#this new blog of mine has too much pink and purple. not like I hate it though

[sacredprimrose]

Hasumilvr (has a michi icon)

[twopoppies]

Hi Gina :) this isn't really anything having to do with all the pics going on recently, I just wanted to pop in and ask if (besides the obvious one being your tumblr header) you have any favorite quotes that come to mind from any of the larry fics you've read? I've started making a list of some that I find beautiful whenever I read a new one and wondered if you might have some too! You're an incredible writer so I thought you might have an eye for them :)

You know, there used to be a blog dedicated to that, but I can’t remember the url anymore and I think they’re gone anyway, but yeah... I do have some that I love. I used to be much better about saving them... so these are old, but it’s still some gorgeous writing IMO.

“You look like flowers,” Louis whispers softly. “A meadow. Somewhere warm and colorful and all my own, where I go to be all by myself. And you look like my favorite book with the tea-stained pages, all the highlighted parts that speak to me in ways other books just don’t. You look like a bonfire, the brightest thing around, so bright I can’t look at anything else. And you look like silk, and softness, and happiness. That’s what you look like.” - Hiding Place by alivingfire

“Except I wouldn’t want to keep you, would I?” Louis’ smile instantly dips a little, finger withdrawing, but Harry clasps his wrist, holding it to his chest. “I wouldn’t want to keep you, because I’d make you want to stay.” - A Red-Dusted Planet by onewasturning

Louis slips their fingers together, slotting between the gaps and curling around his like a possum’s tail around a branch. - A Red-Dusted Planet

Louis is looking up at him, and his eyes are as bright as the moon and the projector light flickering through the window, and it’s like Harry has caught starlight in his hands, something like a wish, a hope, shot straight through the night and burning into the fate lines of his palms. - A Red-Dusted Planet

He smiles down at him, all rosy-appled cheeks, and he’s so beautiful, Harry thinks he must have been magicked from the sky itself. Thinks he can still see remnants of the storm spinning in his eyes. - These Roads We Stumble Down by onewasturning

It makes all the sense in the bloody world and the realization cracks over Louis’ head like an egg, dripping down his neck and trailing down to his toes. - The Actor by mizzwilde

"If you were nobody, and had nothing, and were going nowhere at all, I'd go nowhere with you and make it somewhere. And yeah, I'd still want you. Fuck," he laughs, rough into Louis’ mouth. "'Course I'd still want you. You're like, you're like everything. You make me feel everything." - Little Technicolor Things by scarycrow

Instead, he wonders if it’s possible at all to miss something he’s never had. If the tall boy with his long fingers brushing against the turn of Louis’ ankle was supposed to have been in Louis’ life ages ago but the author forgot to write him in when he had meant to, if maybe that’s why Louis is falling into him so quickly, because he’s trying to make up for lost time, trying to catch up. If maybe that’s why Louis’ life has been so off lately. - Little Technicolor Things 

He imagines a world where it’s possible to drag someone back in time, one where time is a two-way street and he can grab Harry’s hand and pull him along until they’re stumbling breathless into the past, into the empty days Louis spent alone and filling those days with Harry—with morning breakfasts and paintings and summer-sun smiles, with cheeks dimpled in laughter. - Little Technicolor Things

“Nothing, just,” Harry starts. He laughs a little, and Louis looks up at him solely because he doesn’t want to miss the way his eyes crinkle when he does. He looks like he’s about to say something else, but then he just shakes his head again and dips to plant a light kiss on Louis’ cheek. “Nothing,” he repeats, and Louis wonders what nothing really means. - Little Technicolor Things

He learns quite a few things about Harry, really, but the one that stands out to him the most is this: Harry is soft. He isn’t soft in a bad way, in the way people these days throw the word around and use it to mean weak and frail and scared. He’s soft like spider webs are soft, like cashmere is soft and the music you fall asleep to is soft. He’s soft when he reaches out slowly across the carpet and touches two fingers to Louis’ wrist without looking at him, soft when he hums along to the songs on the playlist Louis made, soft when he licks his finger and waggles his eyebrows and turns the page of a book, carefully, carefully carefully. Softly, softly, softly. And because he’s soft, he’s brave. Or at least that’s what Louis sees when he looks at him, when he hears him talk about how scared he was moving to London, how angry he was when his dad left, how terrifying the idea of living on his own instead of in a dorm with other university students was. - Little Technicolor Things

Harry does, but not before grinning wide and easy, his arms moving to bracket Louis’ body against the dresser, and Louis melts into him like the winter melts into the spring. His mouth is warm and velvet-y, tongue heavy in Louis’ mouth. The kiss doesn’t feel forgettable right now, but Louis kind of hopes that it is. He hopes that their future is filled with so many kisses that this one is nothing more than one out of a thousand, each one better than the last, that Louis kisses Harry and Harry kisses Louis so many times that the only time he’ll ever remember this kiss is in the middle of some winter night, when he dreams about it and wakes up in the dark, before curling into the curly-haired boy lying next to him and dreaming about the next kiss. - Little Technicolor Things

He thinks that’s kissing Harry is like turning a dial: where everything is cold, now there’s only warmth; where everything was dark, now there’s only light; where everything was bleak, now there’s life, blooming like the blossoms on Cherry trees, blushing pink and white with awaking. With waking up. Harry wakes Louis up. -  Little Technicolor Things

There is so much music in you: bare feet against the floor, the sandpaper glide of your palm on the stair rail, of your skin against mine, of your ceaseless fingers tapping at the table. He's music, Louis thinks. I'm in love with a song. Little Technicolor Things

(clearly, I adore this fic)

And that’s what Harry hates, Louis knows, because black has always had a connotation with death, and despair, and disease. It’s never been associated with good things, happy things.

But there’s more, too. Because Harry isn’t a demon who was twisted into darkness when he was still human; he chose darkness, a self-sacrifice. His soul is black but in the same way the night sky is black: deep and endless, sprinkled with bits of light. Sparkle. Vast and overwhelming, containing the possibilities for anything.

It’s black like panther fur is black, shifting blues and purples when the light hits a splay of powerful muscle. It’s black like an eclipsed moon. Black like tattoo ink. The blackness has meaning; the blackness is meaning: it hides speckles of brilliance in its depths, adds contrast to the bronze braids of hope and faith in Harry’s soul, the harp strings of kindness buried inside him that the sin could never touch.  - Say Hallelujah, Say Goodnight by alivingfire

I’m sure I have others... but these are the ones I came across first. Thank you for the great ask. It’s refreshing! LOL. And thank you for the wonderful compliment. It means a lot. 💜

[brokentoasterrr]

i try to never show vulnerability on this blog because i am simply Like That, but i wrote piece of creative writing (ish) about my best friend and i want to share it so here we go

tw for death, implied smoking and drinking and a bunch of other shit. read at your own risk, essentially.

He hates onions. Onions and mushrooms. Still, he eats the noodle stir-fry I make him, with onions and scallions. And the pasta Carbonara with chickpeas instead of bacon, because I'm vegetarian and I like to cook. He eats it despite the uneven pieces of onion speckled throughout creamy sauce that clings to the pasta.

He loves liquorice. I hate it. He buys a bar of liquorice with a caramel center, urges me to try it, so I do. And I like it. But I never eat it again.

He buys a chocolate bar. I'm terrified of germs so when he asks me if I want a bite, I shake my head. The next time he buys a chocolate bar, he lets me break away a piece myself before he does, so I can eat without the anxiety. 

I'm terrified of germs, I'm terrified of becoming ill. I use hand sanitizer until my hands dry out and the skin cracks, wash my hands until my cuticles break apart. He buys me a medium fry from McDonald's, and when I use my hand sanitizer, he doesn't even look at me twice. He stretches his hand out and asks for some. When I don't eat the piece of the fry that my fingers touched, when I put them on a napkin and ignore how anxious it makes me, both to eat and to waste, he nods towards them and says, "Can I eat that?" 

When my hands start to shake because I forgot to eat before I left the house, he drags me to the supermarket. He pays for a chocolate bar, says, "It's better than nothing."

He loves orange and chocolate ice cream. Buys a five litre tub and pays £5 to share with all of us. Ten people. He ends up eating most of it, because no one wanted more than a spoonful or two. I am supposed to go vegan, but I eat some anyway.

He walks around with a lizard made out of fabric and sand in his pocket. Says it's there to keep him company. There's a homeless man at McDonald's. He gives the man the sand filled lizard, and says, "Keep it. So you won't be alone anymore."

I'm angry with my mum. She's left me and my older brother alone again. There's no food in the house and I've eaten pasta with frozen peas and ketchup for three days in a row and I'm angry. I feel neglected and alone. He offers me cigarettes, and acts like a drain in which I can pour all of my problems. He says my feelings are valid, says that love doesn't cancel out the neglect. He puts on some music and makes me laugh.

He never says hello. He says, "Good morning." He never says goodbye. He says, "Good luck."

I'm homeless. Well, not quite. I live in the spare room in my grandma's house, young with no money other than the weekly allowance that I spend on cigarettes. He lets me stay at his house for five days, lets me roll cigarettes with loose tobacco because I can't afford another packet this week. He says, "Do you want to start a business? Two pounds per packet. You get a pound if you help me roll." It sounds borderline illegal, but it's just cigarettes, isn't it? I nod. 

He owns an ATV. It's started snowing but the air is still warm enough that it doesn't lay as a loose powder over the streets, but packs together. The perfect texture for sledding. He ties a sled to the back of his ATV, gives me a helmet. I sit on the sled, he drives. It's the best thing I've ever done in my entire life.

I'm struggling in school. He says that he'll hopefully get a job in another town. The town where I want to go to highschool. He says he'll get a flat, says that maybe we should move in together. One room each, I can cook and do the dishes, and he'll clean and do laundry. He helps me with my homework. He helps me see the end of studying, and gives me something to work towards. A home with my best friend, a school I'll enjoy.

My body doesn't feel like my own. My head says he and him, my body says otherwise. He's the same. My body feels wrong and I want to crawl out of my skin. He knows exactly how it feels. I haven't showered in a week. He tells me to try to shower with the lights off. I don't smell sweaty and my hair isn't greasy anymore.

He loves orange juice. If he could, he'd probably stop eating and only live of off orange juice. I buy him a litre for his birthday, and he grins and laughs. Empty cartons stands around his room, and his fridge is filled with it. I don't like orange juice, but I like apple juice. So I buy the same brand, different fruit. 

He likes to sew his own clothes. Scrap bits of fabric, floss and some free time, and he's patched up a pair of trousers that he decorates with more patches, writes on them, sticks chains and random items onto them. I've never seen anyone sew with floss before, but he does.

He loves dogs. Walks around with dog treats in his pocket in case he runs into a good boy or girl to love for a few moments. 

He loves punk. Listens to it loudly on a Bluetooth speaker and screams along. He dances. I dance and I scream with him and I don't care who watches. When we listen to our song, we stand face to face, jump forward and backwards and scream the lyrics in our faces until we can't breathe. I hear the intro and I slap my thighs in excitement, stand up immediately. "It's our song! Come on!"

I love to ride the bike. He does too. We ride our bikes all over town, listen to our music and feel the wind hit our faces. Mine is pink and purple. Because it's not mine, it's my sister's. His is red, rusty and old. It's his mother's. 

He wears his hair in a mohawk. It's either blue or black, standing straight up, tall and stiff. My hair is green but still boring. He helps me comb it up to liberty spikes. We wear patched trousers with loud chains and soda caps that hit against one another with the tell-tale metallic jangle. People stare and take photos when they think we can't see. We stand up taller, laugh louder.

He feels alone. He's sad, and angry, and alone. It's my turn to act like the drain. So he talks and talks, smokes cigarette after cigarette and I nod as he speaks. Smoke my own cigarette and says that he's valid. What he's feeling is valid.

I move into a group home. My ceiling lamp hangs too low and I'm only 5"4 yet I bump my head against it. He helps me hang it up properly. Jokes and talks about nothing and everything as he hoists it up until I don't bump my head against it anymore.

We make chocolate truffles. Butter and oats and sugar and cocoa powder. A Swedish thing. We cover them in more chocolate and they taste better than anything we've made before.

He hates Christmas. But he buys battery driven fairy lights and sticks them into his mohawk, down to his trousers. He walks around like a goddamn Christmas tree. Because he hates Christmas but other people love it and he wants to make them happy.

He's drunk. It's Christmas Eve and he's so drunk that he has to hold onto the wall to stand upright. I'm on the balcony and he's on the ground and he looks up at me. "I'm so happy," he tells me. "Kevin, I'm so happy. I always want to be like this." I tell him to go home, drink some water and to sleep it off. He goes.

It's New Year's Eve and I'm at my girlfriend's. We drink non-alcoholic wine and cider, kiss when the clock strikes twelve. We're both tired and we go to bed before one in the morning. He calls me, he says that we're going to start a band. Our friend's new partner has a studio and it's one town over but it's okay because we're moving there anyway. "I love you," he tells me. And I tell him, "I love you too."

Our friend texts me the next day. She asks if I had seen him, if I had heard from him. I tell her no. And I send him a text. I hope you're alive, I write, call me. He never does.

Instead it's our friend, the next day. I've just showered and I'm eating breakfast with my girlfriend and her dad. My phone rings. Our friend. My friend. "Axel's dead," she tells me. "They found him in the attic." I scream. I cry. I tell her no. No, he's not dead. It's not true. She's playing a stupid fucking prank with me, she's lying. But when she says that it's true the third time, I believe her. And I break down.

I cry in the car ride home. I make a promise to myself that I'm going to live for the both of us. For three hours, I cry. I listen to music and audiobooks and nothing works to stop the he's dead, he's dead, he's gone. And I cry some more.

I cry when I wake up the next morning because I don't want to wake up in a world without him. 

I stop eating. I stop drinking. I'm nauseous all the time and the ache in my stomach consumes me and I can't eat anything because I am terrified of throwing up.

I cry so much that after three days, I get skin rashes by my eyes from scrubbing my eyes too much. Crying hurts but not crying hurts more. Every breath I take rattles and shakes and I only leave my bedroom to smoke. The staff at the group home tells me to let some light in. I pull my duvet up to my nose.

Axel means shoulder in Swedish. Every time he met someone new, he said, "Hi, my name is Axel and I'm always by your side." He never said that to me. And he never said goodbye, he said "Good luck." 

I get a tattoo. It says good luck on my wrist in his hand writing. And he remains by my side.

[atrainernamedradish]

This is another list I have been meaning to do for a while. Glad I waited to do this one as well because this would also differ slightly due to Generation 8 being a thing. I’d like to make it clear that this is my personal list on the off-chance that anyone’s favorites might be on this list. Also, I’d like to add that I won’t be putting Pokemon on this list who have shinies that you can barely tell a change in since that has been overdone on various lists way before mine. So without further ado…

Top 10 Least Favorite Shiny Pokemon:

10) Appletun 

...really? Did we really have to go with the obvious green apple color scheme in place of the red? It wouldn’t have been so bad if, oh I dunno, the Pokemon’s body was already green! *sighs* If you’re going to change the apple to a color similar to the body then at least change the body’s! Or maybe not go with that color for the apple? I just hate how boring this shiny is as well as how all that green just sort of blends in.

9) Chandelure

What happened with this shiny? It went from this cool ghostly color scheme to… these awful warm colors. Don’t get me wrong. I LIKE warm colors, but this was just a little much. I think they should have gone with a blue or maybe a red instead of the orange so it didn’t look as silly? Also not a fan of how it’s little face/body becomes this sickly pastel green, like why? Also, I just noticed that it’s “metal bits” are actually different as well. Never noticed that… 

8) Guzzlord

My biggest issue with this shiny is the fact that you can barely see its eyes on its stark white body. The eyes are that same bright “Tron” blue which doesn’t work well with how brightly white the body is so you kind of lose it, or in my case if you can see the eyes, hurts my own eyes trying to get a good look at it. I’m also not fond of that dark orange they put in place of the yellow (and for the record I like orange before anyone says otherwise). It’s just a messy color scheme on an already messy Pokemon design. I just don’t like it.

7) Politoed 

...what were they thinking with these dark and bright cotton candy colors? Don’t get me wrong, y’all, I like cotton candy colors, but only if they are pastel shades. Not this bright shit! If they just lightened the colors I’d think I’d like this shiny more.

6) Krookodile

I don’t hate the colors on this shiny, they just don’t fit this shiny is all. The Pokemon goes from looking cool to downright silly. On the fly I can’t think of what colors would make it look better, but anything else would be better by this point (well maybe except all those ugly sickly greens most of the Generation 1 and 2 Pokemon were given, yuck)...

5) Flaaffy

I know I said I wasn’t doing barely noticeable shinies, but this one has bothered me since I was a kid, and it wouldn’t be right not having it on the list. First of all, I’d like to say that the shiny is a better shade of pink. However, you don’t notice that the pink is different since it is already pink. I also didn’t notice until years ago that the little bulb on its tail does change colors in the shiny.  Overall this shiny is just lazy. You’re telling me that it couldn’t have been, oh I dunno, yellow since its pre-evolution and evolution are those colors in their normal forms? That would have looked nice and fit with how they become pink in their shinies, but nope, we got a slightly new shade of pink and tweaked fluff and a light bulb change, if you even notice the changes. Also, when I noticed the bulb was a different color, I initially thought that was all they changed on the shiny.

4) Solgaleo

Normally out of the Sun & Moon mascots I prefer Solgaleo, but in their shiny forms Lunala is the superior one. Why is that, you may ask? Because it's the blood moon! But what does Solgaleo get? A bright ass sunburn! Why?? He looks so stupid! (I know those two are genderless in game, but in the Pokedex entry it states that Solgaleo is male and Lunala female.) I feel like there were so many other things they could have done with this shiny instead of just painting the entire body a bright ass red! I hate it.

3) Dragonite

For those who have gone through my blog (I’d say following me but if I have followers I’ve never noticed and that’s because I don’t think I’m good enough to have a following, if I’m being honest) or personally know me, know that I am not a big fan of regular Dragonite. So when we got this hideous shiny it just didn’t help its case… Shiny Dratini is so cute with that nice shade of pink and the shade isn’t even that bad on Dragonair after evolving it, but why would I evolve it further to turn such a good color into this horrid one Dragonite has? Green shinies already have a bad reputation for being too bright so why did someone think making it this… dark yet dull was a good idea? ...I guess at least the insides of the wings aren’t such a bad shade of purple. It’s just so ugly and I despise it. 

2) Mismagius

This shiny is absolutely disgusting. Why would you choose these colors?? It looks like the poor thing has been soaking in a swamp or the sewers! They could have gone with any other color. I mean, it has a witch motif, so they couldn’t have gone with black or something equally as dark? I would never want a shiny of this because it’s just horrendous! And it’s pre-evolution shiny is equally suffering. Just bad color choices.

1) Shiinotic

I’ll just come right out and say it: it’s shiny colors are piss yellow and shit brown. You could have gone with an autumn color scheme or, hell even the bright green color scheme since the Shiinotic line is supposed to have some bioluminescence thing going on, but no. They went with the “your plant looks dead” look! I already hate the Pokemon (least favorite fairy type) and then we get this poor excuse for a shiny when I thought we couldn’t do worse colors like Mismagius, but Generation 7 had to prove me wrong. It’s ugly, disgusting, and thanks I hate it.

[szopenhauer]

Have you ever kissed the last person you texted? yes

Are you in a good mood right now? r u serious?...

Is there anyone who you think you deserve an apology from? I won’t get any

Are you talking to anyone right now? my gf online and my mom irl

Did you buy anything today? I didn’t

Were you happy when you woke up this morning? I wasn’t

When was the last time you cried really hard? today, it wasn’t the hardest tho

When did you last hug someone? Who was it? this day as well, parent

How’s life going for you? no comment

Has something someone said today annoyed you? that’s normal Can you hear the crickets chirping at night? sadly not Do you like listening to new music, or just sticking to your favorites? depends on the new song - if it’s good then I like it as much as my old favs

When was the last time you were bitten by a bug? this summer has the worst mosquitos ever Do you have a pair of sunglasses that are worth over $200? I'm not rich, mine aren’t more expensive than 25 PLN  Are you brave when it comes to trying new foods? ...  When was the last time you saw your significant other? weeks ago, not counting video chatting Are you ashamed of your singing voice? I’m aware I have no talent so... Have you ever had a dream where you could understand a foreign language? also animal languages and been talking to plants etc. Do you have anything important to do tomorrow? hospital Are you a fan of retro things? prefer vintage, antiques, shabby - retro is fake but at times there are some good enough pieces as well  Would you be considered to be knowledgeable about World War 2? I mistake WWI for WWII and vice versa If you’re with someone right now, do you think it will last? don’t feed my paranoia Have you heard of the Irish actor Jonathan Rhys Meyers? oooh that’s the one Do you have something to do, that you would rather not do? tomorrow Are you, in any way, feeling hopeless right now? absolutely Do you know who you’re planning to ask to your prom? I wanted to ask my current gf back in the day but my mom didn’t let me and I didn’t go because only me and K. didn’t have a date so we preffered to stay home When was the last time you went shopping? yesterday What’s the limit on how much you would pay for a shirt? 60 PLN but I cry when I pay 30 PLN, luckily I have like 3 shirts that are about 30 PLN Do you like making funny faces in pictures? better to be funny than ugly, right? Is there something you look back on and go “I can’t believe I did that”? regrets Are you good at offering advice? but not following them  What was the last thing to confuse you? confused is my second name  Are you a fan of Keira Knightley? she’s not that good Have you ever resorted to alcohol to make you feel better? it doesn’t make anything better Have you heard about Mel Gibson’s rant/freakout? he was such a good actor, such a shame he’s not a good person  Do you wish your bedroom was bigger? I wish I had my own apartment Have you ever felt like a “new person”? I had my moments that were ruined right after  Do you own any expensive jewelry? I sold the only necklace that was worth something  Has there been someone in your life that just wouldn’t leave you alone? stalkers Do you hate to use public bathrooms? there are way worse things than public bathrooms, even when they’re covered in blood, poop, pee and vomit (but puke is least bearable from all four)

Are there any writing utensils close to you? I packed bunch of them 

What was the last thing that shocked you? brain, remind me what was last... How many other rooms can you currently see into? hall Do you need to take the trash out? done Do you need to clean your room right now? soon Do you need to clean out a litter box right now? my cat’s gone Are these questions reminding you of things you put off to do this survey? there’s washing my head on my list for this evening - nothing more  How many days have you been wearing those clothes? gimme a break!

Can you move your nose? yasss

Have you ever done a craft that you found on Pinterest? sew teddy and a cat from socks for example but I’m not fond of DIY in general Are you content with mystery, or do you wish you knew everything? knowledge is power

What’s one thing that makes your stomach hurt? what doesn’t?... Ever had a living nightmare? my life is a nightmare

Do you think successful people always come with a pack of haters? successful or not - haters are everywhere Do you wish you could be a world traveler? travelling ain’t my hobby Do you wish you could live in another city for a year? Ełk If you had kids, would you take them to Disney World? if I had money and they wanted to go and it wasn’t that far away from home and they were angels and they were old enough... Have you ever stood in line to get a Disney character’s autograph? wouldn’t bother, pics are better How long does it usually take your hair to dry?  so short yet dry slowly Is your Pinterest page cluttered? it’s neat Did you used to name your Barbies? of course Is your life boring? ppl say it is but for me it’s not enough boring if you know what I mean Do you usually feel better around people or alone? alone Is there a broken relationship in your life that you want to fix? tried to fix friendships but it didn’t work out  Do you ever think about Heaven? yup Are you ready for Heaven yet? I will go to hell but I don’t mind dying now if it’s a quick death as I prefer to be gone that an ill burden to myself and others Are you afraid of where you’re going to go? I don’t deserve heaven, I think it would be unfair for me to go wherever, I have love-hate relationship with God Do you feel better now than you did last night? noooo Does your body have any problems with it? my body is 99,99% a problem, it’s made of problems like jigsaw puzzle game Have you taken any huge risks lately? my life is 24/7 at risk - does that count?... Silence or songs? depends  Do you ignore rude people or do you call them out? try to ignore them if possible What color socks do you have on? purple stripes, looks a bit like asexual flag - this realization :o Are you under a blanket right now? am not

How much was your prom dress? What’s the most you’d spend?: I wouldn’t buy anything expensive, dress from a second hand under 30 PLN Are most of your friends single or taken?: my friends were basically always single When you’re taking a survey that has a “Which of your friends is… the nicest? The prettiest? The smartest? Etc.” do you skip over it?: as I have no friends anymore to be honest What salon do you go to for getting your hair done?: I cut them on my own or ask mom for help Do you believe in luck?: I’m unlucky Would you marry someone of a different religion?: that would be hard  Would you convert for them?: nope Worst part about your job?: I don’t have a job and the worst part about it is lack of money and regular UP visits Ever took something out of the lost and found that wasn’t yours?: they tempt me I took some lost/trashed stuff from the street tho Do you delete friends from Facebook if they never talk to you?: that’s me! Do you know anyone who smokes cigars?: my uncle did Ugliest fashion trend at the moment?: according to this - shorts suit, cut outs, sheer/transparent, raffia not a fan of most of vests blue isn’t my fav color but it’s a seasonal thing but shirts shouldn’t be such a huge part of summer in my opinion Do you like glittery nail polishes?: why not

Are you wearing a pink shirt? it’s white with black letters

If you had a baby, would you want to have it at home or in a hospital? hospital I believe

Have you ever had a bad experience with anti-depressants? If so, what? don’t even let me begin this subject...

What makes your room unique? trinkets

Does your past bother you? consequences of it

Do you take risks or play it safe? play it safe and yet...

Are you afraid of running into a certain person in public? more than one person, more than one reason

Do you live in the USA? Poland

Who do you want to meet in Heaven? from those who already died? my brother

Is it raining? slightly

Is your life stressful and exhausting? to me it is too stressful and exhausting 

What is your favorite time of the day? when I sleep, if I sleep that is 

Have you ever known anyone that’s gone missing? nope Do you put your foundation on with a sponge or your hand? I don’t use foundation, yuk Do you have to pee often? ppl told me that I pee often Do you live near a pet store? they closed pet store in my town

Who was the last person other than family to tell you that they love you? my gf How many people have you kissed in the last month? 1 Do you know anyone who writes really well? my gf writes well Does it bug you when people spell color “colour”? not spell but write, it sounds good in British accent but looks horrible on paper

What is the best fanfic you have ever read (lmao) only fanfic I remember reading was that one E.W. and K.K. sent me about Draco and Harry (yaoi)

If you could direct your own TV show/movie, what would it be like? it would be based on my book

One thing you’ve always wished you could do / be good at? be healthy

Post a picture of the weirdest/funniest text conversation you’ve ever had! can’t choose only one, also, sadly,  I don’t have screenies of some of them 

Is there a stranger you would like to meet again? for example - I’d like to see all those ppl that I thought have amazing fashion sense and ask them if I can take photos then I would make a blog about it

Does your school take sports too seriously? all schools do, that’s unfair What does the sound you currently hear remind you of? it’s quiet

Did you eat out anywhere today? nah Where is your purse? my purses are in various places around my room

[writersshock-deactivated]

Nobody ever sends these asks so imma do ‘em all.

lets get personal.

1: 6 of the songs you listen to most?

Um, right now? I really don’t know... Probably Panic! at the Disco’s new Pray for the Wicked album. Eh,,, Dancing’s Not A Crime, Say Amen, High Hopes, Old Fashioned, and then a couple older one’s, maybe Don’t Threaten Me With A Good Time and Miss Jackson.

2: If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

Jeremy. My crush from summer camp. Just to see him again instead of having to wait 10 months (that is if I can afford it when the time comes -- otherwise I may never see him again). So not exactly ‘meeting’, but.... Celebrity-wise, I don’t know. Perhaps Kamala Harris, a California politician.

3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.

“DNA is often too small to obtain reliable results.” (my forensic textbook)

4: What do you think about most?

I dunno... stuff.

5: What does your latest text message from someone else say?

[sleepy face emoji]

6: Do you sleep with or without clothes on?

Usually underwear... it really depends whether or not I’m wearing a shirt.

7: What’s your strangest talent?

I don’t know... I can rap, which isn’t strange per say but it’s weird to me.

8: Girls… (finish the sentence); Boys… (finish the sentence)

Girls are freaking amazing; Boys are freaking amazing too.

9: Ever had a poem or song written about you?

Yes, 2. The negative anon and the positive anon.

10: When is the last time you played the air guitar?

Last night, with my 1 year old sister, to Nirvana.

11: Do you have any strange phobias?

I’m afraid of fire. Like, touching fire or using an oven or working with boiling water.

12: Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?

No, I have never stuck a foreign object up my nose.

13: What’s your religion?

Atheist, but I have a lot of opinions about philosophy and faith.

14: If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?

Going inside. Or ‘playing’ with my brother.

15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

Behind! I love photography! Not photogenic at all though.

16: Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?

Well my favorite band song of all time is Smells Like Teen Spirit by Nirvana, but they’re not my favorite band. I’d have to say Twenty One Pilots or Panic! at the Disco.

17: What was the last lie you told?

‘No, I have never stuck a foreign object up my nose.’

18: Do you believe in karma?

Not as a Universal phenomena. But yeah, what goes around comes around.

19: What does your URL mean?

Um, ‘writersblock’ was taken. Shocking, right? My main, ‘almondivory’ is more interesting. It’s for my best friend Amber and me, Ian. And her shade of foundation is almond. And mine is ivory. So it all worked out.

20: What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?

Greatest weakaness is probably laziness. Greatest strength? Passion.

21: Who is your celebrity crush?

Olivia Wilde, Jennifer Lawrence, Rihanna, Beyonce, Kristen Stewart, Penelope Cruz, and Michelle Pfeiffer are all contenders. Yeah, Tyler Joseph and Brendon Urie too.

22: Have you ever gone skinny dipping?

Not since I was little.

23: How do you vent your anger?

Sulk. Listen to soft emo music.

24: Do you have a collection of anything?

Mental disorders.

25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

Online.

26: Are you happy with the person you’ve become?

Not yet.

27: What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?

I HATE nails on a chalkboard.

28: What’s your biggest “what if”?

‘What if I was rich’? Or ‘what if i was hot’? Or, perhaps, ‘what if i was straight?’

29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

No. And I think there’s a possibility of some form of life from elsewhere in the universe, but not mainstream aliens.

30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.

Saydon. My neighbor in class. He’s looking at me strangely now. On the left, a cheap “wall” (room divisor).

31: Smell the air. What do you smell?

Not much. A hint of coffee.

32: What’s the worst place you have ever been to?

I don’t know... most recently, my brother’s bathroom. It’s supposed to be ‘ours’ but I can’t stand it.

33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast?

EAST COAST

34: Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?

Well, my biological sex is female, even though I am nonbinary. So I’ll go with a male singer (also because there are too many hot girls to choose from) ... Shawn Mendes. Or Tyler Joseph or Brendon Urie.

35: To you, what is the meaning of life?

This is to complicated. It’s not that I don’t have opinions (i have many) but when i talk about this I talk for almost 2 hours and 40 minutes. Yes, I’ve been timed.

36: Define Art.

Creative expression.

37: Do you believe in luck?

Not really? I’m unsure what this means exactly.

38: What’s the weather like right now?

I’m in class, but when I got here it was clear and a little damp.

39: What time is it?

10:41am Tuesday October 30th

40: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?

No. Too young (14). But yes. I was in a bad car crash summer 2017.

41: What was the last book you read?

Textbook: for my forensic anthropology class. Otherwise: Summer Reading by Hilma Wolitzer

42: Do you like the smell of gasoline?

Yes!

43: Do you have any nicknames?

By birth name is Fiona. Only one person in the world is allowed to call me Fifi. Otherwise, Ian, Ean, E.K, and E.L. (@scholarlypidgeot)

44: What was the last film you saw?

Not sure if it was Ocean’s 8 or Dangerous Minds.

45: What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?

Physical? Not sure.

46: Have you ever caught a butterfly?

Yeah, probably, but not for long. I raised caterpillars into butterflies onse.

47: Do you have any obsessions right now?

No, I said, like a liar.

48: What’s your sexual orientation?

Demi-ace.

49: Ever had a rumour spread about you?

Yes. So many.

50: Do you believe in magic?

Not in the way you’re asking.

51: Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?

No, unfortunately. I forgive too easily and I keep going back to the same abusive friendship.

52: What is your astrological sign?

Virgo, I believe. Sept. 16.

53: Do you save money or spend it?

If it’s my own, save up. Somebody’s else? Spend.

54: What’s the last thing you purchased?

2 coffees and a brownie. I’m healthy.

55: Love or lust?

Love.

56: In a relationship?

No.

57: How many relationships have you had?

1 (but liked 3 people).

58: Can you touch your nose with your tongue?

Yes.

59: Where were you yesterday?

Home.

60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?

Yes. A couple of the flowers on my bag are pinkish-purple. My Ziploc bags have blue and pink strips. My jacket is galaxy-patterned and has a little pink in it. Otherwise, no.

61: Are you wearing socks right now?

Yes. Black with white stars, constellations, and cresecent moons. Mid-calf. Warm.

62: What’s your favourite animal?

Dolphin, elephant, owl, cat, or dog.

63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?

I ... don’t have one.

64: Where is your best friend?

About an hour away. She moved at the beginning of the month (had lived literally right across the road, like we could whisper to each other from each other’s yards.

65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr.

@thethew​ @gottaenjoythelittlethingzz​ @blacktwittercomedy​ @badjokesbyjeff​ @writersupportgroup​

66: What is your heritage?

English, Scottish, Polish, German. I am a white boi/girl.

67: What were you doing last night at 12AM?

Sleeping, oddly.

68: What do you think is Satan’s last name?

Never thought about it.

69: Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?

It ... depends on your definition? Think it’s pretty safe to say no.

70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?

No.

71: You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?

Save the fucking dog!

72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?

a) Yes.

b) I honestly have no idea. Probably contact all my friends from summer camp and tell them how much I love them and the camp. And find Jeremy, my summer camp crush, and tell him that I liked him.

c) Yes.

73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love.

Why?! I’d have to say trust. To not be trusted would drive me insane. And not being able to trust anyone would be awful. But love... I mean, I’d be terribly sad without it. :(

74: What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?

Donald MacGillavry by Silly Wizard.

75: What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?

8672 (home)

76: In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?

Trust, support, communication, and understanding.

77: How can I win your heart?

Stab me and remove it in a battle. Other than that? Love me.... <3

78: Can insanity bring on more creativity?

YES

79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?

No idea at all.

80: What size shoes do you wear?

8 or 9 Women’s (US)

81: What would you want to be written on your tombstone?

“Age 117 years, 4 months, and 23 days -- she was happy.”

82: What is your favourite word?

Absolutely no idea. Maybe ‘l’eau’?

83: Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.

Red

84: What is a saying you say a lot?

“?”

85: What’s the last song you listened to?

Homemade Dynamite- REMIX

86: Basic question; what’s your favourite colour/colours?

Bright yellow - Indigo is where they all are.

87: What is your current desktop picture?

88: If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?

I thought about this for a while. Nobody. Because everybody I hate, I’d want them to finally understand why I hate them rather than just exploding. They shouldn’t get to go that easy.

89: What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

What’s the worst lie you ever told?

90: One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?

Scream, throw my pillows at them, knock them all over, lock them in my bedroom, and sleep somewhere else.

91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?

Well it was okra. Absolutely. No idea what power that gives me? The power to cook delicious food with little effort would be cool.

92: You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?

Dancing with Annie in 2015.

93: You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

This thing ... I ... watched. On the internet.

94: You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?

Not into sex. I’m gonna interpret this as ‘making out with’. Hmm... maybe Halsey? Or Brendon Urie (assuming I was instantly a lot older). <3

95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?

Scotland.

96: Do you have any relatives in jail?

Not yet. My brother’s been close several times. Best friend’s cousin is in jail and her dad almost was (cousin for drug offenses and sexually harassing us, dad for verbally and physically abusing her).

97: Have you ever thrown up in the car?

Yes. I remember twice right now. Once when I was 7 or 8 in San Francisco. Once when I was 10 or 11 after eating really greasy Chinese food.

98: Ever been on a plane?

Yes. Maybe about 10-15 times?

99: If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?

“YEET”.

No, seriously, probably, “Right now everybody in the world knows who I am. And that terrifies me. Also, I’m in a library so I have to be quiet. Climate change is real.”

[clarenecessities]

Queerquiggle/Cybunnypoop

Subtitle: This Again

It’s been around two years since the shit hit the proverbial fan, but seeing as the individual in question has since deleted & remade, some of you may not be aware of whom you’re interacting with.

Queerquiggle & queerneopets are the latest installments in a series of urls belonging to one person, hereafter referred to as the original url, cybunnypoop. Other former urls for his neoblog include (but are not limited to): gaygelatin, shewhoneopetswiththee, neobloq, and candypaintbrush.

I should tell you all off the bat that he’s a Trump supporter, a “recovering” transphobe, and extremely Islamophobic, so this post may contain some upsetting information. There are some instances of misogyny, antisemitism, homophobia, and racism, as well. Oh, and ableism. Honestly, pick an -ism.

None of the information in this post should be a repeat of my first post regarding the matter. Warning: this post is even longer.

As before, I’d be remiss if I didn’t lay out my bias: I don’t like him. He’s been downgraded from “nemesis” to “nuisance,” as he’s no longer harassing minors (as far as I’m aware), but we’re never going to be best buddies.

We’ve spoken several times, though never to any resolution, and with each interaction it became increasingly obvious that it was futile. I ultimately blocked him following repeated propositioning and an unwillingness to engage beyond casting any disagreement as bullying and telling the kids to go back to their safe spaces.

Cybunnypoop is now 25 years old, and he hasn’t started anything major in a while. His posts remain fairly unpopular, though whether that’s the result of the quarantine or simple bad content, I couldn’t say. You’re under no obligation to take my word for any of this. Though I’ve provided links and screenshots where I can, what you make of that evidence is up to you.

TRANSPHOBIA

As it so happens, Cybunnypoop has recently tried listening to another human being, and has been educated about trans issues in a way that ~100 people on the internet offering resources apparently couldn’t accomplish.

What this means is that Cybunnypoop is now IDing with various names (itself nothing new, pseudonyms are an old hat here), gender identities, and pronouns, depending on the platform. I’m sticking with he/him for this post, as those were the last requested on his neopets blog. His description says shey/shem but unfortunately I have no idea how current that is, and his about says “whatever”–so if I’m misgendering here, I apologize; it is not intentional.

I, Clare, Author of This Post, am cis. So it’s not my place to gatekeep or say whether or not he’s ““really trans””. And, as he has expressly admitted to being transphobic in the past, none of this section is really up for debate. I’m just going to provide the information, including his apologies and the redaction thereof. I don’t know that he truly understands everything he did wrong, but he’s explicitly stated he thinks transphobia is bad, so hey, maybe we can all learn something.

I’m gonna try to keep this chronological, so here we go:

A fun little addition to a post via an anonymous terf, “You are still males, you have male privilege, you KNOW NOTHING & NEEVER [sic] WILL KNOW of our goddamn struggles.“ which Cybunnypoop began with “So much agree!”

When asked about the “trans bathroom debacle,” he stated he was, “just afraid it’ll result in sacrificing handicap-accesible bathrooms.” which is only tangentially transphobic but bears addressing: Why would it ever mean that?

Cybunnypoop has something of a preoccupation with the potential negative impact equity would have upon him, and ableism is a convenient vehicle for this–lord knows this country is appalling in terms of accessibility. However, no proposed version of “trans bathroom”s leads to the dissolution of ADA-compliant spaces. Whether it’s allowing trans people to use the bathroom they identify with, or installing/redesignating gender neutral spaces, it remains an issue of improved accessibility, not diminished. A disabled trans person has as much a right to use a bathroom as an able-bodied one.

When he graduated he was questioned on his political beliefs, specifically how he could support Trump and remaining uneducated about trans issues while claiming to be an LGBT ally–and congratulated on graduating. Rather than answering the questions, or thanking them for the congrats and ignoring the rest, Cybunnypoop declared it “harassment”. This is about the standard for what he deems harassment/bullying: Anything that disagrees with him.

Reposted a quote from Dixon Diaz, the alt right guy you may remember him quoting in several citations from my last post, which read, “Liberal: a person who tells you that you’re a bigot if you’re afraid of having weird men in the ladies room, but becomes traumatized if they see “Trump 2016” written in chalk.“ [sic]

trans people bad, diversity bad, children bad & trauma fake

An ongoing problem with fetishizing trans people, dating back long before his identification as trans, and indeed, during the period in which he was a self-avowed transphobe. (Warning: link contains slur!)

This grew more pronounced as he came to understand what it means to be trans, and zeroed in on transwomen in particular. This is itself a complex issue: When is a kink flattering and when is it dehumanizing? Are immutable adjectives inappropriate to fetishize, or is it positive representation?

Again, as a cis person, it isn’t my place to say–I’m just letting y’all know what he’s said, and you can determine how you feel about it. This post isn’t a thinkpiece on my opinions.

Select quotes from The Apology:

“I was transphobic. I was resistant to that term because I felt it was a misnomer. I was more…trans-ignorant, I felt, than “transphobic.” […] I couldn’t see what I was doing because I was too busy, I felt, being attacked.”

“I had a warped view of trans people, and I was too ignorant and stubborn to acknowledge it–to see it, even.”

“[…] it’s hard not to let a jerk taint your view of a minority, especially when that jerk was your introduction to the minority.“

I’ll be honest, my problem with this apology is in how it’s structured, not in its content. It seems to convey genuine remorse, but focuses the bulk of the message on excuses, including that last point, which… isn’t relatable.

Even this I could forgive (after all, he’s new to apologies) if it had heralded a change in attitude–but nothing changed. He continued on as before, and continued to refuse discussions of other issues (which we’re getting to soon).

Which brings us to The Second Apology:

Posted some day and a half after the first, it opens with the artfully passive aggressive line, “I thought this could be over but it’s obviously going to stick around.” And it’s all downhill from there, folks!

“What do you want? What more can I say? There isn’t anything left to say. Nothing will satisfy some people.”

“I never bullied anyone like some do to me.“

“If you don’t want to believe I am different,[…] then the problem is not mine. In these cases, it is a good idea for you to stop talking about me and lying about me“

Here is a glimpse, perhaps, into what he expected. He was waiting for accolades. Commendation. He’d just apologized–and unlike earlier attempts, it was genuine! I don’t know that he anticipated forgiveness, but the outright rejection of that apology by several individuals drove him almost immediately into a bitter tirade, once again foisting the blame onto the people he had hurt or offended.

Aaaand a redaction of former apologies. Unfortunately there doesn’t seem to be a date on this one, so it may be referring to the older apologies, but its content bears addressing:

“Yeah, I apologised like a year ago […], and they refused it, so I’m done apologizing–not that I even have anything to apologise for.

“I’ll sooner die than acknowledge and apologise for their demented reconstructions of my words.“

Which, if this is about the older apologies–oops!

“I won’t deny I said some things that people found offensive, […] but they just took everything and ran apedoodie with it. It amazes me that, for all they claim to hate me, they have this obsession with everything I do and say.”

This is actually fairly emblematic of my own interactions with Cybunnypoop: Specifically, the characterization of all attention as both positive, and obsessive.

What is it about being held responsible for his actions that leads him to cry wolf? Historically, an unwillingness to debate his political beliefs. Oh, he’ll espouse Trump’s “virtues” for paragraphs and paragraphs, but anyone who criticizes him is obviously a liberal idiot who just loves to hate him, and I’ll bet they say “lame,” right? It’s these assumptions about other people that lead him so often to tilt at windmills, rather than addressing the subject at hand.

RACISM

“Obama spending $21 million to put refugees to work…why not spend that money in the inner cities to put young blacks to work… once again Obama and the Democrats have proved the black community is their who’re [sic] because we always come back to them after they screw us” a quote he posted from a Facebook page I won’t even name, because it’s literally got the N-word in it! But he’s definitely not a racist, right?

Obama being (literally) booted out of office, by a Confederate battle flag, symbol of white supremacy since the 1960s. (There’s been some suggestion it’s in the classic minstrel show style. Though he forwent the traditional depiction of red/pink lips in favor of purple, there remains the possibility that he just can’t draw caricatures).

I’m going to address this post more in the ableism section, but it’s worth noticing how often, and how readily, he uses the word c*lored unprompted. This is not the first occasion.

More lambasting of whitewashing as a concept, sarcastically proposing we paint a black person white and mutilate them to better portray Michael Jackson (whom he refers to as ‘Wacko Jacko’, an ableist and derogatory nickname) apparently under the impression that there are no other black men with vitiligo.

I think it’s important to cover this, as from Cybunnypoop’s posts suggesting we be outraged at the “yellow-washing” of Joan Watson (see my previous post) it’s clear that he has no idea what whitewashing means.

It is not literally painting POC white.

The term whitewashing is derived from cheap white paint of chalked lime, used for a long time to refer to a specific means of censorship, “to gloss over or cover up vices, crimes or scandals or to exonerate by means of a perfunctory investigation or through biased presentation of data”. Simply put, it’s revisionist history, and the methods used to maintain that illusory timeline.

It isn’t difficult to see how the term came to be applied to the representative censorship in Hollywood.

Shared a Facebook graphic, “Black people who were never slaves are fighting white people who were never Nazis over a confederate statue erected by democrats, and why, because democrats can’t stand their own history anymore and somehow it’s Trumps Fault? [sic]“

“Also, you see Blacks everywhere, but they’re still considered a minority.” (He appended some context but frankly it’s even more damning.)

The term “spirit animal” is annoying but not because it’s racist, I guess

ISLAMOPHOBIA

Cybunnypoop’s Islamophobia is tied in pretty heavily with his support of Trump, so I’ll be citing a few of those posts in this section as well.

“Ban seven countries’ worth of ideology which promotes violence against women, LGBT people, animals, and nonworshippers? Sounds good to me!”

The cognitive dissonance of a self-avowed Catholic posting this is… incredible.

“Sorry to inform you, but the terrorists who attacked New York, Boston, Orlando, our embassies, and others weren’t Hindus, Buddhists, Christians, Jews, or atheists. They were Muslims.

“It’s not Hinduism, Buddhism, Christianity, Judaism, or atheism which oppresses women, slaughters animals, kills gays, and calls for the conversion or beheading of nonbelievers. It’s Islam.

“Until the ideology evolves to be as peaceful and tolerant as it claims, it doesn’t belong in America.”

There’s a lot to unpack here. Let’s begin by refuting Trump’s claims that “the vast majority of individuals convicted of terrorism and terrorism-related offenses since 9/11 came here from outside of our country.” Plain old xenophobia, not even in the ballpark of truth. Over the past 15 years, none of the self-described Muslim terrorists committing crime have come from the countries on Trump’s ban list. Zero. The country producing the most successful attacks against the USA is the USA itself.

A basic look at the data further reveals that white supremacist, self-described Christian terrorists actually lead the rate of attack and death toll by about 2:1. Yet, bizarrely, nothing from Cybunnypoop about the ‘violence and intolerance’ of Christianity, or even white supremacy… Who saw that coming?

It speaks to Cybunnypoop’s prejudice that he would believe such a blatantly false piece of information with no investigation or critical thought whatsoever. Although, it may speak more to his unwillingness/inability to use Google. We have had some problems with that in the past. 

“Dear Liberals: [sic] You claim to protect women. You claim to protect LGBT. [sic] You claim to protect animals. You claim to protect people who don’t ascribe to the dominant faith. But you’re protecting a violently misogynistic, homophobic, intolerant ideology which still slaughters animals in the name of their god and beheads people who worship otherwise. What the *** is wrong with you?”

Man, for derailing conversations so often to complain about perfectly valid modal grammar he sure loves breaking the English language.

When asked how he could still support Trump, he replied, “Because he hasn’t actually said or done anything wrong. The only thing with which I disagree was the transgender military ban, and that has been shot down, so it’s hardly relevant.”

Particularly in conjunction with his condemnation of liberals on the basis of not like, banning Islam, this is an explicit endorsement of everything from repealing the Alternative Tax Minimum to his sexual misconduct. Everything, except the one thing that directly affects one of Cybunnypoop’s demographics, was right.

HOMOPHOBIA

“I’m not like others in the LGBT spectrum. [bolding mine]

“I hadn’t cared for gay marriage nor had I especially cared to support the cause. […] I’ll fight for the welfare of the many before I’ll fight for the wishes of the few.”

(Well, historically, no, he won’t). Even without the implication that all the gay people who want to get married are selfish, this ignores the reason behind the push for the legalization of gay marriage: The AIDS crisis. Terminally ill gay men were forcibly evicted from their homes after watching their partners die, horribly, because they couldn’t inherit the lease/property. Their partners’ remains were the custody of parents who often wouldn’t allow the survivor to attend the funeral.

Up until gay marriage was legalized on a federal level, these incidents still occurred. One Indiana woman had to pay over $300,000 in taxes upon the death of her wife, and was told by the funeral home she could not arrange for her wife’s cremation as she was an “unrelated third party,” despite having the power of attorney. This is a significant concern.

“I don’t care for "pride.” I’ve actually started to loathe the undertones of the pride movement. […] is it truly worthy of a month and a gold star? […] I think it’s losing relevancy. Can we really celebrate something that’s no longer legally unique? Can we really have pride for… wait, what is it we’re proud of, anyway? We’re legally equal now; we’re socially equal, for the most part.” [bolding mine]

I don’t know if he forgot the homophobia he’s experienced, or if it just doesn’t matter unless it happened it to him.

“The next time someone asks you why LGBT Pride marches exist or why Gay Pride Month is June tell them ‘A bisexual woman named Brenda Howard thought it should be.’“ -Tom Limoncelli

“Another thing–and the most loathsome part–about the “pride movement” concerns the very word itself. “Pride” …be proud of who you are, and be proud of not caring what others think of you. Fine. Sure. It’s fun to wildly flaunt your differences. But what’s the opposite of “pride”? “Shame.” So, if gays are to have pride, does that mean straights are to have shame?”

So why are we to be entitled to pride–why are we allowed to feel good about ourselves and they are not? […] The majority are not oppressive, and even if they wanted to be, they legally couldn’t. 

Good news guys, homophobia is dead and definitely super illegal.

“(Never mind the fact that pride is a negative, narcissistic trait and one of the Seven Deadly Sins.)” [bolding mine]

(We interrupt this post to bring you his “Antipridist Pride”)

“While it seems most of the LGB world makes their sexuality their entire identity, I leave it as just one facet of many.“ Once again, he’s not like Those Other Gays.

“ I’ll bet I pissed off a lot of gays with this post, but I don’t care, and I’m proud of not caring.“ (proceeds to describe the LGBT community as loud, angry, straight-bashing, etc. for a good paragraph or so, obviously very much caring)

That’s enough of that post, huh? Let’s move on.

“I know that a lot of the LGBT community is hypocritical–and intolerantly, angrily so. They scream about others giving them tolerance and respect while they don’t give others such basic rights.

“If there’s Black Pride, why couldn’t there be Caucasian Pride? Gay Pride, Straight Pride.“

As I broke down in my last post, Caucasian≠white, and was first misapplied by white supremacists and popularized by actual, literal Nazis. He evidently doesn’t care, and claims I “created” it. (I can assure you, I haven’t been alive since 1785).

“Is it me, or are there actually very few good gay celebrities?”

Doesn’t like the term “lesbian” because its “image is too pornified”. As I understand it this is fairly common among those who were raised in more conservative or religious families, so it’s not an issue per se; it just becomes weird in conjunction with his wanting to be called a dyke at one point (though I can’t find the post where he said that explicitly, only ones where he describes himself as such).

Said he’d expected Ted Cruz to be a “gay prostitute” because he gave off untrustworthy vibes.

MISOGYNY

As I’m sure most of you are aware, Cybunnypoop is pro-life. From certain parties, that can be motivated by misinformation rather than misogyny (though certainly the misogyny drives that misinformation). In his case? Well, actually only about 75% misogyny. The other 25% is empathizing with fetuses just until they’re born. Idk if it’s because of his parental situation or his existential dread or what, but we’re not here to psychoanalyze him; we’re here to review.

“It’s a point which I make constantly. It’s not hard to not get pregnant. You have a variety of options. There’s birth control. There’s getting your man snipped […]. And there is one absolutely fool-proof, sperm-proof way: ABSTINENCE. It’s stupidly simple, but there are self-righteous women and men out there who say–if you’ll pardon my pun–screw that. Free sex, rah rah. But if you don’t want to “risk” a baby, don’t do the do. There are plenty more things to do in life.”

Yeah, it may be “stupidly simple” for an “asexual homosexual” but other people do, in fact, get horny. “There’s birth control.” Where? You gonna pay for it? You gonna talk their “man” into getting a vasectomy? Pay for that?

I want you all to keep in mind that this is the same person who waxed poetic about his addiction to porn. And hentai. Which he downloaded in a public library, because he was just that addicted. But if someone (god forbid) “does the do,” and their birth control fails? Well, too bad. You should have been able to control your libido.

When Trump was elected he had the following to say:

“This is a time for healing.” No, this is a time for you to suck it up. You may not have wanted this result, but I and half of the country did. So, instead of bitching and moaning and trying to undo what I and half of the country have been working hard for, you need to shut the fuck up, go to school, work, or volunteer, and stop being an intolerant, selfish, hypocritical asshole.

Frankly this could go in a lot of sections but it’s using bitch pejoratively so…

Honestly there are more instances but I feel like you get the picture and this thing is already absurdly long, so we’re going to move along.

ANTI-SEMITISM

On screenshots of a neoboard discussing the origins of the ichthys symbol (the Jesus fish), Cybunnypoop added, apropos of nothing, “Hey, how about the fact that Christianity was originally illegal while Judaism was lawful, and the early Christians had to hold some Jewish mores so they wouldn’t be arrested and executed? Interesting, isn’t it���” and tagged it “two can play at that game”.

Christians weren’t being persecuted for not being Jewish; they were being persecuted for refusing to participate in state events from which the Jews were exempt via religious tradition. Christians were too new to be considered traditional, and were therefore considered in contempt of the state when they refused to, say, make a sacrifice on behalf of the Emperor. Also, we called each other brother & sister but still got married, and spoke weekly about eating a man alive, so people were kind of concerned.

Also, like, it was an explicitly socialist religion in an empire. That was never going to end well. The “mores” they had to hold were “don’t be anti-fascist” and “stop meeting in secret, we don’t know who you are and it’s freaking us out,” neither of which is explicitly Jewish and neither of which you can blame the Jews for.

Pretty minor, but in a poorly executed attempt to be inclusive, he wished everyone a happy Easter & Passover at the same time, only to be informed that Passover wouldn’t be happening for a month. So more about the assumption that Jews are lesser Christians again than any direct hostility. Perhaps better evidence of his ignorance of Jewish customs/how to hit “search” on Google.

 ABLEISM

Here there be slurs!

Alright. We’re going to begin this with a breakdown of the “lame” issue. Here’s the thing: Cybunnypoop hates it. He compares it (ceaselessly) to the r slur, which he uses liberally in his own defense.

I’m certainly not saying it isn’t a slur, or that you should use it, but to be frank, he’s wrong.

In both severity and time in which it’s been part of the English vernacular, lame is far more akin to other ableist slurs like “dumb,” “stupid,” “moron,” “idiot,”–all words which Cybunnypoop uses on the regular. The closest comparison we have to the r slur would be “cr*ppled”–which Cybunnypoop quotes on the regular.

Dumb is the closest analogue, as those middle three weren’t really popular until the American Eugenics Movement kicked in, but hey. If it bothers him so much, why say any of them?

Simply because, it only bothers him when it affects him directly and is said by his enemy.

For example, no problem whatsoever quoting Trump’s book, Cr*ppled America.

Here he calls someone ableist scum for calling him the r slur, yet here he mocks another’s offense at the term by comparing it to modern medical jargon.

Atheists and Liberals [sic] are “dumb”

“entirely okay” with the R slur

This post, which was also in the racism section, littered with fun slurs and what’s either blatant hypocrisy (see: his regular use of words like dumb/stupid) or one of the most incredible point-dodges I’ve ever seen.

Now we get into a recurring theme, with a recurring character. The problem with most of Cybunnypoop’s legitimate criticisms (e.g. lame is a slur, accessibility is bullshit) is that they’re never even googled, let alone researched, and that they come, 9 times out of 10, at the expense of another minority. Or, through sheer ignorance, one of his own.

“Trans people get [famous trans people]. Gay people get [famous gay people]. Black people get [famous black people]. Who do I get? I get Joe Swanson.”

“While everyone’s battling over how to bend backwards and make others comfortable, I’m just sitting here, cursing out the ungrateful bastards because there are places I can’t even ACCESS. […] And never mind the fact that there is no good disabled representation out there. You know who I get to look up to? Joe frickin’ Swanson. It’s so nice to be a forgotten minority. [bolding his]

Joe Swanson, for those of you who (like me) have no idea who that is, is a character on Family Guy in a wheelchair. This begs the question: Why do you need to shit on other groups and their representation to acknowledge how bad you have it?

There are dozens of famous disabled people I can name off the top of my head. Stephen Hawking, Hellen Keller, Beethoven, Lord Byron, FDR, Frida Kahlo, Sudha Chandran, John Milton–a cursory Google search reveals even more. Saying there are no famous disabled people is a shitty fucking thing to do, both because you’re erasing their accomplishments and you’re depriving other disabled people of that representation by pretending it doesn’t exist. Spreading misinformation so you can complain that everyone else is better off than you specifically is just plain cruel.

“I’m so sick and tired of society catering to race, ethnicity, sexuality, gender, but never giving a thought to people with disabilities. We don’t get a slice of the “diversity” pie.“

Catering to. … Catering to.

“Until our society can grow to acknowledge, accept, and represent the diverse world of disabilities, then we don’t have true equality and diversity.”

Like… he could have just made a post saying this. I mean, we have diversity regardless of equality, but that’s semantics. We don’t have to tear down other minorities to be heard. There’s enough “pie” for everyone.

Society: You should accept everyone regardless of sex, culture, gender, sexuality, race, class, ethnicity, economic status Person: What about disabled people? Society: Huh?

I’m not a big fan of his little infographics, primarily because he uses them exclusively as a platform to strawman himself, but this one in particular is uh, frustrating. If he’s speaking about popular society, very few people accept all the groups he listed, particularly class/economic status. If he’s speaking about our country….

Federal protected classes include: Race, color, religion/creed, national origin/ancestry, sex, age, physical or mental disability, veteran status, genetic information, citizenship. 

It’s the same story.

WHAT YOU CAN DO:

BLOCK HIM. Do not reblog his content. Stop him preemptively from reblogging yours. Do not engage with him. 

If you try to debate him, he will probably call you a bully, and you will probably get some not-so-mysterious anons. You will definitely be unable to reach a resolution. I know of at least one individual who’s attempting to “rehabilitate” him, so I guess we’ll see how that goes? I’d be genuinely delighted.

Reblog this post if you can, to spread the word.

Educate yourself about the issues addressed in this post. If you have questions, my inbox is always open.

I am not infallible, and I will also make mistakes. Please bring these to my attention immediately and they will be addressed.

This is a much less urgent situation than the previous post, as he’s (mostly) stopped harassing people, but you have a right to be aware of whom you’re interacting with. Whether you block him or befriend him or whatever is up to you, and I hope whatever choice you make is the right choice for you.

[nickgerlich]

Put It In Neutral

Every generation has a way of making the previous ones uncomfortable. It’s just the way a cohort expresses itself. It’s not so much that the generation hates its elders and predecessors. It’s just that, in order to define itself and its core values, it has to push boundaries.

Like mine did with music. In retrospect, my late parents deserved medals for putting up with the music of the 60s and 70s. It offended their sensibilities, which tended toward Frank Sinatra, Tony Bennett, Mel Tormé, and Dean Martin. Deep Purple and Black Sabbath made the hair on their arms (and inside their ears) stand straight up.

Never mind the goofy clothing my generation loved, like bell-bottom pants, paisley prints, far-out colors, and such. We looked like we had all gone to Woodstock, although that was physically impossible.

Today, I am finding the shoe is on the other foot, and I occasionally complain about the music these kids listen to today. If hard rock pushed music to new depths of banality, then what is to be said of hip-hop and everything else that passes for melody, harmony, and rhythm?

As an aside, let me also say there is no better way to characterize yourself as a crusty old curmudgeon than to complain about what younger folks are doing. And I am just kidding about their music, even though I cling dearly to mine. These are our defining moments, and as Daniel Levitin said in This Is Your Brain On Music, it is those tunes that were popular during our most formative years (i.e., puberty) that will give us the warm fuzzies decades later.

But now Gen Z is pushing different boundaries with its growing emphasis on gender-neutral clothing. If this one doesn’t rattle some rusty cages, I don’t know what will.

This blurring comes at a time when it is not only acceptable, but maybe even somewhat fashionable, to publicly express yourself as you see fit. The old binary way of making and selling clothes now has a wrinkle it didn’t see coming.

We start putting our young into gender-specific boxes even before their birth, with gender-reveal parties hosted by the proud parents-to-be. No one needs a road map or owner’s manual to know what blue and pink mean. As soon as the baby is born, they are put in frilly dresses or overalls.

And once we are old enough to go shopping, either with our parents or on our own, we quickly figure out the way clothing stores are departmentalized. Guys over here, gals over there. And, in about a 1:4 ratio, I might add.

Cultures have a way of determining what is “right” and “wrong,” what is acceptable and unacceptable. These cultural dictates are really just ideal points, and are arbitrary. They can and will differ between cultures, and they can and will evolve over time.

Our western culture has long allowed for some blurring, but in only one direction. Women could adopt more manly fashions (and often but not always with a feminine twist), but not the other way around. Women today wear pants, but men don’t wear skirts and dresses.

Well, most of the time.

The only problem I see with the current trend toward gender-neutral clothing is that it looks decidedly more masculine than it does feminine, and, as I have seen people comment on Twitter, unless these new lines include some dresses and skirts for everyone to wear, it’s not really as gender-neutral as they might like to say. Oh, and let’s not forget that adult male and female bodies are not at all built the same way.

Still, these new threads (as my generation liked to call clothing) will probably be as jarring to some as the Beatles were to older Americans in the early-1960s. If you want the youth gone wild to dismiss you as a stodgy boomer or graying Gen-Xer, then make sure to complain loudly.

Or just enjoy the show, knowing that your generation pushed boundaries too. Pick your battles wisely, and dress for the occasion. S’all good, man.

Dr “Not Getting Old...Yet” Gerlich

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[thecaffeinebookwarrior]

How to Write a (Healthy) Relationship:  An Illustrated Guide.

@trappedinfairytales asked:

Hi! Let me start by saying this blog is a god send for more than just writing skills, I even turned on your notifications 😂 Anyway, I apologize if you've already done a post like this, but I was wondering if you could do a post with different kinds of healthy relationships? I feel like it would help, because even though I am a bi girl, I've never been in a relationship so sometimes I don't know where to start 🙈 

@magnificentcollectiverebel asked:

Bro bro I'm trying to write a cute lil romance do you have any tips please I didn't realize writing needs so much planning also thank you for all the tips on characters both of my love interests are girls the tips help

Excellent questions! 

Now, there has been a request for me to make a post about LGBTQ characters, so I will talk more exclusively about queer relationships then; sufficed to say this post applies to all types of healthy relationships.  Even though you could say I’m BI-ased on the matter.  (I’ll see myself out.)  

In the meantime, here are my personal rules of thumb for writing a ship-worthy romance. 

1.  Allow opposites to attract (but do it right!)

No, I’m not talking about two characters who have no common ground or core values;  I’m talking about two characters whose traits compliment one another.  

Maybe one’s analytical and the other’s impulse driven.  Maybe one’s a happy ray of sunshine and the other’s a grump.  Maybe one’s an idealist and the other’s a realist.

Do you see pattern here?  Not only do these proposed pairings balance each other out, but their mutually beneficial to each other:  an impulse-driven character will add spontaneity to the life of their analytical partner, while the analytical character will keep the impulsive one from leaping off cliffs;  the happy ray of sunshine will brighten up the life of the grump, while the grump will keep the ray of sunshine aware of life’s problems;  the realist will keep the idealist weighted in reality while the idealist will help them to get off the ground.

Moreover, as each of them has something the other lacks and needs, it creates a natural magnetism between them.  

Just think of it like the old Greek myth, in which mankind was split in two by Zeus and each of them are searching for their other half to become their best selves.  

In terms of writing romance, pretend your two characters are two halves of a greater whole, and allow them to complete each other.

2.  Create chemistry and attraction (but remember that it does not immediately equal love.)

If I had to pinpoint the source of my frustration with the depictions of attraction in literature, particularly YA romantic novels, I would say it roughly narrows down to the fact that the attraction, as it’s depicted, is largely extremely vapid and hollow. 

Two characters that hate each other are not going to have true chemistry or be compatible for a long-term relationship, even if one of them is equipped with excessive depictions of eye-color and can smirk like a champ.

To create true chemistry, the readers have to crave the characters’ interactions;  they have to root for them to get together, not role their eyes when they finally do.

So how do you do this?  Well, first and foremost, there are different and better ways to convey attraction than the tried and true “cerulean orbs” and obnoxious smirks and whatnot.

First and foremost, save strong, sensual language, like “she leaned in close, and I tasted her breath on mine,” “My heart thudded painfully in my chest as I felt her body press against mine,” et cetera for when your characters are actually in an intense situation.  That way, your audience isn’t desensitized to it and are more likely to root for your characters when they finally shack up.

When your characters first meet, keep the language light and playful.  Unless you’re doing a modern, queer reenactment of Romeo and Juliet (which sounds pretty awesome, honestly -- so long as the ending is happier) most people aren’t righting sonnets about people they first meet.

Let your POV character check out her prospective partner if you so desire, but press hold on the purple prose.  

For instance, instead of something like this:

“Long lashes fluttered like the wings of the butterfly over peridot orbs, a faint gold dusting over the graceful slope of her nose.  Red lips as ripe as strawberries glistened in the sun, and a waterfall of gilded hair fell over her slender shoulders.”

Try something more along the lines of this:    

“She had striking green eyes framed with long lashes, a smattering of freckles over the bridge of her nose.  Her hair was a thick mane of unkempt gold, and when she saw me, she smiled.  Her lips were plump and strawberry pink.”

If you’ll notice, both passages convey basically the same thing (i.e. that this narrator finds her prospective gal-pal attractive):  one is just significantly less pretentious than the other, and in my opinion, a lot more readable.

As the story continues, you’ll likely want to build up the tension as the character’s attraction to one another grows.  Maybe your character starts to get butterflies in their stomach whenever their love interest is around, or there’s a tension-filled moment where their skin brushes together.  Maybe they’ve found themselves constantly looking at one another’s lips and mouths.

Keep in mind while developing your characters’ chemistry into something greater that contrary to what most YA novels will teach you, attraction isn’t love.  Finding one another’s meatsuits aesthetically pleasing isn’t reasonable merit for a long-term commitment.  Love, generally speaking, is often just that:  it’s a commitment.  It takes time to cultivate, and it isn’t fun 100% of the time.  But people stick with it anyway, because ideally, the payoff is worth it.

And that’s a good thing.  As an author, you get to build up on your character’s relationship, challenge it, make it stronger.  And that’s a lot of fucking fun.  Plus, you get to write all the cute romantic shit in the times in between.

If you are implying love at first sight (which, sappy bitch I am, I’m a bit of a sucker for) feel free to imply as such, but I’m still inclined to think short, sweet descriptions work best:  “Their eyes met, and for a moment, Ishmael could have sworn the earth had come to a stop while the world kept moving.”  Or perhaps, “Luna looked at Misery for the first time, and knew right away this was the woman she was going to marry.” 

Now keep moving.  Too strong language too fast weighs your story down, keeps the reader from relating to it, and detracts from the satisfaction of when your characters finally end up together.     

3.  Let your characters’ relationship be built on friendship.  

The other day, I got lunch with my best friend and her new girlfriend.  A year or so ago, she’d gotten out of a really toxic relationship that she’d been in since I’d first known her.  

I’d thought she was happy (because at the time, I didn’t have anything else to compare it to) but seeing her with her new girl was like seeing the proverbial sunrise for the first time.  (Pardon the floral language.  Even I’m not totally exempt from purple prose.)

We laughed, we made jokes, we all checked out the hot waitress together.  Overall, it was just like spending time with two close friends -- just, y’know.  They happened to be in a romantic relationship with each other.  And that, let me tell you, makes all the difference in the world.

I’ve said this before, and I’ll say it again:  all the sexual attraction in the world will not make up for the lack of a strong basis of mutual respect, affection, and camaraderie.  

Sorry to burst your bubble, authors of the mainstream publishing world:  even if they kiss in the rain till the cows come home, even if the music swells every time they make contact, even if it’s a love story for the ages, that means your characters actually have to be friends.

So ask yourself these questions:

Do your characters have any shared interests or hobbies?

Do they actively take interest in their partners’ hobbies?

Do they crack each other up, tell each other jokes?  Exchange playful jibes that aren’t pointed or hurtful?

Do they do the above more than they fight and bicker?

Would both your characters feel comfortable with their partner seeing them at their most comfortable (e.g. stuffing their faces with Nutella and watching bad reality shows)?

If so, would they join in?

If one partner feels hurt, neglected, or insecure, will the other partner take notice and attempt to comfort and reassure them?

Can they confide in each other?

Do they share the same goals, desires, and core values?

If you answered  ‘yes’ to most of these questions, congratulations:  your characters’ romance is more akin to Gomez and Morticia than most YA pairings today.  And believe me, that’s a good thing.

  4.  Make sure your characters are more or less equals.

She’s a ridiculously hot, intelligent, accomplished twenty-something.  He’s a an out-of-shape manchild in his thirties who makes lots of fart jokes and probably has a neck-beard.  

This pairing probably would raise quite a few eyebrows in real life, but it happens so much in movies and TV (particularly comedies) that no one even questions it.  Do I really need to remind you that the entertainment industry is largely male dominated?

This doesn’t always equate to characters being equal in conventional attractiveness:  movies such as Legally Blond and Hairspray, for example, both have adorable pairings featuring lovely plus-sized/chubby women and thinner, more conventionally attractive men.  Tucker and Dale vs. Evil consisted of a satisfying romance between a chubby, kindhearted hillbilly and a thin, conventionally hot girl.  Moreover, they don’t leave anything resembling the bad taste in my mouth that the aforementioned Manchild + Hot Girl trope does.    

But your characters will need to be more-or-less equals in terms of positive attributes.  Even if they differ significantly in conventional attractiveness or status, they’ll probably roughly even in out in terms of intelligence, good manners, kindness, conscientiousness, et cetera.  

It’s also best to avoid blaring power imbalances when writing healthy romances.  I’m inclined to avoid huge age differences (though there are instances where it can be healthy), and definitely avoid huge age differences where one of the characters is underage.    

Basically, if your pairing looks like they could belong in a Woody Allen movie, no dice.  (If you think I’m kidding, just look at his fifty-six-year-old self with a nineteen-year-old love interest in Husbands and Wives.)

Differences in wealth and status are also generally be okay, but be conscientious that they can easily become abusive if one person misuses their power (lookin’ at you, 50 Shades.)    

Last, and certainly not least, your characters will almost definitely need to be equals in terms of three-dimensionality.  No exceptions.    

Which brings me to my final point:

5.  Give your love interest purpose (outside of being a love interest.)

I’ve talked about this before, but why do you think there’s such a huge following for Kirk and Spock’s romance (besides that one episode where Spock gets super horny and the two of them role around in the sand for twenty minutes), when there are droves of female love interests for both?  

Why are Dean and Castiel AO3′s most popular pairing (besides the recurring prevalence of romantic tropes throughout their narrative), when the following for their more canonically established relationships are practically nonexistent?  

What about Holmes and Watson (besides the blaring case of queerbaiting in the BBC version, and the fact that Doyle’s Sherlock was rife with gay subtext), or Steve Rogers and Bucky and Barnes (besides the fact that the writers somehow find the possibility of making Steve a Nazi less offensive than having him love a man)?   

Internalized misogyny and fetishization of MLM by straight women is sometimes a factor.  But considering the popularity of these M/M pairings amongst queer women, I’m inclined to think its simply because these male main characters are simply the most interestingly written in their respective franchises. 

It also works the other way: why do you think everyone hates Kara and Mon El’s romance so much? Because Kara is a wonderfully developed, benevolent character (surrounded with equally developed, benevolent characters who would work much better as love interests, I might add) and Mon El is a callous, entitled jerk who only wants to become a hero to woo his prospective girlfriend. 

This is also why heterosexual pairings with equally well-developed characters have no problem at all finding followings.  Just look at Han and Leia, Mulder and Scully, Booth and Bones, Monica and Chandler -- both characters hold roughly an equal amount of weight in the narrative, so we give a fuck what happens to both of them. 

Healthy, well-balanced WLW romances with happy endings are difficult to find in media, but some of my favorite examples of ship-worthy pairings that fit this criteria are Korra and Asami from Legend of Korra, Willow and Kennedy from Buffy (even though I’ll never forgive them for what they did to Tara), Carol and Susan from Friends, and Alana and Margot from Hannibal.         

And of course, there’s these lovely ladies from Sense 8.

Bottom line is, make sure both your characters are important;  don’t follow the trend of meaningless, forced heterosexual romances in media in which one party could almost invariably be replaced with a sexy lamp or a dildo.

Make the love interest a hero in their own right, and the audience will root for them.

Best of luck, and happy writing!  <3 

[kazuliancosplay-blog]

Evie Frye Masterpost

I’ve had many questions about this costume. Combine that with the fact that I’ve been meaning to get this tumblr page up and running, I finally sat myself down and made a masterpost for my Evie Frye cosplay. It’s about the one year anniversary of when I started making this cosplay, so it’s not a bad time to finally get this thing posted! Let’s get started. 

Materials

Shameless plug here, but I work for JoAnn Fabrics, so I bought all of my materials from my workplace. (The employee discount didn’t hurt.) I’ll link everything I can find while I list it. 

Quilted Faux Leather (1 YD)

Red Twill/Red Faux Suede (reverse side) (3 YD)

Black Vinyl (1 YD)

Leather Trim (10 YD)

Black Patterned Denim (2 YD)

Black Bull Denim (5 YD)

Eyelets (silver)

Rivets (also silver)

Silver D-Rings

Ruffle Elastic Trim (0.5 YD)

Black Faux Leather (0.5 YD)

Silver Jewelry Chain

Floral Applique 

Now that that’s over, let’s start at the inside and work our way out!

Jerkin

Because I honestly don’t know what else to call it. It’s a long, glorified jerkin. 

I wore a store-bought white blouse under my costume, and the black jerkin over that. The pattern I used is Simplicity 1299. 

I created a weird hybrid between coats A and B, using the length of coat A and the back ruffle of coat B, extending it down to create the V-shape that Evie’s back ruffle has. I had to modify it a little so that the front of the coat was shorter than the back, and more open at the front. The whole thing is made of bull denim, and there aren’t any sleeves because I knew I’d be wearing a coat over the top of it. (It was the middle of February but I didn’t want to risk melting??)

I also cut two large triangle shapes that followed the side seams of the coat and pinned back at the center seam. They’re held in place by two rivets with metal prongs, and look...kinda badass? This pattern also has built-in pockets. So there’s that. The hood is also attached to this under layer, because it didn’t work with my collar on the coat. It’s lined in red, and has black floral applique all along the left side of the head. (pictures farther down.) 

Belts

Let’s talk about belts for a second. Belts are...yikes. I’m gonna be honest with you guys, I didn’t finish all of my belts in time to wear this thing for Katsucon. Evie has one belt with a classic Victorian buckle that I just couldn’t get to work for me. I tried to carve it out of clay, but it wasn’t looking very good with the paint on it. I ended up trashing it before the con and hoping no one would call me out on it (no one did, thank god, since no one cares as much as my dumb ass about that stuff). I did get the other belt done though, and I like how it looks! I’m no leather worker, so I made it out of my leftover bull denim, and it’s super comfortable. 

I forgot to include belt buckles in my materials list. Eh. 

I made the woman’s belt in the picture. It’s a wide belt with double buckles that I layered over a simple red sash (because what is an Assassin’s Creed character without one?) made from the red suede I used on the coat. (More on that later.)

Tying a knot in my sash would cause unnecessary bulk under my coat. I made it to fit my measurements and attached it with velcro instead. 

Coat

Oooooh boy, here we go. The pièce de resistance. This coat took me four months to make, and weighs in at almost five pounds. I kinda hate myself.

The first thing I did. THE FIRST THING. Was to make a mockup of the top part of the coat. I used McCall’s 7456 and modified it so the zipper was centered. Mostly, I was interested in the princess seams and the huge collar. I made this thing, tried it on, drew all over it in sharpie, tried it on again, drew on it some more, made lines showing where to cut and extend pieces, sketched out details, and finally labeled everything with cutting directions before cutting it along the lines into my new pattern. 

Neat. 

Here’s a color-coded guide to which fabrics went where on this costume. I spent like twenty minutes making this thing. You’re welcome. 

Key: 

Teal - Black bull denim

Purple - Faux leather

Pink - Black patterned denim

Green - maroon faux suede

The top part of the coat was the toughest part for me. Getting the pattern to look like the character but also fit correctly is a challenge and a half. I recommend studying this costume thoroughly before making it, and sketching out what you’re going to be making several times first. I truly think it’s the best way to familiarize yourself with every part of the costume. I looked at this coat for like a month, trying to make sense of it, before I even bought fabric. Through the building process it gave me nightmares. Get familiar with this coat first, kids. Do not make my mistakes. 

I feel like we know each other pretty well by now, so what’s a picture of me in my dorm in pajamas amongst friends? This is where this ridiculous coat started. The collar is faux leather (vinyl) on the underside, and quilted faux leather on the upper side. Evie has these two huge lapels on either side, and her collar is lopsided, so one side of it lines up with the top of her lapel (on the wearer’s right side), and the other is totally separate. The next thing I made were the sleeves. 

First sleeve, done! It’s a long sleeve pattern, cut in half just above the elbow to allow for two different fabrics. The top of the sleeve is denim with a leather accent, and the lower part is actually a stretch faux leather from Yaya Han’s collection. I wanted the sleeves to be comfortable to move around in, so they’re made of a fabric that’s lighter and more flexible. The piece that joins the two halves of the sleeve is a ruffled elastic trim that we sell at JoAnn, which I can’t seem to find online. (Which is a damn shame. Because it’s literally perfect for this.)

Not shown: the pleated trim that goes underneath the elastic ruffle. I forgot about it when making my first sleeve and had to go back and redo it. (I like to suffer I guess.)

Here’s the coat and jerkin layered together on my dress form. At this point, I had added the leather trim over each of the seams on the top of the coat (a horrible and tedious task) and added the next piece of the coat: the long square pieces between the bodice and the coattails. This was pretty easy, so I don’t know how to go about explaining it...I sketched the pattern freehand on my fabric with marking chalk, measuring the hem of my bodice so the length matched the top of the patterned piece. Basically just made sure they’d line up and slapped them together. 

The red was trickier. For the coattails, I used a red faux suede because I really liked the color. The only thing it, Evie’s coat is made of canvas. To keep the color and eliminate the texture of the suede, i simply turned it inside-out and used the reverse side. Everything I made using suede, therefore, had to have two layers so the suede didn’t show on either side. This was actually super helpful in hemming my coat, because I just cut my fabric on the fold and sewed the raw edges into the seam with the fabric above. No hem required! 

Protip (not really) - the red is pleated a little at the top. I tried it several different ways but I liked the look best when I ruffled the fabric along the seam. This gave it some more body as opposed to sewing it on straight. 

Detailing

There are ten eyelets on either side of the open back portion of Evie’s coat. This coat is so ridiculous in part because it opens and the front AND at the back. The back of the coat, however, is laced together like a corset. I used faux leather along the edges to reinforce the fabric, then hammered eyelets through three layers of fabric before threading some leather cording through them. There are five rivets on either side just outside the eyelets, and the lowermost rivets on either side hold the silver back chain in place. The corset lacing loosens a little bit toward the bottom. 

Do you know what time it is now?

If you guessed “time for more rivets,” you are correct.

There are five down the front. Four on the wearer’s left side, one on the wearer’s right side. (See reference picture.) These are also strictly decorative, except for the top one, which I sewed a large snap closure to the back side of. That industrial-sized snap is the only thing that I use to hold my coat closed at the top. I’m a little surprised it works so well, considering the sheer weight of this thing when it’s got the cape and everything equipped. 

This little guy is the real hero. 

Tired of rivets yet? Too bad. We’re adding strips of faux leather to the raw edges of the red coattails, front and back. Nine on each side! 18 on the front, 18 on the back. (Pretty riveting stuff, huh? I’ll see myself out.)

Cape

Uh-uh. Don’t look at me for this one. My cape absolutely sucks. The weight and drape and size are all things I’m really happy with, but I didn’t get my assassin symbol applique on and I don’t have the trim along the bottom. To see how I made what I have of mine, hop on over to ErynMarie’s blog and check out her Evie Frye Cape Tutorial. Pretty sure this thing literally saved my life. 

It’s about one AM here and I’m going to have to post this before I die, but I will continue to update it as I remember things I’ve left out. Until then, happy sewing, assassins!

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for the latest ask meme, I hope you got some time to kill :P 2, 4, 6, 12, 14, 17, 20, 24, 25, 28, 47, 50, 54, 60, 61, 62, 67 (atm and all time), 74, 80, 92, 95, 105, 107, 113, 117, 125, 129, 143, 148, 167 ok have fun :D

Hell yeah I have time to kill thanks anon!

under a readmore bc this is long af

2: What’s your dream pet? (Real or not)

I want a opossum? And a raccoon. And a chain chomp. Chain chomps are adorable I’d totally have one as a pet

4: What was your favorite video game growing up?

Super Paper Mario, it’s still my absolute fave!

6: If you had a warning label, what would yours say?

Doesn’t talk much, thinks way too much.

12: Do you prefer tea, coffee, or cocoa?

TEA. I drink like 2-5 cups a day, currently have five boxes of tea in my room, and 20ish in the kitchen. I lov tea so much.

14: Would you rather be a vampire, elf, or merperson?

Elf. I always liked elves.

17: If you had to change your name, what would you change it to?

Jamie. My current name is Ash (short for Ashley which I hate), I’m p cool with Ash, but I like the name Jamie. There’s a ton of names I use as online handles or for rp’ing, but Jamie’s the most gender neutral one so

20: Do you like space or the ocean more?

Holy shit I love both I love stars and black holes and empty soundless voids but I also love deep and dark an SQUIDS MAN I LOVE SQUIDS i lov them both i wanna explore them both

24: Favorite constellation?

I love them all this is like choosing between my children

25: Favorite star?

again it’s like chosing between kids i love them all equally

28: Do you think global warming is real?

i skipped like every science course i had so

47: What is a sound you really hate?

I cannot stand water being poured into a glass cup. I hate it. I hate it. even the word ‘pour’ grates my nerves

50: Can you do the splits?

nope I have the joints of a 50+ year old

54: What color would you like your hair to be right now?

I dyed mine blue recently so I’m happy with what I got!

60: Do you believe in evolution?

okay so like I was raised super super Christian so my entire life it’s been “EVOLUTION IS EVIL AND A LIE” and like I just got out of a ton of internalized shit like working past all the hateful stuff I grew up with as part of a super religious family, and so I’m still working on bettering myself and am gonna consider my thoughts on evolution/big bang/how life started another time

plus tbh to me it doesnt rlly matter like? i’m here. people i love are here. lifes here. its cool discovering our roots, but the rest of life lies before us, and i wanna focus on that!

61: What makes you unfollow a blog?

any type  of lgbt-phobia, too much sexual content, or if they get into a fandom that has bad memories for me. im still like following blogs from 2012 tho lmao so i don’t unfollow ppl often

62: What makes you follow a blog?

i like their stuff and wanna see more of their stuff

67: Favorite meme:

at the moment it’s ‘i lik the bred’, all time it’s probably this https://vine.co/v/iZ9Ml6iB31q

74: What is one random but interesting fact about yourself?

I have been wearing the same hoodie to sleep every night for the past few years (i wash it like daily so it aint gross, i just love this hoodie). That’s the hoodie I always draw my tinysona in. Another fun fact, the hoodie says NYC but I have never been to New York City

80: Some thing you wish did exist:

Giants

92: A store you hate?

I don’t like places like Ross or TJMaxx or Marshalls bc they seem gross and I always have allergic reactions in them?

95: Do you like to wear camo?

hell naw

105: Do you drink milk?

sometimes yeah, not often tho. i used to drink it all the fucking time as a kid

107: Do you like spiders?

yes they’re my friends

117: What color do you wish the sky was?

i love the sky being pink and blue and gold and black, it’s already so many pretty colors. red and sometimes green or purple or even little patches of white. the sky’s already beautiful i love her

125: Do you believe in a certain magical creature?

all of em yeah, life’s too boring to think that nothing much is out there. i think there’s a lot, we just can’t see it

129: What would you want written on your tombstone?

“Tea you later” as a reference to my love for tea and a foreboding reminder that i am coming back

148: Favorite physical thing about yourself:

its kinda hard to see but one of my eyes is a tad lighter than the other and its rad, like ones more green and the others more brown

167: Do you really care how the universe and world was created?

nope! we’re here and the universe is big and great and that’s all that matters!

[suteshiro]

(1) Do You Sleep With Your Closet Doors Open Or Closed?

Open, kinda? My closet is built into a wall and one of the sides has like, shelves I use often so it’s just open for accesibility

(2) Do You Have Freckles?

Nope! I got nerfed, honestly. I’d look lovely with freckles

(3) Can You Whistle?

Hahaha nope,

(4) Last Song You Listened To.

Night of Fire bc im listening to an eurobeat mix while working on a school assignment skjfvnskjfv last song I Willingly listened to is The Hearse by matt maeson which fucking slaps

(5) What Is Your Favourite Colour?

Probably purple!

(6) Relationship Status.

Single

(7) What Is The Temperature Right Now?

18 celsius/64 fahrenheit. pretty average but for some reason im cold

(8) Did You Wake Up Cranky?

Nope! I woke up feeling wonderfully actually

(9) How Many Followers?

404. Very nice number

(10) Zodiac Sign.

I’m a scorpio and a dragon :3

(11) What Is Your Eye Colour?

Brown!

(12) Take A Vitamin Daily?

I do not, though I used to and might start again, who’s to say

(13) Do You Sing In The Shower?

Not rlly. I shower listening to music and I have a lot of trouble singing along to things im hearing for some reason skfnvskfjb

(14) What Books Are You Reading?

I’m too embarrassed to say publicly which one im reading now skjvnskfjb i kinda wanna read some cute cheesy romance in the nearby future

(15) Grab The Book Nearest To You, Turn To Page 64, Give Me Line 14.

I grabbed the first lotr book and gottt

“Ah,” said Ted, “ you hear them, if you listen. But if I wanted to listen to old lady tales and childish legends, I’d stay home”

(Translated a bit roughly bc my physical books are mostly in spanish

(16) Favourite Anime?

You cant ask me thatt skjfvnklabmksfjb It might be Violet Evergarden? It’s the only anime that’s really made me cry

(17) Last Person You Cried In Front Of?

I think I cried in front of my mom at some point recently while pretending i wasnt crying

(18) Do You Collect Anything?

Notebooks skfnskfsnb I just think they’re neat

(19) What Did You Have For Lunch?

havent Lunched yet, dont scold me

(20) Do You Dance In The Car?

I’m rarely in cars and they’re usually not mine

(21) Favourite Animal?

Coatimundis pretty...... and adorable

(22) Do You Watch The Olympics?

Nope

(23) What Time Do You Usually Go To Bed?

I try to go to bed a bit before midnight but im needy and like talking to my friends so its usually around 2am

(24) Are You Wearing Makeup Right Now?

Nope! I p much never do that

(25) Do You Prefer To Swim In A Pool Or The Ocean?

Both have their pros! I think I tend towards pools bc as a rule they dont rlly have like, annoying consequences

(26) Favourite Tumblr Blog?

@yournewapartment​​ keeps popping up in my dash with good advice and nice stuff and i appreciate it

(27) Bottled Water Or Tap Water?

Bottled waterr the tap water in my building is weird and doesnt seem very safe to drink and by now i hate the taste skjvfnkjn

(28) What Makes You Happy?

My friends, comedy shows, reading good fanfiction, writing fanfiction, drawing my characters, reading about others’ characters, giving gifts, the smell of roses, fairy pokemon, butterflies-

I like being happy

(29) Post A Gif Of What You’re Currently Feeling Right Now.

Im not really a Keeps Gifs That Convey Emotions kinda guy

(30) Do You Study Better With Or Without Music?

Depends a lot skjvfnskfjvn my brain keeps switching

(31) Dogs Or Cats?

Very hard questions,,, I think I tend towards dogs bc they’re like me. Big. Excitable. Needy.

(32) If You Were A Crayon What Colour Would You Be?

Purble.,......

(33) PlayStation Or Xbox.

PlayStation

(34) Would You Swim In The Lake Or Ocean?

I have been in the ocean before and idk how much i liked it but sure id do it again. A lake sounds fun!!

(35) Do You Believe In Magic?

I practice it!

(36) What Colour Shirt Are You Wearing?

Red

(37) Can You Curl Your Tongue?

I’m not sure what exactly this is asking

(38) Do You Save Money Or Spend It?

I like saving money skjfnvksjv I rarely think of things to spend it on

(39) Is There Anything Pink Within 10 Feet Of You?

Ye! There’s a bag I use to keep my chargers in it when im outside. it has flower pictures. very pretty

(40) Do You Have Any Obsessions Right Now?

Love Live,,,,, and now my character Curiosity bc @zuramaru​​ is an angel and running a campaign he’s in and we played yesterday and holy shit theres a lot going on

(41) Have You Ever Caught A Butterfly?

Oh yes!! this one time I was in a place absolutely full of butterflies and I caught one between my cupped hands and it stayed there when I opened them and it was a wonderful experience

(42) Are You Easily Influenced By Other People?

Ya,, I do the fawning thing so I tend to agree with other people by default, lest we have any kind of conflict

(43) Do You Have Strange Dreams?

Oh yes, most of the dreams I remember are. bizarre

(44) Do You Like Going On Airplanes?

Yeah!!! Only done it twice but it was a blast

(45) Name One Movie That Made You Cry.

Inside Out fucking got to me

(46) Peanuts Or Sunflower Seeds?

Peanuts,,, I don’t like sunflower seeds. I mean they’re tasty but. Too much effort for too little reward

(47) If I Handed You A Concert Ticket Right Now, Who Would You Want The Performer To Be?

Uuuuh, FOB probably

(48) Are You A Picky Eater?

Not really, but also yes? I have a few things I absolutely refuse to put in my mouth

(49) Are You A Heavy Sleeper?

Perhaps? I’m not very hard to wake up but I can sleep through a lot of stuff

(50) Do You Fear Thunder / Lightning?

Nah I fucking love it

(51) Do You Like To Read / Write?

Yes!! I think I would actually like to become a writer. Not sure tho

(52) Do You Like Your Music Loud?

Yea but only when I’m really into it. Like, usually I’m listening to stuff and the volume tends to low but then there’s this One song and I turn it up all the way until it’s over

(53) Would You Rather Carve Pumpkins Or Wrap Presents?

Wrap presents, I’ve never carved pumpkins before skjfvnskjfv seems like a hassle and I’d feel bad for not making it look nice

(54) Put Your Music On Shuffle, What Is The First Song That Came Up?

Haven’t you noticed (I’m a star) from Steven Universe

(55) What Season Are You In Right Now? (Weather)

Winterr

(56)What Are You Craving Right Now?

Choclet........

(57) Post A Screenshot Of Your Tumblr Feed.

Here you go!

(58) What Is Your Gender?

Solarian!

(59) Coffee Or Tea?

I’m a tea guy!

(60) Do You Have Any Homework Right Now? If So, What Is It About?

I’m helping translate an entire thing about the way emails work, its a bit of a hassle skjfvnsf

(61) What Is Your Sexuality?

Uuuuh I’ve been questioning but im mlm and also into nb people

(62) Do You Make Your Bed In The Morning?

Yeah! Makes me feel accomplished and sexy

(63) Favourite Pokemon?

SYLVEON SYLVEON SYLVEON

(64) Favourite Social Media?

Absolutely Tumblr. Unless you count Discord as a social media

(65) What’s Your Opinion On Instagram Stories?

I don’t use. Instagram. But sure they’re neat

(66) Do You Get Homesick?

A little. Usually when I travel I’m either at a place I hate or at a place where I don’t have commodities I do have at home skjfnskjfb so I miss my room

(67) Are You A Virgin?

Yup

(68) What Shampoo And Conditioner Are You Using Right Now?

Uuuh I’m using a Head & Shoulders shampoo I believe? WIth no conditioner bc my hair is real short now and conditioner tends to feel weird

(69) If You Were Far From Home And Needed To Sleep For The Night, Would You Choose To Rent A Crappy Motel Room For $60 Or Sleep In Your Car For Free?

Well you see I would choose the crappy motel but 60 bucks seems a bit unattainable so sure, let’s stay in my car

(70) Are Both Of Your Blood Parents Still In Your Life?

Nope, father is Dead

(71)  Whats The Next Movie You Want To See In Theaters?

I’m not interested in anything, honestly

(73) What Is Your Favourite Quote Right Now?

“If I could make days last forever, if words could make wishes come true, I’d save every day like a treasure and then, again, I would spend them with you”

(74) What Eye Colour Do You Find Sexiest?

There’s this like. Really nice honey color

(75) Did You Like Swinging As A Child? Do You Still Get Excited When You See A Swing Set?

I loved swinging! I still do but I’m. Self conscious about my weight and scared of breaking something

(76) What Was The Last Thing You Ate?

Some pastries for breakfast

(77) What Games Do You Have On Your Phone?

20B wives, My sweet angel is a real angel, BitLife, Buriedbornes, Cardinal Quest 2, Crazy 8, Egg Inc, FarmVille 2, Fire Emblem Heroes, Gardenscapes, Get bigger! Mola, Homescapes, Human Resource Machine, Kept Man Life, Love Live, Mermaid Evolution, My Little Star VIP, Piano Tiles 2, Plague Inc, Pocket City, Pokémon GO, Puzzledom, SmithStory, Soul Knight, Tap Knight, Tower Breaker

To be clear quite a few of these stay there completely untouched

(78) Would You Give A Homeless Person CPR If They Were Dying? Why Or Why Not?

What kind of question is this???

I mean I don’t know CPR but if I could yeah???

(79) Been On The Computer For 5 Hours Straight?

… listen,

right now ive only been on my computer for like an hour or two but yeah ive done that,

(80) Stalked Someone On A Social Network?

I don’t think so?

(81) Do You Like Meeting New People?

Yyyyes and no. I’m a bit awkward but I like people

(82) Do You Wear Rings? If You Do, Take A Picture Of Them.

Oh!! I wear this really pretty crown shaped ring but idk where I left it

(83) Do You Sleep With Your Bedroom Door Open Or Closed?

Closed closed closed I haaate when my bedroom door is open

(84) What Are Three Things You Did Today?

Talk with friends, make some tea, read? I haven’t done a lot today skvnskjvn

(85) What Do You Wear To Bed?

Comfy shirt and sweatpants

(86) List All Of Your Different Beauty Products You Have Right Now.

What’s a beauty?

(87) Are You A Day Or Night Person?

uuuh both? hard to answer??

(88) List All Of Your Video Games On Your Phone, Console Etc.

Well, we’ve already clarified what I have on my phone skjfnskjfb

THe only games I know I have on console are Mortal Kombat Armageddon, Devil May Cry 3 special edition, and Okami. Oh! And God of War. I think at least the first and second. Were there more than two?

(89) Tell Me About A Dream That You Had And When It Happened.

Nah

(90) Favourite Soda Drink?

I don’t like fizzy drinks, they make my throat hurt

But Fanta is nice

(91) What Sounds Are Your Favourite?

Melodic voices singing, the rain, absentminded humming, small clicking noises...

(92) Do You Wear Jeans Or Sweats More?

Jeans! I have very few but I’ve grown fond of them. Used to wear yoga pants pretty exclusively before

(93) How Do You Look Right Now?

Gorgeous, of course

Skjvnskfjvn I’m still wearing the clothes I used to sleep

(94) Name Something That Relaxes You.

Ghibli movies

(95) What Tattoo Do You Want?

A star map on my back!

(96) Favourite YouTuber?

Right now I think that’s John Wolfe. But I like quite a few

[the-most-phenomenal-banana]

do ALL of the questions :D

I'm in detention for the next 3 hours so fuck it I guess

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

   -uhhh josie I think? but that was a while ago. I'm a lonely bitch.

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

   -I'm a little outgoing, especially around people i'm comfortable with.

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

   -I really want to see my friend Julie again soon but idk when that'll happen. I also might be doing something with my new friend Bre soon so that'll be fun

4. Are you easy to get along with?

   -I think so but I guess it depends who you are

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

   -you think I actually like anyone?

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

   -anyone (please)

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

   -bitch I hope so but chances are I won't be

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

   -I don't have an opposite gender so fuck you

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

   -depends on the circumstance I guess but 90% of the time it doesn't

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

   -either Aino or Bre I can't really remember

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

   -"tell dad to bring my camera after detention"

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

   (in no speciffic order)    -Bonnie and Clyde by Vance Joy    -Knuckles by Moose Blood    -Kali Ma by Neck Deep    -Even on the Worst Nights by Mixtapes    -Pale Blue Eyes by The Velvet Underground

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

   -yesssss

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

   -Kind of, but in a weird round-about way (send me an ask and I'll explain better)

15. What good thing happened this summer?

   -It's april but I recently got a job writing software so that's good

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

   -maybe?? I think so??

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

   -There fucking better be

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

   -occasionally but he dropped out of school and is moving away soon so we don't talk as much as we used to.

19. Do you like bubble baths?

   -fuck yeah I do

20. Do you like your neighbors?

   -yeah for the most part

21. What are you bad habits?

   -my entire life is a bad habit

22. Where would you like to travel?

   -I'm going to backpack Europe after I graduate and there's a lot of places I want to go, I won't name all of them because it's pretty much the entire continent.

23. Do you have trust issues?

   -yepperz

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

   -bold of you to assume I have a routine

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

   -I'm uncomfortable with even having a body, I'd rather be some sort of celestial spirit, floating around and fucking shit up for all eternity    -also I look like a boy

26. What do you do when you wake up?

   -suffer

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

   -I'm a pale bitch so a little darker would be fucking lovely

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

   -jimmy, josie, maybe some other people idk

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

   -yeah and then we got back together for a few months but we've broken up again since

30. Do you ever want to get married?

   -I think so but not until I can actually get married under my preferred name and gender

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?

   -yep, it's in a bun right now

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

   -Seth Everman and Seth Everman

33. Spell your name with your chin.

   -What does this even mean?????

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

   -I play Wii Sports

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

   -definately would rather live without TV

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

   -yep

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

   -nothing, it's called awkward silence for a reason

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

   -I hate the concept of having an "ideal partner" and then looking for that in someone because chances are you'll never find them and always end up disappointed.

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

   -idk man

40. What do you want to do after high school?

   -I'm going to travel, maybe finish college

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

   -I think everyone has the potential to earn a second chance, but not that they should be given one for no reason

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

   -I'm dissociating

43. Do you smile at strangers?

   -all the time!

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

   -launch me in to the sun

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

   -usually my alarm clock

46. What are you paranoid about?

   -everything

47. Have you ever been high?

   -I'm high right now

48. Have you ever been drunk?

   -yes but I don't like to drink very much

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

   -yep

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

   -I'm wearing a blue/grey hoodie rn

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

   -being cis would be nice

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

   -being cis would be nice

53. Favourite makeup brand?

   -I don't pass well enough to wear makeup

54. Favourite store?

   -You already asked this one

55. Favourite blog?

   -mine

56. Favourite colour?

   -purple

57. Favourite food?

   -a phucking beeschurger

58. Last thing you ate?

   -i'm eating skittles rn

59. First thing you ate this morning?

   -these fucking skittles

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

   -life is a competition and i'm always winning

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

   -I got ISS in freshman year for hacking my school computer

62. Been arrested? For what?

   -no but once I got close bc I was out past curfew and a cop pulled me over

63. Ever been in love?

   -what's that?

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

   -I was at SkyZone with my then gf and when I took her home I walked her to the door and she kissed me right before she went inside

65. Are you hungry right now?

   -I'm always hungry

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

   -I don't have real friends

67. Facebook or Twitter?

   -twitter wtf I"m not 40

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

   -tumblr wtf i'm not straight

69. Are you watching tv right now?

   -yes, i'm watching Round Planet and I totally suggest it

70. Names of your bestfriends?

   -aino, josie, jimmy (?)

71. Craving something? What?

   -imtimacy

72. What colour are your towels?

   -definately not all the same color

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

   -6

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

   -maybe

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

   -only like 5 tbh

75. Favourite animal?

   -Either llamas, polar bears, or dogs

76. What colour is your underwear?

   -currently, pink

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

   -vanilla

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

   -mint chocolate chip

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

   -blue

80. What colour pants?

   -also blue

81. Favourite tv show?

   -stranger things?

82. Favourite movie?

   -I have no idea

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

   -Mean Girls

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

   -Mean Girls wtf do you think I am? a straight man?

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

   -fuck idk

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

   -the boat

87. First person you talked to today?

   -this kid named Jared who's kind of a piece of shit

88. Last person you talked to today?

   -my brother

89. Name a person you hate?

   -myself

90. Name a person you love?

   -Aino (bc I'm talking to her rn)

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

   -myself

92. In a fight with someone?

   -I don't think so

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

   -2 (one for each leg)

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

   -too many

95. Last movie you watched?

   -Seeking a Friend For the End of the World

96. Favourite actress?

   -emmy rossum?

97. Favourite actor?

   -Finn Wolfhard

98. Do you tan a lot?

   -nope

99. Have any pets?

   -I had a dog but she died a few years ago

100. How are you feeling?

   -pretty fucking sad after that last question, thanks a lot

101. Do you type fast?

   -I think, like 80 wpm?

102. Do you regret anything from your past?

   -I regret everything

103. Can you spell well?

   -npoe

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

   -yepperz

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

   -I have them like all the time

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

   -I have and I feel really terrible about it

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

   -Yes

108. What should you be doing?

   -Definately not this

109. Is something irritating you right now?

   -Whoever made me answer 150 fucking questions

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

   -yep

111. Do you have trust issues?

   -why should I tell you that? how can I truest you with that information?

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

   -I literally walked in to school and broke down and started crying in front of all my friends a few weeks ago

113. What was your childhood nickname?

   -ebeigh (pronounced ebay)

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

   -I've been to 27 states and 3 countries

115. Do you play the Wii?

   -I used to but I don't very much anymore

116. Are you listening to music right now?

   -Nope because I'm watching TV

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

   -I fucking love it

118. Do you like Chinese food?

   -Not really

119. Favourite book?

   -Perks of Being a Wallflower

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

   -nope

121. Are you mean?

   -I try my hardest not to be but I've been told I can be unintentionally

122. Is cheating ever okay?

   -fuck no

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

   -aha nope

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

   -I have no idea

125. Do you believe in true love?

   -I think?

126. Are you currently bored?

   -yep

127. What makes you happy?

   -nothing

128. Would you change your name?

   -I plan on it

129. What your zodiac sign?

   -libra

130. Do you like subway?

   -the sandwich shop or the train?

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

   -fuck them

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

   -I already answered this one?? I think it was Aino

133. Favourite lyrics right now?

   -Someday, I hope to make it clear to you that success is not determined by leather-bound books and ink on paper, but rather the passion that I have found out of heartbreak and anger. I know that happiness is stability, but stability is not a desk job, and I refuse to sacrifice my aspirations for an income and security. What the hell is "security"?    -Nineteen by Movements

134. Can you count to one million?

   -i'm not going to

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

   -I told everyone I was straight for the first 14 years of my life

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

   -closed bitch

137. How tall are you?

   -5'5"

138. Curly or Straight hair?

   -a little curly but not much

139. Brunette or Blonde?

   -why are those the only options??

140. Summer or Winter?

   -summer

141. Night or Day?

   -night

142. Favourite month?

   -october bc my birthday and holloweed

143. Are you a vegetarian?

   -fuck no

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

   -dark

145. Tea or Coffee?

   -coffee

146. Was today a good day?

   -I mean it wasn't bad

147. Mars or Snickers?

   -snickers

148. What’s your favourite quote?

   -"No man is an iland, intire of it selfe; every man is a peece of the Continent, a part of the maine; if a clod bee washed away by the Sea, Europe is the lesse, as well as if a Promontorie were, as well as if a Mannor of thy friends or of thine owne were; any mans death diminishes me, because I am involved in Mankinde; And therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; It tolls for thee."  - John Donne

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

   -I mean I can't say I don't

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?

   -"okay, back to the mara"

[pastel-moth]

answer all of them because why not :D

oh dude…

1:Name: answered already but Dina2:Age: almost 163:3 Fears: getting old, failure and losing the people I love4:3 things I love: animals, my friends, and money I guess haha5:4 turns on: I’m asexual but in a romantic way probably a good sense of humor, protectiveness, being taller than me, and their zodiac sign being compatible with mine hahah6:4 turns off: racist/sexist/homophobic people, trying to control me way too much, disloyal people, being rude to your partner7:My best friend: she doesn’t have a tumblr8:Sexual orientation: biromantic asexual9:My best first date: idk if that counts as a date so nothing10:How tall am I: 159-160 cm so a little bit shorter than 5ft 311:What do I miss: my cat12:What time were I born: 17:06 (5pm)13:Favourite color: if black doesn’t count then purple and pink14:Do I have a crush: no tbh15:Favourite quote: there’s a lot but I like “if there is a god he will have to beg for my forgiveness” and  “ My bright is too slight to hold back all my dark”16:Favourite place: an old building that’s sadly being destroyed17:Favourite food: pizza, burgers or ice cream18:Do I use sarcasm: way too much19:What am I listening to right now: Sorority Noise - Using20:First thing I notice in new person: answered21:Shoe size: 36/3722:Eye color: grayish blue23:Hair color: dirty/dark blonde naturally but kinda pink now24:Favourite style of clothing: I usually wear black clothes but I have so many different aesthetics25:Ever done a prank call? yes27:Meaning behind my URL: answered28:Favourite movie: children from Zoo station, perks of being a wallflower, spirited away29:Favourite song: there’s a lot but On Melancholy Hill (forever one of my favs), a few by Brand New and Sorority Noise, MONEY and Me by the 1975, and a few Croatian ones30:Favourite band: Gorillaz and Sorority Noise is a new fave31:How I feel right now: idk kinda empty but for no reason32:Someone I love: my close family33:My current relationship status: single34:My relationship with my parents: it’s better with my mom but in general it’s  much better than it was before35:Favourite holiday: christmas i guess36:Tattoos and piercing i have: I have a failed stick n poke if that counts and have my ears pierced but nothing else sadly37:Tattoos and piercing i want: 

piercings: septum, industrial (which i might get pierced soon) and a few other ones on my ears

tattoos: roses on my shoulders, something with my close friends, a GOOD stick n poke and a lot of other ones I’m not sure about yet38:The reason I joined Tumblr: I was bored39:Do I and my last ex hate each other? no we’re friends but idk if that even counted as a relationship40:Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? sometimes41:Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? no42:When did I last hold hands? idk maybe a few weeks ago43:How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? 15-10 mins44:Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? no45:Where am I right now? at home46:If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? my best friend probably but I’ve never been so drunk I couldn’t stand since it’s usually me taking care of others47:Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? depends48:Do I live with my Mom and Dad? my mom49:Am I excited for anything? my friend’s birthday party50:Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? answered51:How often do I wear a fake smile? from time to time52:When was the last time I hugged someone? yesterday53:What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? answered54:Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? I guess not55:What is something I disliked about today? nothing yet56:If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? answered57:What do I think about most? answered58:What’s my strangest talent? I can curl my tongue in a weird way59:Do I have any strange phobias? not really60:Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? depends61:What was the last lie I told? idk anymore62:Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online? texting63:Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? answered64:Do I believe in magic? not really65:Do I believe in luck? kinda66:What’s the weather like right now? cloudy 67:What was the last book I’ve read? answered68:Do I like the smell of gasoline? idk sometimes i do sometimes i don’t69:Do I have any nicknames? not many since my name is quite short70:What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? a broken collarbone probably71:Do I spend money or save it? save some, spend some72:Can I touch my nose with a tounge? yes73:Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? yes74:Favourite animal? i love all animals, but otters, dogs, cats, and chinchillas 75:What was I doing last night at 12 AM? i was on my phone76:What do I think is Satan’s last name is? i think he doesn’t have one?77:What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? On Melancholy Hill (but it also makes me sad)78:How can you win my heart? just be understanding, funny, loyal and caring79:What would I want to be written on my tombstone? i want to be cremated80:What is my favorite word? ambidextrous81:My top 5 blogs on tumblr answered already but i also like @postxangel even tho i just discovered the blog82:If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? answered83:Do I have any relatives in jail? i don’t know what my dad’s side of the family is up to so idk maybe? haha84:I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? answered85:What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? depends who’s asking86:What is my current desktop picture? a drawing of an owl with “god can’t help you now” written on it87:Had sex? no88:Bought condoms? no but I’ve gotten some as a joke89:Gotten pregnant? no lmao90:Failed a class? no91:Kissed a boy? no92:Kissed a girl? only a peck on the lips93:Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? no94:Had job? i helped out my family with their flower business but i don’t think that counts95:Left the house without my wallet? yes, i usually just take my money96:Bullied someone on the internet? probably, i was stupid97:Had sex in public? no98:Played on a sports team? haha no99:Smoked weed? answered100:Did drugs? answered101:Smoked cigarettes? kinda? but i never smoked a whole cigarette on my own102:Drank alcohol? yes103:Am I a vegetarian/vegan? I was vegetarian for a while but I just love meat104:Been overweight? no105:Been underweight? yes but not extremely106:Been to a wedding? yes107:Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? yes108:Watched TV for 5 hours straight? probably109:Been outside my home country? yes110:Gotten my heart broken? no111:Been to a professional sports game? i don’t think so112:Broken a bone? yes113:Cut myself? ugh yes, when I was younger114:Been to prom? no115:Been in airplane? yes, a few times116:Fly by helicopter? sadly no117:What concerts have I been to? a lot, but the bands aren’t really popular118:Had a crush on someone of the same sex? yes119:Learned another language? yes120:Wore make up? yes121:Lost my virginity before I was 18? no122:Had oral sex? no123:Dyed my hair? yes but with temporary dye124:Voted in a presidential election? no125:Rode in an ambulance? no126:Had a surgery? no127:Met someone famous? no128:Stalked someone on a social network? yes129:Peed outside? yes130:Been fishing? yes131:Helped with charity? i don’t think so but I would like to132:Been rejected by a crush? i don’t approach my crushes so no133:Broken a mirror? no134:What do I want for birthday? 🍁 , makeup and money135:How many kids do I want and what will be their names? i don’t want kids136:Was I named after anyone? no137:Do I like my handwriting? kinda138:What was my favourite toy as a child? i don’t know anymore, probably a stuffed animal139:Favourite Tv Show? American Horror Story140:Where do I want to live when older? answered141:Play any musical instrument? piano a liiiittle bit142:One of my scars, how did I get it? I was about 4 and I tripped and cut open my forehead143:Favourite pizza toping? cheese and ham144:Am I afraid of the dark? depends145:Am I afraid of heights? sometimes146:Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? yes147:Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? yes148:What I’m really bad at: getting things done on time149:What my greatest achievments are: answered150:The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me: that i’m annoying and worthless151:What I’d do if I won in a lottery: give some of the money to my family members, buy myself something nice, buy something for my friends and buy a flat or house for my mom152:What do I like about myself: I like that I’m pale, my eye color, my collarbones and the fact that I can have naturally long nails153:My closest Tumblr friend: I don’t have one (on this tumblr)154:Something I fantasise about: answered155:Any question you’d like? answered