#this meme both makes me laugh so hard but also 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

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rehab day sixteen

quick update cos my sleeping med are sleeping med-ing (recovery memes cos I took 0 pics today)

(I saved this as a draft 2hrs ago to go find something to reblog between this and my last update but instead booked a tattoo, applied for loans and credit cards to fund secondary treatment (all were rejected) so got back in touch with my old dealer (he’s been released) and found a new ket dealer not too far away from mine😵‍💫🙃 definitely not great choices but I’m sure it’ll be fiiiiine as long as I’m not a dumb ass about it and stick to meetings find a sponsor all that fun stuff)

Three rly big personalities left treatment today (one’s my house sister😭) so it’s gonna feel empty and quiet without them. There’s a rly aggressive/overly sexual man in our group that’s making everyone uncomfortable and has been moved to an all lads house but it’s thrown off the normal calm happy goofy vibe that we had going on in the centre. Me and my crush are still going strong but got an implied telling off from one of the counsellors today about us having an SR (special or sexual relationship) but it’s not even sexual…yet, just lots of flirting.

I’m most definitely abusing my sleeping pills by forcing myself to stay awake and getting a fuzzy spinny head which is almost close to a high - I’ve had three these past two days, only takes one to conk me out entirely. I feel like I’m heading towards a relapse but I also feel like I know how to get back on track with recovery if I do end up there and it won’t be the end of the world as long as I don’t give up recovery entirely or get back into the ‘all day every day’ habit.

Group therapy was bitchy - just all talking about this aggressive guy and one of the girls shared that she’s got beef with someone in the room for talking behind her back but wouldn’t say who or why!!!! so annoying gimme the gossip it’s starting to get boring haha. One of the best people packed their bags and left this morning but was back by the afternoon - I was genuinely chuffed to see him, proud of him for coming back🥰

we weren’t actually in treatment for too long today, we had our “fun” activity which turned out to be mini golf and it was such a laugh. I got a hole in one!!! But still lost overall😄 it’s all about the experience tho right? had iced coffee then went back to the houses (no meeting tonight cos almost everyone wanted to watch the football)

One housemate helped me dye my roots (well overdue) and another cooked us a Pakistani recipe for dinner that he makes for him and his wife back home - it was fucking spicy but rly delicious! Feeling very grateful for this messy bunch, sometimes it’s hard to believe we’re all addicts/alocoholics/both and we’re in here cos our lives were out of control when for the most part there are no issues and we have a good time together. Insane really how different people are when they’re clean.

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good morning, love! have a good week! omg this cat so TT i love him TT 'subs? is this youtube?' no TT tumblr followers here TT 'i dont know what you mean' this is my twitter personality taking charge. like? idk? when i see smn with a user picture talking with a blogger(?) i unintentionally expect this person to make some posts too? part with viserys sounds logical. it wasnt like i completely didnt understand what happened, i had some thought but yeah, its somehow unclear. 'ive watched 3 episodes for doctor who!' but not bc of me! 'i’ll only watch 1 ep' ofc! yes! i absolutely believe you! 'BUT THAT WASNT HIS FAULT' well its HIM who asked for this magic to be done. i appreciate how you like my ideas TT iim flattered TT such an honour TT thanks my love TT i love you TT hugs for my best cutie<з 'MANS ABOUT TO SAY MY QUEEN IN HIS VOWS ON MIC WITH THE SPEAKERS ON MAX' HGHDJFHGJ I LAUGHED SO HARD. YES!! absolutely him youre soso right. ig aemma even would be his evil bestie in in screaming 'yes! slay boy!' while the real queens husband, vissy, is like 'wtf guys! TT daemon ill kill u TT' 'what am i a potato' no never TT youre my beloved catmom, sibling, classmate, the one whos got the other part of our big brain cell TT but yk what i mean. im not a popular person and id even say many people dont like me. i dont have a lot people whod miss me or will get attached to lots of people if i really lived for eternity. 'hug you so tight' aww my love for you makes me want to hug you. youre so sweet TT 'little by little you will see how evil i will be' .... ok well see and after the last part ill tell you if its more evil than the worst ending i made up in my mind after like.. reading the first... and also! itd be so interesting to see vissys I and rhaenyras and everyones reaction to what happened back then. 'aemond be like😵‍💫' ok are we making both brothers suffer? sgfngkjf. i say we (sorry if anything i dont mean it to sound? arrogant? its your fic, im not taking any credits) bc well if you like this idea... no but it must be SO painful to investigate your crushs love story and learn more and more about what you cant have it? esp with how poetic and romantic this story is? 'i hope i dont ACTUALLY WRITE 10 parts' pray for your poor soul bc with what were talking abt it takes even more than 10 parts TT 'WHY ARE YOU MESSAGING ME DURING THOSE LATE-EARLY HOURS' bc i sleep when its actual day.... 'it’s also a meme here' omg what meme? can you tell me its backstory? so cute to be the part of it. and yyyooure cuter my hottie-cutie <з okok ill answer the love letter later and... how do you feel abt some modern aegon? not from this au. im glad youre fine and everythings ok. hope your school wont be too harsh this week either! good luck my lovie! have a nice day and week and all! got some cold kisses from me to not burn in your hell of weather!! love you! take care<з

i ate two ensaymada and now my head hurts help me

ensaymada in question. my grandma gave me two and i ate both but theyre so rich and sweet and i love them but also hate them rn T_T

or maybe its the heat T_T

i went downstairs to get more water i felt the coolness and felt a little better

update im not better

im sorry i can only zoom through this rn

have a good week!

claiming this

omg this cat so TT i love him TT

<3

'subs? is this youtube?' no TT tumblr followers here TT

? im so confused

'i dont know what you mean' this is my twitter personality taking charge. like? idk? when i see smn with a user picture talking with a blogger(?) i unintentionally expect this person to make some posts too?

????? I DONT GET IT HELP its fine you dont have to explain it

part with viserys sounds logical. it wasnt like i completely didnt understand what happened, i had some thought but yeah, its somehow unclear.

<3 im glad its logical

update my head hurt even more so i put this reply off and zoomed through my homework

update update i wanted to vomit but i guess i was hungry and i feel better now that i ate???

'ive watched 3 episodes for doctor who!' but not bc of me!

ASHAHFASF >: lol what do you want me to watch, you didnt even say anything!

'i’ll only watch 1 ep' ofc! yes! i absolutely believe you!

T_T /: i feel like i wont watch it at all my head is dead but i already promised so

'BUT THAT WASNT HIS FAULT' well its HIM who asked for this magic to be done.

AS:FHASFA NO ur so right it is his fault 😞😐 men (derogatory)

i appreciate how you like my ideas TT iim flattered TT such an honour TT thanks my love TT i love you TT hugs for my best cutie<з

'MANS ABOUT TO SAY MY QUEEN IN HIS VOWS ON MIC WITH THE SPEAKERS ON MAX' HGHDJFHGJ I LAUGHED SO HARD.

as you should im hilarious

YES!! absolutely him youre soso right. ig aemma even would be his evil bestie in in screaming 'yes! slay boy!' while the real queens husband, vissy, is like 'wtf guys! TT daemon ill kill u TT'

AEMMA WOULS SO BE HIS SUPPORTIVE BESTIE and viserys would so be a wounded pup about it T_T HAHAHAH

'what am i a potato' no never TT youre my beloved catmom, sibling, classmate, the one whos got the other part of our big brain cell TT

but yk what i mean. im not a popular person and id even say many people dont like me. i dont have a lot people whod miss me or will get attached to lots of people if i really lived for eternity.

does it matter if a lot of people like you anyway? no. no it doesnt. you dont need a lot of people. also i would miss you. i like you. i would be so sad if i knew you were a lonely eternal being

'hug you so tight' aww my love for you makes me want to hug you. youre so sweet TT

'little by little you will see how evil i will be' .... ok well see and after the last part ill tell you if its more evil than the worst ending i made up in my mind after like.. reading the first...

ok then we'll see HAHAA

and also! itd be so interesting to see vissys I and rhaenyras and everyones reaction to what happened back then.

well rhaenyras a baby but i think viserys cos he super superstitious would more likely believe yn quicker compared to his bro. i think aemma would too. and daemon would be like, aw thats so sweet baby girl but theres only one daemon and thats me everyone else is inferior /:

'aemond be like😵‍💫' ok are we making both brothers suffer? sgfngkjf. i say we (sorry if anything i dont mean it to sound? arrogant? its your fic, im not taking any credits)

you can say we. we will make them suffer (:

bc well if you like this idea... no but it must be SO painful to investigate your crushs love story and learn more and more about what you cant have it? esp with how poetic and romantic this story is?

SO REAL YOURE SO REAL FOR THAT and to be honest, i think aegon would take it worse compared to aemond cos aemond would be all sciencey and scholarly about it but aegon would use his feelings and just cry about it omg the start of his alcoholism arc T_T NAUR

'i hope i dont ACTUALLY WRITE 10 parts' pray for your poor soul bc with what were talking abt it takes even more than 10 parts TT

i refuse. i will kill reader if we make it past p5 HAHAHAH

'WHY ARE YOU MESSAGING ME DURING THOSE LATE-EARLY HOURS' bc i sleep when its actual day....

L. ur so L for that BOOOO TOMATO TOMATO 🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅

'it’s also a meme here' omg what meme? can you tell me its backstory? so cute to be the part of it.

well it started with this one celebrity named maine 'manifesting' her husband with a tweet. like before she was famous she tweeted the name of her husband, oh lol i mean fiance, the dudes name is arjo and he;s also a celebrity, so maine was like 'arjo cutie' then years later when she got famous they ended up together and now its like smth you say when you wanna manifest something like... 100% grades cutie, 100000$ cutie, ya feel HAHAHH

and yyyooure cuter my hottie-cutie <з

why thank you <3 ur cuter tho

okok ill answer the love letter later and... how do you feel abt some modern aegon? not from this au.

... im interested .... 👀

im glad youre fine and everythings ok. hope your school wont be too harsh this week either! good luck my lovie! have a nice day and week and all!

YOU TOO MY LOVE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF

got some cold kisses from me to not burn in your hell of weather!! love you!

💀🧊💀🧊💀🧊💀 thank you but its not hell cos i would assume hell has no relief and i eventually get relief so <3 I GOTTA STAY POSITIVE OR ELSE I SUFFER MORE

take care<з

i love you. my head hurts again so i think i might sleep but idk im still digesting T_T i love you bye

xxx