#this one is my favorite of the bunch but i think im bias lol

[freebooter4ever]

Hello! What would you recommend to help someone to get more into hockey? Thanks!

Also: I’m from BC, so I think my fav team is the Canucks? Idk

(Also I’m a penniless college student, I can’t pay for a streaming subscription haha)

oh my, what a question! first off i will message you privately about how to watch the games. Also if you have a friend who is willing to give you access to es*pn+ then its easiest if you pick an out of town favorite team because then you can stream all the games online! and im guessing you are looking for help understanding hockey itself? my favorite is:

I, uh, got into hockey weird though. I started by watching a bunch of history documentaries cause im much more a history nut than a sports fan. I also picked the new york rangers because one of my favorite actors is a fan of them, and i found artemi panarin to be the most intellectually interesting player in the league at the moment. So i started with the 1994 nyc documentary, and the 'peoples history of hockey in canada' doc, and various russian hockey docs, and the philly bully doc for masochistic funsies (i lived in pittsburgh ten years). And it was only after all that when i ran out of history docs on you*tube, i finally decided fuck it i will watch a live game. And then i got hooked. ;_; so be warned, it could happen to you too. I do think it's easiest to pick a player and follow just that guy, and it helps if the player you pick accidentally is one of the best in the league lol cause then they get more ice time. If he has a distinguishing feature like fluffy curly hair that pokes out of his helmet its easier to spot him on the ice too. until he shaves his head bald, then youre in trouble.

Of course you also have that one asshole who you swore you were gonna ignore except for one drawing because it was too much of a badass pose to pass up, but then he just keeps existing with his pretty brown eyes, being all endearing and quietly smart and too handsome for his own good. And then you're following two teams and slowly your bias starts shifting from the team you said was your favorite to your old adopted hometown team and next thing you know you got 400 drawings of this guys face which translates to over a year of doodling him every day holy shit what are you doing with your life. And then you start learning a new language. But thats probably just me. I dont know if i would reccomend getting into hockey like that.

[soobinies]

seen your “my ask is open” and yeonjun is your ult posts now i'm not a kpop blog but yeonjun is one of MY ults so I'm about to ask you a bunch of questions about him if that’s ok!! <3

1. favorite personality trait

2. favorite physical feature

3. favorite fancam

4. favorite era / concept photos

5. favorite hair color

6. favorite outfit

7. something you’d like to see yeonjun try in the future (related or not to his work)

8. something about him you think is underrated

9. how did he become your ult?

10. lastly, do you think you two would click?

1. favorite personality trait?

one of my favorite things from him is his mbti type, hes a enfp. like i feel like he is someone who makes friends really easily

2. favorite physical feature

it would have to be his eyes, his eyes are pretty and i swear if he ever looked at me i would pass away. i also like his mole he has near his eye

3. favorite fancam

or this

4. favorite era / concept photos

blue hour! nahh but this one! i love this one too!!! but also srr. the photos for those was so pretty! the freeze chapter i think would have to be my favorite tho like loser lover and 0x=lovesong era was so beautiful to me

5. favorite hair color

pink!!!! his blue hour hair he had was soo pretty, he looked so good in it

6. favorite outfit

this one

blockbuster yeonjun was something i wasnt ready for

7. something you’d like to see yeonjun try in the future (related or not to his work)

acting! i would love to see him in a drama. he would be soo good in it

8. something about him you think is underrated

hmm i really cant think of anything right now

9. how did he become your ult?

well to be honest when i first was getting itno txt soobin was my ult and yeonjun wasnt doing anything he was just being himself and i fell for him. it was like in the beginning of 2020 like January fhdjfjsdfj! i remember how i didnt want to admit i was starting to bias him. its the little things he did then pretty soon he joined soobin lol

10. lastly, do you think you two would click?

i say we would but in reality i dont think he would like me bc im too boring and i wouldnt be able to talk to him. he would prob tell me something and i would be like "haha yeah.." and then akward silence. i would say something dumb like "your eyes are pretty" and I'd embarrassed myself so bad. i think he would laugh at me dsjfsfshgjdsjg

thak you for sendinf these in, this was so fun

[breathplayed]

11 and 31

(11) what’s something neat you’ve learned while doing research for something you were writing? also, how much do you worry about doing research in general? omg i look up such a stupid amount of things when writing shfjkdfds i try not to get lost in it to where i never actually get around to writing what im researching but...... Im very visual i have to See and Understand it. the most fun has been folie honestly!!!! i watched probably about.... 30 different aerial dance performances (here's the favorites that inspired me most: cry me a river, call out my name, crazy in love) so i could describe jimin's routines in writing. i read about a bunch of ballet/musical terms for chapter titles so they'd make sense for plot, and i watched 2 different videos on how darkroom development of film works for ch4, not just to be ~technical~ about it but bc i wanted to see if i could tie it into the hypnotic themes. i'd never seen how the image appears in the film so i got to use that!!!

i do think there's a healthy balance though, sometimes i have to pull myself back and stop from Worrying Too Much about research. i watched a bunraku puppet show to make sure the one (1) line using it as a metaphor in folie would work, and when i had another one (1) line referencing shadow play i looked up shadow play performances too lol. those are at least interesting but like why was i reading about saltwater pool maintenance and aquarium transportation for 'sea legs' shjfkndsfkdsjfdskf ITS EGG PORN

(31) tell us about one of your characters who’s an absolute joy to write jdkfdsfds it's jimin for me.... always.... he's got Bias Privilege..... all of my jimins are my special boy of the wip that i am pouring the most introspection and character study into unintentionally. of course i love them all but it's like a Muse thing. even when it's not his pov im obsessed with him. i have to wax poetic about him being beautiful and about what i am making him do and how it makes him feel or i will die

[minkkumaz]

UNFORTUNATELY I DIDNT GET VIP (it was expensive… but once boynextdoor gets a wt IM SOOOO SPENDING EVERYTHING I HAVE FOR THAT TICKET.)

but i had some interactions w niki hehe!!! he gave me a wave and i literally wanted to die right there.. AND OMG!!! i checked the groups u stanned and why r we literally twinning..

HAECHAN IS SO REAL HONESTLY!! gosh i love love love love nctdream rn.. like theyve been plaguing my mind. whats ur fav song from them???

im a bit basic but beatbox,broken melodies and life is going on just hits it right for me. DONT GET ME WRONG I LOVVVEEE ME SOME ISTJ & YOGURT SHAKE (courtesy of jaehyuns yogurt shake challenge..) TOO BUT then id end up naming their whole discography.. gosh but also nct u.. theres this one jisung fancam w THE BAT and IT CHANGED ME!!! HE LOOKED ASTRONOMICALLY UNREALLLLL. but on the other hand i love kangaroo aswell LMAO

We did talk abt boysplanet! (i believe.. i honestly dont remember.. I think we brought it up once when I was talking abt stanning every 5th gen group..) I happened to watch like an episode, but i sort of got really bored of it so i never watched it fully.

i did get it on my tiktok fyp alot!! mostly ricky.. but i was REALLY rooting for yujin, hao and seungeon. Seungeon didnt make the cut (LIKE WHY BTW..???!!) but he debuted in evnne!! HOORAY!!!! Yujin is my bias while hao is my wrecker.. (it’s always the maknaes that have me hooked.. no clue why.)

AND GYUVIN AS JYP HAS ME ROLLINGGG 😭😭😭😭 FOULLLLLL.

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I'M SO GLAD YOU GOT SOME NIKI INTERACTIONS THAT'S SO GOOD FOR U! i wanna go to another kpop concert soon there's just something so special about going to them ehe.

and yes ehe, actually, broken melodies got me into nct dream! because my bsf jordan was listening to broken melodies when it first came out and i was listening along with her, then we kinda listened on loop for awhile and she told me whos voice was who n stuff :) then from there we had a couple nct listening parties LOL i liked haechan because of his high note in broken melodies :3

my favorite song... from nct dream it's probably candy. i know it's kind of basic but come on i can't help it, it just makes me feel so jolly. also hello future is really good! i have a thing for title tracks HSKNS BUT I ALSO DO REALLY LIKE BLUE WAVE :3 and for some of the other units, i really enjoy love talk from wayv and favorite (vampire) from nct 127!

i don't really remember when we talked about boys planet but we probably did HAHA it's been so long i don't exactly remember my top 9 but i was rooting for jay and ollie for sure! woongki and wumuti also stole my heart </3

like i mentioned earlier my biases are gyuvin and taerae! it's funny because i was battling between the two trying to figure out which one i wanted to bias. whenever i decided on gyuvin, id get so many taerae edits on my fyp, then when i switched to taerae id get a bunch of gyuvin edits. but hey, the more the merrier right? can never have too many biases hehe. but through zb1 i definitely gained so much more love for yujin, as i didn't follow him too closely on bp.

gyuvin jyp collab in the future >_<

[fagmegumi]

ok this got a few likes so i guess there’s interest so here it is. This definitely reflects my interest and bias so do ur own research! get lost in anilist’s really thorough filters! Get weird with it!

in no particular order:

- Lensman (1984) is the second ever anime to use CGI in a bit at the end where the protagonist gets lost in some kind of demonic cyberspace. The entire movie is on youtube and the bit im talking about (which is all ive watched lol) starts at 1:25:45

- Pop Team Epic (2018) if you havent seen it already uses a variety of mediums including different types of stop motion (with paper, fabric dolls, clay etc) to animate its shitpost sketches and its truly a delight

- Heike Monogatari (2021) looks like a traditional Japanese painting come to life. No surprises that its amazing since it comes from science saru, the studio savant director yuasa masaki (who will appear again on this list) established to experiment with bleeding edge technology.

- FLCL (2001) Look, you knew this was coming, i knew this was coming, we all knew this was coming. But come ON. this shit was made with 2d digital animation in the YEAR TWO THOUSAND and it STILL looks better than most stuff from today. do you even remember what computers were like in the year two thousand??? this is an anime KNOWN for being insanely creative with animation, famously letting all its animators do whatever they wanted in their scenes. some of the scenes weren’t even story boarded by the director. They animated MANGA PANELS for chrissake. they did a SOUTH PARK bit. i will not rest until all of my followers have seen this anime idc. just pick any moment from this video and its guaranteed to blow your socks off.

- the tatami galaxy (2011) if you haven’t seen this show WHAT are you doing. im not even gonna say anything ill just drop the trailer here and let it speak for itself.

- Pingpong the animation (2014) i know, i KNOW. an anime about ping-pong? but seriously, just LOOK at it. after tatami galaxy this is our third and final yuasa joint of the night. The man is a genius.

- akira (1988) you know this had to be on the list. im not even gonna drop the trailer because if you follow me theres no way you havent seen at least a gif of this movie. You’re welcome.

- sonny boy (2021) hey so do you guys remember this little anime, it was sort of popular a while ago, kind of niche, it was called “one punch man”? yeah so the guy who directed that basically did such a banger job that studio madhouse handed him a bunch of money and resources to write and produce his own original anime (NOT adapted from anything) and he made one of the great philosphical treatises of our times, no lie

- Keep your hands off eizouken (2020) i was really trying to keep this list free of links to cr*nchyroll yt but there are no other uploads of this scene and I really need you all to see it. Not only is this anime GORGEOUS, its story is really good, the humor is funny and the characters are SO endearing. Very much an “anime for people who dont like anime”, the girls have realistic (and therefore unusual) designs, theres not a bit of fanservice in sight, just a feel good story about three friends making anime for passion and fun.

- angel’s egg (1985) okay so theres not a lot of cel animation in this list and you may be thinking, hey m.a., dont you always say cel animation is your favorite kind (you insufferable hipster)? but theres a reason for that. Because of how time consuming cel ani is, most cel anime that I would consider visually appealing (eva, rgu, kite, etc) do so by using their resources very smartly and creating evocative, striking, atmospheric imagery through a mixture if photography and direction. some of the most memorable images in evangelion are barely if at all animated (the holding cell shinji misato and ritsuko alternatively end up in, the escalators down into the bowels of NERV hq, the infamous elevator scene, and of course the still of shinji in unit 01 holding kaworu). Tldr cel animation is VERY pleasing to the eyes when its actually animated (see akira) and its unique limitations push directors to be especially creative and talented (the opposite of whats true for digital but that’s another rant) but most cel animated stuff is… well its pretty and its nostalgic but its not technically impressive from a pure animation perspective. but there are some exceptions. lo and behold: the entire angel’s egg movie by visionary director oshii mamoru, on youtube dot com.

- mononoke (2007) this is another one where i dont even need to say much. Just LOOK at it. the fact that this exists is a marvel.

- samurai champloo (2004) HA! you thought i was gonna put bebop on this list didnt you? well jokes on you. one day maybe i will write my “champloo is better than bebop, YES really, NO im not just being a hipster” rant but that day is not today. the trademark watanabe swagger and swashbuckling and the inventive and brilliantly animated fight choreography that characterizes his stuff are in their full glory here. this truly feels like looking at a real life fight between swordmasters - youre legit gonna have to watch at .5x or go back a bunch of times to catch everything they do. its glorious. also i want mugen and jin to sandwich me who said that.

ok im kind of tired of typing and i think I managed to cover at least my favorites so heres some honorable mentions: panty and stocking, kill la kill regrettably plus trigger needs at least a little shoutout, devilman crybaby yes its good yes i stand by it you can fight me on this but it wont go well for you, mars red, bocchi the rock but you’ve probably already seen it, mob psycho if you havent seen this yet what are you even doing, sayonara zetsubou sensei but im warning you its very anime, urotsukidoji if you’ve got the stomach for it lol.

Maybe I should make a list of anime with good and interesting animation so more ppl can get taste lol

[ggthydrangea]

jisung is very cute 🥺 it’s funny but my office actually has a picture of a quokka above our printer (for some reason) and it makes me laugh bc it makes me think of him haha

i started out as an nct fan because around 3 yrs ago, one of my friends back in college showed me their mv for the 7th sense (still so good if u havent seen it) and i was intrigued bc it was so diff from what i thought kpop sounded like!! my hs friends had shown me svt videos (like pretty u) but i was like eh idk if this is for me…and look at me now hahaha. besides nct and skz, i also like txt, svt, day6, p1h and then there are a bunch of groups whose stuff i like and will listen to but i dont rly know anything about them yet! how about you, do you mostly follow skz and sf9? it does take a lot for me to get into a group fully so for the longest time i was just into nct bc i was like 23 men is enough for me 😂 i think now i like nct and skz the most, i like the other groups too but it takes a lot to reach top tier for me lol idk how to explain it but i feel like theres also an emotional aspect to it LOL like im not sure why exactly skz hit for me more than txt for example (though i also love txt) but it just happened 😂

it’s funny because back in 2020 a friend sent me some skz stuff and i was like oh gods menu and back door are dope but i was like idk if the rest of their stuff is my style hahahahaha and now i love that shit 🤣 i think nct noise music changed my music taste (for the better hehe)

THATS SO FUN u got to see skz live 🥺🥺 was it amazing?? im also in the US and im waiting for the day they come back on tour so i can see them (and lino 🥲) with my own eyeballs hahah. i went to kcon la this summer and technically saw skz live but i didnt know who they were at the time 😭 have u seen any other kpop groups? kcon la was actually my first kpop concert since i got into kpop back in 2020 and i’ve been to svt and nct127 concerts since which were both amazing 🫶 it must be so tiring but also exhilarating to perform and have ppl sing along to ur songs especially when it’s in an entirely diff language for the audience members

Haha that's so funny! A little Jisung reminder in your office! 🥺

Ooo yeah! I think The 7th Sense was my first NCT song too, it's so good!!! Do you have a favorite unit for NCT? What are your favorite songs? Who's your bias?

Those are some good groups to listen to!!! I totally get you on having a lot of groups that you listen to but don't follow. Yes at this point skz and SF9 are my main groups! I used to also be really into BTS, but with how little new music they've been putting out I kinda lost some interest, but I still love their music a lot! I'm the same, it takes so much for me to become fully invested in a group!!! For years it was just BTS and SF9, so I was kinda surprised when I got into skz as much as I did, but I'm really glad cause I've met so many cool people because of skz and I really love their music and the impact they've had on my life!!! Sometimes it just be that way, it's so hard to predict what your brain and heart will latch onto. 😔

Yeah, skz is definitely a group where you gotta be okay with a bit of noise! XD

Yes it was so cool!!! I loved it so much they're so amazing on stage!!! During their songs that didn't have choreo Chan was bopping around the stage and it was so so cute. 🥰 And in general they're such good performers!!! Oh my gosh that means you got to see Yeah live I'm so jealous 😭😭😭 That's so cool that you've gotten to go to concerts!!! I've been into kpop since 2016 and I've only been to two concerts, I don't get much kpop within driving distance. 🥲

[impartialbias]

Poképride 2022: Sylveon (9/9)

[manchesterau]

my thoughts after reading my policeman: SPOILERSS of course!! (ignore spelling or grammar mistakes) (this is very ramble-y and not as in depth as it could have been sorrryyy lol, if you want specifics send me an ask after reading this)

okay...so i read the book in 3 days....which....im very proud of myself bc it takes me so long to finish books but that’s not why you are reading this.

im not going to lie to you...i liked the book. i love angst, and this had plenty of it and i liked it. if you like books such as: harry potter, six of crows, red queen, red white and royal blue you will not like this book. i know many people found it boring, which yeah i can see that, but i didn't find it boring at all. but mostly because i love boring books but that's beside the point. 

the book flowed easily, there isn't a bunch of raunchy sex scenes that ive seen people say it has (i...the things ive read idk what book they even read????) and Tom does has backward views on marriage and what it means to be a wife. but he is not overtly sexist or misogynist or abusive, or subvertly those things either. to be frank he's a scared gay man in the 50s trying to not get caught and thrown in jail. that's literally it. (ill go more into detail on him later). but if you want to read this book i recommend you go in knowing that there will be homophobia (the word queer is used as a slur....3 times or 4 but no more than 5), expect outing, expect not supportive characters, and remember to have some compassion (more on this later).

next i want to go into characters: starting with tom, then Marion, then Patrick, and then the other characters. so if you are planning on reading this book or just dont want to be spoiled them....don't read the next bit.

Tom:

I'm going to get this out of the way.........Tom (who we never get to know outside of the two-point of views we are presented with, and who is being played by Harry) is a police officer in the 50s UK. to be frank when the rumors first went around I was mad like a lot of people were, which is funny because when we got those pictures of harry reading the book before all the speculation we were....happy, that he was reading a book about a gay man. now...I don't care honestly. I could call out the hypocrites (i won't) and honestly I'm hypocritical myself. I use to watch shows like svu (if you were to turn it on right now I wouldn't turn it off) and I enjoyed watching svu. I know and have seen a lot of mutuals, people on my dash enjoy cop shows like b99, or who like actors who have played the character of police before. so it would be hypocritical of me to be mad at him (this is just my single black opinion) and then go and turn on svu (which I don't do anymore). 

I'm not saying that no one can be mad, I'm not saying that the anger people have at him playing this role is bad or not needed or valid. all I'm saying is.....is that I don't care. I got angry over this months ago, and all that anger I felt I don't have anymore, and I can't tell you why. Harry is playing an abusive demented husband who traps his wife in a simulation, and then he will play a gay policeman trying not to face persecution..........and that's that. nothing I can say will reach him, he's playing these roles and there is nothing I can do. will I watch them (pirating of course) yes.

anyways let's get back to tom's character (do not use my opinion to silence other black people I will find you....don't do that shit weirdo): tom is......tom?? like I literally was expecting the worst when I read this because of what other people had to say. but as I'm reading him through the eyes of Marion (his wife) and through the eyes of Patrick (his...true love, fuck the 50s I hate the 50s) one word came to mind constantly: scared. Tom is very scared that he will be found out and his life will be ruined. His family knows about him, which is why I think his father (more on him later) pushed him to be in the national service (where he was a cook, which disappointed him). you don't realize his family knows and then his sister says something and then you go 'wait....THEY KNEW???' and then you will go 'oh so that's why-' 

tom does have old fashion views that you would expect of any man at that time (gay or not it's the 50s and gay men are still capable of saying sexist shit). when asked by Patrick if women should still work after having a kid he said no it's the men's job to provide, Marion said she would like to keep working, he said no when they do have a baby (they literally never did, and idk why he thought he could be intimate with her for that long to produce a baby lol). that's....the most sexist thing he said in the whole book (there maybe some small things im forgetting but nothing that really stood out). that's it. I know it's not small and that was a legitimate issue in the 50s but yeah. Just in case you were apprehensive about Tom's character being a raging woman-hater, no,....he just wasn't a true feminist yet (???? I don't know that's like..the most this book says about an issue women were facing at this time). It's still bad what he said (you'll see how Marion justifies it in the book and both Patrick and her don't agree and try and challenge him on his view).

i dont want to go too in depth but it is very obvious from the beginning he has no and i mean ZEROOOO interest in her at all (you can tell when it hits him that he needs a wife and he starts to act a littleee different but it's not romantic at alll). 

i feel like my review on tom is shit but like!! we don't really get to know him without bias from Patrick and Marion. I think Harry will play a wonderful Tom (even tho he doesn't not fit the description for Tom...at all....like at alllll).

To summarize Tom: very scared gay man from the 50s who is trying to do everything he can to not be found out. his family knows, even he knew at a young age, and yes he does quit being a police officer but it doesn't happen as soon as id like but then again he wasn't one for that long if you pay attention to the years.

Marion:

😑 

i just...if yall could see the notes i made on her.....

To summarize Marion: SHE IS LIVING IN LALA LAND, TOM LITERALLY SHOWS HER NO ROMANTIC INTEREST AT ALLL, AND WHEN SHE METS PATRICK FOR THE FIRST TIME SHE FREAKING NOTICES THAT HE'S ALL BLUSH-Y AND SHIT LIKE...GIRL.....

this is a note i wrote that sums up her and tom's relationship (which is more like friends then anything romantic i mean god their honeymoon was horrible and he proposed to her....nvm 😑)

listen...i can't lie and say i didn't feel sorry for her up until the end when she (spoilers: she outs patrick to his employer which ends up with him getting arrested). after that...ive never hated a character more in my fucking LIFEEEE like oh my god i was pissed

all she does is have fantasies about him being romantic with her (holding hands, hugging, etc) and none of them come true...BECAUSE HES GAYYYYYY i really....the author could have done a better job because there were so many damn red flags.

she's fucking annoying and whiny and yeah it sucked to be a woman in the 50s but you literally outed someone your husband was in love with and thought that you could just go back to being married like he's not devastated and instead of telling what you did you stayed unhappy and made your husband thing that at any point they were coming for him too.......*****

Patrick:

PATRICKKKKK

Patrick and tom deserved a fighting fucking chance i hate the fuck 50s fuck you 50s!!!! I absolutely LOVEDDD his pov and seeing Tom through his pov like it was just so damn refreshing seeing the world through his eyes and how he navigates his queerness in the society they live in. (the dichotomy between a proud gay man and a scared maybe proud but fear overrules that (talking about Tom here) gay man).

There was a lot more to say on how gay men were being persecuted at this time than how women were treated in this particular book. There were some little things here and there about what was expected of Marion as a wife and of a girl/woman at that time but it wasn't the focus.

I loved seeing the way Patrick navigated through his world of art and creativity. And how Tom seemed to fit right in with him.

I hate the things the author made Patrick go through (outed, sent to prison, stripped of his job, and later on in the present day he has had 2 strokes in his 70s). it felt a bit much but it's not too distracting (Patricks pov takes place in the past as he writes in his journal). 

Patrick and Julia (more on her later) are my two favorites in the whole book (Tom is third bc he's a very multi-facted character, Marion is not even on the list) and I wish we got a lot more of Patrick's pov.

Other characters!! (speed round bc this is wayyy too long):

Syvlie (Tom's sister): SYVLIEEE IM MAD AT YOUU I WAS ROOTING FOR YOU WHYY WHYYY

Julia: JULIAAAAA QUEEENNN (you'll see why i love her at the end) 

Tom's parents: his father is abusive point-blank. or at least i think he's abusive (verbally). as im writing this i am now realizing that the way Tom's mom reacts to him (sometimes crying) is bc they knew he was gay omg wow.

tom's dad is very much a man's man guy?? Picture a sexist man from the 50s....now picture him with a gay son.....yeah, I'm not surprised Tom went into national service then to the police force. you can tell he didn't want anyone to find out about Tom so he pushed him to do what he thought best and Tom went with it, scared. 

overall: please do not go into this book expected things to be all flowers and rainbows...this is a book about two gay men in the 50s yall.....

there is something to be said about the tragedy that is in a lot of queer stories, I'm more interested in how white these stories are (that's a rant for another time). but I don't mind my policeman, and i think stories like this should be told. because this actually happened (here is a link to em forster's story where the author takes inspiration from, he really had an affair with a policeman!!! who had a wife!!!).

the ending is bittersweet, and i couldn't help but curse for what could have been. Marion could have not outed Patrick (which she instantly regretted), she could have gotten a divorce (she even contemplated it), they could have been more secretive, Julia could have not said what she said. I think Patrick and Tom were sadly doomed from the start, I just wish they had more time together because I loved seeing their love (the little glimpse we got) bloom into something bigger than them.

thank you for reading!! here are random screenshots of my notes as i read this lol enjoy!!

can’t*

[ginjointsintheworld]

it just ocurred to me that we leyrens arent the only ones being let down. now i realize its not a matter of favorites or protagonists, its a matter of the writers being bad at making couples in general. aside from them cutting leyrens crucial dialogues and simply avoiding an earnest conversation about the bribe (dont get me started on the offscreen kiss i might as well pass out), we have sharpwin with a bunch of phone calls and everything being about max as usual, whatever the hell is going on with floyd, lyn and claude (rip evie) and the disservice they did to iggy and martin, who used to be the most stable pairing of the entire show. i kinda feel bad for sharpwins because i can feel the wedding will be all over the place (someone on twitter said helen might get married wearing a leather skirt lmao) and the fact that they exchanged a racist castle for a racist hospital rooftop is sad, helen did deserve something nice even if it was in ny. anyway, im happy/unhappy to realize that all couples in this show are equally built on unnecessary drama and crumbs of joy

there's a lot of inner peace and enjoyment to be found when we accept that new amsterdam is not a particularly well written show. like don't get me wrong, the writers definitely TRY their best but. the skill level is not there to execute the ideas they have sometimes lol (saved for my bias opinion of the stronger writers in the room but they're unfortunately relegated to story editors who only get to write one episode a season). but that honestly makes it easy to live with these storylines knowing that it's not out of malicious intent.

but yes, everyone's storyline and the overall cohesiveness of the show took a nose dive this season. of the main characters, helen taking the brunt of it since she went from her own individual identity to just being max's romantic interest and somehow London, which was suppose to be able her character backstory and development, was monopolized and then sidelined by max's story. Frankly I think of all the Bad Cards that were dealt out this season, lauren made it through decently. For as stupid as the donation plot and then the visa drama was, at least we saw some kind of consistency and end goal with what the writers had planned for her growth through this conflict. Tbh if the writers had allocated just a handful more scenes and screentime to lauren and leyla's story this season, it could've been a well done story. But the moments they chose to cut and be referenced in conversations instead (leyla coming to floyd about a rec letter, lauren tell leyla about her triggers, the additional money drop moments they had where lauren was more at ease) ended up making pacing feel rushed. Though I will say, I disagree about them avoiding earnest conversations about the donation because I think leyla said her piece in 4x10 and lauren said hers in 4x13. What's left and what I'd like to see is their conversation on how they move forward from it and I'm (probably foolishly) hopeful we'll get that in the finale.

ah well it is what it is. we've got one more episode left in the season and hopeful it's a good sign for better things to come in s5

[milkybonya]

Hi Milky!! I hope you had/are having a nice day today! Last night I finally told myself that I was going to TAKE A BREAK and it was so nice! I ended up watching all the T-Talk videos from that Twitter masterlist you gave me and omggg I was both laughing and awing the entire time!! The first one I watched was Jeongwoo and Haruto and I was straight up like wait when was this filmed why are they so awkward together 😭😭?? I was like.. Has treasure box even been filmed?? I got context later that it had but omg Haruto was a MENACE to Jeongwoo man was literally just trying to make convo and he was giving one word responses im so dead I can see why you'd bias him he's so funny!! But I also wanted to give Jeongwoo the biggest hug after that video and the other one he was in with yoshi. Sweetest boy truly 🥺 also these videos made me get slightly bias wrecked by Asahi 🥴 he's so iconic I literally can't I ended up watching a fan video afterwards of him "proving he is not human but instead a robot" and I Was ROLLING I also found two videos or treasure vs their editors and oh my gosh they were so funny jdndjsjs back in my treasure feels that's for sure!! I still think I'm Hyunsuk and Yoshi biased but maybe Asahi will become an official bias wrecker... Not sure yet! I'll keep you posted lol

Also I'm so so so glad you liked the songs!! Fallen Star and Illusion were written entirely by two of the members (Mujin and Dann!) so I love that they are my two favorite b sides!! Makes it feel extra special yanno?? And then Promise is such a kdrama vibe omg it's the first b side to get an MV actually!! It's a whole kdrama smashed into 3 minutes. Dann acted so well in the MV too!! Man killed it (as he should). You'll have to let me know what you think of the videos when you get the chance to watch them!! But I know you have a ton of midterms coming up so no rush and I am wishing you the best of luck!! I had a bunch of midterms two weeks ago but I'm in the home stretch now until finals. I only have 2 more weeks of classes 😮 I literally graduate in less than a month.. I can't believe it jdjsjs I'm taking an additional year to pursue a certificate so it doesn't really feel like I'm graduating but 🥴 scary nonetheless!

Also my gecko!! Yes he is the sweetest boy. I'm not sure if I've mentioned this before or not but I am studying Russian! I really love hockey and my fav player is Russian so... Gosh almost 8 years ago I started learning Russian bc I was interested in learning more about him and his culture. I actually got his Russian Olympic hockey jersey to wear to school but one of my friends called me a Communist bc of it (this is going somewhere I promise nfnsns). I was like bestie where lol and he said bc it was Russian I am a Communist so I was like.. I mean okay go off I guess. And so when I got my gecko he was like well since you're a Communist you definitely have to name him Stalin. And I was like lol dope sure. I like prefacing his name with the story of how it came about bc it can be jarring to some people and especially now with the invasion I don't want to give off the vibe that I actually support it 😭😭 especially since it all started with a silly joke about me being a Communist lol. But yes his name is stalin! A long roundabout way of telling you but ☺️ despite the name he is a total sweetheart

I look forward to hearing from you again soon! 💙

hello my love omg i'm so sorry i'm late :< i've had midterms aH as you know :( and today,, i'm going to see stray kids!! 4 hours left.. T.T

omg the T-talks are so chaotic hh they go from funny to therapeutic to wholesome,, :") Haruto can be jokingly cold sometimes hehe i love him ^3^ oH have you seen treasure's webdramas?? they have 2 ! in their first one, Haruto plays a very cold character but honestly he does it so well?? ahh

Asahi is seriously so cute but he's also such a genius ??? like the fact that he writes/composes masterpieces like orange and also paints/does art,,, king !

omg i love songs written by members thats so iconic?? and a kdrama-like mv? yes pls i can't wait to watch it later hehe

also you're so sweet?? thank you for being so kind with me and my midterms aHH i'm done them now thankfully! you have 2 weeks of classes left omg that's so exciting >.< maybe only one week left now by the time you see this??? AHH do you have any summer plans?! i hope all of your exams and your last days of class go well~

omg ,, yikes insensitive communist jokes are the worst :( i'm glad though that you were able to make something good out of it if that makes sense? and that it wasn't incredibly upsetting.

but wow you love hockey?! thats so cool!!! do you also play?!

also i'm so worried about the Ukraine situation,, a youtuber i love is living there and gives us updates, i also have a friend there and of course every persom living there is precious and does not deserve any of this :( ah it's so sad

have a lovely day/night and thank you for the cute pic hehe

[liquidstar]

I love re:zero so please feel comfortable sharing your thoughts because even if no one else does I sure as hell will enjoy them

oh i genuinely love it too i think its fun (in terms of the story from an outside perspective, not what happens in it, subaru is very clearly not having a fun time) i like the characters and the themes a lot, my personal favorite is the whole theme of "perception of the self through the other" which is like so prevalent in it (but really laid on thick in arc 6 and gluttony:if). and im the type of person that LOVES series and characters i can analyze into bits, i honestly could write an entire novel on that shit. that and part of my enjoyment of it probably does come from a bias of having enjoyed it with my brother tho bc it was fun watching it w him

its a weird show to talk abt tho bc of the association it has with all those weird nerdboys who completely missed the fact that the series is a critique of them because they were too busy jerking off to rem :/ like omg i like the show a lot but i hope to god no one lumps me in with that bunch bc of it 😭 not that i dont think the series doesnt have its fair share of flaws in that regard either, i still am critical of it and all that. and i can totally understand why some people would not have the tolerance for certain stuff in it, both in terms of its issues and its more gruesome moments, so its not a series i recomend to everyone.

still i legitimately love all the characters in it a lot and i think theyre what i enjoy about it the most. the entire emilia camp (save for rosewal. he knows what he did.) just owns my heart honestly. like, i cant even tell you for certain which my favorite is because i love them all. even garfiel who i thought was annoying at first (but then we find out hes actually an 8th grader so everything about him makes sense in retrospect). or ram who i think is totally underrated compared to rem like they both rock equally. and emilia after her character development in arc 4 and frozen bonds, she didnt shine a lot in season 1 but season 2 literally gave her like 90 minutes straight of backstory and development and now i completely understand subaru's willingness to throw away his life for her, i would too.

even subaru whos meant to be unlikable at first totally won me over, because he legitimately grew as a person. and i think the fact that we got his backstory in arc 4 was the PERFECT timing for it, because if we got it at the beginning it would have either been seen as an excuse to justify his behavior (which thankfully the series paints as explicitly in the wrong) or wouldnt hit as hard because youre not meant to like him. but after seeing him cry with his mom and dad youre just like wow hes literally just a kid, like, hes only 17. the trial is absolutely what finally got me to be a subaru fan lol. even before that there were things i liked abt him tho like how he cared about the village kids and how he was able to see rem's individuality. he was never a bad person at heart he just had some of that good ol fashion toxic masculinity early on and im glad he got over it and learned to not see people (esp women) as characters... now if only the nerdboys watching would do that too.

[e-uph0r1a]

Ult group tag ✨

Tagged by @jin7moon thank u for the tag bby♥

My ult group is bts of course so yeah

Band: BTS 

1. who was your first bias?

Taehyung, i remember watching Dynamite at the VMA’s an couldn’t get my eyes off of him, also his voice captivated me.

2. who is your bias now?

i’m YoonJin biased, at first Yoongi was my bias and i considerated Jin as my bias wrecker, but then i fell in love so hard with him that now is my bias lol.

3. what was the first mv you watched by them?

Dynamite (im baby army lol).

4. what’s your favourite mv?

ffffuck this is hard. i don’t have a favorite one, i have a bunch so: i love blood sweat and tears, black swan, ON the kinetic manifesto film, Stigma, but Run, I need U and Euphoria got a special place in my heart and makes me emotional af.

5. if you could only listen to one of their songs for the rest of your life, which would it be?

I need U.

6. who would you want to see them collab with?

the rapline with Gorillaz, and i can’t think of anything else because almost everything i listen to is rock music lol.

7. what (mv) concept do you want to see them do?

i want the bts universe storyline again (i know i wasn’t part of it when that came off), but i really liked not understanding a single thing lmao. Also i think it has more depth and is not just them looking pretty.

8. have you ever had a dream with any of the members in it?

yes, tons of times. i remember once i dreamt i was flirting with Jimin lmao. yesterday i dreamt i kissed Jungkook, and one time i also kissed Yoongi (imma slut). Kim Seokjin, im on my way to kiss you too haha.

9. if you could spend a day with one member, who would it be and what would you do?

Taehyung and Yoongi. I could go to art museums with Taehyung and also take photos (i love photography as well). And with Yoongi we can spend the afternoon playing the guitar and maybe cook something together (although he looks like he loves having control in the kitchen and does everything by himself lol).

10. which member do you think you would get along with best?

Jin, Jungkook and Yoongi.

11. which member do you think you would argue with

Jimin, he has like a bratty attitude at times and can be annoying af, and im more of a chill person. (no tea no shade Jimin ily).

12. if you had to let one member scroll through your tumblr, who would it be?

i think Jungkook will laugh a lot and not judge me lol.

i tag: @greatbigstorm @yglesbian @maybebi47 @rudy-hobbit @so-i-switch-off @rainbepourin

[bamboobrat]

ranking j. smith-cameron’s appearances on law and order

first of all i would like to thank @gerrikillallmen​ who posted this and led me to discover that our dear queen general counsil has been in not one, not two, but indeed SEVEN episodes of some iteration of law and order:

seeing as i have never seen a single episode of this show before tonight, i’m clearly the most qualified to rank all of these appearances!

and also, i feel as though this needs to be emphasized, these are SEVEN DIFFERENT CHARACTERS. it just seems like there might be.... to many episodes of this show? but hey, at least its helping new york actors pay rent!

also copaganda amirite

number 7: endgame (2007)

ok so some serial killer on death row tells a priest that he has a binder full of women (ouff...) hidden in the attic of his old house or something. j’s character comes in pissed and asks them to please remove her picture from the internet or whatnot because she’s not missing, but all the other women in the binder (again, ouff...) have not been found. 

ranked low because there’s simply not enough j in it for it to be worth it. if you’re into poor man’s bernie sanders, succession’s own gil is in this, but i’m afraid uncut gems has kinda ruined that man for me indefinitely. 

number 6: take-out (2009)

j plays an lawyer, which we can all appreciate. i swear, after going through her imdb and subsequently watching numerous rogue episodes of shows (of various quality...) just to catch a glimpse of j herself (quarantine has been rough lol), i can safely say most of this woman’s career consists of playing lawyers on procedurals. 

the glasses and the whole lawyer thing made me think of gerri, which is probably why it is not last. 

number 5: severance (1993)  

j plays some sort of business-y art person who dated a guy who was killed in a parking lot and then she gets oxygen whilst being questioned by mr. big. that’s pretty much it, if im honest. the valet knows a lot of stuff about quebec for some reason? 

YES its above the other two because j looks so cute. sue me. 

number 4: flight (1998)

oh dear oh dear, our favorite stone cold killer bitch is married to a psycho in this one who says she’s not stimulating enough for him. frankly unrealistic. she looks very sad all the time and i want to give her a big hug. her acting is sublime and i was actually sorta interested in the plot. 

oh and we got this hairdo. nice. 

number 3: educated guess (2011) 

natasha lyonne plays her daughter in this one, which, at first glance, should probably mean this deserves the #1 spot, but listen... this was the seventh episode i watched of law and order in one evening and i was lowkey losing my will to live. it’s just so... dire. suv especially. i can’t envision ever wanting to watch 20+ SEASONS of a show about sexual violence. 

heavy episode. i liked the whole “believe women” vibes it was giving me. js performance was beautiful and sad :(

number 2: poison (2001)

i could only find a really horrible version of this episode, as you can see by the lovely screengrab, but still, this episode was a GREAT time. she basically plays (spoiler alert but also its a law and order episode from 2001) an adult sized child who goes around poisoning people for no apparent reason and is willing to let her mother take the blame for her until she finds out it might hurt her chances at getting into an MLM. 

i also loved how she thought she was being so smart, but in reality, she was so so so dumb. 10/10 for psychopathic killer representation. also, i’m starting a rumor gerri poisoned baird. 

number 1: blaze (2003)

some may accuse me of bias, claiming i’m ranking this episode so high because of the clear gerri resemblance. and to those people, i say, yes. but also fuck you. it’s a legitimately great episode. a bunch of asshole “rockstars” set a venue on fire during a show and this one girl is like soooo edgy and her mom is like soooo square but in reality her mom is played by j. smith-cameron and she looks like this:

ugh... hot.

anyway, so basically the teenage daughter has to admit in court in front of everyone (including her mom) that she slept with the old has-been rocker before the show and she says something along the lines of “we screwed” and i laughed and thought, wow, 2003 was a wild time. also, the ending... guys, i’m not going to spoil this one for you, but... 10/10

also, eyebrows from grace and frankie/newsroom was in this one, which i was thrilled about. good times. 

[scoupssolo]

hi again dreamy! to answer your question, my bias is the8 and bias wreckers are the rest 😵‍💫 I have another question for you! what are your favourite edits that you’ve done in the seventeen fandom? your works are all so good I can’t pick one ! - carat anon ✨

Honestly loving svt is truly just being ot13 on a rotating scale of whoever you're looking at at any moment lmao theyre truly the best.

As for my favorite edits I have a lot so i apologize lol some of them arent svt and are OLD too but here we go:

This I made for Day6's If and i LOVED it when I made it, i learned a bunch of stuff while trying to make it, it has a lot of mistakes but I'm still really proud of it!

This SVT part switch! it was SO fun to make and I love how it turned out ^^ I alos learned a few things making it... which might be a theme actually

This leader line thing - it's a remake of an older gfx that is not... great... so redoing it and doing WAY better was nice to see how my skills had evolved.

This for skz Side Effects - I don't know i look at it and it makes me happy. I think it really represents the song well so im proud of it!

and my FAVORITE thing i've ever made is THIS fear graphic. It was just supposed to be me fooling around to kill bordeom and it just kept clicking really well and I ended up being SO proud of how it came out ^^

ah it was fun to go trhough my lil portfolio blog to pick out graphics so thank you for that sweet heart!!

[cosmojjong]

Pentagon, wjsn and red velvet (so you have something to do and occupy your mind ❤️)

thank you so much love ❤️ i wasn’t home so i couldn’t reply straightaway!

pentagon

do i already stan them? YES | only for the music | attempting to | no

if i’m familiar with them

my bias + bias wrecker*: changgu is my bias and shinwon is testing me <3

first time i heard of them: debut day! their mv link ended up on my tl

when i became a fan: definitely right after debut, i spent at least 2 good months listening to gorilla and cyfi, my bestfriend then probably hated all my pentagon ranting lmao

favorite (and least favorite) title track: favorite will probably always be like this, it helped me so so much. and for least favorite (if that’s how i can put it) is can you feel it and that’s mostly because i listened to it too much then and also bc they didn’t have much creative control over it

favorite (and least favorite) b-side: this is so hard i literally love all pentagon songs.... favorite bside is maybe.. alien or the black hall? and nah i can’t choose a least favorite bside because there’s no bad song

favorite (and least favorite) mv: favorite mv is happiness mv! free ot9 serotonin! least favorite mv is.. gorilla.. like listen i know it was something big for my universe journey but cube could’ve done better

favorite (and least favorite) album: favorite album is 100% ‘genie:us’! love or take may be a close second, or we:th. don’t have a least favorite mini sorry im a sucker for their music

a concept i wished they’d try*: LITERALLY all my friends know i’ve wanted them to go band for the longest time ever. i know they’ve done something here and there especially with do or not but i know they’d pull off a proper one so well, they can play a bunch of instruments too pleaseeee

what i like most about them*: their genuineness and uniqueness in and with everything they do. the type of passion and sincerity they share with their music, with their words, with their simple existence are one of a kind - not something you’d find anywhere.

wjsn

do i already stan them? yes | only for the music | attempting to | no (highlighting both because i am not sure which category i fit into lol)

if i’m familiar with them

my bias + bias wrecker*: don't think i have a bias or bias wrecker they're all great 😭

first time i heard of them: when secret mv dropped! i watched catch me mv right after cause i was curious

when i became a fan: again im not a (proper) fan but yeah hdjd ive been casually listening to their releases

*i’ll choose only favorites because i can’t remember all songs help especially bsides

favorite (and least favorite) title track: uhhh favorite title track is definitely dreams come true, it reminds me of two special people in my life and how lucky i feel to have met them - the lyrics and the melody are so precious

favorite (and least favorite) b-side: favorite bside is either closer to you or don’t touch - however i don’t have all songs in mind so i may be forgetting something 

favorite (and least favorite) mv: favorite mv is secret mv!

favorite (and least favorite) album: can’t choose this one oops i know their discography but idk all songs well so i’m not able to decide;;

a concept i wished they’d try*: wjsn the black did it hehe i wouldn’t change their concepts as a whole

what i like most about them*: their dream-like concepts and their execution of them - i really love dream pop so there’s that

red velvet

do i already stan them? yes | only for the music | attempting to | no (same thing as for wjsn, except for the fact that i followed and kept up with red velvet much more in the past!)

if i’m familiar with them

my bias + bias wrecker*: yeri + joy

first time i heard of them: a friend mentioned them to me in high school but ice cream cake was the first song i listened to later in time

when i became a fan: 2016, i was so into them and they were one of the first ggs i liked after 2ne1

favorite (and least favorite) title track: favorite title track is ‘one of these nights’, it’s funny ‘cause i didn’t even like it at first but then i loved it so much... least favorite title track idk 

favorite (and least favorite) b-side: favorite bside has to be body talk (omg it used to be all i listened to lmao) and least favorite bside idk :( it’s been a while since i relistened djhd

favorite (and least favorite) mv: favorite mv is bad boy! not sure about least favorite mv because almost all their mvs are colorful and i crave colorful things for some serotonin 

favorite (and least favorite) album: i have two favorites! perfect velvet and the perfect red velvet! least favorite album is maybe.. russian roulette? admittedly i used to obsess over certain eps and forgot the rest

a concept i wished they’d try*: not sure because they’ve tried a lot of things but something similar to psycho or one of these nights

what i like most about them*: i think red velvet have their own color that you can recognize but can’t put into words, i think that’s their charm imo 

[softrenjunnie]

Who are your favorite tumblr writers? & their best works?

ooooh there are so many amazing writers out there, so so so many!!! can’t name them all but my faves right now are

@heartkyu (all their writings about nct dream is super good aaaah i’m in love)(my fave works are probs shipped w jisung and pranked w donghyuck)

@chenle (honestly how did they even get that name? im jealous >:( but anyway their stuff is so gooood i usually don’t read bullet imagines but i’m always willing to make an exception when it’s theirs)(i eSPECIALLY recommend patch me up w jisung of skz and fuck you (and you and you) w hyunjin aah)

@cappujinho (okay so listen, i’m a sucker for optional bias imagines because i stan a bunch of groups w like 0 writers, and i can also use them for biases in popular groups. cappujinho writes soooo well, it’s insane)(pretend and 9:00 am are my faves but they have so many other wonderful fics too)

@knightly-whispers (hands down one of the best writers in the kpop community, their 101 kisses scenarios have be dead eeeeeveryyyy time!!!!!)

@selfindulgenx (another writer for optional bias fics, and they’re super super amazing... i think i’ve read making rainbows and sweet dreams too many times)

@vibranthuesofkpop (i love this entire blog but the series psycho?? that shit is insanely good. honestly, reading the psycho parts make me cry because they’re all so beautifully written and give me so many feelings at the same time and— i can’t even explain it properly, just read it)

@inctlife (as i mentioned before, this blog gives me lifeeeee! gemma writes dad!nct scenarios (and dad!skz on ) and it’s just so amazing to read. her imagines makes me feel like i need to marry renjun or i’m gonna die in sadness)(my faves are everything w renjun, jaemin & donghyuck, not just the scenarios but also all the random headcannons, just search for a member’s name and you’ll find so much more good stuff!!!!)

also i have a blog where i repost some of my fave scenarios (and some prompts and writing tips and other stuff lol), which is @vkookers so check that out if you wanna!! i’m quite picky on it though lmao i only reblog like one post per month so there aren’t a lot of posts....