#this really doesnt to me but i also dont think it'll last entirely long

[briankang]

i mean using jae isnt a great thing because he did fucked up continously in the twitch app (the j thing being the last drop to a lot of mydays) and yes it is kinda of fucked up but it is to protect him because the whole ive thing and how stray reacted to it too just fucked him up also like they schedule has been f up he could use this time to rest, is it ideal? no but like jyp this time is actually making him take a step back before something bigger happes (as it did w jae tbh w his whole i dont drink thing and fucked up being sober)

ok lemme. clarify. when studio j stopped making jae stream back in the day, it was really only for that one thing, and possibly some other v small things they didn't like. the jaime thing and his comments about sana on that podcast and everything else weird he was doing and everything didn't happen until much closer to when he left the company entirely/actually did leave, which is why he was being such a piece of shit LMFAO. like there'd really not been much of a problem up until then, and tbh, i've seen a handful of his streams from before he left, and they're perfectly fine! jae had a lot more issues going on than twitch streaming and tbh i'm really not here to talk about him, but like. i'm not here to villainize him over smth like this lmfao, esp when he's doing a lot better now

it's moreso frustrating to me that when we were told chans room was stopping, it was meant to be a break bc of their busy schedule (and who knows, maybe it started that way), but not because the company said to stop, and we'd been opperating on that it'd be coming back idk at least sometime this year. chan's room works a LOT differently and has a much different place in stays lives than i think people realize, so to have that pulled and to hear about it through a fucking fan question IS stupid.

we can argue about this all day but i think the company getting involved in fanwars IS stupid, that shit happens all the time on twitter, and tbh would've died out within a couple days. i think it's kinda fucking funny that a vague, non directed comment was taken personally by a fandom, one that wasn't really even that harsh, and was turned into literal death threats and some of the most evil, vile shit i'd read, which is what chan ALWAYS gets from other fandoms. he can be so kind and compassionate and say the best things about ANYONE but the second he says smth NON DIRECTED about his own feelings (which he blamed himself for during that live, i think people forget that. he thought it was a HIM problem. he didn't even BLAME THE JUNIORS HE WAS TALKING ABOUT) he's devil incarnate. but trust that when they need some defense they'll pull out a clip of him praising their faves. fuck off with that shit LMFAO

[sketchesandnonesense]

Kinda fucked up realizing that at the end of January it'll mark a full year I've been dealing with liver cancer.

2 years in general dealing with cancer, but I cant remember the precise day of my first diagnosis. Just that it was also around january/february.

The first time around was esophogeal cancer, technically. It was right on the borderline where my esophagus and stomach meet. "Late stage 2" they said.

Half my year was weeks full of radiation and weekly chemo days. Other half was getting my entire stomach removed along with that lower esophagus chunk to get rid of the tumor. Recovery was hell. Figuring out how to eat again was hell. Trying to get used to everything that'd been done to me was hell.

But I found normal again and the scans for afew months said I was cancer free.

Until they said they spotted something suspisious.

And then, January 31st they told me the biopsy results.

Cancer. Again.

More biopsies and tests and looking at options.

Back to going in for chemo days and feeling like shit for days on end. Already still beaten down from last time.

N this year's been kinda a roller coaster in the worst way. Every time things looked up, it all came back down hard.

Right now I'm on my 3rd different drug cocktail to see if it kills the cancer before it kills me.

First one was the most aggressive and miserable, i think, and I had to take home a chemo pump for a day that made it drag out how long I felt like total shit. It seemed to stop the growth for awhile on the scans. So it seemed worth it. Until it just. Stopped Working. The tumor had grown alittle more.

So onto the next one.

Second one I had an allergic reaction to one of the drugs so every chemo day I'd have to be put in a benadryl coma. Over time it got alittle more bearable with the immediate post-chemo-agony symptoms though. It actually worked stupid good for awhile there. First scans were really promising. The tumor was shrinking up.

And then it just. Also stopped working. My tumor hadnt shrunk at all between scans.

And worse: there were afew little "suspisious dots" peppering the inside of my liver that had been holding steady but were now growing.

And with how those drugs were fucking up my body, it wasn't worth putting me through it still with results that useless where its not being really contained.

So, i was off chemo entirely for abit while my docs figured out another treatment and whether insurance would cover.

I almost got into a medical trial they really thought looked promising and might help. Even so far as going to the clinic to see it and signing consent forms. Once they double checked my chart, though, and saw I literally didnt have a stomach though, they pulled away n decided I didnt qualify after all.

We'd even already scheduled my appointment days because we were so sure I was gonna do the trial.

Idk how they didnt see something That Important as a Disqualifier earlier, but what can ya do I guess.

They scanned me again before starting up chemo again. Seems in the time it took between drugs my tumor had pretty much grown back to original size. Back to square one. Plus the slowly encroaching New Spots.

N now I'm on my shiny new third drug. Second dose just yesterday. Day right after wasnt too bad last time, either, but I think once those really good Long Lasting "Don't Feel Like Death" drugs they gave me wore off I'm gonna be in a world of hurt.

I got 2 more doses, then we scan again.

And I don't know what I'll do if the results arent optimistic. Like. Even a "nothing has changed, its Contained" will work. Just anything.

Because I have only one other drug left to try if this one doesnt work. And my docs dont seem super confident in it. Though it also could be because its a pill and with No Stomach that makes things alot more complicated with oral medication.

After that?

I don't know.

I don't think any of us wanna talk about it much.

There's been the vague talk of finding other medical trials but nothing concrete.

Idk why I'm writing this, really. Just to get all my Cancer Lore down, maybe? Incase anyone's wanted to know.

My body's been totally destroyed by all this. I'm skin and bone but because I lost the weight so fast my skin doesnt Fit right anymore. And I think thats what fucks me up the worst. My clothes dont fit either, half the time. Even when it feels like I just bought some new pants that fit comfortably and then suddenly they're too big on me (or if I'm really lucky, too small).

Idk really how to end a post like this. I feel like I SHOULD be making some speech about Fighting and Not Giving Up or something optimistic.

But I just. Don't have it in me.

I dont really have some gloomy thoughts to dump either, though.

Today I just kinda feel numb. Atleast so far. The day is young.

I'm gonna try n figure out breakfast before I start feeling bad now lol

[the-s1lly-corner]

I wish to hear about the knd oc

>:3c

Give us the lore Silly!!!!

Sososo sorry for taking so long to get to this! Admittedly I was putting this off simply because theres so much lore! I'll be adding a cut to this because with me summarizing stuff, it's still a lot! I'll try to break it up in sections, since there are different.. chapters... for lack of a better word.. this ocs entire life is plotted out! From early childhood to present day when the show takes place! That's a lot of lore considering the character is well into adulthood by the time the main series happens!

Apologies if it's all over the place and some points are.. whack.. this is my first time putting everything into writing! I'll also need to talk about other ocs so this main one can make sense, mostly it'll be talking about their sector, in regards to other ocs! Also its 3am at the time of writing this + my stomach is being MEAN

With all that said, let's hope this doesnt turn into a novel!

Also also** lore may contradict what's in canon, maybe.. I'm not sure! I'm still not done reading the comics and I havent touched anything GKND so I'm unsure if theres any extra info that in unaware of that would complicate things

Feel free to send any questions about the oc!! Lore stuff, interactions with canon characters, ect!

cws: mentions of controlling/toxic parents but i dont go too in depth about it but just know that this is a part of her story. mentions of sexism as well, obligatory its there because "admin uses his ocs to process his experience with his gender as well as being afab and other stuff" but i dont go toooooo deep into it

Name; Rose Wood

Pronouns; she/her

Age; obviously since we're sliding around all over her time line I'll let you know based in the section... but shes in the same age group as Benedict and Monty

Appearance, present day; short, rocking a chubby mom bod! Red hair that's a little faded with a prominent streak of grey. Green eyes. Very curly and fluffy hair! Not sold on a length, but currently it's just last her shoulders! Often wears cardigans or sweaters, though I'm yet to make an "official" outfit for her... her default outfit! Short :( she stopped growing in her early/mid teens height wise, about 5'5

Appearance, KND era; assuming this is in the later half of her time as a KND operative shes tall by kid standards (assuming like. 4'6 is the average for girls as google is telling me). Lanky!! Very long hair, hair is more vibrant but that's really just a design choice rather than an in universe thing. Hair changes length, it starts at mid back but she cuts it to her jaw a few months before shes decommissioned. No default outfit but she swaps between her school uniform and baseball uniform (sports kid before her dad made her stop!!)

Personality; very sweet and kind, patient.. however shes no nonsense, though that develops slowly over time and really roots and shows itself in her young adult years. Lots of internalized feelings, as a child and teen, she feels she had to suck it up and put on a happy face because to do anything else would be "unbecoming", at least according to her parents. As an adult shes oblivious to the whole child vs adult war and doesnt realize how serious it is, shes just vibing

Occupations, past and current; knd operative (decommissioned), teacher (current)

Family; she doesnt talk to her parents all that much however she keeps in touch with her grandfather (very old, think 80s, rose was an oops baby + so was her dad LMAO), and 2 younger sisters. She does have other family members however they're not very fleshed out currently. She does have a son who is a teen by the time the main series takes place! Maybe I'll make a short follow up post on him!

Former Sector teammates, numbers and names; Numbuh 246 (Rose Wood), Numbuh 165 (Jamie Robinson), Numbuh 162 (Kimberly "Kimmy" Wilson), Numbuh 527 ("Sammy" Jones), Numbuh 129 (Davis Peterson) (the leader of the sector)

i'll probably make a separate post for her teammates, this post is already pretty long LMAO

KND days;

she joined within the very early days of the KND, after monty started it. i would go further and say shes a "first generation" knd operative, being there when they fought and overthrew grandfather. she didnt actually join a sector until the last year or two of her time as an operative, working solo prior on missions and helping built up the operation. thanks to her experience, she was sent to go basically work and "pass off her knowledge" before shes decommissioned.

a actually wrote in parallels between her sector and sector v for thematic reasons but i wont get into that here; but if i had to make a comparison shes like the numbuh 5 of the group. fairly level headed and in tune with whats going on as well as being able to step up when it counts to push through on a mission

"if she was sent to basically pass her experience, why wasnt she made the leader?". tight schedule on her part, parents cared a lot about keeping up appearances and they worked rose like a horse by having her sign up to a bunch of extra curriculars + her having her share of chores as well as her parents being strict. she just did not have a lot of time to spare. a lot of her ark is her slowly becoming more and more independent as time passes, but as of now shes pulling herself between being this model student to appease her parents and fighting for the knd's cause. ironic given the whole fighting against adult tyranny thing

there was some friction in the beginning when she first joined the sector, shes the second newest member the newest being 527 (Sammy). a lot of coming from 165 (Jamie), actually throws her failures in her face if they ever fumble a mission because of her whole history. they do eventually become buddies though, but its a slow burn!

she does get what she was sent to do done before she turns 13, her decommissioning is your standard decommissioning albeit with some pizzazz; she was a first gen operative but she was one of the last remaining ones at that time so its like. a whole chapter ending in their history with only a handful of others remaining. she doesnt get to be a secret operative

Teenager;

probably the most underdeveloped part of her story, i mostly focused on her childhood as well as the present day.. so this section and early adulthood is a little under baked. a lot of the themes as before are still here, overbearing and controlling strict parents completely dominate her time so she doesnt have much time to just. be. she does end up reconnecting with some of her old teammates, but theyre all of course decommissioned at this point in time. the only one who is still an operative is sammy, but thats due to them being so young in comparison to the rest of the sector and even then theyre at the end of their time as an operative. due to the whole "operatives arent to mess with the lives of ex operatives" rule thats mentioned, sammy doesnt interact much with rose or the others unless they approach them first.

main thing to note is that rose and davis have a short fling that quickly burns out due to teens being dumb: short explanation davis was insecure and jealous and rose did not want to deal with that on top of everything else going on with her. good for her for looking out for her health

she was not an evil teen, though, far too deep in her studies to really do anything rebellious as well as being afraid of falling behind and disappointing her parents

around this time, not long after her and davis break up her and her family moves out of town

Young adult;

she went NC with her parents not long after she turned 18, moving out soon after. she does keep in touch with her younger siblings, though. the breaking point was really her parents confirming that theyre disappointed with her existence. literally all but saying they wish they had a son instead of a daughter as a first born, lots of old values/views there that finally pushes rose over the edge. noting now that rose did have some feelings about her gender but never really explored it due to feeling the need to conform + this takes place pre 2000s so... but moving forward she does start to embrace herself and slowly take the time to get to know herself now that shes got the time and space to do so. i do like the idea of her experimenting between now and present day, and while she does eventually lean more towards presenting feminine there are instances where shes presenting more masc/feels more masc

while at college she meets someone, obligatory "i havent given him a name yet", they get together. everythings good, they have a kid. they break up. im still cooking up a reasoning for why they split but for now its just "they changed because they got married young, and now theyre older"

Present day;

a few years before the events of the show she moves back to town, i was going to say she moves in during the current events but i decided to be nice and give her a chance to get accustomed to being back in her hometown. i havent decided how it happens but she ends up getting in with the villains but like. not in the way that shes a villain too, in the "shes like the nice lady from down the street who makes some killer brownies so we all vibe with her". kind of just started as a joke that i turned into the canon for her because i can... kind of see that happening... this leads to her meeting benedict, blah blah she vaguely remembers him, they catch up and it leads to them getting together

i actually didnt originally ship them because "ooooooooouuugh father kinda...." actually it was because "the delightfuls need a decent parent figure because GOD!! i love father and my take on him does soften him a bit with time but GOOD LORD" and then it mixed with that and the "ooooooough hes kinda..." LMAO

not much to say other than shes the cool mom at the PTA meetings and just gets along with everyone, probably thinks the delightfuls and sector v are friends. which drives both of them up the wall they HATE it LMAO

Post series finale;

Dead/j

Okay well, that's just a concept. Admittedly I dont know what to do with her after the series finale takes place. Logically one can assume she just continues on with her day to day because shes not really involved in the fight against children, shes quite literally. Vibing and staying in her own lane asides from when she gets dragged into things by the people around her; even then shes still.. oblivious.. not much different than how Monty reacts to the knd stuff, when hes not recommissioned. Simply thinking it's this elaborate game of sorts, ESPECIALLY if she were to get dragged in through the delightfuls (who are. You know, effectively her step children thanks to her relationship with father)

[pasharuu]

welps, since i got a little skrunkling in form of ararycan, lets talk about him. i hope it'll be a short one. (spoiler: no)

also to those who bumped onto my post in their or someone else's dash somehow: english is not my first language. so be ready for numerous "memories" and "forget" cuz my vocabulary is thin just like that. and some other weirdness of course.

first of all, i hate the dottore clone theory with every single cell in my body, and i want you to know that if you like it i dont care, so neither should you care about me hating it. im only speaking opinion here.

and also this is rather my headcanon just not to stay alongside with the mystery while theres a dottore theory around. i honestly dont believe in dottore theory, but i still cant prove it wrong properly due to lack of info, and that annoys me. but this headcanon doesnt attempt to debunk the theory somehow, these are just two completely different things not worth comparing.

but rlly, did anyone on that planet at least once look at ararycan's leaves more than once? cuz it feels like no one knows what is the form of the pattern. the theory followers say these are circles, on my plush these are rounded diamons. wtf dear fellow folks.

the headcanon is trying to explain ararycan's memory loss, as there is no information about this in the game. traveler and paimon just decide that "welp, aranara are forgetful sometimes" though its not really true, but its really odd of them to leave us on this cliffhanger. i once said that aranara never forget stuff unless they meet some certain condition. i didnt explain that well last time so lemme speak a word (although its gonna be long i fear, so once again, the orange text is not necessary)

in the beginning we were given with the idea that aranara dont forget anything, or at least dont forget anything as easily as we do. this was really the very first fact i learned about them since i found messily written notes very soon after i began my first walkthrough of aranyaka (funfact: in russian localization its not clear who is the author of these if you only see the first set of it, and i definitely remember that i was not able to read the next page at a place, so i bet i found it even before meeting arama in the very first time. i also found it in the second time only after completing the entire questline so imagine my face at that moment), and author of the notes says that he doesnt forget things easily, but still decides to make records because its fun to do. basically saying that these lads dont ever need to record things up cuz they remember it all by themselves.

then, during the part where we help guys in mawtiyima forest, we were told about the inscriptions on the walls. aragaru says that these are made only for humans, because aranara will not forget, while people have all the possibility to. all the other inscriptions on walls, if we keep the spoken idea in mind, are clearly made for humans as well. the only weirdness in this part is inscriptions in old vanarana, cuz the only one who needs these during the quest is arama, and its not really clear who these were written to in the first place. but we still cant say these were definitely written for aranara, or maybe i need to research more.

the events of agnihatora sutra and vimana agama are the ones that made people think that aranara are forgetful. the second one is the mystery we are trying to solve in this article, but the first one told you everything you need, but its absolutely understandable if you didnt get it in the first time (neither did i if u wonder). in agnihatora sutra the three are aware that the thing theyre going to commit is gonna make them forget everything, so they were hinting it for us carefully, yet not saying directly that they will forget us. in the very end of this questline they tell us about the sacrifice they're going to commit, and that sacrifice is actually their memories, even though its not shown on screen, unlike the sacrifice of arana's memories to get the bija. that is why we were later told that these guys dont emember us while everyone else do.

also there's the fact araja troubles to remember the events of the past, but this dude actually grew into a tree, and just like i said in the cinnamon arama article, that might be the reason of his memory loss. araja also didnt forget everything that he had expirienced before he became a tree, as sometimes he still recalls to some things as his own memories.

after all, aranara gain actual power with memories and it would be weird if you'd randomly forget stuff and lose yo power just like that. they cherish memories more than anything, either these are good or bad, and the idea of forgetting is terrifying to them (the most memorable to me was the moment when arama complained about alcohol cuz it makes people forget stuff. paimon said that sometimes there are things people want to forget, but arama was still negative about that). well, actually there is a thing they cherish more. this thing is called "friendship", and the idea is that even if you forget something, there will be friends who'll remind you, so thats why they are more dear to aranara, even more than the memories. this is as well the idea of "the forest will remember" thing, cuz aranara are friends to all the plants, animals, some humans and each other, so theres just no possibility for the entire forest (all of these things) to forget something. but that still doesnt remove the importance of memories cuz these are power and these are memories, it'll take a lot of time to gain them back, so losing them is only worth when its absolutely necessary. also remember that stories and memories are not the same, so just summarizing things up to someone wont work.

and that concludes my orange explaination, now back to vimana agama mystery!!!!

so my take is that ararycan mustve sacrificed his memories for something. if we'll try to recreate the chronological order of the events of the past, we'll see that aralohita, who possibly was some sort of a buddy to ararycan, disappears after ararycan lost his memories. or if he lost part of them, its possible that aralohita disappeared prior to that. both versions explain why ararycan still remembers the solution to aralohita's riddles.

ararycan once says that he was the one who brought the ruin golem part into the secret cave, but for now he doesnt seem to be as strong, he rather acts like a very brave weakling. as we know, aranara gain power with memories, so no wonder ararycan is a weakling now, not remembering everything. but still, his awareness about some things looking familiar makes me think that he might have lost part of his memories, but how come?

we know that ararycan most likely was the third one alongside royinjan and amadhiah in the past, so all the vamadhas, including the one that was sealing the secret base, most likely were set after the childhood of the two, which means that might happened not too long ago. that might line up with a fact that pir kavikavus accident happened around the same time, because vamadhas were obviously set for reason. i recall ararycan saying that vamadhas are set when aranara dont want nara to enter some certain places, but says that he doesnt know who set these. so i think that actually could be ararycan, but since he lost his memories, no wonder he doesnt remember about it. and so uh, setting these could be resulted in memory loss as it might take some power. he probably did know that amiti device might be used for no good by some foes, so vamadhas are only set in places that either have amiti device fragments in them or places related to it somehow (and nowhere else, by the way, so vamadha is for sure some kind of ararakalari that both ararycan and aralohita used to wield). we can see the direct memory loss from using ararakalari in case of arama, when the one hit one of ruin guards really hard and returned back to goofy. we dont know how the memories amount needed to do some action is measured, but if we connect the dots, it all seems possible.

the only question left is why the heck did ararycan move the detail into the cave and the answer is i dont know. it was def moved before the cave was sealed since roy (seemingly) confirms this place not changing at all since he was a kid, and probably even before the kids found this cave because otherwise someone said something like "dude, i recall this place empty, but then somehow this huge detail appeared here, no clue how tho i dont remember". but why did ararycan move it there is forever a mystery it seems, unless aralohita is confirmed to be his accompany most of the time and prolly found alive ofc. aralohita might say something about it in that case, unless he forgot everything as well. but its all just my silly wishes.

also arama, while summarizing the places we shall visit, says that ararycan may know something about the sus person we were looking for. ararycan later confirms he used to help kids in vimara village cuz arana asked him, but thats all he says, none of details were thrown after that. his wording that marana avatar is capable of the trouble feels weird, but marana avatar to aranara is many things, not only the actual marana avatar, so he could be calling fatui like that. i now think that ararycan could possibly help us with finding out who the sus person is but for whatever reason it was cut down by his own troubling.

and i know that at this moment it feels like im just coping but idc. once again, my speculations have nothing to do with the dottore clone theory, its just a thing im rather comfortable with. fact of the day: dottore is my least favorite character in the entire genshin impact (among some that are somehow major) and i'll be quite disappointed if my precious ararycan turns out to be his clone or creation or whatever. i wont argue with it, i'll only throw, tear and murder.

and that concludes my tractate. it took me the whole day to put in words and i feel empty rn, especially since i dont know many words, and if you ever ask me why am i speaking english if i could just use my first language - none of your business. if u ask me why i made this tractate - none of your business. till the next time.

[sickness-and-stealth]

i would like to hear about technoblade

hehehe well since you asked so nicelyyyy :]

keep in mind that some of this could be taken as quackity and tommy critical, but it's not supposed to be. to be safe though, if u still wanna read but dont wanna risk, the tommy critical would be under the "willing to put aside differences for a common cause (mostly)." section, and the q critical stuff would be under "movin on, he's got strong morals and i like that a lot." both are bolded, italicized, and end at the next point. it is undeniably lmanburg critical, so i tagged it as such, but if you still want to read, skip past "nother side tangent".

also!! this is not me sayin that c! techno can do no wrong, just stuff i really like abt him!!

without further ado, here's my super duper long post about both character and content creator technoblade, and why i think he's so darn cool!!

i'm not really sure how to format this so it'll probably be like half list and half paragraphs? i dunno but i really like technoblade and i think he's super neat!! he's a great storyteller, actor, content creator and friend, if what his friends have said is anything to go by. he cares deeply for a lot of things, from minecraft to his dog (that he'd planned on being indifferent about when they first got him) to his content and anything in between. he likes people to feel included and safe on his channel, i remember seeing a screenshot of a comment from 2016 where he was callin someone out in his comment section who said a slur i think. replied somethin along the lines of "you can be edgy all you want, i can't stop you, but i don't tolerate homophobia on my channel" and hes talked about how cool he thinks lesbians are but people still call him homophobic :[ makes me sad but that's not today's point

mm i think i'll go onto stuff i like about character! techno and then come back to cc

-all his pets. the big mean bad guy of the server keeps a whole buncha dogs, a horse, two polar bears, a fox and a few other things safe in his home because he cares about them... he was willin to get executed for his horse... big ol softie he loves animals

-his unwavering love for phil. techno loves phil so much, they're best friends in the entire world and would do absolutely anythin for each other and it makes me so happy!!!! techno's been betrayed a million times but he still trusts his best friend and companion with everything he has. also the fact that he let ranboo come live with them, mostly because phil said so even though he was super wary? makes me cry. also also, the fact that phil said that if redza wanted to kill techno, he would just let it happen and not fight back? (can't find the clip rn but i'll look) breaks my heart into a million pieces and makes me cry, but just shows how much techno would do for him :(

-willing to put aside differences for a common cause (mostly). the red banquet? him takin in tommy even after he'd been betrayed? thats a compromise baby. and yes i know he did destroy lmanburg after tommy decided to stay with tubbo, but he was goin to do that anyway, the only thing he did to spite tommy was team with dream imo

>little side tangent about that, i'm pretty sure techno has said MULTIPLE TIMES that he is not friends with dream, that he only worked with him on doomsday because they had a common goal and that he doesnt even really like the guy, but the last time i checked, the wiki said they were in good standin. i do not believe that, i think techno sees his entire relationship with dream as closer to neutral/negative, because the only thing that's keepin them related at all right now is the fact that techno still owes dream a favor. they have that to take care of and then techno goes back to not carin about dream.

-movin on, he's got strong morals and i like that a lot. he knows what he wants and he'll stand up for it!! if he feels someone betrayed his trust, he'll deal out whatever punishments he deems necessary. now this is not to say he should get to play judge, jury and executioner, but it is to say that i think him killing quackity was justified because even though techno didnt technically lose a life, he was very close to doing so. if he hadn't had the totem, he would have. he got all of the pain of losing a life, of getting crushed to death by an anvil, so i personally think that quackity had what was comin to him for orchestratin the whole thing. and while i dont think that him blowin up lmanburg was the best option, it was the only one that would drive his point home and make them understand what he'd been tellin them since he joined pogtopia. and it seems they mostly listened, so it worked

>nother side tangent, yes he blew up lmanburg but people act like it was the worst thing in the entire world. they're like "but it was terrorism!" yes but also this is on a server where it's standard to just shoot, blow up, burn, destroy or kill anythin that gets in your way, or really anythin you want to. this isnt real life, its a video game and irl stuff like that doesnt really apply because the rules are different in this universe (in my opinion). also, lmanburg was people's homes, yes, but he gave them time to move stuff outta their houses, gave them warning (even though they did start early, which was a bit dickish). and lmanburg was just land, really, he didn't take anyone's lives during it so personally i dont think people should hold it against him as much as they do

-lastly, he's just a cool guy and i like him a lot :] he added in his chat as canon characters/beings in the plot so that was really cool!! and he's got a lotta lore and stuff and he's a cool character to play around with and i want him to interact with more characters positively because he deserves it and yeah :]

onto cc! technoblade!!!! mr. cool guy himself!!

-he's so nice... he tries to hide it but so many people have said he's just a big sweetheart!! like niki (i hate the name of that vid) said that whenever they talk he makes sure she has time to say what she wants to and he invites her to stuff when she's feelin bad and she really appreciates it, and bbh (starts around 4:25) recently said that he's only spoken to techno personally like five or six times but he's had fun every time and thinks hes super sweet and funny and i just :'] his friends care about him so much and they know cares about them

-hes so funny and for what. comedy master, so funny, ive never watched a video of his where i haven't laughed, every time he's on someone's stream hes fuckin hilarious and i just think hes so funny. the "donde esta la biblioteca" bit?? so fuckin funny, he just rushes tommy while screamin about the library, kills him and then says "he was no match for my two years of spanish in middle school" LITERALLY UNMATCHED i adore him. and even on accident, the one time he streamed and forgot to unmute for like 30 seconds?? that was hilarious and he didnt even do it in purpose

-how much he loves floof. i just... he loves that dog so much.... he wasn't expecting to like him, he said his family had always had cats and they'd always been cat people and then floof just destroyed that idea... he loves that dog so much, he puts him in videos, talks about him on streams, there videos online about him fallin in love with the dog i just,,, he loves floof so much and it makes me really happy

-this ones smaller but that one video with his lil sister from like six years ago makes me cry they're so similar and she's so excited and he's so happy to just have her playin minecraft for his channel i weep every time i watch that video thanks

-the consistent inside jokes and things within his communities. like just,, so many jokes in vids and streams have been around for so long and idk why that makes me really happy. it makes for a really nice community and its easy for new fans to get into it, which is really nice :]

-the fact that we've seen his face multiple times but still have no fuckin clue what he looks like... like rn i cannot recall his face right now but if you showed me a picture of him i'd be like "yeah that's technoblade" and then you'd take the picture away and i'd forget immediately

-he's just genuinely cracked at the game. he's so good at minecraft. he crazy good, and when hes determined to get somethin done, it'll happen. his 1000 game winstreak in skywars? antarctic empire? the potato war? the dozens of wither skulls he grinded for? the gear he got for pogtopia and junk? insane literally insane hes so talented and cool

-his little traits that i recognize as adhd stuff make me rlly happy too :] its really nice to see someone i look up to who has it as well and it's not like the main point of his personality ig? idk how to say it but its really cool to see that he has it and talks about it sometimes and exhibits traits of it that i also have and hes super cool and successful and has a good time because that was somethin that seemed completely unattainable to me a few years back honestly, and the only sources about adhd came from accounts that focus solely on talkin about adhd and nothin else (which is still really great). its just really nice to be able to watch someone who just. is a minecraft youtuber and has adhd, and not someone who has adhd and is also this and that. its nice to see it not be the center of attention and it's just a thing, a fact of life (here's just some sources where says (around 4:20) he has/mentions his adhd)

-he's just overall a good guy, i think he's neat!! he posts videos when he can, streams when he can, interacts with his audience, cares about his friends, loves his dog and is just a cool dude and i think hes epic :]

there's probably more but i cant remember rn, thank u for readin this far if u have and super sorry for such a long post lmao :] lmk if i got anythin wrong :[ have a good day y'all, lmk what u think abt any of my takes in the replies or just come yell at me in my ask box or dms if u wanna hehehe

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*tagging this since a lot of reoccuring folk who interact or ask things dont follow me (no hate I get it!!)

Oh oh also! I feel the need to bring this up since I'm getting loads of new followers from my spot/Jonathan x y/n ohnn posts!

Future admin note; TLDR below IS the entire post because it summed up everything I needed/wanted to say better than the initial ramble and I'm too silly to reword it into

Not being a TLDR

TLDR since a lot of it is admin rambling and getting off topic; this is a multi fandom blog that primarily centers around the admins current hyperfixiation (due to how strong the admin experiences brainrot), but defaults to creepypasta content when the admin either

A) doesnt have a particular rot

B) is embarassed of their current rot (I'm cringe and not free)

C) the fandom is very obscure or small

On average a hyperfixiation for the admin can last from a few weeks to a few months, and usually when one dies it can take a long time to reignite if at all. Because of how intense their interests get, it can become incredibly difficult for the admin to write outside of the current fandom.

Basically I just wanna warn you guys that I'm uncertain how long I'll be writing for spot and for how long my hc lists for him will remain decent quality and I want you guys to know ahead of time before the spiderverse rot inevitably dies <\3

It won't be an outright ban on spot writings though!! I'll probably rework my pinned to have two lists; one for main interests and a side for characters I'm comfy writing with

The only real thing that will change is a fluctuation in passion and posting frequency

I will say when my spiderverse fixiation dies I can almost guarantee that it'll be revived when beyond comes out

That's just a fact, whenever a new part to an old interest is released it always comes back

Seen it with the owl house (the finale episodes coming out), seen it with Fran Bow (creators getting REAL active with releasing character stuff and merch recently), Overwatch (I blame ramattra for bringing back that one. Before that the last time I touched OVW was in like. 2016? So literally when the game first came out) and probably a few others

Those are the only two examples I can think of

Anyways

Yeah!! Thats really all! I guess I'd just feel guilty if I suddenly had a visible attitude shift in passion and hype around spot <\3

And I dont want to throw any one off with that random shift when it comes, esp because so many of you like my silly rambles

As of now the interest is fairly strong so yall dont gotta worry yet!!

So yeah!!

Remember to drink water and get plenty of rest, take your meds and have an amazing day!

TLDR for the TLDR that turned into the entire post;

Admin is autistic (/srs) and bounces around fandoms a lot as interests come and go, said interests sometimes totally consuming their entire brain to the point they cant think/create/interact with anything outside the hyperfixiation, and when a new fixiation comes in the old one dies leaving behind little to no incentive to create for it

Admin really doesnt like how their brain works for this but :(