#this really just turned into a vent acc huh

[gokublack-breeder]

Y'know somethin, she would have never done this to me. Not without a reason, not like you are.

[corinthian5]

ii. today i broke my moms mirror

i broke my moms mirror today and she was really sad and told me to get out of her room because she was angry

i felt really bad because i didnt mean to break it it just happened

i also realized just how clingy i am to my fucking friends

i dont need to text them all the time i promise their tired of me by now im not a fucking kid im turning 16 soon im not fucking ready oh god

when was i ever ready though? i barely act my age with my sensitive ass i bet all of them talk and laugh behind my back about what a fucking joke i am i bet they do but its okay i dont fault them for it i am so so fucking annoying its hard not to hate me

im positive im just so fucking pretensious and unfunny and whiny and i wish i knew how to fix me

even now im just silently crying and typing this, i feel like such a bitch but then agn this is all about how i feel i feel i feel i feel when it doesnt fucking matter what i feel, not rlly

i know i should start preparing for them to all leave and be successful by themselves without me to be there and be their friend even though i promised i would but its not fucking working none of this is i feel so rotten and unworthy of friends i want them to go away

this is all just one big indulgence of some paranoid thoughts and low self esteem im fine

my best friend said i was strong and so did my momma but i dont feel like that at all i feel so weak when it comes to every and anything i hope nobody sees this nobody needs to see this this is frightening, putting this shit on the internet, but then again what else would i use my tumblr blog for huh? classic Zach move, turning this acc into a vent blog

i need some sleep or something i dont  know why im spiryaling like this