#this site is incomprehensible if you miss even one post lol

[highlynerdy]

Once again, I'm away from Tumblr for less two days and something has happened (is happening??) and I have exactly zero idea what's going on. Goncharov? Y'all. What the hell lol?? It's a fake movie? I think?? That is trending #1 so I'm impressed. This webbed site is truly unlike anything else.

[calcium-chan]

DRAWMEGLE DUMP FROM LIKEFORVER AGO

drawmegle was this weird little website that was like omegle, except for drawing and nominally fewer nazis?? tho at launch that was a bit of an issue lol (idk the creator went on vacation right after advertising or something? oops). i got sucked into it for like a day or two and ended up drawing a bunch of stuff. ive lost some of it because there was this weird glitch that just deleted my drawings before i could save them or anything. OH WELL. thats also the reason some of these are slightly unfinished. im also going to be cropping most of these to just my side, exceptions where its funny, or the other persons art was nice or whatever. just know that these almost all had people on the other side who were also drawing their own thing. also of note, i wont be posting these in order of creation, its mostly arbitrary tbh

this first one is of haru from dorohedodo. i had just finished reading the manga about a month or so prior, and i really loved this character a lot. disregard the amogus or whatever. dorohedoro is really cool and its really special to me now. not a fan of the anime adaption but what the fuck else is new (im sorry if you like the anime, i just didnt like the style very much). Q hayashida is brilliant, and she clearly just really loves women like a lot, thank you miss Q!

next is this silly drawing of knives chau. scott pilgrim takes off had just aired, and i was slightly enamored with knives for a bit, i kin the scott pilgrim girl fucking sue me. i also drew kim, but the drawing deleted and this was the last save i had WAHOOOOOO its so fucking over. scott pilgrim takes off was obviously really really good in my opinion, and its like the perfect way to adapt an original work in my mind. uh shout outs knives or whatever.

oops shitty cowboy bebop drawing. i like this one well enough for how goofy it is. jets fucking face still kinda gets me. i love bebop a ton, but i dont think ive ever drawn the characters despite that. theyre actually a ton of fun to draw, like their shapes are all super varied and they have distinct style about them. very good cast of characters. i didnt even realize or mean to, but i kinda gave spike a fucking granny face, oops

uuuuhthese pissing dogs are really funny, they were fun to draw, and seeing peoples reactions to this one in particular was cool. having even a little bit of ability to draw on sites like this where randos are looking at your work as youre drawing it is always kind of an ego boost. like none of these drawings are really that great, but for the medium im happy with them, and having people show up and go "woah" was always really flattering and it was fun watching the other people draw and interacting with them in some limited capacity.

ggggundam bullshit. i left the other persons side this time because i thought it was kinda funny. i had been rewatching the early part of turn A gundam, and it really reminded me how fucking cool that series is? loran is like top 10 gender non conforming mech pilots (there are a surprising amount honestly). and it always kinda takes me off guard when i watch any gundam because they were just so forward thinking in a nominally "boy" coded genre. shoutouts the fucking gundam staff frfr.

@oretal joined me for these next two!

a lot of the shit in the second drawing is probably totally incomprehensible to like anyone outside of a select group. were both have that like, 3ds era nintendo brain parasite, so a lot of these are just weird obscure game characters or memes, or just straight up OCs. most of these are actually oretals little characters which have kind of entered that inside joke canon of being so ubiquitous between the two of us (and honestly i assume oretals friend group at large) that i kinda forget "glasses girl" isnt a well known character. many such cases. thank you oretal for drawing silly shit with me! i really like your drawing of james and your madotsuki yapping about blunt rotations to uboa. very cool

uuuh quick fire round of stuff i dont like how i drew but want to post anyways. the first one is my irl husband, aki from chainsaw man. i love him a lot, kinda hate this drawing tho, i think it was the first one i did? the second one is basil from omori, im a big fan of little blorbos who peep the horror, and basil is no exception. my friend got me the little vinyl figure of him for my birthday so i end up thinking about him a lot and i doodle him every now and then. very good design. the last one is kiruko from heavenly delusion. i did not have much hype going into the show after my middling feelings on summertime rendering (they were both in the news for being on disney+ for absolutely no reason). i dont remember what got me to watch it, but by the time episode 2 ended i was stuck in big time. i ended up binging the whole series in like one night and it was such a good time. the prototypical calcium show is probably somewhere between heavenly delusion and made in abyss. its a rough watch at times, but if you have this specific brainrot, its probably one of the best in its league tbh.

second to last is this drawing of vriska homestuck. i kept the other side because it was really pretty. im genuinely quite pleased witht his drawing, its not perfect but for what it is i find it visually appealing enough to like it. vriskas design is probably the best in homestuck, at least to me. its been a long time since ive read through homestuck proper, but something about these little shits sticks with you pretty much forever. actual fucking deadly brain parasites you get from dunking your head underwater in an infested pool, dead within days.

OOPS ALL KUMI CHAN! it had to be alien nine, it could only be alien nine. i love alien nine more than i love any of my blood relatives. kumi is literally me, i love this stupid fucking series so much you have no idea.

[comingdownwithme]

Hello!! You, your (amazing) artwork and your headcannons have single-handedly gotten me back into the Creepypasta fandom, I cannot describe the reaction I had to seeing your artwork but everything you draw just feels so good to look at? I’m not explaining this very well, but your art style is so pleasing to my eyes, there’s just something about the shading, the lines and the way you capture emotions/expressions it’s just; chef’s kiss (I had a question I promise lol)

What made you draw Toby and Jeff as a ship/what are some past/future headcannons that you have for them? Or just in general if you want to use this as an excuse to ramble about them go for it, anything you say about them I will listen!

Secondly, what is your general headcannon for the rest of the Creepypasta’s? Also it might be because I’ve been out of the loop for a few years but I didn’t really realise there were ex-proxies now, if it’s something you’ve come up with for your story that is insanely cool to read about (anything involving the like, political(?) state of the proxies is fascinating to me).

This has gone on longer than I thought it would, many apologies! I hope you’re having a good day!

I'm?? So honored that my art and headcanons have influenced you?? Skjdjd IM SO GLAD YOU LIKE MY ART AND MY CONTENT, REALLY MEANS A LOT TO ME AND ADDS A FEW MORE YEARS TO MY LIFE SPAN LMAO

As for what got me to drawing Ticcijeff, honestly? It started out as simply drawing the two characters I liked when I was a kid back at the archaic era of 2015 Youtube interacting, then it kinda... it snowballed from there– 😭

They both make me happy individually, so I figured bringing them both together would give me twice the serotonin (which did tbh) alongside the parallels of them both being reborn through fire, and my growing interest in these two were only enabled further by the few good Ticcijeff fanfics on AO3 lmao

As for headcanons? I'm just gonna,,, link some posts abt my dynamics for them and their lore and background so far because if I wrote all my thoughts abt them here we'd be here all day. (though there's absolutely more to come)

About their Childhood friendship

Another post about their childhood friendship! (Featuring the two's dynamic, Jeff's intrusive thoughts, and some additional background info on Jeff)

About Jeff and Toby meeting years later

What happened following the previous post

As for general headcanons for the creepypastas? Their world is a little bit more fucked than our own. Strict rules are set by authorities, there's a tight curfew in place for the safety of people, and death and missing persons cases have become common enough in recent times that it's become a morbid part of normal life.

Unbeknownst to the lay person though, the killers and criminals roaming the night aren't the worst one could encounter. There are incomprehensible- even malevolent horrors that defy the rules of the universe, that cross the boundaries of logic and reason, and even the dead won't stay dead for long in this world. In a twisted universe plagued by death and unknown creatures, even the scum of humanity have to carve a place out for themselves and survive.

Soooo uh, yeah, that's a gist of it lmao, but I'm gonna dump some specific headcanons too for the creeps, especially for each characters like I did here for the girls and here for Jack and Ben eventually!

Also, as someone who's been out of the loop for years (I just joined the fandom officially this year, the only social media site I had back in 2015 was YouTube 😭) I HAD??? NO IDEA EX PROXIES WERE A THING WHICH IS HELLA INTERESTING

I'm definitely gonna write down and flesh out the proxies and their relationship with the Slenderman, but thaaatssss for another time 👉👉

[broke-on-books]

✒️ please!!

Send me a ✒️ and I'll pick a poem I think you'd like

After flipping through my notebooks I decided to go with my first instinct for you, which was "A Toast to the Alchemists" by Laura Gilpin. This poem hasn't been published online officially, so they're aren't a ton of sites that have it that I could find with a quick Google search. However I've attatched photos of a reddit post with it along with my version in my journal.

I picked this poem because of its themes of time and the passage of time, as well as magic and giving emotional significance to the most mundane and clinical of things (atoms and elements). In other words, taking magic from the world around us, especially through a lens usually seen as lacking wonder or whimsy. Also vibes, I mainly did it based on vibes.

Some other poems I considered in my search/additional recommendations are listed under the cut:

If you liked the writing of this poem, and haven't read it already (or have) I definitely recommend "The Two-Headed Calf" by Laura Gilpin. It's by the same author and is her most famous poem and is fairly well known and also soooooo good. So good.

Poems with similar themes:

Poems with similar themes to "A Toast to the Alchemists" are

"Dusting" by Marilyn Nelson 💘 (literally cried to this. To be fair it was 10 minutes after I finished the HDM finale so it was mainly because of that but still. Great poem.)

"The Sciences Sing a Lullabye" by Albert Goldbarth

"Ozymandias" by Percy Bysshe Shelley (90% sure you've read this one its the time theme but inverted and it's great if you haven't)

Rejected picks/Poems that gave me Anu vibes (many for no particular reason):

Poems by Ted Kooser for some reason??? NO idea why they're very different from the ones above but some of my faves are "Selecting a Reader", "In a Country Cemetery in Iowa", "The Constellation Orion" and "Flying by Night" (I'm v much questioning this pick now but I'll keep it up here just in case)

Honestly a bunch of random unrelated stuff was popping out at me ("Listen" by Miller Williams, "Cartoon Physics, Part 1" by Nick Flynn, "Snow" by David Berman) and like a million billion more which I all got from the same anthology (Poetry 180, edited by Billy Collins) so if you want to read a bunch more poetry, based on vibes alone, I'd say look for the book, the website, or the sequel. The poems from that book aren't too similar to the one above but it's really one of two books I generally recommend people right off the bat (it was my lit teachers favorite lol) because it's meant to get young adults and teens into poetry and introduce contemporary poetry in general. Idk how much poetry you've read whatever but even if you aren't new to it it's still a good compilation of late 90s/early 00s poetry that makes you think but isn't super long/totally incomprehensible

Anyways that got WAY longer than I anticipated or anyone probably wanted but poetry is an obsession of mine and recommending poetry is much more complicated and harder that it looks, even for the people you know best in the whole world AFTER interviewing their opinions on poetry, not to mention how difficult it would be for internet friends on tumblr. But anyways there's a couple poems, I got the vibes as close as I could with the poems I had on file. (Although i do feel like I'm missing something big 🤔) Anyways thanks for the ask Anu! Hope you thought my pick was alright!

[kingofthewilderwest]

Okay I almost reblogged something onto another’s post before trying to chill. And decided instead to write my own post.

I feel like there’s these internal expectations on tumblr of how bloggers think, especially in regards to how they interact with creative material. To take two examples, there’s expectations that people listen to music while imagining stories in their heads, like an in-brain AMV or soundtrack. And there’s expectations people will reside deeply in the fanfiction world, especially if the fanfiction world is a means of making the fiction “better.”

But I really dislike this presumptive mentality. Especially when it gets into phraseology like, “Can you BELIEVE other people don’t DO this???” As if those people live boring, lame, uninspired but bizarrely and incomprehensibly milquetoast lives.

It assumes that we all think the same on this site. And it assumes that people on tumblr are one thing, and the people apart of tumblr “Those Weird Others.” But I usually fall into the group that people are gawking about in their posts. Why must I be treated as someone boring? As some anomalous Other? As if we’re not RIGHT HERE reading it, instead of some far distant land. We’re all are RIGHT HERE too and are a genuine, valid, not at all boring part of this website’s culture. And we’re prevalent!

That’s right. I don’t listen to music and imagine anything going along at the same time. What of it? You think that makes me a weird boring normal person? You think that makes me uncreative? I’ve composed music like it’s part of my DNA (that’s one of my college degrees yo), I’ve written original stories since I was a toddler, I play several dozen instruments, I’ve done cosplay, I draw with a variety of media, I’ve done video editing, I’ve done gif making, I’ve done Photoshopping, I’m a worldbuilder, I’m an intensive conlanger. And I don’t listen to music and imagine an AMV. You know what? It’s exactly BECAUSE I am a creative. To imagine anything more than the notes would be to take away from the enriching audio experience itself.

The music is SUFFICIENT. Not just that. The audio stimulus is overwhelmingly, enjoyably intricate. The audio stimulus is enough to overflow my entire mind. I love the interplay of foreground and background and midground, the uniqueness of the instruments blending, the timbre of voices and instruments combining, the affect of chords changing. To my perspective, I could easily say YOU ALL are “missing out” because you need something else to make music sufficient... you’re making music the background to something else... you’re living in a world where music must be part of other stimulus in order for it to be meaningful instead of comprehending of it as a singular, spectacular EVENT... but I’m not going to go out and be like, “Oh, those weird people. Are there actually people who listen to music and imagine stories in their head at the same time? Lol, they’re so deprived. So weird wtf.” No! NO NO NO NO. Because I’m not going to “other” you, I’m not going to act like you aren’t part of this culture, and I’m not going to sit on this website expecting everyone has the same experience with art that I do.

You’re not!!! uncreative!!! for how you participate with art! You do you! And I am not!!! a tumblr anomaly! I’m not some some fucking “Weird Boring Normal Uncreative Lame Person Who Doesn’t Use Tumblr”!

I don’t like fanfiction. I don’t. I actually don’t. I celebrate people who write fanfiction, read fanfiction, dream of fanfiction. You guys are AWESOME. Because it’s your way of participating in a community and interacting with stories that inspire you. I’ll always scream in support of your very important contributions! But just because I don’t get into fanfiction doesn’t mean I am not interacting meaningfully and creatively with media. There’s people who will write meta or archive material or collect merch or draw fanart or have great discussions or make costumes or just vibe in fandom culture, whether peripherally or deeply. And that’s!!! NORMAL. HERE. On tumblr! It’s not bizarre to this internet space!

Not everyone uses fanfiction as a means of “I reject stupid canon and substitute it with my own”.

Not everyone finds fanfiction an entertaining way to engage in fandom culture.

Not everyone listens to music as a means of relating to fandom.

And fuck, even if I had identified as some weird boring normal person, that’s an acceptable way to live too, ain’t it?

I know this is such, such, such a small and unimportant issue. I’m picking on something that’s no big deal. But I guess I’ll get a pet peeve out this once???

Please, quit assuming everyone on this goddamned site has the exact same psychology you do and that people who don’t have your psychology are fucking Others.

This also goes for expecting everyone is a neurodivergent here and that neurotypicals are part of the Distant Others. I am not neurotypical myself, but I am tired of everyone thinking everyone’s got the same experience and background and mindset on this site. Quit assuming????

We’re all here, we’re all part of a community, we all make the community colorful, we all have cool brains, and it’s more fun to enjoy the diversity of fandom experiences than it is to assume everyone’s likeminded.