#this next week is gonna be busy for me with work bc of thanksgiving so I don't have an exact date to give you guys

[animalcrossingshowdown]

Best K.K. song final secondary bracket results:

K.K. Disco 51.7% / Stale Cupcakes 48.3%

Last time Cupcakes faced off against Disco, it was an extremely close match the whole week. The lead kept switching back and fourth, until Disco took the win with 50.3% of the 1137 votes. This time Disco was a much stronger opponent! It started the week strong with well over 60% for the first ~600 votes. Stale Cupcakes slowly shrunk the gap, but never passed it the entire time. With almost twice as many votes (2170), Disco is now definitively on top!

The final round starts tomorrow and it is another rematch! Last time it was also extremely close, and Disco actually held the lead over Bubblegum for most of the first few days, until Bubblegum finally beat it with 50.6% of 1348 votes. It's not over yet!

[cishetamine]

lily rose depp

they were calling her a nepo baby

ticketmaster investigation

i waited in that queue for 7 fucking hours

i waited 7 hours

and my dad waited 7 hours

the cheapest tickets were like $200

and taylor swift’s apology was so fucking bullshit

i do feel like it wasn’t totally in her control

harry stiles and ed sheeran

they

he’s the #1 most listened person on spotify!

i was so pissed off on tuesday

i saw how long the queue was when i tried to join

he paid like $500 for VIP

the fees are bad!

yeah they add up!

i’ve been scouting out tickets

it was row 2 of the 3rd tier

it should’ve been 80, it bumped up to 120 in fees

so i decided i was

there’s an app they were promoting on tiktok

you pay like a monthly membership and u get like a shitload of discounts

i hope ticketmaster gets like taken down

this is the community college i’m gonna go to!

i’d be terrified to—

did you sign up for classes next semester?

hopefully i can transfer to UIC

wait what

are you..a sophomore with your credits?

seems like their studies were interrupted

college algebra i should be okay with but biology is just not my thing

i’m gonna take speech next semester, which is required for PR

it’s so fun watching her interact with the snow

baby’s first snow

public speaking

it’s a requirement for my major

my brother took it for

business degree

i hate listening to my voice on camera

you have to talk abt stupid things

he did his on why videogames are like bad for kids

which they don’t talk abt in college as much these days. bc they’re like too talked about

the last 2 months of my philosophy class last year we just did political debates like every single day

ppl are afraid teachers won’t grade them fairly bc there’s lots of opinion and bias

canadian college

abortion and euthanasia were all not allowed

ooh there’s the dugout

is that a bar?

is that the rooftop right there?

it’s actually really cute.

ohh! he’s going on a cruise i think! with like regina’s family over thanksgiving.

he straight up told me that [pronoun indecipherable] doesn’t like having sex

like receiving it?

you’re so selfish

what’s wrong with you!

i saw her private story

all she does is post like carter and monty, that’s it.

when she got accepted she said she hasn’t even toured it yet

she skipped it to go to starbucks with us

i’ve never met anyone lazier in my fucking life

community college

you don’t wanna end up like her that’s for sure

my mom said

if you’re gonna drop out and never go back,

i was telling

holding me here against my will

your family needs a reality tv show

it would get so many views

sister

my parents had to flush her pills down the toilet

bc you’re only supposed to be taking them for like 2 weeks

her like SCREAMING in the background. like SCREAMING

she was hooked on oxy

i’m excited for the new season

they canceled it!

They canceled it?!!??

there was rumors about a bunch of major actors leaving the show

sidney sweeney

trump supporter

i love when the internet comes in with opinions

i feel like you can’t really cancel an actor unless they do something

armie hammer! yeah he works at a hotel now

there was like leaked—

just got put on netflix which is like, shit timing

everyone likes the summer in italy

i’ve always liked

2 more stops

i don’t know…i don’t see the appeal

it doesn’t look that great to me but i want to see it

don’t worry darling

i didn’t neeed to see it

walk out of the theater like after watching interstellar

if you’re not gonna make a sequel don’t you dare leave a movie un..

i know the harry stans are going crazy right now.

i look at him more and more like he’s not all that. he looks like a lot of other people

great personality, but

he’s that one person who’s like too into tiktok trends like he’s right behind them

i’ve never been to a harry styles concert but

it also pissed me off how long it took him to reveal what the gender was

there was like a part 2 like what the fuck, just put it in 1 video!

i wish i’d got starbucks before i came here

we’re going to a cafe!

yeah but

very.. adult drinks

do you need your chocolate—

haha yeah, kinda!

i like the sugar cookie—

the gingerbread latte

my sister

you were there for this

my sister was like:

i can’t wait for christmas so i can get a peppermint mocha!

and i was like how many times do i have to tell you: you can get a peppermint mocha year round!

yeah, but it’s different when it’s christmas!

hits different

[allison-went-home]

Blog 2: The Squeakuel

Today I woke up to two emails and a missed call from my psychiatrist. Nothing makes me feel special-er. He wanted to meet with me at noon. I told him about my muscle spasms and my basket. I also told him that I couldn't really do any work yesterday because I was too interested in eating paper. He did not like to hear that. He prescribed me Abracadabrazone and arranged to see me next week.

Right after my appointment ended, my mom stuck her head in my room and told me to meet her outside in 20 seconds. I obliged and it wasn't until we were already driving away that she told me we were going to pick up a secondhand rug.

We drove out to a fancy condo in Ocean Shores. Dear Old Shan locked the keys in the car but we headed inside to collect the rug anyway.

It was a really lovely gay couple and we had to admit to them that we were locked out of our car (so they wouldn't think we were loitering.) They were really nice but you could tell they weren't expecting their buyers to have so many personal problems.

It took like an hour for my dad to drive out and unlock the car for us. The window was cracked slightly so we busied ourselves with trying to push the unlock button with sticks. For you out-of-towners, Ocean shores is quite literally only beach. There aren't trees. So by "stick", I mean "firm piece of beach grass." It was pretty messy.

Anywho, we eventually got on our way. Since at this point we were quite off script, my mom decided to swing by the YMCA and pick up an exercise bike since they're lending them for FREE. The boy at the counter and I told him we were fine bc we were "big women." That didn't resonate with him well.

After that we had to pick up my Auntigermizol, so we cruized on over to Rite Aid. My Assbasketine wasn't gonna be ready for another 30 minutes, so we tooled around and picked out some prizes for tomorrow's Mandatory Thanksgiving Bingo. I cannot disclose the prizes to you, because it is a surprise.

My last point is that, if I were still on campus, we would drive around in the car together and there would be an opportunity to make you guys listen to music. Have any of y'all heard Two Trucks by Lemon Demon? Even if you all have, humor me and turn it on.

Cheers,

Allison

[quantumarvel]

@oh-snap-bucky and I like to scream fic concepts at each other a lot. I, somehow, convinced her to let me share them with yall. Here’s a recent one. 

It all started with this post (please read the tags)

Courtney: can we talk about this cause wow 

Sam: you thought up an entire fic 

Sam: we stan 

Sam: sitting under a tree and rEADING 

Courtney: Sammy help me out here cause I may just roll with this

Courtney: how do they meet? 

Sam: Park? Library? Cafe?

Courtney: library 

Courtney: he looks vaguely homeless and he’s BRILLIANT and studying something to do with poetry 

Sam: English major? I think yes 

Courtney: and she’s studying at the library and has to keep pushing her glasses back up her nose and she’s tapping her pencil on her chin 

Courtney: and he can’t help but SAY SOMETHING cause she’s pretty ya know but also cause she’s currently reading the only copy of the book he needs 

Courtney: and she’s like ha good luck cause this poet guy doesn’t make any sense 

Courtney: and of course Bucky understands it 

Courtney: but poetry isn’t her major, she just has to read it for like this one class she has to take so she can get her teaching degree 

Courtney: he’s all knowledgeable in poetry and junk and she just… doesn’t get it. Like at all. And he thinks its adorable. And she’s all “I’m gonna be a history teacher idk why i even need this.”

Courtney: and being the flirt he is, he offers to tutor her 

Courtney: and she knows EXACTLY what he’s doing 

Courtney: says yes anyway  

Courtney: so they start meeting up on Thursdays at the library 

Sam: I support her saying yes anyway 

Sam: bc we get that

Sam: take your chance girl 

Courtney: they spend a couple of hours talking about how this poet dude was annoying and pretentious and a douche and he’s like, “just imagine all this being said but the whitest, richest, most uptight dude you can think of” and she starts to Get It but also thinking of it like that makes it SO FUNNY 

Sam: “oh so he’s just being a spoiled brat?” 

Sam: okay so for how long do they meet at the library? 

Courtney: oh this lasts the rest of their first semester. They met in like September and they get together every Thursday and she invited him to a Halloween party some of her friends are throwing and they accidentally show up in complimenting costumes (probably different Breakfast Club characters cause I’m dumb) and he complains about having to go home for Thanksgiving (she still doesn’t know what kind of a family she comes from) and they text the whole break and when they get back they hang out so much more than just on Thursdays and by the time Christmas rolls around, they get each other the sweetest gifts right before they leave for break and standing in the train station (they’re both taking trains home but going different directions), he realizes how long he’s gonna be without her and they’re both getting kinda choked up, more than you would if you had to leave a friend for a nearly month and they’re making all these promises to call and text and “maybe I’ll write you?” and after like the nineteenth hug, 

Courtney: he realizes that the girl he’s been halfway in love with since the fall maybe likes him back? the girl he’s been opening his jacket to tucking her against him to shield her from the “stupidly cold” wind. the girl that shares her candy corn and bring him hot chocolate when the temperature drops below 40. the girl who reads poetry books that he recommends cause he just KNOWS that if he finds the right style, she’ll fall in love with it. the girl that he spends so much time with that he knows which colors mean what on her color coded notes. the girl that he helped bandage up when she was too busy staring at a dog to notice the raised pavement and when she tripped, he felt it in his chest. the girl that tells him that she knows he deserves better than the hurt he carries in his eyes. the girl that doesn’t know anything about his past, but knows him. the girl he feels so lucky to be around. that girl. she’s looking at him right now like it hurts her like it does him to part ways. and maybe he realizes then that he has a chance? so he musters up just enough courage to press a kiss to her forehead and walk her to her train. as he watches her disappear down the tracks, he decided that when he sees her again after the new year, he’ll take her to a museum or a planetarium or a park or something, and he’ll ask her to take a chance on him.

Courtney: (he doesn’t get the chance because when she asks for his address to send him a Christmas card, she really drives up to Brooklyn from Boston just to give him a New Years kiss. his parents aren’t home (to his relief) but Becca absolutely adores her)

Sam: ummmmmm

Sam: that’s gorgeous 

Sam: and so so so heart wrenching 

Sam: but SHE DRIVES TO BOSTON 

Courtney: it’s only like 200 miles yeah 

Sam: only 

Sam: for a kiss 

Sam: that’s a lot 

Sam: for a FIRST kiss at that 

Courtney: okay I should clarify 

Sam: yes please do 

Courtney: she get there at like 7:30pm and he answers the door and he’s so happy to see her but he’s like “?? why are you here?” and she’s blushing and “well I wanted to talk to you... in private...” which makes Bucky look over at Becca who’s 15 and standing at the other end of the foyer. “It’s my house too.” And he just rolls his eyes and takes his girl outside cause that’s not the fight he wants to have rn. anyway so they go walk through the garden and it’s all so pretty cause the Christmas lights are still up and the stars are out. “what do you have to talk to me about that’s so urgent that you couldn’t wait until next week and had to drive 200 miles instead of just calling me?” he’s all smiles. “I, um... I wanted to tell you that I uh... I think I like you? Like a lot? No, I know I do. And I have, for a while. And I can’t it out of my head, when you kissed my forehead at the station, and I KNOW that sounds ridiculous and childish but I can’t stop thinking about it and how maybe you like me too and yeah sure that could’ve waited but I needed to KNOW cause to be perfectly honest, I’d really like to be your New Years kiss this year, which again, dumb and childish but I do and so I didn’t really think, I just decided to take a chance. I’m sure I’m making a complete fool of myself right now too, like that idiot poet we read about in September but you told me something once about stepping out of your comfort zone and taking chances and so that’s what I’m doing, I’m taking your advice, so you really have no one else to blame here but yourself and-“ he finally just puts a hand over her mouth cause he can tell she’s working herself up into a frenzy. When she finally looks up at him, he’s smiling. He takes his hand away, “you came a few hours early for a New Years kiss” And for some reason that embarrasses her more than anything else has. “Ugh I know I just, I just couldn’t wait any more. I paced around my parents house for three hours and spent another two in this diner once I got to town. Think I would’ve gone mad if I waited any longer.” He laughs and tells her “well it’s...” a quick glance at his watch “7:59pm right now. It’s midnight somewhere.” And even though he takes his time, and she knows what he’s about to do, the kiss still surprises her.

Sam: I’m screaming 

Sam: “It’s midnight somewhere” 

Sam: I can imagine Becca totally seeing all this happen from the window

Sam: keeping quiet bc “that was kinda sweet I guess” 

Sam: okay okay okay even if you don’t write this part i gotta know 

Sam: what happens after New Years? 

Courtney: Oh after New Years, they’re disgusting. STUPIDLY in love and constant heart eyes and “darling/baby/doll/sweetheart/honey” and they’re ALWAYS TOUCHING. like, hugging all the time and holding hands and tucking hair behind her ear and linking pinkies and he always has an arm around her shoulder and it’s all adorable and innocent and TOOTH ACHINGLY SWEET. she reads to him and plays with his hair (braids it when it gets long enough) and laughs at all his jokes and just adores him. he cooks her dinner a lot and carries her books and takes pictures of her and gives so many sweet kisses on her forehead, temple, nose, chin and (finally) mouth and just adores her.

Courtney: he picks her flowers in the spring when they have a picnic by a pond and she ties them together into a crown and puts it on him. that night, he takes one and presses it into the back of the book she gave him for his birthday

Sam: I love this so much 

Sam: he wears the flower crown 

Sam: and rocks it 

Courtney: she meets his parents at his birthday party. they insist on throwing this big party every year and this is the first year since he was like 10 that he actually enjoys it. she wears this pretty floral dress and curls her hair and just about knocks the breath out of him when he opens the door. she’s nervous and he squeezes her hand as they walk up to them. all she really remembers is Bucky introducing them and the way her mom smiles and says “so you’re the one that got him to finally shave that hobo scruff” and thing is, she wanted him to keep it cause she loved the expression on his face when he saw how it turned her skin red but he insisted on shaving it for a job interview (that his parents didn’t know about) but Bucky saves her from clarifying by saying that he’s going to take her to get something to drink. they drink punch that turns their mouths red and stay huddled together giggling in the corner (Bucky was doing his best impression of Mr. Harris from his dads company) until his mother comes and insists that he comes and mingles with company people cause in her mind, Bucky will be joining his father soon. Bucky tells his girl to meet him at the pond behind the house in half an hour before being dragged off

Sam: the look of “help me” as he’s walking away but like his ma is talking so much and his gal tells him to pay attention and he just winks before giving her this ridiculously gorgeous grin 

Sam: her and becca chat a little more and she introuced her to their grandmother bc grandma Barnes couldn’t wait another second more 

Courtney: I love Grandma Barnes 

Sam: boo me too 

Sam: literally her and his gal get on like a hose on fire and she completely forgets to meet him and he appears after waiting five minutes 

Sam: his hands rest on her shoulders and he looks between them “see you two seem to be having a ball”  

“oh we are” 

“I was just telling this sweetheart about your 11th birthday party, do you remember that one James?” 

Courtney: “There was a petting zoo incident.” 

[jjkfire]

Hi sweety! How are you doing? Is life treating you right? How’s the job going? I heard it’s Thanksgiving there! Hope you got a nice meal with great ppl! Just wanted to check up on you and say how thankful I am that you’re here and happy and for your work! Seeing you achieving the things you wanted and living life your own way makes me very happy! Hope you have a great weekend!

hello!!!!!!!! oh my gosh i am so sorry for the late reply lol i have had such a busy month and i always feel like i take time to reply to your asks because i don’t want them to be half-assed replies ): anyway i’ll reply to this ask and the others under the cut!

//i’ll reply to this new ask first! but i’m good :D how are you??? it is thanksgiving and i spent it with my friend’s family hehe so it was great. i ate a lot which made me very happy and i also got to see my friend whom i haven’t seen in a few months hehe. again, you’re so nice and sweet and although thanksgiving is an american thing haha i hope you had a wonderful week and weekend regardless of that. i hope you too are out there achieving the things you want in life!!!

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Sweet pumpkin pie (cause Halloween is around the corner)! I was fast replying this time! You know, I really don’t mind the negativity around me, ppl being false and not treating me “right” as long as I’m myself and kind and generous. I don’t tolerate being disrespected and stuff and am fierce and scary when I’m standing my ground, but only when necessary. You know, negativity and victimization is an option; we always have a choice, so I chose to absorb all the positive things and silverlinings +

The course called Now is basically self-help. It’s lead by a very famous psychiatrist Roberto Shinyashiki and Arthur and lots of guests, like Fernando Scherer; they coach you to get to your top performance, what’s stopping you from getting what you want, show successful cases, do a lot of regression exercises and other things to organize your mind. It’s orchestrated to be empowering as you’re surrounded by 3 thousand people. It can be used in your personal/social life, finance or business/career

I’m sure gonna check the books you recommended. I will recommend “Decifre e Influencie Pessoas” – Paulo Vieira and “O Corpo Fala” – Pierre Weil, if there’s a translation in English to have a better understanding of human beings. I do really like Jung’s Man and His Symbols and “About Behaviorism” by Skinner. If you haven’t checked them yet and are interested, do it. It’s a pretty heavy reading, but so enlightening. The human mind fascinates me!

Everything is so nice right now! I feel so happy. Hope you’re felling the same way too! This weekend I met so many friends and even went to Beco do Batman. I posted (and will be still) the pics in the other blog (if you search for the tag pp-epiphany, it’ll show). And if you ever revive your photo blog or create a photo Instagram account, I would love to see it, if you don’t mind! I made that blog to remind me of the good things I get to experience.

It makes me extra happy to hear you felt nostalgic (or as we say here: com saudades) the lead you to revisit your old blog! As always, I wish you’re having such an amazing time in this new life and that you never loose your brightness and shine at anything you put your mind to. Have a great day, even better week and a super duper amazing weekend. And if you enjoy Halloween, happy spooky season! Hope you go to a lot of parties and have fun!!! Ps excel sheets are the sexiest thing on pc. Period.

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can’t believe it took me more than a month to reply ): i am genuinely so sorry but time passes by so fast! i will reply faster next time, i promise! but yes, don’t let people step all over you but also always remember to be kind haha. sounds contradictory but i think there’s a fine line and as long as you are aware and you’re happy then all is good. and yeah the power of positivity is amazing! i think people laugh at it but personally, it helps me a lot.

oh yes i’ve defo heard of roberto shinyashiki! did you find the course helpful? i’ve watched the netflix documentary on tony robbins’ course and perhaps because i wasn’t there in person, i didn’t feel its power. everyone interviewed really seemed to have loved it tho.

wahhh nice book recs and yes that is definitely some heavy reading hahaha if i ever find the time, i’ll look into those! i’ve been getting into audiobooks lately bc i find it easier to listen to books on my way to work so maybe if i find them on audible, i’ll give it a listen. same. love the human mind and all the things we do and don’t know about it

i’m glad you’re feeling happy and that you got to meet your friends and got to go to places. i’ve seen the pics!!! the artwork is amazing and i loved the pic you took of the flowers too :D i’ll defo let you know the insta handle when and if i ever make it HAHAHA. and my old blog is honestly just reblogs and not photos i’ve personally taken haha so it’s nothing great but com saudades indeed (”:

i hope all is well with you and that you’re very happy and loving life too! i didn’t do anything for halloween but definitely enjoyed the vibes and seeing the decorations all over the neighbourhood. people had crazy inflatables and all this amazing decor. it was great! and yes excel sheets are my life!!!!

i hope you too continue to bring happiness to those around you and also do things that make you happy and fulfill you!!!! :3 i know my replies are always late but please know that i 10000% appreciate getting these messages from you!

[ofphcenixes]

BLUE & LIBBY - text thread 001

texts from 3:55pm to 7:01pm

blue

hey lib. (: havent talked today. just wanted to drop in and see if u were doin alright i have memes if u need them

libby

i mean, technically we did talk. i reminded you of the moment the world stood still: when valentine and you made contact (1) time. are you okay though? you seem a little, weird

blue

i maintain that valentine was an alien in a spider suit that wanted to destroy me but u know what I mean djdjdjd just chats between us. the gc has been a june holden fest lately lmao hope it works out for them tho anyways i am always weird in ur eyes djdjhd. but im fine. shit was crazy that night and we never really got to talk about what happenedand if u wanted to talk i just want u to kno im here ABOUT NADIA bc yeah kdjdjjd

libby

don't talk to me or my son ever again yeah, wow, okay so holden stayed over the night. i only know that because i saw his stuff in her room? i think she mentioned that like, it was a one time thing but i feel like... he might be coming over again which.. is Interesting oh. yeah, no i think i'm okay. i guess just in shock. june is very broken up over it, so i'm doing my best to be a good pal, and bring loads of ice cream and kisses. /: do you wanna talk? about nadia? i know that she like, meant something to you

blue

ok good luck getting me to stop talkin to u but as for valentine? bye Felecia! is that right. hmm well he doesn’t seem like much is goin on so maybe they were just,, hanging out. bringing a bag over is pretty damning tho. and if he does come over and u see him tell that bih he owes me $ bc he ate my fucking chorizo salad ): r u proud lib?? I ate a salad by choice well I would have if Holden wasn’t a lil birch bitch DONT CENSOR ME fuck. im sorry. ): i actually wanted to see june today tbh. but if u need anyone pls let me know alright? id skip practice if u needed me, lib WELL. i mean ok i was sorta close with her in middle school and she’s always been a friend and I just. I’m just fucking numb tbh. I really can’t believe it

libby

i'll have you know that valentine died shortly after my 18th birthday so ): idk idk, why would they hang out in her room if they were "hanging out"? like they have history. i feel like thats, a little too ... suspicious given the context. in a good way though. like i hope it works out theyre both so miserable without each other. oh my god!! look at you go! so proud of you, dude! ( even if you never got to it lmao ) no, no, it's okay. june needs all the support she can get, and i don't wanna impede. i'm really fine, i just sort of need to accept it and i guess reflect on how terrible it is. she was a really sweet person and fuck i really cant believe any of it i guess

blue

fuck what kdjdjdnd I thought valentine just yeeted shit that’s not a good way to put it fuck but. im sorry lib ): ok I take it back Valentine was alright. still scared the fuck out of me tho all i know is that if i loved someone as much as holden loves june, i wouldn’t let you go **THEM fuck Damn phone Typos Djdjhdi can’t believe u make me eat green stuff its truly CRUEL whomst? I only know nadia just didn’t fucking deserve any of this. shit even daisey didn’t. i just want to protect everyone and i don’t know HOW it goes without saying that im happy to be ur uber driver for the indefinite future

libby

no omg, i took good care of my boy. idk what happened, they can live up to like 15 years so i was pretty bummed tbh. i was a bad mom he appreciates your support from the grave though i mean, i guess. but not everyone you love is going to love you back, i think that's where holden's at. not everyone wants to be clung to, and june seems reluctant besides, you know all about that. holden, the love of your life, loves june. how sad it's good for you!!! i'm helping i ... feel so badly for both of them. i can't imagine how their families must be feeling, fuck. i hate this. i'm moving to spain ah, dude you don't have to do all that. you probably are busy with practice, and holden, and work. thank you tho

blue

im sure ur a great mother. ): but still valentine was lucky to have u. and im sure he misses u in his weird spider heaven web of flies and whatever it is spiders like idk ill dm peter parker and find out i mean... guess that’s true. I suppose I dont get to see how june feels most of the time. i just wish they’d talk about it and sort it out at least. they both deserve to be happy holden is the loml that is true aksjjsjd. holden has enough room for both me and june in his heart. so i mean technically i can love someone else too?? but enough about that lmfao you definitely are helping. even coach has noticed dkdjd. making me better without even trying u can’t move without me who’s gonna get me free popcorn ): you’re just as important as practise and holden to me, lib.

libby

god, i miss him. you think the girls would be mad if i bought another one? like, to keep in my room.  i know! they're both obviously still in love, you can tell. i can't wait for them to overcome this and get to be together. also, im grateful for the amount of sleep i'm able to get now that... the room next to mine is less loud welp, i hope you find someone who is willing to share you with holden lol oMG, REALLY? IDK WHY THAT MADE ME IRRATIONALLY HAPPY LOL. WE CAN GET SALAD LATER let's go, we'll go to spain and take on a new identity. we can live along the coast and work in a bakery or something. get a puppy don't show holden that text he might cry. but dsjflk thank you, you're very important to me too. kinda my best pal

blue

u would have to ask. but if you did get another what would u call it? thanksgiving? funnily enough valentine is only a few weeks away. a sign?? i mean fuck ive known holden for years and can confirm he is happiest when he’s with june. when she’s not roasting him at least lmfao. and if my MasterPlan works im afraid things will get bad again djdjdj. I can take one for the team and try to get them to come over here tho - u don’t need to deal with that shit i hope i do too tbh. and who would I want it to be u ask? that’s right. danny devito. LETS NOT GET TOO CRAZY IVE ALREADY HAD THREE VEGETABLES THIS WERK AND ITS ONLY TUESDAY. I think it’s popcorn time 8) bold of u to assume i know where Spain is dkdjdjdjdj well he’s gonna catch on soon enough we spend every day together at this point lol

libby

i was gonna name this one patrick, after st patricks day actually lol. yes you know what's also approaching that is more important? your birthday! i know, it doesnt take a rocket scientist to figure that out. he's v much a relationship kinda dude, actually bc he's also kinda slutty lol. but even june is sad and its just, SO HARD. i hate when people are clearly, happiest together are like, nO IM GOING TO PROLONG THE MISERY. i feel like we're in a rom-com. how do we get them back together? i'll let him know. my v-day gift from me to you oooo, should i get the skittles ready too then? popcorn is kinda of a veggie if you think abt it omg, okay well now you can't come with me. offer rescinded. im going with the hot cop lslsfkjdjkldfs i mean its not like we're doing anything weird, so its okay, right?

blue

ur so cute wtf. although if u did do this i hope u know im calling him patrick star. also how the fuck do u tell if its a female or a male spider theyre so small and gross. fuck it is too lol. i dont have any money so im gonna let ppl down on the party front lmao. ud still come tho, right? how can he be both slutty and relationshippy. like not to be weird bc i know hes ur cousin and all dkfjgg but he doesnt.. have people over anymore. unless hes someone learned not to stomp around the house WHICH I DONT BELIEVE. and ha hA im already on plan 384 to get them back together get on my level lmao.  we just gotta force them to spend time together tbh. does that mean i have to give u the hot cop for valentines bc i mean. i would if that's what u wanted but im sure u can do much better than him OH FUCK UR RIGHT OUR WHOLE RELATIONSHIP HAS BEEN A LIE TO CONVERT ME TO VEGGIES HASNT IT r u breaking up with me? well fine, ill take the dog ): it's... it's not weird unless we make it weird. and we haven't. have we?

libby

fdsjfjdsl shhhhh, back at you. Patrick Star will be his full name, i promise you this much. as for gender idfk, i am honestly assuming its pronouns lol. i'd be sued by the LGBT community if they knew. also dude, of course. i'll make you cupcakes. plus i know what i wanna buy you! i  can't wait dude what? really?? i thought he was seeing people this whole time, holy shit. dude he's really messed up over this huh? wow, okay, we need to kick this into high gear and have them get back together. tell me your plans. omg, no you clown. i don't even like him that much, he's just pretty. i do like... some personality and he has 0 GOD MY PLAN HAS BEEN FOILED. I CANT BELIEVE IT like i'd ever let you take the dog. she's mine sdfjlkdsfjlk iDK DUDE. I MAY HAVE MADE IT WEIRD BUT WE'RE BAD AT TALKING ABT STUFF, SO WE DONT HAVE TO LOL.

blue

do spiders even have gender i thought they were just the minions of evil lmfao lib u rly dont have to get me anything, really. altho now im curious tbh. but get ready for me to get a lit gift in june >:) ill even wrap it myself which says a lot bc i cant wrap for shit but i want it to be personal lmao not many that im aware of atm. will give u info is this changes. huh we r spies lib. >:) but i dont have any current plans except trying to force them to go in a photo booth together or something when we eventually go to the arcade djsjdh omg how did u know. but idk everyone speaks about him like hes gOD he’s just a dude. eyebrows on fleek tho I will say that IM SO HURT UD USE ME LIKE THIS LIB. ALL THIS TIME WE WERE GETTING CLOSE AND U WERE ONLY HERE FOR THE VEGGIES so u get Spain AND the dog. what do I get, sadness ???? you haven’t made it weird lib, i promise. not to me, anyway. maybe we both wanted the same thing. maybe. oR MAYBE NOT LMFAO but yeah we can talk about whatever lol

libby

don't talk about nate like that omg! i want to, plus its a surprise so no asking what it is. also wow i cant believe you remember my birthday, lol. you dont have to get me anything. you can buy me an ice cream though oh my gOD THAT'S BRILLIANT! aw, what if they take one of those cute kiss pictures in the photobooth like in the movies? i can't wait for them to love each other again, they're so cute. are you jealous that no one is talking about your eyebrows? you have nice eyebrows and nothing to be jealous abt GOD, IM SO SORRY. ROY HIRED ME. HE WAS WORRIED ABT YOUR HEALTH. IM SORRY YOU HAD TO FIND OUT THIS WAY. I THOUGHT YOU NEVER WOULD /: you get the memory of what we were to keep you warm right, cool. noted

blue

why do u talk about the string bean all the time i know u grew up with him but seriously he's like a pale pipe cleaner that i dont need in my life ofc i remeber ur birthday lib. dont u remember ur 10th?? probably the best day of my life lmao. and if u get me something i get u something thats how this works as long as june doesnt say anything mean and holden say anything stupid, its a pretty solid plan tbh. im not jealous HOW DARE ROY PLAY ME LIKE THIS. cant believe u betrayed me lib, after all we've been through ;-; but what if i want something to sell off now that u took the house oh fuck lib i didn't mean it like that. just... pretend i said nothing ok and. yeah talk about something else

libby

hey sorry, i gotta go. talk tomorrow.

blue

oh is everything ok? but alright talk tomorrow then i guess bye lib

libby

night

blue

its 6pm lib but okay night

blue

lib if i did something u dont have to tell me but pls know i didnt mean it, whatever it was. i hope youre okay. but i wont bother u again i promise. just. yeah

libby

it's okay, dude. i'm fine. it's honestly my own fault, it's not you. you're always great. i'm sorry. it's fine

blue

i dont understand what ur talking about but i can tell u dont want to so ill just... leave this. but you're always great too lib. the greatest, in fact. just let me know if ur still coming to the arcade later or not yeah

libby

i guess i'll go. i like pacman.

blue

if u... if u change ur mind i understand. but i really hope u can make it.

[sungtaro]

eri head in hands ive fallen behind on these and i know the week already started but GOOD LUC THIS WEEK MWAH 💓💕💞💞💕💓💕💓 u mentioned more exams coming up? i hope you manage to find enough time to study so that u aren't too stressed out & can do them in a comfortable mindset!!! and i know you're gonna ace them anyways 💞💞 remember to take care of yourself always aand since it's getting cold, dress warmly and be careful on the road in case it gets slippery 😔💗💞💖💞💖 i love u!!! and you're doing amazing i hope you know that!!!

millieeee plz not to worry … even when I don’t get a message I am always telepathically receiving ur love and support 💞💘 I know life gets busy and you have a lot on your plate too !! I do have exams next week again, and luckily not too much other work aside from studying this week so hopefully that helps bc these next ones cover a lottttt of material (like 4-5 units, whereas the last 2 exams have only had 2-3). the biggest challenge is staying focused as the end of the semester is finally feeling within reach … a little over a month now 😳 but also I do have a nice break around american thanksgiving and I’m going to take a trip with a friend for part of it ❣️ I always am bundled up bc I hate to be cold so not to worry … and here’s hoping the roads stay dry a little longer for me ! as always let’s keep working hard MWAH I love uuuu ! 💖💝💘💓💗🌸✨

[tonyduncanbb73]

There’s No Room for Negativity in the Restaurant Business

Nookie’s back with his latest installment of “On the House”

Welcome back to On the House, a behind-the-scenes look at what it takes to open a restaurant — or several. In 2013, Steve “Nookie” Postal shared weekly glimpses into his experience opening Commonwealth in Cambridge, and now he’s back as he works to open two cafes (Revival) and a beer hall (Mothership), all while keeping Commonwealth up and running. Keep an eye out for new installments of On the House on alternate Fridays.

First off, I’m fine. Yes, I know I’m stressed. Yes, I know I’m freaking out. It’s gonna be fine. I’m getting calls and messages from people. I’m like, “Hmmm, he’s calling; I better answer it. Someone probably died.”

“Hey?! I read your thing on Eater. You okay??”

“I’m fine…”

“You sure? You don’t seem it.”

I’m fine. There is a shit ton going on right now, lots of moving pieces. Sometimes I just sit there and cower in the middle while everything and everyone is flying around me. Terrifying if I really sit down and think about it. Sometimes, the sheer magnitude of it all is somewhat paralyzing.

Negativity breeds negativity. Negativity is bad. I don’t like it and don’t allow it.

I’m learning a lot, though, about myself. This process (and I know I have said it before) is vicious. It’s hard. It’s frustrating — epically frustrating. Maybe I’m a brat. I called my daughter a brat tonight; I feel bad about it now. Maybe she gets it from me. Maybe it’s my fault. I just want everything to go my way. That’s not crazy, right? Sometimes I don’t get my way. I don’t really stomp my foot and have a temper tantrum, like she was, but I want to. Fuck yeah, I want to. But that does nothing. Negativity breeds negativity. Negativity is bad. I don’t like it and don’t allow it.

So, hold on to your pants (spoiler alert): We are delayed. Ha! Of course we are. It’s hard! Building a cafe takes a lot of people, a lot of coordination. A day here, a snowstorm here, shipping delays, acts of God, Trump…we’re probably looking at a two-week delay. I can fairly say that we will be open either this May or next May. Still to be determined…

At Alewife, walls are all up. Walk-ins and freezers are all in. Floor’s being ground down. Millwork is starting to be installed. Painting is happening. New doors are in. New windows.

Still absolutely hemorrhaging money, just gushing out now. I’m just trying to stop the bleeding.

Postal’s son’s first concert, Justin Timberblake

But I still found time to take my son to see his first concert — JT. Great first concert. My first concert ever was Kansas. I’d insert a YouTube clip here for “Carry on Wayward Son” if I were technologically inclined.

Speaking of which, while I have you here: Any young whippersnappers out there want a side hustle? We could really use some IT help. I’ll even pay (not much). Food and booze, mostly. Well, probably not booze because that’s illegal, and I can’t do that, so I wouldn’t do that. Wink wink. I’m kidding; all I need is the ABCC mad at me too.

But seriously, I do need help, so if any wicked smart students from Harvard, MIT, Tufts, Lesley, BC, BU, and the other eight million colleges within one mile of me are looking for some hours, slide into my DMs, as the hipster kids tell me to say. @chefnookie on the ‘gram.

Steve Postal

Revival Alewife is starting to look like a cafe

You know what else is stressing me out? Life.

Well, to be more specific, life outside of work. Time off. I have three things planned from now until Thanksgiving. A weekend in Montana at the Resort at Paws Up for Montana Master Grillers (can’t miss that). My cousin Jonathan’s wedding (can’t miss that). And I have a family vacation set for this summer (if I miss that, my mother will lay the Jewish guilt on me so badly that I would suffocate and die.)

That stresses me out ‘cause I have no idea when any of this shit is going to open, and it’s so out of my control. We are opening two cafes and a beer hall. I have three things planned. I’m guessing all three openings will coincide perfectly with when I need to be away. That stresses me out.

It all stresses me out. The menu. The kitchen. The mural. The look. The feel. The flow. The logistics. Everything. I’m stressed. I usually feel better after writing this. Now I feel worse. Good thing it’s only going to go on for, like, the rest of my life! Fuck it, I’m going to play Fortnite…

[abruisedkiwi]

my brothers getting married in 8 days, i’ve done the flowers for it and am doing the centerpieces and the cake and i’m STRESSED like he lives in minnesota so i’ve had no help with anything except through text and the occasional facetime so that’s been crazy and this next week i’m SO BUSY like tomorrow i work, then have to go take care of an old couch and take it to the landfill, a friends birthday party (which i’m so excited i love my friends also his house is nice) and then sunday i have church (might skip just so i can have a day to somewhat relax), have lunch and bible study with roommates family, going to a movie with roommate, then monday i have therapy (thank god tbh bc i’ve already had an anxiety attack and a panic attack ON THE SAME DAY AND ONLY LIKE 3 HOURS APART LMAO) and then i work half a day, and then i think i have something going on that night, then tuesday i work again and then going to another movie with other friends (bc destress when you can u know) and he gets into town super late (bc all our family lives here in montana and his fiancée doesn’t have a whole lot of family so we’re having the wedding here) and then wednesday i work and then we’re gonna be finalizing wedding stuff and probably go out to dinner with fiancées family (if they come the same day honestly who the hell knows i sure don’t) and then thursday i’m spending most the day baking cakes and things along that line, friday i’m frosting the cakes, and saturday’s the wedding and honestly i’m just a giant ass mess the only thing that’s good is my skin looks good and i got a haircut so i’ll look great for the wedding but also i’m so excited to see my brother i haven’t seen him since before thanksgiving and i was crazy busy with work last time he was here and barely got to see him and holy shit have i missed him like he’s my best friend he’s the OG and even if i don’t get to spend the whole week with him i’m so glad i get to spend whatever i can with him and like i’m so excited for the wedding bc i’m his best person (he technically asked me to be his best man but my dad is Real Shitty in the sense of gender and sexuality and stuff so we had to change the name bc people are dumb) and i’m honestly just so so happy for him and glad he’s happy and found his person

[livingasaghost]

i’ve been riding the struggle bus this week and it is only tuesday.

for some reason i am physically EXHAUSTED today - like i can’t keep my eyes open and i took 2 naps in my car and i still feel like passing out. luckily my bed time is 8pm because i have to wake up at 5 tomorrow morning. throwback to high school when i got up that early EVERY DAY FOR FOUR YEARS BC I HATED MYSELF

i feel like this past week has been super great in some ways - i got my car fixed, i had an amazing time being with friends in texas, and i have a bunch of free stuff on being mailed to my house. plus, i’ve been really writing out thoughts and ideas and reflecting on what i want to do with my life. it’s so hard being in post-grad because you have so much freedom, and yet i’m still so busy that i don’t have the time to really exercise that freedom completely in the way i want. what i really need is a week off (where i’m not even doing freelance work) where i can take a social media break, watch studio ghibli films, reorganize life, and just generally CHILL bc i feel simultaneously very relaxed but not at all chill. i think i’m really just overstimulated at the moment and i keep trying to jam stuff into my life when i need to take a break. i’m not even *busy* per say, i just haven’t been home for more than 2 seconds in a few weeks. my life has been so inconsistent this year (which is fine), and i’m realizing i don’t really like that. at least, not right now. on the plane i made a list of things i want to focus on and prioritize and almost all of those things circulate around the inconsistencies of my life - my struggling relationship with food & money, my lack of friend time, my horrible reading/writing habits, even my freelance work. even though my life is all around pretty stable, it feels like it’s precariously stacked and ready to collapse. i think moving will help, but that’s not until next summer. more than that, i have shit to get done before the end of the year (write a novel, keep up my freelance biz, make youtube videos). i’m sure as usual this all stems from my lack of god time, but overall i’m just exhausted. i overdid everything this year from travel to social media posting to photo taking to being with people to spending money. i miss spring break when i was on the beach just removed from everything.

speaking of that, i’m just gonna vent a little about j. i have long since accepted that our friendship is very sporadic and inconsistent and that she is not someone i can count on. other friends in my life would drop everything for me, and while i’m sure she would for important things, most of the time i cannot rely on her to be a real friend. i’m not really upset about it because i’ve accepted it, but it makes life really difficult and sad sometimes. i feel very much like i put more effort into our relationship than she does, and honestly it kind of pisses me off. true she’s unnaturally busy and i think she has unsolved mental health issues, but it hurts my feelings that 9 times out 10 when i ask to be with her or do something she’s not available...and we live in the same house. i don’t know if that will change after graduation, but it just makes me feel weird that she calls me her best friend (which i very well may be) and yet she still treats me like this. i love her to pieces and she is a great friend in so many ways, but also...it’s just kind of upsetting sometimes. 

i do wish we could have a week at the beach again though because i want that desperately.

anyway i just feel like shit and im supposed to have like 3 freelance shoots this weekend and i’m having lunch to plan someone’s video and i still have 1500+ photos to edit from texas and i just feel pretty low today. i don’t want to do anything and yet i want to do everything. is it time to live with katie in a cute house yet? 

good things:

tiernan & i are seeing lorde on the floor in march!!!

mentor sesh with ellie

going home in january to scan old photos!

amy is a great friend <3

my car is fixed

i have lots of jobs this week which means lots of money!

tomorrow’s hump day

a week from saturday i do WHATEVER THE HELL I WANT BC I HAVE A DAY OFF

it’s finally cooling off aka ALMOST FALL

people are interested in my nano idea

i’m still alive

early planning stages of going to own it next year

michelle hodkin is going to seya!

katie is a great friend <3

next month is reputation + thanksgiving

[survivorarabia]

EPISODE 10 “Cleaning Up The Threats” - Aren

Aren

Kay, well this round is gonna be ze big cleanup round!!! *dresses up as a janitor* today, we're cleaning up... THE THREATS!!! AKA, Ruthie & Alex -- the two biggest contenders to take the title of Sole Survivor in this game (other than your's truly, of course!). So, there are really two things I need to severely think about here -- who I want to go for out of Alex & Ruthie, and -- in proper janitor fashion -- how I can do this in the cleanest way without fucking up my long-term game. So, I've determined that I wanna go for Alex, as he's way stronger in challenges than Ruthie and he therefor scares the piss out of me. And I also wanna make a F4 group consisting of me, Richie, Emmott & Issy, just so that once Alex fucks off and we're at the F7 I have a sweet-ass group to just safely steamroll it to the final few with. I've kinda just promised Richie the world right now. I told him that when we hit F4 -- Issy's ass will be goin' bye-bye. Then, we can thrash Emmott's ass in FIC, and send him home. And we can be the F2 together. It's funny, because Issy thinks I'm lying to Richie when I tell him this, but y'know... I don't think I actually want to go to the end with Issy. I want to go to the end with Emmott or Richie -- some punching-bag that I can literally demolish in the Final-Tribal. 

Issy

Despite my very best last minute scramble efforts, unfortunately Ci'ere went home yesterday, which is super shitty for me because I very much feel that Alex will want me or Emmott out next I'm gonna work my backside off to try and flip the vote on Alex or Ruthie but honestly I'm not convinced there's anything I can do right now If worst comes to worst I'm gonna have to go all out, try and convince Alex that Ruthie is a huge threat that needs to go home as soon as possible, and pray that someone, anyone, wants to take the opportunity to go for a blindside

Ruthie

I'm really wishing I tried harder at Immunity this round.  It's getting down to the end and I haven't won any immunity challenges yet!  I think my social game is super on point but if I even want to THINK about winning I am going to have to work on actually winning comps, haha.   On the bright side, at least I'm still safe this week! 

Issy

Richie asked to be dragged in confessionals so I thought I'd make this confessional to drag him only who is he again? What has he done? Where has he been? There's a person in this cast called Richie? Oops, I didn't notice Anyway, I believe the go at the moment is to blindside Alex, which is great and all except I really didn't want to be working with RUTHIE!! ❤❤❤ and Nicole. Haven't talked to either of them basically at all since merge, and so I'm super nervous about having to put all my trust in Emmott and Aren's abilities to convince them to do this Aren is annoying as always & Emmott has been awol for the past couple days so my top-tier alliance building skills are clearly benefitting me right now, we're extremely solid going into this next vote & I have total confidence everything will go to plan (not) I want Nicole gone next and then Ruthie (should this Alex vote work out) and then at some point I'd love to axe Aren because I'd rather not be sitting at the end with him

Alex

I cannot believe how well last round went, first of all.  I feel....really good now. But this is the part of the game where Survivor gets really interesting. Theoretically, this should be easy.  We have a tight alliance of four in myself, Ruthie, Richie and Lena, all of whom genuinely like and respect each other.  We've voted together every round and as far as I know, most of us want all four of us to make Final 5. We've also got Nicole, who played an Idol for Ruthie at the first merge vote and has stuck with us every round.  That makes five votes, out of eight, so we should be able to do anything we want this vote – and we probably will. But, people other than me are starting to look at the end and say “how do I get there with the best options?” Richie has come to me to talk about how and when to cut Nicole. Ruthie & Lena don't trust Richie and would probably like to cut him before 5 or 4. And I'm just here, floating along, wondering why, despite being Target #1 since before the merge....nobody has done anything about it? I mean, Issy has been out for my blood from the word go. Emmott is a paranoid, flip-floppy motherfuck who's thrown my name out before. And Aren's getting blindsided this round because he just cannot keep my name out of his mouth! Why has nobody done anything about this yet?  It is a mystery to me. I mean, don't get me wrong: I do love my alliance, I really do.  But I look at the game with a strategic eye and just say.....do all of you really think I don't have arguments prepped for you? Cause I do, kids.  And I know I'm an asshole for it, but I've been eyeing the endgame since the merge, if not before.  I've got the opening speeches written: Ruthie did everything I told her to, Richie was wishy-washy and lied to every juror, Lena doesn't exist, and Nicole doesn't talk to anybody.  Aren's a spastic motherfucker, Issy gave up, and Emmott is, well, Emmott. At this point I'm trying to figure out the best endgame, the best final 3, final 4, final 5 for my game, and I really wish I knew if it was a Final 2 or Final 3 for sure, because that would really inform my decision. I don't want Ruthie at the end.  Ruthie kicks my ass. Richie, I can beat, but I don't know if it'd be easy. My idea is a Lena/Nicole Final 3, because I think I win that.  But there's the missing issue, the apocalypse scenario, that one of them wins Immunity and takes the other to a Final 2, and we have to vote for Lena or Nicole to win. And again, I have nothing against them as people!  But I don't think either of their gameplay to this point has been worthy of my jury vote. So as we whittle down our options, I have to look forward.  Aren, Issy and Emmott, probably in that order, are dead meat.  And if it gets down to five with the Family and Nicole........I don't know what I'll do. Will I vote out Nicole, trusting that at 4 at least one other person will have my back? Will I make a move against Richie or Ruthie, in a bid to get myself a more favorable Final Tribal? Or will I be completely blindsided and booted unceremoniously at five, to the joy of the jury? I truly don't know.  But this is where it gets interesting, folks.  Buckle up and see who outwits who, because we're gonna be choosing the winner here very, very soon.

Aren

Wow bitches I'm fucking running this vote, aren't I? Alex thinks I'm his little bitch-boy who's gonna do whatever he wants, BUT, what he doesn't know is that I'm actually blindsiding his ass this round! I've been doing my fair-share of talking, and I've got Emmott, Issy, Ruthie & Nicole and I'm working on Richie now. I've lied to Alex that I'm voting for mah boi Emmott, but hell nah is that happening! Tonight, we're gonna just straight-up see Alex 6 times. And it'll be truly beautiful. MARVELOUS MASTERPIECE BY AREN WILLIAMS, EVERYONE!!! BRINGS A TEAR TO MY EYE!

Ruthie

Whew, it's been a busy few days with Thanksgiving!  Aren thinks that me, Richie and Nicole are going to vote Alex out with him and I'm just thinking "ARE YOU FREAKING CRAZY?" Richie came to me asking what the whole thing was about and I'm pretty sure we just recently talked about it in the Family alliance chat that Aren could be saying this kind of stuff, but Alex apparently worries him a bit, but he wants The Family to be final 4.  I do too but I also want Nicole to be Final 3 with Alex and myself and it's just like uhhhh how do we get out Richie and Lena without ticking them off or Alex off?  ME, NICOLE AND ALEX would be a perfect Final 3, like I can't even.  I don't even really care if I win, face it, I probably WOULDN'T win next to Alex, to be honest.  I just really want to get to the end with him since we became a solid thing either day one or day two, I want to say day one! I think Lena is down with having me, her and Alex as Final 3 though, I definitely wouldn't win next to her though either, I have ZERO INDIVIDUAL IMMUNITY WINS. :( I really need to get with this lajsdfj.  ANYWAY, this is all what's up, it's been a quiet few days and I'm nervous that Aren is going to sway someone to vote Alex with him, UGH.

Issy

Everyone is low key annoying me right now, honestly can we please just nuke the whole game If I have to see another 'awokoksoaoaw' or 'BAHAHAHAHAHA' I'm gonna have to quit

Richie

Wooowooowooooo I got immunity!!!!!! I feel like I've got myself in a nice position where I didn't need it this week but it's nice to have something to add to my bleak on the surface looking resume... Normally when I get immunity it's like my free pass to play messy and hard because no matter what I do I can't get voted out so its the time to make #bigmoves but I won it 1 week too early With issy/emmott as a duo and aren being just THE messiest that trio needs to be trimmed down so they don't gain any traction so it looks like aren is going this week because he just doesn't shut his mouth he's always giving away too much information and stirring up trouble and he's making deals and throwing people under the bus it's just too much to try and keep him here because even tho he trusts me and isn't voting me out I can't trust that whatever I say to him won't be spread around and I try to keep things lowkey although he is great for getting information from we have this "honesty policy" that im trying my hardest to not actually break bc i want that jury vote so he just keeps giving me information and i never actually AGREE with any plans or confirm that im with him im just like https://68.media.tumblr.com/8d192f985c289a55c30423b83859fa0a/tumblr_oh87xllQpA1vzwwmeo1_250.gif and take notes on what he says asdjfhaksdjfhakdfj god thats not any better than lying but im doing my best lmao I dont know you've got Alex who I trust to a certain degree because I feel like we have the most genuine connection but also people in this game perceive him as a threat which #perceptionisreality so that helps because he's always going to be targeted before me so why would I vote out a meat shield I trust???? but also if he gets to end people think he's this great player that's not good... Then issy/emmott I haven't really worked with and after I vote out aren that should be the last straw they shouldn't trust me at all anymore lmao I never explicitly told them I was voting out Alex this week I purposefully ended my conversation with issy saying that I was hesitant to vote for Alex because "I don't trust Ruthie to not make it a tie" and I want to tell them I'm voting out aren so that I can have leverage with them to try and make the move to get out Nicole next week like I want to make but lena found a clue and we all looked for the idol and no one found it so that means someone else must have it so I'm scared to be HONEST with issy because I don't need any idols fucking up the plan this round so I guess I'll have to deal with that in the future Then there's Lena and Ruthie who are in the family alliance and I feel like we're all good with us 4 but ruthies closeness with Nicole scares the shit out of me because like that's a powerful relationship and as the numbers get smaller that scares me.... And Nicole hasn't talked game with me in dayyyyyys and we have history where I've fucked up with her so I went to Alex to try and plant the seed of voting her out next round but i dont know what's going to happen for now I'm just going to enjoy my last moments of immunity and pray things go the way I'm expecting them to and then clean up whatever messes I've made once they resurface

[tonyduncanbb73]

There’s No Room for Negativity in the Restaurant Business

Nookie’s back with his latest installment of “On the House”

Welcome back to On the House, a behind-the-scenes look at what it takes to open a restaurant — or several. In 2013, Steve “Nookie” Postal shared weekly glimpses into his experience opening Commonwealth in Cambridge, and now he’s back as he works to open two cafes (Revival) and a beer hall (Mothership), all while keeping Commonwealth up and running. Keep an eye out for new installments of On the House on alternate Fridays.

First off, I’m fine. Yes, I know I’m stressed. Yes, I know I’m freaking out. It’s gonna be fine. I’m getting calls and messages from people. I’m like, “Hmmm, he’s calling; I better answer it. Someone probably died.”

“Hey?! I read your thing on Eater. You okay??”

“I’m fine…”

“You sure? You don’t seem it.”

I’m fine. There is a shit ton going on right now, lots of moving pieces. Sometimes I just sit there and cower in the middle while everything and everyone is flying around me. Terrifying if I really sit down and think about it. Sometimes, the sheer magnitude of it all is somewhat paralyzing.

Negativity breeds negativity. Negativity is bad. I don’t like it and don’t allow it.

I’m learning a lot, though, about myself. This process (and I know I have said it before) is vicious. It’s hard. It’s frustrating — epically frustrating. Maybe I’m a brat. I called my daughter a brat tonight; I feel bad about it now. Maybe she gets it from me. Maybe it’s my fault. I just want everything to go my way. That’s not crazy, right? Sometimes I don’t get my way. I don’t really stomp my foot and have a temper tantrum, like she was, but I want to. Fuck yeah, I want to. But that does nothing. Negativity breeds negativity. Negativity is bad. I don’t like it and don’t allow it.

So, hold on to your pants (spoiler alert): We are delayed. Ha! Of course we are. It’s hard! Building a cafe takes a lot of people, a lot of coordination. A day here, a snowstorm here, shipping delays, acts of God, Trump…we’re probably looking at a two-week delay. I can fairly say that we will be open either this May or next May. Still to be determined…

At Alewife, walls are all up. Walk-ins and freezers are all in. Floor’s being ground down. Millwork is starting to be installed. Painting is happening. New doors are in. New windows.

Still absolutely hemorrhaging money, just gushing out now. I’m just trying to stop the bleeding.

Postal’s son’s first concert, Justin Timberblake

But I still found time to take my son to see his first concert — JT. Great first concert. My first concert ever was Kansas. I’d insert a YouTube clip here for “Carry on Wayward Son” if I were technologically inclined.

Speaking of which, while I have you here: Any young whippersnappers out there want a side hustle? We could really use some IT help. I’ll even pay (not much). Food and booze, mostly. Well, probably not booze because that’s illegal, and I can’t do that, so I wouldn’t do that. Wink wink. I’m kidding; all I need is the ABCC mad at me too.

But seriously, I do need help, so if any wicked smart students from Harvard, MIT, Tufts, Lesley, BC, BU, and the other eight million colleges within one mile of me are looking for some hours, slide into my DMs, as the hipster kids tell me to say. @chefnookie on the ‘gram.

Steve Postal

Revival Alewife is starting to look like a cafe

You know what else is stressing me out? Life.

Well, to be more specific, life outside of work. Time off. I have three things planned from now until Thanksgiving. A weekend in Montana at the Resort at Paws Up for Montana Master Grillers (can’t miss that). My cousin Jonathan’s wedding (can’t miss that). And I have a family vacation set for this summer (if I miss that, my mother will lay the Jewish guilt on me so badly that I would suffocate and die.)

That stresses me out ‘cause I have no idea when any of this shit is going to open, and it’s so out of my control. We are opening two cafes and a beer hall. I have three things planned. I’m guessing all three openings will coincide perfectly with when I need to be away. That stresses me out.

It all stresses me out. The menu. The kitchen. The mural. The look. The feel. The flow. The logistics. Everything. I’m stressed. I usually feel better after writing this. Now I feel worse. Good thing it’s only going to go on for, like, the rest of my life! Fuck it, I’m going to play Fortnite…

[tonyduncanbb73]

There’s No Room for Negativity in the Restaurant Business

Nookie’s back with his latest installment of “On the House”

Welcome back to On the House, a behind-the-scenes look at what it takes to open a restaurant — or several. In 2013, Steve “Nookie” Postal shared weekly glimpses into his experience opening Commonwealth in Cambridge, and now he’s back as he works to open two cafes (Revival) and a beer hall (Mothership), all while keeping Commonwealth up and running. Keep an eye out for new installments of On the House on alternate Fridays.

First off, I’m fine. Yes, I know I’m stressed. Yes, I know I’m freaking out. It’s gonna be fine. I’m getting calls and messages from people. I’m like, “Hmmm, he’s calling; I better answer it. Someone probably died.”

“Hey?! I read your thing on Eater. You okay??”

“I’m fine...”

“You sure? You don’t seem it.”

I’m fine. There is a shit ton going on right now, lots of moving pieces. Sometimes I just sit there and cower in the middle while everything and everyone is flying around me. Terrifying if I really sit down and think about it. Sometimes, the sheer magnitude of it all is somewhat paralyzing.

Negativity breeds negativity. Negativity is bad. I don’t like it and don’t allow it.

I’m learning a lot, though, about myself. This process (and I know I have said it before) is vicious. It’s hard. It’s frustrating — epically frustrating. Maybe I’m a brat. I called my daughter a brat tonight; I feel bad about it now. Maybe she gets it from me. Maybe it’s my fault. I just want everything to go my way. That’s not crazy, right? Sometimes I don’t get my way. I don’t really stomp my foot and have a temper tantrum, like she was, but I want to. Fuck yeah, I want to. But that does nothing. Negativity breeds negativity. Negativity is bad. I don’t like it and don’t allow it.

So, hold on to your pants (spoiler alert): We are delayed. Ha! Of course we are. It’s hard! Building a cafe takes a lot of people, a lot of coordination. A day here, a snowstorm here, shipping delays, acts of God, Trump...we’re probably looking at a two-week delay. I can fairly say that we will be open either this May or next May. Still to be determined...

At Alewife, walls are all up. Walk-ins and freezers are all in. Floor’s being ground down. Millwork is starting to be installed. Painting is happening. New doors are in. New windows.

Still absolutely hemorrhaging money, just gushing out now. I’m just trying to stop the bleeding.

Postal’s son’s first concert, Justin Timberblake

But I still found time to take my son to see his first concert — JT. Great first concert. My first concert ever was Kansas. I’d insert a YouTube clip here for “Carry on Wayward Son” if I were technologically inclined.

Speaking of which, while I have you here: Any young whippersnappers out there want a side hustle? We could really use some IT help. I’ll even pay (not much). Food and booze, mostly. Well, probably not booze because that’s illegal, and I can’t do that, so I wouldn’t do that. Wink wink. I’m kidding; all I need is the ABCC mad at me too.

But seriously, I do need help, so if any wicked smart students from Harvard, MIT, Tufts, Lesley, BC, BU, and the other eight million colleges within one mile of me are looking for some hours, slide into my DMs, as the hipster kids tell me to say. @chefnookie on the ‘gram.

Steve Postal

Revival Alewife is starting to look like a cafe

You know what else is stressing me out? Life.

Well, to be more specific, life outside of work. Time off. I have three things planned from now until Thanksgiving. A weekend in Montana at the Resort at Paws Up for Montana Master Grillers (can’t miss that). My cousin Jonathan’s wedding (can’t miss that). And I have a family vacation set for this summer (if I miss that, my mother will lay the Jewish guilt on me so badly that I would suffocate and die.)

That stresses me out ‘cause I have no idea when any of this shit is going to open, and it’s so out of my control. We are opening two cafes and a beer hall. I have three things planned. I’m guessing all three openings will coincide perfectly with when I need to be away. That stresses me out.

It all stresses me out. The menu. The kitchen. The mural. The look. The feel. The flow. The logistics. Everything. I’m stressed. I usually feel better after writing this. Now I feel worse. Good thing it’s only going to go on for, like, the rest of my life! Fuck it, I’m going to play Fortnite...