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#this rant is gonna be a lil messy word wise but
rowanhoney
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1 year
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#this rant is gonna be a lil messy word wise but
#is this my idea of a dream date/evening or is it only the ideal date if it were with CB
#and why not with someone else who seems to have similar interests. both CB and this person have interests that align with mine
#so why is it that I’m freaking out because it’s with someone who is Not CB and like
#I don’t wanna see CB cos of all the disrespect and realisations that t
#he’s just. not good for me.
#but it was easy it was so so easy
#half the time i didn’t even have to say what was on my mind
#cos he just knew
#considering I struggle to vocalise stuff it was a blessing
#but I also have to remind myself how nervous I was and the doubts I had before our first date
#and the only reason it was easier
#is cos for weeks before we’d been having these cute awkward interactions
#and I already knew I liked him
#and this is all so long ago it shouldn’t matter
#i just never recovered
#I went from that to completely inconsolable wallowing
#to feeling great and myself by spring. then stupidly dating wolfie
#who tried to tear me down
#and then the summer was just a mess and my fwb pointed out how clear it was that I was in love w CB but in denial
#and yeh.
#then had a bad rubbish awkward date
#spent months falling apart missing CB
#then had another bad rubbish awkward so so so awkward date
#then saw CB again and god i just. fuck.
#and then by feb I thought I was past it. thank u modafinil
#I worked through so much and it helped so much
#Im scared of being underwhelmed. and trying and being more underwhelmed and how hard that will make me miss cb
#like if I try but don’t connect with people I should connect with it leaves me terrified
#that I won’t connect with anyone as well as I did w CB and that fell apart so hard! I feel so disconnected bro
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