#this might be the most incomprehensible thing ive ever posted im so sorry. but it makes sense to Me and thats what matters

[bumblingest-bee]

moodboards that are nice but have some weird faux-dark academia quote underneath them are the tumblr equivalent of those t-shirts that are cute until you see they have some incredibly unnecessary buzzfeed millennial "i love tacos and sarcasm" style phrase slapped on the back. send tweet

[johannwolfgangvongoethe]

modding/chara building diary

just realized i can just post truly anything. this is sort of ffxiv posting but not really. this is also sort of enstars posting but not really.

this exists so i can look back on it <:) a lot of this probably makes no sense to most people, sorry.

uhh i was kinda into modding ffxiv two years ago. then i stopped because the community around this is full of the most unsympathetic people you will ever meet, and that was honestly just very demotivating. but i play ffxiv regularily and its rather fun and easy to mod. and thats illegal!!! btw!!!! (no one care)

so since enstars has hurt me one too many times and there is no hope for things to get better, i am coping (or not) and grieving terribly by making a seeker catboy who isnt really koga but has all the parts of him that are important to me and that i enjoy.

yeah idk if this is productive either. but its not doing any harm probably. ffxiv as a game has its ups an downs but i find the universe to be very very easy and fun to build around.

idk. im just having fun with it for now.

ive been meaning to make an NA alt and replay some of the early game at least (i started in... 2017? its been so long. man.) and this seems like a perfectly nice vehicle to do so :) and while that happens, i can maybe organically learn about the pretty-much-OC i am trying to build. but out of perfectionist ambitions, i had to mod everything into place first.

i have decided on a name but i ueuuueeehhhhughhhh >publically naming your characters when youre a modder. so i will say "W" for now. basic lore thoughts i knew going into this:

he needs to be a tia because i like catboys and theyre all vaguely gay loner nerds and incredibly hyperfixated on one specific topic

the Warg seeker tribe seems like the obvious and fun pick

i want a monochrome grey colour scheme + Much Teeth

-> game limitations classify those as keeper traits, not seeker traits. but i dont care!!! however that means im using a keeper model for all of this

the character has to be an artist. because the "i need to make art and i wont accept any other way of life" sort of mentality is precious to me due to how unsustainable and stubborn it is

-> i have for now settled on painter because its the type of art i have most connections to. also bc uh love and beast ref ig (I HATE YOU "HIDDEN BEAST"!!!! I HATE YOUUUU!!!!!! but its cute he was a painter for it, isnt it)

his place of origin is most likely the north shroud, esp the bit that got utterly messed up by the calamity, around alder springs. mostly because its an interesting place and warg must exist in the area due to the ixal

this also implies the warg seekers might work in mining these days Or have largely moved their residence. or they split up. i need to re-do coils

to support himself while his art isnt selling yet, i think itd be nice to put him with a tree nursery around gridania that i already thought of for my main ffxiv chara. i just think its funny if theyre ex-coworkers. that is all

-> hes creating incomprehensible symbolism-y shit to me. without people in it. but constantly attempting to redefine and depict humanity without humans. he hates drawing landscapes and portraits but will do so grumpily, if it gets him acknowledged and paid

because i am forever deeply fan of the rkg dynamic, the character must have a muse, which is dead, but which he clings to dearly for inspiration and emotional support. esp bc i dont think the guys that social otherwise.

the drama of him seeing a ghost that is no longer there but real to him is nice.... and honestly even practical. it might just be aetheric residue with a sprinkle of mental illness.

what of the muse? i dont know. a fellow painter, who couldnt follow that passion. obviously they must have met before. i have vague thoughts but nothing im confident enough in yet (i think a duskwight family of heretics could be interesting and dramatic but ehhh) ALSO I DONT THINK THEYRE ACTUALLY DEAD-DEAD LOL but i havent figured the situation out yet

-> you know in star trek tng when Q just randomly shows up to bother picard. thats maybe sort of how id describe whats going on

the muse W sees is a version of a person that is long gone, and cannot return. the actual person behind that might still be out there but they are not the one that left an impact on W. what W sees and passionately interacts with is a phantom that only exists bc his mind allows it to, it is a self-serving vision, at least to a degree. maybe comparable to what fray is.

-> W never actually paints them. he only paints emotions about them. (they were a portrait artist and it makes them rather sad)

which leaves me with a nice to do list i can work on every once in a while, like making the chara, doing sidequests in the north shroud, looking at leve and fish descriptions of that area, doing coils again. to begin with.

anyhow, to the actual modding part. its such a work in progress. but i have made so many small adjustments already.

got an asymmetric face UV base to work on

edited the face mesh, mostly to make the chin more broad and to pull up lower canines

translated the standard miqo'te facial markings into smth more dog-like in appearance, while attempting to keep their canon design somewhat intact

added some basic make up, as well as bit of a gradient

+AN ASHY NOSE. THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING A MIQO'TE CAN HAVE

got rid of the ear skin

replaced ears and tails with a torgal body parts port WHICH THANKFULLY EXISTED ALREADY? THANK YOU RANDO ON XMA

darkened the eyeball to resemble canine eyes more

slightly adjusted the dimensions of some face and body parts, like the nose

got rid of the catboy tear lines. bc on dogs they look unhealthy. now hes not a dog. and they dont look bad on game models. but the association is there. this makes no sense really, it just bothered me personally

-> to do: definitely need stronger thicker brows. look up how that works now after the graphics update. add a bit of skin texture? a bit of freckles/moles? need to find out how to hide hair when a full helmet is equipped. also since the ears are attached to the tail, i need a version of the model that just has the tail, so i can kick the ears if i need to (impossible to explain. but what if he wore a hat)

i made a hair mashup for this because. why not. then i painfully retaught myself how weighting armatures works. bc i hate myself. also made shapekeys, so he can wear hats. but i learned a lot so its ok (crying) (thumbs up)

TBSE download bc what else are you supposed to do

added a gradient to his lower legs and arms too, to match his face, also added some skin details but nothing crazy

started making the hands uglier. this guy touches dirt and paint thinner all day. he must have the ugliest hands in the world. and i love that.

but its not enough. we have to go deeper. i have to make them WORSE STILL!!!!!!!! i wonder if i can just shorten the fingers or if that will mess up animations. hmmm ill have to try

also made a quick chest piece mashup just so hes dressed in smth for now.

-> to do: worse hands. maybe paint on rougher skin? i think it would be cute to add paint he didnt manage to wash off to his hands? hrmmm. also ill need to make custom earrings. there still smth about the hair that i need to fix (augh)

but yeah thats what i got so far. might update later on. i just thought itd be fun to capture my initial thinking process in case this goes somehwhere. i like being creative but im not that huge on drawing tbh. so i do stuff like this and nui clothing to stay sane while also engaging in arts and crafts LOL....

[storywestistrash]

oh god okay i am being enabled

so we have a few notable voice actors and while i cant put names to all of them i can recognize most and point to at least one other thing they were in, even if vaguely. and when i recognize a voice but cant tell from where i become quite distressed. generally i do better with male voices than female ones so sadly my fun facts will be all about dudes

first off some of our vas have certain patterns to the characters they voice. for example theres jacek kopczyński who most notably voices fred jones (scooby doo) and dandelion (the witcher) as well as nearly every single barbie prince ever. the pattern for him is that the characters usually check one of the following boxes: 1. hes a prince or something equivalent-ish 2. hes blond and 3. hes a little or a lot stupid in some sense. fred fills all three (cuz hes the son of the mayor.... i guess...... thats close enough to me), barbie love interests are either all three or at least two, dandelion is two in the games and three in the books. there are some exceptions or at least ones where i have to reach a little for example peter parker would fall into the "a little stupid in some sense" box because despite all his intelligence he is dumb in some ways.

another one with a fun pattern is the previously mentioned grzegorz pawlak who seems to mostly play lawful characters. evil or neutral mostly from what ive noticed at least but im sure there will be some goods on the list too. he also played in scooby doo (mystery inc specifically and he was the evil parrott) AND he also was in skyrim as the ghost of lucien lachance. i love his voice and honestly im probably gonna reblog this post again with a video of it bc i do think he could do a frank. and i am sorry but i might have to use penguins of madagascar footage. OH YEAH ALSO. if i remember correctly he directed and did a whole polish dubbing of some sonic thing almost entirely by himself because i guess he wanted to have his kids or grandkids watch it. i dont have any other explaination for why hed do nearly everything about it by himself

YET ONE MORE fun pattern is jacek bończyk who seems to be operating on a scale from spineless coward to sarcastic dick, and all his characters land somewhere between. he's played shaggy, anders from dragon age awakening, and the smarter lackey from barbie princess and tha pauper

speaking of princess and the pauper, and here i have no fun pattern to bring up, i just want to mention the actor, artur kaczmarski plays the cat wolfie in that one! hes also the voice of nathaniel howe (also dragon age awakening) (i have a favorite game) and, which i joked about endlessly, the polish voice of bob the builder.

as a last one ill mention michał żebrowski who is not strictly a voice actor but he DID voice johnny silverhand recently! and he did it so wonderfully that it is nearly incomprehensible to me. the way he screams and laughs and is just so incredibly energetic and almost violent in his performance is incredible and with all due respect to internet's favorite man, i do think his dubbing is miles ahead of the keanu one. he also played the witcher in the live action series from like the 1990s. i wish i could say "back when he was young and handsome" but he is still quite handsome from some angles i think. true polish hearthrob this one. very normal white man kind of look but you have to cut us some slack

ignore that this is a skyrim video and in polish but this is the polish VA of frank castle in the 1994 show and its the voice frank has in my head always. and i feel a strong need to share that with you guys bc i think it is a good voice

[insanityconflict]

still half awake so this might be almost entirely incomprehensible, but here’s my uhhhh 2bford headcannons??? i guess??? i dunno what to call them this’ll be like telling a wholeass story. is au the fuckin word im so tired im sorry JHSBGKAG

anyways uh if you’ve seen my previous post about this it’ll make a lot more sense but here we go ig

While i love the hell out of 2bhank, i honestly dont believe it’ll work out as a long-term thing unless hank does some big changes to his personality and respect for others. 2b wants to experience what having an actual loving loving and caring partner is like, but he knows he’s not getting anywhere with hank at all. so they break up, which hank is completely fine with, but 2b is left a little devastated and with the belief that he’s just not that important enough for anyone to actually care about.

sanford’s just dealt with the loss of deimos. it’s absolutely devastating, considering that they were probably the closest you’ll ever see anyone these days in nevada, and they were practically inseparable because of their love for each other. deimos dying felt like sanford’s entire world just ended, and he quickly was overcome with depression because he’s unable to accept it all. he swears up and down that no one can replace deimos, which to be fair, no one can replace anyone, but i think he’s more concerned about starting over with someone else for the risk of forgetting deimos existed at all.

this leaves 2b and sanford to have more to confide into when they talk, sharing their experiences and what they wish they had, and they quickly realize there’s much more in common with them then they thought. this sprouted into a lovely friendship, both of them being what the other needed in order to keep pushing on. laugh together, cry together, all your basic cliche lovey shit but it’s much more emotional considering the losses they both went through.

how or when they got together can’t be told for certain. it happened naturally, albeit slowly, but past all the healing and emotional growth, there was obvious that they were getting closer than your average friendship would go. there was no title, there was no “hey wanna be boyfriends”. i mean, how else can i put it? they were there for each other when they needed it the most, and it really paid off.

im sure 2b will remain his introverted, secluded self, but he does perk up a lot once sanford comes into the picture. he starts taking better care of himself, getting a working schedule between his job and time to himself, and he finally gets the affection and love he craved and deserved. sanford on the other hand, while still very upset over deimos, is less affected by it because he’s more focused on 2b now. its almost like he wasnt depressed at all (but that doent mean it just stopped existing, it’s very much still there), and he’s opened up a lot. he’s the more physically affectionate one while 2b sticks to his words, but it works! one wouldn’t have been able to survive without the other, and im honestly VERY surprised no one else has exploredthis concept - at least from what ive seen. i’d write something for it but, yknow, already busy with plenty other things lmao