#this shit is gonna get 80k

[dragon-subway]

so I like looking through housing listings for entertainment and honestly something I've noticed is that if you can get that initial 10% the mortgage for a decently sized place can be cheaper than rent for much shittier places

[look-at-the-stars-tonight]

I ran this morning AND wrote some AND made art and I’m so proud of me

[secret-third-thing]

17! tell me everything 👀

God fears me for my process is fucking biblical.

Also link to post if people want to play <3

Please note this is for fanfic. My original fiction process has EVEN MORE STEPS AHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA.

Step 1: Be absolutely overwhelmed with an idea. I know an idea is worth writing when it pesters me enough that it intrudes when I'm doing other things or writing other stories. If it doesn't, I send it to the plot bunny graveyard. Get fucked.

Step 2: Let it cook. That's right. Every idea has to cook a little bit. It decides when it's time for plotting. Sometimes it's an immediate plotting situation, sometimes it cooks for a year or two.

Step 3: Write down some key points. What do I wanna have happen? This is to help me figure out scope. I am much better at looking at an idea and sussing out how long it's gonna be. I categorize it into one of the following categories

Baby (under 3k)

Big Baby (3-5k)

Solid Oneshot (5-10k)

We're pretending this is a one shot (10-17k)

Normal Mult-chap (17k-50k)

Danger zone (50-80k)

Chonky Monster (80k+)

Absolute Unit (150k+)*

Someone help me I've fallen (200+)*

*my pet peeve is fics that go on forever when they should have just ended. YOU NEED TO PLOT BETTER. jk it's fanfic do whatever you want.

This step is done partially for fun and partially because it helps me figure out how many beats and scenes I need.

Step 4: I decide on a target word count (I'm good at guessing. I'm usually within 15% of my est wc when I finish) and then I fill out my math sheet that I made while I was bored and unemployed last year. It basically estimates how many scenes I need assuming scenes average at 1200-1500. And then it divides those scenes into acts and then it tells me how many scenes per point in the save the cat outline. 😂 If people want it they have to slide into my dms and ask me nicely + compliment eris and/or beron. Ideally both.

Step 5: Time to fill out the main beats of the outline! Yay! This takes X days, which is to say it takes the time it needs.

Step 5b: If I have multi povs, I do this process for every pov

Step 5c: Then I weave the povs together - which beats can be shared? etc

Step 6: Write out every scene I plan on writing 🫡 I know exactly what's happening and the intended outcome. Yay!

Step 7: Work on something else. This story needs to cook a bit.

Step 8: Come back and see how I feel about the story. Then I do this scene analysis thing where I ensure that my scenes are covering different elements of craft so we are as efficient as possible. If a scene does not accomplish a goal, I yeet it. This is KEY. I'm not gonna type it all out here partially because it's long/complicated and partially cause the mentor who taught me it, asked me to keep it vague since she's worked hard to cultivate her mentorship guidance and process.

Step 9: I make scene tweaks. If my outline has gaps, I cry about it and then radically accept it'll come to me later.

Step 9b: Sometimes I shop the outline around and make revisions based on feedback.

Step 10: Draft. But only when I want to. I don't brute force shit anymore. (I've been writing the full fic first before posting this time around) But yes. Write the full damn first draft. This takes however long it takes.

Step 11: Set it aside and do anything else, ideally not writing related. Watch movies, play games, go to an art museum.

Step 12: Revision time!!! YAY! Read through the entire fic. Write down allllll my horrible little thoughts about it. teehee.

Step 13: Re-outline. Really see what the story actually is. Decide if I need to rewrite anything.

Step 13b: do any necessary rewrites. cry about it1!!

Step 14: Revise POV/ Voice

Step 15: Revise Character

Step 16: Revise Plot again if needed

Step 17: Scene level edits (world building, descriptions, dialogue, details whatever)

Step 18: Now it's time for beta!!! Please cry clap. Depending on the posting situation (event week vs whenever) I may just do one chapter instead of the full fic.

Step 19: NOW do the edits! Again!

Step 19b: Send to betas again for feedback. Edit again. Repeat indefinitely.

Step 20: Grammar pass!!!

Step 21: Beta pass 2 (usually just a sign off that im not insane)

Step 22: Dark Night of the Soul. I grieve. I wonder if this is any good. And then by the end of brooding, I'm feeling a little evil.

Step 23: Post and give very little shits about kudos etc because they mean nothing and I know I'm fucking awesome. (you are too btw.)

Step 24: Kill God.*

Step 25: Become God.*

*Sorry these last two steps are for me only.

Hope this helps!

[mythmerth]

from my November readings, I’ve collected a few more merlin fic recs for the people…

For favorite long (80k+) fic, I would have to choose Gladiator by Clea2011. It’s 115k and has some really intense moments followed with a wonderful growing love story woven in to it. arthur as a gladiator goes kind of hard even if he’s fighting for his life. also the dragons are very present in this and I do love my dragon content!

For favorite mid length (…40k-80k) fic, id have to choose Public Image by an orphaned account. As someone who has had a Great Deal of text/online friendships and relationships, I absolutely adored the type of text based development these two had. they’re just both obsessed with each other but trying and failing to hide it, LOVE that shit

For favorite short fic (<40k), you may have noticed that for this month I have changed the bar of short fic to less than 40k instead of 30k and it’s because I REALLY enjoyed this 39k apocalypse fic and wanted to put it here :’D Land of Ghouls by rotrude was so intense and had me clutching my chest but was exactly what I was looking for with zombie apocalypse merthur; not something I’ll fully sob about, but keeps me on my toes.

Here’s a few more rapid fire fics from this month! I read more long ones than usual tehe

Sunny in Camelot by foxy_mulder is a really silly quick read, just ridiculous and plays heavy on the “what the hell does Merlin do” gag! I don’t typically read super short fics but I love these type

Somewhere between the Sand and the Stardust by Cithara was a great canon era long read; merthur PARENTS 💞

I FINISHED LOADED MARCH! Do or Die and At the End We Begin Again by Footloose had me absolutely floored. I apologize because you can’t read these as standalone fics and yes there’s a million words that come before them, but if you like wartime modern magic merthur where Arthur’s a military mastermind and Merlin is a tech genius (and yes I mean those 100% seriously they are so badass), read loaded march. It’s got the most scream worthy merthur devotion I’ve ever read and that’s saying something. Do or Die was masterful and so action packed. We begin again was a perfect and beautiful ending that made me tear up. you won’t regret getting into this series!! and I may make a full post about my thoughts on each installation at a later date, it’s really that good.

With my loaded march plug out of the way, my favorite reread this month… would have to be ever popular The Crown of the Summer Court by astolat! It’s not long and such a fun read, I love imagining Merlin getting Arthur all ready for another kingdom to come only for them to be solely invested in Merlin, like what an excellent concept. lighthearted and so fun, if you haven’t checked it out I definitely recommend it!

It’s December… end of the year… and while everyone’s getting into their Spotify wrapped, I’m gonna be doing my 💫 2024 Merlin fic reading wrapped 💫 which is exactly as unhinged as it sounds. If you’ve ever wondered what my gay donut profile photo is here, stay tuned for it cause yes it is Merlin related in a very diabolical way. I’m excited to get into this insanity and I hope it’ll be as silly for you as it is for me.

I’ll be back in 2025 for my December recs and you can find my 2024 fic stats here 🫡

and if you’re still looking for more recs then check out my other posts ~

<< last month next month >>

[youcalledmebabe]

fic writer wrapped: how much did you write? what were your favorites?

I wrote 175k of rpf this year. probably more because of stuff that’s still being written. crazy! but. here are my three favorite fics I wrote this year!

♾️ the future’s been canceled by the war department!

joe liebgott can’t stop living the day after the mountain.

my baby my magnum opus. fulfilled my long held dream of writing a time loop. like every Webgott writer I’ve asked myself how they get through the mountain. and my answer is reality warping around them to force them to get through it. probably the best webgott i will ever write (and I’m okay with that!)

🩺 bursting into life (aka babe’s anatomy)

Surgical intern Babe Heffron tries to get through his first year of residency while juggling new friendships, grief, and an ever-growing adoration of trauma resident Eugene Roe.

to think, this was once a joke. the joke was on me. this universe is now 80k (and counting!). finding ways to pull in canon and replicate dynamics in a modern(ish) setting while getting to add some classic soapy emotional rollercoaster situations was HARD but also fun and rewarding. ily dr. heffron

🌅did you sail across the sun?

Getting lost at sea. Classic Web, always one to be dramatic. Joe’s gonna see him when he gets back and give him a lot of shit for this.

this is what happens when you listen to drops of jupiter and think about david webster. in all seriousness I challenged myself to write about web’s canon fate and how joe might cope with that. I’m very drawn to grief narratives (we don’t have time to unpack all of that) and this was my take on it. I have a weird relationship with this fic—sometimes I think it was very odd to write it at all. but it was moving to write and I remain very proud of it

tagging @blood-mocha-latte @randlemartin @ww2yaoi @evidenceof @bitch-butter if you guys wanna 🫶

[gotskamstuff]

I'm gonna be honest here, words cannot describe how much I hate that Rudison thread on Twitter and how resentful I am to that person for creating it.

The whole thing is narrating fans speculations and rumors as ultimate facts on what happened to Rudy and Madison behind the scenes when in reality NO ONE knows what happened between them for certain and what angers me the most is knowing that these are exactly the type of things that make both of them (especially Rudy) even more distant and cold and detached from the show.

I might be dramatic but this shit could've singlehandedly made things catastrophic for the show, there's no way it hasn't reached them or anyone from the cast/Netflix... like, 18 MILLION views and 80k likes is insane and I know for stuff like this Rudy would lose his mind.

I honestly can't stand when the "fans" act like this towards Rudison, they're always crying about how much they miss them and how they wish they could go back to what they were and then they purposely go on social media doing and saying things that they know damn well Rudy and Madison can't stand at all, it's almost as if they do it on purpose…and then act all surprised when the two of them get uncomfortable on camera.

What good is this gonna do to them and to the show? It's only gonna make things 10 times worse and much more hostile, the only thing this helps with is creating an even bigger fracture and a more uncomfortable environment for them and the rest of the cast/crew.

If Rudy wasn't leaving the show already maybe he will now, 'cause a shit like that going viral to 18 million people AND COUNTING, I know is gonna make him (and Madison) mad.

I'mma be honest, I truly hope they sue for that thread (especially since the account is now monetizing from it with the blue check) 'cause it ain't normal how easily people think they can say and do whatever they want behind a screen about people's personal lives without any repercussions (‘cause news flesh Rudy, Madison and their partners are people whose mental health also matters).

Spreading fan speculations and rumors as real facts and creating such a malicious image for the both of them to MILLIONS is insane.

We always say "omg they're so immature" but to be honest Rudy and Madison have been far too patient for far too long, people constantly say the most deranged things to them and their partners (including friends and families at times) without any consequences...it's not normal.

On the long run shit like this inevitably has consequences on their mental health and their relationships and there’s gonna be a point when they’re gonna be TOO fed up and can’t deal with it anymore, don’t act surprised then if they leave the show, y’all did this and seem pretty happy while doing it.

That thread created such an unpleasant atmosphere right before the release of the new season and attracted so many negative reactions towards them that I honestly don't understand how anyone who calls themselves fans of the show, of Rudy or Madison can be giddy about it.

Play stupid games and win stupid prizes... don't act surprised if Rudy leaves OBX or if they don't look at each other in the face during promo when some "fans" do THE MOST to add fuel to the fire.

It’s less than 2 months since the release of a season that we've waited for almost 2 years and the fandom should be filled with excitement and positivity talking about the story and theorizing about it, yet everyone is doing the most to ruin it focusing on the wrong stuff (which are sadly hard to ignore when the consequences effect the show hence all the fans).

I hope by the time the season comes out y'all will have calmed your tits with the malicious gossips, bunch of Regina George wanna be.

[mincyberr]

welcm to cy's hot takes, where my takes might fire back at me 😭

sorry in advance! 😭

this hot take is about each book of the series doing movie next hot take

Hello my children, sorry for being inactive for... Two months. Happy holidays, happy new years people! Anyways enjoy this heavy ass hot take that took me a few weeks to get out due to being busy and stuff!! YAYAY

Maze Runner: This book I will re read them later in 2025 after Death Cure and Cranks Place. But what I remember in my doc of 80k+ words. The book is amazing. They did each character but Ben justice for the first book. Reason I say not Ben because I don't know much about him in the books but his a builder. For the characters, Thomas was amazing, Teresa sounds amazing at first until you read the other books, Minho and Newt were amazing as well and shown enough to be told they are gonna stay alive untill the end. And then... Gally and Alby are werid for this. Alby died so fucking stupidly. And Gally.. OH GOD. He's the perfect amount of annoying. But 'died' in a confusing way.

10/10 book, favorite quotes:

"Everything is gonna change." - Teresa

"You're the shuckiest shuck-faced shuck there ever was." - Minho

────୨ৎ────────୨ৎ────

Scotch Trials: the book is amazing, but a bit confusing at the end since I read too fast but I am gonna re read 36-65 since my notes have it all crumbs. But from what I have, it's good but the ending is werid with Thomas blanking out in a room in WCKD. Then there's the fact that Group B and A collab with the fact Thomas, Aris and Teresa are fighting like donkeys. And OH GOD, Teresa and Aris are a shit couple. FUCK THEM. Brenda and Thomas becoming one slowly like a slow burn is cute. I like it. Newt getting the flare did hit hard tho.

6.9/10 book, fav quotes:

"If I'm gonna die, I want to die with the rest of you." - Thomas

"If there's one thing I've learned in the Glade, it's that we can't predict anything. Not even ourselves." - Minho

This was 1/2 since I'm finishing Death Cure and getting into Cranks Place

Bye bye loves !!

cy/cyber - stan minho!!

[a-very-fond-farewell]

WIP tag game!!!

Lamb Loose 👁️👁️ (u know me very well)

(hehe I do know you dear 👀)

so, I will try to use my (nonexistent) pitching abilities to both: 1) introduce new people to what I’m currently working on; and 2) give you (yes you Fifi) some more intel to munch on while you wait for the next update. let’s see how it goes.

1) how it began:

it was a dark and stormy night when I finished the drama Evilive, in mid-November of last year, and I couldn’t sleep. for days I couldn’t stop thinking about the characters and I decided to put my Word of Honor big fic on hold to give this new fandom a chance. the plan was to finish everything around the 80k words mark but.. oh boi. I knew myself. I knew I wasn’t gonna cut it, verbose as I am, so I decided to be diligent about it: I took 1 month to plan this fic at the best of my abilities before I started typing like a maniac on my laptop.

at the end of the month I posted the first chapter and since then I woke up at 5am (almost) every single day to chip away at this project. long story short: it changed my life. not in a big way, it didn’t magically get me a super fancy job or a stable paycheck. none of that. but it made my life significantly better.

because you have to know that, before I decided waking up at 5am was a good idea, I was so used to be dreading the new day that it was messing with my brain. I didn’t want to go to sleep because “then another day would have started” without me enjoying myself even a little bit. but the difference between going to sleep at 3am (to wake at 7) and going to sleep at 11pm (to wake at 5) made me look forward to the new day time and time again. that way, if I manage to fall asleep on the right time every day, I get to start a new morning doing what I love most: writing.

this came at a cost, however, bc apparently waking super early is bad for my blood pressure (?? rude and biphobic of my body to do me so dirty, if you ask me >:/ like.. hello??) and I get (almost daily now) a sensible energy drop around lunchtime but it’s worth it in my book. this fic turned me into an optimist and I’ve always been a realist at best.

cons of this project: the fandom is tiny. so tiny infact that there are not many “work in progress” fics besides mine on ao3 ;—; I remember this being the case for Beyond Evil too, even if I was just a casual reader at the time, back when it first aired: we were starving for new content and I recall translating Korean fanfics into English just to have someto dig my teeth into xD

moreover, I tend not to read for the fandom I’m writing for, because I’m a sponge and (like my friend Amethystina said once) “I don’t want to accidentally steal someone else’s idea” just because I have shit memory (I’ll admit I caved at the beginning of 2024 bc I was in a bad place mentally and I read a couple of one-shots on Evilive, it’s ok, ik. I forgot the majority of them anyway, I just know they were lovely and their authors very smart indeed). so it’s a very lonely process! I churn up content, I don’t consume content, I wait for comments, I joyfully reply to comments and then, if I want more human interaction I have to (*checks*) come up with more content?? ahah. Ik it doesn’t work like that, and that I have to put effort in talking with other people in the fandom for it to become larger.. but this is why I do these tag games :D to engage with other lovely people in fun activities like these! good thing this fic keeps me going, bc I would be lost without it.

the general plot idea comes from a need I wanted to see fulfilled: I wanted to read a story about a group of women going apeshit crazy on the world. no repercussions, absolute power, no remorse. women from different levels of society, different ethnicities, different nationalities, different sexualities just.. being allowed to do whatever they wanted. I wanted to explore the pros and cons of such circumstances and yet I didn’t want it to be merely focused on that alone. I also wanted to point out how every person is capable of evil and that there still needs to be a moment in our life when we choose to be better instead.

one thing that made me side-eye Evilive specifically was.. well, the lack of women. there are 3 adult women in the whole drama taking some sort of role inside the story and all of them felt rich with the implication of a personality underneath, but no actual character to be seen. I love all 3 of them, from the “wife”, to the “mother”, to the “femme fatale” as they are, yet they still are flat compared to the other people in the show, even the more stereotypically evil or corrupt among them. I needed more, so more I made.

in addition to this, I really wanted to write from the point of view of a nasty, selfish man who has been corrupted by power long enough to have forgotten how to be human again. someone who believes they can fix it all by taking revenge on the person who turned them into a monster.. not realizing they had the potential to become a monster all along and never noticed.

Lamb Loose may be a “fix-it” of sorts based on the happenings (and the finale) of Evilive, but I also think it can be some sort of Atonement Arc rather than a Redemption Arc all in all: just because you become self-aware of the evil deeds you’ve put in motion and want to be better now.. doesn’t mean you can redeem yourself for the sorrow you caused. and, sometimes I also like characters who don’t change in their (evil/selfish) ways but somehow still learn to broaden their perspective after meeting new people. restoring one’s trust in humanity is hard, but maybe it can start by looking into our own selves and look for humanity within us first and foremost.

Han Dong Soo as a character seemed the best option for me, even if it is challenging to write from his POV at times. some of the things he thinks and does are truly horrendous to me personally, but it’s a necessary step towards understanding someone as bad as him in my opinion. not to justify his actions, but to learn how to recognize them in other people instead.

there’s also horny thoughts, not gonna lie, but those feel more like an extension of all that Han Dong Soo as a person has repressed along the years. so, in a way, the sexual tension is just another character in the script, unnamed and all-encompassing, but never at the center itself. since Han Dong Soo is also an unreliable narrator, I can play with him and make the reader question everything he is going through at the same time, which is fun to me :)

2) a treat for Fifi bc she was patient and read to this point eheh:

dear, ch16 may not be full of plot-relevant quests but there’s a lot of yearning involved 👀 and I know it’s tough to wait for something more juicy to happen 😥😔 but I’m finally seeing the end of the big draft (working on ch31 now, aiming to finish the whole thing at ch40 ending a ch37 was too optimistic of me apparently ahah) and I promise you it will be absolutely worth it.

sometimes I feel very dejected about this project, bc it’s taking forever and I absolutely want to finish it before the end of the year :(

but your constant support and care are one of the reasons I keep going 💪😤💘 your art is extraordinary in itself, but your enthusiasm for this fic truly has made me appreciate living in the moment and enjoy the process more and more. so thank you dear for always cheering me on and for indulging me with your lovely comments and messages :)

I’ll see you very soon :D (I’ll reply to your comments and DMs as soon as possible! but I wanted to give you a little something today)

- Niki out :*

[aguineapigcouldntdothis]

I think my biggest issue with getting a job is for an almost 20yo I have a decent amount of work experience however I keep getting into situations and all jobs I've had have had some shit happen at them so they are never viable references. my first job decided I was too small and young to do manual labor so they gave me an axe and and let me whack bushes and trees and did not care or notice when I stole 25lbs of fruit. ive heard they amped up security so in retribution I came back and stole more fruit. also paid illegal wages and didn't care when I got heat stroke twice. second job fired me for being disabled on the exact same day I was gonna quit and pretended that it was for actually good reasons but I knew they were bullshitting. 3rd job I was making fucking bank though it turns out the owners were 80k in debt because they took in their niece's babies after she got into a car crash and relapsed and refused to break up with her bf who was in prison and amongst all this they decided to buy a new house. then the guy selling it realized he wanted to keep the house and they didn't get all their money back and the business shut down a month after I left. those babies were so cute though

[androidboy]

looking into sonography and found this girls youtube channel acting like sonography is the hardest job in the world and i was like well shit it’s a medical job i wonder what all the downsides are and she’s literally just like “it’s so physically intensive.. my body would be sore from walking around the hospital and standing so much” like . K well i work retail and stand for the majority of 8 hrs and already walk a lot. so. and then she’s like “i made $80k a year but i was working TWO JOBS and almost EVERY DAY. the grind was real and so hard.. im gonna show you a calendar with my work schedule.” and it’s literally her getting 1-3 days off a week. her two jobs were having set times at one hospital for 3 days which where 8 hr 9-5 shifts and then 12 hour on call shifts for 2 days like girl i do not doubt that it’s a hard job but you have never worked a minimum wage job in your life

[bisluthq]

so Saoirse gets LV merch, and travel expenses paid and such (does the husband get his stuff for free lol), but how much do you think does she actually gets paid for being the ambassador, a couple hundred thousands?

I would guess in her specific case - where she doesn’t have social media and like doesn’t do much - low six figures per annum. Brand partnerships can go into the millions for people like the Karjenners where they post a lot and are seen wearing the crap a lot and all the way down to like just receiving a few free things here and there. Even someone like Joe posts and that allows for like measurable deliverables. In her case, she can’t/doesn’t want to do that. As you say, she does get free shit and they have to pay for her to go to these things but beyond that like they’re not gonna pay her outrageous numbers to basically do fuck all lol like that’s not how it works. They also tbh I think signed her expecting more awards season events and such lol but that would probably mean she’s getting paid more than she’s currently earning for them because… well she doesn’t leave her house all that much and she’s not on social media. But also she is an A list adjacent celeb and LV is a very high end brand so I don’t see them paying her less than six figures a year for it (or close to that like maybe 80K or whatnot would be fair) which ig for doing basically nothing is fairly outrageous actually.

[ihni]

Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love 💖

Ooooh, how fun! <3 Thank you! I've gone through my fics and I'm gonna do 5+1, because why not, right? Seems fic approporiate, in a way. So, here goes:

Over the edge, 16K. (Because it's a scenario I've wanted to write for YEARS and I finally did, and I had a blast writing it! Muahaha!) “You’re still on probation. But if you behave this weekend, we might –“ “‘Behave’?” Billy snorted. “I’m not a dog, Henderson. What do you want me to do? Sit? Roll around? Be a good boy?” His voice was dripping with sarcasm, making Steve snort beside him. Dustin drew himself up to his very unimpressive height in the back seat, puffing out his chest. “Well you can start by not killing anyone!” “Ki– Jesus Christ, kid, I’m not gonna kill anyone!” “Well you almost killed Steve before –“ Here, Billy glanced over guiltily at Steve, who shook his head slightly as if to say it wasn’t a big deal, “– and you have a history of violence. You can’t fault us for making sure!” “Whatever.” “You promise?” “I can’t believe I’m doing this. Yes, kid, I promise I won’t kill anyone.”

Birthday boy, 8K. (Because I've never had so many people telling me a fic made them cry ... don't worry though, there are happier follow-ups!) Neil gives Max a benevolent nod. “You can go.” Max shoots up from her chair, a big smile on her face. “Really? Thank you, I –“ “You can go to the party, but not the sleepover. I want you home at eleven, at the latest.” Trying not to grimace, Max nods. It’s better than nothing. “And of course, Billy will go with you.” “What?”

At least an assist, 8K. (Because it's an alternate first meeting between our boys, and it was fun to imagine an opposite to a meet-cute - also Billy's tied up for most of it, which is always a plus!) “Dude,” he said, more baffled than angry. “Did you just try to bite me?” “I’ll do worse than that if you untie me,” Hargrove growled, as if making threats from the position he was in was somehow normal. “Yeah, because that makes me want to untie you,” Steve snarked back without thinking. Then he sighed and dragged a hand through his hair. He didn’t sign up for this shit. “Listen, yes this sucks, but it’s only for a couple of hours. Why don’t you just chill?” “I’ve been fucking kidnapped, you fuck! I’m supposed to play the finals right now, not kick back and relax while being fucking tied to a chair!” or Steve's teammates kidnap the opposing team's star player to secure a win in the finals. The star player in question is not impressed.

Fast and Frightening, 20K. (This whole fic was born from a chat about possessed cars, and because both me and DearDMVZ quite agreed that Billy would look very fetching tied to the hood of his Camaro while it's racing through the roads outside of Hawkins at night.) There's some seriously fucked-up shit going on. Billy crashed his car, was attacked by some kind of monster, escaped, ran into someone who looked just like him, punched that guy in the face, escaped again, and ended up on a random road somewhere outside of town. And now his own car has turned against him. In short, Billy's not having a good time.

Sleeping Beauty Retold, 8K. (Because I went to town on a fairytale AU and I really fucking like it, still.) Once upon a time, there was an evil king. The king married a woman who had magic, and used her to stay young and strong. To attain true immortality, though, he would have to sacrifice their child on the child's eighteenth birthday. Only, the queen thwarted the king's plans - she stoles the child away in the middle of the night and sent him away, to be raised far from the castle, so that he would be safe. The king never stopped looking. And one day, the child - who had grown up into a young man - was found.

Again and again and again and again, 4K. (Bonus fic, because if I'd had time I would have written 80K of this, I love the concept a LOT. Basically the boys being stuck in a time loop together.) It is Sunday, November 4th 1984, and it’s been Sunday, November 4th 1984 like, fifty-two times now. Fifty-four? Over fifty, at least. Billy’s lost count, which is depressing in itself.

[memberment]

Genesis

Good morning everyone. It is 5 pm and I may have mildly recovered as I've absconded from the depths of last night's insanity.

Anyways updates will be here but I have felt icky for the past hour so I probably will not get shit done today.

It's 5:38. I have written all of two sentences and have spent most of my time awake trying to figure out something in regards to part two and I feel like executing that is going to be the ultimate test to my writing abilities LMFAO

9:46 I literally just spent THREE WHOLE HOURS on thisisnotawebsitedotcom.com

THREE. WHOLE. HOURS.

I have seen things. I have cracked codes. Now I feel absolutely insane. Back to writing I go!<3

1:07 I finished reading An Answer. Wow, that was fucking wild. Also just finished up 24. It's gonna be on the shorter end, but y'know what? I stand by it. Now I'm gripped with icy terror.

No one can even begin to understand how much seeing this on my screen serves to terrify me. I have officially breached writing the worst part. We are no longer in the worse part. We are in the worst part.

May god forgive me for my sins.

3:38 am: After getting distracted many times, I Want To Live is finished, and frankly, I want to die. I can't believe I just wrote that. That was fucking brutal, dudes.

AND NOW I GET TO WRITE FALL FROM GRACE LIKE I NEED SOMETHING TO COPE AFTER THIS.

Anyways, if anyone has some cute fluff recommendations so I don't slam my head into a wall, it would be kindly appreciated because THIS. HURTS.

4:24 am: AHHH IM AT 1734 AND I NEED TO MAKE THIS AT LEAST LIKE HIGH 2K HOW THE FUCK DO I DO THAT LIKE THIS CHAPTER IS SO STRAIGHT FORWARD BUT IT NEEDS TO BE ITS OWN THING!!!!

5:04: HOLY SHIT SO I AM SITTING HERE TRULY DELVING INTO THE DEPTHS OF MADNESS THAT CRAIG'S EXPERIENCING. HOW THE FUCK AM I ONLY AT EXACTLY 2250????? OH MY GOD. SHOOT ME. LIKE THIS CHAPTER IS SO DISTURBING I FEEL LIKE IF I GO ANY FURTHER IM GONNA HAVE TO START ADDING ACTUAL TWS.

5:33: This is purely hypothetical is anyone gonna notice if the most (arguably) fucked up chapter in this is, like, the shortest one? If so, will they be happy about this just because of how much of a smack in the face that is?

We're gonna go with yes actually, because I have done just about all I can do with this chapter. It's fucked. Creek is dead. I have finally hit the scene that spawned this entire fic. I am dead.

Also forgot to mention I broke 80k. I'm at 81.6k rn.

It is 7:21 am. I have reached the point where I don't even know where I am going with this at the moment. I think someone's gonna have an off page death. I was gonna fully write it but idk. Like, it'll get shown eventually. But I feel like at this point there are certain things I am trying to desensitize the reader to OVER TIME, but this is not that. Anways. I am at 83.4k and I am tapping out. Goodnight.

[tokkiasnanowrimo]

nalu fake dating multichap 2024 update

no, i have not abandoned this project. yippee yippee. i think i said somewhere that i wanted to start posting in april. well it is may and i've barely started working on it again lol. a lot of shit has happened since i did this as nanowrimo and i have not wanted to work on it. i hope you forgive me for that. alas i met my high school english teacher again last week, told her i did nanowrimo last year and she said "but did you edit it?" and now i've been shamed into finishing it

to try maintain consistency, i'm dedicating mondays to writing at least 500 words so i'm at least making progress every week. i 100% want to get it finished and begin posting it by the end of the year. the sooner the better

so how long is it gonna be? well currently it is 50k words but that is also super bare bones so i'm going to hazard a guess and say maybe 70k-80k words. my estimate right now is it's going to be 13-15 chapters with a prologue and epilogue, and i may also post a smutty oneshot spinoff afterwards just for shits and giggles

right now i have a finished prologue and i'm chipping away at the first chapter to hopefully have it done by the end of next week! i'll post weekly updates here to hopefully hold myself accountable and i will reach my goal of multichap by the end of 2024. yippee yippee!!

[highdefinitions]

Cider, amber, maize

cider - a food that you disliked as a child but now enjoy?

oh man. i’m the worst. i have such bad eating habits i have the palate of a 6 year old i’m sorry i have really bad texture issues i think i might have arfid but that’s a story for a different time uhhh the one thing i can think of right now is that i used to hate apple juice and then one day i got high as balls with my friend and she had apple juice in her car and we drank that shit and now i can’t stop drinking it. i know that’s not a food but like maybe the story is kind of funny

amber - share an unpopular opinion that you may have.

i’ll give you some ghost ones because they’re all i can think of. hate when people make rain out to be this shy guy. i know more people are starting to see the vision now but i’ve always stood by the fact that that motherfucker is a PRICK (lovingly) and i won’t tolerate any of that he’s so shy baby bullshit. in the same vein, i just hate when they’re infantilized. it happened a lot with the new guys when they joined too. phantom and aurora are not shy. he’s a cocky bastard and she’s a menace.

another unpopular opinion for shits and giggles? i think there should be more cannibalism as a metaphor for love in media, okay? put more guys covered in blood on my screen now!!

maize - share the weirdest encounter you’ve had with a stranger on the street.

this one might become a little long winded because it wasn’t so much that it was weird but more that it pissed me the fuck off. i was at this place and got my shit or whatever and when i was walking back to my car i could see that this woman was doing something and had her door open so i couldn’t get into my car so whatever i took another lap of the place. and when i came back again i realized she was changing her kid so i just kind of waited not even really paying her any attention and then the next thing i know she’s like “can i help you?” and i was just like “oh no that’s okay this is just my car i’m waiting for you to finish up but no rush” and she got all snarky with me and was like “i’m not going to hit your car” and i said “i wouldn’t care if you did that’s not what i’m worried about i just want to leave” and THIS BITCH goes “i wouldn’t want my $80k car touching yours anyway” and i was like you are so odd and it made me laugh but like. don’t talk shit about my car helloooo sorry i told you it was gonna be long winded

[roosterbox]

Fic Rec Friday 6/16/2023

Title: The Best Part of Me is That I’m the B-Side to You

Rating: Explicit

Archive Warning: Graphic Depictions Of Violence

Category: M/M

Fandom: Stranger Things (TV 2016)

Relationship: Steve Harrington/Eddie Munson

Characters: Steve Harrington, Eddie Munson, And ensemble

Additional Tags: Hurt and comfort, Angst, Established Relationship, kind of, Fix-It, not a slow burn we burn fast like cheap cigarettes, [magnolia park's "i'm back on my bullshit" plays in the background]

Summary: Maybe it was too early to say that. Maybe it was too early to say Steve was in love. He usually fell hard. He thought he was in love with Nancy Wheeler. He fell hard for her too.

But Eddie Munson?

Eddie Munson is intoxicating.

----

AKA the one where Steve and Eddie have been dating Eddie's entire senior year.

———

*heavy breathing*

Okay. So. This one is a bit of a doozy for me. I hope the 80k isn’t too intimidating for you - if it is, I get it - because holy shit I cannot recommend it enough. You know a fic is fucking good when you read it once and immediately resign yourself to never reading it again because it’s just… too much. That was me months ago when I first read this. The very thought brought me to tears. And if that wasn’t enough, I couldn’t listen to Head Over Heels again until like a week or two ago, lol. And now I’ll have to wait months and months again before I can listen to it without immediately tearing up. The power of incredible writing.

This is probably (definitely) my favorite of the ‘Steve and Eddie are secretly dating’ subgenre of Steddie fics. As well as my favorite ‘Eddie and Steve knew each other while Steve worked at Scoops’ story. They’re both very niche genres, of course. So much of this fic has kind of wormed itself into my brain and my own headcanons that re-reading it for this rec was an eye-opening experience. “Wait, that was from this? I thought I made that up!”

I never would have thought that a substitute phrase for I Love You could make me tear up, but dammit, if I even slightly think of the words “I’m forever yours,” I’m gone. In tears as we speak. With that out of the way, yes - I cried again while re-reading it. Not as much as I did the first time, mind you, but yeah. Y’all know me; I am as soft as a gently baked batch of cookies.

To summarize: cute boys being cute together and almost dying makes Roosterbox cry like a baby, lol.

Highly, highly recommended.

Important side note: No link, except to the login page. The writer has locked the fic for the time being. Not gonna complain or judge them for it (if they’re reading this, I understand - you do what you feel you must), just FYI. You can still find it if you have an Ao3 account.

———

Next Week: Okay guys, I’m gonna level with you. I think it’s time to dive headfirst into one of my favorite fic tropes. One that a loooooot of people aren’t into. For various reasons. And I get it. I do, I swear I do. But you know… it’s always been one of my comfort tropes. I am, of course, talking about the M word. Mpreg. And it’s my favorite type of Mpreg story: one where it isn’t explained. Is it ABO? Maybe but probably not. Is the guy trans? Maybe. Is it just that men can get pregnant in this universe? Maaaaaaaybe. Draw your own conclusions and/or have your own headcanon. Just enjoy the ride.

Oh, and it’s Arthur/Eames by the way. Figured that was important to mention.

Until next week, darlings ❤️