꞉ child prostitution, drug abuse, child abuse, mental abuse, sexual assault, depression, suicidal thoughts + other mental illness, murder, & probably a fuckton more. read with caution, please.

⌠ BACKGROUND ⌡

so starting with her parents, where all stories begin, let’s just preface by saying these were awful people. they ran in similar circles during school, a very bad one at that, & fell in love after sharing a joint. in their high daze they saw what their mind was conjuring but not the truth about one another. but for them, it had been enough. thus, their story began. it was a very rocky road but they managed to stay together regardless. the bond they had created blossomed as they partook in illegal activities such as petty theft, vandalism, & it slowly evolved into larger problems. 

after hyeon’s mother, named jung eunbi, stole from her parents for the last time she was kicked out into the street with her boyfriend ( who had also been kicked out ) with no place to go. both dropped out of high school as it wasn’t their “””scene””” & took to the dirty streets of busan trying to turn tricks. they’d do anything they could to get some money to feed their addictions. in the midst of their scrambling for what they deemed as important, they never thought to buy protection. so one fateful night after a good steal, they made love on a dingy couch high as a kite & eunbi got pregnant.

she hid the pregnancy for as long as she could from her boyfriend, he only noticed when there was a rather apparent bump under her baggy clothing. with the weight of the realization they might have to force themselves to become a real family, the couple got hitched & attempted to find real jobs. in some miracle, they managed to find a house to live in & eventually “raise” their child in. 

hyeon was born on the 8th of june, on a dark morning with clouds hanging ove the sky & rain starting to pour. she was premature as her mother did drugs during the pregnancy ( which was really no shocker ) & almost was pronounced a still born before they heard the tiny being crying & gasping for air. her parents had assumed that once she was born, they’d feel that parental love that everyone claimed to have but it never came. they stayed in the hospital a total of two days & hardly let their newborn get the help she needed before they hauled ass out of there. 

the first 3 years of hyeon’s life were better than expected, her parents at least tried to take care of her but once she was able to do everything on her own they left her be to pursue their own happiness. honestly think of matilda but a lot more severe ok

she would often get locked in a closet while there were parties held & her parents were too strung out to remember their child. she could spend days in there before she was released. this was only the beginning.

at 8 years old, her father lost his job ( her mother stayed at home ) due to a random drug test & he of course failed. this triggered her parents to panic as they no longer could supply themselves with their so desired highs. so after a night of scheming, they came up with a plan so sinister not even the devil himself would agree.

random men & women began to arrive to their dingy home as hyeon would be ushered into quiet rooms with them where they would pay to do whatever they pleased with the young girl. this went on for 2 years before hyeon was pulled into the principals office at school with questions about where those bruises on her came from. her mom was picked up for possession & this prompted the police to raid their home to find many illegal substances throughout the place as well as evidence of abuse towards the child.

soon after her parents were placed in prison, hyeon was shipped off to seoul to the biggest orphanage in the country. there she stayed for 4 more years. the time there was quiet, nobody asked her about where she came from & she never spoke about it. in truth, she never knew how to as she was a blank mind essentially. 

luckily when she was 15, after a long & strenuous search, hyeon’s grandparents found her & adopted her into their home in daegu. they were absolutely appalled at this shell of a girl, but could only blame her trauma on their own children. it was here that hyeon was loved for the first time in her life ( & possibly the only time ) & taught how to feel something besids fear. she was still horribly inept at processing emotions or showing them.

two years spent with them & one night as hyeon & her grandfather were sat at the family piano, playing & singing a song as her grandmother recorded them in secret. that same video was sent to an entertainment company without hyeon’s knowledge but was thoroughly surprised & equally as excited when she was recruited. only a measly year in training with her 2 group members before they debuted & they were suddenly the biggest gg in sk.

the group debuted under the name of PTL, hyeon’s stagename was now Tink as she accompanied her members in the ride of a lifetime. they were extremely popular with their girl crush yet enticing vocals with miss tink as the main vocalist & maknae. even so successful as to have a world tour ! the group had their differences, hyeon being the medium for them as the other girls were rather opposing forces. often she was put in the middle of their arguing only to run away when conflict came up. during this time she would write & compose her own songs, bringing a heavy soul feeling to the group with her powerhouse vocals.

with all this being said ( which was a LOT ), there is still more. a year after debut while the group was climbing in popularity, hyeon began receiving texts from an unknown number. she soon found out that the people behind the mask were her parents, somehow having managed to be released from prison & found their new mission in life was to harass their daughter. on an october night, after an argument went down within the dorms between hyeon’s two members, the youngest set out by herself to meet those who hurt her for dinner. 

as expected, it went horribly. at this point in her life, she was extremely impressionable, & witnessed how her eonnie handled things which was with a liquor bottle in hand. so, like an idiot, she went to a club by herself to get fucked up. while sitting at the bar, a random man drugged her drink & took hyeon home with him. the night was a blur but when the young woman woke up she felt familiar bruises & a blanket of rage took over. the man was still passed out next to her.

so as she slipped out of his bed & found the nearest blunt object, hyeon managed to bash his skull in. she blacked out after that only to come to with clean hands & far away from the corpse. this was the reactant to lead her to go blind in rage & come to with blood on her hands. soon enough, she took a liking to the feeling & became two people within one while somehow managing to remain anonymous as a killer ran rampant.

earlier this year, after too much shit going on within the group, ptl disbanded & all went their own ways. which hyeon appreciated. the people she had once called her sisters had become like strangers & only cared about themselves, didn’t have the time to look after their maknae. 

to say that her already pre - existing depression & anxiety sky rocketed would be an understatement. she left music for a while, deciding to stream on twitch & youtube as a gamer. it made her happy for a short time but has been planning on returning to music with hints of a solo debut soon that has fans excited.

edit: i forgot to put this in here originally IGJFDKL but she moved to jeju after her group disbanded for a new start. plus, her address somehow got leaked so she uprooted all her shit & left for the secluded island.

⌠ OTHER TIDBITS ⌡

stands at 5′7″, 168 pounds ( considered plus size tbh. one day i’ll put picture references LMAO ), with curly, thick hair & freckles from hell. 

can speak english, japanese, chinese, & italian. has a slight british accent from who she learned english from was from the UK.

has a rottweiler puppy named chewie, a hedgehog named leia, & two cats named opal & hazel. 

voice claim is a mixture of lee haeri, kim taeyeon, park sunyoung, & ailee.

her favorite color is blue, loves the rain, & will 100% be caught standing in the middle of a storm.

is a practicing wiccan ! very much so considers herself a witch.

her favorite drink is strawberry milk, & will eat anything that has strawberries !

[notesfromthepen]

The Chronicles of the king of Richmond

I came across some shit today that I had to share. Something too funny, dark, and ridiculous to keep to myself. But I had to figure out a way to first, get my hands on the material, and then how to give the context needed for it to be fully appreciated.

First I should start with the characters involved. We are a trio. Me, Joe, and the 'king'. I'll refer to him as the 'king' (with a lowercase 'k') because he wanted to remain anonymous, for several reasons, that should become clear later. 

Joe is, by far, my best friend in here and we've been pretty much inseparable for years now, (we were bunkies twice at another facility). Some of you may have read previous posts about him. We are very different people, which is often the case with really good friends. But there is no doubt that our bond is, almost entirely, built on our shared sense of humor. A sarcastic, brutally honest, self deprecating, anything for a laugh, sense of humor. 

A sense of humor developed since childhood surrounded by witty, smart-assed, assholish mentors and peers. It can be a harsh environment to grow up in, but there is a purity to be found there. An accountability and brutal honesty that is humbling and real. There are no aires allowed to survive amongst friends with no fear of giving offense. No bullshit is left uncalled, no lies left un-confronted, and no opinions restrained. Nothing is sacred and everything is mined for a laugh. 

Basically we talk a lot of shit.

Nothing bonds me to another person more instantly than a similar sense of humor. Since coming to this new prison Joe and I have found a fellow, flawed, degenerate asshole, willing to laugh at himself and judge others for the sake humor. 

This, is the so called 'king of Richmond.' His majesty is a large guy, about 6'1 and 240 lbs. of slightly chubby, bearded, man beef. He's well kept and neat in appearance (aside from his portly build). He's got some charisma and charm at his disposal and makes decent use of it when needed.

The king, however, has a glaring flaw, as do most of us. He's a raging addict, whose life is lived for, and run by, an incessant need for opiates. This adds an interesting but constantly problematic dimension to his life behind bars. The perpetual need to produce the money for his lifestyle is a constant story line. Most of his fundraising is done over the phone. Preferably through manipulation, but he's not above blatant begging from people in the free-world. Family members, friends, exes, and a sugar momma round out his fundraising Rolodex. 

A few days ago, Joe borrowed his Majesty's tablet to listen to his music, and being the stand up friends we are, we wasted no time before invading his privacy. We opened his 'sent email' files and struck gold. Dark, hilarious, sad, revealing gold. What we found was email after email of mental and emotional manipulation in a quest to fund his lifestyle. That's the sad part. The hilarious part is witnessing the level of shameless groveling, damage control, and clumsy begging, our friend is willing to stoop to. 

After an intervention filled with embarrassment, ridicule, and some tear inducing laughs from all parties, I gained the 'kings' permission to post some of the gems. 

But first a disclaimer: If any form of self-respect or sense of shame is something you're expecting, then prepare yourself, because you will find neither in these emails. Also, I wanted to maintain the "purity" of the emails as they were originally written, so I left the misspellings and incorrect grammar. However, for the sake of read-ability, I added some commas and periods here and there. Other than that they are all original text, with the exception of my commentary, which will be in [brackets].

So without further adieu, I now present to you: The Chronicles Of The king Of Richmond.

Sugar Momma

The following correspondence was sent to the kings sugar momma. As her title would imply she is his main source of income. His "Go-To". She works at McDonalds and has had the unfortunate luck to be in  "love" with the king for roughly a year now. This letter is the most recent and well into the travesty that is their "relationship". This email is more focused on making excuses for begging than actual begging, but stay tuned they get worse.

His words are in "quotes" and my commentary is in [brackets]. Some are comments and some are translations of his bullshit, what he really means.

KOR 11/24  “listen, I wasn't insinuating you were fat, and honestly I wasn't trying to hurt your feelings. [he definitely was] I was giving you an example of how you could save a few bucks, so maybe out of the kindness of your heart [or from my incessant guilt laden begging] you could send me a few. Belive it or not, its rough in here, and sometimes I need money to survive in here. [Let's make one thing clear: The constant stress of his habit and the debts he accrues makes his time infinitely more difficult than it needs to be. So more money isn't the solution. It’s the problem.] That's what I was saying. I've been down for 5yrs Jenn and pretty much aint had much help, except from a few. [Just a little context. I get 50$ a month. This jackass spends 300$ a week]. We were together a long time. we broke up when I was in here, so yeah its a little different than if you were just some ex. I shouldn't exspect [too bad they don't give out money for misspelled words] it, but I would hope”. 

“I guess I wasn't who I thought I was to you. [what a word-smith]. I might have put you through a lot of shit, but you sought me out. Remember that. You knew who I was. [Yeah, so you deserve everything I put you through.] Everyone did. I was the king of that town [AND THERE IT IS! The self proclaimed king of Richmond...Oh I can't tell you how embarrassed for him, angered at him, and ashamed to call him my friend I was when I read this!] not to try and sound conceited but I was, [OK. You can't say you’re not being  conceited and then double down on your brag. BTW Richmond has a population smaller than most elementary schools. So it was a small 'kingdom' to say the least] and now no one has my back. it sucks, out of everyone, I hoped that you would have, but no!! [I hope he had a neck brace on when he wrote this. This guy can go from bragging to groveling so fast that it causes whiplash]. When we broke up I wanted you to be happy and get married and do what ever. [He ran out of ideas! That's his limit of things he could conjure up that would make her happy: 2] I just wanted you to still be there for me [AKA: support my habit] and if roles were reversed Jenn, you would have 50 every month and my family would probaly even send you money and that's the proven truth. [From probably to proven truth in half a sentence?]  And you know it, so that shit hurts me, let's just remember who's the one locked up!! I'm the old me again [king?] and I'll remember all my real friends, that were there for me, when I get out in 3 in a half years.[Yeah but will they remember you?] Not long at all. And the thing with frank, [Oh yes! Thankgod he's back on the whole Frank thing! I wish I knew his address I'd send him a bottle of whisky!] belive me, I heard stories, a few. [Yeah and they haunt his dreams] but regardless, I love you, just wish you were kinder to me. ...The king”

[That's his cleanup? Someone get him a neck brace]

KOR 12/6 [Damage control] “baby, funny you say sober honestly, but no i totally understand. im sorry if it feels like sometimes I take you for granted.[by sometimes he means 'all the time'] let me try to explain [please do], in here if you don't get in a constant routine and try to make things repetitive, the time will do you, not you do the time. [A vague prison saying he heard someone say in here once and thought it sounded cool] if that makes sense [it doesn't.], its not my intentions to make it carry over into our relationship [but if it does I'm willing to live with it] I'm sorry [that I have to do this song and dance to get money]. and I fully intend to check myself and let you know how special you truly are to me [and by 'check myself' I mean I'll continue doing the exact same amount of drugs, if not more. and I'll show you how special you are by kindly taking your minimum wage paycheck]. The money you send me is for me to live comfortably in here [get high], that means getting things done that I need to get done while I'm here [I mean, these drugs aren't gonna do themselves.] and 90%, is the food and shit i need to survive [but mostly drugs]. We are already at a disadvantage because I only get 75% of what you send, which sucks [it would be much more efficient if I could put 100% of what you send me up my nose]. And they rip us off on prices on the food as it is. So I'm sorry, but i want you to fully understand you are my baby girl [creepy] and when i get out, roles will reverse and I'll be the provider and you'll live real comfortable [said with his fingers crossed], except when I come home every night and blow that back out bitch!!!! [and theres that winning charm I mentioned! what a smooth operator] I love you. [He doesn't] I got to go to the doctor at 9:30 [Ironically its 'his' back that's blown out] so I'll call you after count [to beg for more $]. I love you [again he doesn't]. if that eases your mind [It shouldn't] I love you!!! [and one final lie to cap off this masterpiece.]

Ex-Girlfriend

These next three are to his ex-girlfriend. She's somewhere down the list of reliable donors, but desperate times call for desperate measures and being a dope fiend in prison means, constant desperate times.

KOR 11/23 "So happy thanksgiving! [Now that the pleasantries are out of the way] So I havnt had any money lately, so no stamps but I just got some anyways [2nd sentence in and already caught in a lie. Clearly if he sent this, he has stamps]. Yeah I heard all about you and Carol's argument, and Dan and Josh messaging, and you jumping in on their message, and Dan cutting into you about being a shitty ex (/friend) [OK, I have to translate. First of all, this email seems to be sponsored by unnecessary commas. I guess some people were attacking her on Facebook for not sending the 'king' an adequate amount of money] Most I agree with. [Especially the money part] You havnt been there for me Jennifer [how dare you!]. I belive you have kinda done me wrong [how do you sleep at night?] and other people believe that too [so there!]. Im not saying your wrong for living your life [but you are] and going and being with someone new [because there's no way he's cooler than me]. but you can look out for the man [I use the term man loosely] that looked out for you since you were just a baby! [???? what???? creepy! actually I need to go ask him about this one.. OK he said he meant when she was 18] When I have asked for money in the past, you deny me [who the fuck do you think you are an ex?]. Hell, I'm broke right now [and that's your responsibility]. I can't get money. [But regardless I incessantly ask for it? Blatant lie no.2] uncle only sends me 50 a month and that ain't shit, that's hygiene a month. [Who calls their uncle uncle and not my uncle? What is he an orphan from the 1800's?] You don't keep money on the phone Jenn. I don't care who your new man is [again, not cooler than me], if you truly love me, you can talk to me. And 50 dollars, every couple of months ain't shit Jenn [trust me its nothing! I blow through it in no time]. So I and everyone else just think your wrong for that [OK, now he's literally speaking for everyone. Which is strange because I don't remember giving him my opinion on how much money his ex should be spending on his habit]. I will always have love for you. I just wish you would treat me with the respect I deserve [but have in no way earned]. I've been down 5 yrs and havnt got no more than 100 dollars from you. i basicaly took the rap and I get no respect. [Now he's doing his Rodney Dangerfield impression? what's next, Dr Vinnie Boombatz? (look it up)]  That's fucked up!!!!! well I thought, since I finally got some stamps I can finally reply. I wish you would start respecting me as someone you love!!! 

'The King of Richmond' (The realest you've ever known!)”  [That last part is 100% real. I almost died laughing when I read this! The realest? No comment I can muster will be adequate at dealing with the ridiculousness of this sign off. What a heavy handed attempt to sound like a cool guy. Remember, this is to an ex-girlfriend! No way does playing the cool guy ever work on an ex. She's been in the bathroom after you. She's smelled your shit. Also remember that the whole point of this email is to beg for money! Oh I'm so glad I'm friends with this silly degenerate!]

KOR 11/24 “what? really I thought we just made it through everything; [Im going to say we and then make you feel bad for a bunch of shit you needed] your rent to your sister, the presents for the babies, your phone you needed [you know, the trivial shit]. I thought we got through it baby? [You mean to tell me the babies got my drug money?] I owe a 100$ and I don't even got a noodle right now. Thank god for you, because my brother doesn't give a fuck if I rot in here [because be knows the real me] and everyone else apparently don't care. [Possibly the most poorly crafted sentence in the history of writing, and now down to business] We can do 100 and then 50. [Tell the babies and your sister to fuck off! I have needs.] So I can eat off the 35 from the 50 for the rest of this month [hope I confused her with all the numbers and poor grammar] cause the only thing I have is 2 soaps [just to be sure, one more number]. so work with me on this and I will make that last to the first OK! [In no world, was he able to make it last until the 1st] 

[And now back to the unwarranted guilt trip:] I thought you were done with all the present buying and rent.You even had a b-day!! [So there's really no excuse for not feeding my addiction. What are you selfish? Use your b-day money!] Which I think you needed to let loose a little anyways. [You really earned it, putting up with my begging and whatnot] I love you babe. I'll call you after count were supposed to have a blizzard today F U N!!!!!” [Bringing it all together with a little sarcastic humor? NICE!]

KOR 12/5 "Really Jenn? Don't think you can shame me for [well, anything but specifically] expecting a little money every once in a while” [you should know by now that shame is not a factor!] "Its not hard to skip going out to eat or buying that extra shirt, [extra shirt?Clearly he could only think of one good example to save money.] to throw me a little extra dough. [yeah, just go hungry and topless] I didn't bring Josh or Dan into this. [This whole exchange is about his friends and sugar mamma shaming Jenn for not sending home enough money] They did that on their own. They told me the conversation they had with you. I just agreed. I also didn't tell Carol to do that. She did that after her and Josh had a conversation about what had happened. Another thing is Jenn, don't kid yourself, I blew through a 35,000 dollar [insurance] check taking care of us, making sure we had a good time and 2 to 3 thousand every month up until i did that year in county (jail) [Yeah, I was a great provider until I got arrested! And by provider I mean cashing an insurance check]. So don't cry to me about a couple hundo [that's right, he's too cool to say hundred] and your fucking Ford Contour. I think your being rude, and you tried your damnest to fuck frank. [OK this is where it goes off the rails. He couldn't wait to mention the whole frank thing so he just shoehorned it in the conversation] I heard. [I'm confused, was she successful in her 'dam nest' attempt to fuck ole Frank?] That's funny [is it?], not that I care [well, I'm convinced. Nothing screams 'I care and it hurts so much' like saying I 'don't care'], cause I do have a good girl (a ride or die bitch I wish I always had) who does take care of me and keeps money on the phone and keeps me in touch with everyone [but only when I beg and grovel]. I'm in prison still pulling bitches [WOW!!! first of all he's definitely not and more importantly that's the most pathetic attempt at intended jealousy]. my point really isn't to brag, that's not what im trying to do. [It is] I'm just saying, its possible to still have a life and support someone in prison. even a little. you have just made NO effort at all and that piss people off and me. cause McDonald's checks weren't supporting our sort of lifestyle sweetie!!!!!! so I guess I wish you would change, but I doubt it. Anyways, happy to hear your grand ma is doing good. and next time you write, attach a stamp.” [OK, he's always good for a ridiculous ending but this one takes the cake. Let's examine: He spends 90% of this letter guilt tripping, berating, talking shit to, and begging for money. Then, literally in the 2nd to last sentence, he mentions her sick grandma's recovery? I have ask him how he carries around such big balls without a limp! And if you're still naive enough to think that he's done, you clearly don't know the ‘king’.]

[Our royal highness still has enough balls, and not enough shame, to ask this poor girl to attach a return stamp so she can continue this charming and fulfilling correspondence with her incarcerated ex-boyfriend. And now its clear how he became the king of Richmond: By sheer clumsy manipulation, a ruthless disregard for self respect, the freedom of movement that a spineless body provides and a fortitude willing to stoop to any low to accomplish his goal to get inebriated. The same way presidents get elected in this country. At any cost he would take the crown and he did. Without ever being to Richmond, I can say this with confidence: Anyone who would make him king and pay tribute to his court, truly deserves his rule. What a spectacular asshole the king is and I count him as a flawed degenerate of the worst degree. But I also count him as a friend…]

[jungkooks-sweet-potatoes]

Music asks, personalized list

1. A Song you’re ashamed of liking I’m not exactly ashamed but I like High School Musical songs lmao 2. Favourite lyrics N.O. by BTS 3. Favourite band/artist BTS  4. Top 5 Favourite songs at this moment 1. Mic Drop BTS 2. HangSang J-hope 3. Bling Bling Ikon 4. A friend like me Genie (Aladdin) 5. Friends Anne-Marie and Marshmallo 5. Latest song that made you smile Daydream by Hoseok 6. An overrated band People works really hard to get what they have so I don’t think I can judge that sorry :( 7. An overrated song Uhm… in this case I’d say Twice TT they are not really my style but they have better songs (like Ooh Aah) (yet again its just my opinion no offense) 8. Latest song that made you cry lol idk I don’t really cry with songs, movies and such. But Before our spring by Jonghyun truly stayed me 9. Artist/band that saved your life BANG TAN FUCKING SONYEONDAN 10. If you could see any band/artist live, who would it be BTS 11. What song/album/band/artist always brings back memories for you Disney songs in general 12. saddest song you know omg there are so many - Untitled by G-Dragon, Selene 6.23 by SHINee, Born Singer by BTS, Divine by SNSD. SO FUCKING MANY :’D 13. Favourite song to sing in the shower OMG this may sound rlly wired but I don’t really sing in the shower 😂 But when I do I sing Under the sea (the little mermaid) 14. If you played an instrument in grade school, what was it I played several, piano, violin, flute and others that I can’t remember lmao 15. What song would you like to have your first dance to at your wedding bitch please, Pink Panters sundtrack lmao 16. 5 Songs to have sex to OKAY SHIT umm anything hiphopish with flow and stuff its good to me lmao 17. One band you’d have get back together/bring back from the dead probably Sister and 2ne1 18. You’re forced to listen to only one album for the rest of your life, what album is it Wings YNWA by BTS or Love Yourself: Her by BTS 19. A song that gets you through shit  sorry but I don’t  20. A song to shut everything out the cyphers 21. A song that’s a joke between you and your friends Avecrem commercial its from Spain, the lyrics say ‘Avecrem~ shoot shoop’ and since we’re assholes we changed it to ‘Avecrem~ Shook Shook’ 22. A song to jam out to at 4am BANG BANG BANG 23. A song that punches you in the gut every single time Born Singer by BTS 24. A song that calms you down Taeyeons Rain (actually any of her songs or IUs) 25. A song that makes you feel alive Fire by BTS 26. If you could get any lyrics tattooed, which would you choose omg ‘It has to be now or never’ like a motto I rather regret doing it than not doing it  27. What band/artist would you get your children addicted to at an early age B T S 28. Can you play any instruments, if so, which Rn Piano… not too well tho 29. If you could be a member of any band for one show, who would it be … BTS 30. CDs or Vinyls lmao…??? CDs??? 31. 5 songs to play at your funeral BANG BANG BANG, Fire (bts), I am the best (2ne1), Hang Sang (Hobi), Crown (Camila Cabello) 32. What are some song titles that you love  33. If your life ended today, what song would you choose to represent it mm... I don’t think a song can represent your whole life but Mic Drop is pretty much with what I feel represented ??? idk 35. A heart wrenching song Born Singer by BTS 36. A band/artist you’re proud of BTS 37. A song that has a lot of meaning to you N.O. by BTS 38. A song that reminds you of school Silver Spoon by BTS 39. A song not sung in your native language LMAO HELLO?  40. An instrumental song RM life instrumental 41. A classical song Canon by Pachelbel 42. A song with no percussion Sad but True by  Metallica 43. Something you’ve heard performed live Uh... what? 44. Something you’d give ANYTHING to hear performed live B T S 45. A song from a band/artist that’s from your town/city/state/province Lmao its a Catalan band called ‘Els Catarres’ and they had a popular song called ‘Jenifer’ so yeah that. 46. A song made suddenly precious because of a special someone Time of my life from Dirty Dancing 47. A song made suddenly painful because of someone special None 48. A song that demands lip syncing and a makeshift microphone Lol Love on top by Beyonce 😂 49. A song from a band/artist you met/know I don’t know any irl 50. A song that you would rock at karaoke BTS Mic drop (Steve Aoki remix) or Colours of the wind by Pocahontas 51. A song you can’t help but dance to Any BTS song 52. A song that makes you want to dance on a table  Any BTS song 53. Your 10 song striper playlist lol nope too much work 54. Favourite Disney song I’ll make a man out of you Mulan 55. A song that starts with the first letter of your name Crown by Camila Cabello 56. A song from an artist still alive WTF are these questions? Gashina by Sunmi 57. A song from an artist who’s dead Thriller by Michael Jackson 58. A song you love by an artist/band you hate  I don’t hate any artists, if they are not of my liking I simply don’t listen to them so... 59. A song you love with a colour in the title Yellow submarine ?? 60. A song you love with a number in the title Whalien 52 by bts 61. A song that reminds you of someone you would rather forget about ??? none  62. A song that needs to be played LOUD BTS MIC DROP AND BIG BANGS BANG BANG BANG 63. A song that makes you think about life Demi Lovatos Skyscraper 65. A song that you think everyone should listen to I mean the classics should be known lmao Rolling Stones, Beatles, U2, Bon Jovi, Michael Jackson, Madonna ... 66. A song that makes you want to fall in love At Last by Etta James 67. A song that makes you think about ‘him/her’ I dont have a Him/her so none 68. A song that you remember from your childhood Any Disney song tbh 69. A song that reminds you of you idk 😂😂😂  70. Okay what’s the real answer to number 1 bitch whaaat???

Im so sorry for this but I tag @yoongsyeol and @hiiraxth :)) btw a huge ass part of the answers are just BTS wtf?